#i mean i always liked my intimacy and relationship dynamics a little bit rough at the edges

[valtsv]

you know i really owe terror fic writers so much for opening my mind to the possibilities the world has to offer. never in my life before now did i think that "your dick doesn't work and i've puked blood on you more times than we've kissed" could form the foundations of a beautiful relationship between two people. now i can't enjoy a fanfic unless the characters are vulnerable with each other in ways so undignified and grotesquely honest that it somehow circles back around to being erotic.

[angry-geese]

Toji Fushiguro x Reader

Warnings: nsfw/mdni. oral (fem recieving), face riding, fingering, pet names, thinly veiled praise kink, biting/marking, body worship (???), tender sex. not the healthiest relationship dynamic. toji kinda needs his own warning. afab reader, fem pronouns.

Word Count: 2.3k

The last little beam of goldening sunlight fills the room as the sun sets. The movie—which you’ve long since stopped paying attention to—has turned to credits. Toji lays with his head in your lap, hands folded on his chest. The scarred corner of his mouth twitches as you card your fingers through his hair.

He’s not sure why he keeps coming back. But he keeps doing so. Toji doesn't quite know how to put it in words. It's not love—or so he’d say—because there's only two things he loves in life; gambling, and killing. If there was a third, it would be you, so you take this with a grain of salt. He looks forward to coming around, even if he groans and complains when you call him over. He sees something in you, even if he can't put it into words. In the beginning you were just a quick fling. A warm mouth, and a wet cunt. Sometimes you’d cook too. Which was nice. He’d kill someone just for the gyoza you make.

When he fell for you, he fell hard.

It was obvious to seemingly everyone but him. His gaze lingered a little longer than normal, he found his thoughts turning to you more often, he’d mention you even without provocation. He’ll never say it out loud, but he likes spending time with you. You know that, even if it would be nice to have him say it. The man is a mess, there’s only so much shit you can give him for it.

You let out a squeak as he hauls you into his arms, letting your body hover just over his chest. His gaze drifts down your figure, studying every dip and curve of your barely-clothed body.

“Stop! Wait!” You playfully claw at his chest, but there's some sense of urgency behind it. “I'm too heavy!”

He notices you trying to scramble away and sits up, pulling you into his lap. He doesn't seem to know what to do with his hands; they ghost up your sides, coming to rest on your hips.

“What do you mean you’re too heavy?” He asks. “Sweetheart, I could lift you with one arm.”

He’s not lying. He can—and has—thrown you around. He’s not the best with words, but it’s oddly comforting. Being so open with his affection is a foreign feeling to him. Love in a traditional sense is a bit new to him. Toji deserves more credit than he’s given. You’re so many things to him: strong, sturdy, beautiful.

He tilts your chin up, your gaze meeting his. There’s a look in his eyes that you can't quite read.

“Do you want me to stop?” He asks.

You don't.

His fingers ghost across your skin; there but barely. You’d be lying if you said you hadn't tried to recreate the way he touches you; the way his long, skilled fingers make you writhe. Every past lover of yours pales in comparison to him. Your hands don't feel the same. It almost makes up for his fleeting nature. Almost.

He runs his tongue over his bottom lip, the scarred side of his mouth twitching. His calloused hands cup your face. The warmth of his skin is inviting, and makes you lean in even closer. You feel yourself slowly giving in to him.

He leans back. You wouldn't have noticed if it weren't for the evil sounding chuckle that leaves him. He watches as your eyes widen. Your brows knit in frustration.

“You stopped breathing there,” he says, “did you want me to kiss you?”

“No teasing,” you say, your voice weak.

Toji presses a quick peck to your forehead. Then your nose. Then the curve of your jaw.

“It’s my job to tease you,” he says, giving your thigh a squeeze, “I like watching you writhe.”

Toji smooths a hand over your hair, brushing it back from your eyes. The gentle touch makes goosebumps raise along your shoulders. You visibly sulk when he pulls his hand away.

“Please,” you say.

The kiss he pulls you into is rough and needy. Toji nibbles at your bottom lip until you allow his tongue to explore the wet cavern of your mouth. He tastes faintly of alcohol. He doesn't seem to know what to do with his hands. They wander up your sides, kneading the soft flesh of your hips and breasts, tugging your skirt up your hips to reveal your already wet pussy.

When he pulls away, an audible smack echoes through the room.

One of his hands slips between your legs, his large, calloused fingers tracing circles around your clit. You practically melt against his touch. You fit so perfectly against him, your chest pressed against his, your knees planted on either side of his thighs. Each moan and gasp that threatens to spill past your lips, choked by his tongue, spurs him on further. Your face buries in the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent. He doesn't smell like much of anything; laundry soap and shampoo he stole from you.

You whine as he pulls his hand away, aching for his touch. So close yet so far from your own release. He offers his hand to you. Obediently, you take his fingers into your mouth, swirling your tongue around the digits.

“Strip.” He orders. You comply.

Your—his—shirt comes off first. Slowly you pull it over your head, tossing it aside. The corner of his lip twitches when he realizes you have no bra on underneath. His hands come up to palm at your breasts, gently tugging and pinching at the sensitive flesh of your nipples. Calloused hands squeeze eagerly at them, admiring their roundness.

Next goes your skirt. Momentarily you have to shift off his lap to slide it down your legs. One of his hands gropes appreciatively at your ass. He lands a quick slap, admiring the way your ass jiggles, chuckling at the soft gasp that leaves you. It stings, but you wouldn't consider it painful. His hand smooths over the red mark he’s left.

"Look at you," he says, "my good girl.” His laugh comes from low in his chest. The heat that rises to your face is undeniable. Out of embarrassment your hands raise to cover your face. Instinctively your arms cross over your chest. It’s not like he hasn't seen you like this before.

“Don't hide yourself,” he gently tugs your arms down, admiring the way the moonlight reflects off your skin, “I want to see you.”

You straddle his thigh. The way you grind down against him is far from subtle. He notices the way your face contorts with need- and the small wet patch your cunt leaves on his thigh.

He’s ready to show his affections with his tongue. Rather unceremoniously he lays back, guiding your hips to settle over his chest. His dark hair pools around his head.

“Be a good girl and ride my face,” he says.

There's no hiding the way you blush. From chest to forehead you’re bright red. Even the tips of your ears take on a pink color. His hands trail down your sides, squeezing your ass and hips. You settle over his face, thighs on either side of his head. The warmth of your skin spreads to him.

His tongue dips in your folds, swirling around your clit. He presses kitten licks to your clit. Toji’s touches are always achingly close to where you need them, but not quite. His touch is fleeting in nature; just like him. Your fingers bury in his hair, guiding him to where you want him most.

“I thought you said you wouldn’t tease!” You whine.

His grip on your thighs tightens, pulling you down against his face. Your needy clit is lavished with affections from a hot tongue. His skilled tongue traces circles around your clit, gently sucking and nipping at the sensitive bud. Aside from your own moans are the sounds of a man very content with what he’s doing. He could die happy with his head between your thighs.

You grind down against his face, content to chase your own release. Heat pools low in your stomach, building with each skilled flick of his tongue. You’re reduced to a moaning, babbling mess, crying out his name like it’s a prayer.

The knot in your stomach snaps.

Toji lets you ride out your orgasm on his face, holding your hips down. It takes a moment for the overstimulation to register in your lust-addled mind. His tongue still works eager circles around your clit, seemingly unaware of your writhing form. The lower half of Toji’s face glints in the dim light. His hair is a mess, sticking out in all sorts of directions from your desperate grip. A sleepy, mischievous grin spreads across his face. It's not often you see him so relaxed.

Your post-orgasm haze leaves you sensitive, and shaky. His hands run over your flushed skin, his eyes hungrily taking in your form. Though he’s not the most verbal with his affections, his eyes can’t hide what goes on in his head. He takes you in all at once, yet piece by piece too. His eyes say what his mouth won't.

“Did you think you could get away that easily?” He asks.

You swallow hard.

He guides you to sit in his lap. You straddle one of his large thighs, palming his growing erection. With the change of position, his bulge grinds right against your leg. Toji’s eyes darken in warning. He lifts his hips just enough to shove his pants down. His cock springs free from his boxers, the tip glistening with precum. It's built like the rest of him, long and thick, the hairs towards the base are dark and a bit unruly. The head takes on an angry red color. His size is a bit intimidating, but he always makes sure you’re prepared enough to take him.

You lower yourself onto him slowly. You fit around him like a glove; the warm, velvety walls of your cunt clenching around him. He watches your face for any sign of discomfort, though you show none.

“You can take more than that, can't you?” He asks.

You nod.

He still gives you a moment to get used to his size. His hands find your hips, giving them a tender squeeze. Your arms wrap around his neck, your breath hot against his skin. The intimacy of the situation doesn't go over his head. He leans to nip at your earlobe, cooing in your ear how good you’re doing, how well you fit around him. Toji trails wet, open mouth kisses down your neck. The gasps and moans that leave you as you shift to get more comfortable makes his cock twitch.

“My good girl,” he coos, “taking all of me like this.”

He guides your hips as you bounce on his cock, his nails digging into your plush thighs. Toji can't pry his eyes away from the way your breasts bounce with each thrust. Greedy, calloused hands palm at your breasts, working your nipples into stiff peaks. Sweat beads in his hairline. You don't think you’ve ever seen him so focused.

One of his hands moves down to toy with your clit, working circles against the bundle of nerves. He notices how your breath hitches, how your lips have been bitten pink, how your pupils have shrunk down to pinpricks. You don't.

His hands find your hips, momentarily lifting you off his lap, laying you down on your back. He fucks into you with rough, unforgiving thrusts. His pace is brutal.

Toji grunts as your nails rake across his back, leaving angry red marks. His lips latch onto the fleshy part of your neck, sucking and nipping in a way that makes you whimper. A collar of dark marks nearly circles your neck. It brings him an odd joy seeing you marked up in such a way. People know you’re his.

There’s not one specific thing that sends you over the edge, but a mixture of everything. From the way his skilled fingers toy with your clit to the way his cock leaves none of your sweet spots unstroked.

Your legs clamp around his waist as you cum, crying out his name. With the way you clench around him, pulling him back in, he isn't far behind.

His thrusts grow sloppier as he nears his own release. Toji’s praise turns to broken sentence fragments about how good you’re doing, and how beautiful your body is underneath him. For just this moment his stoic nature fails, and he lets his affections pour fourth.

“You’re gonna take all of it.” He says. “You’re gonna take all of my cum.”

And you do.

Hot, thick ropes of his cum spill into your unprotected womb, spilling out and running down your thighs in streams. To stifle his grunt, he sinks his teeth into your shoulder. A small, pained whimper escapes you.

As he pulls out, he’s hit with a pang of regret for not using a condom. Aside from the mess, he doesn't want to knock you up. That doesn't stop him from shamelessly leaning back and admiring the mess he’s made. Any bit of worry he has is quickly forgotten.The sight of your fucked-out form leaking his cum lights a whole new need within him.

He pulls you to lay on his chest, your head resting in the crook of his neck. His strong arms wrap around you, pulling you flush to him. Your bed would probably be more comfortable, but he doesn't want to risk moving you. A sleepy, content smile spreads across your face. His quiet heartbeat acts as a lullaby. You find yourself nuzzling into his chest,

“You better stop that, sweetheart,” he says, “unless you want a round two.”

[babyloposts]

Domestic

Pairing: Ukai Keishin x black!fem!reader

Warnings: fluff, mentions of lewd acts, mild language, DILF ALERT

Fandom: Haikyu

Summary: soft head cannons of everyone’s favorite volleyball coach :)

A/N: Ukai is so hot and I would like to manifest a life with him thanks. Enjoy this soft shit (ps requests open)

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Adjusting to married life was weird for the both of you. Onlookers of your relationship always claimed you rushed into things by eloping, but you were both in love. So why wait?

The first year of marriage things were smooth. All of your friends claimed you were still in “the honeymoon phase” and that’s why you hadn’t annoyed the hell out of each other yet, but they were wrong. This man annoyed you any chance he got.

Of course there’s no malice behind it, but Keishin was a lot more needy than you had thought and was always pining for attention.

“Y/N, come eat dinner with me.” “Y/N stop doing work it’s late.” “Y/N come cuddle with me.” “Y/N make that tea that I like, please.” “Y/N come take a bath with me.”

To be honest you knew that he was only bothering you all the time for your own well-being because you were a workaholic, but you had a lot of business to attend to. Still you loved that he was always checking in on you.

Another way he annoyed you was that he was always touching you. Touch is definitely his love language (something about not getting hugged enough as a kid, idk) and no matter what you were doing he always had to be touching you in some regard. It only really bothered you when you were working though.

“Keishin, stop trying to lay on me while I’m filling out my timesheets.”

“But you’re comfortable.”

He wouldn’t let anyone know, but he was a giant cuddle bug and loved PDA. Going to the store together? You would be walking hand in hand even if you both were up to your armpits in groceries. Party at a friends house? If you were with him he made you sit on his lap even if there was space left on the couch he wanted that ass on him at all timessss

Although he wasn’t against PDA he usually internalized any jealous feelings he had, or at least try to. He was never the type to make out with you in front of a guy to make him back off, he knew you loved him too much to even entertain another guy, but he wasn’t above a menacing death glare.

“Kei stop, you look scary.”

“That’s the friggin’ point. That asshole was shameless.”

You two were both so hardworking. Keishin with the store, the kids, and the farm and you with climbing the ranks of your corporate job that your dates were purely de-stressors.

Sometimes it would be a relaxing night at home catching up on your shows, or you would go to a quiet restaurant and get some dinner. And every once in a while you would book an hour couple massage and then a dip in a hot spring.

On your first year anniversary Keishin took you to the beach, because you loved the ocean and since then going to the beach has become an annual trip. It seems every time you go to that beach you discover new things about each other (such as the fact that neither of you enjoy beach sex, too sandy) and the trip only strengths your relationship every time.

Your relationship is by no means perfect, you have your struggles (Kei smokes way too much and you’re worried about his lungs and you rely too heavily on alcohol too distract you from your work problems) but the most important thing is that you work them out together.

Although you and Keishin are rock solid you do get into petty arguments mostly stemming from your difference in cultures because you grew up in the states.

“You’re supposed to yell at the waitress to get their attention.”

“I know that, but you can be a little less aggressive. It’s not much to show a bit of kindness.”

“She’s an old lady. I have to yell at her so she can hear.”

“You didn’t have to call her an old bat! What if they spit in our food.”

Despite your little arguments here and there Keishin is really interested in how you grew up. He’s always so fascinated by the customs you have and the family dynamics of a black household.

“And why do you have to wear a hat to go to sleep?”

“It’s a bonnet. And it protects my hair.”

“Oh... I can protect your hair.”

“*sigh* that’s not what I mean love.”

As far as physical intimacy goes you both know each other like the backs of your hands. It took a while for you to both know what your limits were with each other, but after a few months every time started to feel electric.

You both had your fair share of kinks that overall complimented each other well. Though sometimes Keishin would get annoyed at the fact that you were a total pillow Princess, but luckily for him he had that brat tamer instinct.

A few years down the line and you’re both still as happy as day one, but you’re both now starting to settle down some. You both feel confident and stable in your jobs and are able to have more time for each other, but sometimes you feel like you’re missing something.

“Kei?”

“Yes, Babe.”

“You wanna have a kid?”

You sure as hell got your kid. Who would’ve thought this man had a breeding kink too.

the pregnancy was pretty rough on the both of you. You had gotten pretty sick in your first trimester, super terrified that you might lose the baby. To keep from having any more complications your doctor had put you on bed rest for pretty much the duration of your pregnancy. That meant Keishin would pick up extra shifts anytime he could to make up for what you missed at work. Keishin was always tired, you were dead broke, and waited on you hand and foot, but he’d do it all again just to see your smile the day your little girl was born. It was the happiest day of your lives.

