#i prefer to waste my breath on perceived patterns instead

[kaurwreck]

I like it when the fandom engages with Chuuya drinking problematically or Akutagawa smoking despite his lung disease or Fyodor indulging his gambling addiction.

Asagiri can't explore the same, there's a censorship regime in Japan for manga aimed at certain ages. But even if he doesn't care to, fan works should be transformative and exploratory; and fan works that do so while engaging with the source material and its themes like humanity and contradiction and culpability are even more golden for doing so.

The urge to lacquer fiction in performative didactism and aversion to moral turpitude is self cannibalizing.

[leoascendente]

PAC // Your animal totems 🐉

Hi loves, welcome to this new PAC! 😊 This spread is about your animal totems in every element, water, air, earth, fire and spirit, it also have some tips from Shine from the inside oracle to embrace their energy. Any of this can be your soul totem but this spread is more about the totems you have right now or the ones you are more related to at this moment of your life. 💋

Remember that this is a general reading, take only what resonates.

Water: How you deal with feelings and relationships

Air: Your intellect and mindset

Earth: How you deal with your physical body and resources

Fire: Your drive and willpower

Spirit: Your inner essence

Take a deep breath and choose the pile you feel more drawn to. If you feel attracted to more than one pile read them as well, it might hide a message for you there too.🔮

- 🌠 Collective message: Take more time for rest, invest you sleeping routine or give ypuself the time to do relaxing activities. The energies in the spread were beautiful like you really have a beautiful vibe but you might be dealing with a period of changes and that tends to be exhausting. There'sa collective energy of healing and renewal by letting old patterns behind and open up to new horizons outside out comfort zone so be gentle with yourself and practice self care. A witchy tip: dry orange peel and burn it inside your home, this will attract happiness and fortune, also it repels negative energies.

Pile 1 Pile 2

Pile 3 Pile 4

Pile 1:

Welcome pile 1!

Spirit animal -> The Snake

You are an strong willed and determined person, your life haven't been easy and you had to go through deep transformations to be who you are now. You had to learn how to set boundaries and be more self focused, you heart has been wounded many times but you have a resilient spirit and your inner strength has helped you overcome many obstacle. Life can be hard but you are harder and you know it, you are an honest person, maybe brutally honest but at least nobody can say you are a liar, your intuition is very strong, you might read people as if they were open books for you, even you have it easy for reading someone's body language. Your presence migh feel intimidating for some or maybe there's people that envies you for all you have overcome by yourself, you are a brave person who doesn't fear standing up for what you believe is right, for the ones who doesn't have this fighter spirit you can be perceived as threatening, not many people are able to deal with an snake and the ones that do you wrong are going to deal with a dangerous animal. You need to attend your feelings more often and heal your inner wounds, you are capable of seeing the truth behind the facade, your fierceness can be dangerous but your healing abilities can reach anybody's soul. You can be cutthroating when it's needed but you have also a warm and caring soul for the ones you let in, I also see you being very selective about your relationships and the people you allow entering in your life, you prefer quality over quantity and prefer to spend time with yourself than wasting it on people who don't appreaciate you as you really are. I hear something about reputation but the intimidating energy appears again, so perhaps you had to deal with attacks at your reputation in the past by people who doesn't really know you. Always remember that we only see in the others what we have inside and this people doesn't know the battles you've been through they are judging without knowing how you really are, so Babe, get worried if Dalai Lama comes to you to tell you that you are a bad person but never listen "constructive opinions" from someone who has never built anything and are not an example to follow, with that attitude they are confesing their own insecurities instead of saying any truth about yourself and doing that, the only thing they are getting is making you even more powerful.

Water -> The Butterfly

You are an alchemist of emotions, my love! You can turn dirt into gold when it comes to your feelings, you don't let you past determine your present and future, instead ypu are open to change if that involves a happy life for you. The circumstances you had to live in your past were hard enough for you to give up but you refused to do it, instead you took the lessons behind every experience to turn it into wisdom and never repeat that again, and if you do, face the situation with a more healthy attitude. Your feelings are soft and tender, I see you being someone highly sensitive but with rigid boundaries around your feelings you have built over time but not in a bad way, you might felt powerless and vulnerable in your past, feeling other people's sorrows as like they were yours, butterflies are precious creatures but obviously they are vulnerable to predators and you might have been exposed in your past to people that were, deep inside, predators taking advantage of what they could take from you. I see that you are aware of your emotional world or somehow connected to your Divine spark and that helps you deal better with your feelings, anyway I see you strongly protected by ascended masters and the influence they have in your life is transformative in every way, you can't even imagine what your guides are doing for you to transform and evolve into your greatest version. Remember your uniqueness more often because I feel that you haven't fully realized how special you are and how you can shift someone's life just with your magical presence, you might have been judged in your past, that's why you know to never judge anybody without knowing them first, and even knowing them you are able to understand why they act the way they do and honey, that's such a wonderful virtue you own. You have been through a lot of transformative experiences and you have done it greatly, you don't fear change and evolution (very plutonian/scorpio energy but also strong fire energy in this pile) and that will always play at your favor. You are magical 💕

Earth -> The Cat

Omg, please be my friend, I need people like you in my life 😂. You are fierce in every aspect of the word, you have dealt with so many betrayals or sorrows related to others that you've learnt to be loyal to yourself first, you are independent but not dittached. You know where to put your attention and right now you are focused in yourself and your independence, to reach your goals by yourself to when it's done you can look back proud of all you have overcome by yourself and the help of your guides. Again you might be percieved as intimidating, like someone hard to approach or with a very closed circle of friends, you don't allow negative people in your life and you don't care what they think about your rejection anymore, you know what's important and there's where you focus, you have your own style of doing things and probably you don't like to recieve orders or people telling you how to do things. If you are a woman or feel identified as a woman you have a femme fatale vibe that attracts more people than you imagine, the way you move or the clothes you wear, there's something in your appearence that is just captivating for everyone who looks at you. You are a resolutive person, the ones that prefer to try things by themselves first and avoiding asking for help because you know what you are capable of, you might demand a lot from you but it's because you know you can achieve your goals by yourself as you have done until now. Your independence is admirable, I keep hearing in my mind "if I want the stars I get them by myself", anyway be gentle with yourself and ask for help when you need it even uf you don't like the idea.

Air -> The Otter

Omg you are so Divinely guided and protected ☺ Really try to approach to your guides or connect with your spirituality somehow, they are excited about your path and all you are going to achieve in this lifetime. I see you have dealt with the feeling of loneliness but your guides have been always there with you, giving you the answer or the clue to get out of harmful situations. You have such an amazing intellect, I see you are very emotionally intelligent when it comes to your feelings and people's emotions, your intuition and the guidance you recieve from above also helps you to understand people and yourself in a deeper level, like if you could percieve someone's mindset just after a few minutes of conversation. Are you an air mercury?? I feel a highly intellectual energy from you, you might be someone who likes to know more about psychology or astrology to get to understand people better, your energy feels ancient and wise so you might be an old soul or starseed, usually these persons feels like they are out of place since childhood and tools like astrology could be helpful to understand deeper why people act how they do and your own mindset and behavior. Again, you are so supported by the Divine, you can't even imagine how much spiritual company you have right now, I feel mostly ancestors but also an ascended master or an strong deity, improve your connection with them, they will give you the answers you need to keep walking your path.

Fire -> The Elephant

Have you dealt with self confidence issues? My love, never doubt yourself anymore, you are such a magical person with a deep wisdom about the world around you. Your past experiences have made you more wise and aware of what you want and deserve, you have learnt what you needed to learn about your past, you keep healing but with more conscious about your goals and how to achieve it. You are an strategist, you know how to plan your steps to lead you to your goal even if it takes more time to reach it, it doesn't matter, you know where you lead to, maybe even you know your mission in this lifetime. You have aligned with your soul purpose even if you are not sure about what it is, this means that you have learnt your lessons, even broke a karmic cicle that was limitating you, you have turned the wheel of fortune at your favor. Believe in yourself and be confident, the elephant gives slow but steady steps so do the same, you know you have something great to share with the world, a major purpose, you'll have a beautiful and happy life for sure just be patient with yourself 🥰

- How to channel their energies:

• Create a sacred space to find your inner peace

• Step out from your comfort zone, try something different everyday

• Ask for help, that doesn't make you weak

Pile 2:

Welcome pile 2!💜

Spirit animal -> The Swan

You are pure magic my dear pile 2! You are so graceful and beautiful just for being who you are, a precious soul, you just need to appear in a room to be admired. Everything in you feels so ethereal, like you are so good to be true, there's something so especial in you I really hope you are aware of this, you are like a dream come true for the ones who get to know you. You give me very Neptunian vibes, like a mermaid that can enchant the sailors with her sing, your energy feels like living a fairy tale. You have such a creative person with a huge imagination, you might have really good artistic skills, you can be also an empath, we are not even in the water spirit but you energy feels very Pisces with that strong sensivity and the emotional nature. You can recognize your darkest feelings but you don't allow them to rule your life, your essence is compassive and forgiving, loyal to what you love and respecting everybody's boundaries.

