#i mentally default to a future with s.taroba post-Barrier break where Kanako is returned to her and Clover wakes up from their dirt nap

[rustedleopard]

In relation to that one poll that's going around, my opinion on if Ceroba would have kids again depends more heavily on the circumstances in the future and not so much on who her partner is...

I get the sense that Ceroba would want to pursue a relationship again once she gets over her idolization of Chujin (bc, let's be real, she's not gonna so much as glance at someone else while she's 1.) still in mourning, and 2.) still sees Chujin as such a perfect guy that nobody else can compare to him). It'd take some time and whoever her partner is better be patient with her bc she's gonna be grappling with guilt trying to move on from Chujin bc even though she'd be at a point where she can admit that Chujin wasn't a perfect husband, she still loved him very deeply and loving someone else romantically the same(ish)* way she loved him would make her feel like she's betraying Chujin at the worst of times. But I can still see her dating someone else in the future as a pretty strong possibility.

But like, that's something that's years down the line, what else has happened in the meantime? Has the Barrier been broken? Has Amalgamate Kanako been returned to her? Is this a world where Clover gets revived post-Barrier break? Did the barrier break down before or after she's decided to move on and start dating again? How badly does her partner want kids? How well does her partner know her history with these sorts of things? And on and on. She might just be too busy dealing with life in general to even think about having another kid, so if the question gets popped, her rejection wouldn't depend so much on what happened with Kanako (though it's certainly a factor) but more on what's going on in the present/foreseeable future.

I do know that if she was willing to have another kid, she'd have to deal with a ton of guilt over feeling like she ruined Kanako's life and "What if I repeat my mistakes all over again???" She has a lot that she's gotta overcome, but moving on from her mistakes and having another kid is a possibility for her.

Kanako (and all of her other parts... hoping there isn't a Jerry in the mix :|) would love to be a big sibling though!

*I say same(ish) because 1.) insert some poetic nonsense about how people don't love other people the same exact way and every relationship between two people, romantic or platonic, is unique, and 2.) she better NOT be idolizing her new partner the same way she did with Chujin, I swear to god