#i made this in early 2016 but never finished it bc it sounded a bit akward but im still somewhat happy with it

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have this attempt of questionable quality i made of an arrangement of finale from the undertale ost, excuse the shit quality idk how to make fl export mp3 files and not make them sound like crap

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famed idol life / career meme

notes: once again, a big mega post because i didn’t want to flood dash with answers. thanks to everyone that sent in!! 

1. what is your favorite single you’ve released?

“solo wise? i’ve only released one solo portal song, which was a self-written song called that’s okay. well, bc forced that one on me when they took pages from my diary — still, my only one solo release, and that’s the favorite since i’m left with no other option. in regards to group? everyone knows, amigo or not — my favorite will always be view. something special about that time, i tell you.”

2. what are your favorite b-sides/non-title tracks you’ve released?

“since i haven’t released any songs by myself other than the one mentioned before, i’d have to go through decipher’s discography. lovesick, odd eye, prism, honesty, stranger, better off — there’s a lot to sift through in the past few years. unfortunately, there’s a point where my interest had started weaning off idol-dom, and you can observe that when i stopped paying attention and interest into what decipher did conceptually after 2016. at least the enjoyment was fun while it lasted.”

3. what is your least favorite song (title track or b-side) you’ve released?

”that’s an easy one. you take any b-side we’ve released in the past few years, and that probably makes the list. the comeback with the b-side shot was awful. that’s probably the worst, in my head. never was a fan of that comeback, now that i think of it — i call it the dark blip of decipher’s early career. perhaps it’s just ambivalence at this point that i have no real strong feelings towards bsides nowadays.”

4. if you could do a duet with anyone in the industry, who would you choose? what do you think of your/your group’s concept?

“i’d want to do a duet with duri — we’ll have a tale of the oldies. the two 1990 liners inside bc’s walls doing a ballad song. though, duri would have to take the high notes on that one seeing as how he’s a power vocalist. there’s rarely times where i’m able to keep in touch or have people around my age, and for that — i’m always grateful when i come across that. we’d manage something interesting given the same age, and the ballad concept.”

5. what do you think of your/your group’s concept?

“decipher doesn’t really stick to a concept, and i suppose our concept has always been to branch into new avenues. there’s good things and bad things about it, obviously. we’re given new things to try, new stylings, and what not. however, we’re also subjected to that risk in case it doesn’t turn out how bc envisioned. to put it short — it’s either a hit or miss.”

6. what is one thing (a concept, a genre, an outfit, etc.) you would least like your company make you do?

“decipher’s novelty in the industry is that we’ve been here so long that we’ve managed a lot of different concepts. from the house pop to retro vibes, even spring ballads in soft tunes — we’ve done it all. the least? i’d say another electronic heavy music where we’re dancing like madmen. i wouldn’t mind a powerful choreography to show i can still ‘hang’, but to the sounds of techno-ish music? i don’t think so. at least, not with my age.”

7. what one thing (concepts, genres, styling, frequency of comebacks, etc.) would you like to change about your current career as an idol?

“i don’t want to comeback so frequently — it seems we’re coming back more frequently than other rookies. it would be nicer to stay back and relax while we let the hoobaes have their time to shine. genres and concepts aren’t really on the top of my list to complain about, though i would enjoy an old throw-back to decipher’s glory days where we’re given something newer. perhaps, that’d be enough to rejuvenate my attitude towards the industry.”

8. if you could be in any idol group, which one would you choose?

“with my age, i don’t think i’d fit any group. perhaps, i could assimilate myself to knight, but the bad boy niche doesn’t really match mine. say, i was a few years younger — then, you’d have me inside charm. i think i’d do a pretty good left and right if you ask me.”

9. if you could say one thing to your ceo, what would it be?

“i respect the business model you form. however, i’m still trying to understand it when applied to me. thirteen years, and i have yet to sit down and have a conversation with you. it’d be nice to have one someday.”

10. if you were auditioning for your company today, what would you perform for your audition, or what would you change from your original audition?

“my audition was so long ago. fourteen, fifteen years now, and that’s nearly half of my life. i wish i could remember parts — but there’s only the snippet of a ballad i sang, probably kim bum soo. all alongside some awkward dancing that bc shaped me up for. i’d probably pick a sung sikyung song instead.”

11. if you could do any special stage, what would it be and who would it be with?

”call it a weird match, but i’d have a set with duri, andy, joohwan, my maknae and jiah. well, those would be the people i’d know well enough to collaborate with, though the outcome might not be as promising as i initially thought. case closed, never make me do a special stage.”

12. what career opportunities would you like to pursue that you’ve yet to, or what achievements would you like to obtain that you’ve yet to?

“maybe a bit of variety? i’m completely happy where i am with acting, though it’d be better if decipher’s comebacks were rarer. however, i’m taking what i can get and variety might be a chance to show the side that doesn’t get shown when i’m playing a role on tv. i’ve heard from some people that i can be funny at times.”

