#i need to heal

[pwhl-mybeloved]

tfw ur hockey team hurt u real bad and u gotta do self care

[vsyrworld]

after all this shits happening and how ferrari ditch my bby boy like a sand bag, i need a distraction--

thank godd this scene is truly trully my go-to- comfort,, aaaaaaah i cant write angsty charlos. i caant 😭😭

(from - Milk teeth Chapter 3)

[wordsifelt]

Ppl send me queer shit pls i have been around too many cishet homophobic/transphobic ppl these days and i need a complete spiritual cleansing.

[overqchiever]

if anyone wants to give me jinx-centered fanfics

[baggy-holmes]

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[neanderthottt]

i’m getting strange urges to make horrible decisions and deliberately add chaos to my life !!

[meiloorunsmoothie]

tl5y 🫠, a sparknotes review

okay, round two! similar to the finding neverland post (basically a play by play of my thoughts while i watched), but this time no gifs...cause i'm lazy. i did add song titles though.

enter if you dare ⬇️

still hurting

so it's just occurred to me that i've never actually seen a movie with anna kendrick (minus trolls, i have seen that) (no i haven't seen pitch perfect)

i'm tempted to pause right now and read the letter

shiksa goddess

oh hi jere-OH...

poofy hair :D

see i'm smiling (apparently i had no thoughts during this song)

ack jamie 😬

moving too fast

THE. POOFY. HAIR.

the little jump!

the way she's just watching him while he's walking around the room singing 💀 (honestly same)

ah it's very nice to have visual context along with this song

ASHLEY

ASHLEY

ASHLEY

a part of that

i think i'm starting to understand what he means when he says he's a lot like jamie in real life

"for cathy" oh gosh i feel like this movie's going to really get me

the schmuel song

SCHMUEL

i love anna kendrick's deadpan-ness

why have i never put the two and two together that he's a writer so that's why he tells stories, hence schmuel 💀

NO IT GLITCHED ihavetorewind (rewindsbacktothebeginning)

SCHMUEL

a summer in ohio

betsy wolfe? that's a fun easter egg

OH THAT'S WHERE THAT EYEBROW GIF IS FROM

the next ten minutes

at this point, i've heard "the next ten minutes ago" so many times that i half expected laura osnes' voice to come in during this scene

this is a happy song but i'm sad

a miracle would happen/when you come home to me

oh gosh jamie 😭

okay but this song is a bop

ASHLEY

ASHLEY

ASHLEY

(yeah it's just going to be like this every time she shows up)

jamie...

climbing uphill

hey jason robert brown - how many cameos are in this movie 🤨

oh this is fun (but for real, this is me every time i'm on a stage)

i would like to read this "light out of darkness" book please

wait i'm confused - i thought cathy was telling it backwards. didn't they just get married? why is all going terribly in this song 💀

if i didn't believe in you

oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh

okay i wasn't sure where this was going when it started but...😳💀😭

the acting in the scene >>>, from both of them

i can do better than that

no. i don't want to see this after that.

blew me off with a heartfelt letter...

no don't cut the hair (clearly i prioritize all the right things)

nobody needs to know

ASHLEY...i can't tell if i like that she's the one jamie cheated with 😵‍💫

is this the girl from spiderman: homecoming (my brain is obviously focusing on the important things) (oh it is btw)

conscious, deliberate mistake.........

ack the shiksa goddess callback

goodbye until tomorrow/i could never rescue you

he's very growly in this movie

HIM IN THE BACKGROUND WRITING THE NOTE

ugh jamie. there's nothing to say.

i like the color contrasting in the movie though

oh this is a tragic medley

why is he carrying the suitcase instead of rolling it like a normal person

um. how dare this movie. i'm going to go rewatch finding neverland.

consensus: if you love jeremy jordan, you should watch this movie. also, if you hate jeremy jordan, you should watch this movie.

[runwayblues]

please tell me they don’t have a show tonight

[3-aem]

I learned that apparently they deleted the callout.

So where's my written equally public apology from everyone that day.

[bcyoureallthatmakessense]

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[gunsword]

When their texting nature is avoidant >>

[oreocoffee]

Went over to see my mans last night, I was drinking on my way there and then smoked with him. He threw my drink away and I let him. He told me to smoke instead and so I was like okay! We smoked with his friends and chilled. For some reason I was just angry because he wouldn’t let me go through his phone and was too busy to hangout with me during the week. He had his location on and answered my calls whenever I called him. Regardless, I still kept assuming he was seeing other people and I told him that. He reassured me a million times, as many times I questioned. I ended up telling him I need to leave and he was trying to figure why I was so upset. He was so calm and sweet the whole time. I know I hurt his feelings and I was crying on my way home. I am so attached and he knows…he even called and made sure I was home… he walked me to my car and sat in the car with me to make sure I was okay.

I really regret how I behaved and I know things would have worked out better if I listened to him and we talked things out. He’s a sweet heart and I wish him the best. I got so fucking attached to him and I know I hurt his feelings.

I need to learn that things can be solved by sitting down and talking about it. We can solve it or come to a conscious decision about things. I don’t know where I learned that when there is a problem, I have to run away or leaving is the solution. I need to relearn this and figure it out because the way I behaved was unlike me and it was not right. Or, was it right? Was it right to leave in that manner knowing whatever it was, it wasn’t for me.

I didn’t see room to “fix” the situation and I was not willing to during that moment.

UPDATE

I FUCKING DID THE SAME THING AGAIN AND NOW WE ARE NEVER SEEING EACH OTHER & I DONT FUCKING REGRET IT

[universalvibes]

Like okay last post about this ever I promise because I think I put my finger on it now.

[machiavellli]

now that I’m done writing about churches it’s time to write some smut to heal the soul

[mimi-croissant]

After finishing Banana Fish next on my list is Sasaki to Miyano and I am afraid of the whiplash

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Soup solves everything.