#i mean like. its not even another person seeing this thing. i had a hard time keeping a feelings journal or writing down my thoughts
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Endeavor is almost a perfect allegory for what the society in the mha universe does to people who can't be heroes or use their quirks in a way to benefit society, which is cast them aside or pass them over without over giving them a second glance until uh-oh! Suddenly they're worth being noticed because they're a threat.
He apologizes to his family, which is good! If you're a bad person and did terrible things, the first step in your own transformation and atonement should be to acknowledge what you've done and to apologize to those you've wronged. Great!
Thing is, Endeavor set off a chain reaction with his abusive, neglectful and downright irresponsible choices that it damaged everyone in his family for life.
I don't think someone who causes one of their own children to literally go up in flames, crying because they're finally getting attention from their father and family in the very end, ever deserves to be forgiven.
#mha#my hero academia#endevour#mha dabi#mha endeavor#im sure im gonna get some flack for this because for some reason lots of people think that he should be redeemed but no???#im sorry guys i like villain redemption arcs as much as the next person and i understand being confused over#why so many people forgive other villains vs endeavor#but theres something about being in a place of power and influence and using that to harm and neglect your family and having EVERYONE#EVERYONE IN THE WHOLE WORLD PRETTY MUCH JUST LOOK AWAY AND SAY OH ITS NOT MY FAMILY THATS HIS BUISNESS#BETTER NOT GET INVOLVED IT'LL SORT ITSELF OUT#that just doesnt sit right with me whatsoever#ive liked plenty of villains who do horrible things but i can still see their good side because they have their henchman or their own family#or that one person who they care for and will protect because thats their heart#im saying that even though endeavor FEELS BAD he really just didnt have a heart or care for anyone but himself until hmm#oh! after he became the number one hero#and after he got a scar that humbled him#theres a reddit post where the op talks about how people soften him and are willing to forgive him but i think thats coming from people who#very very thankfully no shade did jot have to deal with anyone like that irl in any way#OR people who are less into stories and allegories again no shade and take characters at a more surface level#its just another read on the character which of course is obviously fine but please please understand why people will never forgive him#mha spoilers#its like especially hard to not hate him when you find out that dabi had his mothers power all along#meaning he WAS that perfect child that endeavor had been looking for but he cast him aside too soon to even let that power bloom early on#god i hate Endeavor so much#love the way hes written story and character wise like he IS really well written#but fuck him all the same lol
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hmm constantly feel as if i am trying to measure myself against a nonexistent standard, or else a standard that DOES exist but nobody will tell me the actual scope and criteria of.
#the constant battle of trying to evaluate the genuine-ness and authenticity of thoughts feelings and experiences#of course saying stuff like this out loud immediately makes them feel more artificial but yk#i mean like. its not even another person seeing this thing. i had a hard time keeping a feelings journal or writing down my thoughts#bc it always felt overly manufactured and performative#the act of sorting them into something able to be vocalized proving that (in my case)#they weren't genuine to begin w#^ statements that read as overdramatic to me now that i have expressed them
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Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of
#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit#i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it#very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically#some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like#AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE#and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to#and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded#it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me#i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me#and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him#away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt#feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like#aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family#hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs#his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage#and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them#HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM#and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is#but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK#and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way#or hes like âhaha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he#doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnallyâ#yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them
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Eldritchrune - A Messy Fight
Story Setup Eldritchrune Masterpost
On their way to face Queen, Kris and the Fun Gang run into Tasque Manager, who demands impossible standards of order. Her criticisms might feel a little too familiar to Kris...but at least the rest of the Fun Gang have their back!
YAY, it's nice to finally get another comic all finished! This one obviously had to go on hold for awhile from my wrist injury. While I'm working on recovering, things are still going to be slow for awhile (probably the rest of the year), so it may be another wait before the next scene.
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Page 1
Panel 1 - Kris, Ralsei, Susie and Noelle walk down a long, uniform stone hallway. Eyeless porcelain gargoyles shaped like big cats stand watch from atop pillars in the hallway. As they walk, Ralsei says, âWeâre getting closer to Queenâs chambers. Stay on the alert, Kris!â
Panel 2 - Kris responds with a quick âI am.â As the Fun Gang continues down the hallway, one of the porcelain gargoyles turns its head to follow them.
Panel 3 - Im a medium shot, Lancer pops up from within Susieâs hair, and waves at Kris. He says, âHey human person, is it hard to stay alert with all that hair in your eyes?â Susie grins, and sticks out her tongue in joking agreement. âYeah, itâs gettinâ even messier.â Unbeknownst to the Fun Gang, in the background, one of the gargoyles starts to climb down the pillar.
Panel 4 - Closeup on Kris as they brush their long and messy hair out of their face. âI can see just fine,â they respond.
Panel 5 - Two of the gargoyles land on the ground, the panelâs focus on their clawed paws tapping against the stones.
Page 2 Panel 1 - Noelle turns her head, one ear perked up to listen to whatâs behind them. She says, âWait. I hear somethingâŠâ
Panel 2 - Closeup on the clawed paws of the gargoyles as they charge forward.
Panel 3 - Closeup on Kris as they turn at the sound, reaching for their sword.
Panel 4 - Wide shot of the Fun Gang. They suddenly find themselves surrounded on all sides by four porcelain big cats, all snarling as they circle them. Susie glares back.
Panel 5 - Susie turns back to Lancer, still poking out of her hair. She says, âUugh, more jerks! Better hide again.â Lancer responds with a disappointed âAw manâŠâ but does as heâs asked.
Panel 6 - âWhat are these things?â Kris asks, eyeing a gargoyle circling them, and keeping one hand on their sword hilt. âTheyâre tasques!â replies Ralsei.
Page 3
Panel 1 - Ralsei turns expectantly, looking ahead. âThat means that their *manager* must be nearâŠâ
Panel 2 - Closeup on an armored boot as it steps into the middle of the hall.Â
Panel 3 - The boot belongs to Tasque Manager. She appears as an armored knight with impeccably polished plate armor, decorated with sharp V-shaped emblems. She appears human in stature, except for her head, which is the bleached skull of a big cat, and with pointed ears. She wields a flail with seven spiked spheres on the end of a collection of cords. She holds up her hand, and says, âHalt, interlopers! I will not permit you to approach the Queen!â
Panel 4 - The Fun Gang remain surrounded by the gargoyles, but Kris still looks ready to fight. Susie sneers at Tasque Manager, and says, âSince when do we need *your* permission?â She responds, âI maintain *order* and *cleanliness* in this dwelling.â
Panel 5 - Straight on shot of Tasque Managerâs face, emphasizing her symmetry and sense of order. âDo you truly think you are worthyâŠof Queenâs presence in your disorderly state?â
Page 4
Panel 1 - Full shot of the Fun Gang just staring back. They all look pretty haggard, unkempt and gross in their own ways.
Panel 2 - Same shot as previous, although now Noelle tilts her head to the side. âUmâŠyes?â she offers quietly.
Ralsei helpfully gestures to Kris beside him. âCertainly! Kris even bathed just two weeks ago.â
Panel 3 - Tasque Manager is not having it, and yells back at the group: âLIES!! I can see the *filth* all over you, human! I can smell your STENCH!â
Panel 4 - She continues, âYouâre unfit for these hallsâŠyou belong in the wastes that you reek of!â The insults are especially focused on Kris.
Panel 5 - Kris shuts their eyes, remembering something from their pastâŠ
Panel 6 - A series of flashback images, to when Kris was just a little kid, living as an orphan on the streets. They try to sneak around the back of a food stand in the market, looking for something to eat, when theyâre spotted by an empire soldier in armor.
The soldier yanks them up roughly by the shirt and yells in their face: âWhatâre you doing around here, you filthy urchin?! This is a *nice* place!â
The soldier then throws Kris down into the gutter, splashing street water all over them. âGo stink up a gutter where you belong!â the soldier screams.Â
Page 5
Panel 1 - Kris opens their eyes again, grimacing. This is clearly an unpleasant memory for them.
Panel 2 - They pull out their sword, and point it towards Tasque Manager. âMaybe my stench will give your dull and tasteless halls some character,â they say.
Panel 3 - Extreme close up on Tasque Managerâs unnaturally sharp teeth. âHumanâŠâ
Panel 4 - âIâll flay your filthy skin from your bones!â she shrieks, and pulls the flail tight in front of her, ready to fight.
Panel 5 - Ralsei immediately teleports out of the range of battle with a burst of flame and smoke. Kris and the beasts eye the gargoyles as they begin to close in on them.
Panel 6 - âSusie! Noelle!â Kris begins the fight by giving them the ACT command.Â
Panel 7 - Closeup on Noelle as she opens her mouth and uses her icy breath attack, aiming at one of the gargoyles.
Pavel 8 - However, the gargoyle runs just out of range of the incoming frost, and sprints towards Susieâs unprotected right side.
Page 6
Panel 1 - Closeup as the gargoyle leaps onto Susie and sinks its large teeth into her side, latching on like a lamprey eel.Â
Panel 2 - Susie roars in pain and anger at the gargoyle, even as another one coming in from her left bites down into an empty space on her chest.
Panel 3 - Wide shot as the beasts struggle to shake off the gargoyles, but theyâre too hard to reach. One more bites into Noelleâs flank, while the last circles, looking for another opening. In the foreground, Kris faces Tasque Manager in one on one combat.
Panel 4 - Kris, being less skilled at swordfighting, only manages to block incoming hits from the flail. All the while, Tasque Manager yells at them: âYou humans are so *irrational! Unorderly!*âÂ
Panel 5 - Tasque Manager flings the flail at Krisâs face as she continues: âWretched, chaotic creaturesâŠitâs horrid how the gods and demons here desire your souls!â
Panel 6 - Kris remains face to face with Tasque Manager, the flail partially wrapped around their swordâŠway too close to their face. Still, they are curious about her statement. âHorrid? Never come across a human soul pure enough for you?â they ask.
Page 7
Panel 1 - Tasque Manager leans in to grab the flail, as Kris struggles to keep appropriate space between them. âNever. There is no such thing as a pure human soul,â she replies.Â
Panel 2 - Noelle runs in a circle with the gargoyle still attached to her flank. Behind her, Susie lashes her tail angrily, trying to shake off the two biting into her own hide.
Panel 3 - In a fit of desperation, Susie finally rolls onto her side, trying to crush the gargoyle against the stone floor. A sound like breaking glass is heard.
Panel 4 - When she raises up again, the gargoyle is now in shattered porcelain pieces on the floor, although it did leave a nasty wound behind.
Panel 5 - Noelle turns her head, noticing the shattered remains. âOh, Susie! They break like stone!â
Panel 6 - Susie also takes note of the shattered gargoyle, and gets an idea.
Panel 7 - Thinking fast, she goes and snaps her jaws around the gargoyle on Noelleâs flank, and tears it free.
Panel 8 - Still with one more gargoyle hanging from her neck, she swings her head around in a wide arc and tosses the gargoyle in her jaws at the far wall.
Page 8
Panel 1 - The gargoyle hits a pillar by the far wall, and shatters like porcelain.
Panel 2 - Tasque Manager is momentarily drawn away from Kris as she notices her shattered minionsâ remains cluttering up the pristine floor. She shakes with rage. âYouâre all makingâŠâ
Panel 3 - âSUCH A HORRIBLE MESS!â she screams, and rears back to attack Kris with her flail again.
Panels 4-5 - Kris is momentarily struck by another memory, and they wince in anticipation.
Panel 6 - In a flashback scene. Kris has somehow knocked over a cart full of fruits, and they lay scattered across the cobblestones, broken and smashed. An angry vendor stands nearby.Â
Meanwhile, another empire soldier is already there, and grabs Kris by the hair. âLOOK AT THIS MESS YOUâVE MADE!â he screams, shaking Kris.Â
Panel 7 - Tasque Manager charges forward, the flail coming in fast at KrisâŠ
Panel 8 - And hits home, striking the, in the head, above their eye. Blood bursts from the head wound.
Page 9
Panel 1 - âKRIS!!â Closeup on Ralsei as he yells in alarm, his eyes wide.
Panel 2 - Kris staggers backward, shaking, and pressing their left hand to their temple.
Panel 3 - Closeup as Kris pulls their hand away, and finds it covered in blood.
Panel 4 -Â Meanwhile, Susie rolls onto her chest again, crushing the gargoyle on her neck against the floor. It crunches into pieces like the others.
Panel 5 - In the background, Susie gets up and brushes the remaining shards off her neck. In the foreground, Noelle stomps the remaining gargoyle into pieces with her hooves.
Panel 6 - Kris turns and looks up at Tasque Manager. She raises her flail to strike once again.Â
Panel 7 - Despite the fact that Kris is bleeding considerably from the head wound, they smile with realization, and charge in towards Tasque Manager. âThe best part about human messesâŠâ
Panel 8 - Tasque Manager takes a wide swing with her flail, but Kris swiftly ducks under it, and slides in close to her.Â
Page 10
Panel 1 - Kris finishes, âIs that you can *always* make them worse!â Kris leaps up in front of Tasque Manager, and smears the blood on their hand across her polished breastplate.Â
Panel 2 - Tasque Manager pulls back and shrieks in horror at the bloody stain on her armor, both arms raised.
Panel 3 - Kris pulls back, their head still bleeding, and points decisively at Tasque Manager. Noelle and Susie are standing ready behind them, and they give the [FIGHT] command.
