#i often am too embarrassed abt them though... like i made a sideblog to talk abt the anime gacha game bc having it on main made me shy 😔

[arcadian-vampire]

hai!!! 15 and 19 for the autism ask game, please? no pressure of course 🫶🫶

(For the Autistic Ask Game here)

Hiii! ^-^

15. Tell me a fact about your special interest/stim toys/etc.

!!!!!! Oh boy, okay sO!!!!! Sorry this is gonna be unnecessarily long. But it's time for my favorite special interest fact + opinion :3

There's this silly anime gacha game I'm obsessed with (and have been obsessed with since I discovered it in December 2018, around the time the global server was launched), and one of the characters, my absolute favorite beloved baby boy Aither, was originally a girl :3

He was originally designed to be a princess, but at some point the devs were like "wait hang on actually, make him a prince and give him an older sister instead," and then they decided to scrap the older sister completely and just leave him on his own. There's still a few references to his sister on the official Facebook page, which is neat.

But ANYWAYS. Here's his earliest design on the left, with a slightly later sprite design (with an Easter alt! yippee!!) on the right. Very feminine cutie pie princesses

Aaaand here's his final design! Still quite feminine, but everyone (except one character who immediately gets corrected) refers to him as a prince. He ended up getting an alternate outfit where he wears his mother's dress for a special occasion, and the fandom absolutely lost their minds over it, mostly in gross ways 😮‍💨

In conclusion:

Transgemburrr (I think he's transmasc but comfy being ~girly~)

19. Do you rely on routines?

I think so! I have a morning routine (VERY important) and a night routine (less important mostly bc I'm Tired and don't care), but the middle of my day gets to just be Whatever. I also have little routines for stuff like showering and taking my noon meds 🎉 But I don't get too mad if I get interrupted, unless I'm already in a bad mood lol.

I Used to have a late-morning routine where I'd spend time studying Spanish, but I got frustrated with it and am "taking a break". Don't ask how long this break has lasted, dooon't even worry about it, it's all good 👍

Thank you for the ask!! 🥳💕

[koinotame]

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hi! it's me, nana / koinotame!

if you're wondering why i went inactive and then deleted, my mental health kind of (really) tanked... and i ended up deleting my blog in a fit.

it's getting better bit by bit though! and i've been wanting to get back into writing (and talking abt my unhinged/yan ideas i can't really talk to anyone else abt), so. here i am! for now, at least

as for my previously posted writing, there's some good news and some bad news: the bad news is that everything i wrote directly into tumblr (99% of snippets, a lot of ask answers, most exact content warnings, etc) is gone. the slightly less bad news is that iirc there were very very few posts of mine that weren't reblogged by anyone at all, so they're probably still out there? feel free to send them my way if you find any and i'll rb them. @/midnight-remembrance also has reblogged a couple of them! there's a couple snippets i have saved in some places, so i might repost those on my own as i find them, but there's very few of those. the good news is that anything longer (proper writing — oneshots, hcs, yan alphabet responses and so on, prompt responses, etc) is safely backed up where i originally wrote it! some of it is also on my ao3, which is the same username. feel free to send me asks about any you'd like to see again and i'll repost them! i might not post them if i feel too embarrassed about/wish i hadn't posted them, and i might rewrite/heavily edit some of them, but i think there's only a handful that fall into the former category and none of them were particularly popular. either way, no harm in asking!

as for some other updates: i'm a little divided on whether i want to keep posting explicit nsfw or not so we'll see. i might just keep it out of main tags. idk yet. regardless of what decision i make, this blog is still strictly 18+ and that will not be changing. since we can reply from sideblogs now, this is a sideblog and not my main now. why? sometimes i prefer to check up on a blog frequently instead of following them for a couple of reasons, but this felt very awkward when they were following me. so this being a sideblog relieves a bit of that stress. if this makes it sound like i have severe brain worms, it's because i do. to that effect though, if we interact every so often feel free to consider us mutuals regardless of whether or not i'm actually following you =w=b tbh i.............. am not really into genshin anymore. i might post about it here and there but i just Do Not (really) Care about it anymore. scara aside to some degree i also have no clue what's going on post inazuma lol whatever projects or commitments to writing or etc i had made beforehand. i forgot all of them so just pretend that never happened ok? ok i'll also probably be posting more sparsely, but we'll see! and (this is obviously the most important bit) i have no clue where i put the mika edit so we're back to my og classic pfp. the header scales terribly and is temporary, please ignore that too

all that aside, as a treat for anyone who sees this in time,

*roughly 6/22 done, but fairly quick to write. roughly one paragraph per character (sneak peek line: "it's not too hard to be discreet with his unique magic when someone really deserves to fall face down a flight of stairs. or three. oopsie. odd they don't remember it, huh? well, he had nothing to do with that.") **more realistic isn't quite the right word(s)... probably won't post this one to the main tags regardless. won't be doing all of the characters (only important/relevant ones) and won't be writing more about/expanding on, so this one is just like. a one off experiment sort of thing. overall less violent than most takes on the au + leans a bit (or lot, depending on how you look at it) more on the religious aspect of self aware aus. i wrote a couple paragraphs a while ago, then rewrote them, but i'll only finish/post them if there's interest for it (sneak peek line: "aether has deluded himself and cast You aside entirely on his own—and when You finally grace them with Your real presence, zhongli is certain aether will be the first to fall from Your grace.")

i have one other new thing immediately ready for posting that'll get posted in a couple of days but that one's pretty silly