#i miss his nose piercing and labret every day

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #455

“but you didn’t have to cut me off  /  make it like it never happened and that we were nothing”

Are you and the last person you kissed in a relationship or just friends? We're besties! :') Has anyone ever pointed out that your laugh was unusual? No. Would you get a lip piercing? I already have a vertical labret. I've considered getting spiked snakebites (they might be called devil bites?) too, though. With a vertical labret, it looks sick as FUCK. It might be a bit much too close together for me, though, idk. Nose piercing? I want my right nostril re-pierced. What are you currently waiting for? Girt to message me back. I've decided what I want out of our relationship and just want to see him. Do you have feelings for anyone? Hit me pretty hard through a lot of examination of my feelings that yeah, I do. Have you ever run over an animal? Oh my god no, I would be DESTROYED. Have you chewed gum after someone else already has? bro what the fuck When people sneeze do you say ‘bless you’? I do only out of expectation. I don't want someone to think I'm an ass or something for not saying it. When was the last time you were on a bouncy castle? A few years ago for my niece's birthday. She was scared of how loud it was and was very reluctant to get near it, so my fat ass got in there with everyone else to show her it was fine lol. I can't remember if she eventually got in. She loves them now, though. :') Have you ever went on a bouncy castle whilst drunk? No, but thanks for the idea, ha ha. Have you ever entered an art competition? Yes. What is one thing you will never do? Try hardcore drugs. What is one food that you detest? Asparagus. Did you have a rebellious phase growing up? Not really. What religion were you brought up with? Roman Catholic. Are you still that religion? GOD NO. Do you often find yourself questioning your future? That's my full-time job. How many friends do you have on Facebook? 124. What sort of music did you listen to when you were in high school? The same I listen to now. What pet names do you use with your significant other? I'm single rn, but usually, I go for "sweetie/sweetheart," "hunny," "love," "dear," stuff like that. What’s the name of the store you usually get your groceries? Wal-Mart. Have you ever seen a theatre show? Yes. What’s your favourite vegetable? Broccoli. Have you ever missed a flight? Yes. I was SO fuckin upset because it was on Sara's birthday and planned in secret, and I was supposed to wake her up. It still wound up being a big surprise to her when she walked into her room and I was chillin' at her desk, ha ha, but I still wish it coulda gone as originally planned. Do your neighbours have any pets? Have you ever met them? Yes; they have a yappy-ass dog that doesn't shut up. I haven't met them. What color is your bedroom door? White. If you were ever to become famous, would you grow annoyed at fans? This may sound very ungrateful, but I have heard A LOT of celebrities say it: it would get old, being stopped constantly in public for signatures, pictures, etc. Like yes, I still WOULD be grateful, but I'd miss just being off the radar and able to go outside carrying out chores and stuff like a normal person. Have you ever met your favourite band/singer? No. :( Are you embarrassed by any of the songs/singers/bands you like? Nah, not nowadays. Have you ever written a story? Yes, a kinda short one when I was little. Think of the last poem you wrote: What inspired you to write it? The breakup with Jason and the fact we're just strangers again. It was really short, but I like it a lot, honestly. Do you have a chance with the person you like right now? I think so. What’s the weirdest thing you were scared of as a child? A skeleton in my closet, lol. Literally. Are there any embarrassing stories your family tells about you? alkdsjflakjwle yes In your opinion, what is the funniest TV show? That '70s Show. 3rd Rock From the Sun is high up there, too. What is the maximum number of children you’d ever have? HYPOTHETICALLY, two, but I'm pretty damn serious about having none. I just always feel kinda bad for children without a sibling, but three would make me pull my hair out. Have you ever been concerned you had a serious illness? Yes. I overreact to even minor symptoms to ANYTHING. Are you comfortable with who you are? No. Pretty much everything about myself embarrasses me, even if it shouldn't. Would you date someone even if you knew you’d get made fun of for it? Yes? Others' opinions don't affect how I feel about someone. Does popularity matter to you at all? No, outside of trying to be a successful photographer. Would you ever consider homeschooling your children? If they really wanted that and it would benefit them, yes. Who told you about the band/singer you are