13. if you could become a model or ambassador for any brand, what would you choose?

“as much as i like high fashion, i haven’t done any modeling in regards to brand deals with high fashion. a luxury brand would be nice — i hear prada has changed with the entrance of raf simons. i’ve been into the streetwear look lately after itaewon class, so that would be a current go-to. otherwise, i think i’m happy promoting good feel and credit cards.”

14. if you could be on any variety show, which one (or which type of one) would you want to be on?

“i live alone would be my first pick. only because i’ve decorated my house nicely recently, and haven’t had a chance to show it off to many people as i’m not home as often these days. however, that’d require an off day and i don’t have many of those lately. i think people would be shocked to see what i do when i’m around my house, lounging and rarely moving around.”

15. if you were offered the chance to become a ceo of an entertainment company, new or existing, would you take it? why or why not?

“as much as i’m leader of decipher, i don’t think i could handle leading a company. i wouldn’t want to become a ceo. it distracts from my own schedule, and i’d be too focused on my company rather than the hobbies and interests that appeal to me. sure, i’d make more money — but what’s more money on top of the money i already have? it’s counterproductive and i’d rather do what i like doing.”

16. what changes would you implement if you were the ceo of your company?

“each company runs on a specific pattern of events, and there’s a reason for that. a reason why routine shapes each group, so i wouldn’t necessarily change much. my trainee year was difficult, but it also fostered friendships within the group that i consider irreplaceable. the only change i can think of? maybe getting to know my artists rather than staying far off.”

17. what do you do to relieve the stress of idol life?

“i work out. i run a lot, and go to the gym as cliche as it sounds. but each role requires me to be in top shape, and after all that i’ve found a love for working out each morning. other than that, i like to shop and cook, even walk my dog. normal things any other person does on their day off. by the end of the day? finishing it off with a cold beer becomes my saving peace.”

18. what tips would you give to a trainee about to debut?

”push through it because it’s only a matter of time till debut happens. the trainee years are taken for granted, and you need to learn to treasure those moments. once debut happens, there’s no looking back and you’re constantly on the move — so, you’re better off enjoying now. also, don’t be afraid to approach sunbaes. we’re all in the same boat, been there and done that, so let us help where we can.”

19. what was the hardest part of being a trainee?

“singing while running around the room? i remember running too many laps, out of breath belting a high note. looking back, it was probably the time i thought i was going to end my trainee career right there and run to my parents. other than that? learning to live with others? i’ve lived a blessed life, and i’ve never had to share a room with anyone. that felt like a culture shock.”

20. did you enjoy the lifestyle of a trainee or of a debuted idol more?

“call me weird, but i’d say the trainee life. there was something special about those days, and now i’m so many years in my career and i miss the days crammed in the dorms. i don’t think there’s anything like it. the structure of it, the tears of joy and sadness all into one — every emotion all there. it’s rare moments like those i’ll never get back.”

21. what one song or album by another group or soloist would you have liked to release yourself?

“i’ve heard a lot of songs, but i heard a song recently by a charm member. one of the solo projects of dai, and his song let’s love was something that made me want to release music as well. maybe, it’s just inspiration just at that moment, but the song was something i enjoyed listening to. knight’s tempo was also something that i wish decipher was given, just because there’s a certain spark when it comes to the song.”

22. describe your dream sub-unit (members and concept).

“my dream sub-unit? does that relate to in-group or out of group? for the sake of this question, i’ll keep it in-group to simplify things. i’d like to keep our main vocal, myself and our lead rapper only because the maknae already has his thing in champion — though conceptually, i’m not sure what we’d be able to do. something non-dance related, i’d hope. perhaps, a power house vocal because i know our lead rapper can belt a few notes better than most main vocals of other groups.”

23. out of the following six options, would you rather be allowed to play a major hand in the lyrics, production, choreography, styling, music videos, or concepts you release?

“no lyrics, production or choreography. i’ve never been talented in that market, and maybe that’s why i don’t take part in any of these things. instead, i’d keep to the styling, and music videos — though, i don’t have an artistic eye. perhaps, i’d keep to styling as it lies most with my interests. my members might get bored of wearing the same dress shirts and slacks for each comeback.”

24. which of the two other companies (out of bc, dimensions, and gold star) you are not currently signed under would you rather be an artist in?

“none of the other two. i’ve said it time and time again that i’m loyal to bc — i might complain about it, sure. but in hindsight, i don’t see myself being in any other music company. now, if you had asked me in terms of acting? then, we’d have a different story between namoo, artist and vast.”

25. what is your least favorite part of being an idol?