Panel 4 - Tasque Manager tries in vain to wipe the blood off her armor, temporarily distractedâŠ
Panel 5 - Which is enough time for Susie to come in from above and snap her jaws around Tasque Manager. She screams, and drops her flail.
Panel 6 - In a wider shot, Kris and Noelle look on as Noelle violently shakes her head with Tasque Manager in her jaws, like a dog shaking a chew toy. Pieces of her armor fly out as sheâs tossed back and forth.
Page 11
Panel 1 - Finished with her attack, Susie spits out Tasque Manager, now a complete disassembled mess of armor and bone. Her pieces scatter across the stone floor.
Panel 2 - Noelle opens her mouth wide, and uses her frost breath againâŠ
Panel 3 - âŠAnd her icy breath freezes the scattered pieces to the floor, leaving no chance of an easy reforming. Kris watches as the cat skull head skids free of the rest of the messâŠ
Panel 4 - And slides to a stop by their feet. Although broken up and frozen, Tasque Managerâs severed head can still speak, albeit weakly. âSo disorderedâŠscatteredâŠfilthyâŠâ
Panel 5 - Low angle shot at the skull glares up at Kris with contempt. Kris has won, but she still has last insults to get in: âNo wonderâŠyou were discardedâŠâ
Panel 6 - Kris closes their eyes again, another flashback coming backâŠ
Panel 7 - Another series of flashback images to a younger, orphan Kris. Theyâre hiding in a pile of trash behind some boxes, shivering, terrified of encountering another soldier. Someone else can be seen approaching.
âHeyâŠâ Kris looks up from their hiding position at the sound of a calmer voice. They see a hand being extended to them.
The hand belongs to a younger Asriel, reaching down to help them up. âAre you okay?â he asks.
Page 12 Panel 1 - Back in the present, Ralsei approaches Kris again, putting a reassuring hand on their shoulder. He smiles down at them. âWell done, Kris! Weâre that much closer to Queen now.â
Panel 2 - Higher shot as the Fun Gang begins to regroup ans start back down the hall again. Susie leans back towards the frozen and broken Tasque Manager with a taunt: âGood luck cleaning *that* up, you stupid snob!â
Panel 3 - Lancer pops back out of Susieâs hair, one hand raised to his head to look around. âDid we win?â he asks.
âObviously!â Susie replies with a grin.
Panel 4 - Lancer turns to Kris, who is walking at the head of the party. âWow! I guess you really *can* see through that string bean hair!â Kris is still injured and messy, but doesnât seem to mind. âWell enough.â
Panel 5 - A shot from behind the Fun Gang as they continue down the dark hall, heading towards the Queen. Behind them lies a giant mess of shattered porcelain, frozen armor pieces and broken bones. âYou knowâŠâ Kris says, âI think I will let it grow wild and ugly for the foreseeable future.â
#lynx art#eldritchrune#deltarune au#kris#ralsei#noelle#susie#lancer#tasque manager#cw: blood#cw: violence#Lancer finally gets to make an appearance!#and Kris's terrible hair gets commented on#but it's all fine
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compression. (sakusa kiyoomi x reader)
summary: atsumu is the perfect person to feed your obsession with kiyoomiâs arms.
word count: 1172
warnings: swearing, very mildly suggestive (if you squint), detailed descriptions of kiyoomiâs arms in compression sleeves so itâs not for the faint hearted
tags: @keiva1000 @kindnessspreads @msbyomimi
When you studied Marketing and Communications in university, you didnât exactly anticipate that your future would include you managing a V League Division 1 sports team. But every day when you went into work, you thanked the gods above that this is where your career path had led you, because that meant you could ogle Sakusa Kiyoomi and his infamous compression sleeves all day.
Oftentimes you were certain Kiyoomi didnât mean anything by them. For him, they were practical. They kept his arms taut and ready for the ball. They made his movements sharper. He received the ball better. He didnât have to feel his bare skin on the dirty court. These were all reasons you had heard straight out of his mouth. When you heard him mention them so nonchalantly, it almost made you feel bad for the absolutely sinful- borderline deranged- thoughts you had in your head about the way those sleeves made his arms look.
You were well aware of the kind of thoughts Kiyoomiâs choice of athletic wear caused among his fans. To put it simply and bluntly, they went feral over it. There were whole Twitter accounts dedicated to just his arms, or his chest. And as someone who often managed social media profiles for some of the members, you got to see the most unhinged of these comments with your own two eyes. And you would be the first to (secretly) admit that you agreed with 90% of what was being said, because holy shit did those sleeves do something to you.
Most of the time during practice, you could feel your eyes drift back over to the man in question, wearing a black sports tee and those godforsaken sleeves, working up quite the set as they played set after set to prepare for their next game. As the hours passed, Kiyoomi would get more and more disheveled, curls becoming unruly enough that he would grab a towel, biceps flexing as he ran it over the nape of his neck and dipped into the collar of his shirt. Christ almighty.
You shouldâve known that you would eventually get caught. But if it was anyone who would notice, you had expected it to be Meian or maybe Coach Foster. But the person who did bring it up to you happened to be the biggest nightmare in this scenario; Miya Atsumu.
âYa should be a little less obvious âbout it.â He commented when he trudged over to the bench where you sat, grabbing a water bottle and beginning to chug. You tore your eyes from Kiyoomi who now had his back to you, the muscles under his shirt flexing with every movement. You raised an eyebrow at the blond, not yet correlating his words with your hidden obsession. He placed the bottle down and placed a hand on his hip, giving you a knowing smirk.
âA blind grandma could notice the way yer lookinâ at him.â
Your eyes widened and cheeks flamed when he nudged his head in Kiyoomiâs direction, and you knew you had been caught. You clenched your jaw hard.
âYou say a single word-â
He threw his hands up as if in surrender, effectively silencing your threat in its tracks.
âI wonât, promise! But there is one thingâŠ..â
You groaned loudly, throwing your head back. Of course, of fucking course he would blackmail you with this.
âWhat do you want?â You deadpanned, glaring at him and preparing for the worst.
Atsumu looked a bit affronted, as if the mere insinuation that he might want something was preposterous to him. You gave him another tired look, until he sighed and gave up, plopping down heavily on the bench next to you.
âA phone number. Ya know that cute girl who comes by once a month? From the Volleyball Association?â
âNo.â
Atsumuâs mouth dropped like a child who just got slapped. âHey câmon! Ya didnât even hear me out!â
You groaned and pinched the bridge of your nose, feeling a characteristic frontal headache begin to build, courtesy of Miya Atsumu. âIâm tired of setting you up with people, Tsumu! It wonât end well, as always-â
âIâll get you a picture of Omi with his compression sleeves.â
You give him an unimpressed look. âI can get hundreds of those off the internet.â
âIâll get you a picture of Omi with just his compression sleeves.â
That made you halt in your tracks. You searched Atsumuâs face for any form of mockery or lie, and you found none. Your eyebrows shot up when you realized he was being serious.
âIn the locker room. I can get it for ya today.â
Oh my god. Instinctively, your eyes darted over to the man in question, who was talking to Hinata about something. It looked like volleyball tips since he had his arms before him in a receiving position, and Hinata was rapidly nodding to what he was saying.
âNo.â You shook your head. âNo, thatâs wrong.â
âIâll take a selfie with him, yeah? He will know thereâs a photo. And I can send it in the groupchat.â
You look back at Atsumu, seriously contemplating his offer. He kept yapping, as per usual, thinking that the more he talked, the likelier it would be to convince you. And the bastard was right, it was working.
âNo one else will bat an eye. We see each other in the lockers all the time. No big deal.â
You bit your lip in thought. The possibility of seeing Kiyoomi shirtless and only in compression sleeves had your pulse rising.
âAnd you just want her number in return?â
Atsumu nodded eagerly. You gave him a narrow-eyed glare.
âSend the picture. Then I will give you the number.â
His triumphant grin made it feel like he had already won. âDeal.â
That evening, when your phone pinged with a text notification, you nearly flew across the bed to grab it, opening the picture Atsumu sent in the groupchat with eager fingers and freezing as soon as you laid eyes on it.
Atsumu had held up his end of the bargain spectacularly.
He had taken the picture with Kiyoomi a little further in the background, so he could get the manâs full torso in it. He was facing slightly away from the camera, but his face was turned towards it, capturing the scowl between his eyebrows and the little pout of his mouth. He was gloriously shirtless, still a bit sweaty from practice, and he held his shirt in his hand, one arm flexed as he held it while the other was held carelessly by his side, compression sleeves hugging the cords of toned muscles just right.
There was another ping, pulling you out of your trance and making you realize just how dry your mouth had gotten. Atsumu had messaged you privately.
âMy payment? ;)â
You rolled your eyes and sent him the number, immediately going back to the picture and starring it for future reference, a tiny smile quirking up the corner of your lip as you did so.
#msby sakusa#sakusa kiyoomi#sakusa x reader#haikyuu sakusa#sakusa kiyoomi x reader#sakusa kiyoomi x you#hq x reader#hq x you#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu fanfiction#sakusa kiyoomi fluff#sakusa fluff#haikyuu msby#hq sakusa#sakusa x you
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Someone New
Summary: Travelling worlds has its side effects; namely, having visions of multiple timelines. As you get closer to the housewardens after their overblots, you begin to see the possible future that awaits the two of you, if only you decide to choose them.
Overblot gang x Reader (Riddle, Leona, Azul, Jamil, Vil, Idia, Malleus)
GN but mentions of biological children - imagine anything you want though (magic spells that make anything possible!)
i. blooms of red and bursts of reason; riddle rosehearts
Even after knowing him for months, you donât touch Riddle until long after his overblot. He isnât truly comfortable with you, with anyone, touching him so casually.
The chill of autumn ghosts your skin, making goosebumps rise along your arms. When he notices you rubbing your forearms to gather some warmth, Riddle insists on offering you his coat. Something about ârule five hundred and nine.â
His ways donât always make sense to you, but you appreciate the sentiment behind the action. You take his coat, uttering your gratitude to him, although itâs quite small considering his stature. He offers you a small smile; in Riddleâs case, you know that means a lot.
You canât help but return his smile, the small affection making your heart stir suddenly. Itâs nice - spending time alone with Riddle. At the beginning of the year, youâd never have imagined becoming close with him. It was hard to see past the strict housewarden who never let anything go.
You think heâd made assumptions about you too. About you being a troublemaker, someone not worth his time, just another problem. Youâre thankful youâve both come around.
You stare at him from the corner of your eye as you walk together. He truly is gentle at heart, despite what his temper might suggest. His red hair sits perfectly on his head, cutely framing his face. It makes you think of his mother; his hair is perhaps the only good thing she passed onto him.
You snap out of your thoughts when you step a little too hard into a puddle and accidentally splash your pants, slightly dirtying them. Riddle turns when he hears your grumble, and you prepare yourself for a scolding. You wonât hold it against him; it was your fault for being careless.
Instead, Riddle only shakes his head gently, before asking if youâd like to stop at Ramshackle to change before you two arrive at the library.
Your surprise forces you to take a moment and just look at him. So far heâs come from the person he was only a couple months ago. You feel strangely sentimental, so you reach out to touch his shoulder, intending to thank him.
As soon as you make contact with him, the world around you shifts, brown and orange leaves being traded for the bright green of spring.
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You sit under a pagoda tree, the wind gently blowing the pages of your novel. Itâs strange - youâre seeing things as yourself, but youâre not in control. Itâs as though youâre replaying the memory of someone else. At the sound of someoneâs voice, âyouâ look up. Itâs there that you spot familiar red hair; it forms a stark contrast to the vegetation around you.
Heâs not alone, either. In Riddleâs arms is a small baby, with identical hair to who you presume is his father. Itâs a striking image - Riddle with his child. Heâs noticeably older; if you had to guess, he seems to be in his late twenties.
âMC? Sorry to bother, but heâs been refusing to eat today. I checked our parenting books thrice, but I havenât found any suitable solutions. I thought you might know how to help him.â
âThatâs okay,â you hear your voice say. âHow is our little guy doing?â
Riddle passes the baby to you, and you finally take notice of his other features; this child has the same colour eyes as you, and a similarly shaped nose.
You then catch a glimpse of the ring sparking on your left hand, and the other on Riddleâs.
âHmm,â youâre vision-self says. âLetâs go back home, Iâll try to see whatâs bothering him.â
âAlright, dear. Iâll start on dinner,â older-Riddle replies.
He takes your hand and helps you up, before you walk back toward the house in the distance, your hand still in his.
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When the greens turn to orange, you blink, finding Riddle looking at you. Youâre back at NRC.
âAre you alright, prefect? You seem distracted.â
âIâm okay, Riddle. I justâŠnever mind. Letâs get going.â
You decide not to tell him about your strangeâŠDream? Vision? It all seemed so realâŠyou could smell the tree sap and feel the breeze flow against your skin. You held a baby. Your babyâŠwith Riddle? The two of you were older, but would it really be possible for it to truly be your future? That seemed ridiculous. Then again, you thought the same thing about magic a few months ago.