currently listening to? I discovered them myself. Do you ever read fanfiction? Nah. Would you rather die in a plane crash, ship wreck or fire? Jesus. A plane crash, I guess, because in a lot of cases, it would be an immediate death. What are your top five favourite TV shows? Meerkat Manor, Fullmetal Alchemist (and Brotherhood; shut up, they go together), That '70s Show, Ginga Densetsu Weed, and Deadman Wonderland. What is your favorite superhero movie? Logan. If you died next week, what would be the cause of death? Uhhhh idk... I guess maybe a heart attack? Judging by doctor appointments, my heart is just fine, but the fact still remains that I'm technically obese, so that's always a risk. Have you ever taken a break from Facebook or other social media? Why? Facebook, yes. It was just depressing me. I was playing the comparison game REAL hard. Who is the most talented person you know? I dunno. I know many people talented in a lot of areas. Are you currently platonic friends with anyone you’ve had sex with? No. Where did you and your current interest go on your first date? Bowling. Have you ever experienced two people fighting over you (physically or mentally)? What happened? Jason and Juan pursued me at the same time. They'd known each other in the past, and Juan hated him for "winning" his ex-girlfriend. Then when Jason and I got together, Juan wasn't the happiest for sure. Have your parents ever thought you were gay? What happened? Before I actually came out as bisexual, I don't think so? Are your parents more liberal or conservative? Conservative. Mom is more open, but still conservative. I think. What year are you going into at the beginning of the next academic year? I'm not in school. How far away does your closest family member live? I live with Mom. If you’ve seen both, did you prefer the Disney version or the Tim Burton version of Alice in Wonderland? I actually strongly prefer Tim Burton's. Would you have sex before marriage? Why or why not? Yeah. I just want to be in a long-term, serious, healthy relationship to reach that point and be as safe as possible about it. Are you more liberal or conservative? Liberal, but I do have some conservative beliefs, too. Who is your favorite Harry Potter character? I don't have one, given I never got into that franchise. What’s the worst that could come out of letting gays marry? Not a goddamn thing. What’s the most sexual thing you’ve done? Done "the thing." Name something that you are against. I'll go with an unconventional one that's a problem as of the late: making owning reptiles illegal. Why are you against it? Because reptiles are perfectly capable of being brilliant pets and, most importantly, can tame people's fears of them. I think that it's very important to see the worth and beauty in all animals, and reptiles are one of the most unappreciated families out there. :/ Have you ever played the Tomb Raider games? I played some of either the first or second one. I could never beat it. Old games are hard, man. Do you like it or hate it when your partner is clingy? I absolutely believe that it can get to an extreme that I don't like, but for the most part, I don't mind a clingy partner because hey, I am too. Beatles or Rolling Stones? Stonessss. When was the last time you changed your opinion on somebody? It'd been on my mind for a while, but I *officially* realized that I really do like-like Girt a couple days ago. And since then it's gotten a bit hardcore and all I wanna do is talk to him bc fuck me and how attached to people I get. What was the last thing that made you feel proud and why? Every single time I go to the gym, I feel proud of myself because it REALLY takes a lot out of me. Do you feel uncomfortable when people you hardly know confide in you? Nope. I'm willing to be a shoulder to cry on for like... anyone. If you're hurting, talk to someone. I'll be there as an easy option. What was the last thing to fascinate you? It was... INCREDIBLY disturbing and almost nauseating even for me, but I saw a video of a dead whale explode. It was GRUESOME. Guts just kept coming and coming and coming and :x Is there a certain noise/sound which scares you? Hmmm... I'm sure there is, but what, it's not coming to me. Sudden, loud noises are an obvious answer. Do you have a favourite microorganism? ... No, I can't say I do. Out of the people you know, whose birthday is next? Girt's, actually. It's in October. If you have pet fish do you bother to name them? I did when I actually had them as a kid. Do you keep your eggs in the fridge? Ye. Have you ever owned chickens? No, but that'd be cool. Fresh eggs from a properly cared for chicken taste SO much better. When did you last listen to music? Currently. NOW I'm obsessed with Melodicka Bros & Violet Orlandi's cover of "Somebody That I Used to Know." It's done in a gothic metal style and is amaaaazing.