Water -> The Bee

You are sweet like honey, babe 🥰. You focus on the good side of things, you know out there in the world there are so many unfairness and cruelty that you look for the complete opposite to find balance and change the dynamic of the world, you don't mind too much about the other's actions, instead you want to be an example of understanding and kindness. You are very emotional with yourself and with others, this is a beautiful trait but always keep in mind that not everyone has your same intentions and you must protect yourself or at least, have a healthy boundaries. I see that you are very grateful with the Divine, your connection with your guides is pretty strong, you are sensitive to the energies around you and probably have psychic gifts since a young age, I recommend you to dig deeper in this side of yourself because you will find very beautiful traits you didn't knew you had hidden within (I hear "the dance of clairvoyants", I'm sure it is a song but I don't know where did I heard that, I think is from Pearl Jam 😅). This optimistic nature helps you attracting happiness even in the darkest times, you are a magnet for happiness and sweetness like honey, the bad thing of honey is that it attracts flies, your sensivity needs to been taken cared of more that you are doing now to prevent attracting bugs to your life. I feel that you try to be gentle with everybody's feelings and in the road you forgot about yours and when you realize is too late and you are energetically drained or the person took some kind of advantage from you, you are so pure and your intentions so good and peaceful but your willingness to help others makes you forget about helping yourself first. Anyway, through all, you always find the light at the end of the tunnel, many times by Divine intervention, you are a lucky person because you attract good things just with your attitude, I see you had to learn some lesson in the hard way but you know how to keep with the positive and learn from the negative to avoid repeating it. I heard something about karmic family patterns you are breaking and how greatly you are doing it, your guides and ancestors want to thank you and congratulate you for your effort and they guarantee you success and happiness as a reward for your hard work.

Earth -> The Stag

Your are gentle and generous with what you have, no matter if it's money, clothes, attention, understanding or whatever you can give to others to makes them feel better, omg you remind me so much of my mum, you are such a pure soul like her, my granddad used to say that my mum was able to break a coin to share the other half with the ones who were in need. I see you are like her, you give all you can to see people happy and like her, you have found out that people are not very grateful, but don't mind about that, you will be always rewarded for the good you share in this world. Honestly... The world needs more people like you, gentle, compassive, caring, generous and worried about other people's needs, you enjoy the smile at someone's face after you helped them and ask for nothing in return. The only bad thing I see here is that you are not too good saving money but money is made for spending it, isn't it? ( from someone with mars in the 2nd house 😅). Keep being the precious and genuine person you are but be gentle with yourself as well, invest in you and what you like, also learn to set healthy boundaries and avoid involving that much in other people's problems.

Air -> The Whale

Are you a channeler?? I really feel that abillity within you. Your mind is able to understand reality in a deeper and wider perspective, you know how wide and mysterious the world is so you let yourself be susprised with every new experience you have. Your mind likes to look for the deeper meaning of everything that happens to you, mostly about your thoughts and mindset, you try to understand how it works. You are open minded and understand that everybody has their own reasons to be the way they are and act the way they do, even if some people act bad torwards other people you are able to see further their facade and see if they are scared, sad, insecure, etc. Somehow your mind is connected to a higher power, you see things and process them like I imagine the ascended masters do, practice any kind of channeling, you have a lot of talent for that ( I'm hearingJeshua that was the real name of Jesus and I have been grabbing my necklace that has on the front side the "Virgen del Carmen" and behind the sacred heart of Jesus so you might have some connection to catholicism even if you don't practice it). Have you ever found yourself in a hard situation where you couldn't see no escape and suddently, from the most unexpected way you get the solution to the problem? Those are your spiritual team giving you the answers to gain willpower and overcome the obstacle by yourself but with their help, they want you to know your inner wisdom and follow it, you have also an amazing intuition, use it at your favor. Approach Jesus, Mother Mary or Mary Magdalene if you are attracted to them, I learnt some time ago that Mother Mary is the courterpart of Archangel Raphael, she is the archangeline of the green ray, this ascended masters can fit with your loving vibe, but keep in mind that I don't see them in catholic or christian perspective, for me are ascended masters so this message can be only for a little amount of people. (Let me know if this makes any sense because I had to write it and I'm not too friendly with abrahamic religions or any religion tbh🤷🏼‍♀️😅)

Fire -> The Sandpiper

You put all your joy in everything you do, you are enthuthiastic about life and the chances it has in store for you, you are curious and adventurous at your own unique way. You really need to put your heart on what you do and feel emotionally fulfilled and connected to your job or you can get bored and fly away from that place or situation. You are very good at team work, mostly being the motivator of other people, something about your attitude makes them remember what's important and stop overthinking, you are the cherry at the top of the cake. I really feel you avoid being "normal" or at least what is supposed to be conventionally normal, you are artistic and creative and you need to express this side of yourself to feel plenty with what you are undertaking, you want something special for your life, even something extraordinary if you can reach it. I hear something related to healing but not for you to make a healing process, is more about you helping others to heal their inner wounds. Maybe you feel called into hollistic therapies or traditional medicine, anything that involves relief of pain. You have a youthful spirit, no matter your age, you will keep that adventurous side of yourself even in your late years, getting surprised and excited by the little miracles that happens everyday everywhere. You have the natural talent of ignite people's souls and fulfill them with joy and optimism.

- How to channel their energies:

• Your soul whispers love, your ego screams fear, choose wisely which one you listen to

• Free yourself from doubts and release any fear, you are capable

• Open up to infinite abundance it is waiting for you

Pile 3

Hi pile 3! enjoy your reading 💖

Spirit animal -> The Peacock

You were made to shine my love! You are magestic and elegant, you catch everybody's eye, the way you speak and the way you walk are just hypnotizing, your essence is bright and warm as the sun, you are stable, grounded and determined about your goals in life, you are very responsible and goal oriented but don't forget to have fun too sometimes 😊. Your energy feels like walking barefoot on a green hill, breathing in pure peace and calm while you approach your desired place knowing that ypu are walking through a peaceful path. In spite of your talent to make other people feel safe just with your presence near them you have also a temper and people know it's better not mess up with you, you know you deserve respect just for being who you are and you demand that respect because you are also respectful with others, you know how to set healthy boundaries but sometimes they can become too thick so other people can't come in easily and can misunderstand your selectiveness with a high ego or a cold personality, you might have an earth lilith in your chart because I feel that when someone dissapoints you you close the door and they can never get in ever again and I don't feel agressivity from you just indiference, but also there's an energy of not needing anything about anyone, instead you choose the people you see they give in return the good and wellness you give to them and choosing instead of needing is the best way to stablish healthy relationships with others and with yourself. You are percieved as someone with so much to offer but you only show that greatness within you to a very close circle, allow yourself more often to enjoy and share your essence to a bigger amount of people, show what you have to offer to everybody and enjoy being admired because you are so full of power, honestly, you were born to be admired for your skills, and deep down (if you are the introverted kind) you know it, you are a natural leader. You have the ability to make people realize of their own talents and how they can make of them something useful for their current life, you are inspiring but not an emotional inspiration like pile 2, is more about taking charge of life and write your own destiny, doesn't matter how hard the circumstances are there's always a solution and you are capable of finding that solution effortlessly.

Water -> The Groundhog

Emotions are not your thing honey, maybe dealing with them can be a little difficult so you prefer to keep them under control before they can control you. Because of not recognizing your feelings you can be dealing with attachments and codependency, mostly with past experiences and how they made you feel. You are such an strong person in every sense of the word but maybe you take more care of the people surrounding you and their needs but not of yourself and that's making you tough not strong, maybe you avoid being vulnerable or don't give the proper importance to your feelings. In emotional terms you need to let go some old limitating beliefs that makes you think you are responsible of other people bussiness, I have told this before in other pacs and I don't want to sound repetitive but hell is full of good intentions, this means that when we, with our best intentions try to solve a problem from another person, we are taking away from them the chance to grow, learn by themselves and develop their own skills, and babe, taking other people's responsabilities as yours also brings bad karma. You can give your wise advice if someone approaches you looking for help but try to keep a healthy distance from the problem and don't get too involved, let other people grow by themselves as well and feel proud of how much good you make for others and of course, for you by sharing your precious energy but being gentle with you as well, be their guide and company when someone needs your help but let them be the ones that transit their own path. This pattern can be more intense with family members or romantic partners (I hear something about a sibling, maybe it's relevant for someone). Avoid holding too tight to the pain of past experiences, work on your attachments and free yourself from them, also try to develop your emotional intelligence to understand your emotional processes better and finding out why you experience certain repetitive situations you could avoid by being more conscious about your feelings. (12:12 on the clock, your guides are stalking me 😅)

Earth -> The Crow

You are a lucky person when it comes to material success, you can turn the little details into a masterpiece and reach wealth with your intelligence and craftiness. You are great managing money and resources, like crows you might be attracted into shiny things ( I saw the image of "fastastic beast and where to find them", you know the creature Newt had in his bag that went crazy with gold and jewelry and always scaped to collect treasures? In spanish is called "escarbato" I don't know the translation 🥲). You have this succesful boss energy, always having a plan with every word in the alphabet and keeping everything under control, you always reach the goal you were looking for with your perseverance and your sttuborness (you remind me of Spencer from Pretty little liars, my favourite of them all btw) . You can be very good at manifestation if you learn how to focus your intentions, try to learn some information about the law attraction and the law of assumption to know how to manage this ability within you and attract what really makes you happy. You have heavy earth energy, mostly Capricorn, you have magic hands to find resources and solutions to overcome any obstacle and keep prospering in life, you'll have it easy for making money and reach wealth, you turn dust into gold babe! (Just played champagne problems by Taylor Swift, the part that says "your Midas touch on a chevy door" while I was writting... I'm like 😳😱 right now). You are so powerful! I hope you know your inner power and embrace it fiercely because you are awesome, my love. The only thing to be aware of is about getting obssesed with winning and other people's intentions torwards you and your material success, you are so creative and resolutive that some might try to plagiarize your work or people that doesn't trust their capabilities could project their inner insecurities over you. Protect your projects and ideas, don't share them with everyone until this goals are manifested in your reality, some could get jealous and throw negativity to you but at least, people trying to plagiarize you only shows how greatly you are doing your work, switch the mindset and see it as some can copy but you still the mastermind, so percieve yourself as an inspiration to others even if some confuse between admiration and envy.

