#i miss my first little dog so much and as my current dog gets older it just i cant take it

[pycobutterpie]

Stranger in my kitchen

Summary: Dean goes full to protective dad mode, as he sees a stranger in his kitchen touching his daughter.

Pairing: Dean x reader

Warnings: firing a gun in front of a baby

Word Count: 1392

A/N: English isn’t my first language, so please don't judge me for using a translator for this original text. I wrote it together with my friend Minnie who has added the part of Lu and Y/N. We are so exited to add something to this beautiful community of writing for dean. Also this is my first fanfic ever published outside my inner circle of writing friends. (In our story it also became true, that Dean is Bens real father. And Bobby never died. ;) )

[Y/N's POV] It was actually a normal day at the Winchesters' house. Dean had been on a hunt with Bobby and should be home soon. Ben was still sleeping his bed upstairs. The two dogs were running around in the garden and also needed a little time to themselves… Baby Cassidy was already awake with her mother Y/N. Cassy was in damn good hands and was currently sitting in a little baby bouncer on the kitchen counter and Y/N was clearing out the dishwasher. But they weren't alone. On one of the bar stools sat a man, not much older than Y/N and Dean, in a smart dark blue suit and white shirt that wasn't completely buttoned up. In his hand was a steaming cup of coffee and on his hand was a ring with a black rectangular stone in it. With the other hand, he nudged Cassy's bouncer and smirked at her. Y/N had just tied her hair up in a bun and was wearing just a top and hot pants as she crouched behind the counter at the dishwasher. Cassy started laughing and just babbled to herself.

[Dean's POV] Hunting. An activity in which Dean felt completely free and could rely entirely on his instincts. It was what he had learned, what he was born for. Making the world a better place, saving lives. The family business.

For once, it wasn't about changing diapers or talking to stuffy principals. No, Wendigos didn't talk and Dean understands Bobby without words. So the men had chased the thing in the nearby St. Jeffreys mine for a few hours and finally sent it to purgatory. It was life like before the unexpected baby happiness. The hunt had been all about instinct, speed and accuracy. That was what Dean had been living for the last few hours.

And that was what he needed now, when he saw a strange man sitting at his kitchen table, holding out his hand for his Cassidy. The strange man was wearing a suit. He was sitting with his back to the doorway through which the hunter had just stepped. An advantage, if only for a split second.

And the pistol was already in Dean's hand, loaded with silver bullets, aimed at the stranger's back.

Dean pulled the trigger immediately.

There were no thoughts clouding his mind. No details that he noticed. Shoot first, ask questions later. That had always been the motto. At least that of John and Dean Winchester. The bullet that Dean hoped would save his daughter went off with a loud bang. Then his gaze was diverted by a person appearing from behind the counter. It was Y/N, who Dean's subconscious had classified as missing before. That's why he hadn't hesitated for a moment to shoot the stranger. Because nobody was allowed to get too close to his little Cassy. No one.

If you had time to look at Dean, you'd see a serious guy with soot and dust on his face, trousers and jacket. A bloody scratch adorned his left cheek, his knuckles were cracked and his palms were scraped open.

[Y/N's POV] Y/N hadn't given any thought at all to the fact that her cousin Lu had announced himself. Twenty minutes before his arrival. Of course, that was typical of him, as always. If he announces himself at all. But she was a good hostess after all, offering her visitor a coffee immediatly. And although he wasn't purely human, she knew he posed no danger whatsoever. Not to Ben, not to her, let alone to Cassy. She had even asked him to help her with some of her research into Cassy's powers and how to secure certain parts of them. But nonetheless, she knew Dean would be back later today. But she just figured the situation could be resolved with a simple round of introductions. But that wasn't the case. Dean came in in the manner of his father and started shooting at everything he didn't know and couldn't categorize. Great…

But Lu was quicker. He had already heard the footsteps crunching on the smooth tiled floor. Because Dean's shoes didn't look particularly clean from the hunt in the forest and so he also heard the safety catch on the gun and then automatically raised his hand towards Dean and the bullet made it out of the barrel of the gun but fell to the floor just before it hit his suit.

Y/N screamed briefly and slapped her hand over her mouth, but then saw how battered Dean looked… "Baby! What happened?" She had also dropped a cup that she had just taken out of the dishwasher and then immediately ran over to Dean, took the gun out of his hand and stuck it securely in the back of her waistband.

Lu had stood up in the meantime and straightened the front of his Armani suit and then looked over at Cassy again and stroked her lightly over her small hand. "Well, it looks like your daddy in a damn bad mood…" He looked to Dean with a grin now, being slightly provocative of course… But that was just the way he was. Otherwise, he was a kind-hearted person, if you could call him that…

[Dean's POV] Dean lips twitched in anger as the guy stopped the bullet just like nothing. That wasn't human. Something like that shouldn't be in this house. Briefly, he froze slightly as Y/N took the gun away from him and remained totally calm. She even seemed taken aback by Dean's reaction. Only slowly did he realize that she could also have an insurance agent visiting or someone from the youth welfare office. But that was out of the question, because the man was totally unimpressed by the fact that he had almost been shot.

What was wrong with the guy and his mocking grin? Dean looked at Y/N in amazement, because she must have guessed what had happened. He almost nagged at her: "A strange, supernatural guy is trying to touch my daughter. This maybe?" Long slimy fingers trying to hurt a cute baby. But not in Dean's kitchen!

Quickly, the hunter rushed to Cassidy and picked her up from the rocker to his dirty arms. The comforting smell of fresh baby skin and diapers came into his mind and grounded him a little. The little girl didn't quite know whether to be happy or cry and looked a little frightened.

Dean turned his child away from the stranger so that he couldn't touch her again. The protective father turned threateningly to the suit guy: "Get your paws off her or you'll have mine in your face!" He would love to deform that polished face a little, given the stranger's audacity. Dean protectively placed a hand on Cassy's head. Only Y/N's light-heartedness kept the hunter halfway to the ground. Eagle-eyed, he tried to spot something about his girlfriend. Some strange behavior. Was she under a spell? "So, what's this, huh?" he asked, still growling slightly.

[Y/N's POV] Lu stood there grinning, his hands buried in his pants pockets by now and leaning against the counter in the kitchen, really very relaxed and not at all intimidated. He then picked up his coffee cup, spread his little finger and simply watched the spectacle that was unfolding between the two of them. As panicked, angry and heroic as Dean was acting, it really amused the cousin.

Y/N rolled her eyes, but then realized that she should have warned Dean that Lu was coming over. She ran a hand through her hair and then said, "Dean…please… If there's someone in this house, I let them in here, otherwise Evangeline and Bones would have struck. And I told you about my cousin Lu from Vegas back then, didn't I? May I introduce…my cousin Lu from Vegas…yes, Lu is not human. He's a warlock. And yes, I invited him here to think about this magical barrier for Cassy's powers and to talk to him. But that won't work if you just shoot him. He's my biological cousin and I hope we've settled the issue now!", she said with a sigh. "Lu? This is Dean… My fiancé and father of my daughter. He's not usually that pissed off. But with Cassy, he sees red… And he has an aversion to strange men in suits…"

[heartstopper-tword]

Prompt #33 for N & C ler/lee please

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Prompt #33: "Oh? You want me to tickle you that badly?"

Missing You Making Me Laugh

Two weeks away from each other was enough.

Charlie had known Nick was going on holiday with his family well in advance. Nick had told him about his family's tradition of traveling to Menorca every year to get together with the rest of his extended family, and how one day he wanted to take Charlie with him. Even a few hours apart from one another at school was agonizing for the both of them in general, so two weeks in different countries was absolute hell.

Luckily, Nick had kept his promise of calling Charlie every night to talk to him, checking in on his mental health back home and updating him about his cousins' antics around the vacation house. He'd send him pictures of the dogs together, him and other relatives, and so on, but Charlie still felt lonely without the older boy next to him.

He wasn't afraid to let his boyfriend know how he felt when he'd call, and every time Nick would answer with, "I know, I miss you too. It's only a few more days and I'll be back." Then he'd give him that classic, charming Nick Nelson smile that always stole Charlie's heart.

It wasn't just Nick's company Charlie was missing. It was something else. Something that made Charlie blush whenever he thought about it, giddiness and nerves overtaking him on the inside.

Charlie was known by his friends to be extremely ticklish. He, Tao, Elle, and Isaac had had their fair share of tickle fights and ambushes, and for as long as he could remember, Charlie very nearly was always being ganged up on. He couldn't help it, of course. He'd always been a walking tickle spot since he was little, Tori taking advantage of it as her duty of being the older sibling. It was something he'd tried and obviously had failed at hiding from Nick once they began dating, more out of embarrassment than anything.

When Nick had figured out Charlie's ticklishness, he'd gushed about how adorable he found it and that it just added to one of the things he loved best about him.

Charlie had been extremely embarrassed at first, but slowly became comfortable with the fact that Nick wasn't weirded out by him. In fact, Nick tickled him at almost every chance he got, almost anywhere they were. It made Charlie feel overjoyed by the fact that someone wasn't afraid to be physically affectionate with him, even if it meant being at the receiving end of it all.

But now, Charlie almost felt starved by this absence. He didn't have Nick whispering teases into his ear as he held him close against his chest. He didn't have him chasing him around his house and cornering him before tickling him into hysterics. He missed Nick's goofy self whenever he got into his moods, and he wanted it more than anything. And he needed that now.

