#i need more eu frens

[garoujo]

BEstie I’m NEVER safe with Childe mains! They zoomin OR THEY flirting with me OR I’m only safe if I use Zhongli. Pls save me a Childe main joined my world after a match, and I only played along in the match to win. (bc I’m a winner.) But they came to my world and continued…. I had to kick them

not the childe main following you home pls im akajakak </3 i played a game w a zhongli main who walked around the whole time it was so scary !!! like genshin michael myers i was shaking as a little clay pot like pls spare me @-@ !!!

[nerafris]

You’re sweet

I feel embarrassed because I have no idea what are you talking about, I had to search for every single game :(

…but the first scenario on wow seems hilarious if you want to piss off someone :p

Why do I have the impression that you are toxic towards people on multiplayer games? and if you don’t win you blame your teammates ahahah

I searched for MMO and couldn’t find anything, I’m sorry but what is even that :(

Unravel Two seems SO CUTE I might try

You should try Morocco Mint & Spices from Lipton or Masala Chai (made by yourself). They are quite good.

I’m so sorry you have to deal with that. And tbh I don’t think it’s your fault. But I do hope that every time you look in the mirror, you fall in love a little bit more with yourself every day and recognize the bravery, strength, and beauty that you possess. I also hope you find serenity to calm your heart and reduce your anxiety.

No need to be embarassed, there's such a huge variety of games that it's very easy to not intersect with a lot of them. Actually most people i know generally don't play any games i do and vice-versa. Actually your impression could not be more wrong :P I don't think i've been toxic to a single person in a multiplayer game in easily 15 years. There's very few things i hate more than it actually. Being mean to anyone, especially a stranger, for any reason whatsoever is completely unacceptable imo. Not only does it serve no purpose (i strongly dislike inefficiency (which is funny cause my brain is like the most inefficient thing ever but i digress)), but it also just specifically only harms people, and you never know what someone is going through, an offhand comment can have devastating consequences. If i witness someone i personally know being toxic to someone over a fricken video game, i will always instantly bring that to their attention and try to make them understand that it's extremely uncool behavior. I understand venting but there's infinitely better ways for it. If i participate in something and it fails i will always take responsibility and blame, usually way more than my share of it was but that's how i've been conditioned (my mistakes are the only things i can act on, so it only makes sense to only focus on those, and that then usually results in a magnified perception of said mistakes). This includes but isn't limited to team based games :3 MMO is a genre, the most famous example in it would probably be World of Warcraft. The genre isn't really that popular anymore, it kinda has too many issues to really work nowadays, but i love them ^^ Unravel Two is adorable and so much fun. You could check out the first one since that's a solo game, whereas the 2nd is definitely more fun with a fren :3 I'd love to try your recommendations but i'm doubtful i'd be able to get my hands on the lipton one. Eastern Europe and not being part of EU means fewer global products are available, and shipping is an insane pain in the butt. Masala Chai sounds doable so we'll try. I appreciate the kind words, and like i said, i'm trying to work through my stuff but it's rough and honestly feels kinda hopeless. I trust that gives some insight as to the hesitance for getting involved with someone. That's a lotta text, too much? Idk if i'm oversharing atp.

[emotionally-ralphunctioning]

Ralph, my fren, I need help, and it's more urgent than my need to dance cazacioc and drink vodka whenever I hear Katyusha and Kalinka! So, like, I have to finally convince Roger than whenever I say I need to do a line, I don't mean SNORT COCAINE, but actually, licking a line of sugar from the table. And when I say I love red mushrooms, I actually mean strawberries! And yes, I combine them!! When I talk about LCD, I actually mean my Smart TV plasma, not LSD! Ai se eu te pego, puta 😭 ~ Maurice

Pourquoi est-ce que tu es comme ça?

Maurice.

I swear to God.

Go to therapy. Go to a doctor. Go to America. Just get help. I am begging you.

Therapists are great. I met one once, and he was all like “Ooh, you have crippling abandonment issues, Ralph!” “Ooh, Ralph, we need to talk about your obsessive infatuation with Jack Merridew, Ralph!” “Ralph, you need to work through your trauma-induced fear of planes!”

Ridiculous.

Also, ‘red mushrooms’ is a super weird fraise (fingerguns) to describe strawberries.

