#i open my account to be greeted by my deadname

[nekhcore]

i fucking LOVE being TRANSGENDER!!!

i LOVE being AMERICAN!!

the credit bureaus keep FUCKING UP my name change despite me providing them all documentation

suddenly i NO LONGER have a fucking FICO score!!

i spent an HOUR on the phone yesterday trying to get someone at experian to fix my split credit report

instead of fixing it they REVERTED the NAME on my ACCOUNT back to my DEADNAME!!

and i STILL cannot see my credit score!!!

[cupidiscalling]

it’s weird how much of a literal representation of my changing of google accounts is linked to my mental state (bear with me on this one). my home account allows me to control things on youtube like liking videos and accessing playlists, it’s like a representation of the control i have over my situation and how i can do things. my home account also just doesn’t let me access schoolwork and gives me the opportunity to relax and take my mind off of that. my personal account name is “lazy anxiety”, but as soon as i open my school account i’m greeted with my deadname and it follows me no matter where i go. when i make a doc it automatically puts my deadname as the name for the assignment and for every. single. one. i have waited until it finished loading then changed it. its tedious and i hate it from the bottom of my soul but i can’t help it. it seems like its following me as i work if i don’t. thank you for listening to my stupid ass rant.