#i mean obviously i'll follow forever yall

[kdramaxoxo]

I'm no mathematician, but I think I've lost 73% of my mutuals to cdramas and thai dramas ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[midnightmisadventures]

HAHAHA guys im LIVINGGGGG I got my alpha dream lmaoooo

I honestly am dying like what a funny life to live. I-, as you all know i got drunk and followed alpha last night. Put his government on the TL like an idiot.

Earlier today he accepted me and followed me back and it....was overall underwhelming. Which duh it should be, I DONT HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR ALPHA. Like not even sexual at this point idk...like its not there. But the biggest thing is that, fucking mk, lenina crowne herself was all over the page. I was like fuck, the reason this was supposed to be fun and silly was that i thought he was single. Like i had no idea they were STILL together are you kidding me?

And yea here I am scrolling through pics of them being hot and intensely making out and being the barbie and ken we all remember them to be. And nothing. No emotion, no stomach drops. Happy 4 them! Hope they are great lmao. Its so crazy how a pic of them on my timeline 5 years ago today would make me sob. But i was like, im cured yall

From september 4, 2018 to today. I finally did it, not you not ever. I mean talk about detaching.

Anyways, it was whatever, now we follow eachother. We'll see if he unfollows after he jerks off like last time. But i take a midday nap, and i get my FUCKING alpha dream bitches. Uni said ask and u shall recieveeeeeeee hahaha im so weak.

It was a classic chip party. All of florida was there, extended family, lots of dogs. In my dreams lately ive been like "late" to get ready. Like people are arriving and im like omg, i need to change into my outfit, my hairs a mess, give me 15mins. So that was sort of happening here. Guests were arriving and I was trying to run upstairs before people saw me. And.....apparently i invited alpha?? for line fun?? but i didnt think he would come and also no other of my friends or like people my age or from highschool showed up. Like it was supposed to be like a throw away invite for the drama and ehhh if he shows up he can talk to other people he knows. But i NEVER expected him to show up and i DIDNT think no one else would be there??

But it wasnt awkward that....more of my friends werent there. Like it wasnt like "ha ha ur a loser" embarrassing. Alpha was chillin, the big deal was that we hadnt seen eachother in forever, and now he was in my house and he was just making me nervous like i didnt wanna talk to him.

So , lots was going on. Also he brought lenina? So again, wasnt super weird but i just all in all didnt feel like talking to Alpha and lenina haha sue me. But whatever, suddenly i start seeing him make eye contact with me and rounding corners like looking at me, and no lenina. So im like....okay idk where the gf is but he's obviously trying to....give looks, as me 5 yrs ago would say. And i was like okay well, i am the only one here who is his age and not my family i should probably talk to him since i invited him.

So i was in the pantry in the chip kitchen and he just comes to the side of the table and just sits down legs spread, facing me not saying anything. Black tshirt.....most likely grey sweats. Which isnt a coincidence that hyfr was wearing that too but i'll get to that.

So i was like, ugh i have to bite the bullet and talk to him, and i still wasnt dressed. But he was sitting right next to me on purpose, so im like in the pantry, and i look over like "hey alpha, w-whats whats up?" like STUTTERING i literally hated myself for being nervous but he was making me nervous lmao. Like ahh stop.

I was like "how have you been??" like genuinely acknowledging that i havent seen him in forever and i have no idea what he's been up to. And he was being very alpha and coy and sly smiled, but then he opened his mouth lmaooo.

Tell me how this man says, "honestly i've just been pretty stoned a lot"

UHHMMM WHAT. Tell me whats weirder, hyfr trying to convince me via dream that he's into big brother or alpha via dream trying to convince me he's a STONER. Like the walking tight assed ken doll. Mr, "thats pretty bad" smoking weed aLL tHe TiMe like bull shit, Liam you keep slipping up that its just actually you.

Its so funny to me, that Liam is impersonating all of my exes via dream and doesnt actually know anything about them....so he's filling the blanks, but in doing so he exposes himself. Cause MAYBE i can believe that hyfr is like?? into bb? but no one is gonna convince me that alpha is some heavy stoner. Also the black tee and grey sweats is the last thing i saw Liam in so its absolutely not a coincidence.