Air -> The Bobcat

You are a realistic person, you prefer facts over fantasies but also there's an spark of faith within you that makes you understand the rythms and cicles of life on the enviroment you are in. You are highly intuitive, like your guts tells you when someone wears a mask or a place is filled by negative energy, you percieve subtle energies from places and people so try to get a tourmaline or something to keep negative energies away. You might have dealt with people that were not honest or clear with you through your life and that made you develop a 6th sense to read between the lines and see the true and harsh face some people hide. For some I feel that you are really dissapointed about the bad that humans are capable to do to other humans and that made you enter in an hermit mode and put very high standars for people you allow in, maybe you have seen this face of humanity too soon in your life and that led you to loose hope in finding people with good intentions torwards you, but babe, there are also great people out there and you deserve to find them, don't think everyone has bad intentions, instead focus on the traits you like and value and look for the people that resonates with you. There are Divine factors working for your wellbeing that are still a mystery for you right now, there are things you are not aware of or are hidden to you at this moment so avoid overthinking and control things around you, let the Universe surprise you. You are good moving between the fog but that is also draining after a while, sometimes the best thing we can do when we are not sure where we are leading to is to slow down and wait until the fog is gone to see the horizon again. Use your wisdom and let your inner Sherlock Holmes dig in your depths to understand yourself better, you have so many beautiful abilities and traits but you are not focusing on the right place, focus on yourself and find within yourself your own answers, specially with your emotions and mindset and the way you handle them

Fire -> The Vulture

The vulture is a magestic totem animal that can give you great wisdom for healing and understanding if you learn more about them, at first they can be a little rejected and misunderatood animals but their mission in nature is important to keep the enviroment healthy and balanced, they don't waste anything, for them everything is useful even what other animals doesn't want. You need to take your past experiences and analize it with a cold perspective, as if you were watching a movie and the main character is living your life, some experiences hide a deep and important lesson behind, other experiences can be used as the fuel to grow and reach success, mostly with unfair past experiences. I know you will look back and at some point you can get angry, sad or disapointed about what you had to been through, I won't tell you that everything happens for a reason because that would be invalidating or not giving the proper importance to your suffer, instead (as someone with very unfair situations in my past too) use that anger and channel it in a healthy way, let the anger or the dark emotion you feel be the fuel to get up and show the world who you really are, so the anger becomes constructive instead of destructive. You can't change the past but you can improve your future, your success and happiness with your life is the best revenge for the ones that did you wrong in the past, look for your personal satisfaction because that's what they wanted to take away from you. You can achieve all of your dreams, so dream big my love, be gentle with people, keep your precious essence and of course, be even more gentle with yourself.

- How to channel their energies:

• Write down your goals to manifest them faster

• Breathe in bliss, exhale bullshit. Take only the important

• Look for the signs and synchronicities around you

Pile 4

Welcome to your reading pile 4 🥰

Spirit Animal -> The Eagle

Such an strong spirit animal, pile 4 😍! You are so protected by the Divine, your guides, the Universe or however you prefer to call it has your back and is preventing you from any major harm. If you are not yet aligned with your soul purpose consciously, your guides are leading you to align with it unconsciously because your mission in this lifetime is important for your enviroment or for the world. This pile gives me very airy vibe and 3 of your totems are in the air element, I feel you have an amazing intellect you have to share with the world (comfirmed by your air totem), I need a lot of focus and concentration for your pile because of the intensity of your energy, not in a bad way, is just that this is so aligned with higher vibrations and your soul purpose that I want to be as clear as possible. I also feel a little confusing energy around you so, if you are dealing with overwhelming, stagnacy or not knowing if you are doing things well you don't have to worry my love, you are doing greatly whatever you are doing right now, you have a very strong spiritual protection leading you to a future so precious you can'teven imagine. Everything is guiding you into your brightest future filled with abundance and joy but also your guides are respecting your limits and fears and are giving you the time and help to solve and heal this issues you might be dealing with, you are meant to leave a possitive print in this world, your heart is pure and full of wisdom, your goals might be oriented to help other people or the enviroment. You know what you want to share, trust your inner wisdom and believe you are following the right path for you even if it looks unconventional, don't doubt it because the Divine is guarding your back in such a way you would never imagine.

Water -> The Canary

You have a unique way to process your feelings, maybe is through the intellectual lense or maybe you practice mindfullness with them to watch those emotions with perspective. Maybe for other people is hard to understand how things affect your feelings or feel that you don't understand them, I see you very aware of your psychis and how it works, do you like to learn things related to psychology or the human behavior?? Because if you are not you can be great with these tools, viewing emotional responses as an outer observer without getting too involved. You are also very emotionally mature, you give importance to the actual problems affecting people, with this I mean that you might not be the kind to worry about the neighbor that gets angry because music is too loud, you understand that loud music can annoy the neighbor but you know as well that is not something to make a drama from and can be solved without anger involved, you are aware that are deeper problems in the world that needs more attention and an urgent solution. You are very humanitarian and solidary with other people even if you don't really know how to show it, you give me aquarius moon vibes 😊. Communication and mediation is a very important skill you have and can open a lot of doors for your future if you learn how to use it, you are a source of balance and understanding.

Earth -> The Bear

You are a very homely person, you prefer to spend time in your comfort place, maybe you love your home and prefer to keep in your house before going out and socialize (me too so I don't judge, I have this same totem 😂) . You may enjoy more in your bed covered by blankets watching your favorite movie than hanging out with friends or go to parties. I see you've been taking care of yourself by spending time alone, you have focused in your mental, physical and emotional health, also in the wellbeing of your beloved closest ones, mostly family or the people you live with. You have a very protective energy, worried about the wellbeing and safety of your beloved ones, I feel you are the kind to keep talking on the phone with a friend that is walking alone at night until they are safe at home (I like you pile 4 💖). You've been worried protecting yourself and your people from harm but that attitude has also built a wall between you and the rest of the world, you enjoy solitude but be aware before it becomes lonliness, bears are very protective and loves to cuddle in their warm place while the outside world is frozen but don't forget to go out like bears do when spring comes, isolation is needed sometimes but can become also addictive. If this is your case you are being called to go out more often and open up to the world, get comfortable with adventure, there are so many people and experiences waiting out there for you, don't take away from you the chance to live, not just exist. You are great, let people know your greatness 🥰

Air -> The Peacock

You have to share your voice, my love! You have so much to offer to the world but I feel your throat chakra asking for balance right now. You deserve to be heard and admired for your communication skills and your wisdom, don't be afraid to share your ideas with other people because they will love the way you speak and all the knowledge you have to offer, you can give people a wider perspective of life filled by opportunities. If you are into any work that involves comunication you will shine in your job, your voice will be heard and loved by many, you just need to trust yourself and your abilities because you can reach the stars if you want to.

Fire -> The Skunk

Maybe this was not the animal you expected but I promise you will love it at the end of the reading. Skunks are pacific animals, they are not scary predators but cute little babies that can fart in your face if they feel threaten, they defend themselves by the way they know but doesn't hurt anyone in their trying to defend their life. Some people are not good dealing with conflicts, you are a peace maker not a warrior and that's okay don'tforce you to be a fighter if that is not in your essence, be always loyal to yourself. You might think that you need to develop your fighter abilities to open up to the world you to avoid being udged or misunderstood, maybe you even think that people is going to be against you and you will have no other chance than defending yourself. Let me tell you babe, this is all in your mind, nobody is going to attack you and if they do you can choose if that's is going to affect you or not, you don't need to fight to defend yourself, you are so so intelligent... use that intellect at your favor as the skunk use their passive defense, they don't need to attack they are just loyal to their nature and do what they know so the predators run away from them instead of them running from the predators, that's their power and what keeps them alive. Remember the Divine team you have guiding you, you are never alone in this journey.

- How to channel their energies:

• Perform random acts of kindness, share your light

• Reconnect with nature, you need to ground

• Keep a positive mindset, repeat positive affirmations

[astertataricvs]

Miya Atsumu; how endearing

summary: Atsumu would frequently receive confessions from girls. But yours is the one that caught his attention.

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Above the busy city, the honking of cars, the people walking down the street, and in a certain place where Inarizaki High School is established. The eminent azure tinctured heavens cloaked the world. It was an ordinary day the disseminated powder-puff clouds drift indolently across the interminable sky as the fresh sunlight irradiates the crevasses of every place – dusting off the darkness with the sun's glorious celestial entity.