He was currently sitting at his desk in his bedroom, on one of his daily calls with his boyfriend. The sun was setting through the window, and Charlie knew he didn't have much time until he needed to get ready to head off to bed. He could hear Nick talking about his afternoon, helping to babysit the younger of his cousins, but he wasn't truly listening. His thoughts kept going to that one specific thing he had on his mind all day.

"Charlie?" On the screen, Nick's face was filled with concern, his head tilted slightly. "What's wrong? You look all flushed."

Charlie cleared his throat, "I-I'm fine." Then as an afterthought, "Sorry."

"No," Nick shook his head, his eyes narrowing. "No S-words from you, sir. I thought we banned that word for good."

Charlie bit his lip, his heart racing in his chest. "Oh yeah, I forgot. Sorry."

Nick wasn't oblivious. He could see the beginning of that cheeky smirk even through the screen of his phone.

"Charles Francis Spring," He said slowly, causing Charlie to shiver in his chair, "Are you purposely trying to rile me up right now?"

Charlie felt like his whole being was on fire from how hard he was blushing. Even through the phone screen he couldn't look Nick in the eye.

"Talk to me. What are you thinking in that pretty little head of yours?"

"I-I-" the younger swallowed, adrenaline pumping through his veins. He knew Nick had caught on to what he wanted. Of course he had. Nick could read Charlie like an open book. It felt like he was right there in his bedroom with him.

"Is there something you want from me?" Nick couldn't help his own smirk from appearing on his face, raising an eyebrow at his boyfriend teasingly.

"Stooop," Charlie whined, covering his face with his hands, a nervous giggle escaping his lips.

"I'm just asking a question!" Nick laughed, and Charlie shook his head, still hiding his face. After a moment of silence, Nick leaned in a little. "Charlieee..."

"Do I have to say it?" Charlie asked, finally peaking through his fingers at his boyfriend and trying not to combust.

"I'd love to hear it."

They kept their eyes locked with one another, both of them grinning like idiots. Finally, Charlie let out a long sigh, looking down at his hands.

"I- I want you to..." His voice was barely audible, and Nick chuckled as he trailed off. "What? I'm sorry, you want me to...?"

"You know what." Charlie said playfully exasperated, and Nick crossed his arms over his chest, remaining silent.

Charlie's leg was bouncing under his desk, and he let out another sigh, squirming in his seat. "Iwantyoutotickleme."

"Again?"

He rolled his eyes. "I want you to... tickle me."

"And it finally comes out." Nick leaned back again in his chair, looking at his boyfriend smugly.

"Shut up."

"Oh? You want me to tickle you that badly? You miss me teasing you and playing with you? You miss me making you laugh so hard you can barely breathe? You miss me making you all flustered to the point you can't speak in complete sentences?"

"Shut up!" Charlie squealed, closing his eyes as nervous giggles began pouring out of his mouth. He could almost feel the sensation of Nick poking at him playfully, and it was driving him nuts.

"Oh Char, just you wait until I get back. Because I miss it too. I've nearly gone insane without hearing your adorable laughter. I miss seeing you squirm underneath me. So as soon as I get home, you better be ready. We'll have to make sure my mum isn't home. She'll think I'm murdering you."

"Nicholas, I will hang up on you." Charlie threatened, though by the tone of his voice, Nick knew he wasn't serious. However, he decided to egg him on once more. "Go ahead. That'll just seal your fate even more."

"Ugh, stop!" Charlie grabbed his phone, both boys laughing at this point. "You're impossible!"

"Okay, okay." Nick raised his hands, finally relenting. "You're just too cute to not tease you."

Charlie scoffed, moving to his bed and falling onto his back, his phone raised above him. "You're a menace, you know that?"

"Oh, I know." Nick winked, and Charlie felt his heart flutter in his chest. "Anyways, I have to get going. My family's going to be eating dinner soon. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"Okay." Charlie felt slightly disappointed. He always hated hanging up with Nick at the end of a call.

Nick must've sensed his change of moods, and his expression softened. "Only a few more days, mon amour." He whispered, and Charlie nodded.

"Only a few more days."

[sleepystarryskies]

just saw your reply and id love to hear regressor kate headcanons if you have any!!! she’s my absolute favorite :3c

I had so much fun doing these thank you for asking, i love regressor kate too!! currently rewatching hawkeye and it’s probably one of my favourite shows within the mcu !!

Little!Kate Bishop Headcanons

🏹 When she’s feeling small i think she likes to go by Katie

💜 I think she’s had some form of regression since her early teen years, due to trauma. But she’s insecure about it and hides it from her mum, locking herself away and such.

🧸 She’s got a stuffie dog called ‘Pluto’ which she’s had since she was really young which is her favourite thing ever when shes small. Has had many meltdowns when its missing or it needs to be washed.

🐕 She’s quite open about her regression within people she trusts a lot as she gets older, I think Clint would find out after the shows set/christmas time.

⭐️Yelena would eventually know and become the best auntie ever even if little katie is nervous around her at first.

🏹 Clint definitely got her one of those bow and arrow sets for kids with the velcro targets for a birthday as a joke but she loves it and uses it all the time.

💜 She’s a talker, when shes slightly older in her age range (5/6) she will talk about anything and everything, tv shows, her stuffies, her next birthday, i mean anything!!

🧸 When she’s feeling younger (1-2) she babbles, random words or just making noises or blowing raspberries for the fun of it- she’s a baby why shouldn’t she?

🐕 She’s an energetic kiddo, loves to run wild in the park with Lucky the pizza dog, climb trees and scare the daylights out of Clint by doing so.

⭐️ When her energy runs out or she’s feeling younger she loves to nap with Lucky, and this girl can sleep anywhere, the sofa, her bed, the floor, lucky’s bed if its big enough- anywhere if shes comfy enough.

🏹 Poor baby does have nightmares sometimes though, but luckily enough if she’s feeling small she’s usually hanging around with Clint or Yelena who can help. Laying with her, playing with her hair, or Yelena talking to her in Russian oddly helps.

💜 She’s so fussy when she’s little, Clint has to sneak vegetables into sauces and cut fruit into cute shapes for her to eat. Yelena’s not so fussed, she will happily let the girl live off of mac n cheese and juice.

🧸 She eventually meets Laura who loves little Kate, but they aren’t as close as Kate is too the other two, she’s able to babysit if neither are available though.

🐕 Clint’s kids love Kate when she’s big or small, they play with her either way as she’s usually in a toddler/kid space around them, and they love how an adult will play dress up or run riot in the garden with them.

⭐️ As much as she goes by Katie, Clint often calls her ‘kid’ or ‘kiddo’. Yelena calls her ‘Kitty’ while big Kate insists she hates it, little Kate is another story, she loves it.

🏹 She is an outdoorsy kid, loves to play in the mud, jump in puddles after it rains, and make little houses for bugs in cardboard boxes.

💜 This girl chews, a lot, her sleeves, her nails, even poor Pluto’s ears have faced her teeth. She has a few pacis but i don’t think there her first choice as she can’t talk with them, so Yelena gets her some chewy necklaces which she loves -especially one in the shape of a pizza!!

🧸 Yelena braids Kate’s hair a lot, either due to Kate wanting them to match, or she needs to calm down and the feeling helps her relax.

🐕 As much as she loves being outdoors, if its too rainy or cold she stays indoors as she doesn’t wanna get sick. Clint will make fun shaped pizza’s with her, and Yelena will happily get a bit messy painting or doing crafts with her to keep her entertained though!

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That’s all i could think of at the moment, hopefully thats what u wanted and feel free to ask for other characters/send more requests!!!

[mechalily]

fir branches, tied with red cord.

hello everyone! this writing is a secret santa present for precious @lovely-rubeum, who's works are a must-read for Thoma fans.

(🍂) tags: fluff (flashbacks), angst (currently), small age gap (2 years), fem!reader.

(⭐) spoiler tags: abandoment.

„ ♪ Last Christmas I gave you my heart, but you gave it away the very next day..“ New Year songs could've been heard everywhere. Layers of snowy crystals covered roofs and columns, fences and street lamps, making the light fuzzy. It's been six months since you left your homeland and went to university in another city. Yes, unlike your quiet little town with no kind of gaities and very few inhabitants who all knew each other, the city had much more to offer: wild parties every night, tons of cafes and restaurants, huge 20-floor shopping centers and different varieties of professional paths to follow. But your heart belonged to the calm peace of the town, soft sunbeams in the mornings, endless pinkish sky with plum-colored fluffy clouds — such dear memories were engraved in your soul. And, of course, your constant source of warmth whenever loneliness of an outsider hit you too hard was your childhood friendship with Thoma.

Thoma, who's hair reminded you of straws, who's green eyes shined brightly, who's genuine smile painted your cheeks with a prominent blush. Although you never communicated since he moved, reminiscence of your innocent tender bonds was still precious to you. 

"Does he even remember me?" you wondered at times, looking up at the sky, gazing upon stars, so close yet so far, just like Thoma himself.

You were 7, he was 9. He was a "big boy" with responsibilities much bigger than yours. His family wasn't very financially stable: the father went missing two years ago, the mother worked two jobs so she appeared at home just to sleep and to cook something for her son, who also worked hard everyday, mowing lawns and walking dogs in order to get some money.

Your family was totally opposite. Huge inheritance allowed your parents to live as they pleased, going on trips every year and spoiling their beloved daughter — you — with tons of clothes, toys and sweets. At times, when you acted capriciously, your mom scoldingly reminded you of poor Thoma.

