#i mean... bonus point if matthias ends up falling for another heartrender and they kiss but it's not obligatory

[drusjer]

someone please write matthias. i need him and fred to meet. i need matthias to look at fred, who is not only a grisha but also a fellow fjerdan, and be horrified. i need matthias to see the living result of hatred and feel so disgusted with his past he feels sick (all over again). and then i need him to be glad that he's not that person anymore (all over again). i need fred to look at matthias and allows himself to be angry. i need fred to look at matthias and allows himself to be sad, to realise that it's not fair. and then i need him to be glad that change is possible, that hatred and anger is not all one have to be. that one day maybe, just maybe, there won't be another fjerdan boy who have to grow up sad and lonely just because he was born different. i need them to bond over being two fjerdans far from home. i need them to speak their mother tongue with each other and feel at home with one another. i need them to cook fjerdan food for each other and eat it together in silence and be happy.