#i posted fanfiction & moodboards & critical literature analysis & meta - sorta like this

[fuckmeyer]

Bella wouldn't go hog-wild right off the bat for reasons mentioned above. she wouldn't lose her virginity to the motorcyclist because it's too risky. Charlie just threatened to send her away to Florida, & going out with Jessica (which leads her to the motorcyclist) was her way of reassuring him she's Not Mentally Ill (lol). so, fucking the motorcyclist would DEFINITELY send her packing.

more importantly, she doesn't know the motorcyclist, so to put herself out there sexually (emotionally) gives her a higher chance of being rejected which she cannot handle right now.

finally, Bella attaching emotional weight to sex, combined with the above reasons, means she probs wouldn't be losing her virginity to a stranger no matter how self-destructive she is.

however, she is self destructive. i think if she was going to fuck anybody for the first time (assuming it wouldn't be Jake, ofc, because it totally would, but we're trying to create a scenario where she fucks the motorcyclist, & at this point, she's not hanging out with Jake)...

she might fuck Mike Newton.

first, she knows Mike likes her, so there's little chance of rejection. it's an opportunity to feel like she's loved by someone without having to make any effort herself. it's empty, but tempting because in some ways it soothes the rejection.

second, it's a way for her to get Charlie off her back. if she's seeing another boy in town, she MUST be over Edwin, right? (WRONG)

third, right before Edward left, they argued over how it would be "better" for Bella to date Mike Newton. Edward picks Mike because of his own self-loathing & insecurities; Mike bothers the hell out of Edward. not just because he's your average teen boy who likes Bella, but because he can give Bella everything Edward can't.

so, Mike is Bella's way of getting back at Edward. Mike is how Bella "rejects" Edward and vampirism. Mike is how Bella channels her emotions without processing them. Mike is safe enough not to be a gamble, but risky enough to give her that thrill she's seeking. Mike is also an avenue for Bella to "resolve" her unrequited lust for Edward - i.e., she may be fucking Mike, but you can bet she's thinking of Eddie.

if we want to make it super fucked up, hallucination Edward would probably be warning Bella not to fuck Mike Newton, which would prompt her to fuck Mike Newton like her life depended on it just so she can see & hear Edward.

ok, cool. she lost her virginity. & she "knows" that fucking someone invokes the wrath of Edward. in comes the motorcyclist. she approaches him, sees Edward...& chases the feeling. yes, it's the stranger danger & the motorcycle danger that actually prompts Edward, but it naturally leads her to the motorcyclist's bed so she can have a repeat of the Mike Newton incident.

pissed, Jessica ditches Bella. (they took Jessica's car, after all.) Bella gets home late on the back of a motorcycle. Charlie flips shit.

whoops. guess we're back to Bella being shipped off to Florida.

but at least she got to fuck the motorcyclist!

If Twilight wasn’t written by a mormon, do you think Bella would have slept with the motorcyclist in New Moon?

realistic answer: no. Bella agrees with Edward that "love & lust keep the same company" for her (girl demisexual), she has abysmally low self esteem, & also she knows Charlie would ship her off to Florida if she showed up back home on the back of some dude's motorcycle. ain't no Mormon there

shitpost answer: hell to the fuckin yeah bestie. she spitefucked Mike Newton & climbed the ladder from there. she & her motorcycle boy became fwb, she got her septum pierced, cut & dyed her hair... it was a whole thing. mentally ill queen ❤️