"Honey, you shouldn't take everything for granted. You are living a very comfortable life, unlike some people who weren't born that lucky. Think of the neighbor’s boy! Only two years older yet already working. Behave and take an example"

You sobbed yet didn't start crying in rage like you always did. After all, mom was right. Sometimes, on snowy winter evenings, you could see Thoma from your balcony. He cleared snow with a shovel twice his size. You never saw him playing with other kids or doing silly things natural for his age. Actually, he didn't have friends at all due to being constantly busy.

Christmas arrived, and your parents showered you with gifts on this occasion. Wearing new boots, cute hat and a coat, you went out into the yard to build a snowman. You saw a glimpse similar to a dark spot on a pure white snow. It turned out to be Thoma, dressed in some rags — the boy carried heavy packages, which was visibly difficult for him. 

"Lemme help ya," you volunteered out of nowhere, grabbing a package's strap. 

"You sure? It's heavy..." he hesitantly mumbled.

"I'm billion percent sure. Let's be friends!" you blurted out, steam curling out of your mouth. 

Thoma froze in place. It was the first time ever anyone suggested to befriend him. You two were breathing heavily, dragging bundle along the street in quietness. You started feeling worried due to him keeping silent, but suddenly cheery voice interrupted the hush:

"Sure, let's be friends! What's your name?" Thoma smiled widely, exposing teeth. 

You introduced yourself, and that was the day your life has entirely changed.

You were 11, he was 13. Even after enrolling into middle school and making friends with his peers Thoma still valued you the most. He picked you up after classes, treated to home-made meals, played games with you and helped when it came to studying. School wasn't easy for him. Working part-time and taking care of his mother in a hangover took all of his free time. Thoma expected you to dump him: after all, he was unable to go to cafes and amusement parks, buy you gifts and share candies. He couldn't endure your saddened face and pouty cheeks without heart ache whenever he told you he wouldn't have time to go play with you.

But what Thoma did not expect was you acting on the contrary. 

"Oh, you are such a good boy!" your mother giggled, patting his head. You invited him to a sleepover in your house every week, and he finally gained an opportunity to shower in warm water, eat a proper dinner and not some semi-finished products thrown in one plate, sleep for full 8 hours..Your parents were incredibly kind and caring, considerate yet never intrusive. Here, in your place, Thoma felt loved, loved unconditionally. You two enjoyed your cocoa with marshmallow, cooked slightly crooked gingerbread and decorated the Christmas Tree all together. 

“Who do you think you will be in the future, Thoma?” you asked one evening, when two of you were busy with baking a pie. 

“Uh, wait, wait a second! One last thing… Here,” he spread out dough strips, “closing” the pie. “Who will I be in the future, you said? Ha-ha, to be honest.. I don’t really know. I hope I’ll work with kids or manage domestic stuff, cuz I enjoy doing it,” he chuckled, fixing his apron. “Hey, you are all in flour! Give me a second, I’ll wipe it off,” the boy reached out to tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear and swiped the flour away. His touch sent shivers down your spine, as if you got hit with electricity. 

“And who do you think you’ll be?” Thoma questioned.

“Hm… I want to become a teacher one day. Or a doctor,” «or your significant other», you added mentally. 

“You are so hard-working, I’m sure you’ll succeed!” he smiled encouragely and patted you on the shoulder. 

You were 14, he was 16. From shy and ordinary guy Thoma became popular, quick-witted and got admired for his nice sunny personality. You, on the other hand, had grown up reserved and quiet. That, whatsoever, didn’t break your friendship. 

“Hey, pumpkin, forgetting your lunch box becomes a habit!” 

Of course you recognized this upbeat voice. Who else would’ve called you a pumpkin? 

When you turned your gaze up to your desk, there was a cute box in sight and widely smiling blond. 

“Aww, come on, Thoma, you didn’t have to!” you sighed dramatically, although internally you were screaming, feeling flattered from such solicitude.��

“I have to, because I care about your health, silly,” he gently ruffled your hair, avoiding ruining your hairstyle. “Let’s have a meal before lunch break ends, okay? I’ll stay here with you, no worries, we won’t go to the cafeteria,” he added immediately after noticing barely evident hints of your anxiety.

“...thanks, Thoma. Let’s see what you’ve prepared for me,” with that, you opened the box.. and your heart started pulsing like you have run a marathon.

Absolutely adorable salad with different vegetables, cut in some cute shapes. The dedication and efforts, invested in this dish, were obvious. You nearly teared up. No one has ever did something like that for you. 

“H-hey, is everything alright? You’ve turned pale…” Thoma asked in concerned tone.

“No, no, not at all! It’s just so sweet of you.. Thank you so much. I can’t make myself eat such masterpiece..”

“Hold on, kid! You need to eat, otherwise I might spoon feed you,” once in a while Thoma acted mischievously, and you couldn’t predict this behavior. He was never mean, of course, but teasing certainly had a place in moments like this. 

“And how about feeding me from mouth to mouth, huh?” you teased him back with a sly grin.

Thoma reddened: the color of his face was similar to the color of his jacket.

“Ah-ha-ha… You are quite naughty, aren’t you?” you could feel the heat emanating from his body. 

“And what if so?” you cheekily raised your eyebrow.

“I assume a kiss will be able to erase this smirk from your face,” the boy tried to get his composure back, but failed miserably, stumbling his words and awkwardly fidgeting.

“Try it, so we could discuss the truthfulness of your statement”

“Um… maybe next time, ha-ha…”

To Thoma’s luck, the bell rang, so he ran out of the classroom, leaving you alone and flustered.

“Don’t forget to eat, pumpkin!”

Since that day you two have never brought up this accident, even though having lunch with Thoma became a daily routine. 

You were 16, he was 18. He was embracing you tightly, despite the uncomfortable proximity under the boiling sun. 

“I’ll miss you, pumpkin,” he mumbled, and you could tell he was being honest — every wrinkle, every muscle of his face depicted the dreary sorrow of parting. Even though his 12 years old Nokia phone still worked, you heavily doubted it would function properly. Yet you still hoped for the best.

“Thoma, dear.. Please, call or text me as soon as possible. It’s dull without you,” tears flowed on their own, and you couldn’t help it.

Suddenly you sensed some soft sensation against your skin. There was no need to look up to understand what was it. You closed your eyes and indulged in bubbly pleasure.

Thoma was your first best friend.

Thoma was your first Valentine, though you both considered it to be a friendly one.

Thoma was the first person apart of your family to cook for you.

Everything important in your life was about him.

And now, he granted you your first kiss.

“I love you,” his green eyes watered just like yours. “When I graduate, I’ll come back for you. Do you agree?”, you grabbed his calloused hands and squeezed them.

“Yes. Yes, of course”

Two years have passed since then. There were no news from Thoma nor texts or calls. He simply disappeared from the world. Both of his parents rested in peace, and they didn’t have any relatives, so wondering about his fate was all you’ve got to do. Your messages never got delivered. 

“Sorry, the number you dialed does not exist,” you heard this voice line so many times it annoyed you to no end. You cried out of frustration, you felt numbness and anger, and finally, you accepted the entire situation. 

Maybe he dumped you.

Maybe something happened to him.

You won’t know until his studying finishes. 

Graduating from high school, passing exams, enrolling into university — you went through everything all by yourself with support from your parents.

Sipping coffee and sinking in your unhappy thoughts, you didn’t pay attention to any of the cafe visitors — after all, it was way too far from yor home, there was no chance to meet your countryman.

With the bell tickle, which announced the emergence of new client, loud fast speech could have been heard:

“Yoimiya, I’m so sorry! I left my place on time, it’s just that traffic accident with a mongrel dog occured, I had to take poor animal to the vet-”

This voice.

You stared upon the guest in disbelief. 

Blond hair. Red coat. Black bandana which looked like horns. Pitiful smile. Green eyes.

“Oh, dear God, Thoma! Is everything okay? Is the doggie alright?! Ugh, how could this be?..” fair-headed young lady came out of the stall and jumped forward the man.

“Wait,” he shook his head as if he was trying to get rid of weird delusions. But that was not a delusion. 

“Is this…” his voice lowered to husky whisper, eyes widened in shock.

“...Thoma?” you stood up on shaking legs.

[redacted4life]

As much as I love Bungo Stray Dogs. Naomi Tanizaki and Mori Ōgai always made me uncomfortable, so I decided to slightly rewrite their character. I do however have rules that I have placed upon myself

Rule 1: Must not change any event in canon

Rule 2: The character still has to recognisable

What I really want to focus on is Elise and Tanizaki relationship with them. First thing first, I want to bring down the overbearingness by a lot.

My idea for Naomi being overprotective is that Junichiro got into a life threatening situation when they were kids and ever since then Naomi doesn't want to leave Junichiro by himself as she worries that something might happen to him, in the irl author childhood home was destroyed 1894 Tokyo earthquake so I'm thinking that Tanizaki almost died in house when Naomi was away (maybe hanging out with friends) and came back home to see it destroyed. Their parents told her that Tanizaki was in the hospital and she has felt like it was her fault for not taking him with her. This could add a little more emotional damage when Naomi protect Tanizaki in chapter 4. Naomi was the only people to ask the president to intervene, I think that Naomi refuse anyone else the pain she did. For Naomi character I want to focus more on her confident as she not afraid to speak her mind and create a scene if needed, she also seen to quite intelligent which I wished the show leaned more on than her being dependant on Tanizaki but that's for another time. I wish I could write more for Naomi however we don't know much about her character and the only irl source we have is 'Naomi' and 'Michiko'.