Suna Rintarou stood in the rooftop, both elbows propped on the banisters as the youthful breeze of spring brushes through his body with the chorus birds above singing happily along with its kinds. He relished the calming atmosphere, feeling as it has a touch of magic, as if anything may happen that would grant him a magical experience.

Suna's eyes settled on the landscape before him, the varying types of edifices and houses with several colors that festoon the once cryptic hollow space billions of years ago. It was a sight indeed, suited for a man like him who's quiet all the time. But his eyes never missed catching two figures beneath him: a girl with long ebony hair and a familiar blonde hair who he was certain that it's their team's setter, Miya Atsumu.

The middle blocker already has the knowledge of what was going to occur among the two. It's the same scenario that he'd frequently witness every lunch break, Atsumu receiving a confession again, and he'd reject the girl straight away without batting an eyelash.

He doesn't care about what will happen anyway. That is precisely why he never had mentioned it to the setter that he'd often be the spectator of him acquiring a girl's love. It's not notable to him, and he isn't the type of guy who likes to stick his nose into other people's businesses. He likes to avoid that. He will always be doing that.

Although he's sick of perpetually seeing a confession from his usual spot, his eyes have adhered to the two persons who are beneath him.

Miya Atsumu has once again been summoned by a girl that he doesn't even know that she's actually studying here.

In the to-do lists of the girls in school, one of many cliché things there was to confess to someone at the courtyard of the school. Anyone with courage enough to do that was worthy of praise, even from Atsumu himself. He admired them for it but did not think it was riveting. Just another day at Inarizaki. Another thing to cross off on a list. Atsumu couldn't even remember the name of the last girl who confessed to him.

"I like you, Atsumu-kun!" The girl declared while eyes were sealed as her cheeks tinged in roseate hues.

Atsumu executes a subtle sigh as he straightens his back, preparing the words itching in his throat that he'd regularly answer girls.

"Sorry but I'm not interested." The girl pressed her trembling lips to keep the tears at bay.

Atsumu watched her with disinterest and full of boredom written on his face. It's the identical expressions he'd perceived whenever he'd reject them. Melancholic and tearful. Composing themselves from crying in front of him because they refuse to witness them weep by him, which is the thing he's most thankful for. He's not the one to blame if they'd cry to their friends in the girl's restroom or anywhere they pleased.

They were the ones who chose to confess to him even though they already knew the answer they would gain from him. The only emotion that keeps them from venturing their plan is their unyielding tenacity; their friends stimulating speeches and the hope that he might like them back – and that latter is what Atsumu despises the most.

He doesn't want to waste his time frequently hearing a girl's confession, it's revolting for always hearing it – though, he appreciates their feelings they possess for him, but it's not thrilling anymore.

Atsumu had achieved his task, so he excused himself first and left the girl behind, granting her an alone time to weep.

It is something that he doesn't want to see, he knows the feeling of rejection, but not in a romantic aspect, yet he is aware of how disheartening it felt – like you were being shrouded with darkness and feel the clenching of your heart inside your chest. Though it appears that Atsumu looks like he had tons of relationships in the past, he won't be ashamed of proclaiming to the world that he has stayed single ever since the day of his birth. Heck, he would admit that he much prefers being disengaged with the clutches of relationships and stay inclined to volleyball instead.

That's more preferable and pleasant to hear.

Atsumu tossed the ball to his twin and was satisfied as they earned a point with his set up. The coach decided to hold a practice match with every member of their club. Presently, they were having a match with Kita and Aran, who were on the other side of the net. It never ceases to amaze him every time he'd view their ace's spike and their captain's substantial receives. Despite being impressed with his teammates, Atsumu also gives his all in the game, and the thirst for victory enkindled in his system.

This is the thrill that he craves, not the same as the daffy confession of every damn girl he'd constantly receive every day.

"'Tsumu, are you done being a freak staring into space? Coach gave us a water break." The monotonous voice of his twin had snapped him out from his stupor.

"Shut the hell your mouth! I don't want to hear it from someone whose face is always stoic," he countered before stomping his foot and sauntering to where everyone was taking a rest and drinking their filled water bottle.

Osamu shrugged and followed his twin. Their captain had scolded them yet again with his more indomitable appearance and bland voice. Osamu told the blonde that Kita is more vacuous than him, and Atsumu wouldn't deny that because it's a fact. But still, the setter categorized them both in the same kind of species – the emotionless species.

He has no idea why he and his brother had distinct personalities, yet they are twins. Sometimes, he couldn't determine what Osamu was thinking about and his emotions except when they'd argue.

He is the actual opposite of his brother, lively and not impassive like him.

That is why he thinks that he's reliable and more preferable because he can show different emotions rather than Osamu, who is perpetually stoic as the same as the captain. Musing about it makes his ego skyrocketed.

Suna and Ginjima, who happened to witness Atsumu grinning like an idiot by himself, had caused them to step back and weirded out at him – well, he's already weird in the first place, though – but this kind of behavior only made him weirder.

'Is it the reason for getting confessed almost every day?' Suna mused while drinking his water.

A strum of a guitar resonates throughout the area, causing all the members to pause from their movements as their ears perked up upon hearing the sound of an instrument. It strummed in a familiar melodic pattern, but no one can figure what song it is. Suna knew that it's an acoustic guitar because of its vibrating strings and its sweet and softer tones.

Before they could even start a query, a woman's voice yet again halted them from their tracks and rendered them mute. Even Atsumu, who was in his stupor, had snapped back to reality once a sweet voice of a woman had rung within his ears.

I've never gone with the wind, just let it flow Let it take me where it wants to go

All of them are curious about the one who's singing, and they could distinguish that the noise is coming from outside their gym. Kita also grew curious, and his feet led him to the doors to discover the person behind that beautiful voice – even the captain admits that – Atsumu did not hesitate to follow Kita. His curiosity overwhelms him and wants to find out who is singing.

His mind is full of queries as to why someone would sing outside the gym. There are lots of rooms and areas in the campus for her to take a sweet moment by herself. However, Atsumu couldn't deny that he was pleased to hear the charming voice of this mysterious girl.

As once Kita and Atsumu took a peek outside, the setter's lips instantly dropped once his eyes landed on the girl he knew too well.

'Til you opened the door, there's so much more I've never seen it before I was trying to fly but I couldn't find wings But you came along and you changed everything.

Atsumu's eyes are like glue, transfixed on you, who is singing and playing the guitar. He didn't tear his gaze away from you even if he could hear the footsteps approaching behind him.

He doesn't have any clue why you were doing it here, as if you're a busker who sings and plays in streets or any other public places. But most of all, he feels his breath hitch when you stared into his eyes while singing the lyrics while playing the guitar. Your eyes never left him, and he did the same thing.

Atsumu let himself be absorbed with gawking to you as you played.

You lift my feet off the ground You spin me around You make me crazier, crazier Feels like I'm falling and I'm lost in your eyes

While you're singing, you suddenly step forward and mosey toward where Atsumu stood. Now he could feel his body turned rigid and as if his breath had seized by a lurking spirit, making him breathless. 

As you finally stand before him, you sing the last lyrics of the chorus.

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

"I like you, Miya Atsumu-san," you confessed, voice laced with fondness, no hint of jest but utter sincerity. Looking at him like the king of the jungle that bears pride and gallantry and wouldn't waver whoever it confronts someone.

Atsumu swallowed the lump inside his throat, caught off guard, speechless and dumbfounded. Now he comprehends the situation as to why you were singing outside their gym.

It's because you were serenading him. But why English, though?

Atsumu hadn't foreseen that it would happen to him, someone serenading him as their type of confession.

That is beyond the usual. You remarkably caught him by surprise, and this is the first time he couldn't produce a coherent speech in his head – except when he's taking an exam.

"I—"

"That's all!" you squawked and bowed to him before bolting away and left everyone in an astounding state.

Kita looked over at Atsumu with his usual expression, but inwardly he was surprised as well, knowing the fact that this is the first time he had heeded a woman serenading a man. That's off-the-wall. 

Everyone directed their gazes to their setter, who's still flabbergasted at the scene a while ago and stared at the path where the girl had run off.

The known Miya Atsumu, who doesn't know how to keep his mouth shut, had become speechless.

Atsumu blinked his eyes, returning him to his senses from his astonishment. As he assimilates the extraordinary event earlier into his brain, he suddenly evokes a chuckle. He was dazzled by your outlandish confession and had come to pique his interest – he's not gonna lie – the way you confessed to him was impressive.

The most shocking for him was, he never perceived you to be this daring enough to serenade him in front of his teammates. Moreover, it never forded his mind that you like him in a romantic aspect since you would approach him as a mere classmate only. You haven't provided him with a hint that you fancy him. Well, it makes sense for Atsumu why you don't look like it.

After all, you are his seatmate all this time.

'How endearing.'

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Change Management: 5 Ways to Support Yourself in the Process of Change

Before deep change, there is deep reflection. 

2020, the mother of all mirrors. 

Usually it takes a rock bottom, a near death, a death or an eat-pray-love experience for us to face the thing that’s been holding us back: ourselves. 