[barrioseu]

⟨ ADRIA ARJONA. CIS FEMALE. SHE/HER. ⟩ though the mist might prevent some from seeing it, LEONOR BARRIOS is actually a descendent of A R E S. it’s still a question of whether or not the TWENTY-FIVE year old PSYCHOLOGY & LINGUISTICS major from ANTIGUA, GUATEMALA has taken after their godly parent completely, but the demigod is still known to be quite FEARLESS & SELFISH.

DOC / WANTED CONNECTIONS / APP INFO

hello, frens! ♡ this is leo ! i’m v excited for her to be here, however she is not. i’ve included a tldr version of who she is because the doc has stats, headcanon’s, and full bio. i still know nothing about pjo universe ( i’m so sorry ) so if i messed up somewhere, pls tell me because i tried looking up things but i’m not too confident in what i retained?? anyway, i would love to plot with everybody and without further ado, here’s leo:

tw: mentions of death, violence, & ptsd

born in antigua, guatemala  — her mom died during childbirth and leo ended up spending the first six years of her life in the local orphanage.

she still somewhat traumatized from that, specifically an incident that took place where she was left in a small, dark room by herself. you may catch her outside at night on her own but you won’t see her go near any small spaces. 

she was adopted at the age of six by a prominent guatemalan-american lawyer who was highkey in the middle of a midlife crisis. life was good for a while because of her. she was pretty much spoiled by her mom during those years.

one thing she remembers fondly is all the traveling they did when she wasn’t in school. she’s still in awe of all the places they were able to visit and had planned to ‘honor’ her mom by picking up the traveling again once she left camp elecktra.

her world came crashing down shortly before she turned twelve when an incident with a mean girl turned deadly. leo picked a fight with her and ended up sending her to the hospital to which her mom was furious about, only fueling leo’s rage that day even more. a monster attacked shortly after this fight with her mom and ended up killing her. a satyr who she thought was her therapist came to the rescue not really and took her to camp elecktra. 

she was a camper from ages 12-18 where she was pretty much ready to rip someone to shreds, at least for the first year or so. she was reluctant to participate in anything that didn’t involve punching, kicking, or screaming.

there was one camper in particular that she could not get alone with. in an ironic turn of events, they discovered they had more in common than they thought and became attached at the hip. they were the reason leo started opening up a little more, becoming just a tad less violent and a bit more friendly.

they had made plans to travel the world upon leaving camp at eighteen. super exciting stuff ! her friend then suggested they go on a quest - it was leo’s first and only. they had almost completed it when they were attacked out of seemingly nowhere and leo lost her best friend that day. 

leo shut down again after that and instead of now honoring her mom and her best friend, she flew back to guatemala to see wtf had happened in the six years she was gone. people were very confused because they figured she had been kidnapped and killed, too. leo wasn’t impressed and was reluctant to offer any answers.

she found out her mom had drafted a will shortly after adopting her that left her everything, which was quite a bit. she used that as a clean start and bought herself a little apartment in antigua as she studied at usac and worked as a bartender for the next two years.

things were okay until another monster attacked and while leo couldn’t have cared less if others died, for reasons i still need to figure out she still made the decision of attending eonia.

she started off as a criminology major before switching to linguistics dabbling in different languages before declaring a double major in behavioral psychology and spanish.

she’s still pissed off that she has to be at eu.

[ruzhansky]

i pray this will never end, i have my heart open wide

This report is not going to cover my teams, spreads and so on, as it was in 2015. I even don’t know if I should call it a ‘report’, I just want to slop down some thoughts about 2017. Have a nice read.

Why did I return to vgc? I DONT KNOW. As you might remember, I was a tryharder in 2015, but Nats loss and Autumn Series event loss completely broke me. 2016 season wasn’t a thing I’d like to try out (especially with the 2015 wounds) and I got some serious mental health problems in 2016. New pokemon game was a thing that could possibly make my days a bit brighter, and yea, I liked the game, the tapus, the ultra beasts and I became curious about the new format. The first russian tournament was announced to be held in late December, but I was busy with exams prep and haven’t even completed the main story. Though the tournament was tempting. I tested my first ideas on PS which included Instruct spam xd, but Nihilego with proper support showed a real potential at our early days of metagame. I could make it to the tournament (MSS Q1, wow Russia got midseasons...) and somehow won it. It’s like WHATTT how could i... but still. This thing lit something inside me and I decided to give that season a chance.