Now comes the one character that started this, thank to my friend for telling me about the irl author. When I heard about the author I was really disappointed with how his character was depicted in the show. If anything his character seem more like his daughter work, Mari Mori who is famous for writing about male homosexual passion. Her character were often an older man and younger boy example being The Lover's Forest where Guido is 38 and Paulo is 17-18 (ummm what? hello police?) so that where I think Asagiri inspiration could have come from but from what I've heard from others the irl Mori might have been asexual ( I can not confirm this as I have only heard people say this and can't find anything about this on the wiki) this comes from that the key theme in his stories being the rejection of sexual stuff. In fact the IRL Mori was apparently a doting father and his children wrote loving memories of him, 'Chichi no bōshi' and 'Bannen no chichi'. So that what i'm going with I won't be getting rid of Elise character because of my rules but I will be changing the relationship between them to 100% familial (get rid of his relationship with Elise that make me want to call the police on him) My first question was why Mori would even make Elise a child and that left me pondering for a bit but I came up with an idea I like. Mori wanted to be a father but is incapable of it, this could somewhat explain him spoiling Elise. Another thing i was conflicted on removing was his um... humour, some people have said he has terrible humour and doesn't really understand the problem with it but I would rather get rid of it, yes he can still have terrible joke but instead make them dad jokes (because dad joke are funny) and Elise hate it which lead annoyed by his joke and of him.

And this conclude my rewrite of Naomi and Mori character, I'm currently working on au swap with the character and i will most likely be using these rewrites for it. I must say none of this is canon so you can consider this a headcanon and I don't mind if you take anything I wrote for your headcanons. Also note that I have not read any of Tanizaki or Mori works so there might be something I missed or doesn't make sense. Thank you for reading!

@phoenix20607 shout out for telling me about irl mori

[cerame]

heehoo i loke your Links, stuff abt them plz??

Oh hi! Sorry I didn’t get to this sooner! I didn’t check my tumblr for a hot second oops

But yes I’d love to talk about them! For botw/totk Link, I’m waiting to actually buy and play the game before I fully solidify him. I’ll give a brief rundown of each of them here, but feel free to ask more about any specific Link :)

Skyward Sword:

Tired in multiple ways. He was more carefree before the start of his adventure, but there are a lot of reasons to be concerned about these days, especially when you’re babysitting your reincarnations, some of which are older than you

That’s not to say he doesn’t know how to chill out and sit back. Given permission, he will instantly drop all responsibilities on whoever is left to deal with it

23 y/o

Huge sweetheart once you get him to stop worrying about things

Potential nicknames: Cloudy, Floater, Feathers

Minish Cap/Four Swords/Four Swords Adventures

I have an explanation for the timeline nonsense I swear. Don’t worry about it

Generally friendly, enthusiastic, and thoughtful, but he has his moments of absolute impulse. Knows far more than he should… probably. He very much enjoys being mysterious just because he’s a little gremlin

He hates being timed

20 y/o

Potential nicknames: Forge, Smith, Mini

Is currently undergoing a redesign

Ocarina of Time/Majora’s Mask

He’s in his edgy teen phase. Moody and has disdain for authority, but he’s still got that undeniable kindness in him. Avoids attachment but just can’t help himself

Mostly homeless, as he’s usually traveling, but he’s always got a home at Lon Lon Ranch with his friend Malon. Kakariko likes him, too.

17 y/o

Potential nicknames: Mask, Eyepatch, Sapling

A Link to the Past/the Oracle games/Link’s Awakening

Most people’s first impressions of him are that he’s quite untrusting and melancholy and that he’s very competent. Once he gets used to someone, though, he’ll open up and mess with them like an annoying sibling. Very clever, knowledgeable, and a jack of all trades. Curiosity will be his downfall

Helps his Uncle run the apple orchard. Has expanded it into farming berries as well

17 y/o

Potential nicknames: Collector, Cartographer, Pinky, Apples

A Link Between Worlds/Triforce Heroes

Very cheerful and friendly. Highly skilled in the arts, though he hasn’t had the chance to mess with yarnwork yet. Low self-esteem but only expresses it in the most concerningly casual ways

Fantastic liar. He fully blames Ravio for this

19 y/o

Potential nicknames: Artisan, Painter, Mirror

Zelda 1/Adventure of Link

At first glance, he is already done with everyone's bullcrap, but really he's a very patient and considerate guy. He is incredibly blunt about things, though. Not as suspicious of people as he probably should be, but hey, what's one more crazy thing happening?

Loves discovering new things. Has a soft spot for soft things like pillows and fairies. Tone deaf.

21 y/o

Potential nicknames: Mage, Explorer, Adventurer, Calatian

Twilight Princess

Generally quiet and reserved but will step in when he deems it necessary. Skilled at keeping the group wrangled. He is fiercely protective of his loved ones and is not as responsible as he comes off as

Doesn't turn into a wolf often. Alternates between helping out Mayor Bo with Ordon and taking commissions for the Resistance

24 y/o

Potential nicknames: Goatherd, Farmer

Wind Waker/Phantom Hourglass

Friendly in a loud, boisterous sort of way, but when it comes down to it, he can quiet down and become reliable and responsible if he needs to. Fairly easygoing until he sets his mind onto something, in which case, he's going to accomplish his goals one way or another

Finds the others while mapping out the new continent, so for all intents and purposes, he basically goes missing. Does not like birds.

27 y/o

Potential nicknames: Pirate, Sailor, Sea Dog

Spirit Tracks

usually soft-spoken and polite, but will get a bit louder the more comfortable he is. Much better at puzzles and mechanics than swordfighting. Still works as a royal engineer and is good friends with his Zelda

He sees dead people :/

15 y/o

Potential nicknames: Engineer, Piper, Steam, Conductor

Hyrule Warriors

snarky in a friendly way and will joke around to lighten the mood, but he can be perfectly serious when he needs to be. A natural and skillful leader. Loves kids and dabbles in fashion

Regrets that he has to leave his era’s Hyrule because he’s got a duty to the kingdom, but his Zelda insisted that he went. After all, he’s got his duty as a hero, too

32 y/o

Potential nicknames: Commander, Sir, Ser

Breath of the Wild/Tears of the Kingdom

very honest with his emotions and thoughts, and he will habitually go off and do things on his own without waiting for anyone else. Doesn't quite understand social conventions

Thought the others were either very creative yiga or very lost travelers when he first met them

20 y/o

Potential nicknames: Archer, Survivalist, Champion

[lilliathshifts]

Ok this post is going to be long and if you see any sentences that are just… wrong, ignore it, it's fine.

I AM DOING A SUPERNATURAL DR POST THINGY (I'm explaining the dr)

So to begin, my name is Paige Elaine Winchester, yes my initials are pew (I'm hilarious). I was born to Sharron Wailer (who her up in a family of hunters but didn’t want that life) and John Winchester (bleh 🤮) on June 6, 1988, I am a Gemini. John was in and out of my life pretty early, I was only a week old when he dipped for the first time and didn't come back until I was 1. Coming to visit once or twice a year but by the time I was 5, he just stopped visiting.

By this time, my mom started seeing this guy named Blake Blee. He was pretty cool, but he was a shapeshifter, surprisingly mom didn’t care. Blake never hurt anyone and his current id was a guy who died years ago. I started viewing him as my dad after a couple of weeks of living with us. After 1.5 years of my mom and Blake dating, they got engaged and a couple of months later, got married.

Now it was me, Blake, and my mom. Life was great. And then, suddenly, with no warning, John Winchester started showing up again after three years. It was so ridiculous because he expected me to run to him and say “daddy, daddy, I missed you oh so much 🥺🥺,” but I didn’t miss him, because Blake replaced him in every way. I mean, I called him dad, he thought me how to ride a bike, he’d secretly let me stay home from school so we could hang out, and John hated Blake for it. Luckily, he left shortly after that and I didn’t see him for another 8 years.

Within those 8 years, mom and Blake had a baby, his name is Evan Jonas Blee. I was weird being an older sister after 10 years of being an only child, but I loved my baby brother. Also around this time, I asked Blake to adopt me, which he did. Now it’s me, Blake, mom and Evan. We were a happy nuclear family. I loved bragging about my family, I loved them so much, we even got a cat and a dog named Stir Fry and Chick (laugh at the funny names).

It’s a couple of days before Halloween 2004, and life is going great. I needed to go to a store to get some last minute candy for the trick-or treaters. While I’m in the store, guess who I run into, John Winchester, and he didn’t even recognize me, how funny. Anyway, I don’t even bother talking to him and I just go home to tell my parents. A couple of hours later he shows up at our door asking if he can stay for a couple of days while he’s in town. My mom and I go to say no but my dad (Blake) tells him to stay as long as he needs to and that we have a spare room next to the living room. Evan and John weirdly got along, it was very unsettling. Mom was really stressed and when I asked her why, she started saying how she’s scared that John will somehow find out that dad is a shapeshifter and hurt him, but dad told her to not worry about that, and that he’d make sure that John would never find out about him.

On Halloween, I took Evan trick-or-treating while my parents and John went out. Evan and I were out pretty late and for back in around 10:30. Mom was home but not Dad and John. I was really tired and so was Evan and mom was a lil drunk so I out Evan to bed and ended up falling asleep in his room, still in my costume.