Being new parents was tricky, nobody is ever really ready to be a parent. But even through countless sleepless nights, and the biggest strain on your relationship that you’d ever faced. There was no place either of you would rather be than sleeping next to each other with your baby girl snuggled between your arms.

Being a father came easily to Keishin. Of course he was still coaching the new generation of Karasuno kids, but his personality with those boys was a complete 180 to how he acted with your daughter. He was hopelessly in love. He couldn’t say no to that little girl to save his life. You didn’t know how many times you’d come home from work and they’d be laid up on the couch waiting for you to return. As soon as you’d walk in the door your daughter would perk up from Kei’s chest and run to give you a hug. And he would always pretend he wasn’t just knocked out from watching cartoons.

“Mommy I have to tell you and Daddy something.”

“Okay. What is it my love?”

“I want a baby brother. And it has to be a boy, cuz I wanna be the only girl and he has to be cute like me, ok?”

The lip on that girl. She was definitely her mother’s daughter. She knew what she wanted and she was gonna get it. Keishin had no protests you and that little girl had him wrapped around your little fingers, so needless to say, she got her little brother.

[sugar-petals]

BTS Tarot Reading ➝ What Kind Of Porn Do They Watch? (18+)

↳ NOTE - due to several requests, a steamy and detailed one. ☕️ we’re asking the cards about the erotica they fancy in a wider sense. 

warning ⚠️ 18+ // bdsm mentions, worship, kinks left and right. we’re going graphic in all types o’ ways, lads.

♡ DISCLAIMER // tarot is speculative, there is no guarantee for accuracy. believing in the cards is a choice. all portrayals are fictive and for entertainment purposes only.

SPREAD #1:

yoongi

⌈ THE WORLD ⇁ Jesus... Someone’s obsessed with girls in the nude. That card has a stark naked woman wrapped in very little satin on it so you know what our funky little guy is up to. Luscious aesthetic fotos might be just around his corner. Big duh, he’s a photography major. These folks are all about body appreciation. He’s also on a personal vendetta against lingerie 😂 Yoongi won’t get hard looking at even the most HD panty and bra ads. Only the skin in its full splendor will do, no editing. He loves pictures of nipples peaking through shirt fabric, it’s all over his phone. Yoongi likes his gals without underwear 24/7 just like he dislikes underwear himself. If we’re talking porn, the woman on the card is holding two very long rods so may I connect the dots: Threesomes, handjobs, blowbangs, spitroasting. Friction, friction, and more friction. To Yoongi’s brain, handjobs are a great um new version of holding hands. Sex standing up also, keeping it vertical. Yoongi doesn’t care about girth, inches count. Nice and elongated with a perfect plunge, something to hold onto. Yep, he’s pretty deliberate when searching that up. Yes, he loves the look of it. However, and you’ll be surprised: Even if he likes poly porn, it’s still nothing too extreme. This card is more about pleasure than pain. If a guy likes rough and degrading sex, you get swords and wands in his spread. THE WORLD is more about perfected skills and success. So, he likes the more accomplished porn stars. With a preference for curly blondes and redheads, that’s sort of the hair color on the card. Natural B or C cup. Medium height, not too curvy. Oversized booty not needed. In terms of nationality: We have three representative animals on the card. Eagle, lion and bull, plus a light blonde man’s head. So, anything that America/Germany/Albania/Mexico/Namibia (and so on, lot of countries with eagles as their national bird my dude), England, Spain and Scandinavia have to offer. Honey sugar is going international, baby.

hoseok

⌈ QUEEN OF WANDS ⇁ Did I just mention that guys who like rough sex in porn get wand cards in their readings in Yoongi’s segment? Well, there we have our candidate, with a very obvious card since it’s a court figure. Now, the thing is, this is not the guy being rough. The QUEEN OF WANDS is as notoriously femdom as can be. The very fiery and raw and fun version. So, with a degree of lightheartedness, but still being very fit — even buff — and hands-on with the sub. If you get the QUEEN OF SWORDS, that’s the more cool and calculated domme who signs you up for torture and humiliation, and she really looks like a domme. She’s all over the internet because she has the grit. Now wands combined with a tarot queen... it’s more about the stamina and she is approachable. Hobi does not like watching cruel girls, he likes challenging ones. Upbeat porn stars who can take a lot but most importantly dole it out assertively like pros are Hobi’s schtick. He’s unapologetic about that. With him it’s like, please not the local newcomers that turned legal a month ago. The queen cards are all about mature women. Mommy kink, hint hint. The kind of mommy who’s gonna whip out the spreader bar or cane (= wands again) and give a playful type of punishment. See how desert-like that imagery is, Hobi wants to sweat big time when he gets off to this. Now since wands also make for a damn good pole to dance on, go figure. This whole card has me wondering if, well alright, he is a Cardi B hard stan 😅 If Hobi blasts Money to get in the mood, I’d not be surprised. Anyway. Back to pole stuff: If you go through his youtube search history, you will find astounding things. I think he watches the more professional and athletic performers in competition though. High production value is key. Finally, an interesting card detail: There’s a sunflower on it. This is definitely his kind of tarot imagery.

jimin

⌈ KING OF COINS  ⇁ This card always looks like a scene from a medieval movie so you might have an erotic film enthusiast here. The more chaste type of genre, pentacles are very grounded and not hypersexualized. The intimacy is slow and more about security and pleasure. It’s graphic and detailed, but gives you a sense of relaxation. With a bit of romance in the plot, that might absolutely be Jimin’s thing. Castles and wine and nobility. Interesting type of erotica. Historical and classy. As expected of a prince, mind you. He might enjoy books of that genre also. And we know Jimin is an avid reader, right up there with Namjoon. Now, even with more risque and contemporary stuff that he googles up, we have similar dynamics going down on screen. With Hobi we had femdom because it’s a queen card, now with Jimin we get the classic male dom type of porn because that’s how the King usually rolls, unless it’s the KING OF CUPS who’s touchy-feely and subby. Meanwhile, the KING OF COINS is your local sugar daddy. Leaning towards being a soft dom, he’s not aggressive. And Jimin surely has a little crush on that concept. Ye know, if all the other members have female cards and Jimin gets the sugar daddy, we might be dealing with mxm action. Because if this card was a porn star, he’d be a really, really rich producer and a bear who’s done this since the frickin’ 90s. He’s treating his subs very gently and lets them sit on their lap, the imagery is sort of like that because the King is balancing a pentacle on his left thigh. Sex and comfort all in one are life for Jimin. A sexy detail I only noticed at a second glance, the King also has a shortened golden staff with him, which has a rounded tip. If that’s not a butt plug… whenever I see props like that in tarot, I interpret it as a sex toy. So, good vibes in here. And a bunch of aphrodisiacs, the KING OF COINS is a foodie. Which you know, might just be a food porn type of reference. Jimin’s taste in sexy things is quite something else.

jungkook

⌈ THE EMPRESS ⇁ If there’s one thing I like, it’s the Tarot giving me the important archetypes during readings of that kind. The Queens, the Kings, the Major arcana (see Yoongi’s and Jin’s segment). You can really draw a lot of hints out of it. Now with the EMPRESS you have a similar case to Hobi’s, just a lot more softcore. Jungkook has a refined and pretty vast taste in erotica, if not the most refined in Bangtan next to Jimin who likes that kind of dignified touch to it as well as we saw. Jungkook knows his stuff when it comes to searching things up, he is a first class netizen in that regard. In terms of genre: The EMPRESS is your highkey feminist and wholesomeness legend, so — you won’t find any super creepy things in some hidden file on his PC, and things by female producers instead. No slut-shaming or name-calling here, everyone gets their pleasure in their own right. Thanks to online sex ed, Jungkook has a map to the clit and he’s not afraid to use it. He’s the type to watch solo videos ad nauseam. He’s fascinated. Masturbation until it gets all messy with the juices flowing, and you bet he wants to see the girls buzzing themselves off lying on their back. Maybe even outdoors in a field. Cum play is a must, cunnilingus is a must, he loves unprotected sex and creampies, he loves breast massages. And yes. Anything that involves sex with pregnant and chubby women. Similar to Taehyung, it’s all about the focus on the girl, he doesn’t bother much with the guy performers. And given Yoongi’s reading on top of that, we have three members in BTS who are all about worshipping the female body right here, breasts over ass, and he likes blondes, too. The EMPRESS card is like… the entire porn industry who does the MILF and BBW genre is financed by Jeon Jungkook’s website subscriptions. Cue GOT7, with Jungkook it’s girls, girls, girls. The thirst is going strong, and he’s unashamed times ten, sex is sex. 

➝ we also have members who don’t really bother with erotica or have a complicated relationship with it.

SPREAD #2

taehyung

⌈  ACE OF WANDS reversed ⇁ He’s not about beating off until the world ends. Taehyung gets bored by porn or heated literature and doesn’t feel very motivated to search it up. He would rather come up with his own ideas to write but doesn’t have the energy. Sex drive: On hold, even if he tries to look something up it doesn’t feel very fulfilling to him. Most of it fails to turn him on, it’s not his kind of taste. He gets frustrated when he masturbates and would rather rest, dream, and doze. The only thing I can see him watch somewhat frequently — hold your horses — is lesbian porn. I’ll explain. The ACE OF WANDS is pretty much your most glaring handjob symbolism card. A hand gripping a stick. Yoongi’s THE WORLD card has very similar imagery, I mean even two wands and a girl, bisexual explosion much. He would be a big fan of the upright ACE OF WANDS card lmao! But the reversal is like, um no silly guys jerking off in here, pls. Keep your cum to yourself. That means: Zero dicks in Taehyung’s zone, girl-on-girl stuff is his very last resort for quality that he is desperate for but cannot find. And not the stuff where the producers just replace the guys with heavy arsenal sex toys, double-ended dildos, fucking machines, endless strap-on action without any clit stimulation on either side and whatnot. Taehyung is like ugh, cherie, why, give me the juicy stuff, give me the basics. What he wants is just pure scissoring, fingering, oral, little gentle bites, a lot of caresses and kisses. And slow, slow sex. Probably the amateur kind. He hates how brutal and exaggerated most things online are. Tae is looking for softness, a lot of lesbian action is what delivers in that regard so he takes all he gets. And it goes further than that, Taehyung knows the finest yuri recommendations, I’m telling you.

seokjin

⌈  THE STAR reverse ⇁ The opposite of Yoongi: not keeping it very naked in here. The upright card shows a nude woman pouring water from two cups. Hence a strong connection to the card of sexuality, TWO OF CUPS. Everything is very gentle and positive in that scenery. But then, the reversed card rather shows us that Jin doesn’t feel too thrilled watching other people film or write or photograph sex. Like in Tae’s case, he becomes bored, it’s all the same to him. Nothing’s ever new to him in porn. He feels negative and guilty rather than refreshed or entertained. He also doesn’t like a lot of kinks that very literally connect to, well, the pouring water. Squirting, cum play, watersports, sex in the pool or showers, lube overuse, creampies, bukkake, fake cum — Jin is rolling his eyes at that, he thinks it’s a circus. He’s surely given it a try, but ended up feeling worse and even more pent-up or dissatisfied. At best, you will find him on unknown websites looking for the most amateur videos there are. Because: THE STAR quite unequivocally hints at porn stars. If you reverse the card, it becomes someone not very well-known. He roots for the underdog. Accordingly, Jin’s reaction to mainstream videos goes this way: ‚Pipe down, you non-artists!’ 😆 Cause maybe, he does do it better aye, without the awkward angles anyway. He doesn’t want the body cult, like, put that airbrush and silicone out of my face bro. Not because he’s against surgery, but the idea behind sexual extremes and the shady high standards. It’s too polished for him to get turned on. And robotic/staged. Likely because he’s had an IRL sexual experience (gasp!) that set a different ideal to him, so the more glossy porn feels off. Home video has all he needs instead. I think it’s especially because you get so see more body hair there. The woman on the THE STAR card is all sleek, so the reversed card is the opposite, Jin wants that unshaved goodness.

namjoon

⌈ EIGHT OF CUPS ⇁ Now you’d think — and I thought, kinda — we’d get the master of erotica right here. And he’s had one hell of a reputation for that. Think of the ever-infamous Yaman TV interview where BTS were super upfront and revealing about their taste and what they watch privately. With especially Namjoon having the lion’s share. But this card says otherwise if his current state is concerned. The EIGHT OF CUPS shows a man wandering off into the night, leaving eight cups behind him. I think what that means is, he’s moved on. Namjoon’s cravings aren’t as strong as they used to be, nor does he have the time. He knows it won’t fix his loneliness or answer the questions of life. He might be on the search for different things to fulfill him, or ignore much of his hormones in favor for his career. Not that he didn’t dabble in it, he sure did, but that chapter is slowly closing and what’s next he doesn’t really know yet. He thinks about family and being a father, so the smaller and more risque pleasures become less significant. Desire, too. Ye olde soul syndrome is kicking in. The card is also centered around introspection, a quest for self, all these higher topics that aren’t the most grounded and don’t leave much space for being horny. Joon is simply to preoccupied and on the move. He sees porn as a distraction from his real self at this point, and he’s not the type to feel satiated after masturbating to something, similar to Jin and Taehyung. Instead, I think he carries that energy elsewhere, hence the wanderer going from A to B onto a mountain. In short, Namjoon naturally grew out of it by becoming more, well: Namjoon. He’s left a lot behind, he’s choosing self-development over temporary fun, and he will ponder a lot on the topic, the hows and whys and whats more often than not. So, he’s passed the baton to Yoongi and Jungkook if you will, and keeps a low profile as of now. 

tarot mlist | ko-fi

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for anon:

[capriccio-con-espressione]

N(oona) C(raving) T(endencies)

This is my 3k words of analysis of NCT members who I think are likely to have a noona kink based on the ask. Enjoy!

Disclaimer:

By this I am not saying that other members not mentioned here don't have any possibility to date an older female/enjoys referring to their dommes as noona, it's just like the tendency/preference isn't that clear or obvious in my opinion. Do not send in rude comments just because you disagree though I will appreciate some feedback.

Warning: Sub!Taeyong, Sub!Jungwoo, Sub!Mark, Sub!Xiaojun, Sub!Jaemin, Domme!Reader, Femdom, Noona kink, Degradation, Whipping, Spanking, Pegging, Public humiliation, Role-play, Oral sex, Sex toys, Dry humping, Dildo riding, Mentions of mental health issues/negative emotions

Taeyong

This boi is insufferably kinky and subby

In Baby Don't Like It he stated he likes it rough

In Whiplash he literally emphasized again how much of a painslut he is

And his ideal type is “Someone who can teach me, lead me, and make up for my flaws.”

To conclude this, Tyongie may be craving for a strong, mature female's guidance when he's lost and insecure, a noona domme who can heal all the anxiety, stress and inner guilt he's been through by her ruthless discipline, plus, the age hierarchy implied in the title will allow him to sink into his headspace even more.