[toyhenoctus]

Character Sheet: Urzhug

Also featuring human!Urzhug, whose name is Ursula

Character Chart

Character’s full name: Urzhug

Reason or meaning of name: “A name that sounds like a belch”

Character’s nickname: Urzhy and The Tank

Reason for nickname: Urzhy is courtesy of Kade and The Tank was given by the party

Birth date: 2/19

Rest under the cut

Physical appearance

Age: 20

How old does he/she appear: 30s

Weight: 253 lbs.

Height: 7’ 3”

Body build: Mesomorph - High athletic

Shape of face: Square

Eye color: Amber

Glasses or contacts: N/A

Skin tone: Green-Grey

Distinguishing marks: Right eye scar, throat scar, back tattoo, stretched ear lobes, freckles and liver spots

Predominant features: Intense eyes

Hair color: Red

Type of hair: Coarse

Hairstyle: Long, partially braided, shaved on the sides and back, either up in high ponytail or hanging to one side

Voice: N/A

Overall attractiveness: 3/10

Physical disabilities: Mute and missing three fingers

Usual fashion of dress: Belted crop top, trousers, bracers and wrappings

Favorite outfit: War outfit (dragon skull and waist shield)

Jewelry or accessories: Several earrings, septum piercing, and labret piercing

Personality

Good personality traits: Dependable, protective, gentle

Bad personality traits: Impulsive, stoic, highly aggressive when angered

Mood character is most often in: Chill

Sense of humor: Childish; high amused by body humor

Character’s greatest joy in life: Finding her long lost elder sister

Character’s greatest fear: Losing her new family and having to return to the Flotilla

Why? She never felt truly welcomed there and left it behind just like her mother

What single event would most throw this character’s life into complete turmoil? The loss of Boaz

Character is most at ease when: She’s taking care of creatures

Most ill at ease when: She’s near the Flotilla

Enraged when: Her friends get hurt

Depressed or sad when: Secrets are kept from her

Priorities: Reuniting her family and providing for them

Life philosophy: Kiss the ones you love everyday for you never know when they’ll be gone

If granted one wish, it would be: To have been raised in Riverbend with Boaz

Why? Her childhood wouldn’t have been so violent

Character’s soft spot: Creatures

Is this soft spot obvious to others? Yes

Greatest strength: Physical strength

Greatest vulnerability or weakness: Balance, magic and she’s embarrassingly ticklish

Biggest regret: Not leaving her ship sooner

Minor regret: Thievery that led to her throat getting slashed

Biggest accomplishment: Finding Boaz

Minor accomplishment: Learning sign language

Past failures he/she would be embarrassed to have people know about: Not learning to swim until she was ten

Why? Most orcs are strong swimmers

Character’s darkest secret: She murdered a human while enraged after she escaped her ship

Does anyone else know? No

Goals

Drives and motivations: To provide for and protect her friends and family

Immediate goals: Destroying the Shadow Court

Long term goals: Building a home in Riverbend with her own two hands

How the character plans to accomplish these goals: By giving the party every last bit of her strength

How other characters will be affected: Everyone will be better for it if the Shadow Court is destroyed

Past

Hometown: The Marlenos Fleet

Type of childhood: Rough and violent

Pets: Nugget the shark, Daisy the manta ray and Killer the goldfish

First memory: Getting her nose broken by another orc 

Most important childhood memory: Making it quite far in the gauntlet of strength

Why: She was highly underestimated due to her age but she was surprisingly strong and fast

Childhood hero: She really looked up to Ventra as a child

Dream job: N/A

Education: N/A

Religion: Nature, primarily the wind

Finances: N/A

Present 

Current location: Riverbend

Currently living with: Boaz and Kade

Pets: Nugget, Daisy and Killer

Religion: Nature, primarily the wind

Occupation: Hunter

Finances: She trades her kills for gold

Family

Mother: Hestia

Relationship with her: Barely knew her

Father: Raging Ram

Relationship with him: Never met

Siblings: Several half siblings by Raging Ram that she’s never met and Boaz and Kade

Relationship with them: Very close with Boaz and Kade

Spouse: N/A

Relationship with him/her: N/A

Children: N/A

Relationship with them: N/A

Other important family members: N/A

Favorites 

Color: Brown

Least favorite color: Blood red

Music: Human music

Food: Meat

Literature: She can’t read very well

Form of entertainment: Playing with creatures

Expressions: “I will break you”

Mode of transportation: Moose-back

Most prized possession: Her greataxe

Habits

Hobbies: Animal taming

Plays a musical instrument? No

Plays a sport? No

How he/she would spend a rainy day: Dressing meat or whittling

Spending habits: She’s very frugal

Smokes: No

Drinks: Yes; she certainly look old enough

Other drugs: No

What does he/she do too much of? Looking over her shoulder

What does he/she do too little of? Relaxing and sleeping

Extremely skilled at: Hunting, swimming and animal taming

Extremely unskilled at: Keeping her balance, defending against magic, being stealthy and communication

