#i mean i liked him for a few years but...idrk what love feels like hehehe...

[cl-babydew]

Running In The Rain

So this oneshot is for @sophfandoms53’s bday that is today and she deserves more then just this tiny oneshot based off of something that happened to me once. I wish I could do more but when it comes to Soph Ik she’d just appreciate anything as long as it’s from the heart!! Soph, thank you so much for making my last bday the best I literally ever had! I wasn’t looking forward to that day because of how that year was going! But you and everyone else did so much for me that day that...Idek how to thank you guys! I was crying so much that day because I just thought I was gonna be alone until you and everyone popped up and...we didn’t know each other much by then and you STILL made me something and-geez I’m tearing up already! XD I just don’t know how to thank you! I wish I could give you tons of hugs! I promise we’ll meet one day! I’ll make sure of that!! And it’ll be the best day of my life! Just- thank you so much Soph! I love you so so much!! And with all of this said, I hope you have a phenomenal bday!! Happy bday, Soph!

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The sun was glistening against the light drops of rain falling from the blue aura sky with white and gray fluffy cotton floating lazily over Duckburg.

A car steered into a certain young teen lady ducks drive way, slowing to a stop in front of the blond girls fence. Shelly bit her bottom beak as she went over the thoughts in her head.

Huey invited her to go mini golfing with him. Just her and him. It was awkward to say the least. They still had a good time even though the air was thick.

The days leading up to this they would get teased by the others calling it a date when they would correct that it was ‘just a hang out’. They didn’t want to think of it as a date, they were just friends. Shelly knew that Huey liked her as much as she like him. Unsurprisingly, he wasn’t the one that told her; Dewey spilled the beans a few days before a homecoming dance they went to together. Huey couldn’t get a date- he tried to, but the girl turned him down. She didn’t understand how some girl could just reject him so cruelly.

Shaking her head, she fluttered her eyes, pushing a piece of her silky hair behind her ear. Her checks were already starting to tingle, “Wait here!”

Huey gave her a questioning look as she hopped out the front seat onto the cement. He watched as her hair swayed wildly as she ran through her opened garage.

Making sure she wasn’t seen she hugged herself. She was so glad she was finally out of that car. It’s not that she didn’t trust Huey’s driving skills-HEH- Huey’s like the safest person she’s ever met; after his Uncle that is. She just didn’t have good experiences with cars. Her parents nagged her on and on about her finally driving, she was 16 now, they wanted her driving soon. Her dad was still cautious about money, though. Getting in a few wrecks didn’t just worry her about driving, but made her terrified about sitting in the front seat! She rarely sat up there anymore, unless with her dad on rare occasions. But if someone suggested the front seat for her, she’d smile sheepishly, denying their offer as she scrambled to the back. It’s a good thing Huey could drive, because she surly wasn’t going to. Her parents fussed her just for sitting in the back when they were heading out.

Luckily, Huey being the understanding best friend he was, didn’t mind at all. He was the only one that knew other then her parents, after all. He even told her that she didn’t have to sit in the front on the way back, but she had no choice or her parents would punish her for being such a coward.

Sighing, she grabbed the keys to her moms van, sneaking money to pay back Huey from earlier. She was so red earlier that it took her until they got their to admit she forgot money. Her plan was to split it. But beating her to the punch, Huey chuckled saying that he already planned to pay for her anyway. She knew Huey would be stubborn to receive money back, but she hated getting things without giving in return. So grabbing the money out of her mom’s van, and crunching it in her sweaty palms she left the door opened with the keys on the seat, walking back up to his car.

It was starting to rain a bit harder, so being without an umbrella, she ignored it. A little rain never killed anyone. She used her finger to tap on his window as he rolled it down. His eyes widened as she outstretched her arm for him to take the money.

“Here.” She breathed, “It’s not much, but I felt bad for earlier...” she trailed off, smiling shyly at him.

He couldn’t help but let a smile lose as he rolled up his window, shaking his head. She scoffed, smirking.

“Huey Duck! Take the money please.” She knocked on the window once more.

He kept laughing as he shook his head, “I told you my deal. I paid for you, and I don’t want anything in return.” He was muffled, but she could hear his fast talking clear as day.