The next morning, I woke up around 8:30am and went down stairs expecting to see dad cooking breakfast, but he wasn’t there. So I thought that he was still asleep with mom. I passed the front windows and didn’t see John’s truck and assumed he left when things were going a little good. Mom woke up at 10am and asked if dad was asleep on the couch, he wasn’t. I then asked if he called last night to say if he and John were at a hotel or something, but no one called. Mom was a little worried and decided to go back to the bar to see if the workers know where they went. When Evan woke up, we took Stir Fry and Chick for walks while also looking for my dad and John.

Me, Evan and mom got back at the same time, but with no luck on finding them. A couple of hours has passed and a cop showed up at our door. Blake was dead. He was found in a dumpster behind a Brookshires across town. He had a singular stab wound in his abdomen, it looked like he didn’t fight back.

The next couple of months were a blur. Christmas and New Years were very quiet. We decorated and had a small party for Evan. For dad’s birthday, we went to his favorite fishing spot and just cried. I ended up graduating high school early, just like how dad and I planned. Graduation was great, my speech was mainly about him and how he helped me through so much.

It had been 8 months since he died and things were kinda normal. I celebrated my 17th birthday and mom celebrated her 39th.

Then it was September, Evan just turned 7 and I took him to his favorite places while mom had to work. While we were at Evan’s favorite pizza place, I saw this guy who weirdly looked like John. I guess I was staring pretty hard because he walked up to me. I really wanted to ask him a question but before I could, he asked for my name, so I told him. He just kinda stared at me for a bit and asked me to repeat what I said, I did. Tell me why this random stranger pulled up a chair and started asking me weird questions.

“Who are your parents” Sharron and Blake Blee, “when’s your birthday” june 6, 1988, “Do you know a man named John” yea he’s my deadbeat dad

I was getting weirded out but I asked him his name and he said his name was Dean Winchester. Same last name, I guess it’s common? He said his dad’s name is John Winchester. Guess these names are also common, maybe..?

Then he pulled out a picture of him and MY John a saying he was John oldest son and that he has a younger brother name Sam etc.

Me and Evan left with Dean and we dove to my house. I searched that house for pictures of me and John and finally found one of a year ago that my dad took of us. And that’s how I found out I had two older brothers from John’s first marriage.

BAM finished backstory. I’ve been sitting on this story for a while and was finally able to put this into words. Anyway hope you like

[moonnue]

20 Questions ♥

Thank you @anisaanisa for tagging me! ♥ I've been meaning to do these tag games but I'm always busy-- I'm actually free at the moment! And it's cool that it's a fanfic quiz, since I've just gotten into posting my stuff hahaha

How many works do you have on AO3?

Only 6 so far! I've got lots in the works but I don't like sharing 'till I'm done :3c

What’s your total AO3 words count?

29,294

What fandoms do you write for?

I've written for InuYasha, Portal, and for the little Toothfairy fandom but as far as what I've posted I'm currently, and very obviously, into Baldur's Gate 3. Other fandoms I've written for are Toilet-Bound Hanako-Kun, Jujutsu Kaisen, and Spice and Wolf

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Hands On A C(l)ock (441) Portrait of a Vampire (366) Shower Break (337) Cheeky Little Pup (73) Erotica of a Vampire (51)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I don't orz. I first posted to Ao3 in 2020 and then walked away so when I came back to post the next part I was like !!! oh shit!!! people left comments LOL I felt embarrassed for just letting them sit there and now I'm kind of stuck. Plus, I feel weird going to everyone and just saying "thank you!" I REALLY APPRECIATE IT I'M JUST…….. AH!

What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Not posted but it's going to be the KagKik fic I'm writing :3c Otherwise I don't like angst oops

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Probably Shower Break, I guess? or Cheeky Little Pup? Idk, I'm even looking at my WIPs but I'm not sure how some of them are gonna end yet!

Do you get hate on fics?

Technically I experienced my first recently when I had a person try to accuse me of stealing their fic and then went on to try and drag my name through the mud. That was exciting! (sarcasm)

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

it's………. it's my main thing. oops. i write second person f/o x reader fic cuz i'm cringe and free <3

Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

SOOO NOT WRITTEN! YET! But I do have a ton in mind. I think the craziest one I'd ever want to write if I got the balls to do it would be an RSK x Madoka Magica fic cuz I just think. It would be fucking funny. Given RSK are real people so I'm like ehhh maybe not. Otherwise I think the only other one is an InuYasha x Labyrinth crossover but that ain't too wild. It's been done before!

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of! Also, I can't help but find it strange, the idea of stealing fic. Do people actually do this lol

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope!

Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Technically? Friend of mine write together from time to time, but again, nothing posted.

What’s your all-time favourite ship?

You x Your Favorite Character

What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I have a story started that's about Naraku getting isekai'd into another world where he's the hero of it. I think it's pretty funny but getting myself to start it has been a little tough.

What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm really good at capturing character voices. I also think I'm good at describing emotions.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I think my sentences could stand for a bit more of a unique structure. I don't like writing place descriptions very much, I'm very character focused.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Sure…? Why not! Do it!

First fandom you wrote for?

InuYasha <3

Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

Care For A Wet Dog, oddly enough, even though it's unfinished. I don't know, there's something about it that I really like. It's older and I think I kind of miss how my writing used to be? Then again whether anyone else sees a difference, I wouldn't know.

not tagging anyone just cuz i...... i don't know who to tag! uh! i dont want to bother anyone lol! so if you see this and wanna do it please do! and tag me in it because if i inspired you to do it i would love to read it! (and maybe keep you in mind for any future tags? maybe? hm? *nudge nudge*)

[feraecor]

Rules, tag 10 followers  you want to get to know better!

Tagged by: @sansloii​

Name: Kei... xD Aya also calls me moochie irl

Star Sign: Sagitarius (sun) + Pisces  (moon) +  Libra (rising)

Height: 5'6.5″

Middle name: Rose ;;;;

Put your itunes/spotify/youtube on shuffle. What are the first 6 songs that popped up? (don’t judge me y’all, its all over the place)

Ready As I’ll Ever Be by Caleb Hyles

Egotistic by Mamamoo (Red Moon)

Into The Unknown (Panic! At the Disco Version) by Panic! At The Disco

Never Alone by Divide Music

Zero To Hero (From "Hercules") by Ariana Grande

My R (feat. Rachie & Hiakno Station) by Annapantsu

Ever had a poem or song written about you: Yuuuppp and it was awkward as hell cause it was by a chick that I didn’t know/didn’t feel comfortable around. it wasn’t like overtly romantic or anything in nature but it was just...weird.

When was the last time you played air guitar:��air guitar, air drums, air keyboard, I play the whole air band and I don't do it well! I dance and wiggle and can't stay still ever if im feeling a song

Who is your celebrity crush?: too many to name tbh. jason mamoa, henry cavill, zendaya?

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?: I hate so many sounds, its not even funny. its super common for me to be over stimulated first by noise and then visually. currently, anything squeaky or shrieky really grinds my gears. Aya's grandma has a rocking armchair that is killing me the last month. When Rocky, my bro in law's cockatiel shrieks, it sounds like an alarm and it grates on me bad.

a sound I love is rain or water, thunder storms are hit or miss, some times they're soothing but other times, its too much for me. but the sound of running water is super soothing to me, probably cause its low and repetitive. also bass thumping

Do you believe in ghosts?: Ye, my mom's side of the family is very religious/superstitious so i grew up believing and knowing that you had to be respectful of all surroundings/spaces cause you're not the only occupant, living or dead. i'm not scared of ghosts but im terrified of death

How about aliens: yeah, we're not the only ones out there, but i dont believe all the little green men abduction stories. aliens have better shit to do.

Do you drive?: I have my learner's permit

if so have you ever crashed: i've been in multiple crashes, no serious injuries. but one of my childhood friends that i dearly loved died in a fatal crash and it made me terrified of cars right when i was learning to drive so that's why i dont have my license

What was the last book you read?: *opens kindle app* Uhhh just today? Flicker by M. Sinclair (book 2 in a series)

Do you like the smell of gasoline:  no nope nah nada.

What was the last movie you saw?: not by choice, some horror canada slasher that Aya's mema had on tv this morning. idk the name.

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?: as a kid, my knee was kicked out in a soccer match when i was in middle school, it made me tip backwards, skid ten feet on muddy field, slam my shoulder into the goal post and almost pass out. i still have joint issues in my knees and right shoulder.

as an adult, i was bit by an older dog at work. he clamped down twice on my right elbow, right on the joint/bone. i had to got to the ER, it was pretty gruesome and I still have some nerve issues in the area from it. was super lucky not to have a serious infection from it. i shouldn't have worked for a few weeks but i went back after a week cause the company i worked at was so toxic.

Do you have any obsessions right now?: at this very moment, making sure my younger dog doesn't chew his stitches out. i had to put my headphones on so i stopped fixating on him.

i've also been working on a few plot ideas for a book rn though. its hard to find time for that with work and everything though.

[kisssatoru]

୨୧ ୨⎯ ABOUT ME ⎯୧ ୨୧

✎… i like to spend my off days reading or writing. sometimes i’ll jump back into an old show like supernatural or vampire diaries (shhh don’t judge me).

✎… i love to sleep, too! once, i slept like 16hrs straight? it was crazy. when i woke up, my entire body hurt but it was worth it (never felt better honestly LOL).