this is a very bad and old drawing of my mss q1 team xd sorry

January brought the first meta shift, and I started struggling with the team I had. I accidentally joined a random coversation on twitter and then I texted PephanVGC something like hey, did you remember we wanted to talk about teams. And he was very nice to me right from the start, he helped me out with the team and then we started to chat about everything. About friends, life, our past, loneliness and other troubles, and I thought I’ve found a real soulmate. We started to chat every day, but some days ago we were complete strangers to each other. This is so great.

Pephan shared a team with me I instantly fell in love with. It was Winter, so yeah Hail was cool to use, and that was the warmest winter I have :3 though Arcanines already were everywhere, and I removed Life Orb from his Koko to make it Electrium Z Koko AND IT BECAME MY MASCOT FOR THE WHOLE SEASON (i thought so before specs has come to mind...)  Also I played the same team with Pephan at Melbourne Challenge, and I got paired with him on r2... I lost in a close set and got broken so much, but he still helped me a lot with that and taught me how to treat losses less painfully. I love Pephan.

February IC poster with @Elveman yeah we had fun once

Then I built an AFK team too but with fucked item choices (firium arcanine just why), but I also had Scarf Porygon-Z and it was amazing to use. 

I brought Hail team to St Peter (yeah I travelled to St Petersburg) and Moscow PCs, got 1st and 2nd, AFK PZ team - to MSS Q2 AND I WON AGAIN. I was wondering why my enemies rivals didn’t visit our events, but ok, it was not my problem. Especially when our 2016 nats champion became my main enemy.

This was my season flow. I traveled, I played, I was studying at university and it was my graduation year, I had a job and tried to combine it with studying and pokemon, sometimes it affected my results. I was invited to represent Pokemon at Hinode 2017, the huge annual Japanese event in Moscow, with my main rival, famous russian pokemon community moderator and some TCG guys. It was definitely a nice experience. I got money from that just because I told people how amazing pokemon is, I teached them how to battle and showed that there’s much more than Pokemon Go. Yes, I don’t like Go. All pokemon players don’t like Go here.

b-but they’re so young!!! pic from Hinode.

Well, I thought season should have something else besides MSS and PCs, and hell yes, 8 Russian Special Events at 8 different cities were announced in May. Moar travelling! We(my rival, me and our tcg frens) decided to go to St Peter (again), Perm, Astrakhan and Ufa. Someone decided to go to all 8 SE because he wanted to.

The big-big drama started at our community but I don’t wanna share it here.

I graduated, traveled and played, and since my rival missed 2 Specials due to his own graduation and some other issues, my invite made a bit more real. Wait. THE DREAM OF MAKING WORLDS BECAME REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I still needed to put a lot ot work into it. Top 1 vgc gets paid invite, I was 1st, but tcg guy with a good amount of vgc points was second (because he always played vgc after tcg at special events). I thought he will play TCG after all and he won’t interfere with my road to worlds, but I found out that he is going to the city we’re all decided not to go, to grind some tcg AND vgc points. I got angry as a rival and made an impulsive decision to go to Irkutsk Special before Moscow Special. And I went. And got some important points. And pretty locked up my invite. But I said to myself that I shouldn’t sсream it out loud and dance in the shower before the official ceremony in the end of the season. I still had Moscow event.

Huh. Our system this year allowed travelling, and 8 Special Events were held in June and July. Because I had the will and money to travel, because I got a job and combined it with studying at university and somehow haven’t lost it, I visited 6 Special Events. People started to shittalk me. I am wallet warrior, I am noob, I am not worlds caliber, I bought an invite and so on. I even partly agree. At that point winning russian events isn’t close to winning or doing well at EU/US events. Not every SE at regions gave us a strong competition. I am deadly far from WolfeyNails/Markus/etc level. But even with that, should I leave my spot and act like a fucking noble idiot? ‘Oh I am bad and not worlds caliber, guess I should give up now’. Yes. Definitely. Absolutely. It sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it? I have a game I love, a desire to travel, a job and money for that, so why not. If you don’t play and try, you can never ‘get good’. Sitting on a sofa and thinking ‘oh I will never be good enough so I better don’t play’ is a shitty mindset as well. And then twitter drama about ‘free worlds not being elitist’ happened, I’ve become so sick of that.  