You resolve to keep this strange occurrence to yourself until you can figure out what happened. Itâs hard to look at Riddle, having now seen the two of you married and with a child together. Youâre more flustered than usual. Was this just some kind of daydream projection of your fantasies about him? You werenât even really sure you could say you have a âcrushâ on him - after all, youâve only recently begun getting close. Not that you havenât thought of him that way at all but-
Youâre sure Riddle takes notice of your strange behaviour throughout your study session but, thankfully, he doesnât comment on it.
ii. dizzying dreams and endless nights; leona kingscholar
Youâd fought Leona hard to get where you are now - on the left side of his bed, with Grim sleeping at the base. Youâre exhausted with everything going on with Azul (hopefully) temporarily taking your dorm, but itâs hard to sleep with how worried you are about the situation.
Leonaâs room is dim, moonlight cascading over the silk sheets. You can barely make out his form, curled up in the blankets and turned away from you.
You donât want to disturb the sleeping lion, but he happens to be hogging the entire blanket. You suppose you shouldâve known, but it wasnât as though you had time to take anything from Ramshackle.
When the chill becomes too much to ignore, you try to tug part of the blanket away from him. This causes Leona to roll over, arm suddenly falling around your back.
Youâre hit with another wave of blurry vision as the moon melts into the sun.
-
âMorning,â you hear a voice, your voice, say to him. Your tone is playful and lightheartedly chastising. You can feel his arms wrapped snuggly around you.
Itâs happening again, the same as with Riddle. Youâre seeing things from your own eyes, but youâre not in control.
A groan comes from behind you, Leona shuffling his position but refusing to open his eyes. His bare legs brush yours under the covers. âToo early. Go back to sleep.â He pulls you closer into his chest.
âYouâ laugh gently, turning around in his arms so youâre now face to face. âYou promised the queen we would attend this banquet. Especially after we missed the last one.â
He looks older here too, but as gorgeous as ever. Despite just waking up, Leonaâs dark hair falls perfectly around his face. The room is different than his one at school; itâs still a bedroom, but it looks as though youâre back in the castle of Sunset Savanna.
Leona finally opens his eyes, looking at you with a heavy gaze before flipping you below him. His arms hold him straight above you, looking down on you lying prone on the bed. âHmph.â He leans in close until your lips are only millimetres apart. âWe have some time, donât we?â
Youâre left staring into those piercing green eyes, entranced by them being closer than ever.
With that, he leans in completely, lips brushing over your own as he begins to kiss you. The longer it goes, the more ravenous he becomes, more and more greedy for the taste of your lips.
-
When the sunlight fades to moonlight, youâre left embarrassed. That was - so much worse than with Riddle?! Ugh, itâs so awkward with Leona sleeping beside you now, like youâve violated some kind of rule by thinking of him that way.
Youâre too afraid to even consider the possibility of it being some kind of dream. It came on so suddenly, but you hadnât been asleep. The whole thing seemed so real, too elaborate for a simple dream. No, it had to be more than that - some kind of vision - but how could that be true? And what did that mean about your vision with Riddle? Surely they couldnât both be correct.
Youâd intended on ignoring it before, but with Leonaâs vision, that seemed futile. Perhaps the staff would have some answers for youâŠ
iii. seashells shimmer in the forever sea; azul ashengrotto
Azul isnât one for touching, and this time neither are you. Ever since the Crowleyâs theory about alternate universes and rips in time since youâve travelled worlds, youâve decided itâs best to stay away from touching too many people. It wasâŠinteresting, to see a possible future with Riddle and Leona, but itâs certainly left you ambivalent. Itâs a bit difficult not to avoid them when your mind drifts to your âvisionsâ while in their vicinity.
Riddle is kind enough to ignore your sudden shyness, but Leona has openly called you out on how flustered you get around him. He seems both confused and amused about the development, and his smugness is too much to handle sometimes.
Fortunately for you, Leona doesnât hang around the Mostro Lounge much, making it the perfect place for you to avoid him. You try to force Ace and Deuce to come with you and study there, but the two have been reluctant considering their previous encounters with the twins while trying to get Azulâs picture.
That means youâre left to go alone, sometimes. Well, alone except for Grim. He never leaves you hanging as long as you agree to buy him food. Just like today, where he sits passed out across the other side of the booth, having eaten himself into a food coma.
You try to return to your homework, but out of the corner of your eye, you catch Azul staring at you from the staff area. When you make eye contact, he only waves, smile dripped in plasticity. When you donât clue in, he walks toward your table, eventually taking a seat across from you, beside Grim.
âHello, Prefect,â he says.
âAzul.â
Unlike Riddle - and even to some extent, Leona - you havenât really gotten close to Azul after his overblot. He doesnât exactly want you to, it seems.
âI noticed youâve been frequenting the Lounge quite frequently as of late - I just wanted to thank you, for being a dedicated patron.â
âIâm not doing it for you, but youâre welcome, I guess.â
âAh yes, I presumed. So, who are you doing it for?â
Your mind snaps to thoughts of you and Leona in the future, his arms around you in his bed-
âNothing. No one. Do you need something, Azul?â
Despite your attempt at neutrality, Azul must see something on your face as you attempt to rid your mind of your vision of Leona. He leans in a bit, curious to observe you.
You begin packing up your things, too distracted to continue studying.
âNo need to leave on my account,â he says.
âItâs not.â
He stands at the same time as you, presumably planning to head back to his office. Unfortunately for the both of you, you hadnât noticed Grim migrate to his place sleeping on the floor. When you take a step forward and trip, Azul is, tragically, directly in front of you.
Your arms reach out instinctively, but instead of stabilizing yourself by grabbing onto his shoulders, the force of your fall knocks the both of you over.
As soon as you make contact with him, your vision swirls into another world full of beautiful blues.
-
The coral sea is even more breathtaking than you remember. Youâve only been a couple times, but the drastic differences between the land and ocean always manage to stun you. The water is so clear that it practically glitters as you wave your hands through it, feeling the water pass refreshingly across your smooth skin.
Youâve never been to this specific place before (presumably, it doesnât exist yet), but itâs clear what it is: a restaurant. If the octopus logo has anything to do with it, clearly itâs Azulâs. It wasnât too surprising to you that he would have more restaurants open in the future, but you werenât sure what you were doing here. If the pattern followed, it seemed inevitable that you and Azul would beâŠromantically-involved in this timeline, but that just didnât seem possible.
At least you had befriended Riddle and Leona to an extent - Azul looked down on your existence as a magicless person, seemingly entirely apathetic about you in general. You had to admit, the feelings were mutual considering his treatment of you and your friends.
You feel âyourselfâ look around the restaurant, before heading back into the staff area. You knock on the door to an office, and Azul opens it with a smile.
He, too, is older. His face has matured a bit and he also wears his hair a bit longer. Azul still has his grey suit, though.
âHello, MC. Done for the day?â
âI guess so, boss,â your voice replied cheekily. Boss?? Why would your future self ever work for-
âHmm, I may have more tasks for you, why donât you come in~â
With that, future-Azul takes your hand and tugs you into his office. On his desk sits several picture frames; one of his parents and one of his wedding. You happened to spot yourself in the second one.
Itâs a bit jarring to see; you and Azul posed together, dressed up in such fancy clothing. His arm sits around your shoulder, and yours around his waist. Before this, the two of you have never even shook hands.
You hear yourself giggling, cornering Azul against the wall as soon as he closes the door and bringing your arms around his neck to kiss him.
You can already feel the dread forming; you definitely wonât be able to spend time at the Mostro Lounge after thisâŠ
As the two of you pull away, Azul starts talking about a reunion for your graduating class at NRC.
âI told them maybe - with the new branch of our restaurant opening, we may wish to stay back. Then again, it could be a great opportunity to network for us. What do you think, dear?â
Before you can hear your reply, the world fades back into the familiar lighting of the Mostro Lounge.
-
A groaning Azul is beneath you, having (unfortunately for him) broken your fall.
You utter a quiet âsorry!â as you get off of him, still a bit flustered from your vision.
He gets up, dusting himself off. Thankfully, the two of you are in a rather secluded area of the place, so no one was there to witness your embarrassment.
Azul can no longer maintain the facade of kind gentleman as he turns back to you, voice dripping with passive aggressiveness.
âI would prefer if you refrained from touching me in the future. Thank you.â
With that, he gets up and leaves. You shake your head - how could there possibly be any timeline where youâve married him?
iv. jaded jewels shine, awaken from slumber; jamil viper
While helping out with the VDC, youâve had time to get close to Jamil. Much closer, in fact, than with any of the others youâve had visions of before. Now youâve avoided touching him for a whole other reason - youâre scared you wonât have a vision.
Spending time with Jamil has made you realize things youâd never thought about him before - his handsomeness, intelligence, and talent. Youâve developed a bit of a crush on him, considering how much you admire him.
However, you have no idea how he feels. Jamil has never been one to express his feelings so outwardly, but you canât get a read on him at all. Heâs been polite with you, but heâs treated you basically the same as everyone else.
Your attempts at getting closer to him have been rather unsuccessful - the group is so busy practicing, everyoneâs been way too exhausted to really do anything.
You manage to get a moment alone at Ramshackle when the rest of the boys have gone to sleep, and you find Jamil sitting out on the porch alone.
âHey,â you say. âMind if I join you?â
Jamil turns to look at you before nodding his head. You take a seat beside him, following his gaze to the stars. The sky is dark but the moon casts a glow on him, making Jamil look beautiful under the light.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
He hums for a moment before replying, âWhat Iâm always thinking about - how things will just go back to normal again after the end of the VDC.â
You donât really know what to say; his fears seem inevitable, no matter how much you want to comfort him. âIâm sorryâŠI canât understand what itâs like for you, butâŠwhat if you could still have some kind of happiness in your life?â
âLike what?â
âI donât knowâŠyou could still find love?â
âFind love? You think thatâs what I care about?â Jamilâs tone is bitter, but his voice never rises. âSorry, but youâre awfully naive. Things like love wonât make my life better. Itâll only complicate things.â
âI-I understand.â
When your voice shakes, Jamil finally looks up at you, sighing when he spots your watery eyes.
âPrefect, relax. Iâm not angry at you. Itâs just a frustrating situation for me, Iâm sure you know. I donât have time to think about love. I just need to focus on myself.â
With that, he pats your shoulder before standing up, leaving you alone to stare at the night sky. Jamil hadnât even realized you were trying to confess to him, and you felt terrible for even trying to bring it up. Of course he wouldnât be able to think about something like your stupid little crush - you feel so silly for even bringing it up, you shouldâve known better since you know all about his circumstances.
It was then you realized - Jamil had touched you for the first time. He touched you and nothing happened.
The first one youâd been seriously interested in, and there seemed to be no future for the two of you.
Was it possible youâd already messed up this timeline, making it impossible for that future with him to occur? The whole thing made your head spin and your heart ache.
v. swept into spotlights, doused in delicacy; vil schoenheit
Vil had been a surprising comfort in the wake of your unrequited crush on Jamil. The two of you had gotten closer after VDC, and Vil had a way of pulling honesty out of you. It had only taken him a couple days of observing your awkwardness to guess at the situation.
Heâd been a shoulder to cry on, both literally and figuratively. Thereâd been a moment when he first pulled you into his arms that youâd wondered - hoped - that he might be a possibility in your future, but alas, no vision. It was a bit disappointing but you knew it was wrong to feel too badly; it would be greedy of you to desire a connection with so many knowing you could only end up with one.
Vil became a friend - someone you could rely on, someone who could make you laugh, and someone who couldnât break your heart.
Even when you would start to feel something more than platonic for him, you had to push it away. He was certainly gorgeous and talented and perfectâŠbut he wouldnât be that for you. He couldnât, apparently, and maybe he wouldnât want to either.
Vil was more than just a fellow student - he was an actor, a model, a celebrity - someone too far to reach. Even if you had a vision with him, would it matter?
Youâre snapped out of your thoughts by Vilâs hand on your cheek, turning your face to get the correct angle to apply your eyeliner; heâd insisted you get dressed up with him and Rook to go out tonight.
âMove onto the bed,â Vil says.
You stand from the chair in front of his vanity and move hesitantly toward his bed. His silky sheets look perfect - you donât want to ruin them. Looking back at him, Vil rolls his eyes and gently pushes you toward the bed until you lay back.
Youâre left staring up at him on your back, while he sits above you, applying the rest of his products on your face. Heâs so close to you, his luscious golden hair almost tickles your face. His pretty purple eyes donât focus on your own, following his makeup brush.
He looks cute like this, concentrating hard to perfect your makeup. He bites his lip gently, drawing your attention to his pretty mouth, shining with the pink gloss heâd applied earlier.
When he leans away to pick up the blush, you mistakenly think heâs finished and try to sit up. At the same time that you rise, Vil turns back to face you. The timing coincides into an accidental and brief meeting of your lips.
It takes a second for you to realize that the dizziness your feel isnât due to your racing heart, but the sudden appearance of another vision.
-
The lights flash, bright and blinding. The sharp clicks of cameras obnoxiously disrupt the music heard softly on the street from nearby restaurants and clubs.
Youâre rushing away with Vil, hand in hand as he pulls you toward a black limo waiting up ahead. You nearly stumble, but Vil is quick to stabilize you.
Once the two of you escape the paparazzi, youâre left sitting side by side in the backseat of the limo, both breathing heavily. Vil gives the driver instructions to return back to his penthouse.
He turns to you. âAre you okay, darling?â
You feel yourself nod in affirmation, taking ahold of his hand again. He squeezes back.