✎… as strong as i tend to come off, i am deathly afraid of confrontation. however, if i have to defend myself, i will. buttt…pretty girls keep the nails ON, okay (plus, my gf fights for me most of the time so shsjsj).

✎… oh! speaking of which, yes. i am pansexual and yes i want gojo to pound me until i’m babbling nonsense, crying and creaming all over his cock.. i just think irl men are gross half the time lol. half are sloppy, hate women and are majorr cheaters. yawn. where’s the women!

✎… i like anything horror and sci-fi. from venom and jake from avatar to ghost face and big papa jasonnn (want them all to absolutely destroy me).

✎… my music taste is just a mix of everything. i’ve noticed as i get older, i tend to listen to more rnb/alt rnb and lofi songs. like pnd, nbdy, yo trane, summer walker, her, sza, bryson t, the wknd, 6lack, nobu woods, rohan, aaryan shah, etc! (notable mentions of tyler the creator, sabrina claudio, dvsn, jhene aiko, lvndvn, asiahn, etc). if it’s not rnb or lofi, i’ve got a lil classical on or even rock. i’m all over the place, but i’m now more of a vibe person heheh

✎… outside hobbies consist of playing tennis, traveling, shopping, swimming, taking scenic pictures (be on my photography bs sometimes—below are some pics i’ve taken btw), dog walking (used to do it all the time ughh can’t wait to get another dog and take them out lots), a little yoga (very relaxing), meditating, etc! (i’m a lil boring but i vibe with a lot of other things, just don’t feel like doing a whole lot all the time shshsj).

(first three are from cali, i miss the beach so much :( and the last one was from…idk but isn’t it niceee, love scenic pics)

✎… currently don’t own any pets (mom has a cat but she’s ofc not mine), but i do want to get a cute little frenchie, a pomeranian, possibly a poodle and def two cats! (thankfully my gf’s cool with lots of pets bc i adore them sooo much).

✎… i also love going to the movies, and eating different foods (one of my favorite foods is japanese/korean food—10/10 chance i’m obsessed but it hasn’t been proven yet so erm…yeh…). love me some italian and mexican food too, oo weeee (can also buss down on some african food, don’t get it twisted!).

✎… on cloudy/rainy days, i like to turn on some good kdramas or japanese dramas. sometimes i’ll find a good bl drama i like, too!

✎… oh, some miscellaneous things about me, i also collect figures, manga, books, etc! i like coffee, tea, rainy/cloudy days, fall & winter, stationary stuff, plushies, makeup (only some since my skin is sensitive to a lot of products hhh), press ons (iykyk), collecting japanese swords, plants, uhhhh and a lot of other stuff i can’t think of right now shjsjs

✎… this is a little collage i made to visually show what my kind of vibe is, ty for reading!

KISSSATORU © 2023. do not copy, modify, or translate my work, and do not post ANY works of mine outside of tumblr.

[catastrophicmind]

Get To Know Me !

Girl, you know I love these. I tagged you at the end because I’d love to hear your answers too!

🖌 - Do you have/want any tattoos? I have 20 (professional and self-done) planning to get one done in the next couple weeks in celebration of my birthday (today) and my year of sobriety (March 11). It’s gonna be a Phoenix.

💚 - What’s your favourite colour? Purple and teal

🍕 - What’s the last thing you ate? This banging jalapeño popper chicken casserole I made for the house on Sunday.

🕰 - What time is it where you are rn? 6:32am

🌟 - What is your zodiac sign? Pisces

🌍 - What is your favourite accent? Australian

⚡️ - Do you have any scars? Yes. My most recent is on my right forearm from accidentally burning myself at work about a month ago.

🌺 - What’s your MBTI type? ISFJ— Defender

🥀 - Favourite animated movie? Oooh, probably gonna throw back to The Little Mermaid.

📺 - Favourite show? Currently— any 90 Day Fiance season or spin-off. I love the chaos every couple brings to the table. All-time— Total Drama (at least the first three seasons).

��� - Are you ticklish? Not really.

💍 - Do you ever want to get married? Some day. I’m thoroughly enjoying being single and working on myself though. I need to be in tip-top shape within before I find “Mr. Right”.

😳 - Do you like your name? Meh, no. I feel like it’s an older woman’s name. I’ve never really met anyone my age with the same name. They’re usually women 20-30 years older than me. Thanks, mom!

💙 - What colour is your bedroom? Teal and gray

🤓 - How did you get your name? Lmao, idk my mom liked it a lot and my dad conformed. They didn’t know what gender I was until I was born though, so if I came out a boy, I would’ve been Anthony— not Melissa.

🎓 - When did/do you graduate? Graduated high school in 2014. I’ve taken some college courses, but haven’t finished my degree.

🍄 - Do you have/want any piercings? I have a lot. My ears are gauged and littered in little studs. I just counted and I have 13 total in my ears, 2 in my nose and my eyebrow.

👀 - What colour are your eyes? Hazel. They switch between green and gold typically. They’re never really a shade of brown.

👱🏻‍♀️ - What is your go to hairstyle? Lord, I’ve had a pixie for the last four years. I decided to grow it out because I miss having long hair. Right now…it’s an awkward mess. Like, shaggy and thick af. I usually just throw on a headband or hat to hide how shitty it looks. I’ll be so happy when I can put it in a ponytail.

🥂 - Have you ever drank underage? I was 17 when I had my first drink. Blacked out. Had a fake all the way up until I was legal.

🍾 - Have you ever gotten drunk? Honey, where do I begin…if I was drinking, my goal was a to get obliterated. I can’t grasp the concept of drinking to “enjoy”. That’s why I’m sober. Lmao.

😱 - What’s your biggest fear? Probably being alone the rest of my life. You know, not ever finding “the one”.

🥵 - Would you rather be too hot or too cold? Too cold! You can always cover up, but you can only take so much clothing off before you’re naked.

🌦 - What’s your favourite weather? Probably 50-60 degrees and sunny.

🍂 - What’s your favourite season? Late fall/early winter.

🐷 - What’s your favourite animal? Dogs 🐶 💕 I literally love them more than people sometimes. They give you everything they have and expect nothing in return.

🐶 - Do you have any pets? No, my landlord won’t allow it, but my mom’s dog is like my little brother. I love me some Cody.

😴 - What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? Heh…11 days. Don’t ask why.

🎨 - Any hobbies? Writing and anything to do with music.

🛩 - If travelling was free, where’s the first place you’d go? Norway. Seeing the Aurora Borealis is at the top of my bucket list.

🎇 - What’s your most searched thing on Google? Good question. I’m not sure. I literally Google every stupid question I have that comes to mind.

📱 - Favourite app on your phone? Tumblr and Facebook

🤠 - Are you more of a city person or a country person? Can I be a suburb person? Not a fan of the big city and I also hate living in bumfuck nowhere. I like a quaint town that has everything I need.

Tagging: @duncans-unibrow @honeynotgood @webui1tgwensface @sentimentalslut @the-type-a

Get To Know Me !

Again, idk why I made this but enjoy I guess (some of these may be uncomfortable for y’all to answer, idk).

🖌 - Do you have/want any tattoos?

💚 - What’s your favourite colour?

🍕 - What’s the last thing you ate?

🕰 - What time is it where you are rn?

🌟 - What is your zodiac sign?

🌍 - What is your favourite accent?

⚡️ - Do you have any scars?

🌺 - What’s your MBTI type?

🥀 - Favourite animated movie?

📺 - Favourite show?

😂 - Are you ticklish?

💍 - Do you ever want to get married?

😳 - Do you like your name?

💙 - What colour is your bedroom?

🤓 - How did you get your name?

🎓 - When did/do you graduate?

🍄 - Do you have/want any piercings?

👀 - What colour are your eyes?

👱🏻‍♀️ - What is your go to hairstyle?

🥂 - Have you ever drank underage?

🍾 - Have you ever gotten drunk?

😱 - What’s your biggest fear?

🥵 - Would you rather be too hot or too cold?

🌦 - What’s your favourite weather?

🍂 - What’s your favourite season?

🐷 - What’s your favourite animal?

🐶 - Do you have any pets?

😴 - What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

🎨 - Any hobbies?

🛩 - If travelling was free, where’s the first place you’d go?

🎇 - What’s your most searched thing on Google?

📱 - Favourite app on your phone?

🤠 - Are you more of a city person or a country person?