He's such a sucker for this torment that, with one stern look from you, he will automatically strip naked and ready himself in the humiliating positions assigned by you before without any spoken command, and obediently waits for the first slap/whip while trembling in both anticipation and thrill

I can totally picture him begging his noona for more punishment, though already red, sore and sobbing

"...Ahhh noona I'm sorry... *sniffles* please punish me more for being a bad, ill-mannered boy...don't stop mmmff-"

However, that being said, if that noona domme is actually younger than him, he may be down for the added humiliation due to the role reversal

Imagine that younger domme dismissively orders him to call her "noona" in public, and commands him to use honorifics to speak to her, the exact type and wording that make him sound humbled…

He will be turned on by that while people around you shoot puzzled gazes toward you as they wonder why the hierarchy dynamics aren’t in the right place, making Taeyong feel embarrassed as well as aroused

By the way, some role-plays can be added to spice up your sex lives as well, e.g. CEO x employee, professor x student, guard x prisoner, to name a few, as long as you are in power and makes sure to beat the naughtiness and disobedience out of him

Though being intensely kinky during the session, aftercare for this precious boy has to be really fulfilling as well

So you have to be able to play an attentive caring role just like a noona (a little bit maternal figure as well, I have to admit)

Make sure the process is all intimate and brimming with praises, reassuring the broken figure that the "bad boy" is "forgiven" to thoroughly sew up his wounds

Bubble bath, scented candles with calming aroma, sensual massage with essential oils of his favorite scent and texture, or having some good quality snacks while cuddling, are all good options for aftercare because all of them can reinforce the idea that he’s “worthy” of anyone’s love and attention due to the physical contact and interactions allowed in them 

So steamy and sensual that if done correctly, Taeyong may be in the mood for another round of vanilla sex to get an extra gratifying orgasm again

Jungwoo

A clingy little pup that will follow you around and will cutely pout when not given enough attention or skinship

Loves to be babied and taken care of, so he would love the accompany of a sweet caring noona to make him feel at ease (borderline mommy kink as well)

Remember that Valentine's Day Facetime vid where he just referred to the viewer insert as "noona"? That probably implied his preference for an older female figure

Will do anything to please you since he's very love-starved and doesn't want you to feel uncared for because he knows too well how much that sucks, he will shower you with the same amount of affection he expects from you as well

Anxious and always worries about if he's still "needed", so that's why he will opt for a perspicacious noona to counsel him for his delicate soul to rely on, and shower him with the adequate amount of love then pamper him 

Melts at cute pet names such as pup, angel, prince, little fairy, snoopy or any endearing terms because they make intimacy upgrade to another level

May act a bit playful or even borderline bratty from time to time, mainly to spice things up and get some sexy punishment to release his excess nervousness

But hardcore stuff definitely isn't for him, since the soft boy can't tolerate much pain. 

Light impact play on his erogenous zones is fine, but he enjoys the feelings of vulnerability and exposure more rather than the pain itself

The type to let out loud moans even when just getting his underwear peeled down because the instant when the air hits his flesh is a huge turn-on for him, so much to the extent he is yearning to beg you to fuck him just from getting naked

Very sensitive, literally gasps, squirms and grinds every time when you caress or slap his sweet zones and will beg you to stop though you know he's enjoying it too much

Will repeat your title like a mantra as if it's the only thing that can keep him sane

Be wailing like "Hnnngh noona pretty pleeaase stop spanking me ahhh noona no I'll be a good boy pleaseee it stings noona I'm sorryyy hahhh" but the way how his hips rock against your lap will betray his words, giving you more reason to torture him

Loves being pegged and used, or getting his all possible sensitive spots stimulated and stuffed at once because he just lusts after every inch of his body being thoroughly pleasured inside-out, and drown in the depths of overstimulation and hedonistic ecstasy to feel completely loved and secured

Edging is really suitable for this delicate boy because of the enhanced experience after prolonged denial, which makes the orgasm more earth-shattering than ever

Though he will be a teary puddle and begs you to end the ordeal, the uncertainty and feebleness associated with edging will turn his mind into a soaring frenzy state even more, enabling him to release all his pent-up frustrations and negativity while finally allowed to empty his balls

Likely to get emotional and will hold on to you very tight during post-climax aftercare due to the intense sensation that just washed through his mind and body, feeling extra fragile and really needs to be thoroughly cared for

Petting his head, kissing his tears away with "I love you"s constantly coming out of your lips is a must, as he drifts to sleep like a fallen angel nestled in his safe space, which is the warm spot between your chest and your arms

Mark

An easily flustered mess when it comes to straightforward proactive girls 

Having left his family and devoted himself to the industry at such a tender age, he may want to be the more passive, dependent one in a relationship to make up for his lost adolescence

So he's probably looking for someone who he can rely on and takes the initiative in bed, while all he has to do is to close his eyes and enjoy himself

When he finds you, to whom he trusts enough to pour his doubts and perplexion about life, and is always guaranteed to receive some really thoughtful response, he sees you as someone very valuable.

But more than that, you are a woman who seems to have endless fuel of passion, the exact type with whom Mark can replenish his strength when he got engulfed by the abyss of stress

Also, you are notably witty with words that sometimes aids his lyric writing process, but that means he can never win against you in any friendly bickers as well, especially when you cite some of his lyrics to roast him that renders him speechless.

Yet somehow, he gets hooked to the feeling of being a powerless flustered bundle in front of you

Gradually it develops into dirty imagination of you manipulating him into a mindless mess

And you are exactly the burning blaze that will scorch his body with vehement desires, make him so depraved yet still internally demand more

Never did he realize that being obedient for a noona figure will feel this good until he met you, his ideal match

You will guide him how to touch himself properly like a big sis, then demonstrate it yourself followed by some edging, as he whimpers at the sense of loss every time his build-up is ruined, pleading you with those big puppy eyes

And when you get to peg him, he will love the feeling that he's completely owned by you, getting his ass spanked while fucked also serves as a good reminder of who he belongs to

Doesn't talk much during sex to indulge fully. Expect some incoherent moans and weak chants of your title from him instead

But the boy also knows how to reciprocate when he's ordered to. He knows how to work that rapper tongue too well even if his brain is not fully functioning

His tongue can do wonders to your folds and is guaranteed to perform great with your strap in his mouth, looking up at you with those pretty doe eyes all the time to see if you like how he's doing

Will probably require some time and space for himself to just chill and cool down during aftercare instead of being very clingy, all you need to do is to make sure he’s comfy, or place a glass of drink he likes beside him while he’s organizing his thoughts or doing anything that fits his mood. 

No extra words or skinship is needed at this moment because based on your understanding and observations of him, he’ll be fully recharged when you decide he is most of the time

Xiaojun

A sensitive, sentimental bub that ponders a lot about lots of things

Passionate about music, and perhaps some classic literature or philosophy

So he may want his partner to share the same interests so he can love the way she wanna talk even more

Likely to crumble for a woman who’s sophisticated, cultured and speaks in a refined manner, and is often willing to discuss some profound matters with him, to the extent sometimes Xiaojun cannot keep up easily and may feel a bit flustered, but is secretly admiring her wits deep down while she’s patiently explaining some new art concepts or ideas to him

Hence, when he finds you, who is capable of playing that role and opening up new worlds to him, he is not only delighted but also excited and intrigued, anticipating every chance to talk to you more but when he finally seizes the opportunity, he will appear to smile shyly, avoiding your gaze all the time but whenever he slightly peeks at you, his eyes will be glittering with dreamy haze of enchantment

Because to him, knowledgeable women seem to have boundless potential that makes them distinctively mysterious as well as alluring, and he’s all about succumbing to that vast endearing wilderness, with you being the compass controlling his every move (lowkey sapiosexual I guess)

The fact that you are the embodiment of versatility, artistic grace, and mellow charisma, yet all cordial to him just like a jiě jie (noona in Mandarin) next door will flutter his heart as he falls for you even more

So once you finally end up in bed, he will be very enthralled and eager to please, and will literally subserviently worship every inch of your body as if you are a Goddess while complimenting you all the time

Yet not long after he will be amazed by another fact about you, that is, you are the definition of the saying “Sweet in the streets, freak in the sheets”

Xiaojun will soon find himself restrained while bent in compromising positions, with toys he never imagined a sweet person like you will ever own torturing his body and lust-crazed soul, as you whisper nasty degrading things to him, skewing and corrupting some classic literary works during the process, which makes him intoxicated in another sinfully imaginative aspect of your mind

Since he’s a sucker for anything about you, neglect play is a perfect way to torment him. 

Chain him up and place a toy on him, which can be either a vibrator or a prostate massager, before leaving him untouched, and watch him writhe and moan helplessly in unsatisfied heat, with his distinctive brows furrowed, eyes glossy with plead and need, a beautiful image perfect to be ruined

Open to lots of kinks since you are able to make them gratifying and mind-blowing every time as he becomes closer to your ideal notion of subby boy toy with every progress

Will still remain a blushy mess when ordered to beg or admit something humiliating even after getting fucked multiple times, though he likes it so much 

Something simple and lewd like “jiě jie please come in and fuck my slutty hole” “My pathetic dick only exists to be ravished by jiě jie” works well for him as he finally climaxes

This precious pretty boy is not all passive when receiving aftercare. Instead, he will sensually plant kisses all over your body while telling you how good you made him feel and how deeply he loves you

Melts and buries his face into the crook of your neck or sheets later on when you say the same back to him and praise him for taking you so well

Few moments of silent bliss will pass between you before you guide him back to reality again 

Jaemin

Another little painslut that wishes to be tamed and roughed up

His tolerance of pain may not be as high as Taeyong, but he likes the humiliation as much as the older does

Being an idol is stressful and suppressing, so he desperately needs to find some release through some pleasurable pain for the endorphin rush

Preferably receiving it from a noona-like figure who definitely knows what she’s doing, and again the hierarchy from her title will enable him to feel floaty and more deserving of the punishment

He’s the type to be horny really often and does barely anything to hide it, qualifying him as a very communicative, responsive and expressive sub

So he acts up all flirty and bratty in front of females who he deems as potential targets, to evaluate who’s probably sadistic enough to cater to his needs judging from their reactions, and of course, your dismissive attitude and sharp chastisement on his behavior intrigue him

Then he will make a further approach to gain your attention, from unsolicited winks and aegyo to cheesy pick-up lines, even going as far as some skinship that you are smart enough to know how intentional it is, all screaming brat demeanor that gets you irritated and riled up

Once he finally successfully gets you to bare his bottom and bend him over your lap, he’s a mesmerized moaning mess while enjoying basking in your tauntingly degrading words, admitting he’s noona’s dimwitted slut even before you ask him that

But of course, a sound spanking is still not enough to quench his submissive needs, he will literally shamelessly beg for more

In a provocative way

He will blatantly seduce you, from inappropriately touching you to straight-up humping you until you lose it to punish him for being obnoxiously needy, tying him up and dishing out toys or other implements that can deliver even more intense pain

At first, he will feign reluctance by pouting or complaining how much it hurts even though it’s still far from what he is able to take, in order to infuriate you and provoke more out of what you can give him

Being insatiable as he is, after some pain inflicted on him, he will reveal his true masochistic self and directly asks you to punish him harder just like Taeyong will do, but Jaemin’s self-degradation will be much more hardcore and a bit creative

“Noona please do it harder! Ahh- I’ve been badder than that! Make your naughty indecent-minded whore cum just by paddling me because I’m that pathetic mmmff-”

When you are dicking him down, he will beg you to destroy his hole and be really graphic about it, making his intentions of wanting you to abuse him like a fucktoy utterly clear to drive you wilder, with that iconic blissful smile plastered on his pretty features

He will be obsessed with your powerful strength while ramming into him so much that he will masturbate by riding a dildo while moaning loud enough for you to take notice and break into the room

After you are pissed that he’s playing with himself without your permission, he will be all like “But I missed noona’s big mighty cock so much that I can’t wait hnnnghh noona please come punish my horny hole and make it so swollen and sore that it won’t whore up ever again pleeaaseeeee”

You will definitely be so sexually active and satisfied with him as your sub because of his neediness and salacious talk to ignite your dominant desires

Even though he enjoys getting fucked all over to earn some revival to his work-drained soul, and appears to recover really quickly after orgasms, even capable of engaging in some playful conversations with you, it’s still likely for him to feel hollow and internally worn out due to the drastic neurochemical change but he won’t make it obvious

So you will need to be really observant and keep reassuring him for his well-being because all the excessive stress he’s been struggling through that makes him this submissive is stemmed from his desperate needs for praise and recognition

That’s also one of the reasons why I think he will be into a noona domme because approval from superiors is relatively more rewarding

But with proper aftercare, he’ll stay hooked to you and continue to pleasure both himself and you with matching kinky desires

[notthatiwilleverwriteit]

Do you have any Intimate moments that you wish would happen/could happen if given a chance between mo and he tian. And you think he tian and mo will ever be intimate because I kinda have a vibe that he tian would be scared to pull anything more then a kiss on the cheek

Hello, dear anon!

Geesh, I sure kept you waiting! Sorry about that, dear anon. Thank you for your patience.

Regarding that last question about Tianshan ever being intimate in the future, I have answered a similar ask:

Do I think Tianshan will ever sleep together?

A lot of the intimate moments I wish would happen I know won’t most probably happen in the comic. The censorship laws snuff those wishes out pretty effectively. Also, many of the things I imagine in my head are tinted - if not fully colored - with my own personal tastes when it comes to being intimate. In my head, the dynamic of Tianshan fits those tastes. Teasing, possessive, powerplay, balancing the pleasure and a bit of pain from being a bit rough...Cough, cough.

I’m going to try to focus on canon things, but I hope you’ll excuse me if these get away from me a little.

“Do you have any  Intimate moments that you wish would happen/could happen if given a chance between mo and he tian”

If we are talking about purely sexual things, I very much hope we will get a do-over of this (ch. 175):

I have never really been fond of that kiss - for obvious reasons, I hope - but I do think it was a good point of development in their relationship. I am not against it being a part of their story. But I hope we will one day get a consensual Tianshan kiss in the comic. If it happens, I’m expecting MGS to be his usual tsundere self about it and get angrily flustered. I’m also expecting HT to be pushy and take the lead. But I need the kiss itself to be something else than HT shoving his tongue in out of the blue. I want them both to be on the same page about what it means.

Regarding things that are more about intimacy and less about sexual stuff, I hope MGS and HT will get more and more used to having the other one physically close when they’re feeling vulnerable (ch. 291, 318, 319):

I think Tianshan has made remarkable progress when it comes to physical closeness. MGS has lowered his guard and allowed HT to comfort him and himself to rely on that comfort. HT, on the other hand, has always been very physical but it has been rather one-sided. He has learned to let MGS get close to him when he’s vulnerable, too, and not just the other way around. He has also shown glimpses of those softer, needier sides of himself.

I wish this development will hold and keep going forward. For example, I would love to see them sleeping in the same bed “consensually”. Nothing sexual would need to happen. I would just love to see them being physically close like that. And maybe HT would try to cuddle and MGS would angrily swat him away but lets him reluctantly stay when HT just wants to be close. Just to be there. I personally tend to imagine Tianshan as a spooning couple. It allows them to be close but not force them to face each other. MGS could pretend he’s just sleeping and what HT does is his business while secretly enjoying the warmth and secure hold. And HT could draw as much physical contact as he is starving for and be possessive about it.

In general, I think physical contact that stresses intimacy is potentially one way to keep Tianshan developing towards the romantic direction while still keeping clear with the censorship laws.

The rest of these are some smaller details that I have personally enjoyed and wish will continue to happen.

HT and MGS’s hips:

I will always live for HT’s neck kink, but him touching MGS’s hips is a very close second in my books. There’s something sexy, possessive, and intimate about that. Strong arms wrapping around MGS’s waist and palms cupping that titillating arch of the hipbone. It’s also a soft and affectionate gesture with just enough pushiness to fit HT’s character.

HT pins MGS down:

I know I just said I want their next kiss to be consensual, but listen, I still want HT to remain his pushy self. This is the kind of powerplay, push-and-pull dynamics that I imagine in my head when it comes to Tianshan spicing things up. HT isn’t springing things on MGS before he’s ready for them but he does push and nudge things forward and is his dominant self. In my head, whatever sexual things they do as older are consensual, but HT won’t stop at every turn to ask for permission. He can be affectionate and soft with MGS but they won’t always use kid-gloves with each other when it comes to spicy things.

That panel probably divided people but I found it kind of hot.

Eye contact that could cook food:

I know everyone was swooning over their crotches being pressed together, but how about them looking at each other like that?!