âIâm sorry theyâve ruined another date. I know itâs hard for you not to have much privacy, but it seems no matter what I do, they find us.â He strokes your hand with his thumb.
âItâs okay, Vil. I knew what I was getting into, dating a celebrity and all that.â
He plants a kiss on your cheek. âStill, they shouldnât bother us. I may be a celebrity, but you arenât. You deserve privacy.â He sighs gently. âHas thisâŠimpacted our previous discussion?â
You look back up at him. You assume based on past visions that heâs much older now, but heâs kept his youthful and gorgeous look. Even now, his purple eyes make your heart flutter embarrassingly.
âOf course not. I want us to have kids together. Youâll be the best dad and protect them from all this. I know it.â
He kisses you on the lips this time just as your vision begins to end.
-
Vil snaps his fingers over you as you come too, rolling his eyes.
âI know my lips are practically intoxicating, but did you really get that worked up over an accidental peck between friends?â
Your face becomes hot at Vilâs statement, embarrassment setting in. He doesnât know how right he is.
âAh, sorry. I gotâŠdistracted.â
Vil laughs gently. âWhy? Thinking of more of my kisses? Theyâll cost you~â
When you stammer in response, he just ruffles your hair gently.
âIâm just teasing you.â
You stare at him for a moment before speaking. âI donât think we can do each otherâs makeup platonically anymore.â If it ever was, that is.
Vil rolls his eyes dramatically again.
vi. hidden in shadows, warmth comes in waves; idia shroud
The incident with Vil leaves you even more confused than before. It makes you wonderâŠif just touching isnât always enough to have a vision, does that mean a future where you end up with Jamil is still possible? You donât even want to hope, knowing the heartache heâd unknowingly caused you before.
And VilâŠhaving a vision about him makes this complicated. When it was just lingering thoughts you could push to the side of your mind, your growing infatuation with him was easy to ignore. Actually seeing your future with him, has made your heart swell and ache at the same time.
You donât exactly choose to become friends with Idia, it just kind of happens. Just like the previous situations where youâd attempted to avoid the star of your latest vision, Idia is someone who seems like a good choice to help you stay away from them. He isnât good friends with Jamil or Vil (or frankly anyone). Incidentally, the two of you become friends after a small argument over an anime (the only topic that allows Idia to temporarily overcome his social anxiety just to disagree with you), and you begin to hang out occasionally.
The more your old friends hang out with the VDC group, the more you begin to make excuses and go play video games with Idia and Ortho.
It feels strangely easy, spending time with Idia. You never have to pretend, and with your shared interests, conversation comes naturally. Once youâve spent enough time around him, he feels much more comfortable around you, willing to share his (strong) thoughts and opinions on everything.
Idia is veryâŠdifferent than you wouldâve guessed before you knew him well. While he can be rude, you find it more funny than offensive, and itâs pretty fun to banter with him. His room holds small glimpses into his true personality; video games he loves, posters of his favourite characters. His passion for these things is clear as day.
Sitting on Idiaâs couch, youâre playing against him and Ortho in Super Smash Bros. Ortho immediately claimed Kirby, proceeding to destroy the both of you multiple times until he emerged as the winner.
Despite the loss, both you and Idia canât help but smile. Ortho makes a celebratory noise, before turning back to you.
âMC, we are about to encounter another rip in the time continuum,â Ortho says. âIâm so excited, do you think it will finally be my big brotherâs turn to earn your love?â
âWhat?â you and Idia say for different reasons.
âHow do you know about that?
âEarn their love??â
âItâs part of my programming to monitor all things involving space and time.â
âHuh. Okay.â
You suppose itâs true, youâve never really touched Idia before. The two of you got along like best friends; it wasnât so much of a stretch to say you could end up having a future together. You hadnât thought about it much, in light of recent events.
âUsually youâre the only one able to see, but since Idiaâs here, why donât I show him too!â
âI donât think thatâs a good idea, Ortho,â Idia says.
âI think it will be good for you, brother! Donât worry, Iâll give the both of you some privacy to see your future. Itâs approaching in three, two-â
When his countdown reaches one, Ortho plops your hand on top of Idia, making your vision fade once again.
-
The Island of Woe is familiar to you by now, after everything that went down with Idia. The architecture remains impersonal; the uniformity of the blank steel walls reminds you of a maze. The thought had unsettled you, the last time you visited.
Strangely enough, you donât feel that same sense of anxiety and claustrophobia in this vision. Youâre strangely calm; it wouldnât be crazy to assume that exposure and familiarity has dulled these feelings.
The scene is devastatingly unsurprising. You suppose youâd always known what Idiaâs future would be; what all his ancestors futures had been. That hadnât lessened the spark of hope youâd been carrying that perhaps things might turn out differently than he believed.
You had a bad habit of that: false hope for Jamil, false hope for Idia. It didnât truly do anyone any good, no matter how much you wished it to.
Youâre in Idiaâs room. Aside from its size and how nice it is, the decor is a clear giveaway. The posters that line the walls arenât from media you recognize, so it must be future content, but itâs all in line with Idiaâs current tastes. Youâre happy he has that, at least. You even catch a glimpse of a couple of his old posters from NRC rolled up in his closet. A few pieces even stand out, things that seem much more suited to your taste than his own.
A familiar head of blue hair wanders into the room.
âHey MC.â
âHi Idia,â you feel your lips gently pull up in the corners. Despite âyourâ outward expression in the vision, you feel a small twinge of pain in your chest.
Idiaâs entrance into his room (your room?) lets you take a close look at him. Even ten or so years later, it seems he hasnât been able to rid himself of his eye bags. Even so, you still think he looks nice, his vibrant hair illuminating his pretty face. Heâs cute, smiling back at you.
âSorry Iâm back late again. Thereâs been so many problems with the new system update, even Ortho canât handle it himself.â Idiaâs expression drops a little.
âItâs okay, I know youâre busy.â
Idia comes to sit beside you on the bed, head turning toward you. âIs it though? Stuck down here with me, and I canât even be by your side half the time. I doubt this is the life you- anyone would dream of.â
âI miss you, of course I do. But I chose this life. I chose you.â
âMaybe you shouldnât have.â
The tears well in your eyes before you can stop them, and Idiaâs panic only rises once he notices.
âGah!! No, MC, please donât cry. I didnât mean it like that. Sevens, Iâm so stupid.â Idia awkwardly pulls you into his arms, and you begin wipe your tears onto his shoulder as you settle down.
âSorry, I-I donât know what came over me,â you sniffle.
âDonât apologize, it was my fault. I donât know why, every time I try to tell you how I feel, it always just comes out wrong. I try to tell you that I love you, that you deserve better than to be stuck here with me, and it comes out like that.â
âIdiaâŠI know what you meant, it just took me by surprise to hear those words.â
âLoving you is supposed to be the one thing I can do to make your life here better, and I canât even do it right.â
âSays who? Donât you think I should be the judge of that?â
âI made you cry, MC! Something is wrong with meâŠâIdiaâs cheeks flush pink as he stares at his feet.
You want to comfort him, to tell him that it doesnât matter, but you quickly feel yourself being pulled away. Youâve never wished more than to have a few more moments in a vision.
-
The room remains silent for a minute after the vision ends, the both of you trying to process what had happened.
âIdiaâŠâ you say, trying to bridge the gap between you, but not exactly knowing how.
âMaybe- I uh - maybe you should leave?â Idia says sheepishly.
âLeave? What did I do?â you say, feeling a bit hurt by his suddenly rejection.
âNothing! I just- Iâm sorry, I need some time. I canât speak right now, I need to be alone.â Idia is clearly panicked, so you follow his brother to the exit.
âSorry, MC,â Ortho says, opening the door for you. âSometimes Idia gets overwhelmed in situations like this. Please, give him time andâŠplease donât give up on him like everyone else does.â
vii. sun and moon, forever in orbit; malleus draconia
Youâve known Malleus as long as youâve known Riddle, but despite your blooming friendship, youâve never had the chance to touch him before. The fae always seemed to prefer to keep his distance when visiting you at Ramshackle; close enough to talk, too far to touch.
That all changes when you finally agree to join the gargoyle studies club. Itâs not as though youâd purposefully avoided it before, thereâd just always been too much going on to really think about joining any of the clubs.
With Idia shutting you out, you were in dire need of a new hobby that would allow you to finally avoid thinking about what had gone down with him in the days before.
When Malleus finally strolls by Ramshackle again, youâre able to inform him of your intention to join his club.
Itâs a remarkable thing, having stunned the fae prince into momentary silence at your request. He furrows his brow before replying.
âI do hope you arenât making a joke at my expense, prefect. That would be rather cruel of you.â
You wave away his words, telling him that youâre entirely serious. He looks you up and down for a moment before a playful grin pulls at his lips.
âI suppose I will see you in our meeting on thursday, then. Please, donât be late. We have much to see.â
-
Weekly meetings become bi-weekly, and soon youâre meeting up with Malleus almost daily. Since itâs only the two of you in the club, you take certain liberties when it comes to subject matter. You agree to let Malleus show you some ruins and he, in turn, agrees to watch the bachelor with you.
You donât even like the show, but Malleusâ reactions are the real entertainment. Heâs surprisingly sassy and opinionated about all the drama, although he tends to get confused on âhuman customsâ as he so puts it.
âWhy wonât he make a choice? Itâs clear who he truly desires,â Malleus asks one day, sitting on Ramshackleâs beat up couch as you watch the reality show together on your laptop.
âI donât know, the guys on this show are always like this. They want to keep around as many options as possible until theyâre forced to choose,â you mumble, mouth full of popcorn.
âHuman men are fickle.â
You laugh. âFae arenât?â
He takes a moment to answer. âSome. Not dragon fae. Once we choose a person to love, we give everything to them, and expect the same in return.â
You donât know how to reply to that, so you turn back to the screen. Throughout the rest of the episode, you can feel Malleusâ gaze flicker between yourself and the show, not fully invested like you are.
-
Youâre not oblivious to his hints. Itâs clear that things between you are become more than friendly, but itâs difficult to know how you feel about it.
On one hand, Malleus has always felt strangely charming to you, despite how he often came off to others. There was something about him, or perhaps just the sum of his parts that came together perfectly to make him into a wonderful being.
Spending time together and getting close felt nice, but you were far too used to this pattern to not feel worried about some kind of impending doom. It seemed every time you had a nice friendship, things would fall apart as soon as you found out about your future together.
Even when pleasant, the strangeness of the experience makes it uncomfortable to be around them again. Youâve felt bad avoiding your friends, but there isnât much you can do to change your feelings.
Even worse - what if your vision with Malleus isnât positive? After what you saw with Idia, the fear lingers in your mind.
Once you opened the gate, questions begun to flood your brain. What would a future be like with Malleus? Would that even be possible? Would you be his consort? Would a relationship between a human and fae be accepted? Would you be able to handle it? The anxieties were endless.
You think about telling him about everything. About Riddle, LeonaâŠbut how would he react? You tell yourself that itâs better if he doesnât know. At least not until after.
Heâs the first one you touch on purpose; you have to know.
A casual stroll around Ramshackle leads to the purposeful brushing of fingers, and youâre pulled into a familiar haze.
-
Youâve never been to Briar Valley, but you know with certainty that your vision takes place there.
The hall you sit in is long, gold trims running along the walls. The black dragon heraldry mounted above the fireplace at the end of the room looks more expensive than anything youâve seen in your life.
Two wide doors swing open, and Malleus finally enters the room. He isnât alone.
A small black shape zooms past his legs, plopping itself in front of you.
âDaddy and I picked you flowers from the garden!â
The blur isnât some shadow, but instead a small child. Five or six, if you had to guess. If her words didnât give away her parentage, the small, stubby horns peaking out from the top of her head of dark hair certainly told you this was Malleusâ daughter.
âThank you, sweetie.â You smile at her, taking the flowers she drops in your hand. Thereâs still some dirt and roots attached, but sheâs so adorable, you truly donât mind.
âCan Uncle Silver take me horseback ridding today?â she asks you. âDaddy said itâs okay with him if itâs okay with you.â She blinks at you sweetly.
âAlright, I suppose. Just be careful, dear,â you reply.
âI have the best parents in all the kingdoms!â she shouted, running along to her chambers to get ready, leaving only you in Malleus in the room.
âSheâs so lively today,â you comment, looking up at him.
âIndeed,â he replies, coming to rest beside you. âYou look beautiful, my love.â
âAnd you, my king.â
The two of you share a kiss. Itâs all so - dizzying. Itâs not unexpected to have a child with Malleus - you had one with Riddle, but this is different. This child is older, she knows you, she feels so real.
He pulls away to smile at you. âI have a gift for you.â
âWhatâs the occasion?â
âNeed there be one for me to celebrate my wonderful spouse?â
âI suppose not. Thank you, Malleus. No matter how many gifts you give, I will treasure them all.â
He pulls out a box from his pocket, asking you to turn around. You feel him guide a cold band around your neck, clasping it in the back. He then places a small, handheld mirror in your hands, urging you to look.
The necklace heâs given you is beyond stunning. Itâs silver, with a dazzling gemstone in the middle. You donât even want to ponder how much it mustâve cost.
You catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror.
Itâs strange - seeing yourself much older when Malleus looks the same. It unsettles you more than youâd like to admit. Itâs one thing to know youâll age at different rates and another to see it with your own eyes.
