#i need a better writer to interpret this and translate it into smarter words

[feligayzed]

Hello it's me again this is a half formed thought but

What if painter compares they're overclocked parts to scars

Like they know that they can be fixed but they don't want to those broken parts of them are still parts of them

Sebastian is covered in scars because of his natural body but those scars also show that he has survived he has lived another day

So what if painter sees they're overclocked parts and they're faulty code like that yeah they've been through a lot but they have survived

As I said this is a half formed thought also I finished the drawing and I sent it to you

GOD I AM SICK.

The sentiment is making me want to throw up (/pos) but I also have to consider the fact that unlike scars on a biological being, malfunctioning code is something that will actively screw them up and affect their day-to-day processes in, at the very least, a super inconvenient way :,) so they atl get that mended along with the new bod

BUT on a less literal train of thought- unlike Sebastian, the damage that was done to them doesn't reveal itself in such a physical form. Surviving their attempts, the resulting BPD-codedness, it's all a very mental thing and part of the healing process for them wouldn't necessarily be "overcoming" these things per se, but learning how to be content with themself and their body/code. Finding that passion for art again, appreciating the beauty of nature, coming to terms with the fact that what happened was literally the most fucked up thing in the world and they won't be able to go back to what they had, but can instead grow from it and cultivate something better. I'm probably not articulating this how I want to I am not the ideas guy BEAMING THE VISIONS INTO YOUR MIND

You did??!?!! Oh my gosh I'm going to beat Tumblr, its been eating my messages again 😡😡🤬🤬😡🤬😡🤬🤬🤬 GOING TO SEE