If he wanted to be stubborn, fine...she could play stubborn too. She smirked, opening his door to his surprise as rain started to poor harder and hit the inside of his car. She was already pretty soaked and her feathers were ruffled while her golden hair was soaked.

She threw the money inside his truck as she giggled, slamming the door as his foot stopped it he chased back after her, with the money in his hands. She ran underneath the garage, a puddle forming underneath her.

He saw her mother’s car door still opened and set the damp money back in on the wet seat. He gave her the keys that were left on the seat, closing the door. He turned around smirking only to see the girl holding back laughter as she pointed to his car. One dollar bill was still hanging out, getting just as soaked as them.

His face burned in embarrassment, as he stomped on over to collect the bill, stomping back over to her. He tried handing her the bill, but she didn’t even try reaching for it. She bit her beak, half smiling and shaking her head innocently.

The girl watched as he set the bill on her father’s working table. She folded her arms, rolling her eyes playfully.

They just stood their staring at each other. He couldn’t keep a straight face, suddenly bursting into laughter as she joined in. Their eyes teared up as they began staring at each other once more. The world fading behind them.

But sadly coming back to earth, Huey stuck out his fist. She blinked, which formed into a soft smile as she chuckled, fist bumping him awkwardly back.

She watched him as he ran back to his car through the rain. She chuckled to herself as she could hear the many questions his brothers, Webby, and Lena were going to ask coming in soaked like he was.

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The girl flopped on her bed, closing her eyes as she hummed to herself repeating over and over again on the moments of that day.

Her head shot up as she heard a buzz coming from her phone. Rolling onto her stomach, she played with her knotty wet hair as she read the text.

She bit the inside of her check.

Huey: Thanks for playing golf with me, Shell. I thought it was pretty fun. I hope you had fun, too. You did a lot better then me though.(enter laughing emojis here)

She smirked, ignoring her heart beating a mile a minute.

Shelly: I think we did an equal amount of okness! (Enter a laughing emoji here)

She giggled.

Shelly: And it was fun! Thx!

Just as she was about to set her phone down, it buzzed in her hand once more.

Huey: Anytime!

Her heart wasn’t prepared for what was coming her way.

Huey: Hey, by the way, I hope this doesn’t weird you out, but I’ve been wanting to hang out with you because I really like you. I wanted to tell you that. I’m sorry if that weirds you out... (enter a sweating nervous/sad emoji)

Was her heart still beating? She felt her face heat up, as her stomach was doing backflips. She’s waited so long for him to admit and...he finally has and she didn’t know what to do with herself.

Licking her lips nervously, she breathed in a shaky breath, answering him back.

Shelly: That doesn’t weird me out at all, I like you too!

She breathed out, gasping for air. Oh she didn’t know how she was going to face him tomorrow. She didn’t even know if she wanted to squeal, jump around, or weep happily. Her emotions were everywhere.

“If only he knew how much I liked him, and how long I have been in love with him...”

Laying on her back, with her phone on her stomach, she sighed to herself, “Tomorrow’s going to be a new day, indeed...” she covered her face with her arm, as her heart fluttered, a tiny smile started to slip through.

“Maybe life won’t be so scary after all?...”

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Well...this is gift 1! Number two will be right after this one! Which is already done and ready to post! X3 I hope you liked this!

[takemetohelena]

</2018>

Grabe ang bilis talaga! But i don’t really feel the transition. Is this a sign of aging? Hahaha. Do you know what i’m doing at exactly 12AM ng New Year? Nasa CR ako, i’m pooping HAHAHA. I hear all the putukans and torotot outside but the only thing that’s in my mind that time was ‘We really can’t stop time no?’ Like drama aside, gusto ko magresearch ng scientific explanation why we can’t stop time, I know the earth finished one rotation around the sun pero bastaa, i’m curious about something and i dont know how to say it hahaha.