Anyway, rightfully so i'm like "wait reallllyyyyyyyyy" like kinda turned on haha i was so shocked but i was like okayyy alpha the stoner like lets go smoke babe thats hot. And i was so shocked so i started asking like "did you smoke in high school or did u start after highschool?" basically like tell me more. And he started trying to explain, and i dropped what i was doing in the pantry and gave him my full attention and we were sorta being flirty, but he kept trying t talk, but over in the den my dad and erikka were having this deep discussion and i was overhearing it, and they were talking about eating, and ed, and stuff that couldve easily been directed to me but i was like so confused like is erikka having eating issues? so i kept trying to eavesdrop and was getting distracted.

And then i would turn back to alpha and be like "im so sorry can you say that again, i was distracted by my sister" and he'd be like "yea so..." and start talking again. By the way he's sitting on a stool and im in front of him, but over and over i kept getting distracted about what erikka and dad were talking about. Like they were talking about how much she was eating in a day and what her appetite was like, and i mean obv that relates to me in someway so idk.

But....somehow, alpha also overheard and was like wait maybe i shouldnt be talking about how much weed i smoke/you smoke in front of your dad and your sister bc that plays into appetite and i gues he was trying to be sensitive but also in a silly way so he was like "nevermind, i should have never brought it up"

and i was like "no no no lmao you can keep going" and we were giggling. and he was just like "no, it seems like a touchy subject i wont-"

So then i was laughing, so i playfully touched his arm with my shoulder and it wasnt a big deal but i felt him flinch like- uhhh woops dont do that. Like he didnt say anything but i felt him flinch a little. And i was thinking in my head like.....is it bc he has a gf i didnt think that was that weird.

So then im like leaving upstairs to go get ready and im like "okay okay alpha we're continuing this conversation later, im serious, im gonna come find you in a few and we're talking about this" like being jokey and cute and he was like "uh huh okay lol"

And i ran upstairs to get ready.

[falcqns]

hi ava!! i remembered that you and your husband (congrats btw!) bought a house last year and was wondering if u two were still moving in?? and i know u said you were renovating it so how s that going? luv u <3

hey bby!! great question! we are still moving in! we ended up having to move rental homes due to a landlord needing room for their relatives who had just immigrated, and that happened when me n bubba had just moved back to my parents, so andrew put all our stuff in storage since he didnt want to stress me out more.

i love talking about my house but ik others wont really care about my house shit so more under the cut!!

he managed to get an apartment, and has been living there. our goal was to just then just to move back in together when the house was done, but we've had some set backs unfortunately :( things arent going too smoothly, and the entire house has to be rewired which sucks because i think that means we might have to replace all the light switches which i dont want bc they're older and just beautiful :(

we're renovating quite a bit of the house, so things are taking longer than normal lol, so our estimated move in date is sometime in the fall, but it might change. thankfully some of the things we're doing can be done ourselves (we're diy queens) but things like electrical work and plumbing is something we cant do unfortunately. i've got a lot of ideas, especially for bubba's room, so i'm excited to see it come together! i don't think i'm gonna show it because people can be mean and there are creeps out there so i wont show our actual house, but i'm gonna make a pinterest board so y'all can see my vision! if you wanna follow (i also have boards for my desired realities) my pinterest is @avaleazahra !

on a happier note, we've been going over and working on the pool with my dad almost every day and its looking sooo much better! its not a professional in-ground pool, but my dad and his friends have worked hard to make it so it's in ground! it wont lst forever, obviously, but we're hoping that we'll have enough saved to have an actual in ground installed when its life is ending lol. Bubba is in lessons (with my mom, shes a lifeguard) and our little puppy is getting big enough to take in the pool! she'll have a life jacket and swim boots on of course, but we're excited for our two babies to grow up together, making summer memories.

i just finished staining my old crib that we're gonna use for bubba as it transitions into a daybed so our hope is for her to use it until she's middle school age. (shes still in a crib and the limit for this bed is 50 pounds - give or take - it been sitting in a basement for 18 years lol - and she's still super tiny so we're hoping she'll be in it for a while) i did have crib for her but it was an ikea one so it didn't last long with all the moving we did.

our bedroom is coming along as well. we have a plan for a walk in closet eventually and andrew is thinking of building a spot in there for when i'm having a meltdown and just need a break but we don't think it will be for a while, so our current plan is kinda the same as the one chris evans x little!reader story where she had a spot in a closet.

our last plan for the future is to build an addition where i could one day run a home daycare. its a dream, but it wont be a reality for a while unfortunately :( one day!

ok i think thats everything! if you want to know anything, just ask a question and i'll answer! i kinda forgot people were interested in the house so i'll try and keep yall updated more as we get closer to the fall!