#i miss being a bayern fan ok ill say it and it makes me sad that now im not and ill never connect with these people again bc of that

[torunarigha]

time passing...it makes me a bit melancholy sometimes! especially with this fandom. 

i just stumbled upon a bunch of people on twitter that used to be on this site that i kinda interacted with and ... idk its funny to see them all following each other, moved on with their lives and for a second i feel like i haven’t because look at me i’m still on the hellsite! and then i realized how much ive changed as a football fan. i have left and come back multiple times, thinking that i’m coming back for the same reason or feeling when actually it changes slightly every time i return. coming back as @lahmm vs coming back as @ germanynts is one difference but also friends come and go and when they’re gone well...they’re gone. they don’t come back like i did. i hear people lamenting about how great this site used to be and they’re talking about 2018 !?!? this fandom, all fandoms, ebb and flow and change and there’s good times and bad times and you’ll always miss the good times because you know you’ve lost touch with people that you’ll never talk to again after they inevitably leave or in my case...are still bayern fans and you’re not.

i think i have to come to realize that things have changed for everyone a bit. some of us have grown up! and some of us left this site because it becomes too much. some took the time to explore football and find teams that were in our heart all along. things will never be the way they were in 2014. or 2018. and things will never be the way they are now in 2020. 

i hope all these people that i remember and don’t remember are living good lives right now and are happy and maybe sometimes remember me, whatever phase i was in, and think fondly about those times because this close knit and drama ridden fandom can be really nice sometimes :)