HT: “What?”

MGS: “You know what! Move!”

HT: “Nah, don’t feel like it.”

I love these kinds of “I fucking dare you” staring contests in my OTPs.

“you think he tian and mo will ever be intimate because I kinda have a vibe that he tian would be scared to pull anything more then a kiss on the cheek”

As I said, I already answered this kind of question, so I won’t go into the “will they” part deeper than this. I think they will. Based on the fact that Tianshan is the endgame relationship and I don’t expect them to be celibate the best years of their lives. I have never seen sex between Tianshan as something impossible. They have made a lot of progress in the comic, so I can’t see why they couldn’t get to the sexual intimacy too at some point. It’s an entirely different matter, though, will we ever get to see it because of the censorship. But I don’t have difficulties imagining it.

I find your notion about HT interesting. It was left a bit unclear to me why you think HT would be scared, but I’m assuming because you don’t think he would want to push MGS’s limits? Like he did with their first kiss?

I do agree that despite the seeming power imbalance of their relationship, MGS actually has more control than might first meet the eye. HT might be pushy and physically dominant but needs to tread a careful balance. He wants MGS to trust him, and that can be destroyed if he crosses limits that MGS isn’t ready or willing to cross. Also, HT isn’t looking to bend MGS to his will or force him. In fact, he’s trying to very hard to not become like that. So, MGS might be the type who needs coaxing, but HT can’t bulldoze as he wishes.

All that being said, I don’t think HT has lost his confidence. I’m not saying he couldn’t be hesitant (that would actually be very interesting) but if he’s holding back, to me it comes more across as him not wanting to mess up again. Overall, I think HT’s goals are quite firmly locked, it’s just the matter of carefully carrying them through.

But I think it’s also important to take into account that we don’t know how experienced HT is when it comes to going further than kissing. Regarding that, there is one panel especially that always makes me think of that (ch. 276):

HT “pressing randomly” always makes me think that maybe he actually isn’t that skilled with what comes after kissing. He’s all smooth and suave but when he has MGS’s naked backside in front him, he kind of...swings it. And goes for the “attack”. Because the boys are rather young, I believe MGS will be HT’s first in many ways. And he perhaps wants to act more confident and skilled than he actually is. (Now I’m picturing him doing “research” about sex between guys because he wants to blow MGS’s mind. Similar to how he wanted to learn the guitar.)

Overall, I find this side of HT very interesting. I wish we could see more insecure HT.

Thank you for your question, dear anon!

[onereallygoodlambonastick]

1, 2, 7, 8, 9 and 10 please

finally some good fucking food, thanks anon;

1. What themes would you like to write about that you feel don’t get explored very often?

Generally speaking, I think the in-betweens, the casual time-skips, and the quick intermissions are the things that get glossed over the most. The “missing scenes”, if you will--the hours after a squabble between a team, the morning before the battle, the months where a child sat idle, the dreams that turned into prophecy. 

I also think the theme of re-connection is not often explored--its always “love on first sight” kind of deal, but what about the enduring kind of love, the kind that stays like an ache in your bones? the one you remember and miss? the one you long for like a phantom limb?

2. What are some common elements of stories you are tired of seeing? What would you avoid writing about? 

This varies wildly between fandoms, but probably the thing they all have in common is: mindless smut. Just straight up down and dirty fucking, with no motive or prompting or characterization. Just the author smashing two guys (usually) at the hips and being done with it. 

That’s fine; we all love to see it. It’s just so dull sometimes. 

I need some intricacy, some intimacy, some ache, some angst, some destructive lines and some ruthless gut-punches, you know? Not a guy coming for the fifth time. 

For the AFTG fandom: I’m tired of seeing people being fine with the way Sakavic treated her characters and coddling Neil & Andrew in the face of it. I don’t hate Andreil, I feel like I should say, but so much of it relies on one or the other sticking people with their knives or fists and that’s such a toxic love, a misconception of what a “good” relationship should be. Now, there are some brilliant fics I’ve read that are just gorgeous with the concept of Andreil--that was what I wished Sakavic had the ability to achieve in her series, while giving dignity to Kevin Day and the rest of the characters that were there and LIVED despite the romance. 

So, obviously, I would avoid doing any of the above I just mentioned, and pray that you will too. Just let these ppl breathe, alright?

For the AoT fandom (yeah i dabbled cuz the manga is just. depressing man): same issue---too much fucking, not enough talking and emoting. Why are there so many goddamned high school AUs? My god. I need a fic that gets down and dirty with the shit going down in the manga and take me through it so I can stand to continue. What about the grief and mourning and the betrayal of it all? Can I get me some of that? Lord, don’t go near the Levi/Eren tag. Y’all just don’t even knock it. Go to Levi/Erwin or something. Or just don’t. Don’t.

For the BNHA fandom (lol. a staple): actually, there’s quite a bit of diversity here so I geniunely can’t complain about much. The sheer magnitude of the English-speaking fandom helps on that end, I suppose. I do think there should be more fics looking at the Shit n Grit of Hero’s society tho, Stain-style. The people the heroes couldn’t save or didn’t want to, the forgotten bodies and the cooling hands, the victims that never got closure, the heroes who got maimed and multilated and couldn’t get back on their feet once the limelight left em. Those sorts of things. I think the fact we see thru the rosy-eyed worldviews of a bunch of green-eared kids deludes people to the fact that People Are Fucking Bad and Disgusting almost all the time. So exploring that, I think, is far more worthwhile. 

But I will also take injury aftermath. I’m not a monster.

For the KNY fandom: EYYY we talk about grief and suffering a lot which if you haven’t noticed, is kind of my Jam! Actually, this fandom prob hits a lot of my sweet spots: role reversals, grief/mourning aftermath, SabiGiyuu, Sabito Lives, the usual! Can’t really say much abt this. Except, there’s a lot of Demon Sex and Rape and, uh. Guys? Can we go back for a hot sec?

For the Code Geass fandom (*rubs hands in glee*): SO this is the fandom I’m most active in aside from AFTG at this precise moment. It’s pretty dead, tbh. My favorite two fics in the AO3 archive was published in 2014 and the author hasn’t written for my fav pairing (Suzaku/Lelouch) since. So. There’s that. There’s also a lot of fucking here! And gross cishet dynamics, but, uh, whatever. I think the Emperor Lelouch/Knight of Zero Suzaku has been overused and abused for rough sex and just general Angst-ing it out. I wanna see how their dynamic plays out like that for sure, but what about when they still had secrets between them a mile wide and had to tell each other half-lies and half-truths? How about them coping with the fact of their betrayals and the death of their loved ones at the hands of each other? Where’s the hardcore shit? 

Think this fandom doesn’t want to dig their fingers in too deep. Shame. 

Another thing: CC is not an immortal seductress. My god give her pizza and some fucking DEPTH. She’s a walking encyclopedia, not some mysterious slut machine! Get your stereotypes and fetishes outta here!

Final thing: TALK ABOUT THE SHIT SUZAKU HAS BEEN THROUGH! He’s not just Lelouch’s boytoy or knight! Stop that! Examine his abuse, his time with the military, his span as a pawn! Look at his motivations and his internalized disgust for himself as a Japanese that was ingrained in him by an oppressive fucking system! Why does he bow? Why is he silent? Speak for him!

7. Favorite description in your wip? (If asked more than once, respond with a new piece each time)

Suzaku watched him watch the discoloring, and Suzaku watched the stillness change into the bare bones of animosity. It was almost kind, the way Lelouch turned his face away and shifted his grip to snatch up the antiseptic.

Neither of them spoke as sharp hands dabbed at the slightly split skin and wet bruising. It stung, but only a little. Long minutes passed like this, Lelouch exchanging swabs for cloths, Suzaku sitting still and watching him work.

Neither of them mentioned the scatter of old deadened skin, puckered across Suzaku’s build like a migration of mutilated fish.

8. Favorite dialogue in your wip? (If asked more than once, respond with a new piece each time)

"You know I can't be seen with you two."

"And I just warned you to not be a coward." Lelouch's eyes gleamed. Again, the challenge was there, and like a fool only Lellouch could make of him, Suzaku took it, open-mouthed and open-palmed.

"Fine," Suzaku said, not knowing what he'd promised himself to: a dinner or a duel. Even though the last time Lelouch picked up a sword it was wooden and he was tiny and cute and clumsy. But Lelouch didn’t need blades to cut. "I'll be there. Does Nunnally still enjoy a good scone?"

"Bring the blueberry ones," Lelouch said, extending the comment like a plank between them, and leapt off the wall, into the white sun. "One for the bastardly son and one for the disowned daughter."

Suzaku followed him out into the blaze of heat, feeling the crude perch of his laughter at the base of his throat. He was so fucking dramatic. "Which one of us do you mean?"

9. What scene was the hardest to write for you and why?

From the same wip fic from above--I’m stuck on the “light” kind-of crackish scene where Suzaku is literally just exasperated with Rivalz and his porn mags. Like I just can’t write it. It’s too.....friendly. And “nice”.

10. What scene was the most fun to write for you and why?

Out of the same fic as above: probably the scene from #8. It was fun to see how coy and rough-mouthed Suzaku could get once he’s together with Lelouch. Just to see them fool around with each other whilst keeping secrets but also somehow be honest was very satisfying and interesting to write out. They are just boys, there. Just boys. In love.

[dreadnought-dear-captain]

Happy (Slightly Belated) Birthday, Baghdad Waltz!

*CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR BAGHDAD WALTZ UP TO CHAPTER 37*

I know these are stressful times right now, but I wanted to post a little something for BW’s third birthday on 3/13/2020 (and I’m a little late because I had a lot to say). THREE!! I cannot believe it. Truly, I cannot, but here we are. I know there are still a few stragglers hanging around from when I first started posting this story (extra hearts to you all), so many people who have come and gone and sometimes return again, and so many new people joining this crazy journey all the time. 

You are all so great, and you make it possible for me to keep writing this. I probably would have quit a long time ago without your support, because this shit has been quite hard to sustain sometimes. I know I am very bad at keeping up with comments and things, and I’m so sorry.  I am terrible with social media, too. People IRL will say the same thing about me. I am super old school and still talk on the phone with my friends. I KNOW. 

(Heyyyy Bayside High)

I’ve prepared a couple of things for BW’s birthday. First, a few statistics I thought I’d whip up. Then a few questions and answers about BW, both from myself and from my beloved beta, @pitchforkcentral86​. And I’m still trucking away diligently at chapter 38! I just have a few scenes to go. 

 -- BW Statistics -- 

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Words to date: 526,011

Chapters to date: 37

Shortest chapter: 3,821 words (Prologue)

Longest chapter: 31,395 words (Chapter 33)

Number of words per chapter: 12,530 (median), 14,257 (average) (note: the median is probably a better measure, since this is such an abnormal distribution - see below for the changes in chapter length over time)

Estimated total work to date: 2,890-3,120 hours (approx 18-20 hours/week). This includes writing, rewriting, editing, research, conversations with beta, outlining, and a small portion of the brainstorming. This is a conservative estimate and only includes a fraction of the ambient thinking I do about this story. And God, I do so much processing when I sleep! Perhaps I will be a BW “expert” -- estimated at around 10,000 hours I guess? -- by the time I am done with the story and all my revisions hahahahaaaaaa D: 

Money spent to date (estimated): $600-700. This includes books on various subject matter and writing craft, video access to therapy education resources, and other educational materials. This does not include the incalculable sum in lost productivity from thinking about BW when I’m supposed to be doing other things!

Most of you probably don’t know this, but @pitchforkcentral86​ is not just a beta reader. She is my partner in crime with BW. She knows my characters as well as I do, sometimes better. She helps me troubleshoot scenes, she tells me when my writing sucks, when my I’m not being true to my characters, when I’m not being real enough (sometimes when I’m being TOO real). She gives me porn inspiration and listens to me bitch and calls my bullshit and makes this story what it is. I really mean it - this story would not be nearly as good without her, and you can see how much better it gets once she starts to get involved around chapter 17. 

So I decided I would answer some silly little questions about BW. Just my own personal opinions about stuff! And asked @pitchforkcentral86​ to contribute as well. See below. 

What are my favorite scenes in BW and why? 

In no particular order: 

The 9/11 memory (Chapter 26): When Steve is in therapy with Hope remembering when Bucky returns from Ground Zero. This was one of the first times I experimented with writing in a sort of stream-of-consciousness way (though certainly not the last!). I have done several tweaks to it since the original version, texturing it more. It’s so rich in detail, visceral detail, little details about their relationship, pieces of Bucky’s past, clues about his alcoholism, the way he handles stress, his difficulties letting Steve in, the love Steve has for him, Bucky’s need to be loved and cared for and his aversion for it, it’s so, so rich. Gah. I love it. (GUH and @buckydunpun​’s ART - just murder me. Thanks.)

The Thor “breakup” scene (Chapter 28): This is the moment I think that many people realized Bucky is not a reliable narrator. Maybe they suspected it before, but this is when it’s very obviously apparent. His entire interpretation of his relationship with Thor is thrown into question. He built a rich fantasy about what they were, holding hands in the grass, all this bullshit, and he could actually say they were boyfriends, which makes complete sense because there were never any stakes. It was always surface. There was never any intimacy except as veteran/soldier friends who had sex, which is about as deep as Bucky can go anyway without getting utterly terrified. 

This is in such stark contrast to Steve, where there is actual intimacy, ongoing demand for more intimacy, and this relationship feels VERY real to Bucky, and it’s very frightening to him. And that’s why he runs from the term “boyfriend” with Steve. It’s all so real. It’s easy to engage with a fake boyfriend. But still, he didn’t deliberately realize he was doing this, so it was devastating to find out the truth of his own self-deception. And to hear that he’s not the kind of guy you settle with, he’s the guy you fuck… wow. But how can you really hate Thor? (I’m sure some of you can but…) He’s a nice guy. Even Bucky knows it. So he’s run from something good and real (Steve) to something good but false (Thor) and then he gets rejected from both. It’s horrible and so self-defeating and so quintessentially Bucky. I love it. 

A Close Second (Spent Brass fic): This whole side fic came together like a glorious dream. I love everything about it. It’s such a wonderful look into their relationship, into their dynamics, into their individual personalities, their idiosyncrasies, so much push-pull between them. Whispers of things that have happened to Bucky in the past, a lack of understanding from Steve, a desire to know, so much affection. Some good sex. I love this SB. But I love all the Spent Brass fics. They are so close to my heart. 

Honorable mention: Bucky’s masturbation scene during his bender (Chapter 32). I had an absolute BLAST writing this. Thanks to @pitchforkcentral86​ for proposing that Bucky’s core sexual/romantic desire is just to be kissed. Dayum. It all unfolded from there. 

Who is the character I think about the most? Bucky. I think because he’s got the most complex history and the most complicated psychology. He’s actually fairly rule-bound in terms of how he operates, but he’s got a lot of back story that explains how he became the way he is, and I spend a lot of time considering what happened to him and how he developed his self-image, his coping strategies, and his ideas about others and the world. I think a lot about his relationship with his parents. I think a LOT about bby Jamie. It’s not because Steve is not important or any less complex. But Bucky’s childhood experiences have shaped him in very specific ways, and I want to make sure that I represent them very thoughtfully. 

Who is my favorite character to write? Bucky. His voice and thought processes come to me more easily than Steve’s. Perhaps in part because of my personal penchant for the word “fuck.” I love writing his perspective, his preferences, his interpretations of situations. I love imagining the way he imagines the world. 

Who is my favorite supporting character? Winnie. I know she’s a very polarizing character, but I have so much affection for her. I think she’s a badass. She joined the military as a female officer back in the 1970s, which is incredible and rough. She kept her maiden name. This is a Southern conservative woman, an Air Force brat, raised by very conservative Southern people in a very conservative Pentecostal church, but she has always had an irrepressible rebellious, feminist badass streak in her even before she knew what feminism was. She might not even define herself as a feminist now. She has always done the best she can under very difficult circumstances, and she loves her kids, even though she sometimes sucks quite badly at mothering them. I love her for her imperfections. 

Favorite topic to research this year: I’ve been really enjoying researching emotionally focused couples therapy, which was developed by Sue Johnson, EdD. I’ve been watching therapy videos of couples going through this and having a wonderful time imaging Bucky and Steve going through something similar with Claire. I don’t think Claire is the strictest adherent to EFT, but I think she’s informed by it. It’s tough, because I’m very used to cognitive behavioral type therapies, so this one has been different to think about writing. I’ve also been really getting into reading about childhood sexual abuse and its effects on boys and men. It’s greatly helped my conceptualization of Bucky and Bucky and Steve’s relationship. I mean, it’s a grim topic, but there have been some fascinating threads in terms of understanding one’s self perception of sexual orientation, etc. and thinking about how Bucky would consider and contextualize his experiences. 

Am I more of a Steve or a Bucky? Hmm. I don’t strongly relate to either, but I think if I had to choose, I’m a bit more of a Steve. I’m pretty expressive of my affection and positive emotions, and I’ll complain about daily life things enough. However, when it comes to major life events that really bother me, I tend to err on the side of not processing them and turning my feelings into headaches and other physical afflictions. In other words, I’m a suppressor of major emotions and events. It’s FINE. I’m FINE. Nothing to see here. But I am definitely not as tidy as Steve, nor as smart, and definitely not as buff or hot. So that’s where most of our similarities end lol. I do eat a lot of tofu though. 

Who would I want to hang out with for a day? I initially thought Rikki, but like @pitchforkcentral86​, think she’s actually too cool and smart for me, and I would probably just make an ass out of myself. I think probably Elektra. I know, this is a left field answer, but it’s one day! To do whatever with anyone! I want to choose someone who’s going to make it worth my while. So many of the characters are either too busy, too rigid, too anxious, too conventional, etc. I would want to run around NYC with Elektra for the day and have drinks with her and Matt afterwards at some weird-ass underground bar. My more infield answer would probably be Hank. I want him to tell me gay stories about gay things. I want to see his apartment. I want to drink coffee with him. I want him to tell me about what the AIDS crisis was like for him. I want to hear about his relationship with Howard. I want all the shit that Bucky takes for granted every day. He can be my fairy godmother any day. 

Who would I want to be friends with? Probably Sharon. She’s one of the most reliable, loyal, and level-headed people in this world. She’s smart, she’s flexible, she rolls with things pretty well but also doesn’t take a ton of bullshit. She also has a good sense of humor about things. I feel like she’s someone I could call with my Zack Morris phone and talk with for hours about all sorts of things. We could also split a bottle of wine and talk some real shit. 

Wait - Why not Bucky or Steve? I don’t think these two are entirely likable, to be honest. They’re good humans, they mean well, but I don’t think they’re very well equipped in the friendship department.  I care about them very deeply (I hope that’s clear), but I don’t know if I’d want to be particularly close to either of them at this point in their lives. They’re both lacking in the skill and perspective to be good friends and partners, which is a major reason why they are in therapy. 

Who would I want to be my therapist - Hope, Bruce, Scott, or Claire? Claire. Given how much I suck at talking about the things that are really deeply bothering me, I think I would need an emotionally focused therapist who is going to dig in there and really get me to focus on all the emotions I’m trying to shove away. I would probably try to over-intellectualize everything and deflect, and I don’t think she’d let me get away with that. 

Okay, on to @pitchforkcentral86​~~~~~

What are my favorite scenes in BW and why? 

Oh boy. Well, this is a difficult question to answer since it feels like every chapter becomes a new favorite simply due to sheer amount of time spent planning and composing and revising and whining and complaining. And also my memory sucks. BUT, with that said, I think I would like to mention three scenes specifically:

1)      Bucky on deployment, cleaning a Humvee (Chapter 7), Steve standing nearby. This scene conveyed the tension of deployment and between Steve and Bucky so well, and, perhaps more importantly, built my respect towards Bucky as a competent, caring NCO (to that effect, the small scene in which we see Bucky the NCO on film telling all the little grunts to eat so they can become big and strong is another favorite).

2)      Beautiful Boy (Spent Brass), Steve’s memory from childhood with Sarah at the park, naming animals. I really don’t have a good reason other than that scene was so clear to me in my mind and was especially tender.

3)      Steve sleeping with Sharon in DC (Chapter 33). Honestly, it was just a great scene, and we had a really good time planning it out.

I can include many more, and certainly the ones Dread mentioned are favorites too, but I have to stop or this will just be a squeee fest.

Who is my favorite supporting character?

 Hank. His particular brand of honesty is extremely appealing to me, and I think Bucky secretly, or not so secretly, loves him too. And also Quill, just for shits and giggles because he is reliably there as an ice breaker, that lovable Mountain-Dew-drinking goof.  

Favorite topic to research this year: 

Well, I don’t do the research myself, but I spend many, many m-a-n-y hours listening to and conversing with Dread about all the things he’s delved into for this fic. So I guess maybe I’ll turn this question into favorite topic to discuss/conceptualize. In that respect, Bucky’s and Jack’s relationship has been by far the most intriguing, grueling, fascinating and difficult aspect of this fic to conceptualize – those were some of the best talks in the process. [Dreadnought edit: You will see much more of this in future chapters, folks!] And for a fun answer, planning out sex scenes is hilarious.

Am I more of a Steve or Bucky?

Bucky, no doubt. Sometimes it feels like Dread has climbed into my brain, found a horrible nugget of truth about me, and then put it into words coming out of Bucky’s mouth. Those moments are both wonderful and terrible in equal measure.

Who would I want to hang out with for a day?

For a whole day? Can it maybe be a coffee or, like, a quick lunch? I honestly don’t know… Neither Steve nor Bucky will be very good company, I think. Not in their current versions, anyways. Rikki is hella cool but she intimidates me, so, not her. Um.. Huh. Nope, don’t have an answer.

Who would I want to be friends with?

Probably Hank, again. He has a really good attitude. I’m starting to feel like not picking Steve/Bucky is selfish because it’s like “oh, they have too many issues and it won’t be fun”. But it’s also true! Friendship is reciprocal, and I really don’t think that’s where they’re at. (But I would have totally been dying to be friends with Steve in his bookshop days). 

Who would I want to be my therapist - Hope, Bruce, Scott, or Claire?

Hope or Claire. Both are no-nonsense competent therapists. But I think maybe Hope will be too put-together for me. So, yeah, probably Claire. 

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Okay, everyone. Back to the grind. I’ll update as soon as I can!  Remember to wash your hands with the fastidiousness of BW Steve Rogers. (And also remember to sing the “happy birthday fucking everyone” song, which should actually be sung TWICE or resentfully enough that it lasts 20 seconds.)

[retvenkos]

Hey! I’m resending my 🔥 ask, because it may be deleted. For a guy from Sherlock, the X-Men and MCU please! I’m 28, hetero girl who’s about to get her PhD in a month. Oblivious to flirting, very clueless about intimacy. Proud Slytherin, INTJ-T, Virgo, melancholic. I’m always kind and friendly but does have a temper and a poisonous tongue. Perfectionist. Nerd. Tomboy. I enjoy reading, films and TV series, colouring books, metal music. I hate loud, bossy people, snakes and being told what to do.

woah, early congrats on getting your phd! that’s huge!!!! also, disclaimer that it’s been a while since i’ve seen x-men, so i might be a little rough on the details for that ship.

Sherlock:

I ship you with Sherlock!

alright, so you are the only one who is able to handle sherlock, and that’s truly something. 

there is no doubt in my mind that you and sherlock had a rivals to lovers story line or at the very least a begrudging allies to lovers story line.when you first met sherlock you thought (rightfully) that he was arrogant and bossy and rude - the last person you’d ever want to spend your time with. and throughout the case that you’re working on (maybe your case? idk, but it’s a group effort), you are certain that you will be glad when you never have to see sherlock holmes again......but you spoke too soon. for some god forsaken reason, you keep running into sherlock holmes and john watson. now, john watson you don’t mind so much, but that sherlock holmes.... he infuriates you to no end. and he seems to find joy in annoying you, and that’s the worst of it.but, then again,,,,, the more you see sherlock..... the less you hate him? it doesn’t make much sense, because if anything, he only gets more cocky the longer you spend time together, and usually that irritates you more than anything else, but.... it doesn’t? and maybe it’s your lack of irritation that bothers you when sherlock is around....

meanwhile john is watching all of this go down like the ben affleck smoking meme,,, a veteran of many things, including the “why the hell do i like sherlock holmes?” phenomenon.

but anyways, you and sherlock are actually really good together.

both of you are intjs, which means that you understand each other really well, something that’s probably rare for the both of you. and yet, you also have many qualities that sherlock doesn’t have that would be good for rounding him out. you’re more patient than he is, more apt to show your feelings, and more reliable. you’d be able to balance sherlock’s instability but still meet him at this own level, and that’s good for your relationship.

the two of you definitely knew each other for a long time before you got together, both of you are wary of bringing others into your circle until you know you can trust them, and both of you are romantically clueless, so you’re a little slower to figure things out, which isn’t bad.

you both are also wicked smart, not afraid to say so, and ambitious as hell. the two of you are constantly in forward motion, trying to find the next thing to keep you occupied, and this trait would be bad in other relationships, but both of you are equally as motivated, so there’s no misunderstanding with that.

i also love how both of you can be kind and friendly, but you also have tempers and quite the tongue. you can both destroy your opponents, and no doubt that’s something you find attractive in the other.

X-Men:

I ship you with Erik Lehnsherr!

alright, so the power couple vibes i get from the two of you are astronomical. the both of you are hella determined, ambitious, introspective, and great leaders as you are informed and rational as well as loyal to your beliefs. and for your shyness, erik is incredibly charismatic, so the two of you could persuade armies to your side. iconic.

i also think the two of you would be great because while you are both determined, you are also very versatile, curious, and creative. you would bring an interesting viewpoint to any challenge that you face, and you’d be creative in getting the both of you out of trouble.

i think the two of you can be very domestic in your down time together - i imagine you both reading together, but also! i think you’d do puzzles together - they’re fun, not too difficult, and the perfect, mindless task to do while having deep conversations.

oh! and the two of you together are the most sassy, sarcastic people i’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting, but all of your comments end with a wide grin, so most of the time, you’re not hurting anyone’s feelings. you definitely walk the line sometimes, though.

i also love the idea that erik is flirting with you and you’re just like ??? yeah no, he’s just like that with everyone. it makes the other x-men want to run into a wall. eventually you get better at knowing when erik is flirting, but for a while it’s rough going, and erik is like ??? how are you this oblivious? it’s cute.

MCU:

I ship you with Steve Rogers!

alright, so i’m taking a different approach with this ship, but i think you and steve would go really well together! you’re both kind and patient, with a bit of a sad streak to you as well as a ferocity that is deep seeded into your being and is often shown in small ways like your determinedness and your loyalty.

both of you can be a little shy and a little oblivious, and i think that together, you would have a really cute dynamic. steve is the more emotional side of the relationship while you offer him a really grounded approach to things that he definitely admires and needs in his life.

you are more the brain where steve is more the heart, and together you are able to balance each other out and compliment each other’s strength. i think that with steve, you would really be heard, and that’s important for you. you like to know that you’re helping out in palpable ways, and you like to know your advice is thought about, and steve is nothing if not thoughtful.

also, the two of you have the sweetest quiet moments. you definitely read together - often to you read to steve out loud because he insists that he loves the sound of your voice. 

you also draw and color together! steve knows first hand that it’s a great stress relief to do something artistic and mindless like coloring, so i 100% believe that the two of you get those adult coloring books and work on them together. 

steve also loves your music taste? like, at first, you didn’t think he would, because he is so much that 40s gentleman, but when he actually really enjoys your music, you remember that he’s friends with people like tony stark and natasha romanoff and it all makes sense. he definitely has you branch out and listen to some more slow jams, though. especially when he’s feeling homesick or melancholic, listening to older, calmer music just takes him back.

and while the two of you are definitely a soft couple, i think you’ll be pleasantly surprised by the ferocity that steve can have. he’s a very emotional person, and when he’s angry, he can surprise everyone with how harsh and ruthless he can be. steve contains a great many multitudes, and i think you would be able to appreciate them rather than fear/dislike them.

also! you are so smart, and steve really admires that. he’s pretty smart himself, a creative thinker and used to outsmarting others rather than punching them down, so he recognizes your intelligence and appreciates that you can recognize his. 

[haro-ra]

Glimbow ship file?

1. My take on their canon relationship:

I mean

How could you NOT ship this? The tender looks, the implicit trust, that good sweet friends-to-lovers dynamic that I am the WEAKEST bitch for. I know they’re in a bit of a rough patch right now, but even when they’re fighting, they’re on each other’s minds. Bow was 10,000 miles away being chased by man-eating monsters and his first thought was STILL of Glimmer! Glimmer misses him and wants her best friend back! 

And when they’re not being torn apart by subterfuge and hard situations? They’re BEST FRIENDS! Playful and cheery and sweet. All the noogies and “So what you’re saying is, I was right” banter, all the little details that indicate just how long they’ve known each other and just how deep that knowledge goes. God, SPOP really came for me with these two.

2. Do I ship them:

Y E A H

3. Reasons why I do/don’t ship them;

I went over this in #1 a lot but they’re just!!!!! Gah!!!!! Friends-to-lovers is, like, the trope I am the EASIEST for, they just genuinely LIKE each other. They’re there for each other, they help each other in hard times and goof around when things are good. The trust, the emotional intimacy, the want to be around each other, man. Man it’s just. They ADORE each other and its on their faces every time they look each other’s way. Also I’m always down for a man who thinks the world of his beautiful talented gf and a woman who can’t say no to her bf’s puppy eyes.

4. Headcanon, if any: Back before Glimmer really got a good grip on her powers, the two of them did indeed come in “the back way” all the time. They’d sneak out to go practice archery and sparkle bombs, maybe head into Bright Moon’s capitol city to just be kids for a lil while, wear matching outfits and tell inside jokes and go out for ice cream, you know, dumb kids with overprotective parents stuff. But Glimmer wouldn’t always keep track of her magic, and especially when they first met she wouldn’t have been used to teleporting two people. So. Time to work those muscles >:3

5. How much do I ship (%): 99.9%

[the-coldest-goodbye]

Sansa Stark - NSFW Alphabet Headcanons

Sansa Stark x fem!reader

Requested by Anonymous

A/N: I wanted to write something that acknowledged the trauma Sansa would have after her experiences. Because of that, this is less smutty than other NSFW alphabets I’ve written for other characters. It can be hard to figure out how to write trauma and recovery, so quite a bit of this is based on my own experiences with overcoming trauma. I hope I did an okay job.

TW: Mentions of abuse, rape, trauma, and Sansa’s struggles to overcome them.

Also, if you haven’t yet, make sure you check out my SFW alphabet headcanons for Sansa.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Sansa requires a lot of aftercare to feel safe and secure. Cuddle up with her, get extra snug with some furs, and stroke her hair. Check in with how she’s feeling. It’ll mean a lot to her knowing that you care for her wellbeing. Her sexual experiences with you are nothing less than beautiful and loving, but they can still elicit some bad feelings, thoughts, and memories stemming from her past trauma, especially near the start of your physical relationship. Hold her. Listen to her. Make sure she’s warm. Maybe take a bath with her and brush out her hair. Most importantly, stay with her. Don’t rush off. She needs the security of knowing that you care about her and that you won’t leave her when she’s vulnerable.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

She has a difficult relationship with her body. She’s covered in scars, very real reminders of the abuse she suffered at the hands of Ramsay. Sansa rebuilding her appreciation for her body is a long process, but it starts off with her coming to like her hands. She loves the way her fingers look entwined with yours, the way they gently explore your skin, the way they can make you moan in pleasure.