Nervous tics: She wrings her hands together and tugs on her hair when she’s upset

Usual body posture: Slightly hunched as she’s constantly looking down

Mannerisms: Quick but careful

Peculiarities: She can’t sleep if she’s wearing any kind of clothing

Traits 

Optimist or pessimist? Optimist

Introvert or extrovert? Introvert

Daredevil or cautious? Daredevil in combat, cautious with people

Logical or emotional? Emotional

Disorderly and messy or methodical and neat? A bit messy due to her size

Prefers working or relaxing? Working

Confident or unsure of himself/herself? Very confident

Animal lover? Extremely

Self-perception 

How he/she feels about himself/herself: She’s learning to love the way that she is now

One word the character would use to describe self: Misunderstood

What does the character consider his/her best personality trait? Empathetic

What does the character consider his/her worst personality trait? Impulsiveness

What does the character consider his/her best physical characteristic? Her arms

What does the character consider his/her worst physical characteristic? Her fingers

How does the character think others perceive him/her: Intimidating

What would the character most like to change about himself/herself: She wished she could speak again

Relationships with others

Opinion of other people in general: Guarded with strangers but she can be won over easily

Does the character hide his/her true opinions and emotions from others? Yes though it is usually because they can’t understand her

Person character most hates: Duke Erthax

Best friend(s): Particularly Boaz, Kade, and Imtura

Love interest(s): The blacksmith, Tyril, the mermaid, Vantissa, so on (Urzhug is surprisingly casually flirtatious)

Person character goes to for advice: Kade

Person character feels responsible for or takes care of: Boaz 

Person character feels shy or awkward around: Tyril

Person character openly admires: Imtura

Person character secretly admires: Mal (for his sneakiness)

Most important person in character’s life before story starts: Boaz and Kade 

After story starts: The whole friend group

[dustofinsanity]

okay now that i’m done crying let me send you questions for the ask game: multiples of 7 hehehehe sorry it’s a lot mwah 💋

Oh dear Lord of tiny paws, I’ll have to make maths!! *goes on google to see all the multiples of 7*

7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write?

Preston&Child, especially their Pendergast series.

14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them?

I did, I always do.

21: What am I most afraid of?

Answered here

28: Something I miss?

Answered here

35: Am I excited about anything?

Answered here

42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?

Both. It was really cool to be a model but I also liked taking photos of people.

49: Superpower I wish I could have?

Talking to animals or controlling people’s mind. 

56: What is my song of the week?

I listened to this song a lot.

63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger?

Veterinarian. Until I brought my cat to the clinic and cried when my cat started to meow loudly.

70: Can I sing?

I can. Will I show you? Hm... nope. x’)

77: What is my current desktop picture?

A picture of my best friend’s cat Icare. Look at the beauty!!

84: Story behind one of my scars?

The one under my nose. I was in my mom car, she wanted to park the car, I thought she stopped here, I opened the door and started go out... She didn’t stop the car...

91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be?

Hm... I don’t understand the question so... Joker!

98: 3 things I love?

Crafting, paranormal/esoteric stuff and Stitch.

105: Last person I texted?

My friend Justine.

112: My relationship with my parents?

My mom is my everything. About my “father”... I can’t wait for the day I will be able to fuck on his grave.

119: Do I like the deep ocean?

I’m afraid of water (thanks dad) so deep ocean... Nope!

126: My current project?

Crafts, as always (a box and two notebooks).

133: Do I talk to myself?

All the time (I like talking to smart people).

140: Do I believe people are capable of change?

It depends of the people. Do I think a psychotic murderer can change? No. Do I think my ex who fuck every woman he meets? Yes (I hope for him).

147: Do I have any piercings?

Both eyebrows, both nostrils, tongue, labret, navel and four on each ear (and I want more)

154: Do I want children?

No.

161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience?

A lot and still have some.

168: Have I ever been on TV?

Yes, when I was a kid for a little report about the natural reserve of my former village.

175: Do I dream?

Yes but I rarely remember my dreams.

182: What does “family” mean to me?

People who love and accept you for who and what you are.

189: Love or career?

Career.

196: A movie that scared me as a child?