[stardust-in-my-mind-blog]

necessary sacrifice

it was my youngest child I bled for to stay

the older he was before I left this kingdom where I daily

walk across the ruins and bones of my old corpses

the more protected his mind would be when I was gone

I considered it undercover work in a way

sometimes it was even fun to see the fear in his eyes

when I looked at him directly with my baleful soul

maybe my oldest had to see what it was like for me

before I left his father to force him to change

maybe they both had to watch me dim

in the limiting hands of a man who uses such delusion to live

I don't need to ruin him or destroy him

that would do nothing for my son

the heartache of not seeing him every day

like I have for his first six years

fuck, it hurts so much

god, I hate losing my children even halfway

my mother's heart is weeping as she shrivels

with each step I take to this new path

the right path and my heart's true desire

the future is bathed in glorious sunshine

nothing but illumination and peace and creation

and problems I'll learn to solve along the way

adventures and discovering everything I wish

but it is a death and fuck it still hurts

but I look out the window and the clouds have drawn

what looks like a hare stretching forward with a fluffy tail

I realize I'll get to have a rabbit again

everything dies here so I can't risk it

I have a feeling they came to die here

even my lion-dog Vincent is wilting from the radioactive decay

I think he absorbed it for me and the guilt is not soothed

by knowing his love for me was put to a brave use

a shameful waste of a beautiful animal

it took me awhile to build strength

to see and identify and document the cycles

I have everything I need for the war ahead

even the appointment in an office he can't ignore me

or dismiss the reality of every experience

I won't miss anything here not even the trees

I know all their names and energy and will remember

very tenderly their sentinel care at the worst of everything

I'm not permanently damaged just exhausted

maybe a little insecure in romance

I made great efforts to learn and heal and integrate

I used the pressure to find a way to talk to the stars

and learn how to communicate intimately with nature

I regret nothing and close a part of the chapter today

trusting my voice and letting it be heard in a way

that will confuse my children until they are older

so they don't have to bare grudges or anger

as what must come to pass will be executed diligently

it's been a long mission and the experience was valuable

painful and deeply deeply disappointing

I understand the intricacies and layers of this familial delusion

and know that when it is just me and my kids

everything works out and we find a collaborative peace

the trust I built with them as infants and toddlers

keeps their hearts and minds purer than mine ever were

I did well and I fucking know it

I don't let myself daydream too much about the freedom

I'll have it soon enough and the process was enlightening

my skills in negotiation and advocacy are well honed now

my confidence will return very quickly

my current role requires me to seem unobservant

especially when my burning spirit of justice does observe

and has quite a few things to say about what he wants to do

so I've learned how to cool my energy and stay focused

heal and shield myself in a way that will only benefit me

in whatever hopeful future comes of all this

my leaving will require him to grow up and learn

basic survival skills my youngest will finally see him do

if at all possible I like my justice to be poetic

and this ending will be very balanced for me

so I don't have to fear the consequences of finishing

this very low stakes project but parts of me still do

so I embrace each one and pat them slowly on the back

everything is only going to be better from here

everything lost will be quickly rebuilt

he will be happier and I won't want to constantly burn him

with a temper that has just been seething with contempt

the season of this life is bleeding out before us

and here I am calmly wiping off the slowest knife

[purplesurveys]

1802

What's the highlight of your morning routine that sets a positive tone for your day? I'm not so sure how to answer this – I've been on an increasingly downward spiral and find it hard to smile these days. I wish I can get out of this rut :( I don't even have a thing in the morning that helps with my mood; when I wake up, I already have to exert so much energy just trying to get out of bed because it's become really difficult to do even just that.

Are there any new podcasts or audiobooks that have been accompanying your commutes? I have a horrible attention span when it comes to anything audio-centric that isn't a song lol, so podcasts and I were never able to bond well. When I drive or book a Grab, I prefer listening to music altogether or picking a video to watch. 

How do you wind down and relax after a long day? Any particular activities or rituals? I don't know anymore either...somewhere along the way I've lost even my free time because I've been OTing until 10 or 11 PM nearly every night this month. The one thing I refuse to miss out on, despite everything, is time with my dogs. Talking to them, playing tug of war with them, cuddling them...

Have you discovered any hidden gems in your local neighborhood recently? Maybe a new cafe or park? I really want to try that quaint minimalist café nearby, but I guess I'm just a little intimidated because the space is SUPER tiny and I feel I'd get too conscious if I go there alone. Maybe someday.

What's your go-to way of staying organized and managing your tasks right now? I have a virtual to-do list that I try to stay on top of.

Is there a specific dish you've been cooking or enjoying frequently in your current meal rotation? Yeah, I've been making chapaguri (or bibimyeon, if that's what I have at home) and samgyeopsal whenever I can. The noodles and meat just go SO well together and it's one of the few meals I can finish within minutes, knowing how slow I generally eat.

Have you made any changes to your exercise routine lately? New workouts or activities? I don't like working out. I've tried it so many times and everyone always says they feel great afterwards, but I'm always just so miserable during and after lmao. The only exercise I look forward to/find satisfaction in, would be walking.

What's a recent small achievement or milestone that you're proud of? For the first time ever I was able to confide in at least one of my parents about what I've been going through. I've been keeping everything in this whole time but there's only so much you can take, so I started messaging my dad last week about how hard everything has been, and letting him know I've been crying and stuff.

The whole experience has felt super freeing. My mom and grandma have also caught wind and are chipping in with their own ways of comfort and support, and I've been feeling grateful.

Another thing I was proud to finally confront my teammates about my plans to step down. I'm sick of letting it continue being a theoretical idea, so just so they know my resignation is nearer than they think, I just finally said it out loud so that too can be out of my system and out of the little corner in my mind I've been keeping in.

Are there any movies or TV shows you're re-watching and finding new details in? I feel this the most with wrestling! In the past I was largely into it from a very stan-ish perspective, so I was just kinda rooting for my 'crushes' and ignored the actual technicals of wrestling. Now that I'm older I see how it has changed, with me actually invested in what makes a match boring and less boring.

How do you stay inspired and creative during your work or free time these days? That drive to be inspired has definitely taken a harsh stop these days, with January hitting me with a mental blow you wouldn't believe. I'm in a slump, I'm in a rut, however you want to put that type of situation – I'm in it. In the limited free time I have I've been spending it lying on the couch, just anxiously awaiting the next work week and generally being unproductive; and it's frustrating having come to this point and momentarily feeling helpless.

The great thing about slumps is that they're all it is to them – they're temporary. I know enough about myself to know this isn't going to last forever and so long as I'm able to address the things in my way, I'll be back up again. That means going back to museums to feel creatively-charged, wanting to take myself out on weekends to experience new sights and sensations, and having that positive outlook in life I used to have. I'll be ok!!! Just need some fixing and internal troubleshooting, and a little rest :)

Have you come across any interesting articles, websites, or online communities recently? I mean, Reddit's got every interesting subreddit possible so I love hanging out in there. My feed is essentially space content, social history – photos of how life was back in the day, r/HobbyDrama is particularly a fantastic read, and all subreddits for my personal interests, from wrestling to K-pop.

What's the latest hobby or interest you've picked up, and what drew you to it? Not a hobby per se but I've been getting into Seventeen lately and have done nothing but watch Going Seventeen the past weekend. They've helped out a lot with this mental crisis I've been stuck in.

What's the most memorable interaction you've had with someone today? I had a very serious converstion with Trina today and it was me basically telling her to brace herself because I'm very likely to file my resignation by the 31st, latest Feb 1st. Kind of shitty on my part because I initially said I'd hold out for as long as I can and try to stick it out until March... but there's only so much I could take. I tried. I didn't just try, I fucking fought to keep staying.

But when you begin to cry every single morning to the point of hyperventilating and when you start feeling emotionless even towards significant job wins, and once your parents start being on a panicked frenzy because of how quiet you've been in the last 30 days and actually think you should be on suicide watch (I'm NOT getting ideas, but that's apparently how it translates to them lol), that's when you know the sun may be setting and it's time to go.

How do you inject moments of positivity into your daily routine, no matter how busy it gets? I mean I'll hop on Instagram and try to watch a couple of funny reels, and that helps me if only for a few seconds.

Are there any personal projects you're working on right now that bring you joy? Does journaling count? My sister got me a physical journal with these writing prompts – it's basically like these surveys LOL but I try to put in one entry a day. It even comes with a 365-day mood tracker, which, it's the first time I'm doing one so I've been super faithful when it comes to updating that motherfucker everyday haha.

What's a current goal that's shaping the choices you make on a daily basis? Resigning. GUYS IT'S NO LONGER JUST WORDSSSSSS AHHHHHH

Have you visited any local events or markets that have given your weekends a unique flavor? Tbh not really. Not a lot of exciting, hippie things happening on this part of the city.

How do you stay connected with friends and family despite your busy schedule? Instant messaging is always there. Everyone's reachable on Messenger so people haven't felt distant for a long time.

What's the most interesting thing you've learned recently, whether intentionally or by chance? Cody Rhodes was apparently working super small shows (like, high school gym level of small) back in 2016 when he left WWE. It's crazy how high he has soared since then, and even more inspirational to see him not rely on his last name and actually be willing to put in the ugly, dirty work knowing it's the only way he could start completely reshaping himself. Cody rules dude.

How do you maintain a balance between screen time and other activities in your day? I don't. I'm in front of a screen nearly 24/7 but tbh balancing it out is just not one of my priorities, simply put lol.

Have you experimented with any new methods of relaxation or mindfulness lately? Not really. I'm allowing myself to wallow in this rut first, but I'll be back in my element eventually.

What's your strategy for making the most of your weekends and recharging for the week ahead? I hardly sleep on weekends and spend my Saturdays and Sundays catching up with whatever content I've missed on social media – my Twitter feed, watching vlogs, soaking in K-pop shit – because I no longer get free time on weekdays with the ridiculous OT I have to put in.

Have you been dedicating time to any DIY projects or crafts that reflect your creativity? Nope, not really. I've never been artsy.

How do you incorporate learning and personal growth into your everyday life? I ask people about how they deal with things or ask them about their previous experiences about anything really, so I can learn from them. I also observe people a lot. It makes me see what I can emulate from them and what to avoid.

What's a unique tradition or habit that you've cultivated recently, making each day special? Answering the aforementioned journal that my sister got me as a Christmas gift last year.

[0daytrick0]

Week one update for work

It's been a week so far. The days are definitely going quicker. And it's been alot to take on.

