#i mean theres still time for it to be shit but dinner n hangout is done so? idk

[tragically-jane-doe]

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Edit- welp that was quick

[winchester-interrupted]

Bad Mood

Pairing: Platonic!Dean x reader, Platonic!Sam x reader

Summary: Deans been in a bad mood, so you tag along with him on a beer run to try and cheer him up - which proves to be a whole lot harder than you thought.

(A/N): Kind of a crack fic. Little bit of fluff at the end. Dean being a dick, thats pretty much it.

“Son of a-“ Dean yelled from the kitchen; you could hear the fridge door slamming from your seat in the library. You raised a brow at the heavy footsteps coming down the hall and into the room, eyes coming up to meet the annoyed green ones staring back and forth between you and Sam.

“Problem Winchester?” you questioned, trying to hide your amused smile behind a very dusty volume of the Heptameron, a book about angels you’d dug up from the Men of Letters archives. 

Dean looked incredulously at the both of you and raised his arms,

“Who the hell took the last beer and didn’t think to go buy more ASAP?” 

Sam furrowed his brows at his brother, not even bothering to hide his smile as you had been trying to.

“Dean did- did you just say ‘ASAP’ out loud?” You’ve dropped your head in your hands now, unable to control yourself after Sam’s comment. 

“It was you wasn’t it! I knew it was you!” Dean pointed an accusing finger in Sam’s direction, to which Sam just snorted at.

“Whatever dude, I’ll make a run into town and buy you a brand new six pack tomorrow.” Sam promised before opening his book back up and was back to intensely translating the ancient latin text. You looked to Dean, who was currently biting the inside of his cheek to keep from blowing up. He was too pissed off for this to be solely about the bunkers apparent beer drought; you’d noticed he had been fairly grumpy since he woke up this morning. 

You kept your eyes on Dean as he stalked over to pluck his jacket off the chair beside you.

“Screw it I’ll go now, I’m going freakin’ crazy sitting around here.” he huffed, hastily shrugging the jacket on and grabbing the keys to the impala.

“You mind if I come with? My eyes are gonna fry out of my head if I have to read one more word out of this book.” It wasn’t a complete lie, the book really was damn near indecipherable. And as much as you felt bad for leaving Sam researching alone, you wanted to make sure Dean was okay and see if you could cheer him up while you guys were out. Maybe all he needed would be some fresh air or maybe it was something much deeper, you never know with the Winchesters. 

Dean looked down at you in slight surprise, the annoyance briefly dissapearing from his face before nodding at you,

“I guess so, you ready to go like that?” his eyes dropped to the thin tanktop and leggings that you’d been lounging in. You looked down at your clothing as well, deciding to go change into something a little warmer.

“Uhh, give me just a second to run and change, I’ll be quick!” you promised, shooting out of your chair and running to your room before Dean could protest. 

You quickly pulled on a pair of jeans and one of Deans red flannels, gathering your hair up into a ponytail as you rushed back down the hall in record time. 

“I grew a fucking beard standing here waiting for you, lets go.” Dean grumbled. Sam gave you a silent look that you knew meant you got yourself into this. You gave him one back that you hoped he would understand as Fuck off, Sam. By the smile he quickly covered with a cough, you knew he understood.

The 15 minute car ride into town with Dean so far consisted of him quietly tapping along to Stairway to Heaven on the streering wheel, which covered the first eight minutes of the trip, and now a Boston song was starting. You on the other hand, debated whether you should risk Dean biting your head off to lower the music and try to talk to him in this mood he was in, or wait until you got to the store. You sighed again for probably the fifth time this car ride and Dean threw you a sideways glance.

“That’s starting to get annoying.” 

“Oh so he speaks!” Throwing your hands up you turned to face him, “You know what’s getting annoying? This attitude you’re in.” you huffed, crossing your arms and turning back to stare at the road.

“Attitude?” he scoffed, “I don’t have an attitude! If anyone has an attitude its you.” he raised his chin.

You threw him a weird look, “Dude, you just said the word ‘attitude’ three times in one sentence. Clearly I am not the problem.” You looked back out the window and thanked the gods that you were finally rolling down main street. 