Ratman. I’m still traumatized by this fucking movie!

203: Do I judge a book by its cover?

Sometimes, yes, I do.

210: What is on my bucket list?

A lot of things that I probably won’t do.

Do you wanna know me better? Send number(s).

[a-c-i-d-k-i-t-t-y]

Fuck it & Answer all of them!

oomg ok! this will take forever so i’m gonna take breaks in between and then come back1.if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?they would read my journal, watch any of my favorite docs/films that relate to my mind and my life the most, and if someone wants to really understand me they’ll have to communicate with me, listen instead of just hearing me. they’ll have to want to understand.2.have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?oh yeah plenty 

3.three songs that you connect with?this is hard as hell cause i have a million songs i connect with, but just off the top of my head: Why - NFHelp - Papa RoachHonor Roll - BulowMyself - Layton Greenthat’s four but whatever4.would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?no that girl is like my sister lol

5.have you taken someones virginity?someone’s lesbian virginity6.how many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?zero, i can’t see that ever happening. i’ve never fully trusted male figures.

7.if you could, would you take back your last kiss?noo

8.who would you like to see in concert?not counting anyone i’ve already seen,NF, post malone, paramore, ariana grande, billie eilish, kane brown, and a million more

9.what was the last concert you saw?i think it was demi but i feel like i seen someone after her who i’m forgetting

10.would you ever want to swim with sharks?maybe. if i’m totally safe doing so haha11.do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?i fuckin hope so, i’m making it a mission

12.what was the last thing that made you laugh?whatever random shit me and angie were talking about tonight when i seen her13.a song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?i have no idea, fire on fire - sam smith 

14.have any pets?4 kitties

15.do you want to have kids? How many?i don’t know honestly, it’s something i think about and flip flop with. i’ve always said that if i want to have a child, it’ll be before i’m in my 30′s and if it decide to, my plan forever was to have a sperm donor. but i don’t know if i can raise a child tbh. i have too many fears which i’m sure everyone does when thinking of having a baby. i can’t picture myself pregnant either lol. but i would want it to come from me if i had one.

16.do you have piercings? How many?my nose, vertical labret, and my ears are stretched

17.do you miss anyone from your past?i miss friends from my childhood and middle school who’ve moved away or drifted, family members who are gone now, and versions of people before they’ve changed due to addiction, struggles, etc

18.what are you craving right now?a shower cause i just got home

19.have you ever broken someone’s heart?yes not intentionally 

20.have you ever been cheated on?yes

21.have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?yes when i finally walked away, it bothered me a lot to make someone cry, but it really had to be done.22.do you believe in true love?yes

23.favourite weather?summer & fall!

24.do you like the snow?yes it’s pretty to look at, but i only like when it snows maybe once every winter cause i can’t deal with the freezing cold

25.do you wanna get married?as of today my answer is no26.is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?yes only if i like them or are dating them. when random ass people call me that i hate it

27.what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?my mind is totally blank right now when i try thinking of any, i do have some though

28.go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!“space can alter your DNA.”

29.what’s your favorite pasta dish?chicken alfredo pasta or just regular pasta with tomato sauce & meatballs

30.what color do you really want to dye your hair?i think i might change my hair to dark brown in the summer but i don’t really know cause whenever i change it from black i immediately miss it or regret it

31.what’s your favorite eye color?all eye colors are my favorite

32.talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.i had this bag with hearts all over it in middle school and i carried it everywhere with me and it seen some dark shit man.

33.are you a morning person?i used to be, i want to be

34. what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?no weird places. i think i went to some abandoned places with friends when i was younger. we didn’t “break” into anything though, but we trespassed. 35.what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?my converses or vans, i used to wear my combat boots EVERYWHERE people used to think i was crazy cause i’d wear them in the summer when it was like 90 degrees.

36.what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.i. fucking. love. socks. fuzzy socks.

37.tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.ummm idk i walked my best friend home to the next town at like 2-3AM and we smoked weed prior, and as we were walking some dude was yelling out to us asking if we know where to get crack rock, and all i remember is us running because we were scared lol 

38.do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!i used to got to starbucks a lot but not anymore. i usually just make coffee at home or go to DD or wawa.39.who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?fuck if i know. i think my boyfriend at the time in the back of his truck.