Moscow Special. The long-awaited end of the season. Really long-awaited because I felt like every day had 48 hours. I didn’t have special plans for Moscow. I didn’t want win it out as hell, I just wanted everything to end. And it ended. 

the event

party after d1

i remember how to draw

the main scene

turn your main enemies to judges lol

#lifegoals

<3

Despite tons of personal shit happened to me this season, apparently I found myself a better person. i don’t know if this is growing up, I am already 21 and difference between 19 and 21 doesn’t seem too big, though my mind and attitude to some things have noticeably changed.

Got rid of fake elitism, as it was in my early days of competitive and my -most famous year- (2015). I can’t even imagine now but then I thought that competitive is the BEST part we can have about pokemon, and everyone else who likes casual playing or anime are absolute losers and can never be as cool as us. Your dream is completing dex? Breeding a shiny? You love some anime characters and wanna watch fuckin dummies’ anime forever? Uh, dream of becoming a xXxWORLDCHAMPIONxXx just disparages your shitty life goals. I laughed at people i don’t know in person and who didn’t do anything bad to me.

I don’t know what changed my mind in particular. It’s like I just woke up with thoughts “why should I do this”. I saw that people who are not only about competitive can have and reach their own pokemon dreams, they’re valuable too. They can travel not only for competitive. For love to the franchise all of us are fond of. I am sorry for being an asshole :)

Got some skills of loving myself. Yup, y’all might know it was a big problem. Tl,dr: I haven’t a reason to. My only ray of light was being successful enough in vgc and when I wasn’t it became a catastrophe. Bad runs at IC, losses at regionals stages, bad BS sessions? Oh god, i am so shitty, i hate myself - and it was the softest thing I said. It was a mix of hatred and sadness and absolutely wasn’t a great thing to feel.  It cost me a real depression in 2016 - though I didn’t even play that season, it hit me hard. I let it happen, I let myself think and treat the game that way. Now it is slightly better, and it also feels so new. It’s like WOAH you actually may not hate yourself for a loss? In 2015 I had my Nats spot already reserved, but every mediocre regionals stage run made me feel terrible. This season I was fighting for the Worlds (Worlds > Rus Nats) right from the start with no ‘safe options’, I was losing too, but I could cope with that. Though losing is always sad. The difference is in being frustrated and hating yourself for days or week and being frustrated and hating yourself for an evening, and then you’re saying something like enough, it won’t make me better, learning and practice will make me better, so let’s play tomorrow. Pephan helped me out a lot with this. Tons of love to Pephan.

Well, also I reached a dream. When I was 17, I watched 2013 Worlds with excitement, though I understood nothing because I was an OU child. New format? Big event? That was very unfamiliar but holy crap so breathtaking! Two guys were fighting for the honourable title with some beautiful teams and strategies, I felt their drive even when I was so far away. That blew my mind. I told myself that I want to visit Pokemon World Championships too. The long way of getting better started in 2013 and will never end. I won Russian VGC 2014 big event and got closer to my dream. I qualified to Russian National Championships in 2015 and almost made my dream real, finishing 2nd. I got broken and gave up because sometimes it was too hard to keep up. I remembered how I sang lyrics from “Wavin Flag”: ‘when I get older, I will be stronger’. The dream wasn’t dead.  And I tried again. And I did it. The most trivial thing I can say now is do not give up and fight for your dreams, but this is really true!

Every Trainer has a choice To listen to that voice inside. I know the battle may be long, Winners may have come and gone I will carry on! Yeah, this dream will last forever, And this dream will never die, We will rise to meet the challenge every time. (Advanced Challenge) Yeah, this dream keeps us together, This shows that you and I Will be the best that the world's ever seen, Cause we always will follow this dream!

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Nothing can be perfect in one second. I still have issues with rivalry and with the community, though I wonder how we will do in 2018.

Thanks for reading and, finally I can say it, see you at Worlds!

Shout-outs to: PurpurVGC, Loui, PephanVGC, Elveman, Sergey, Annet Ilvers, unhealthy rivalry and Havkai for making this season amazing.