“Oh my god. I’m too sober for this.” he grundled, swinging the car into the first parking spot he saw which - to your growing annoyance - was too far from the store considering the open spots much closer. Now you’d have to awkwardly walk together in silence all the way to the store. 

Or not, you thought as you realized Dean was already out of the car and walking away. With a roll of your eyes you pulled yourself out of the car and slammed the door a little harder than necessary just to piss off Dean. You smirked a little to yourself when he stopped in his tracks and turned around just to glare at you. You coldly walked past him with your arms crossed, 

“Hurry up Dean, I’m growing a fucking beard waiting for you.” you threw back at him. You smirked again in satifaction at the audible growl heard from the man stalking behind you.

You felt pleased with yourself until you glanced up at Dean, still visibly annoyed, and your heart sank a little. The whole reason why you came with him was to try and cheer him up, not make him even more angry, although he was the one that started it. Still, you decided as you struggled to keep up with his long strides towards to beer section, you would try to be civil and calm him down at the very least. 

“Godamn Winchesters and their long legs,” you grumbled, out of breath by the time you caught up to him scanning the shelves. Taking a look around, you realized you needed more wine - it’s what the three of you broke out on the rare occasion that Jody and Donna or company came over for dinner. 

Picking up a bottle of red and a bottle of white, you turned to Dean, “Hey Dean? You think we should get this Chardonnay or the Caberet?”

“What do I look like to you a fucking wine connoisseur? Get whatever you want.” he dismissed. You narrow your eyes at him and mimick him to his back. He’s making it real hard to be nice to him. You take another second to think before deciding on both and putting them in the cart thats now loaded with beer. 

“I know we just came for beer but theres a few more things we need while were out,” you said,  now walking beside him.

“I’m not buying Ikea furniture again.” Dean interrupted. You rolled your eyes at him and garbbed a case of Jack Daniels to put in the cart.

“Not furniture, Dean, I mean groceries-“

“Didn’t you and Sam just go last week and buy all that kale and rabbit shit?” he cuts in again. 

“Would you stop interrupting me?” you snap. He shuts his mouth and turns to look at you.

“For fucks sakes Dean, I was gonna pick up some stuff to make you a pie and cheer you up out of whatever this fucking mood you’re in, but fine let’s just go home.” You sigh, taking the cart from him and walking towards the cash.

“Pie? You were gonna make me a pie?” he speeds up a little, trailing close behind you like a little kid.

“Was. I was gonna make you a pie.” you say without looking at him. Suddenly the cart hits something solid and you look up to see Dean blocking your path.

“Look, I’m sorry.” he starts. Here we go, the big apology. You’re convince this is just because he wants pie.

“Being cramped up in the bunker researching all week… I’m going stir crazy. It’s been too quiet and I’ve been itching to go out and kill something you know?” he puts his hands out in a strangling pose.

A lady walking past with her child shoots the two of you a fearful look and ushers her kids the other way quickly, almost making you crack a smile.

“Yea, Dean, noone wants to be researching for a week straight. We’re all tired of it, you’re not the only one!” 

“I know, I know, it’s just…” he scratched the back of his neck, distractedly looking around the store.

“It’s just what, Dean?” You were getting impatient with him. Yea it sucks to be stuck in the library all day reading books you couldn’t even understand, but it was something all of you had to suffer through. Not to mention it was mostly you and Sam doing the majority or the work, while Dean would dissapear half the time to work on the impala or do Chuck-knows-what in his room.

“Well, you know… you and Sam are good at it you know? And you two always spend so much time talking about it and other nerdy philosophy shit that I don’t get and I just- I don’t know, I feel like I don’t get to hangout with you as much.” he finishes, looking at you sheepishly. 

“Dean,” you say softly, you anger quickly dissipating. “You know I love hanging out with you just as much as Sam. We have our movie nights! And you’re the one that always comes to the bar with me, or takes me to get burgers when I’m craving them at three in the morning. It’s just been a rough week, okay? For all of us.” 

He’s smiling now, the first smile you’ve seen him crack all day long.