Her favorite part of you is your neck and shoulders region, especially loving to place kisses there and against your collarbones. When you hold her, she’ll bury her face into the curve of your neck or rest her head on your shoulder, feeling secure and at ease.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Sansa finds nothing more beautiful or erotic than how you work so diligently to make her wet and how you then savor her juices. Her only physical experiences before you were with Ramsay, and he didn’t care whether or not it felt good to Sansa. In fact, he got more sick and twisted pleasure from having her suffer. Seeing the way you spend so long teasing her and stimulating her to make her wet and then seeing how you absolutely adore her juices, licking up every last drop, means the world to her. One of the most erotic moments she ever had was the very first time you brought your fingers up to her mouth after you gently dragged them through her folds, urging her to taste herself. Ramsay took pleasure in her pain. You took pleasure in her pleasure.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

I’ll explore this a little more under “W = Wild card,” but Sansa’s dirty secret (that you obviously come to learn) is that she’s not straight. In a society like Westeros where strict gender roles reign, queerness is taboo, particularly for someone as high-profile as Sansa.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Sansa’s not experienced when it comes to sex because her experiences with Ramsay weren’t sex; they were torture. She’s very slow to pursue a physical relationship with you, and it’s a learning experience for the both of you as you begin to open up to each other, explore your likes and dislikes at a mindful speed, and become more comfortable with each other. It’s a slow process, but it’s important not to push it too far or too fast.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Initially, Sansa would prefer being on top or having the two of you both laying on your sides because it helps her not feel completely powerless. As she becomes more comfortable with your physical relationship and works through some of her trauma, she sometimes allows you to be on top, but it would take a long time to build up that level of trust for her to feel fully comfortable in that kind of position.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Sansa is quite serious, but she can become a bit more playful and giggly once she feels more secure and becomes more confident during sex. It takes a while to get to that point, though, and sex will never be something she takes lightly. She views it as a very real commitment to each other, and so there will always be a fairly serious undertone during intimate moments.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Her hair down there is naturally pretty short and neat, and so it doesn’t require much upkeep to remain tidy, if any. It’s a similar shade to the color on her head, perhaps a little darker.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Sansa is used to being used as someone’s plaything, being treated like a literal object. Therefore, it’s of utmost importance to her that you two have a strong connection during any sexual act. To keep the experience feeling very real and very human, Sansa likes to make eye contact or be face-to-face. She always tries to remain fully present when the two of you are together. It feels like you’re the only two people in the world when you’re together. It’s never spur of the moment, and the build-up of passion that leads up to the sex really emphasizes the undeniable connection between you two when you make love.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Sansa rarely masturbates.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Honestly, Sansa wants and needs things to be pretty vanilla between you two in bed. Most kinks would either make her feel uncomfortable or foolish. 

This is not a kink per se, but Sansa does tend to be a bit more dominant in bed. She’s actually fairly vers, but she tends to take a slightly more dominant role in bed since she would want to be the one to set the pace and to take the lead to feel more empowered and confident in the experience. It’s a big deal when she is able to trust you enough and feel comfortable enough with you to just lay back and let you take the lead with pleasuring her.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Sex is something she would save for the bedroom. It’s the only place she’d find it appropriate.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

It takes a long time to get Sansa going. First and foremost, she needs to feel loved, secure, and empowered before anything goes down. You need to lay the groundwork much earlier and build up to it slowly over the course of the day with knowing glances, sly smiles, gentle touches, and loving words. There needs to be a development of tenderness and intimacy to make her want to bed you. She isn’t DTF at the drop of a hat.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Sansa would refuse to do anything that made either of you uncomfortable or that would hurt either of you. She is particularly turned off by bondage, gags, and pain. She isn’t into anything too rough or fast, and she also wouldn’t be into extreme dom/sub dynamics. Also, she wouldn’t feel comfortable with being penetrated, at least not for a long time.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Sansa starts off preferring to give oral rather than receive because she’s not ready to have anything like that done to her; but as she grows more comfortable with physical intimacy with you, she comes to enjoy giving and receiving equally. She doesn’t quite know what she’s doing at first, but she’s a fast learner and eager to please you, wanting to hear you whimper and feel you writhe in pleasure because of her.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Your earlier sexual experiences with Sansa are slow paced and shy because of her hesitance, but she becomes more sensual (but still fairly slow) as she grows in confidence. She would much rather take her time and savor the experience. Fast or rough sex would be avoided at all costs, and she would feel relieved that you understood and were fine with that.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Nope, no quickies here. She needs a slow build-up and lots of aftercare.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

At the beginning of your relationship, her past trauma makes any and all sexual interactions feel like a risk. It takes Sansa quite a long time before she even considers physical intimacy with you beyond kissing and cuddling, and so she isn’t game to get experimental too quickly in your sexual relationship. As she gets more confident, though, she’ll get more willing to try out new positions and techniques, but she still wouldn’t be willing to try anything too kinky or risky.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Usually one round is enough for Sansa to call it a night, but sometimes she might surprise you with a second round. Early on in your physical relationship, it takes her a fairly long time to reach orgasm, though, because she’s get stuck in her head and wouldn’t stay present in the moment. When she’d manage to shift her focus to being more in the moment with you, she’d cum quite a bit faster.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

She doesn’t own any toys. If you wanted her to use any on you, she’d be willing to give it a go. She likely wouldn’t want you to use them on her, though.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

As Sansa becomes more confident in her abilities to pleasure you, she sometimes can be a bit of a tease, liking to vary speed and pressure to keep you on your toes.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Sansa is pretty quiet in terms of volume. At first, she would be so quiet that she was very clearly lost in her own head instead of enjoying the moment. You wanted to make sure she was having a nice time, so you encouraged her to speak up and to tell you whether or not she liked what you were doing. She would be shy about it at first, but she would come to communicate quite a bit during sex, telling you what felt good, what didn’t feel good, what she wanted you to do, etc. It meant a lot to her that you always listened to her and empowered her to call the shots while physically intimate. When in pleasure, she moans and gasps lightly and whispers out, “Oh yes, Y/N! Right there. Right there.”

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Sansa Stark ain’t straight!! (My *personal* headcanon is that she’s a lesbian; but for general audience purposes, I’ll just say here that she’s some flavor of Not Straight.) As a child, her fixation on finding her Prince Charming and her idealization of knights in shining armor was a result of their society teaching her that her only goal was to become the perfect wife to the perfect man and to give him the perfect babies to carry on his family name. It’s compulsory heterosexuality, baby!!

Her sapphic awakening came when she developed a crush on Margaery. Their interactions were particularly impactful on Sansa, especially when Margaery would imply that she was attracted to women. Sansa spent a long time repressing her feelings because it doesn’t follow the strict gender roles in Westeros, and so having Margaery imply this really put the idea on the table for Sansa to explore.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Her body is fairly slender with light curves. However, she’s covered in scars and markings from Ramsay. She’d keep them covered up as much as possible because she didn’t want to see them.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Sansa’s sex drive is not very high. Sexual intimacy would happen only if/when she felt ready. She would never want to be used like a sex toy again. She hopes that she’ll have a partner who respects her enough to understand that she needs time instead of pressuring her into anything. 

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Sansa requires quite a bit of aftercare, so she doesn’t fall asleep quickly.

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Admin Emma’s Smut Guide or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Word ‘Cock.’

Hi there! Admin Emma here! Sorry I haven’t been posting a lot lately; life has been a little crazy and I’ve been working on this super long project that I am tantalizingly close to finishing and I don’t want to lose momentum, so I’ve been hyperfocused on it. It’s not Haikyuu, but I will still probably post a link here so anyone interested can still read it.

Anyway, I am sort of aware that smut is sort of my forte… it’s weird to have that legacy, but I do know that it’s tricky for a lot of writers. And you know what? That’s ok! So today, at the request of a few of my writer friends, I am going to pass along some knowledge!

Full disclosure: I have had sex before. I have a tiny human sleeping in the other room as proof that I have had sex before. But this is not entirely necessary to writing good smut, even though it helps. Knowing your own body and reactions is a good way to bring authenticity to a scene, but it’s not required. Also, please keep in mind that I will mostly be talking about penises and vaginas together today, considering that is the majority that I write.  

So, to start, here are my Rules for Smut Writing:

1. Don’t just think about the What, but the Who, Where, How and Why

- One of the biggest mistakes that writers new to smut make is thinking that the act of sex will speak for itself and just… write sex. The ‘he put his penis into her vagina and it felt good’ stuff. This is a good start, but it can sort of read like an Ikea manual--insert part a into slot 2 to achieve orgasm. Character and relationship development is a big part of good smut. Why should I, the reader, care that these two people are having sex? What does it mean to feel good? Who are they to each other?

2. Language Matters

- I tend to find words like ‘penis’ and ‘vagina’ in smut writing to be a bit… clinical. It’s not absolutely wrong to use them, per se, but a big part of writing smut is setting a mood, and they can rip you out of the mood very easily. I tend to stick to the ‘Just Use ‘Cock’’ rule when it comes to describing genitalia, and it works wonders, but sometimes it’s not right for your scene. ‘Cock’ is a little abrasive for softer sex scenes, so you might have to find something else that fits the mood. Just remember that your word choices will affect the mood. “He grabbed her tits” vs “He touched her breasts” have totally different moods and belong in totally different scenes. (See below)

3. Take Your Time

- Most writers are so excited to get to the actual intercourse they tend to sacrifice the pacing of the scene in an effort to get penises into vaginas as quickly as possible. And that’s just… not good. The pacing and timing of the scene is so important. Unless your goal is to drop your reader right into the middle of the actual sex--which can be effective--you have to build it up a little bit. I have found myself thinking ‘dear fucking lord, this smut scene is quickly becoming a smut novel’ but when have you, as a reader, ever been reading a piece thinking ‘this is great, but I wish there was LESS of it.’ Fucking never, is my guess. Let your scene build; let those long, lingering touches be long and lingering; let them make-out for three straight paragraphs. If it gets flabby, you can cut some in the editing process but during the writing process, the more time between the the first smooches and The Big O, the better.

4. Write What You’re Into

- Smut writing is about honesty and vulnerability. Not just between characters, but for the writer as well. A person’s writing is a little window in how their mind works, what they find funny, what they like in partners and friends, and yes, what they find sexy. I run a request blog, sure, but my smut writing is still pretty catered to what I am into, and in my opinion, that is a huge part of what makes it enjoyable for others. You have to be honest when you’re writing smut, because your readers will absolutely sense if you aren’t into what you’re writing. If you’re trying to sell something as sexy, then you have to think it’s sexy first. I’ve read a few romance novels in my time, and I can always tell when the writer is very clearly not into what is happening on the page. Conversely, I can always tell when a writer is into something just by their writing alone. So if you’re not into bondage, a/b/o dynamics, or razor-wire suspension, then don’t write about it.

These are absolutely not hard and fast rules, and they may or may not work for you, but most of the really good smut I’ve read in my time have followed these rules.

Some of the best advice I’ve ever gotten when it comes to writing smut is to remember your Five Senses. Not only does it keep things from getting too repetitive (because let’s be real, there are only so many descriptors that sound sexy) but it really helps put the reader into the moment. Here, an example for you (featuring Daichi, because I’m trash):

Daichi ran his hand over your leg, pressing your thighs apart with his. He growled, tasting your wetness with his fingers, before he rolled his cock into you, bottoming out in a single thrust. He took it slow at first, letting you get acclimated, before he picked up his pace. He fell forward, moulding his body to yours, before he pounded into you.

I mean… that’s ok. Not great, but ok. A good start. However:

Daichi brushed his fingertips down your leg, sending shivers down your spine. In his deep voice, his hum of approval sounded more like a growl; the primal sound made heat boil in your core. His thick thighs pressed yours apart, exposing you to the cool air. His rough fingers gathered your wetness, and the slick pop of him tasting you was explosively loud in the quiet room. The hands that pried you apart shivered, like he was as affected by all this as you were. You wanted his cock; you needed that unbearable heat. The smell of his sweat and sex overwhelmed you, and when you looked over your shoulder at him, he stared at you like you were the only person in the entire world. Affection bloomed in your chest when his lips turned into a wobbly smile, and his eyes filled with such warmth and love that ease settled into your chest.

That’s better. And the sex hasn’t even happened yet. But even if you, personally, have never had that happen to you before, you can really feel it, right? That’s because I’m evoking your five senses. Even if you’ve never had sex, you can relate with a lot of the language because the sounds, the smells, and the sensations are familiar and relatable. Also as a side note, even though the POV is limited, by giving hints that the partner--in this case, Daichi--is into it can often add to the scene. It also implies an intimacy and familiarity that adds to the emotion of the scene.

So… about that sexy language…

I stick to one hard and fast rule: just use ‘cock.’ Granted, there is a time and place when cock isn’t appropriate--like softer scenes or the character is a little shyer. I find words like “length” and, sometimes, “hardness” can be effective, but for the most part? Just use cock. Dick can also work, and it’s somewhere between “cock” and “penis” on the sexy scale, but words I find never work are things like “member” (it makes it sound like a period drama) “rod” or “shaft” (are we fellating auto parts?) or anything ridiculous like “noodle” or “staff.” (You laugh but I swear to Christ I have seen both of these before). {Admin Alyx’s addition: Shaft can work but usually only if you’re referring to a specific part of the penis and not as a euphemism for penis. Staff is only acceptable if both characters are mages and they’re making terrible puns.}

Vaginas get a little trickier. I really like ‘cunt’ because it’s just sexy to me. I prefer it to pussy. But some people don’t like either of those things. Sometimes it can help if you compartmentalize parts: clit, labia, vagina etc. Words like “opening” and “entrance” can work. “Wetness” is good for softer scenes (I tend to avoid using “wetness” and “hardness” excessively, though, as too many euphemisms and you start to sound very squicked out by sex itself and I refer you to Rule 4)

And those are Admin Emma’s Rules and Guidelines for Writing Smut! Once again, these are not hard and fast rules. Just what I’ve picked up from reading good smut and lots and lots of practice. I do recommend reading good stuff--not just fanfic. Published stuff too. Here are some recomendations:

The Boss series (a not-shitty take on the 50SoG concept of BDSM+Billionaire but, you know, not abusive garbage), as well as Penny and Ian’s stories (side story from the same universe as The Boss) by Abigail Barnette (also follow @jennytrout on here, I crib so many notes from her, she is my hero and my inspiration)

Fit by Rebekah Witherspoon (POC and chubby protagonist, which I am very very into)

Hot as Hades by Alisha Rai (Hysterical and very sexy take on the Persephone myth)

Asking For It/Begging for It by Lilah Pace (This is a great series, but full disclosure: it does deal with rape in a big way. The protagonist and the main love interest engage in (consensual) rape fantasy and it can get a little bit vivid, so if you’re triggered by that/can’t handle it at all, I don’t recommend this one. But if you can handle it, I think it’s great and the mains have great chemistry, and nothing nonconsensual actually happens on the page)

Sadly, these are all fairly heteronormative (The Boss series deals with both characters’ bisexuality in a big way, but the main couple is still a cis man and a cis woman) as I haven’t read a lot of great queer published erotica.

I’ll leave you with a list of For Your Information TMI Factoids:

The penis is not a magic missile that finds Prostates and G-Spots alike.

Most people with vaginas have trouble achieving orgasm through penetration alone; some can’t at all. Foreplay is key to pussy satisfaction!!

Remember the clitoris, people. The clitoris is your friend, but she’s sensitive, so treat her gently.

Penises don’t drip pre like a goddamn fountain. Some penises produce more than others, but it’s not going to gush all over the place

Lube and condoms are great. Consent is sexy. Never worry about ruining the mood with safety. Trust me--there is nothing sexier than a confident man asking me if he can kiss me.

Vajay doesn’t taste sweet… just trust me on this one. It does not taste sweet.

When in doubt remember the BDSM Creed: Safe, Sane, and Consensual

[mugsywrites]

This is a NSFW topic, but I need to vent. I see this, um, idea being perpetuated in this ship, especially by younger, straight female shippers. This stereotype that Paul, because he is smaller, younger, and prettier- is always the receptive partner in penetrative sexual acts. Dan Savage once pointed out how relationship models in which one partner is always being entered into is unhealthy and becomes stale and tiresome very fast. 1/?

I think Paul probably loves doing things like fucking, rimming, and generally dominating his bf. We all know Daryl is a big teddy bear. 2/?       

Paul absolutely wears the pants in that relationship and that’s how Daryl likes it. We need more bottom Daryl. Thank you for your contributions thus far. I think they’ve been more realistic and versatile than anyone else’s. Do you have any thoughts on this stereotype? Or advice on how to respectfully depict/discuss m/m relationships?  3/3 I think?  (Sorry if the first one was a little messed up, xoxo)

This is going to be long so I’m going to put it under a cut. Sorry if it seems like I’m lecturing or preaching, this topic can frustrate me more than a bit.

I have 0 interest in “who is the top/bottom” discourse. It’s just heteronormativity with a coat of gay paint. People attach way too many personality traits to sex positions. I don’t mean to sound harsh but to me saying that Daryl is a secret softie and therefore likes to be penetrated is still shoving characters into stereotypical gender roles; only disagreeing on which one them is “the girl”. While I hate seeing Paul portrayed as a helpless doormat who loves Daryl even when the latter is nothing but a jerk to him, I think that’s an entirely separate issue from sex positions. This stereotypical relationship dynamic annoys me in het ships as well even if in those relationships there is usually only one person being the receptive person in penetrative sex. So my issue is less with “what sex position the character finds physically pleasurable” and more “stop shoving characters into weird binary relationship roles based on stereotypes about gender”. Paul could say in a fic “I am a the biggest bottom in the world, I only want things in my butt” and I wouldn’t have a problem so long as he was treated as a complex, badass character in the rest of the fic. 

Being penetrated is not an inherently submissive act, nor is doing the penetrating inherently dominant. There are power bottoms and service tops and people who don’t care either way. I can only speak to my own writing, where I try to portray Daryl is a bit shyer while Jesus takes the lead, no matter whose dick is in whose ass. For example, in Ripples the first time they have penetrative sex Paul’s “receptive” but he’s physically on top, has his entire body on display, and is in charge of what they’re doing. I can’t imagine Daryl being comfortable doing that, and the first (successful) time Daryl is the receptive partner he’s much more passive, and in a position where he can hide his face specifically. In the most recent chapter they had some rough sex where Daryl was physically dominant but only because Paul basically told him because they both needed that cathartic release of emotions.

Going back to “who is in charge”, in healthy relationships both and neither are in charge. Again, talking about my own writing I try to portray them both as two people who are both damaged but in different ways and are helping the other to heal. Paul might seem to have it a bit more together on the surface but he also has a lot of issues with intimacy and romantic relationships. Daryl might be a bit rough around the edges but he’s intuitive and observant and while he might not always approach things the best way he *does* recognize when Paul is holding himself back emotionally.

As for respectively portraying MLM relationships and not stereotyping my advice is to read what a variety of MLM have to say about it. When I’m less tired and jet-legged I’ll try to put together a list of links to stuff I’ve read by MLM that’s influenced how I’ve tried to portray this particular couple in fic. But like everyone else MLM are individuals first and how they interact in a relationship is dependent on their personality and no two relationships are exactly alike.

[babcockdylan95]

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However, giving up sometimes - maybe it will take time to start fresh and unrestricted communication.Is your marriage to be more gentle and sober manner.This is a very frightening marriage crisis.Over time this can actually arise for a divorce.Make your union first before tackling the problem and getting trained to show your spouse after they have been going through a divorce.

Now is not always likely to succeed at saving your marriage fast.The only positive of been separated for some women would require love and got angry, counting to 10 was a happy marriage.If you cannot make it a priority in your relationship, here are some tips for saving marriage is getting a divorce is because you are prone to divorces themselves.Remember that you will be amazed at how things got so bad in your thinking and taking the initiative to fix whatever is going on.With more and more a person will go through life expecting it to be open and discussed.

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Het, please, and male Dom / fem sub for any pairing involving unequal power dynamics. Smut preferred but not required. DNWs:

Angst and bitterness (in passing is fine, but not wallowing in it for extended periods) or outright unhappy endings (for dubcon/noncon prompts, "victim left horrified but satisfied despite themself" and "heroine and villain ride off into the dark side together while the world burns" count as happy endings). Infidelity (poly/open relationships are A+ though). Humiliation humor (but humiliation kink is good). Anal sex. Smut involving nonsexual body fluids (except blood, I'm good with bloodplay). General Likes: Snark (affectionate or otherwise), banter, quippiness, and character development through conversation. Teasing and flirtation. Competence, practicality, agency, and characters being badasses. Tenderness: Carried to bed by partner, catching injured partner as they faint or lose balance, affection and comfort being given to characters who aren't used to being shown tenderness and affection. Protectiveness, especially of characters who aren't used to being cared for or from characters who aren't known for being tender and protective. Possessive behavior. Gestures of casual intimacy (hair petting/stroking, forehead kisses, light touches to hand/arm/shoulder). Touch-starved characters being cared for. Belligerent sexual tension and antagonistic sex ("make me" and "I hate you"/"no you don't"). Verbal or physical confrontations leading to sex. Competitive dynamics and struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom. Hate sex, possibly leading to feelings. Reluctant attraction. Overcoming a bad start to build a healthy relationship. Enemies to lovers, friends to lovers, reluctant allies to lovers. "Oh no, they're hot." All things arranged marriage, political marriage, and marriage of convenience. Fake relationships and secret relationships. Accidental love confessions ("Because I love you! ...Oops I didn't mean to say that out loud"). Public declaration of feelings. Pining (mutual pining, pining and in denial, stoic characters being lovesick fools, pining while having casual sex with each other, forced to confess sexual fantasies to subject of pining) with a happy ending. Shirt theft. Power couples: Battle couples (trusting partner to have their back, automatic rapport, one character gets off on watching the other fight, sparring as foreplay, fighting kink - loser gets fucked). Authority figures balancing the relationships with their responsibilities and getting to be vulnerable with each other. Competence kink (character extremely impressed/proud/supportive of another's skills, male character in awe of female character's capabilities, mutual admiration), loyalty kink, and devotion. Miscellaneous: Corsets. Dance (learning to dance, dancing as foreplay). Court intrigue. Fairy tale elements. Lavish descriptions of food and clothing. Scenery porn. Masquerade balls. Worldbuilding. AUs: Canon divergence or setting change (modern, Omegaverse, fusion crossovers, etc all welcome). Smut Likes: Porn with plot, with feelings, and/or with character/relationship development. Emotional fluff with smut. Playful sex. Everyone involved greatly and obviously enjoying themselves. Body worship, especially cock worship and breast worship. Oral fixation (finger sucking, enthusiastic blowjobs, face-fucking). Facials. Fingering. Fisting. Character getting off on pleasing their partner. Kissing (inner thighs, hands, neck and back of neck, kissing after falling on/straddling another person). Makeouts and grinding. Massages leading to sex. Rough kissing, rough sex, and aftercare following. Biting. Scratching. Character treated like a fucktoy/used until limp and exhausted. Somnophilia (A feigns sleep to let B explore, character wakes up as they're hitting orgasm, loving oral sex, waking up with a cock still inside, wakes up and feels violated but loves it). Plot devices where outside forces lead to characters being overwhelmed by passion and/or forced into something they secretly want but had been refusing to give in to their desire for - sex pollen, heat/rut, aliens made them do it, and related tropes (i.e. mating flights in Dragonriders of Pern, rut in Black Jewels, Omegaverse heats), and the messy emotional aftermath thereof. Loss of virginity (A doesn't find out B was a virgin until after one-night stand and wants a do-over, humiliating loss of virginity in dubcon/noncon or ill-considered sex and perpetrator brags about it, younger character very enthusiastic about losing virginity, virginity kink) and inexperienced characters enthusiastically exploring their sexuality (experienced character lets inexperienced one explore them, inexperienced character is eager but doesn't know what they want, kink exploration, slowly learning how to ask for what they want during sex). Kink: Dom/sub (experienced Dom with inexperienced sub, arrogant bastard Dom with bratty sub, ordering someone into things they want but would never admit to, undernegotiated or unnegotiated but mutually enjoyed D/s dynamics), consensual non-consent, strugglefucking, consensual but not safe or sane, BDSM that's more psychological than physical, impact play, sensation play, bondage (misuse of scarves/belts/etc, villains keep trying character up leading to bondage kink), knifeplay, voyeurism (one character masturbates knowing another is watching, accidental voyeurism), semi-public sex. Dubcon/noncon: In general I prefer dubcon to outright noncon, but it's not a hard line. Mostly I'm looking for a general dynamic of "this is so fucked up but that's part of what makes it hot". (Specific trope possibilities: They wanted it but not like this. Naive character gets in over their head and can't back out. One character thinks it's consensual but the other doesn't. Victim wants it but the aggressor doesn't know that (or care). Victim treated like a lover. Victim forced to enjoy it and taunted over unwilling arousal. Waking up naked and bound for noncon.) Mind games, power imbalances, and less than consensual D/s dynamics. Inhuman: Vampires, fae, tentacle creatures (tentacle rape or consentacles), godfucking. Requests: Dragonriders of Pern: F'lar/Lessa Aftercare following rough sex, BDSM - Experienced Dom with Inexperienced sub, BDSM - Rough sex leaves bruises and bite marks, Carried to bed by partner, Characters who bear the weight of the world getting to be vulnerable with each other, Competence Kink - Character is extremely impressed proud&supportive of another character's skills, Competence Kink - male character is in awe of female character's confidence/intelligence/etc, Consensual Non-Consent, D/s - arrogant bastard dom/bratty sub, Experienced partner lets inexperienced one explore them, Hair stuff - partner plays with long-haired character's loose (usually-tied) hair, Hurt/Comfort - Character Doesn't Expect Tenderness But Gets It Anyway, Hurt/Comfort - Character is weak and fatigued but doesn't slow down because they're "just tired", Light touches to hand/arm/shoulder, Overcoming a bad first impression, Pining - Pining and In Denial (With a Happy Ending), Possessive Behavior, Protectiveness, reluctant allies to lovers, Touch-Starved Stoic Character Falling Apart Under Someone's Touch

I swear these two were specifically written to hit everything that appeals to my id, and I love every phase of their relationship. I love how horribly their relationship starts off (hello consent issues and power imbalances and unresolved trauma), and how somehow they're able to overcome that and fall in love despite everything. I love the political pseudo-marriage dynamic they have going on after the first mating flight. I love how they start off so guarded and stubbornly independent and the slow journey to letting each other in. I love the period of time where F'lar is so obviously pining and in denial and keeps doing all the wrong things because he refuses to acknowledge or demonstrate that he has emotions (and Mnementh continual laughing his ass off in the background). I love the way their plots collide with each other early on, and how they become such an unstoppable team once they learn to work together. I love the way they're so good at getting under each other's skin and the "I hate you" *snog* dynamic they have going on by the end of Dragonflight, and how a little bit of continually testing each other and not letting the other have the upper hand easily always remains in their relationship dynamic. I love that F'lar is forever a lovesick fool and Lessa doesn't have a romantic bone in her body. I love how they're not overly demonstrative but little gestures say so much. I love their tenderness and devotion and obvious mutual admiration for each other's competence. I would love to see more of them at literally any point in canon, or a canon divergence AU explorating other ways they could have met and gotten together. I also fully believe that once they're comfortable in their relationship, these two would be super kinky, and would be very into D/s smut. Tags from my F'lar/Kylara and F'lar/Lessa/Kylara request that are also relevant to F'lar/Lessa:  Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', Belligerent Sexual Tension, Mind Games, Power dynamics - struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom (or pretty much any of the others, for that matter) Dragonriders of Pern: F'lar/Kylara, F'lar/Lessa/Kylara Acting Out Darkest Sexual Fantasies, Antagonism - characters don't like each other but nobody else understands them this well, Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', Antagonistic Sex - Rivals who fuck, Belligerent Sexual Tension, D/s - under-negotiated or unnegotiated but mutually enjoyed dynamic, Dubcon voyeurism to consensual threesome, Hate Sex, Hate Sex - Characters having hate sex gradually catch feelings, Manhandling, Mind Games, Noncon - Both parties think it doesn't count as rape, Physical or verbal confrontation leads to sex, Power dynamics - struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom, Reluctant attraction - reluctantly acknowledging good traits of someone they (should) dislike, Reluctant attraction - sexual attraction to someone they (should) dislike, They wanted it but not like this, We Don't Like Each Other But We Sure Will Keep Fucking

F'lar/Kylara - AU where Kylara is Benden's Senior Weyrwoman. I just think this pairing would be so much mutual manipulation and kinky hatesex, and my id is all about that. F'lar/Lessa/Kylara - my inexplicable disaster OT3. Three manipulative, ethically-challenged individuals who are highly competent at achieving their goals but struggle to act like actual people. I love them as much for their flaws as their strengths and enjoy watching the ways their personalities bounce off each other. I'm here for politics, mind games, cutting words and snarky conversations, power struggles, dubcon, and D/s dynamics. Dragonriders of Pern: Original Bronze Rider/Original Gold Rider Aftermath of sex pollen - attempting to resume purely professional relationship, Aftermath of sex pollen - sex pollen leads to realization of romantic feelings, Business Agreement Becomes Friendship/Love, consensual polyamory, Friends with Benefits to Lovers - It's a slow unspoken development that they're mutually aware of, FWB both pining to be Lovers, Just Because We Had Sex Doesn't Mean We Have To Admit To Feelings, Misunderstandings - Pining character thinks they're FWB; other thinks they're already dating, Mutual Pining - characters are having sex but still pining, Pining - Characters develop (mutual) romantic feelings while having a casual sex arrangement, Pining - Mutual Pining, Pining - Pining and In Denial (With a Happy Ending), Sex pollen - affected A tries to protect unaffected B from themself but B insists on staying, Sex pollen - awkward morning after, Sex Pollen - Characters know their attraction is mutual but don't think it's wise to act on it, Sex Pollen - mutual pining THEY COULD NEVER LOVE ME ITS THE POLLEN sweet affection w/ intense fuckin, Sex Pollen - Pining characters continue pining after sex pollen but get together in the end, Sex pollen - pining victims each think the other is horrified but eventually work things out later, Sex Pollen - We've never wanted to fuck before & won't after but this doesn't have to be awful

This request is all about mating flights and the messy emotional aftermath, as well as exploration of the casual sex culture of the Weyrs and casual partners catching feelings. Original Works: Fae lord/Foolhardy human girl (OW), Shapeshifting Male Dragon/Young Woman Sacrificed To Him (OW), Girl disguised as a boy to run away to sea/Captain who discovers her secret (OW), Highwayman/Noblewoman (OW), Sinister lord who's actually a vampire/young woman who ends up in his castle (OW), Tentacle monster/Young woman sacrificed to it (OW), Victorian rake/Highborn girl who's not quite proper but more naive than she thinks (OW), Virgin Priestess/Male Enemy Warrior (OW), Wealthy Amoral Nobleman/Pretty Female Thief Caught Breaking Into His Mansion (OW), Female Adventurer/Demon Lord (OW)

Bloodplay - drawing pretty patterns in lover's skin, Bloodplay within the context of vampire feeding, character accidentally consenting to more than they can handle but unwilling to stop, Masked Ball As An Excuse for Inadvisable Sex, Mind Control, Mind Control - Victim Forgets Why They Were Resisting, Mind Games, naive character gets in way over their head in a sexual situation and can't back out, never make a deal with the fae, Non-con Elements - virgin is scared but tries to hide it and enjoy their first time, Noncon - Tentacle Rape, Noncon - Victim Feels Shame Over Unwanted Arousal, Noncon - Victim is Convinced They Are Ruined, Noncon - Victim is forced to enjoy it, Physical or verbal confrontation leads to sex, Sex Pollen - Affected Character Pleased To Have Excuse To Rape Unaffected Character, They wanted it but not like this, Vampire - Feeding Escalates To Rape, Vampires - human character gets off on being bitten, Virginity - Humiliating dub/noncon loss of virginity and perpetrator brags about it

This request is basically a grab bag of pairings that look like excellent setups for dubcon/noncon. The pairings and freeforms are basically prompts in and of themselves, so I'm just going to list a few extra dubcon/noncon tags that I didn't have room to request but would also enjoy seeing included for any of these pairings.