This must be something on your mind in the future as well, because of the next thing you decide to ask Malleus.
âWill I see her grow up? For me, it feels like sheâs been young forever. I love it and yetâŠI want to see more of her life than just this.â
He doesnât ask who youâre referring to. âYou will. Youâll see most. I was practicing mature by my eighty-first birthday.â
You sigh. âI may not even get that far. Iâm healthy now, but who knows. The curses of being humanâŠâ
He tilts your chin to face him. âIt is not a curse to me, my love. I chose you, and I would again.â
Thereâs infinitely more to discuss, but you already feel yourself slipping away.
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You come to from the vision mid walk. Malleus is unaffected, seemingly still in the middle of one of his explanations behind the rich history of one of gargoyles youâd just passed by.
When he notices your silence and turns to ask if youâre alright, you have no response for him.
It seems almost selfish, for you to choose him. Why- why did there need to be so many things wrong? Why did you have to be human, to pain him and your future children by leaving them behind so early?
The joy and the pain - would it all truly be worth it? Or would it be better for it to have never happened?
Malleus looks at you with concern, wiping the tears suddenly cascading down your cheeks.
âWhatâs wrong, my child of man?â
Everything and nothing, you want to tell him.
viii. all things end, all that we intend; conclusion
Seven beautiful souls, all potential endings. Every future you glimpsed has itâs own charms, and itâs own poisons.
Which future will you choose? One of them? Or perhapsâŠanother?
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deepest desires
summary: Though you have been married to aegon for a while now it seems he wants nothing to do with you and you worry you will spend the rest of your life miserable; but he ends up finding out a secret you've tried so hard to keep hidden and it brings you two together much to your surprise and delight.
w.c: 2.1k
c.w: sub!aegon, porn with plot, pegging, wooden strap, dom!reader, mommy kink, pathetic aegon, slight overstim, anal stuff, not proofread
a.n: dedicated to my lovelie @aegonswife | i will never shut up about the sub aegon agenda !!
You must have been horrible in your past life for the gods to curse you like this. To be married to a prince should be a wonderful thing yet you feel as though you have been sentenced to death.
You can recount on your hands how many words heâs spoken to you despite your many many many many, many, attempts to get him to converse with you. He will not even glance at you most of the time, well kept to his drinks and his whores. You suppose its a better fate than most at least it seemed he would not force himself upon you or abuse you.
Your wedding is a blur and your wedding night is the same, you remember him swiftly leaving after he released and you remember simply lying there and trying to fall asleep.
It took you awhile to officially move in with him as you stuff got stuck on way to the keep and you just so happened to be out the day it finally arrived at the keep so you had the maids bring your stuff into the room in your stead.
As heâs typically out all day and you did not expect him to be in the room while they were unpacking as it is mid afternoon you walk into the room and are shocked to see him standing in front of one of your opened crates with something you prayed he would never see in his hands.
Youâve always had very, different, cravings and lusts. When women would confess their sinful thoughts you realized you were the odd girl out. Many women wanted to get pinned down by their man and be taken in whatever way he pleased but you had always wanted the opposite. To be the one taking, to pin someone down and having a dick of your own forcefully shoving it into their hole.
When you discovered they had invented such a device that could give you the illusion of you having a cock you immediately used your allowance to track one down and purchase it for yourself. Thought you have never used the things you are now wishing you have never bought it has he clutches it in his hands and tilts his head at you, a look youâve never seen in his eyes.
âThis yours?â
You must look like a fish, opening and closing your mouth unsure of what youâre supposed to say. So you say nothing, instead choosing to run out the room like a madman and do not return until very very very late at night and are shocked to see him asleep in your shared bed. He barely even spent five minutes alone in your shared chambers let alone sleep in there. You quietly lay down next to him and fall asleep, praying he would not be there in the morning.
You had hoped that would be that and you would never have to speak to him again but he continues to follow you around like a lost puppy. Tailing behind you everywhere, your lessons, when you spend time in the garden, even your personal time in the shared room he is laying next to you as you read. The sudden change in his behavior is so jarring you cannot help but ask him about it but he just smiles at you, âYou are much different than i thought you to be.â You have no clue what that means.
You grow a sort of, friendly? relationship with one another. You are still too nervous to truly say anything to him while he merely seems content laying besides you.
Everything sort of flips on its head when you are laying on the bed, a book in your lap as usual and the door opens. You are not shocked to see a clearly drunk aegon but are more than shocked when he flops down onto the bed and presses his head to your stomach as he lets out a groan.
âMy prince?â he merely hums, âMy head hurts.â âMaybe you should try and sleep my prince-â âwhen are you going to fuck me?â
This has you frozen and he looks up at you with his red eyes. âIâve been so good why havenât you?â Your mouth opens in shock as he flops his head back down and presses some wet, open mouthed kisses into the fabric of your nightgown. You stutter and are at a loss for words. He wanted you to fuck him?
âMy prince if you wish to perform your marital duties you are free to at any time.â He whines and shakes his head, looking up at you with a pout. âNo i want you to fuck me. Iâve been good i promise, i havent gone to any brothels, not since that day mommy i promise.â MOMMY? you liked being called mommy in his whiny voice a bit too much and you simply stare at the top of his head for awhile as you try to think of what to say.
âYou still come home drunk.â He looks up at you and you merely blink at him. You are more than sure he will not remember this tomorrow so you will merely say what you need to to get him to stop talking about this. âAnd you reek of alcohol.â
âIf i stop drinking and i stop coming home drunk you will fuck me?â âyes.â You are more than glad he will not remember this in the morning. He rolls off of you and to his side of the bed, his back turned to you. âWhat are you doing?â âGoing to sleep so i can start my vow of sobriety.â
His snores quickly fill the room and you blow out the candle next to you and get under the sheets, staring at the darkness with a racing heart. He does not mean it, he will forget about this tomorrow and this will all be a terrible dream.
You are shocked as you wake up the next day and he is stilly lying in bed, merely staring at the ceiling until you flip the covers off and move to get out of bed, âGood morning.â âMorning.â You barely look at him as you move to get dressed for the day. Rummaging through the closet until you pull out a dress and hang it on your mirror. You look at him through the mirror, âAre you going to watch me get undressed?â âIt is wrong to?â
You say nothing but simply stare at him until you slowly move the straps of your dress and your nightgowns falls to the floor and you are completely bare.
âSo how long must i be sober? A day? a week? a month?â You freeze and turn your head back to look at him.
âwhat are you talking about-â âwere you the one who had been drunk last night wife? must i remind you of what we had discussed?â
You bring the dress you had meant to wear today closer to your chest to cover yourself as you feel a sense of shame wash over you. âIf you wish to mock me so then do it.â His head tilts at you as you stare down at the ground. âwhy would i wish to mock you?
âasking me to fuck you after you had found that horrid device you must mean to mock meâŠâ He quickly stand and you back up until you hit the mirror and he is standing in front of you. âI do not mean to mock you. I had avoided you in the past because i had been under the impression you were just like every other lady at the court but i know now you were made for me, we were made to be together. I have wished to have a lady like you, to fill my wildest desires, i wish for you to do anything you wish. To rule body and use me like a toy. To fuck me like i am nothing but a whore on silk street.â
You stare at him with wide eyes as he drops to his knees and looks at you like you are a goddess. âI was born to serve you. I am at you every whim and every wish.â
You feel something overcome you as he stares up and you and you lose every ounce of self control you have.
âStand.â He quickly stands up and stares at you eagerly noticing the new look in your eyes.
âStrip.â
He rushes to rip off his shirt and pants and awaits your instructions. You snap your fingers and point to the bed where he quickly moves to sit down on it. You walk over to him and grab his chin to tilt his head upwards. âYou want mommy to take care of you?â He lets out a long whine as he nods his head feverishly.
âlay on your stomach.â he follows your instructions without complaining like a loyal mutt. He has no clue what youre doing but he can hear you rummaging around the room, your bare feet peddling against the ground for a few moments and he finds himself unable to lay still, wiggling and whimpering to himself as he grows impatient, on of his hands even begins to slide down to stroke himself before you slap his ass and he moans. âThought you were a good boy huh? what happened to him?â
âno no i am i am i promise im sorry im sorry.â You slap him again, âI dont wanna hear it.â He continues to mumble and whimper until he feels you shove two oiled inside him and he lets out a high pitched noise and bites the pillow heâs pressing his head against.
âLoose. you're such a fucking whore, look at you.â He doesnât not respond not that you expected him too but he gets louder and louder the more and more you continue to thrust your fingers in and out of him, reeling in the feeling of you presses kisses against his back and the way your free hand wraps around his cock and toys around with his tip.
âlook at you, so fucking pathetic. I bet youve been dreaming of this for months huh, sick freak.â He babbles like a baby unable to form any words or any thoughts the closer he gets, precum pouring out of his tip that you use to pump him slowly. He is so close he can taste it, what hes been craving for so long, he wants it so bad he wants to please you.
Yet you pull away right as hes on the brink and he can barely control himself. Tears begin to spring from his eyes and be turns his head towards you, whimpering. âplease.â âyouâll take what i give you.â âbut mommy-â âwho said you can talk back?â
He sniffles, âim sorry mommy im sorry please i just wanna be good for you mommy.â his words are slurred and you cant help but feel your heart ache slightly and you grab his cheek, rubbing away his tears with his thumb, âyou good?â
He nods, and leans against your cheek sniffles again. âI just wanna be good for you mommy.â You nod and press a kiss against his lips and when you pull away he chases after you lightly as he looks at you with glowing eyes. âYouâre so pretty baby, such a good boy, mommys gonna take care of you okay?â âyes yes please please.â
He lets out a gasp as he feels your wooden strap begin to slowly push its way into his pulsing hole. You barely give him anytime to adjust before you begin to vigorously thrust in and out of him. Gripping onto his hair for stability.
The tears begin to pour down his face as he grabs his cock with his free hand, bringing himself closer to release as his hips move back to meet yours. You find yourself unable to hide your amusement as he grows more and more desperate, heaving and whining the closer and closer he gets to release, letting out incoherent babbles of nonsense.
When he releases he lets out a scream that your sure the whole keep could hear, his body shaking as his seed spills out onto the bedsheets below him, sobs racking his body. You press a long kiss against his lips and he shakily returns it. When you had thought you would be doomed to a life of misery it appears you were wrong as your life just got a whole lot more interesting.
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What's coming for you in 2025? - Pick a Pile
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Pile 1:
(The cards I got for you - The emperor, The hanged man, 6 of pentacles, 5 of pentacles, and 6 of cups)
Okay so the very first thing I feel and heard for you guy is "Organization and structure", if you have been messy like emotionally or just not cleaning your room and just being lazy, I see you getting better and do things in a better way, I am also feeling you will be taking charge in your personal and professional life, if you are in school then i am seeing you being group leader or having better grades, and if you work then i see leading your team, or even correcting your manager like damn this person doesn't hold back, I am feeling some of you may even start your own business like plenty of you wanting to do that, or had doubts, so i am seeing this year could be very fruitful to you in so many ways, I am feeling many of you are just polite in this group, even though you guys might be snarky, BUT, this year i am seeing changing that, i am feeling you will communicated yourself a lot better, if you guys had some financial issues that will be resolving too, I am also feeling you might learn from a male figure in your life, make them your role model, and learn a lot from them. Or I am also feeling in your life you guys have someone dominating your household, like a man, sometimes you do get in fights but it's not bad, this is only for some of you. I am also seeing you being not lazy as you were before, going out of comfort zone, doing things, which you have to do, i keep hearing panda for you guys, some of you could definitely be resonating with that lol. I am also feeling this year you would be helping out a lot of people, and looking back on things you did wrong and will do better this year, also do help people when you can, like feeding animals or people who are in need, it will count as a good karma, some of you could have been injured in past? definitely felt that, but don't worry this year, i am also feeling good health for you, I am also feeling some of you could reunite with people from past, but only let them in if you feel like it, for some of you its a friend, and for some its an ex, just be careful <3 I am also feeling you will get lots of nostalgic feeling and if you have moved out, i am seeing you meeting your parents this year, like getting a feeling some of you might be in abroad, so you might meet or talk with your parents and friends a lot. Earth signs are very prominent here especially virgo and taurus sun/moon/rising, and scorpio sun/ moon / rising.
Oracle cards I pulled for you :
a new start is coming (new moon) : A new beginning a new start is on its way for you, you will be more hopeful, let go of the past, things you manifest will be fruitful, things will move, you will feel more alive if you felt stuck, and YES! whatever your question could be your doubts because trust me its a yes.
be assertive - Be confident in your decisions and yourself, i am hearing "life is too short" living by other people's rules, so make your own and just do what you gotta do.
Okay pile 1, that's all i got for you guys, happy new year my pookies, may all your wishes come true cheers <3
Pile 2 :
(The cards I got for you - 8 of wands, 2 of pentacles, 5 of pentacles, 6 of swords and the lovers)
Okay so the very first thing I heard and feel is that you will or might be taking a trip, I am feeling things will move fast for you, I am also seeing you guys getting the job you want, the internship, the college you want to go into, everything working out for you, the hard struggles that you have faced in your life are just vanishing but i am also seeing a small trip or just up and down from the college/school/work to your kind of travel, I am feeling you might meet someone this year could be at work or at school if not then, some sort of daily doing activity, but anyhow i am feeling there is so much in life that will be working out for you guys. Some of you would be developing new hobbies for yourself like going to gym or yoga or art classes. You might do find to juggle with them a bit difficult like there will be so many things and you would be like we want to try it, try that etc. But all in a good way. I am also feeling that there might be a sort of loss you faced in your life in 2024 or 2023, i am seeing you will be moving away from it, and healing that part of yours, I am also feeling when you do and that's when you will meet someone in your life, and if you don't meet someone then your energy will definitely be calling your partner's energy. But for many of you I am sensing there is a beautiful reunion ahead. Plus there will be decision coming ahead, so go with your gut and choose what you have to. Self love is also a care here, where you focus on yourself. Gemini , cancer, capricorn sun/ moon/ rising are quite prominent here.
Oracles Cards I pulled for you -
Luck is on your side (new moon in Sagittarius) - Write down your wishes your gratitude in the journal, don't be judgy if sometimes you are, a thing that will help you in every way, which you wanted so much it will come to you, there might also be a trip coming.
No need to worry : Things will get better for you so leave the rest to universe and be present in the moment, I am sensing some of you are over worrier so do take it easy, because universe got your back.
Ask for help from others - If you bottle things up, then try to ask for help from others don't hesitate, and your loved ones love you, they love to listen to you talk don't get lost in your heads all the time, you got this.
Okay pile 2, that's all i got for you guys, happy new year my pookies, may all your wishes come true cheers <3
Pile 3 :
(The cards I got for you guys - 3 of wands, queen of wands, king of cups, the fool)
Okay so the very first thing i hear and feel for you guys is, manifest your dreams, just do it, don't doubt if it will be fruitful or not just do it, I am also feeling this new year will bring you a new sort of adventure, something you have never felt before, WHY AM I FEELING THE ADERALINE RUSH, SO I AM SENSING IT WILL BE SOMETHING UNIQUE AND AMAZING AND A DREAM COME TRUE! I am also feeling that some of you guys have fire sign prominent sun/moon/rising especially Sagittarius, I am feeling you guys will be going on a trip this year, which is abroad, you might also go to study in new country, it will be so sudden you will feel it's a no, but when you do it will be like, you made it, 2025 is a year of prosperity for you, and i am seeing lots of blue color, and blue skies, and I am seeing hope for you guys, new starts, adventures, I am also feeling you might adopt a dog or a animal this year, I am also feeling you will enter your divine feminine era this year, and being more confident in your body, I am also feeling the person you will attract will be head over heels for you, awwww, and I am seeing you stepping or taking risks, you might be a bit reckless but honestly seeing this will work out for you~
Oracles card I got for you -
conclusion are within reach (full moon eclipse) - Forgive yourself and others what they have hurt you, it will help you heal, the door once shut, dont go back to it, just know helping others will also be fruitful to you guys.
step out of your comfort zone (north node) - go out just do what you always want to do, say fuck it and do it don't doubt your blessing, you got this, leave the past in past, let go of people or things that doesn't serve you, just know whatever you choose you will be moving in right direction.
success! - I am seeing your professional life getting better and better and whatever door was not opened it will open now, and I am seeing you getting lots of opportunities.
romance - I am definitely seeing you meeting someone this year, if you alrwady have someone your relationship might move to next level.
compromise - The only thing I will say is just get out of your comfort zone.
Okay pile 3, that's all i got for you guys, happy new year my pookies, may all your wishes come true cheers <3
Thank you for stopping by! Take care and remember you are loved <3
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I KNOW WE HAVENâT KNOWN ANYTHING ABOUT PHAINON YET (except for that cute face and yummy booba) AND I ALREADY HAVE SOME THOUGHTS ABOUT HIM.
Okay okay imagine Yandere! Phainon who loves you and cherishes your existence too much to the brink of obsession (can you blame him?). Him, being a perfect man himself still thinks that he lacks something, and that something is your devotion, your unyielding love because he deserves it, right? He deserves to have your attention and your affection after everything he has done for you.
Oh no, dear Phainon is definitely not a selfish man, he just needs your love to complete himself, to have someone that he could return to after a hard day.
Thatâs why I think this man will definitely love bombing you. Gifts, kisses, cuddles? Everything you want, everything you ask for. And even if you donât even need it, he still offers it to you like the desperate puppy he is. He will spoil you rotten, and I mean it in the most respectful way. He found your smallest quirks adorable even if itâs not that special in your eyes. He reminds you to stay dehydrated and go to sleep early, he even tells you to eat healthy. Thatâs why after knowing him, you have never skipped another meal. And he will definitely coo softly to you whenever you feel insecure about yourself. Thatâs why you need him, thatâs why you should rely on him. And the only thing Phainon ask for as a payback is your love, love him like the way he does to you. Please please because youâre his pretty girl and he loves you too much to even think that this is not a mutual feeling.
Can you really say no to him? To that adorable face and those sparkling blue eyes that seem to go lovesick everytime they catch a glimpse of you?
It was the fifth time this month, or was it the sixth? You couldn't be bothered to keep count anymore, the absurdity of the situation pushing you closer to questioning reality.
âYou do know that it's illegal to break into a person's house?â you manage to croak out, senses strained by sickness.
âBreak into your house?â he pulls out a chair to sit, the bowl of whatever he'd brought with him finding its place on the table beside your bed.
The near-dumbfounded edge to his question makes you deadpan, âYou're so humorous, even when you're sick. How is it trespassing when we're in love with each other?â
You feel your fingers clutching onto your bedsheets, did he even hear you? Can he hear himself? To that, your conscience answers with a firm no. He'll only acknowledge what will suit his fancy, anything else is but you being in a âphase of denialâ.
âI am not in love with you, how many times do I need to reiterate?â you stress, watching the twirl of the spoon as he stirs the contents in the bowl.
âHush, I know you're just moody I didn't arrive sooner. I read it on that book you had on you on last Saturday. This is the part where I'm supposed to apologize and hold my ears, rightââ
You release a heavy sigh.
You could not decide what begged the most concern : the fact that he doesn't see the problem in his behavior or how accustomed to it that you're getting.
A warm touch on your forehead startles you, another firmer grip on your arm stops you from moving away, âHow are you still so energetic with this high a fever?â the candle atop the table flickers, a frown blemishes his face.
He leans in, you respond by increasing the distance. âI took medicine earlier.â you mutter, suddenly feeling like a guilty child.
âDid you? Good girl.â you don't need to look at him to picture the shine clinging at the corners of his lips. You shouldn't look at him for it'll reveal the barely held back cringe spreading across your face.
You're about to protest but a wave of dizziness halts you. Phainon notices the change, you find yourself wishing he wasn't so observant.
âBut you haven't eaten, have you?â his hands act too familiar, too comfortable in touching you. You're forced to inhale as he cups your face in inspection, pretending it's for work â but you know, his greed extends too far for it to be anything but an excuse.
âI did eat.â you try to assert, he remains unconvinced.
âAre you still mad at me? If so, say it, I can apologize however you'd prefer. But please don't lie to me about matters that concern your health.â a squeeze to your cheeks, shadows fall on him.
You almost want to laugh at the worry in his eyes, at the way he behaves so much like a perfect lover. If you hadn't known better, the haze clouding your sense would've made you believe him, buy that he's being sincere.
Unfortunately for him and fortunately for you, you're just a bit more distrustful than others, just a bit more cautious than he's giving you credit for â a bit too lucid to have faith in his âloveâ narrative.
You purse your lips, you are mad at him ; just not in the way he's deluding himself to be. As you contemplate whether to snap at him or not, he releases his grip on you in favor of scooping a spoon of the contents in the bowl, ending his path before your lips.
You turn you head away, a clear rejection. You expect him to probe again but his sigh catches you off-guard.
His finger wraps around a lock of your hair, yearning stains his eyes. âThis would've never happened if you just accepted to be mine.â
You soak in his words for a second. Your left eye twitches as you realize, he completely ignored every previous piece of dialogue for his agenda.
âIn your dreams.â petulance coats the statement.
To your horror, Phainon easily brings the lock of your hair to his lips, his smile widening as if he's got you exactly where he desires.
âHow did you know? I do dream of you, everyday.â sparkles float around the air of his face.
You find yourself grasping at straws, how does one wake up a man who pretends to sleep? A voice in your head interjects, perhaps it is for the best you cease these attempts altogether?
âNow, won't you continue to be a sweet girl and eat up?â his words are honey, his smile is blinding and oh so dreadfully, there is adoration in his face, in his every step.
It has alarm bells ringing in your head, because it doesn't make sense.
âNo.â you sharply deny, pushing the spoon away again.
âWhy not?â you notice just at the nick of time, there is an edge to his voice this time. A crack forming in that perfect face.
âBecause I don't trust you. What if you mixed something weird in it?â that is an understatement, your distrust for the man stretches further than the food he offers.
The elders always say, if something is too good to be true, it is too good to be true. âLoveâ is not reason enough for you to believe Phainon's apparent devotion, his benevolence. No man would squander his time and resources only to back it up with such an easy reasoning â at least, not a man like him. Even if he says it till your ears bleed â you will not believe him.
The Chrysos Heir's hum interrupts the silence, âThen, if I do this...â
Your quizzical gaze falls on him, he holds your stare and you feel a kick at your ribcage. Struggling is useless, but you try anyway ; if just to be petty, if just to drive your point across, if just to survive. He squashes your attempt with an insultingly easy grip, showing you exactly how futile it is.
His thumb parts your lips with an insistent press, joining his pointer finger in holding your mouth open next. Your nails scratch at his glove in a pitiful attempt at getting him away, his free hand holds them both captive.
His parted lips shrinking the distance is the last thing you see, before you close your eyes shut. You would breathe if your lungs hadn't given up, the increase of strength in Phainon's grip seizes you with fear, makes it feel as though your blood froze with dread. Your instincts stop kicking, accepting its place in the serpent's jaw.
You feel a sharp kick of spice on your tongue, washing through your parched throat. A force has you closing your mouth, holding it in place until the content has been swallowed.
You heave as if you reached the surface from an arduous dive at last, mind working overtime, trying to process what just took place.
A clink of the spoon as it's placed on the bowl startles you, Phainon closes his eyes, a smile nearly splits his face in two.
âThat's more like it. See, it was delicious and perfectly free of questionable substances, no?â
Phainon's smile breaks into a chuckle at the astonished look on your face, you feel a twist somewhere inside at the way derision drips from its tune. But before you can observe further, you feel a swipe of his finger on your lower lip. You make the mistake of glancing at him and he utilizes your mishap to make a show of licking the residue from your lips clean.
If you were skeptical about it before, you are certain now â this man will be your doom.
SIKE.
#keep talking anon you're cooking đ„#i.. may have lost my self-control with this one LOL#phainon#yandere phainon#yandere phainon x reader#phainon x reader#phainon x female reader#hsr x reader#honkai star rail x reader#yandere hsr#yandere honkai star rail#yandere hsr x reader#yandere honkai star rail x reader#yandere imagines#anon writing#written before 3.0
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My experiences with synastry
8th house synastry
By far, my favorite. Intense, transcendal, deep. It goes beyond the physical and mental, reaches straight into your soul. The sexual tension is palpable, and at the same time it feels like home.
( do note that i have pluto influencing my ic and moon so your and my idea of 'home' might be a bit different ⥠lmao )
Moon in 8th house:
- absolute favorite. the connection runs deep, if you let it. when you meet this person you will know pretty early on that the potentional for intense bonding is immense. for every person i met with this, after a while i look in their eyes and think 'we could absolutely ruin eachother in the best way possible'.
- the sexual tension breaches the physical and turns almost emotional. like, 'i want to fuck you so hard that you cry' type shit. of course, every 8th house connection has some kind of sexual electricity constantly present, but i've found that w this placement, it's .. profound.
- so far , i've only been the house person, and i've found that the way the moon person looks at me is like nothing i've seen before. i mean, the eye contact being intense is a given w any 8th overlay but w this one it's ... wow. it's a simultaneous pleading to 'come closer, enter my world, feel my essence' and a threat to 'stay away, you see to far into me, you know too much'.
- it's obsessive. on my side (house) at least. by obsessive i mean ... obsessive. one of them is a crush that i haven't been able to put out for a fucking year, even with no contact. in fact, funnily enough, when i thought i was totally over it, all it took was to see her again and make eye contact - immediately, i was thrown for a loop. we didn't even exchange words directly, it was a group setting .. but the eye contact was absolutely enough. crazy.
- as the house person, i feel like the moon person can feel that i see straight through them. another thing i've noticed is that the moon person usually seems a little intimidated/nervous around me, especially at first.
- the thing with this overlay is that it can get hard to take real action on the connection because it's anything but lighthearted. you can clearly tell that if you pursue it, it's gonna get deep and that can range from inconvenient to uncomfortable, or even scary for someone who's not used to 8th house/pluto/scorpio energy.
Lilith in 8th house
- the sexual tension. is. insane. i'm talking .. concerning. i've had this w a friend, a guy who's not my type in the slightest (and i dont really like guys in general, mind you), but there's this kind of ... sexual energy in the air. like, we're not gonna do anything about it, but it's there. and it's not even physical, for me at least - i dont find him attractive physically its just .. a compulsive feeling.
- now, when i have it w someone i actually find attractive, even a little bit, it gets scaled up to the extreme. the moment i see this person, i'm immediately attracted to them. instant. they don't even have to be my type, but if they are - my god, if they are ...