Soo 2018, gusto ko tignan yung bucketlist ko to see what i checked pero i think i lost it hahaha. I can say 2018 is a year of growth for me, mental and emotional idk if spiritual because last year, i became agnostic hahaha. Looking back, marami rin nangyari ngayong year, nagkaprogress na ako sa Design finally hahaha si David lang talaga e tsk bat di pa sya mawala haha jknotjk,

I felt closer to my college friends like yung hindi na napipilitan makisama, comfortable na talaga ako sakanila haha tho i miss my constants sometimes but they’re busy growing on their own din, before nagtatampo ako if di nila pinapansin mga kwento ko to the point na nag install ako ng Tinder para lang may mapagkwentuhan ng panaginip ko HAHAHA tbh i felt naiwan because ang dami nilang ganap outside our little bubble tapos ako i was still stuck with our old routine na nagsasabihan ng kung ano ano even the most walang kwenta at random things ever hahaha tho i understood naman na they have so much things to do and they need it para din sakanila, I support their growth af and i’m so proud of ‘em. Shoutout CRASH!

I taught myself how to play the Ukulele hehe. Took me 1-2weeks trying to play you are my sunshine na nabbwisit na sakin si ethel kasi pinapakanta ko sya while i play tapos mali mali kaya lagi nya inuulit hahahha. Nagsave na nga sya ng recording para di na sya kumanta. I was inpired sa isang video na kinakantahan nya ung special child nya na kapatid while playing and also I wanted to compose a song hehe pero di ko rin nagawa kasi di na ako inspired hahaha.

Sefl love and self care! I think i treated myself a little better last year compared to the other years. I avoid what doesn’t bring me any good (except for jollibee) and i focused more on my inner peace. Yoga helps hahaha, sana lang pumayat na ako HAHAHA. Pero totoo pala na if you love yourself, good things will come you way so be good to yourself and do what makes you happy. It’s v important saka always encourage yourself. Believe kahit na unbelievable hahaha.

This year, nag attend ako ng born again church for more than a month, consecutive 5 sundays with fridays and wednesdays meetings rin. I noticed how inconsistent it is, I mean the bible so i became skeptic and now idk if i still believe it but i’m open with the possibility na it might be true rin pero there is a big chance na we people just made it up just to have something to hold on to. Napansin ko rin na we are so dependent like kailangan at gusto natin na may mas nakakataas satin tho it’s true na meron because we cant control everything here, maybe it’s the universe or nature or god or whatever and whoever it is. I’m open for any theories but i dont feel like i can trust the church heheh. I used to think that i should choose a guy who is religious because religious people are afraid to do wrong pero di rin pala sometimes they’re the most judgemental pa like if it’s not in the bible i wont accept i ganon hahaha im not saying Anthony is like that ha, i still believe that he’s really nice and he told me once about that na nagegeneralize daw silang mga religious people hahaha speaking of Anthony..

We watched a movie last May haha Infinity War, keleg ang lola mu yun na ang icoconsider kong first real date ko from now on charot hahaha idk of may entry ako nun here i’ll check.. wala pala sad hahaha. Basta i was really kilig that time, pinaasa nya ako sa Transformers one time eh hehe he posted our pics sa myday nya haha and feeling ko ang dull ng replies ko kaya nawala na, or it’s just me hahaha. I still like him, yung mga nagugustuhan ko may special place na sila sa heart ko hahaha pero not the kind of like before. Parang he gives me nostalgia nalang and i’m happy we met, just that hahaha.

I applied for part time jobS last year--  cafes, fastfoods, convenient stores, got interviewed a few times, natanggap ako sa jabi but i only lasted for 1 day hahaha di ko keri teh. Tapos may nag abot sakin ng flyer Linkos. I applied and got accepted ngayon more than a month na ako dun. It’s nice, they’re all nice i think it’s good for me they’re making me grow din and i’m happy. I think those are the most important things in life-- growth and happiness. And they’re giving me that so far so i think i’ll stay. They almost feel feel like family tbh tapos the work is not that hard, yun lang it’s graveyard and i have 19units this sem so pamatay hahaha but i like it there. One of the right decisions i made, gujab hel!

