#i need to start tafgging these properly so people can ufckin

[smileymoth]

i hate the fact that i prolly have autism bc theres no fcking reason for me to cry over this bc its got NOTHING to do with me but i just cant fucking HELP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and unrelated but i also just want to fast forward to september already so i could hopefully be over it and hopefully be more mentally stable and hopefully have lost enough that i cojuld get surgery i cant fcking keep up with all of these things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i dont want to do schoolwork while worrying about literally every other problem and world problem that exists .

is the reason im crying probably bc i slept thru entiredy of saturday while also having a dream abt x y z alongside my dad still being alive so now theres a song stuck in my head that makes me upset and i slept thru the entiredy of saturday for some reason and im hungry and touch starved and depressed and i hate myself and i cant force myself to go to the gym regularly anymore bc it feels like a chose amongst all these other issues i have yes probably but i still hte it and IM SO OVERWHELMED god i feel pathetic AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA