#i mean im scooting along with a lot of free or otherwise insanely cheap assets (in terms of price not quality) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

curiouschaosstarlight · 6 months ago

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rpg maker mz generator parts and plugins cost money -> maybe i should get a job -> no one will hire me -> also im injured -> getting myself un-injured costs money -> i could make video games while im injured i guess -> making video game costs money -> im constantly hungry and hurting -> fixing that costs money -> i need a driver's license so i can reach more places and won't be confined mostly to my house for a variety of benefits -> getting a test costs money -> i have adhd and anxiety -> getting diagnosed and medicated costs money (also is unlikely to happen) -> god i just want to make video games and stories and art and not think about this stuff -> costs money

#not important #tangent #i dunno #this is NOT shade on rpg maker stuff costing money by the way #the shit you have to pay for is pretty much always fancy af and honestly a lot of things feel like they're under-charging #what do you mean i get pretty and professional looking character graphics and/or UI/functions/etc for like. $15??#...$15 that i dont have unfortunately #learning to program also costs money and also focus and mental ability and #needs me to not be sad hungry or easily distracted or overwhelmed or anxious or #hn...#i mean im scooting along with a lot of free or otherwise insanely cheap assets (in terms of price not quality)#but my adhd brain wants to do 50 projects at once all with differing mechanics and characters and #also a lot of the plugins are like “if you make a commercial game pls give us money” which is absolutely fair #but that just kinda slots into the loop #i dont really wanna sell my games anyway unless i've like...at LEAST made my own graphics but #let's say i did (because pixel art is still possible with my injury) and i finished a game but im still in this situation #i would not be able to sell it in good conscience because i dont have money to buy the plugins and i cant make any #theoretically you could sell a game anyway and just buy later it's not like they could really punish you #but that counts on the idea that enough people would buy my game so that i could make back the price of the plugins #which isnt a horrifying prospect or anything but how do i convince people to buy my stuff #and where do i get to all of that when im actually way back here with lots of unfinished projects #i dunno man

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