I’m not talking about our conscious selves, we would never knowingly hold ourselves back. I’m talking about something deeper.

Scientists call it ‘conditioning’, psychologists say ‘maladaptive beliefs’, new age folk prefer ‘self-limiting beliefs’, I’ve heard motivational gurus use ‘subconscious programming’, while the mystics say ‘the shadow self’, you’ve probably also heard it referred to as ‘your demons’. 

Call it what you will. 

The point is, we live most of our lives mindlessly, on autopilot, saving energy for when we do need to make decisions, problem solve or run from wildebeests. And that’s a smart way to save energy. The downside is that if the program our autopilot is set to has a glitch in it, a mistake of some sort, a conditioned-maladaptive-limiting-subconscious-shadow-demon-thought lurking deep below our awareness, we’re going to repeat that mistake around 90% of the time.

Change. You can want it so bad, SO bad, you can have a rad plan, and try real hard, but it won’t stick if you don’t deal with whatever your subconscious mind is tripping on. 

It’s futile. 

YOU, however, are lucky enough to be, right now, in the process of deep change, real, lasting change. You have 2020 to thank. 2020 has forced us all into some deep dark reflection.

Please. Don’t. Stop. 

Don’t stop now if things are ‘going back to normal’. Instead of going backwards, go deeper.

Before we get to my theory of how change starts in the mind but is set to fruition deeper within the body, and my tips on how to support yourself in this process, let’s first get real about what you’re signing up for.

The process looks like this:

In the process of change, the process of making something new that didn’t exist before, also known as the creative process - things get worse before they get better. 

It seems cruel but it’s actually genius. 

The high emotions we experience at the start of the process suck us in, but as we get into it, they quickly fade.

Hiding in your rock-bottom-despair at the center of the process triggers the exact emotional wound or ‘subconscious-shadow-demon’ that would continue to trip you up if you didn’t deal with it. It’s exactly what you need to deal with to change the programming that’s stopping the change from sticking. 

These deep wounds or misconceptions were ingrained before you had rational thoughts, so no amount of thinking can transcend them. Only when we feel the pain can we heal the pain. Corny but true.

After the low point in the middle where we are forced to deal with our baggage, is when things start to get better. We still make mistakes and missteps that teach us more valuable lessons that are needed in order to achieve what we set out to do. The closer we get to achievement, the higher our spirits soar.  

Many people, I’m raising my hand, hit this point of discomfort in the middle of the process and see it as an inconvenient obstacle rather than the gift it is. Opening ourselves up to feel is the invitation into the backend of our autopilot programming, where we can make edits and change our programming, swapping unhealthy patterns for empowering ones. 

Instead of leaning into this awesome opportunity, many of us get frustrated with the perceived obstacle and give up on the process and ourselves, ultimately, allowing our minds to rationalise and justify our exit plan. Letting our unhealthy patterns live to ruin another day.   

Not today, today we’re going deeper into the fire of transformation. 

I’m nearly up to the 5 sassy tips because everyone loves a listicle, but first I want to quickly back up my claim that the true processing power lies in le body. 

You’ve heard about the benefits of gratitude, right? How it’s proven to boost mental health and resilience? I’ve found that listing our blessings is just the vehicle that gets us out of our minds, into our bodies, where we physically feel gratitude. Thinking about things we’re grateful for, can alter our mindset to be more positive ONLY when we allow ourselves to FEEL it. You can fake a gratitude practice the same way you can fake an orgasm. Hopefully your grateful façade will trick yourself into feeling it below the surface, but if you’re as stubborn and headstrong as me, you’ll walk away with the disappointment you brought with you plus some more.

I suggest that it’s not the thinking, it’s the oozey warm feeling you get in your chest, the moment of being in your body and leaning into the joy, that is where the real benefits of gratitude come from. Brene Brown discovered that even though it might seem responsible to prepare for life’s potential hardships, in reality, the people who MENTALLY rehearse disaster, are statistically less resilient. She found that the people with the greatest resilience were the ones that leaned deeply into their FEELINGS of joy. 

Are you sold yet, the body trumps the mind? Feelings over thoughts? I know it’s hard to swallow when we’ve been taught to believe emotions are less reliable than logic. Try to stay open to it if you’re not there yet. 

Here it is, what you’ve been scrolling for, 5 Failure Friendly tips for transformation that sticks:

1. No blame games

When self reflecting there will come a moment when we become aware of an aspect of ourselves, that until now has gone unnoticed, this is when we experience mindfulness. Mindfulness is the opposite of mindlessness. Meaning the behavior we uncover was participated in it mindlessly, it was subconscious behaviour. 

We have no control over subconscious behaviour until the ‘aha moment’ when we wake up to ourselves and become conscious to it. Whatever you’ve done or not done, it really wasn’t up to you, so it’s a waste of time to punish yourself with thoughts like ‘I should have known better!’ There is no shoulda, coulda or woulda  when it comes to subconscious thoughts and behaviours. So don’t waste energy judging yourself for your mindless choices. 

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take responsibility for your actions. The moment we become conscious is simultaneously the moment we become response-able. Finally seeing the full picture gives us the ability to discern and respond. Before I unpack how to respond consciously, you need to understand that mindfulness is a thought or knowing that happens in the mind. The next step is to move this insight away from the mind and into the body where the transformation begins.

2. Out of our minds and into our bodies

One of the hurdles of transformation is processing this new information. Instead of getting stuck in our head by falling into vicious cycles of over-thinking, we can take the idea from the mind and transform it into a feeling, for our bodies to process. As I said earlier, the power of gratitude practices are well documented, but it’s not the gratitude lists that boosts our mental health. Counting our blessings is just the vehicle that brings us into our bodies where we physically feel gratitude. You know that oozey warm heart-full feeling? That’s where, I argue, the real restorative benefits come from.

Gratitude is to joy what forgiveness is to pain, both are experiences that happen in the body, not the mind. If 2020 forced you to reflect and uncover some painful truths, this is a call for forgiveness. Again, emotions need to be felt and transformed in the body. Joy needs to be felt and transformed into an experience of physical gratitude, while pain needs to be felt and transformed into an experience of physical forgiveness. The cool side-effect is that both of these transformative experiences boost our resilience and make us stronger (which we will need as we step further into the process of change). As compared to dwelling and obsessing about pain or joy in the mind, that will only shrink or swell our egos. Having an inferior or superior ego makes us more fragile to life’s bumps in the road. 

Start by thinking about the pain that’s attached to your mindless behaviour, how it’s negatively affected you and those around you. Now consciously invite that discomfort into your body to feel the sensation of that pain. Scan your body, where do you feel it and what does it feel like? Lean into the discomfort, you were designed for this. Name it, aloud if you can, even better face yourself in the mirror as you do it. Feeling leads to healing, another corny truth, healing is when we can forgive or release the pain so that it stops interfering in our autopilot program. 

The only person you have to forgive in this moment is yourself. If someone else wounded you, don’t feel pressured to forgive them. You can forgive them if it feels good, when and if you’re ready. Or you can visualise handing them back the baggage along with the responsibility for them to forgive themselves. If self-forgiveness doesn’t feel attainable right now, just being willing to forgive is enough.  

Rather than telling your hurt self to cheer up, instead give yourself space to feel all of your feelings without judgement. If you notice yourself holding a grudge on your past self, or panicking about falling apart, breathe into that feeling and invite forgiveness to soften its edges. You can journal or affirm something loving like ‘it’s okay, let it out, I am willing to witness this.’

3. Understand what you’re up against

Imagine a path in the Aussie bush. Surrounded by trees and thick shrubs, the narrow clearing has been worn away by constant foot traffic. Your mindless thoughts and behaviour have a neural pathway just like this well-worn path. You’ve unknowingly practiced the response so many times that it has become a habit, requiring zero effort for your brain to perform. Changing your thoughts and behaviours is like walking off the well-worn path and bush bashing your way to a new reality. Urgh. As I looked down the barrel of change recently, it was not the uncertainty that scared me most, but the high likelihood of failure. The mindfulness I had mustered felt like a drop of water, while the ingrained pattern of unhealthy behaviour was the ocean. It feels impossible not to slip right back into the old comfy pattern. What was the point, right?

Wrong. If you have the same fear of failure, acknowledge how difficult this feels, then listen up. Even a monk cannot maintain mindfulness 24/7 so we are going to find ourselves back in the mindless pattern sooner or later. Slipping back into subconscious programming is subconscious a.k.a. no self judgement or blame games allowed (refer back to point 1). Instead of giving up before you begin, prepare for the inevitable relapse and visualise now, what will you do to course-correct when you slip back into mindlessness?

4. Breaking the habit, one relapse at a time

Welcome the relapses, they are an important part of the process and yes, there will be many. Relapsing into old patterns is not failure, it’s not even a setback. Embrace each slip with open arms because relapsing is our opportunity to bounce back, and bouncing back is how we break down old patterns. It’s in the bouncing back that we work our resilience muscles and cement the desired transformation. 

‘Bouncing back’ sounds fun and easy. It's not. As you test out your new mindful behaviour, you’re going to feel the pull of the old habit. It will to try and lure you back to the well worn path with it’s comfy promise. You’ve practice the mindless behaviour so many times it’s become comfortable, in comparison this new behaviour feels very uncomfortable. Resisting this pull feels wrong. Even though it feels wrong, this discomfort is a sign that you’re on the right path and in the process of change. So remember, if it feels wrong - you’re doing it right!