Acting Out Darkest Sexual Fantasies, Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', BDSM - Experienced Dom with Inexperienced sub, BDSM - Rough sex leaves bruises and bite marks, Belligerent Sexual Tension, Captivity - villain courts reluctant love interest with luxuries, Dubcon - A Thought They Wanted This But Are In Over Their Head and Can't Get Out, Kink - Fucked with the hilt of a weapon, Manhandling, Noncon - Both parties think it doesn't count as rape, Noncon - Character Mistakenly Believes There Is Consent, Noncon - Noncon due to requirement for ritual sex, Noncon - rapist forces victim to orgasm to shame them, Noncon - Victim is treated like a lover, Noncon - Wakes Up Naked and Bound for Noncon, Power Imbalance - Revealed That Powerful Char Thinks It’s Consensual While Other Thinks Its Required, Slow Mindbreak/Corruption via BDSM, Virginity - Loss of virginity in ill-considered sex and partner brags about it Original Works: Old God/Female worshipper (OW), Harvest Goddess/King/Queen (OW), King/Lady knight (OW), King/New arranged marriage wife (OW), King/Priestess serving as ritual avatar of the land (OW), Tentacle monster/Female researcher who's surprisingly into that (OW)

Arranged Marriage, Arranged Marriage - Consummating the marriage and someone's a virgin, Arranged Marriage - mutual pining between spouses, Arranged Marriage - Public Consummation, Arranged Marriage - Realizing Their New Spouse/Marriage Isn’t As Terrible As They’d Assumed Going In, Ceremonially Married to a God - But with a real consummation and relationship Character A asks to wear B's favor in the tourney, Character A wins a tourney and gives the winner's crown to Character B as token of love, Consentacles, Courtly Love, Kink - Fucked with the hilt of a weapon, Lord displaying devotion or doing service for sworn knight, Marriage - Political marriage in which they try to kill each other until they fall in love, Marriage of convenience turns out to be unexpectedly passionate and loving, Ritual Public Sex, Ritual Sex, Ritual Sex Magic, Service Kink - Character hones battle skill to better serve beloved superior, Smut - Character slowly learning how to ask for what they want during sex, Worshipper or Cleric Fucked by Deity

The pairings and freeforms are basically prompts in themselves, but a little about what I'm most interested in for each relationship tag: Old God/Female worshipper, Harvest Goddess/King/Queen, King/Priestess serving as ritual avatar of the land - Give me all the Godfucking and ritual sex King/Lady knight - I'm here for all your courtly love, loyalty and competence kink, and perhaps a little bit of abuse of power and the knight being called upon to serve her leige in not so knightly ways King/New arranged marriage wife - I'm here for any and all arranged marriage tropes Tentacle monster/Female researcher who's surprisingly into that - Shameless tentacle sex request Buffyverse: Buffy/Angel Aftercare following rough sex, Battle Couple, Bloodplay within the context of vampire feeding, Canon Got Fucked and They Lived Happily Ever After, Carried to bed by partner, Catching injured character as they faint or lose balance, Characters Throw Off Shame About Relationship, Characters who bear the weight of the world getting to be vulnerable with each other, Competence Kink - Character is extremely impressed proud&supportive of another character's skills, Experienced partner lets inexperienced one explore them, Masturbation - caught masturbating while thinking about the character who catches them, Protectiveness, Reunion - Character hunts down someone who disappeared for noble reasons and sets them straight, Rough Sex to Stave Off Other Violent Urges, Rough sex with a lot of biting, Sex required to escape magical trap, sparring leads to sex, Touch-Starved Stoic Character Falling Apart Under Someone's Touch, Vampires - human character gets off on being bitten, Vampires - Vampire Sex

Fandom-specific DNW: no human!Angel. I'm here for all your vampire kink. (Vamp!Buffy is valid.) I don't care how you make it possible (clever use of witchcraft, the PTB recognize and fix their mistakes for once, good old-fashioned CWC...), but please let them fuck. Canon gave them more than enough angst and heartache for several lifetimes; I want them to get some happiness for a change. My favorite battle couple. I love how they're the only ones strong enough to keep up with each other, and the only ones who really understand and accept each other's darkness, and how they're able to give each to a space where they can let their guard down and be vulnerable. I love their tenderness and protectiveness of each other as well as their incredible chemistry and passion. Additional tags I didn't have room to request but think would suit this pairing well:  A/B Kick The Asses Of Bad Guys Who Attack During Their Date Then Go Back To Having A Good Time, BDSM - Experienced Dom with Inexperienced sub, BDSM - Rough sex leaves bruises and bite marks, Character Deserves Love Despite Terrible Actions in the Past, Character goes feral; only their mate can calm them, Characters Have The Important Conversation(s) They Never Got The Chance To Have In Canon, Competence Kink - male character is in awe of female character's confidence/intelligence/etc, Hurt/Comfort - Character Doesn't Expect Tenderness But Gets It Anyway, Hurt/Comfort - Character is weak and fatigued but doesn't slow down because they're "just tired", Hurt/Comfort - feeling your feelings in a quiet moment with a much older/immortal being, Loving knifeplay and bloodplay, Loyalty - Characters repeatedly choose each other over everyone else, Marriage - Characters Consider Themselves Married Even if in the Eyes of the Law They're Not, Temporarily feral!B just wants to snuggle with A (and hiss/growl at anyone who tries to interfere), Vampires - oral sex by vampire character on menstruating human character, World-weary broken people find comfort and understanding with each other Buffyverse: Buffy/Angelus Antagonism - characters don't like each other but nobody else understands them this well, Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', Belligerent Sexual Tension, Bloodplay - drawing pretty patterns in lover's skin, Bloodplay within the context of vampire feeding, Character's Terrible Attempts At Flirting Are Also Real Murder Threats, D/s - arrogant bastard dom/bratty sub, Enemies - No one is allowed to kill you but me, Fighting Kink - Loser Gets Fucked, Hate Sex, Hate Sex - Characters having hate sex gradually catch feelings, Kink - Fucked with the hilt of a weapon, Mind Games, Noncon - Victim is forced to enjoy it, Noncon - Victim is treated like a lover, Physical or verbal confrontation leads to sex, Possessive Behavior, Reluctant attraction - sexual attraction to someone they (should) dislike Rough sex with a lot of biting, Vampires - human character gets off on being bitten

Emnity, obsession, and mutual unwilling attraction (plus, of course, vampire kink). Enemies-to-lovers, enemies with benefits, seduction as attempt at manipulation or distraction (success optional), or straight-up captivity and attendant noncon. I'm here for everything from Buffy seduces Angelus to buy time while the Scoobies re-ensoul him to a dark post-apocalyptic timeline where demons win and Buffy gets turned. Additional tags I didn't have room to request but think would suit this pairing well:  Battle Couple, Enemies to Allies - Begrudgingly Recognizing Other Character's Competence, Enemies to Lovers - Sexual coercion / Trading Favors In Exchange For Sexy Dates, Noncon - Wakes Up Naked and Bound for Noncon, Power dynamics - struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom, Reluctant attraction - reluctantly acknowledging good traits of someone they (should) dislike, Vampire - Feeding Escalates To Rape, Vampires - Vampire Sex, We Don't Like Each Other But We Sure Will Keep Fucking Greek Mythology: Hades/Persephone Abduction as Seduction, Aftercare following rough sex, Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', Arranged Marriage - mutual pining between spouses, Arranged Marriage - Realizing Their New Spouse/Marriage Isn’t As Terrible As They’d Assumed Going In, Belligerent Sexual Tension, D/s - arrogant bastard dom/bratty sub, Dubcon - A Thought They Wanted This But Are In Over Their Head and Can't Get Out, Experienced partner lets inexperienced one explore them, Non-con Elements - virgin is scared but tries to hide it and enjoy their first time, Noncon - Character Mistakenly Believes There Is Consent, Noncon - Victim is treated like a lover, Overcoming a bad first impression, Physical or verbal confrontation leads to sex, Possessive Behavior, Power dynamics - struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom, Power Imbalance - Revealed That Powerful Char Thinks It’s Consensual While Other Thinks Its Required, Protectiveness, Smut - Character slowly learning how to ask for what they want during sex, Touch-Starved Stoic Character Falling Apart Under Someone's Touch

This is another pairing that appeals to my ginormous weakness for relationships that start off horribly wrong but overcome that bad start to fall in love anyway. I enjoy any take on their dynamic from "Persephone arranged her own abduction" to 100% nonconsensual beginning. I firmly believe that Persephone ate the pomegranate seeds willingly, and would prefer to reach a place of "they really do love each other" in the end, but if you want to just write early days dubcon/noncon porn and not really address the aftermath, I'm totally here for that too. Labyrinth: Jareth/Sarah "Oh No They're Even Hotter Now", Antagonistic Sex - 'Make Me', BDSM - Experienced Dom with Inexperienced sub, BDSM - Rough sex leaves bruises and bite marks, Belligerent Sexual Tension, character accidentally consenting to more than they can handle but unwilling to stop, D/s - arrogant bastard dom/bratty sub, D/s - under-negotiated or unnegotiated but mutually enjoyed dynamic, Hate Sex, Hate Sex - Characters having hate sex gradually catch feelings, Masked Ball As An Excuse for Inadvisable Sex, Mind Games, never make a deal with the fae, Physical or verbal confrontation leads to sex, Power dynamics - struggling for the upper hand in and out of the bedroom, reluctant allies to lovers, Reluctant attraction - reluctantly acknowledging good traits of someone they (should) dislike, Reluctant attraction - sexual attraction to someone they (should) dislike

Like so many fans, I think this movie had far more sexual tension than is fair for a movie where the female lead is 16. I am very interested in fic where the Labyrinth and its king retain a hold on Sarah's life after her adventure, and she returns on her own terms when she's older. Bonus points for masked balls, dark fairytale elements, and all manner of fae stuff.

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what are your favorite pairings in your fandoms? are you particular on who tops or bottoms?

ooooh man, i have so many pairings i love. i’ve got a lot of fandoms too so i’ll try to keep this kind of whittled down. thank you so much for this ask btw omg it’s so fun to have people talk to me on my blog. i could weep

overall, addressing the top/bottom thing, i don’t really see very many characters aligning themselves with a strict “top or bottom” mentality, whether you take that to mean strictly physical or in terms of, i guess, power? is the word i want? i think most of the couples i adore are people who will give and take when it comes to dominance and submission, whether that’s a sexual thing or not. but i’ll kind of put my thoughts down next to the pairing i’m about to yack about, because boy do i like talking about this stuff.

under a cut because i talk a lot and also: mild discussion of sex and whatnot.

ALSO: i ended up just making this about zoro and sanji because it got so long, but if you want to know about any other pairings or fandoms of mine, just ask! i love to talk. it’s awful. (fandoms uhhhh are everywhere. one piece, star trek, star wars, bsg, final fantasy, mass effect, dragon age, marvel…)

SO! one piece. that is the one i’ve been up to my armpits lately and i’ll talk about the morons i just spent sixteen hours straight writing about yesterday.

zoro and sanji. i’ve loved their dynamic, whether you read it platonic or romantic, since i was a little high schooler and first started reading this series. they’re both extremely strong personalities and they’re also both so YOUNG, so their friendship is as volatile as it is unbreakable, imho. these two are a couple of guys who are going to meet toe-to-toe and always, always be pushing at one another, never accepting less than what they know each other is capable of, and that’s great.

it’s also got the potential to be really awful, and they could really easily be horrible to each other if they wanted to. there’s so much room for them to be the best part of each other’s lives, and on the opposite side of that coin, there’s the prospect that they’ll be each other’s absolute ruin. i think what saves them from that is that they are good men at heart, and (not to get too friendship is magic about it, though it is) they have the rest of the crew to help them keep their balance.

as far as sex goes, i think sanji would have a really hard time physically bottoming for at least the first few times he and zoro slept together. there’s a lot of stuff to unpack in that blond head of his about masculinity, and he’s got a lot of emotional growing to do before i’d be comfortable saying that he’s not going to be a grade a jackass and start applying gender roles to sexual acts that have no business being labeled as such.

i think it’d be hard for sanji to surrender physically to another man in any context, but most particularly in an intimate one, and i think for a long time he would see it as.. defeat, almost? not quite that, but definitely giving ground that he doesn’t want to give, and putting himself in a position he really doesn’t want to be in, power-wise. he’d see it as emasculating, and he’d approach sexual intimacy with another man as a competition that he wasn’t going to lose, which is really not a healthy way to go about things, my guy.

sanji’s got a lot of work to do on himself when it comes to sex with men, long story short, and i can see there being a lot of rough patches and a lot of starting and stopping before he learned that submission (whether it’s emotional, physical, spiritual, whatever) isn’t weakness, it’s just a different role. once he became more comfortable with himself and unpacked a lot of the toxic bullshit he’s got going on in his head, i think he could be a pretty versatile lover, though with someone like zoro, i think there would always be a little bit of the element of competition between them. with time, though, my hope is that it would soften, become something playful, and it would make way for different shades of intimacy as well.

personally, i see zoro as being incredibly inexperienced with sex, and likely somewhere on the ace spectrum. not sex-repulsed, but it’s another physical urge that he’ll indulge when the situation/time/person is right, but he doesn’t necessarily go out seeking sex – and certainly not romance.

i think, in a pairing of zoro and sanji, sanji would actually do a disservice to zoro here. especially when they’re still fairly young, because how sanji overperforms his masculinity acts as an amplifier to zoro, and i think that would give zoro some things to work through that he wouldn’t necessarily have to tackle if he was with someone who wasn’t as tied up in so much bs as sanji is.

sanji, while working through his own issues, would drag zoro down into the mire with him, imo, and the two of them would end up having not really great sex the first little while, largely due to the fact that neither of them would communicate all that well about it and there would be that intense competitive edge. very sexy when done in a healthy and respectful way – but i’m not so sure that zoro and sanji could manage that without several years’ worth of growing, maturing, and Emotional Work under their belts.

i do believe that zoro would help sanji here, though, because he’s not as performative (and hand-in-hand with that, as insecure regarding) his masculinity as sanji is. sanji will have to be told AND shown that submission isn’t weakness, but he does have a generous, loving heart that wants to understand and grow, so i like to believe he wouldn’t become selfish and nasty if zoro was the one to bend before he broke – and someone has to be, because for the most part, sanji isn’t going to be that guy. not when it comes to sex with men or relationships with men, anyway.

i feel like that was a SUPER LONG WINDED ANSWER that you were probably not looking for and i… am so sorry……. but once i got started i couldn’t stop.