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featherymainffins · 5 days ago

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One day I will get stoned to death for publishing an analysis that says that a particular fucked up and evil character fits the diagnostic criteria AND lived experiences of pwASPD and pwNPD, and when that happens I want you all to remember that I did not write that man and it is not my fault that he's both extremely ASPD-coded (and somewhat NPD-coded) and also evil.

Like man if you don't believe me play the game yourself.

#disclaimer: the authors acknowledges that some of the diagnostic criteria suck ass #disclaimer 2: please man you gotta believe me I didn't decide to just give him those diagnoses for funsies #i legitimately keep redoing the analysis every year or every two years and after about 3 years of that (so when i was like 19)#i went 'huh. that's kinda NPD though innit?' and then i slapped that onto him and the next year #i slapped my past self for that and went 'booo you are an idiot and a fool and you can't just do that. however i do agree that #he's kinda showing like most of the symptoms. and thinks like the pwNPD i know.'#but i peeled that diagnosis off anyway and the next year i went 'hey past mes what were you smoking? like you were not wrong #but if i forget about everything I've ever thought about him; i think he might actually fit ASPD more? but unsure?'#and then i thought about it long and hard for 2 years. and this year i finally learned how to score MMPI-2 so i did what any #normal being would do and filled it out the way he would. obviously there's the problem of me being unable to fill out some of #the questions which did skew the results a little but the MMPI-2 was supposed to serve as something that would either help me confirm #my suspicion or that would tell me that I'm wrong. and hey it did confirm all my suspicions and more. so.#inb4 'oh so you think the evil character you hate has these marginalised personality disor-' NO PLEASE LISTEN TO ME #look at me. hey look at me. listen to what I'm saying. i don't hate him at all he's so fascinating to me he's like a chew toy i will #never let go of until the day i die and even then you'll have to bury me with that chea toy. whenever someone draws him inaccurately #i must exercise mindfulness lest i turn into an enraged chimpanzee or perhaps a wild hog yearning for blood #everyone keeps ironing him. yassifying him. like no!! you will look at my man as he is and you will like it #anyway my point is that if anything the fact that he fits those pds fleshes him out. like. seriously. if you lean into them you can #write him with way more depth and humanity. so.

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