40.what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?always had the fear of abandonment or my mom dying since my dad died when i was 8. i would send myself into panic attacks whenever my mom would leave me home alone for hours or if i came home and she was gone i would automatically think she was dead and would cry hysterically. and yeah i have that fear still but i don’t cry like that anymore, just feel a lot of anxiety.

41.do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?yes, it’s been a minute so i don’t remember42.think of a person. what song do you associate with them?i just texted angie so that’s who i thought of,yoho - blood on the dancefloor lmfao don’t ask

43.what are your favorite memes of the year so faroh god if i could i would post them, they had me dying.

44.do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?yes poetry is pretty45.what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?never given or received a “stupid” gift46.what are some of your worst habits?here’s three: catastrophizing, ruminating, self-sabotaging47.describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.they’ve been here for me since day one, always. proven through their actions that they genuinely care about my well being and my feelings and want the best for me. has my back through everything and is more than a friend, i consider them family.

48.tell us about your pets!stella: alpha cat of the housecookie: she isn’t the youngest but she is the baby of the cat fam and is super needyiris: badass and fears nothingno-name: literally unbothered by anything 

49.is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?showering, sleeping. i’ve literally been working on answering this for an hour.

50.are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?don’t hate them, just not a fan. 

51.what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?honestly just treating me like a fucking human being

52.describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.eyesss like honey 53.what’s some of your favorite album art?lana del rey’s album born to die has nice artwork and that album is one of my favorites 

54.are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?i have one currently. i plan to get more. i want midna from twilight princess on my upper arm or skull kid surrounded other things from the legend of zelda correlated into the tattoo turning it into a half sleeve, certain quotes or lyrics i have in mind, a tattoo dedicated to my dad, etc.

55.do you like concept albums? absolutely

56.what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?into the wild57.list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.pieces - red58.if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?i wouldn’t press either of them. everything in my past happened for a reason and i wouldn’t want to skip into the future because that freaks me out to skip time where i could have done something in those 5 years missed.

59.what do you do when you’re sad?either a negative or positive coping skill depending where my head is.

60.what are some things you do when you can’t sleep?think too much, listen to music all night, binge watch something on netflix or youtube, talk to someone, take a lovely walk to the refrigerator

61.what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?nights full of positive vibes with friends, laughing, having good talks, good food, music, just chillen. going to seaside, having bonfires, going off-roading in the woods, etc

62.who is the last person you told a secret to?i really don’t have secrets, i’m an open book if you ask me anything. 63.what’s the best piece of advice you ever received?i wouldn’t say advice, but i’ve received amazing guidance from my fam back at my old outpatient program when i was in therapy. i wish i could still remember most of the things i was told but i know it really helped me when i needed it most.

64.what’s your favorite food?sushi 

65.what’s your secret dream?i don’t have a secret dream

66.three songs you were recently obsessed with.straight to my head - you me at sixno ordinary love - memphis mayfirefire on fire - sam smith67.three songs that remind you of the person who sends this onei don’t know the person who sent me this

68. three favourite old songssome of my favorites that throw me back to when i was in middle schooldon’t matter - akonleave, get out - jojoi miss you - blink 182

69.three last songs you listened towe belong together - mariah careylithium - nirvanaheart-shaped box - nirvana

70.worst possible time to get horny:a funeral

71.have you ever had a friends with benefits?it depends what someone considers a friends with benefits relationship to be. i’ve hooked up w a friend years ago like twice, but idk if that would be considered fwb? since it wasn’t an ongoing thing. there was no strings attached, so i guess? any type of ongoing relationship i had with anyone after that there was always feelings.72.do you believe in soulmates?i wanna believe that yeah73.Is there anyone you would die for?i’m sure there is 74.who was the last person you cried in front of?my ex like over a year ago. i don’t cry in front of people, i fight it and i hate feeling emotionally exposed like that. it takes a lot for me to actually shed a tear in front of anyone out of pain. but happy tears are different though.

75.do you give out second chances too easily?lol more like 50 

76.is it easier to forgive or forget?it’s easier for me to forget cause i just repress shit subconsciously. i forgive easily for things that aren’t a big deal. but detrimental/trauma type shit takes me years to process through and forgive 

77.is this year the best year of your life?this year has been better compared to the last few years. it wasn’t great, but a lot of good things happened even though a lot of terrible stuff happened too. but it def wasn’t the best year of my life lol.

78.do you have trust issues?yeah like the rest of the world

79.who/what was your last dream about?

lolol was driving in a car with a friend