Ano pa ba, my plantsss. Naeenjoy ko nayon mag alaga ng plants they make me happy feeling ko babies ko talaga and i get satisfied when i see them healthy and growing. They’re good for me and they make me feel like ang ganda ganda ng mundo. I love my plants and i want more hahaha 

I dont have much travel this year but it’s okay, bago yun actually because last few years lagi kaming may pinupuntahan courtesy of alison hahaha. I miss those days pero okay lang because i feel like (lagi ko nauumpisahan itype ‘this year’ pero last year na yung 2018 my ghad haha) last year was a year of me me me all about me me me for myself. I was more with myself and mas naintindihan ko rin sarili ko. Sana magtuloy tuloy hahaha

2018 was a year of myself (i think i’ve said that na HAHA), i learned to choose what’s good for me and what’s not, i learned how to be calm when my patience is being tested, i learned how to understand when they’re not making it easy for me, i learned how to accept changes and just go on, i learned how to weigh what to do in diff situations. Also, naisip ko we always have a choice, the effect of our actions is always because we chose to do it. Even the hardest choices or the wrong choices, we are still the one who decided to do it. That thought helps me to be responsible with my actions, it’s a good thing hahaha.

Hi 2019,

MY GHAAAD! Feels like yesterday lang nung gumagawa ako ng </2017> entry ko tapos bukas </2019> (if i dont accidentally get hit by a truck or something hahaha) ghad so bilis talaga haha. The future is so complex, there is a possibility of everything so idrk what to expect pero we’ll get there because time doesn’t stop. I’d like to think now that Time is the most powerful thing here on earth because nothing and no one can stop it. So whatever happens, happens nalang haha. I’m just gunna chill this year and focus on my growth and happiness aaand pala!!! I am single and now rEaDy To MiNgLe so this year, it would be great if i meet someone hmm universe, lord, buddha hello po hahaha.

2019, be a good year for me! Lets work well okay? Make this soft and brave hooman experience all the goods life has to offer, make her happy. She deserves it. ☺️

Signing out @  11:52PM, January 1 2019,

Helena

[ayayayayouch]

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20

tagged by: the lovely @callhimyoungk

im tagging:  
YOU! lmao jk i tag anyone who wants to do this

last 1. drink: water 
2. phone call: from my manager lol  
3. text message:from my sister lmao 4. song you listened to: everything you are by ed sheeran 5. last time you cried: i can’t remember tbh 6. dated someone twice: none 
7. kissed someone and regretted it: none 8. been cheated on: nah 9. lost someone special: yes :( 10. been depressed: not diagnosed but sometimes i feel depressed 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nah, i rarely drink...

3 favorite colors 12. green 13. pastel colors 
14. prussian blue

in the last year have you 15. made new friends: yep
 16. fallen out of love: nah 
17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you:
 lmao my parents.. they trashtalk behind my back :\ 19. met someone who changed you: not really 20. found out who your friends are: idk, i don’t think i can really know who my friends are.. but we’re solid  21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nah

general 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like a hundred of them lol (ok there’s no number twenty-three) 24. do you want to change your name: funny thing is, i hated my name back in hs i thought that ‘joanna’ is kinda posh... but now that i know what it means.. and now that i’m all grown up, i love it now.. it sounds so fierce and elegant. so no. i don’t want to change my name. :D 25. what did you do for your last birthday: worked lmao i just don’t really feel like celebrating my birthday anymore tbh

26. what time did you wake up: around 8am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: lmao washing the frickin dishes fml 28. name something you can’t wait for: having a career and living my life to the fullest 
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: today 
30. what are you listening to right now: the clicking sound or is it tapping sound of my keyboard lol 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: nope

32. something that is getting on your nerves: so my job requires me to have a great customer service skill and damn lemme tell you about the types of people you’d frickin encounter... and this is basically the things that gets on my nerves: rude people, those frickin people who frickin complain a lot about trivial things, racists, judgmental people, those people who frickin gets angry in an instant like damn pls don’t throw a fit be calm... omfg i could go on and on but imma stop here.. basically, those people who can’t be a decent human being get on my nerves.