“I guess you’re right. Thanks (Y/N).” he grins at you, the frowns looking at the cart. 

“I don’t think we really need that much whiskey,” he reaches to grab one of the cases and you smack his hand away quickly. 

“Did you just hiss at me?”

“Shut up, Dean.”

He looks at you with an amused smile before he grabs the cart and you both begin walking towards the pie section, together this time. 

[96xie]

2019

a whole summary of this difficult year

2019 was full of unexpected good and bad surprises along with lessons and experiences.

january

spent good time with mocha, wayo and brian

had such a good time with guildies from our game

met up with some other ppl from the same game and didnt feel too good bc i was never good with crowds and/or groups that were already well established

tried tinder for the first time because i thought it would be nice to put myself out there for once

feburary

continued my tinder journey and actually had fun with it. it was pretty scary at the same time because it was such a new experience talking to other people and to have them notice you? because i always knew and felt that i wasnt really the desirable one.

actually hooked up with a guy from last months meetup and hung out twice. thought it was going somewhere because he, too, showed signs to progress further ((was wrong because he lied and showed red flags later))

one major red sign to me: no response after genuinely saying thank you for rides and dinner. im the type of person who always says thank you because im honestly grateful for the little and big things. he basically shrugged it off.

also, a huge liar. yah, big no

i brought him to my friends birthday bc they and himself wanted to meet each other, it was fun while it lasted but stuff happened

towards the end of the month, i cut my ties off with him for being awfully mean to me and also cut ties with my “friends” for having really bad assumptions of me.

i was frustrated with myself at that time bc his cats gave me a bad breakout and i felt super ugly. also i wasnt sad over him, but over the fact that i let myself be treated like a second option. eventually i learned that it was good that i didnt let things go further and that i only deserve the very best.

even though i was hurt, i thought it was a good experience, esp since i havent really been in the “dating game” for years. like it was a just a small step to putting myself out there once again

a week later after that a classmate asked me out and got tons of compliments from him and wondered “the universe really works in crazy ways”

march

met some cool people through the same mobile game on a discord server and they were much better than the first group.

also met this really funny dude in the same group. like he was so fun to talk to and he understood my dumb lingo

remember when my classmate asked me out on a date? it turned out a bit weird. but considering this was my first date in YEARS i thought it was a cool experience. got some carne asada fries outta him

i had the dude i was talking to call me so i could leave the date tho LOL ((he helped me lots, esp how to deal with awkward situations with my classmate. also at this point, i really liked talking to him but i wasnt rly sure if i wanted to date other guys bc i had been hurt previously)

this month was pretty much dedicating most of my time talking to him and i enjoyed it alot

also went to pubs for the first time to hangout with my coworkers. such an interesting place

april

tried rollerskating for the first time ever, ended up with a bunch of bruises but it was cool!

also tried 7leaves for the first time and instantly fell in love with mungbean

also went clubbing in sf with my friends and it was such a fun time like i had SO much fun

i got auctioned off of SAD! that phase was just a crazy ride. while there was many that dm’d me, there was only one special person that i only replied to and continued to talk to him on a daily basis

((honestly, i was scared that i was taking things a bit further with him because a part of me was like “are you ready for this?” and “have you really recovered from that guy?” or “can you give this guy your all?” just alot of overthinking))

spent 4/20 at sf with my friends, and overall had a GREAT time. took too many hits and drank so ya gorl was crossfaded. not sure if i wanna do tht again tho

unfortunately woke up with a swollen face and it lasted for a LONG time.

may

so my face is still swollen, still bad, red as a tomato and at this point i was really hesitant to meet up with the guy ive been talking to. i mean!! my skin was SO bad. i felt like i was gonna make a fool out of myself by scaring him away

but,,,, he was still willing to see me despite my appearance and : ( he was so accepting and typing this makes my heart ache bc he is SUCH a good man : (

i met up with the guy towards the end of the month in sj and first thing he does when i walk up to him is give me this great warm hug and so many smooches !!!!!!! like my heart is melting

eventually we became official !!! he got us an airbnb for the night and we jus spent time cuddling on the bed and honestly i : ( i like him so much

june

my birthday wasnt rly that like “wow” it was actually kinda annoying

my bf flew up to sf where we met up, explored the city and slept the night in at an airbnb. next day went to oakland where i introduced my friends to him!

went to my first festival with several with my friends, including ppl from our same guild from our game and it was SO fun

rolled for the first time and it was SUCH an experience. redosed like twice and ended up hallucinating which is something ill def not do again

also i really wished my bf was with me at that time : ( while i had an extremely fun time, i wish i shared that moment with him : (

july

went to vegas for my cousins 22nd bday. shit was wild

also rolled there.

also threw up for the very first time

a fight broke out at the club and that shit was fuckgin CRAZY and it was RIGHT next to our table

also used alot of my money for the whole trip in which nobody really told me about so …. i was like ok.. fuck …

also my skin was still bad during these past months so it was pretty hard masking it

like really hard. with someone with terrible eczema, its just extremely hard to hide it

august

bf flew to sac!!! he met my mom for the first time and we explored the city and stuff

and went on an ikea date! and! honestly i just really loved spending time with him :c

we also spent time with my friends! they came over also! and ate some fuckgin bomb ass waffles

and then took bus down to la to meetup with some friends from our guild towards the end of the month!

it was pretty nice to be able to stay with my bf in his apartment !!!!!

also some scalding tea but thats rly for another time

to make it super short tho: our friend that we’ve known much longer than the girl he met (less than 3 months) dropped our friendship SO quick lol

september

cousin bonding @ beach, too cold for tht doe

towards the end of the month, my bf flew me down!!! so i spent the weekend with him and like always, only had a good time with him!

AND ALWAYS EATING GOOD FOOD!

october

during this fall semester, i took online classes and one of them was a 8week class. there was a topic about mental health and how we can take care of ourselves better and i just thought it was such an important thing to cover. i feel like its not talked about enough

november

spent thanksgiving with my family down in morgan hill and ate good food! honey ham has a special place in my heart.

went black friday shopping first at walmart, lowkey disappointed in myself because i was bummed out the apple watches were sold out. the materialistic part of me jumped out oof

slept at my cousins then went to the mall! didnt get anything besides really good bulgogi fries. i hated going into stores tho cuz everything was literally crowded. hated it !!!!!!!

went to a small festival in sacramento with my friends at the end of the month and this time is 7 of us (than the usual 5)! it was sososo fun.

also took my coworker with me, it was actually amusing to see bc our group were all asian and he’s the only tall white guy

made hotpot at home and we also went out for milktea and waffles again! sooo good.

december

flew down to see my bf again and only had a good time! went to this garden with beautiful lights and ! ugh! SO pretty!

cried in his bed before my flight back, cried on the plane, cried at home and cried before i slept. i miss him

also racked up alot of hours so i could pay for my tuition and my family’s bills. kinda sucks bc im pretty tired but i gotta do what do i gotta do.

christmas was a bit lonely bc my mom went to the philippines and i dont rly talk to my brother but my kuya came the next day and we ate n watched stuff

overall, it was a whacky year. but im so glad to have met ed. he means SO much to me. a part of me was so hesitant to date him because i mean, he’s man with his life set. i dont have a car, im still in school, i have this part time job where im giving my mom all my paychecks and which the only money im keeping is just my tips (not much), i still have issues with myself and other conflicts and honestly theres much to do, learn and grow from. but he’s so supportive, understanding and loving and i love and appreciate him from the bottom of my heart. most of the time i wonder if im doing and if im being enough for him. i worry about that alot but he’s so patient with me. i laugh alot when im with him and i feel so happy.

did i mention that we are long distance? him being in la and me in sacramento. so the only thing thats connecting us is facetime. maybe once every two months will i see him in person but yep. when i had my first panic attack, i really wanted him right next to me. at that moment i felt even more sad because of course you’re gonna want you’re significant other during a moment like that. but anyways, i always miss him and i always want him next to me and i always love him. i want to hurry up and get my education done with so i can be with him. not to sound like omg im so madly infatuated with him type of thing tho. he’s someone who understands me and knows how to love me.

i hope 2020 treats me well despite all the challenges ahead of me.