Soon you will have broken away from this mindless habit so many times that when you do relapse, your mind will be flooded with memories of how you’ve bounced back. Knowing you’ve bounced back before makes it easier for you to slide into those conscious choices. This not only strengthens the new habit and your transformation, but it weakens the old patterns. Remember this as you’re choosing to act differently and wading through the discomfort after those early relapses. Every time it will get a little easier. 

Establishing a habit isn’t immediate, the fastest proven way to forge a new habit is to add the desired behaviour to an existing habit. For example, we habitually brush our teeth at the same time every day, so our existing morning or nighttime routine is the perfect time to practice the new thought or behaviour. (This is why I write affirmations in lipstick on my bathroom mirror).

5. Celebrate your relapse with a shot of dopamine 

There is a secret weapon you can use to supercharge your transformation: dopamine. Dopamine is the feel good hormone that is released whenever we tick something off our to-do list or achieve a goal. Our brains are addicted to dopamine. It’s been proven that when you give yourself a dopamine hit after completing a task you are more likely to succeed at the next task. So count your effort - don’t discount it! 

Every time you relapse and then bounce back, really acknowledge yourself and celebrate your effort. You can keep a tally, give yourself a gold star or a physical pat on the back, whatever you need to mark the occasion and cue the dopamine. Your brain will crave the reward and subconsciously begin to look for more opportunities to bounce back. Suddenly the subconscious mind that was working against you, is on team transformation. 

Just like eating well or staying fit, it’s a practice not a quick fix or one size fits all approach. With no end in sight, we practice change and mindfulness daily. Your practice will evolve and it will see seasons of strong dedication and low motivation. Along the way, remember to think back to your early ‘aha’ moments and celebrate how far you’ve come, which will provide an encouraging hit of dopamine to accelerate your momentum. 

Set regular reminders for reflection, like a ‘Mindset Monday’. Checking in on your thoughts allows you to catch mindless patterns early. Finish sentences like ‘I feel’ to uncover things you’re avoiding. Remember to ask yourself why, why and why again to get the root of your mindless chatter. And don’t forget to schedule regular ‘Progress Parties’ to take stock of your achievements, no matter how big or small. 

The fear of failure is the number one thing that stops us from engaging in the process of change. When we understand that failure isn’t fatal, just an important part of the process, theoretically we are free to pursue our dreams. But in a culture that idolises effortless perfection, becoming a friend to failure is easier said than done. 

This’s why ‘Failure Friendly’ exists. My obsession with finding creative freedom and confidence has led me to create free evidence based Toolkit and Action Cards that guide you with practical actions through the process of changing your mindset. The toolkit is full of rules and guidelines for establishing a safe space for change and creativity, while the Action Cards give you opportunities to practice the skills of self-awareness, self-belief and self-compassion for a balanced and sustainable approach to change and creativity. 

They’ve changed my life and I can’t wait to share them with you!

- Buzzy

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Initial Research

Who are HOME?

HOME is an arts, theatre and film centre in Manchester. It opened in 2015, and has a goal of helping the planet in tackling the issue of climate change. Their ambition is to push the boundaries of form and technology by experimenting and taking risks. 

It has had 2.9 million customers since opening, which is a huge amount. It seems to be a vibrant place, full of life and continuously evolving.

HOME work with artists all over the globe in order to produce fantastic experiences, ranging from drama, dance, film and contemporary visual art with a strong focus on international work, new commissions, education, informal learning as well as being a creative hub for the region, where local talent is nurtured through their talent development programme.

HOME seems to be the cultural epicentre of Manchester, and long may that continue. 

On reflection after browsing the website, I found it hard to locate the sustainability section. The sections included too much text and could have been complimented better with the use of icons or graphics to visually tell the story, but that is just personal preference. 

I tested out how long it took me to find out about their sustainability, and it took me almost 2 minutes and 14 seconds. I only found the section through typing in the search bar, which I shouldn’t have to do; it should be told to me.

It was a dull experience and it didn’t prompt me to be more sustainable by visiting the website. Nevertheless, HOME do have relevant information on the website about their sustainability, I just don’t believe many people visit the section as it takes too much effort. When it comes to user experience and user interface design, the user should do the least amount of work possible to find information.

I did however find the addition of ‘how to get there’ interesting, as it could prompt a potential customer to travel by bus because of ease of use. There could be a bus route that never crossed the mind of a customer who usually drives to HOME. Having the information there for the customer I believe is a positive addition to the website as ultimately you can’t force a customer to change their behaviour, (it is ultimately up to them) but by giving them information you can give them a decision to make which wasn’t there beforehand.

Outside HOME, there is a statue of Friedrich Engels who came to work in a Manchester mill in 1842. He spent almost 30 years in Manchester, and he became an innovative socialist and economic thinker. 

Engels time in Manchester experienced industrial working conditions and the plight of the poorest in society, which inspired his first book: The Condition of the Working Class in England. It is magnificent that HOME have recognised the importance of Frederich Engels with the statue.

HOME are the first arts and cultural venue in the WORLD (wow!) to have all of the staff members trained in Carbon Literacy. All new starters are trained within 6 months, which is impressive and it clearly shows that HOME are marketing their sustainability in an effective way.

Training staff Carbon Literacy helps to connect HOME’s mission with the outside community by sharing knowledge and influencing others.

What is Climate Change? Why is it important?

Climate change is the long-term change in planet earth’s temperatures, with temperatures rising, meaning changes in weather patterns. This is caused by humans, and since the industrial revolution, we have released too much carbon dioxide and other greenhouse gases into the air. The result of this is climate change, and the danger is that temperatures rise too high for human survival, as well as the atmosphere getting weaker.

These visuals above are striking, and visualise severe changes that have only come in less than 150 years. That is almost 2 average lifetimes, which proves that climate change is an issue that has to be tackled instantaneously otherwise the consequences will be unthinkable.

How can we stop climate change?

Reduce global greenhouse gas emissions!

The most crucial step to limit climate change is to make big and rapid reductions in global greenhouse gas emissions. There are many different ways this can be done and governments, businesses, organisations and individuals around the world can all contribute. In June 2019, the UK became the world’s first major economy to pass a law committing the country to a target of ‘net zero’ emissions by 2050.

Personally, I believe we have ultimately changed our relationship to nature; we now see nature as a resource, instead of our home and environment. 

Resources are perceived to be unlimited, when in reality they are limited. This image below visualises this perfectly and it certainly is striking:

It does seem that we have become separate from nature, as we live in cities that are very compressed, with food being wasted, with thousands of taxis and cars as well as other vehicles polluting the air.

It is when you drive out to the countryside and live with nature that makes you realise that the planet just looks healthier; it looks like it can breathe and ultimately this is what the planet is meant to be. Trees growing, raindrops pouring, grass growing, rivers flowing; we seem to forget this when living our busy lifestyles travelling to and from work.

For us humans, a lot of us love to live in the city due to the sociable aspect, and it is exciting as there is usually a lot going on. 

This link below has some fascinating animated visualisations of climate change:

https://visme.co/blog/climate-change-facts/

Greta Thunberg

I just have to include this brave girl on my blog when talking about climate change. It is a sad reality of the state of affairs that a girl as courageous as Greta Thunberg has to stand up and act against world leaders who on the face of it seem to be ignoring the problem.

This for me represents the climate change problem perfectly; a girl is seen by society as someone who should be in school, learning a subject to go on to work as an adult. The roles are reversed in this instance due to no action being taken by world leaders, and I am in support of Greta. She is a 16 year old girl who wants to save the planet. Why has it come to this? It shouldn’t have, but it has.

References

https://www.metoffice.gov.uk/weather/learn-about/climate-and-climate-change/climate-change/index

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-24021772

https://climate.nasa.gov

https://visme.co/blog/climate-change-facts/

http://www.manchesterclimate.com/plan

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32 Attitudes That Sabotage Weight Loss

It's time to detect them to finally untie the knot of weight loss!

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They are on the kitchen counter, on the office desk, on the bedside table in the room, and inside your head.

Worse: as they are not usually directly related to weight gain, these clutter sabotage efforts to lose weight year after year.

1. "Only kill yourself for a few months"

There are two kids behind this reasoning, very widespread among those who want to wipe out the measures. Firstly, too restrictive regimes or heavy workouts are difficult to adopt.

"Then you have the following: the incorporation of balanced habits should not be seen as something temporary," says physical education professional Antonio Herbert Lancha Jr., author of the book The End of Diets (Ed. Abril).

"Otherwise, you may even lose weight, but you will regain weight once you restore the old pattern."

2. Do not plan

Food behavior expert Brian Wansink often asks clients and research volunteers how many food decisions they think they make each day.

"They respond between 20 and 25. But they make around 200, mostly unconsciously," notes the scientist, director of the Food and Brand Lab at Cornell University in the United States. When stating a goal, design the choices that will lead to compliance.

Example: If you want to have fruit at home, you need to make time to go to the market.

3. Unrealistic Promises

"In the fight against obesity, motivation is fundamental," says psychiatrist Adriano Segal of the Brazilian Association for the Study of Obesity and Metabolic Syndrome.