33. most visited website: tumblr, youtube, facebook lol 
34. hair color: black (just like my soul lol jk) 35. long or short hair: mid-length hair haha 36. do you have a crush on someone: you betcha! and his name is brian kang lol 
37. what do you like about yourself? ooh this caught me off guard.. i guess i like that i’m stubborn lol i don’t give up easily bc of that, and i like that i am aware of the people around me like i can tell what they’re feeling so i can adjust myself when i’m with them and give them an extra push if they need it.. physical-wise tho, i love my eyes and a lot of people do say i have a nice smile :) (there’s no number thirty-eight ??) 39. blood type: idrk lol

40. nickname: jojo  41. relationship status: happily single lmao  42. zodiac: taurus (ya know jae and i would prob get along as he is also an earth sign plus tauruses are compatible with virgos so jae hi lmao also my frickin crush is a virgo.. i also have a virgo best friend...and i frickin read somewhere that sag and taruses are least compatible hahaha brian is a sagittarius and yeah they’re really adventuruous.. i also have a frickin sag crush haha he’s too much for me lol sorry about the zodiac ramblings and before y’all label me as crazy, i do know that the zodiac signs are just guides in our lives and should not only be the one to consider when doing something; i’m just fascinated and interested okay) 43. pronouns: she and her 
44. favorite tv show: hmm fav tv show?? maybe csi:miami  45. tattoos: i don’t have one 

46. right or left handed: left 
47. surgery: nope

48. sport: badminton lol and i’m interested in ultimate frisbee  
49. vacation: i really want to visit south korea, england and australia  
 50. pair of shoes: i have comfortable ones idk if this is the right answer to this question hahah

more general 
 51. eating: nah 52. drinking: nah 53. i’m about to: write a draft for a story i’m working on 54. waiting for: the president to end his term lmao if y’all know who i’m referring to  55. want: a frickin career and stable job 
56. get married: maybe someday, if i am destined to be a wife lmao bc brah srsly i’ve been single my whole life 
57. career: i want to work in either a laboratory or something graphic design related

which is better
 58. hugs or kisses: both but it depends who the hug or kiss is from lmao

59. lips or eyes: the first thing that catches my attention is the eyes ngl 60. shorter or taller: taller
 61. older or younger: older or we have the same age lol 
62. nice arms or nice stomach: idk as long as the person is healthy

63. hook up or relationship: brah i’ve been serious since the day that i had an idea about such things so definitely relationship 
64. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker? idk my logical explanation is... if someone’s a troublemaker that means he or she is acting his or her goals and being hesitant means thinking too much that sometimes results in not doing anything at all.. 
65. kissed a stranger: nah 66. drank hard liquor: nah  
67. lost glasses/contact lenses: no

68. turned someone down: yes 69. sex on the first date: no

70. broken someone’s heart: i don’t think so

71. had your heart broken: yes T-T 72. been arrested: nope 73. cried when someone died: yes T-T my grandpa and one of my closest friend died on the same year, just a few months apart and lemme tell you that it frickin sucks :( it still feels like it was yesterday i miss them so much 74. fallen for a friend: i really don’t know the answer but there’s this guy friend... sometimes i feel jealous if he’s with other girls.. but idk if that’s bc i like him or bc i just want to hangout with him like the old times back in hs so idk

do you believe in 75. yourself: i try my hardest to 76. miracles: yes 
77. love at first sight: nah 78. santa claus: no, i’m sorry!! :( 79. kiss on the first date: idk 80. angels: yes

other 81. eye color: black (just like my soul lmao i’m joking again) 82. favorite movie: matilda, harry potter and the sorcerer’s stone, harry potter and the chamber of secrets, the edge of seventeen 
83. lust or love: love 84. favorite item of clothing: my style is vintage but anything very aesthetically pleasing to me 85. favorite song: bruh i have a lot but since this is a kpop blog imma answer with kpop songs: congratulations, dance dance, be lazy, i’m serious, what can i do and bad boy (their cover) by DAY6.. silver spoon, 21st century girl, spring day, boys in luv, blood, sweat and tears by bts.. growl and kokobop by exo.. knock, angel heart and u by knk.. breathless, hide and seek, polaris and baby by astro.. hey girl by b.i.g. (I AM MAD THAT I CAN’T FIND AN ENGLISH TRANSLATION OF THIS SONG!!!! IT HAS BEEN A YEAR!)

and that’s about it heheh