- i am usually lilith in this overlay, and i often find myself wanting to corrupt the house person, to pull them into my dark erotic world. this synastry really brings out my lilith energy even more.
- as lilith i love teasing the house person & i want to see them squirm. i wanna dominate them & see them fall apart beneath me (in the best way possible)
- this is very much a 'i can ruin them' type connection (not in a malicious way)
- i automatically feel confident around this person, no matter if i felt insecure the rest of the day; its like the house person awakens my dark feminine energy just w their presence (and thats a damn good feeling)
Sun & Mercury in 8th house
- honestly this ones interesting; if your connection is platonic, it wont add weird undertones, if its not , it will heighten the attraction significantly.
- it will be really easy and satisfying to talk about your secrets, your past, your traumas, your pain, as well as your kinks, sexual preferences & sexual experiences w this person.
- you will be able to tell this person the naked, blunt truth about them to their face, and vice versa, esp eith mercury in 8th overlay
sun conjunct lilith
- i was lilith and its .. fun. sun brings out my 'bad' side. the fun one.
- as lilith, i find sun really cute, and i try to figure them out, cause i feel like they arent really as naive & innocent as they seem to be.
- sun may be a little scared of lilith here. :)
pluto conjunct lilith
- i have yet to experience this but from what i've heard i love, love, love .
- think bonnie n clyde, mr and mrs smith. they can appreciate eachothers shadow and its very exciting
- hearsay says the sex is mindblowing but i cant confirm or deny
pluto conjunct ascendant
- my mothers pluto is conjunct my ascendant and she literally fucked me up royally soo be careful w this one yall
- pluto will try to control the ascendant and have power over them
- pluto tries to control ascendants behavior, appearance, mannerisms, social etiquett, even food intake sometimes
- i have never seen this be a healthy dynamic but i would love to be proven wrong
lilith square ascendant
every time a man's lilith squares my ascendant, an angel dies. i swear to fucking god, this synastry is a hot, headache-inducing mess.
now, ive only ever had this with men so take it w a grain of salt.
whenever a mans lilith squared my ascendant, the situation was the same:
he had a crush, and then there was .. me. he loved one girl, truly, but had an intense, weird, sexual obsession with me (that often scared him).
he was extremely attracted to me, but reluctant to admit it directly. wanted to 'tame' me, make me 'well-behaved'. we argued at least once within 24h of knowing eachother.
heavy sexual tension, but in a irritating, conflicting way. reallyy intense eye contact, but almost forbidden.
they all, at some point, iced me out in one way or another, deliberately avoided me, seemingly for no reason.
lilith in 7th house
this ones weird.
- we kinda have beef, but not really
- we either completely agree with eachother or utterly disagree
- mixed feelings
- switching between liking and disliking eachother
- sexual tension, but in an annoying way
#astrology#plutonian#astro placements#horoscope#lilith#astro observations#synastry#lilith synastry#pluto synastry#lilith square ascendant#8th house#8th house synastry
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I love your Homicipher hc, they are so good! Would you be willing to do some N/ SFW for Mr. Chopped too? Like you did for some of the others? I understand if you don't want to or if it makes you uncomfortable, thank you anyway!
MR. CHOPPED N/SFW HCS
a hc list of Mr. Chopped x reader {an: SORRY GUYS IM POSTING MAINLY HCS RN,,, fics for me take a lot longer than usual so im just posting hcs to atleast get some reach.}
warnings! : smut, cunnilingus/blowjob, idk,,, cuckhold
{an: freaky shit,,,, like hes just a head so its kinda hard to fuck. did give him a section for IF he had a body.. MAINLY HIM GIVING HEAD,, i didnt rly know how to write this im sorry!! def will write more tho,,, im into him ngl}
SFW
what it would be like to be in a relationship with Mr. Chopped.
it would be relatively hard to be in a relationship with him for obvious reasons, though not impossible!
the thought of you makes him happy, and especially when you hold him.
he would have Mr. Silvair help most of the time. usually for the romantic aspects of things though.
while Mr. Silvair doesnt quite understand the relationship, he is glad to help.
being a talking head will obviously raise a few insecurities, so just reassure him that you indeed do love him! he gets his feelings hurt easily.
he absolutely loves when you play with his hair. if you put bows in it or decorate it, that will make it all the more special for him.
the first time he bit you when he was sleeping, had him crying for hours. he felt so bad that he harmed you in any way, and it took a while for him to "recover"
he loves kisses! he always shouts things like "Up, Up" or "Desire, Carry!" just so he can kiss you.
if you manage to get a hold of make up or something, he would absolutely love for you to do his makeup. {he likes to feel pretty}
he is a very sensitive boy, also a crybaby. how cuuuttteee...
if Mr. Silvair gives him a body, {ignore that one ending... we dont talk about it} then he wpuld be even more excited to see you.
the moment he gets a body would mean so many hugs and affection as a thank you for saving him.
he gets picked on a lot by the others so he usually tries his best to come to you.
NSFW
sex...?
sex is definitely a hard concept with him.
while yes, it is possible, just not in the way intended.
you could see him more as a pure object for your pleasure honestly, and he wants that.
whether you are amab or afab, he is perfect for the situation.
ive seen this referenced by another writer, but he would be like a "rose toy" or a "fleshlight" as people call it.
its a secret pleasure to watch you go at it with someone else. {ex: Mr. Silvair or someone.}
if he is gifted a body though, he definitely will pay you back for saving him in the first place.
personally he would be a soft and sensual lover with his new body, rarely going rough unless specifically asked to.
he is more of a giving top. definitely not dominant but is a top. he cares more about your pleasure than his. though, he does get all giddy when you wish to go down on his or something.
he is open to literally anything you want, he would have very few limitations on what he would do, but everything is open for discussion.
again, definitely either wants to watch you have sex with someone else, OR wants someone else to watch you and him go at it. {he would prefer Silvair.}
he definitely likes when you pull his hair or use him. will be submissive sometimes.
he is the type to cry during sex...
omfmg i love him sm
{ made by @whokilledsamara }
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"you, specifically, are a bad and evil person that all my posts are written to condemn" this is not what i said. i'm sorry for not being clearer. i just feel like everyone in this space, not just you, look down on people who live in the first world as people who willingly don't change anything about how the world works when it's just not that simple. i know you all love to combat this and say otherwise but it will never change the simple reality that for some people it really is very hard, if not impossible, to do anything politically, for a variety of reasons. i'm disabled, i live in a remote part of the country, and i'm bad at talking to people. i don't have the money to just move to a population center or get lessons on how to speak to people. i can't do anything and i feel like every time you or one of the other communists on tumblr talks about the imperial core, i feel like i, personally, am being held to an unreasonable standard that i would not hold anyone else to, if i were in one of your situations. obviously i want things to change. i don't want genocide to be a thing that's constantly happening, i don't want my country to have its tendrils dug into every other country, i want socialism and eventually global communism, and if i could do anything meaningful-- anything at all-- to achieve those goals i would be working on that. but right now that just is not the case for me, and i feel like i'm not alone in that either. i just wish you had like a smidgen of empathy for some of the people living here who don't fit into your stereotype of what a member of the imperial core looks like-- i'm not even trying to say that sarcastically, it genuinely feels like you all don't see us as human. like nyanguard especially seems to think of us as incapable of saving ourselves, and one of the reblogs to my first ask just said they "like to imagine that (i'm) crying as i type this". how am i supposed to react to that? is this how all of you feel about people like me? would your feelings about me change if i lived in another country, or would you find some other excuse to talk down to me? is it really just the country i live in that's the problem, here? i'm not trying to accuse you, i'm asking this question genuinely.
i know it's tempting to respond to this with a snarky comment but please just try to understand where i am coming from. i really am willing to help if i can.
i don't think any marxist seriously has a political theory of imperialism that amounts to "citizens of the imperial core simply choose not to do anything because they are all individually bad people". i mean the whole point of marxism is that economic relations are the ultimate drivers of historical change, not abstract psychological or moral qualities of people.
i'm sympathetic to your situation! the imperial core is a very atomizing place to live, and there are places and situations where there's just no practical path to getting organized and taking meaningful political action in the near future. however, your problem here is:
i feel like i, personally, am being held to an unreasonable standard that i would not hold anyone else to
nobody is posting about you, personally. like at the end of the day you have to learn to either not take posts like that personally or just block everyone who makes them to manage your own time on the computer vis a vis niceness--i don't think it's the responsibility of me or any other communist to constantly provide asterisks and carveouts that we're not talking about the Good Ones Who Have Extenuating Circumstances when we talk about the usa and its material political base.
& in the same way that you ask for empathy for your situation i would ask you to extend a level of understanding to people whose homelands and countrymen and communities have been devastated by US coups and sanctions and invasions, that they have as much a right to express the rage and fury and hurt of that cultural legacy as you do to express your own sadness about your own situation. imagine, for example, how you would feel if your grandparents could not reliably get medicine because of us sanctions. & of course the correct target for these feelings are not random usamericans--but these posts are also not serious politcal platforms, they are venting from people who live their lives under the weight of empire.
if you think what they're saying is unfair to you, then you need to develop the ability to say 'well, i understand why they would feel that way' and move on. like i understand why you are upset, and i don't say this to be dismissive, but as real advice: it is not fair (especially to bloggers from the global south) to essentially rest your happiness and self-worth at their feet and demand that they validate you.
genuinely, i hope this helps. it's all i really have to say on the matter.
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EXPLICIT CONTENT | MINORS DNI
Art the Clown x Reader SMUT âą headcanons, how Art fucks, what he gets off to, etc
big content warning! contains some stuff that may gross you out; read at your own risk: menstruation kink, piss kink, oral sex, anal sex, object insertion, blood kink, various weapons mentioned, bondage, human hair and bones, butts and what comes out of butts, public sex, cockwarming, mostly dom!Art and sub!reader
đȘ Remember the work desk with all of Artâs weapons and tools on it? He knows you want him to fuck you, but heâs got shit to do (meaning weapons to build) so he lets you sit under the desk, cockwarming him while he works. Youâre on the ground between his knees, patiently holding him in your mouth. When he finishes constructing his latest instrument of torture/slaughter, Art pats his palm against his thigh, wordlessly telling you to climb up into his lap and ride him.đ©ž
đȘ Art enjoys blood and guts, so it goes without saying that during your period, heâs particularly eager to fuck you. He can detect the slight change in your scent, usually aware youâve begun to bleed even before you know. He plays with your pussy like itâs a new, special toy when youâre bleeding, spreading your lips and tracing his name on your inner thighs in red. Seeing/touching/tasting blood that comes from you is special to Art. Itâs the only time he gets to play in blood without it being the result of him hurting someone, so that makes the experience unique for him. He saves your used pads for âalone time,â using them later as a âsleeve,â to masturbate with.đ©ž
đȘ Art sometimes fucks you with unconventional objects, like the handle of one of his weapons (knife, axe) or the neck of a bottle. If youâve displeased him but he still wants to fuck you, he might deny you his cock and instead use something else, like the handle of one of his knives or the barrel of an (empty!) gun, to make you come instead of his cock, as a degrading âpunishment.âđ©ž
đȘ Art loves bondage. He knows what heâs doing when it comes to tying knots, as evidenced by the multiple victims youâve watched him restrain. He enjoys the power dynamic of being in absolute control of another person. When that crosses over into sex, you both get off on him tying you up and doing whatever the fuck he wants with your body.đ©ž
đȘ Artâs methods can border on sadistic at times (I mean how could they not??) but because he wants to keep you around to play with for the long haul, he never pushes you beyond the limits of safety, no matter how many new ways he comes up with to plug every hole in your body. If we know anything about Art, itâs that heâs perceptive. He studies the way your body responds to different forms of stimulation and mentally catalogs the information for later. All of his skill in crafting tools of torture means heâs able to create customized âtoys,â to fuck you with. But the thing is, theyâre never normal, or sweet; they always contain something fucked-up and sick. Art once surprised you with a whip heâd put together for you. Its strands were soft and felt so good gliding over your clit. You came so hard when Art whipped your pussy till it was puffy and leaking. It would have been a wonderful gift, if you hadnât realized later, upon closer inspection, that the strands now wet with your cum were in fact strands of human hair. And the custom dildo Art made for you, the one that was so smooth and colored beige/white? You later found out Art had chiseled and smoothed down a human bone to make it for you. The information almost made you sick on the spot. Art found your horrified reaction hilarious, of course, and it didnât stop him from laying you down and fucking you with it all the sameâŠđ©ž
đȘ ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL ANAL âŠ
He loves to fuck you in the ass. Artâs a nasty little motherfucker when it comes to the stuff that comes out of butts, and Iâm not gonna elaborate here, but you can use your imagination to follow where Iâm going with thisâŠđ©ž
đȘ Art has zero inhibitions: he kills anyone, anywhere. Imagine that relating to sex; of course heâs going to fuck you wherever he wants, including places where you might get caught. Sex in public/risky spaces feels natural to Art, because he literally does not give a single fuck. Remember the first time you ever saw him? When you stumbled out the back door of that sleazy little bar in your home town, so drunk off your ass you thought you were leaving through the front? Art was in the alleyway behind the bar, black garbage bag hoisted over his shoulder, not even looking for anyone to fuck up but when he saw you, he knew heâd found a victim for the night. Heâd planned to stalk you home and do unspeakable things to you-but as you took the lead and approached him, there in the alleyway, he was caught off guard, his whole plan upended the moment you slid your arms around his waist, stood up on your tiptoes, and placed a soft, sloppy kiss on his cheek. He was awestruck, and even if he could speak, Art would still have been at a loss for words. You walked him backward a few steps, lining him up against a dumpster in the alleyway. You began fondling him through his costume, grinning when you realized his body had already begun to respond. One thing led to another, and within minutes, Art had you bent over that dumpster, with a fresh hole torn in the front of his costume where your bodies were joinedâŠđ©ž
đȘ No one would associate The Miles County Clown with tenderness, but if they knew Art, they would see a softer side of him only you do. Heâs still fucking deranged, donât get me wrong. But Art also has moments of vulnerability, when thereâs nothing he wants more than to hold you. Sitting in Artâs lap, he wraps his arms around you and stays still, so still, just enjoying the soft thump of your heartbeat against his, and the low hum of your breath on his chest. Your nearness calms the monster inside Art so well that sometimes, he forgets he is the monster itselfâŠđ©ž
đȘ Another benefit of having you in his lap? Art realized he could use his strength to make you stay in his lap no matter how badly you had to get up and take a piss, forcing you to wet yourself all over him. You felt him gradually getting hard under you as you began to wriggle on his lap. Art could see your discomfort, and when you told him you needed to get up and take a piss, he refused to release you. Youâd expect him to be smiling at you at a time like this, silently mocking you; but the look in his eyes was deathly serious, pitch black and full of a demented lust that would have had you locked you in place even if his arms hadnât. Blushing into his shoulder, you accepted the fact that Art wasnât letting go of you any time soon, and that he really was into this. He wanted this to happen. You allowed your bladder to empty, a soft trickle saturating your panties, followed by a steady stream of hot piss that spread over Artâs lap. His clothes were soaked through below the waist, your piss running down between his thighs and dampening the couch cushion beneath you. Art was rock hard by this point, his wet cock throbbing against your pussy. He lifted you off his lap just enough to reach between your bodies and position his tip against your entrance, then used your piss as a lube to slide inside youâŠđ©ž
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âDo you even like me anymore?â
The sheets of bloodied tissue resting in your trash bin would make anyone think that an amateur murderess resided in your apartment. Lucky for you, the nauseating smell of rubbing alcohol and your boyfriend were driving you in that direction anyway.