To keep it high, look for possible targets to be hit without so much suffering.

"The choice must come from the individual, not from the professional," recalls Cynthia Antonaccio, a nutritionist at Equilibrium Consultoria and one of the authors of Behavioral Nutrition (Ed. Manole).

You can determine that you will swallow at most one serving of potato chips per week.

4. Messy agenda

Leaving to buy vegetables only "when given time" culminates in a pantry full of biscuits and instant noodles. Yes, our daily schedule is full of chores, but two verbs help find space for weight-loss attitudes: prioritize and organize.

Think about going to the fair or exercising as related tasks and outlining your routine to see where to fit them.

Maybe you do not notice that just giving up social media for a moment of the day already gains time to take care of the body. Learn more: Exercise is medicine for sickness - World Health Day | Health is Vital

5. Empty kitchen

In his book, Brian Wansink recounts the case of a journalist who reported to his services to win the dispute with the scale.

When he said he'd take a look at her kitchen, he heard, "This room is not the problem because it is always empty." But that is where deception lives.

"If the refrigerator is deserted, people order pizza or sandwiches, even when they just want a snack," notes Wansink.

Now, do not think your house is forbidden from harboring any remnants of goodies. Ideally, most foods should be light. However, there is room for small indulgences.

How to store

Believe it or not: the probability of snatching the first item you see in the closet is five times greater than that of eating the fifth. But you can use that to your advantage. Store the vegetables on the shelves more noticeably and save the sweets in the bottom of a drawer.

It's amazing how the eyes define our behaviors.

6. Chaotic environment

Dirty crockery in the sink, leftovers on the countertop, open drawers. Is this description familiar to you? Such attention!

In a survey of the University of New South Wales, Australia, 108 women have left in a zoned or otherwise perfect kitchen - both contained pots of cookies, crackers, and carrots. After a measly ten minutes, the participants in the messy room consumed 53 more calories in cookies.

7. Eating with friends

Let's face it: According to a paper from Cornell University, men fill their belly more (30% more, to be exact) when they feed on a group.

In women, the sensation of being observed has the opposite effect. It is not that, from now on, the lads should only dine in an isolated room.

The message is not to compete to see who gets more bogged down, but to take advantage of the presence of colleagues to keep up the conversation and to give folks calmly.

8. Refer to the show

More than 200 homes in the city of Syracuse in the United States were photographed before Wansink, and her team arrived at the following observation: women who live in a kitchen with a bottle of soda on the bench are on average 11 pounds plumper compared with neighbors free from this temptation.

Those that left a bowl of fruit in the same place were 5 kilos thinner. Got the message?

9. Table sleepers

Never underestimate what a few feet away from the food source do for the waistline.

"The need to get up and walk to the edge of the stove helps us think if we want more, rather than picking up another spoonful of autopilot," says nutritionist Cynthia Antonaccio.

American experiments show that the tactic reduces food intake by about 20%. It is no small thing.

10. Noisy place

At the University of Illinois in the United States, 60 families were recorded during a meal.

Half heard the noise of a vacuum cleaner between a fork and another. The result of martyrdom size? Parents abused cookies, soft drinks and even carrots, a sign of distraction to the extreme.

Curiously, the noise did not influence children's habits, but scientists realized that they received less attention from adults.

11. Delicacy in service

A hidden camera and bullet pots. These were the materials needed for a unique experiment mentioned in the book Slim by Design. For days, office workers were filmed.

At one point, the container with candy was dropped within reach of the employee. In another, he appeared on a table two feet away or hid in a drawer. And did not those 200 centimeters have a consumption of 125 calories less?! Ah, laziness.

12. Failure to clean the dish

Since childhood, we have learned not to leave even a grain of rice left over. It is clear that the waste deserves to be fought in various spheres of society, except that steaming the stomach itself will not solve world hunger.

If you can not reduce the portion from the beginning - or if you have made a mistake - keep the remains for later or offer them to others. And get rid of judgments that stick to weight loss.

13. Reject what you love

In End of Diets, indulgences are called "islands" - after paddling for a while in search of the desired body, you relax and gain breath for the sequence of the journey.

Believe: Allow yourself time and again to get out of the rut, and for example savoring your favorite ice cream can not only integrate the project into getting fit.

The cat's leap is to plan these leaks, so they do not come by rule. "The problem is when there is more island than a sea," jokes Lancha Jr., the author.

14.  Chewing on walking

This trap was spotted at the University of Surrey in the United Kingdom. Experts noted that women who grazed a cereal bar as they wandered down a corridor tended to abuse in sequence.

Compared to volunteers who ate the snack, the walkers swallowed five times more chocolate as they entered a room full of delights. "Distraction makes you feel less full," says Jane Ogden, a psychologist who is responsible for the discovery.

15. Eating Stressed

Tension and anxiety are often confused with the hunger for the brain. Combine this with the fact that the irritation shakes the self-control and that's it: the probability of emptying the ice cream pot goes high.

When stress strikes, grasp the initial urge to open the freezer. You may even choose to relax with a good candlelight dinner, but that decision needs to be rational.

16. Fixed eye on the buffet

After a series of interviews with individuals who have always been thin, the Cornell University class has revealed that they have three times greater tendency to sit with their backs to the platters after passing the self-service queue.

"Watching a lot of customers filling their plates makes me want to repeat," justifies Wansink. In fact, the skinny people he and his colleagues went to tables farther away from the food source.

17.  Inattention in line

In the rush of lunch, it is common to thicken the row of zombies that enter the restaurant by the kilo, pick up the cutlery and are already starting to serve.

Instead, try to glimpse all the items to plan your meal. This tactic makes us prefer less dense alternatives. Of breaking, it prevents the classic scene of, after filling the plate, to see more that delight.

Be honest: when it does, you can not resist and just lift a mountain of food, right?

18. Using the scale

Despite the popularity of this instrument, we should not evaluate fitness in pounds.

First because muscle, bone, and even water are denser than fat. So, as you climb the scale, a high, well-hydrated, strong-boned guy is considered to be fatter than another stuffed with lard but weak and lacking in liquids.

Also, the weight varies considerably in the short term due to the accumulation of body fluids and metabolic processes.

The solution? Measure progress with a tape measure or by clothing.

19.  Head in the Clouds

When you get to the lunch or dinner table, forget about your problems - and the cell phone notifications. Concentrate on all the reactions fired by the forks.

Is the food hot? Too salty? What's your smell? And the belly, began to fill? By looking at these and other factors, the feeling of satiation is perceived before.

As if that were not enough, the focus helps differentiate delicious foods from those that are not worth the calories they add to the diet.

20. Shopping hungry

Let's go to Cornell University again. Researchers there evaluated 68 volunteers in the market, half of whom had pinched a cereal bar before picking up the cart, while the other did not chew anything.

At box time, some items between classes were similar. The difference was in quality: fasting staff bought 45% more fattening products.

21. Huge Packages

The supposed economy of family-size packaging is expensive.

In another Wansink article, wafer packs of 100 or 400 grams were distributed to viewers in a movie. Those who received the small packages ate 25% less - regardless of the amount, participants used to wipe out the cookie.

22. Light nights

Years ago, the endocrinologist Bruno Geloneze studied the fluctuation of hormones that incite or curb the appetite in women who worked at dawn.

Conclusion: Even after a meal during toil, they maintained high levels of ghrelin, a molecule that makes us eager for treats and gifts. In fact, sleeping poorly also intensifies hunger. Respect the night rest.

23. Cell phone in bed

The presence of the telephone in the room is not contraindicated by the specialists only because it leaves the users connected for more time.

Even when we finally fall asleep, it interferes with the quality of sleep. As well?!

Application warnings that insist on blinking at dawn emit blue light, able to traverse the eyelids and make the home more shallow.

24. Focus on diet only

One beautiful day, the infamous dispute between exercise and diet arose. What slims the most?

From a series of studies came the verdict: driving in food generates other weight loss. However, without moving, lasting results will hardly be won.

Sport raises energy expenditure, which allows less radicalism at the table, and stimulates the body to use body fat as a source of energy. In research, the mix of healthy eating and shaking is what brings the best effects.

25. Academy is the only option

From the reports of obese women who were part of a program at the University of São Paulo (USP), Lancha Jr. revealed that 90% liked physical activity but did not feel well in a traditional weight room, sometimes quite focused on aesthetics.

Thankfully, the exercise universe is not restricted to this type of work, although it favors health. Bet on what is easy, comfortable and pleasurable.

26. Real estate day by day

Think of each displacement as a chance to flatten the abdomen. Change the elevator up to the stairs, walk to the bakery and, as far as possible, incorporate cycling and public transportation.

The caloric burning of the sum of these strategies makes a difference.

A survey by East Anglia University in England indicates that replacing the car by bus, subway and company to go to service ends in 1 pound less. And who went to move for half an hour on foot or bike was 7 kilos thinner!

27. Imitate others

The neighbor's balcony, the secrets of the famous actress. Even if certain strategies worked for them - remember that the human being values ​​successes and masks mishaps - does not mean that they will fit into his schedule.

The path to the target body must be traced according to its particularities. Also, do not suffer if a friend has decreased abdominal circumference in a short time and you do not.

Each organism works in a way, so avoid comparisons.

28. Magic Pills

"The patient, disillusioned with frustrated attempts at weight loss, often lends hope to miraculous solutions that appear on the Internet," observes psychiatrist Adriano Segal.

However, teas, tablets and the like should not be swallowed without medical advice, at the risk of compromising health and failure over the course of a few months. Compressed? Only after talking to the doctor.

29. Living in air conditioning

Do not be surprised. Some studies suggest that the continuous use of this appliance causes accumulation of fat.

If on the one hand, there is no evidence for such an effect, then the theory developed by professionals makes sense. On hot days of the past, you would eat less, because the heat takes away the appetite.

Already in the cold, the metabolism would burn calories to keep us warm. It turns out that air conditioning ensures a pleasant temperature, which would make eating more food and spend less energy.

30. Frustrated by getting fat

"Unfortunately, statistics show that most people who can lose weight regain weight," says Segal.

"The battle against obesity is constant," he says. Do not regard the Abe psychiatrist's message as a bucket of cold water.

On the contrary. Understand that, over time, changes in routine will occur and can take you off the rails for a while. In such cases, do not throw everything up. Get up and go back to balance.

The maintenance of good form, as has already been said in the first item of this report, has no beginning, middle, and end.

The dreaded plateau effect

As the waist circumference decreases, the body becomes more economical. After all, the muscles do not strive so much to carry a lot of fat from one side to another.

There comes a time when the intake and the caloric expenditure are equivalent - it is the plateau effect. Want an easy way around? Increase the intensity of training.

31. Old clothes

In the book The End of Diets, Lancha Jr. says that at the time of the Spanish colonization of the Americas, when soldiers and settlers landed on the new continent, the authorities burned the caravels for them and did not even think about returning to Europe.

"Burn your caravels by donating large items or adjusting them to their current size," he writes. If by chance to recover part of the original weight, the lack of options in the closet serves as a stimulus to resume balanced habits.

32.  Going to the lipo

Nothing against who shapes its contours with this operation. Just do not see it as a slimming procedure.

The American Society of Plastic Surgery itself recommends that this is not a weapon against obesity, even because it does not remove visceral fat - the one that is deep in the abdomen and causes the real damage.

More: according to experiments done at USP, sedentary women who underwent liposuction regain weight in six months.

Thank you for your time. I will come back with a detailed PhenQ review in Portugal, translated to English!

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How a Creative Hobby Can Boost Your Mental Health

” The world always seems brighter when you’ve just made something that wasn’t there before .”~ Neil Gaiman

A few years ago I wrote an article about my own experience with bulimia. The piece was published by several different media channels, and some time afterward I was interviewed by CNN.

It was the first time I had publicly, and explicitly, spoken about that particular part of my journey. But the desire to acknowledge and address the emotional effects of my experience had been participating for some time.

Prior to writing the article, I hadn’t felt ready to lay myself bare in such a direct way. However, I instinctively is recognized that I needed a means of self-expression that would allow me be talking about what I’d been through without being quite so specific.

That’s where creativity came in.

I began utilizing photography as a style of carrying everything I was still too vulnerable to verbalize. It was a beautiful revelation for me to realize that I could share my thoughts and feelings in an abstract style. I could pour my ache into the creation of something new. This was a crucial step in my recovery.

I’d begun binging and purging as a route to avoid my feelings after the breakdown of my wedding. I had fallen out of love with my husband, and I was carrying a tremendous amount of remorse inside me, constantly feeling as though I’d failed my family and friends by not to be allowed build my relationship work. I disliked myself for walking away from my wedding, for daring to want more.

I was also dealing with intense pressure at work and financial stress, all of which had left me feeling as though everything was out of control.

Bulimia had given me the illusion of control, but it was also a way of penalise myself for not being able to stay in a relationship that everyone else expected me to be content with.

Mental health issues are often accompanied by feelings of disgrace and guilt. We tell ourselves that we should be able to handle everything, that we shouldn’t be placing additional burdens on our loved ones. It’s a self-destructive cycle that has the potential to send us spiraling.

Although creativity doesn’t act as a magical wand, it does give us an opportunity to take a breath and gain a greater understanding of what’s going on internally. We can use creativity as a means of translating ourselves to ourselves.

Photography became a lifeline for me. I could capture texture and darknes, play around with light and motion. I could communicate some of the darkness that was still haunting me, but instead of succumbing to my feelings, I was able to build something from them.

I also began to use poetry and creative writing as tools to help me channel my emotions. The personal value of this was enormous. In creativity I had a friend, a means of telling my own narrative in my own style, and a source of strength and supporting that I could rely upon to be there for me.

Here’s how a creative hobby can help us cope with mental health issues :P TAGEND 1. Creativity reminds us that we have the ability to effect change, and it also helps us be more present.

When we are experiencing mental health challenges it can be easy to fixate on the fear that there won’t be any lighting at the end of the tunnel. When I was dealing with bulimia, I would obsessively weigh myself every morning and each night. If I were away from home, or in a place where I didn’t have access to a bathroom scale, I would feel a sense of rising panic. I couldn’t imagine a hour when I would be free of the need to control my weight.

Immersing ourselves in creativity can help us believe in our ability to heal, grow, and alter because we are actively participating in the production of something new.

Whether it’s baking, gardening, painting, dancing, sculpting or any other creative pursuit, we are taking an idea and breathing life into it.

This not only helps to keep our focus on the present moment, thus alleviating future dreads, but it also devotes us the additional benefit of shaping and impacting an outcome through our efforts.

When we make we are combining imagination and resourcefulness. We are seeing an objective outcome and then taking action to make it happen. This adds to our personal skill set and emboldens us to have the same courage in other areas of our life.

Whenever I’m revisited by old demons that threaten to topple me, I create something. Anything. The act of the creation of assistances me to re-center and focus on my abilities, rather than obsess about my perceived shortcomings. It also helps me step outside myself, change my perspective on my challenges, and remember what’s truly important.

I recently herniated a disc in my back and was unable to practice yoga with as much ease as usual. As I lay on my mat at home one morning, feeling frustrated at my body for failing me, I began to slip into some old self-talk about not being good enough.

But then I noticed the pattern that the sunlight was projecting on the wall beside me. I took my phone and snapped a photograph. As the sun shifted again once more, I was reminded that nothing is static and everything is always changing. My energy automatically lifted.

Creativity teaches me about trust and impermanence, and also expands my sense of awareness. The simple act of witnessing and photographing the moving illuminate was enough for me to remember that each day is full of beauty. I don’t want to miss any of it by wasting my energy on criticizing my body.

2. Creativity enables us to process some of what we’re feeling, without the intensity of putting ourselves under a microscope, and it can also help us meet our needs.

We’re not always ready to closely examine every experience. We’re not always comfortable talking things through, or wading into the depths of our ache or trauma. But we need to work through these feelings, or else they’ll lie beneath the surface, limiting and controlling us.

Creativity can offer us a safe space in which we’re able to release some of our emotional weight without over-analyzing. We eliminate the scrutiny but still receive the benefit of self-connection.

When we’re able to connect with what we’re genuinely feeling–whether it’s anger or regret or disappointment–and then channel that into a creative project, we are less likely to engage in behaviors that are numbing or harmful. Which means we actually work through the feelings instead of only distracting ourselves from them.

Creativity can also be a compass. It’s a way of identifying an inner need, and then permitting ourselves to meet that need.

Perhaps you are craving more vibrancy or flavor in your life. Being creative might entail prefer bright, bold cloths to make a clothing item, or being experimental in the kitchen with new cuisine.

And just as creating something from nothing can help us believe in our ability to create change in other areas of our lives, session some of our needs through creativity can empower us to meet other needs–the need for self-care or boundaries for example.

When we’re struggling with mental health issues, it’s easy to minimize or forget our needs, but this only prolongs our healing. Creativity helps us trust our hunch and follow our instincts. It isn’t inevitably a substitute for therapy, but it can play a pivotal role in helping us build confidence and resilience, ensure that we can both work through how we’re feeling and take good care of ourselves.

3. Creativity enables us to connect with others and construct community.

Common mental health issues such as depression or anxiety can lead to social withdrawal and isolation, increasing feelings of loneliness and heightening the body’s stress responses.

Creativity is a wonderful way to connect with others. Social media platforms provide us with ways to share our ingenuity and trigger dialogue with people who have similar interests. When I first began blogging online I was amazed at how quickly I was able to become part of a supportive community, many of whom I’ve since met in person.

Most libraries or community centers offer group arts and craft classes. These are fantastic opportunities to establish local connects and circle with others. I recently attended a free creative statue workshop at the New York Public Library. I has no such previous experience and my creation was far from perfect–none of that mattered. It felt astonishing to come together with other people and stimulate something.

We are all creative beings. Experimenting with different media can be a wonderful way to find out what triggers pleasure and brings convenience. You don’t have to be an expert. Remember, perfection is not the goal; you’re simply inducing your world a little brighter.

My journey with ingenuity has given me more than I was possible to have anticipated. It may not always change external situations, but inwardly there’s a switching, every single time. An easier breath. A blank canvas and a fresh start. A reminder that I can begin again and again, as many times as necessary. And sometimes that’s all we need to be okay.

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