As of Monday I have taken up a reliever role within the hospital within administration, surgical and theatre. I spent Monday and Tuesday getting a feel for the place. Understanding how the programs work and fullfilling my mandatory modules. Today I spent the whole day in administration completing patient paper work and organising apointments. Let me just say this... I know we all hate how much paperwork we have to fill out when we go into the hospital, but it's NOTHING compared to the amount of paperwork I have to fill out for each individual wanting to book an appointment. Don't get me started on the program we use! It's probably older than your grandma and is in a desperate need of updating and revamping. The program used to fill out for patients is literally straight out of a fallout game. The program is so ancient and tedious. So much time AND money could be saved if someone just paid someone to upgrade it. Cause GODDAMN MAN. I can't just click a box to fill it in, I gotta go through a whole procedure just to get there. And if I need to go back on a mistake. I CANT. Not untill I've filled the rest of the document out and reached the bottom. Then it will allow me to go back to what I missed. It's just so dumb and it's literally the only thing that's holding me back from learning.

Anywho! I could probably go on forever about it, but I will continue on. My life at the moment has been busy. My younger sibling graduated highschool and my family dog passed away i last week. An emotional week to say the least.

But in good news I have finally learnt how to use make-up. I used to HATE foundation, but with the help of a friend to colour match and watching an ASMR artist so her makeup, I have taught myself how to apply foundation, bronzer, blush and highlights. Now when I work at the hospital I can look the part.

I am currently obsessed with buying new stuff for work. I have this bag I really want to purchase but currently do not have the funds for it. It's called Julie Vintage Vegan Briefcase bag. It looks perfect and would suit my job so much!! At the moment the bag I have is just a cheap shein tote bag and it is terrible at holding all of my things. It was perfect for retail but terrible for the hospital. I also desire to purchase a phone case, pencil case, some notebooks and of course a cool lenyard for my hospital ID. NattyKat currently have some really cool lenyards. Redbubble currently has these really witchy phone covers, notebooks and pencil cases. I don't get paid for at least 2 and a bit weeks from now, so it will have to wait until then...

In other news I am officially a CQU student. I was accepted into central Queensland University as of last week and I couldn't be happier. I still have to enroll and pick my subjects but I should get an email next week helping me with all of that. I will once again be back on track to do a bachelor of psychological science and HOPEFULLY (with my job in the hospital) I will be able to get a position within mental health once my contracts ends next March. That's the goal at least!

Today I went grocery shopping after work and went way over budget. It's frustrating but I needed food for work. I can't just eat what's in the fridge or eat nothing at all with all the brain power I'm using. I will hopefully be getting a massive paycheck when I do get paid, so fingers crossed it's okay I splurged a little.

My 21sr birthday is coming up next weekend and I am planning on going camping and taking my 4wd out for the first time. It's been getting worked on since I bought it but fingers crossed it will be fixed enough by next weekend so I can actually take it out. I currently do not have a car and it's been frustrating to say the least. But soon, everything will hopefully fall into place since I now have an income on-top of my partner. As let me tell yah, living on one income whilst living in your own is just not doable for a long period of time. Trying to buy car parts in between all of that just barely making it to get food on the table. I can't believe we did it as long as we did. But you gotta do what you gotta do I guess.

As of right now it is 9.10pm and I am planning to get up at 5am tomorow morning to get ready for work at 7.00am. I got my period tonight so I will have no choice but to take a quick shower tomorow morning before getting dressed and doing my makeup and hair. My hair ATM is in DESPERATE need of a healing transformation. It's is so dead and untamed that doing it in the morning is a suicide mission for my arms and back. It's super curly and notty and messy. The humidity from the summer rain is not helping at the moment either. I might plan to straighten it on the weekend so I can make my life a little easier next week. A high ponytail with straight hair would do everyone a favour.

Anywho. I definitely need to go to bed now. Wish me luck on actually falling asleep when my mind is racing as fast as it is

[thepwnshark]

Nice, awfully scary and a bit painful too.

There was a beautiful canyon system with a pretty strong river going down through, the rocks remind me of Zion. I was exploring down deeper into it with Mia, Eden, and I think there maybe were 1 or 2 more people but I cant place it. Deeper into the canyons, there was a derilect town, with only 1 complicated way through between all the collapsing buildings and the river slamming through everywhere. A quick moment of locked eyes and Eden asked "Do you miss my face?" At the end of the path through the town, there was a huge steel door that led right into the side of the rock (kinda my brains remix of the Titan Rd missile facility). There was a lot more weird shit going on here though, for one it seemed like somebody was living down there. It also felt unmistakably like someone or something was watching us. The deeper we go into the facility, the weirder things get. Eden and the other girl there started reading cryptic notes hung up in this one weird rectangular room, a door on each wall. The notes were a riddle or something, the light, the light, above the light, past the fan if you can, 4 coins over. The light in one of the adjacent rooms had a fan nearby. I pulled the light down out of its socket and it came with this bizzare little contraption on the back. A small brushless motor with a magnet mounted to the side, makings its rotations imbalanced and apparently driving the fan as that had shut off. Already suspicious of the hillbilly engineering and why the hell we were even down there anyway, I elected not to take the coins. Which is probably good because as I was looking up into the ceiling hole above the fan, where I found them a figure was looming in the shadows. At this point I think we were all pretty much ready to go but water started coming in the same way we did. On the way out now, and water is rushing in. Were about waist deep now and we come to a chain link doorway in the middle of a long hallway probably 15 feet across. At this point, the other girl; dont know her name or face really, (Besides i think she was blonde but also kinda got the impression it wasnt the repeat visitor, not sure) started acting very strange. She started slinking backwards out of the lights while murmuring something about staying down here. Suddenly the water went crazy, something yanked her down under the surface and the water around us started staining red. At this point the lights all started flickering and going out, leaving me with just the flashlight I'd magically and instantly aquired at that moment. A few more steps through the current takes my footing and I fall in, quickly surface and wipe the blood and mud from my eyes.

"NOOOOOOOO!"

Eden was gone, I was alone with the rushing water in this dark concrete hallway. Then suddenly I wasn't. Some man stood there before me, and for whatever reason it was completely obvious that it was an older me.

"WHERE THE HELL IS SHE!?"

"Just right here."

I looked back over my shoulder and sure enough, not even wet, just sitting on this landing above the water like it was some prank or magic trick. Either the 2 or 3 of us then left together, following the winding path up out of the bunker and through the buildings of the town. Its raining now, and I am waking up.

My first thought was I have never yelled like that, I dont even know if I can. The terror and anguish of seeing her apparent death was so visceral. This took me all day to finish and I can still feel a rock at the base of my throat while remembering it.

(Edit)

I forgot my dog was with us at the beginning, not sure now where she went or when.

[bapswaffle]

March 16, 2023

Hello. Here I am :) I think that was funny (regarding my last check in). I should be sleeping I have work tomorrow at Thornton but 🧍🏻‍♀️ here I am. I saw a few notes from my note in my phone and I thought what had happened also on my tumblr. Just an update, it’s funny how I mentioned schooling and carrington last post; well… that didn’t go well. Sometimes things happen for a reason and maybe I’m just not destined to do dental hygiene. All in all, sometimes things jsut don’t go according to plans. On my family, father dearest isn’t doing so well with his foot and hopefully things look up in the next few months for us. Last post, it was going all good and here we are first few months of 2023 and it’s not as good as 2022! As u can tell 2022 was really nice until it ended, but also mommy is doing okay with treatment just not how it was before.. but it’s okay everything will be okay! :) ate finally got together w the boy from gens👹 LMFAOOO, it’s so funny how 2022 is missing from these posts. I should’ve updated the tea 😭 but it’s all good. Robert is single and I’m unsure how his love life is going to go. Hopefully everything turns out good. Like I always expect, since we aren’t doing so well right now, it can only get better (hopefully!) maybe we can go to Disneyland this may 🥺 was going to go to edc but tbh that’s a lot of work :/ we don’t even have shuttles and stuff and hotels and 👹👹👹👹 so much work truly. Just quickly updating bc I honestly don’t even have time to sleep if I keep typing this :( but also the dog is still here, more gremlin and getting older :(((( she’s 10 now and she’s 16 pounds at her last vet. Hopefully we can see her live until she’s 16+ 🥺 and my boyfriend. Eric… Eric Eric 👹 as usual he’s still pretty good, love him a lot 🤭 can’t really live without him ❤️ o o o o o I finally got my license 🧌 LOL. Anyways thank u past me and future me for logging into tumblr to update life. Sometimes I just need a little bit of reminding. Also to compare me from before and current me. One day I’ll look back at this and be like “oh ur wrong” or truthfully I would love to say “wow I’m glad everything got better” fingers crossed, who even knows what if I get lucky 🤭 I’m in a good mood even though life is hard. But yk there’s a rainbow always after the rain 🧍🏻‍♀️ btw I got a little more in touch with my language and more fob after working at the dental offices 😭. Bro I keep forgetting I can edit this: I posted it and now I deleted the other one just so that I put it here… since I did it twice after this og one was posted… I’m trying to change my header but idk if it changed or not… OMG I forgot I kinda cut off Tania 🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️I only kept that header bc I thought I looked kinda cute in my arena days 😭 just changed it to me and ate bc yk what? It’s nice :) it’s nice to have a sister that loves me and that I live a lot! :)) I think to prevent this type of eh feeling, I’ll just change it whenever I think I got a cute photo to use on it!!! :) and that header was needed to be changed a long time ago 😭. ALSO ANOTHER UPDATE: bro I’m a little obsessed w my little doll…..