Bloody and bruised, Sukuna winced as you dabbed antiseptic on a particularly gnarly gash on his bicep. âOf course, I do. Whyâd ya- ow -ask me that?â
âI dont know, maybe itâs because you donât listen to me when I ask you not to race those stupid criminals that hang around gas stations or itâs because I barely see you cause youâre off driving to another city for fun. You barely call or textâmove your arm a littleâYuuji asks me how youâre doing, and you guys live in the same house. So, Iâm sorry if Iâm starting to wonder if you still love me.â
They say that the silence is the loudest sound to exist. It envelopes and engorges a person against their will. You canât avoid it. No matter how hard you try to press your clammy palms against your ears, you are bound to hear its loudness. And you always hated that about it. You hated that silence with Sukuna was unbearable. Almost deafening.
The man was known for his mean streak- a plight you had to accept when both of you began your relationship, but you could only handle so much.
He was speechless after your tangent. What could he say anyway? He unapologetically loved what he did no matter how much you disproved of it.
âLook, yâknow I canât abandon my bike. Iâve had it sinceââ
ââsince you were in high school, but that doesnât mean you abandon the people you love for it. Get your head straight, Sukuna. Iâve been asking you spend time with me for weeks and every time your excuse has something to do with that damn bike or some street fight you plan on getting into. You skipped dinner with my parents for that stuffâ
âItâs cause I had bruises from my last fight.â
âAnd what does that say about you?â
Normally when you had your hands on your hips with your face contorted angrily, Sukuna wouldâve pulled you right on top of him, ignoring the pain all over his bruised body. But he had to look past the lust to understand why you were mad at him.
âOkay, I promise Iâll tone down the fights. But I canât let go of my bike.â
You sighed and packed up the first aid kit, prompting Sukuna to get off your bed and follow you to your bathroom.
âIâm not asking you to let go of anything, you idiot. Iâm asking you to be safeâ something Iâve been asking you to do for ages.â Your eyes were brimming were tears, and you were worried that your next few words would come out through pathetic whimpers. The last thing you needed is to let him know how much he has emotionally affected you because of his actions.
âOkay, I promise this is the last time. Hell, Iâll even smoke less.â His hands trailed up your arms while you were still facing the cabinet.
Lies. Both his promises were lies. He had promised to stop smoking months ago but you could still taste the bitter tobacco in his kisses.
âNo.â
âWhat do you mean ânoâ? Like, should I go to the emergency room if I get hurt or-â
âNo, I mean, this is the end of it. I canât do this anymore.â
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Might delete later.
Update: nvm, hereâs part 2
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Forgive me if I'm mistaking you for another person, but I remember you speaking at multiple points on the unsustainability of free social media services (I think especially in response to the cohost collapse?), and I'm curious on what your thoughts on bluesky are so far. I'm not an expert on the subject, but from what I've read previously it seemed like they were on track to be financially sustainable, but I don't know if the recent floods of users has thrown those projections off. Sorry if I'm mixing you up with someone else on my timeline, in that case just ignore me.
bluesky will almost certainly follow the same trajectory of monetisation => bloat => enshittification => decline as every other major platform built on venture capital and user hoarding. it's a terrible model that only works in the short term as a mirage for attracting funding and making founders look good for a year or two before they sell.
you can see the same effect in the decline of all the subscription box services that came into vogue just before covid: they feel great to use for as long as the initial injection of venture funding lasts, because the purpose of that funding at that stage is to attract users and impress the next round of funders with how pleasant/intuitive/efficient/ethical/good value the service is. that's the stage where they're handing out freebies and bowling over influencers, and every ingredient in the box is fresh and high quality and locally sourced. wow what a good deal, what a great system!!! why hasn't anyone done this before? the answer is because it's unsustainable by design. they rack up good reviews, sign on a billion new users, attract new funding from a bunch of much more credulous investors, and then gut all of the expensive parts. portions get smaller, ingredients get worse, packaging gets flimsier, prices go up, freebies turn into "5% off your first 9 boxes when you invite 3 friends", and customer service vanishes.
with social media (and platforms like discord) the logic is the same, it's just a little less glaringly obvious to the end user because they're not coming home to leaking packages of rancid chicken on the doorstep. bluesky has an advantage over tiny operations like cohost because it was founded by a billionaire making a point for the sake of his own image. it got a really significant chunk of startup funding, and the owner had existing connections and rep in the space to attract more. That's why it has survived the goldrush period, why it still feels good to use, and why users who have been burned so many times before are finally accepting it as a stable, reliable option. It's still in its venture capital honeymoon phase where the only thing worth spending money on is making the service attractive to users.
What I expect we will see next, with another mass influx of users from twitter and new funding from a rogue's gallery of tech venture sickos led by Blockchain Capital is a strong ramp up into monetising that userbase. They've already been pretty forthright about how they plan to do this, and I think it's a solid roadmap of how Bluesky will bloat and decay over the next few years:
this is a huge lol. don't worry, we're not going to hyperfinancialize the social experience through NFTs. the thing even crypto freaks started feigning amnesia about a year ago. real "our health conscious sodas are 100% arsenic free" messaging here. They know perfectly well that rubes users are suspicious of their typical 5 dimensional tech finance chess games and are patting our hands about last week's bogeymen so nobody worries too hard about whatever 'decentralised developer ecosystem' just happens to be helmed by a bunch of crypto guys. this definitely means something good and based and not a google-like single sign on user data harvesting operation.
This is the same shit that's currently rotting the floorboards of discord. Bluntly, there is no way to run a platform on this scale without gating functionality behind paid services. Discord has been squeezing free-tier file uploads and call quality etc. down steadily and cranking up subscription costs over the last year or two, throwing in chaff like animated avatar frames to try and justify the user cost. They're also doing the same misdirection thing again here, pointing to Thing We All Hate to deflect from thing we might not like very much when they do it. Booo elon booo we all hate elon!!! wait how do we feel about subscription models again,
watch out for this to kill porn on bsky like it has killed porn on every other social platform đ boooo we hate elon boooo stupid idiot and his 'everything app' booooo wait why do you need my tax information, what's that about mastercard,
Look, we are all aware social media is a money pit. Let's not forget dorsey was looking to sell twitter in the first place, long before elon's very public plunge into total online derangement. Subscription services are not going to plug the hole, so we are gradually going to see more and more spaghetti thrown at the wall while early funders shuffle cards and do their pyramid scheme bit bringing in stupider and stupider investments. this is the window in which bluesky will be temporarily worth using for us, for the idiot public, the poorly rendered crowd jpegs in the background of their venture capital MOBA. it's in their interests to slow and pad the decline as much as possible, because that is how they get maximally paid.
Given the scale of the money involved, and dorsey's weird ego investment, I think bluesky will probably manage a controlled drift for a good few years before it gets really bloated and painful. and by then we will all be so used to the *checks notes* decentralised developer ecosystem that we'll just be posting through it, watching another generation of columnists call another collapsing platform 'their beloved hellsite' and passing around that meme about not getting out of our chairs no sir until idk we all get on a fediverse neurolink alternative to stick it to the elongated muskrat and our brains pop peacefully in our sleep. which I guess is the closest thing to viability any social media platform can achieve.
anyway diogenes the cynic is also on bluesky
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(Spoiler) Noah Schnapp is CLEARLY trying to avoid spoiling something MAJOR about Mike and Will here! (Breakdown with TIMESTAMPS)
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Okay Tom Holland, Noah Schnapp lol.
I'm usually a very careful person, and so I mean it when I say that this video of Noah at a recent con is the biggest confirmation of Byler endgame we've ever gotten.
0:04: Noah's NERVOUSNESS combined with TRYING TO SUPPRESS GIDDY EXCITEMENT in the first 5 seconds. His literal first reaction to a question about how Mike and Will's relationship has evolved was "You guys can't get me in trouble! I don't wanna say anything! Spoiler..."
0:16: Mike and Will's relationship "had its ups and downs in the beginning..." In the beginning? It was never down in the beginning mah dude, not until Season 3. By "the beginning" he's contrasting everything before to NOW (Season 5)! Now, when things are FINE, and as Mike said they're "a team..."
0:24 "Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship" !!!!!!
0:33 "And as it goes on you kinda realize that Will does have... Am I allowed to say this?" Noah should know he can say Will likes Mike: Noah told the press 2 years ago that Will loves Mike. Either his mind is GLITCHING because he's afraid he'll spoil something, or he thinks that JUST TALKING about Mike and Will's history is a spoiler for some reason! =)
0:41 Cara: "Ummm.... I don't know!" She knows that "yes" would encourage him to say more and "no" would sound like they're hiding something. Noah: "I don't wanna talk about this!"
0:47 Throughout Cara's entire talk Noah is GRINNING and he's trying his best to hide it. Clearly just THINKING about Mike and Will makes this gay boy wanna giggle. It literally feels like HE is Will and someone's there talking about his relationship with his boyfriend who he can't stop thinking about.
0:58 Cara saves Noah but then beats around the bush and talks about friends growing together and apart. She says they diverge and "Mike goes on his journey" while Will remains "stuck." Then she says "...So I think in Season 5..." and Noah gives her a LOOK knowing that they have to be careful here. Then Cara talks about SOMETHING ELSE entirely, pretending she never started the sentence! She says it's "a friendship evolving" and that friends can grow apart and together, "and we'll see what happens"(!) What ELSE could this all mean but that they grow closer together after growing apart in season 3? And that Mike's "journey" was one of self-discovery? (From all the glimpses of s5 we're getting, Mike's clearly not "journeying" far from Will's side!)
1:39 Even though Noah should know better (lol), he chimes in AGAIN to say something about Mike and Will and dig another hole for Cara to dig them out of! Then he thinks better of it: "Actually I"m not gonna say anything."
In another clip from this talk, Noah says that in nearly every scene he's done on the show Finn/Mike has been there. The way he talks about it, it's clear he's reminiscing about his entire experience with the show including Season 5, where they're sharing all their scenes again. Mike and Will's relationship is important to Noah, who of course is gay.
In that same clip, Cara says it'll be easier to answer these questions when the show is over. Noah: "It's just so hard to talk about it. It's so secretive and we don't wanna get in trouble."
It's extremely clear that Noah and Cara do not want to give a MAJOR SPOILER ABOUT MIKE AND WILL.
In s5, Mike HAS to find out Will loves him because of the Painting Lie. If what results is that Mike rejects Will because he's straight, which the vast majority of the audience already assumes, would they be this secretive about it?
Of course not.
Plus, they're so careful to NOT DENY THE POSSIBILITY of Byler endgame either, which they can do EASILY. ("Will loves his straight best friend..." or "Mike's only interested in El...") That would've been a NON-STORY. They're going OUT OF THEIR WAY not to rule out Byler. AND they fully know that teasing the audience with it only for it NOT to happen would be queerbaiting.
Byler doubt? Never knew ya.
-teambyler
#byler#noah schnapp#upside down epic con#cara buono#will byers#mike wheeler#stranger things#spoilers#st5
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