“there’s no breaks, not for age. there’s little opportunity to cease the past, and continue on a new future. instead, i’m always tethered to the role of an idol, and despite how much i try — they still reel me back in each time for another comeback. on top of that, some songs don’t age well with time — decipher has a few of those. yet, because they’re fan favorites, i have no choice but to dance and sing along as if it’s 2009 again.”

26. what is your favorite part of being an idol?

“ironic, but there’s a lot of opportunities to try new things. i wouldn’t have thought of cf modeling or acting, if it weren’t for the opportunities presented to me. as a result, i’ve found a new enjoyment in an acting career due to the idol life. plus, along the way i meet different people to give me new insight — suppose it keeps me young again.”

27. would you rather be incredibly famous with a terrible reputation and hated by most or be fairly unknown with a good reputation and adored by those who know of you? why?

“i don’t know how to answer this one because being incredibly famous with a terrible reputation is just a cheapened output of your career you’ve built thus far. that would simply become a life unenjoyable, so by default i suppose i’d rather have the latter. fairy unknown with a good reputation because that way, you have a basis to build yourself up.”

28. what moment in your career are you proudest of so far?

“i’d either attribute it to parasite, which did win a lot of accolades not only in the country but out or i’d give it to the recent baeksang nomination for the dramas i was in. i don’t think i’d ever predict the success of stories i had a pleasure of working on. in retrospect, it was nice that so many people were able to relate and get along with the characters i was given the honor of portraying.”

29. what have you learned about yourself and/or society since becoming a celebrity?

“i’m no longer an extrovert. in fact, i’m more of an introvert. i used to think i was an extrovert, and one time i was when i was busy running around getting assimilated to those new faces. however, over the years, my circle’s only run short and i’ve been given little things here and there that make me want to preserve my small circle of people i’ve gotten to know along the way. i don’t like going out and partying, and much rather have a night in with dubu in peace.”

30. what would you like to change about how society views or treats idols?

“it’d be nice to be given more freedom — but isn’t that what everyone wants? i’m talking about stepping into something without facing backlash, or how we’re seen as approachable because we’re public figures. it’d be nice to sit down and have a meal without the thought of dispatch finding who i’m with, or scrutinizing any of my friendships. there should be some level of normalcy given, and i think that’s the least anyone could ask for.”

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headcanon #019: hair through the eras

word count: 1,375 1,501 1,555 words

updated august 8, 2020 february 13, 2021 !

Mama (2012)

Ash debuted with what I would like to call shaggy emo hair.  It was a little longer and wavier than he’d had normally in the most recent times pre-debut, but Ash quite liked this style for his hair at the time and had no complaints.

Wolf (2013)

It took over a year for Knight to comeback and during that time Ash had mostly kept his hairstyle from Mama era. It was only when it came time to shoot the music video and promotional photos they he was given a new hairdo for the era, which was a reddish-brown coif. The aim was to make him look a little older and a little sportier without making him look too mature since he was still one of the younger members of the group. Though he was only seventeen, he began to earn more attention for his visuals this era than he had in debut. Despite his negative opinions on nearly everything else about this era, he once again didn’t have any major complaints about his hair style, though he was attached to his debut era hair.

Growl (2013)

Growl was the first time Ash had an obviously unnatural hair color, as he was styled with a red bowl cut with angular bangs. As was the styling of the era, the style was chosen to look youthful and easy to style with a backwards baseball cap if they chose to put him in one. He went back to a natural color very quickly after this era finished, as he found the hair dye made his hair more brittle due to being particularly sensitive to it.

Overdose (2014)

For Overdose, Ash went back to an unnatural color with dark purple hair, usually styled in a comma hairstyle. It was a popular look for fans at the time, but Ash wouldn’t personally consider it one of his favorite hairstyles he’s ever had and he went back to a normal dark brown halfway through promotions due to the hair dye irritating him again. It was one of the more popular eras for him visually again, though. Fans seemed to like his hair styled to show his forehead.

Call Me Baby (2015) 

For Call Me Baby, Ash’s hair was somewhat similar to the previous era with dark brown hair, though his bangs were shorter. He didn’t have much of an opinion on his styling this era, to be honest.

Love Me Right (2015)

For Love Me Right, Ash’s hair was lightened to a light brown with long bangs and some blonde highlights. Ash quite liked the longer bangs looks

Sing For You (2015)

While this is one of Ash’s favorite era’s musically, he probably couldn’t tell you what his hairstyle had been for it, but he had brown hair with asymmetrically parted bangs. His hair was pretty healthy at this point and it would continue to be saved from bleach for several more eras.

Monster / Lucky One (2016) & Lotto (2016)

His first two eras after his scandal brought one of his fans’ favorite hairstyles of all time, and Ash was happy that they had something to talk about other than his recent bad press. For Monster/Lucky One promotions, as well as the repackage promotions with Lotto, Ash had black comma hair.

Fanfare (2016) & Gorilla (2016) & Hey Mama! (2016)

The next three eras came incredibly close together with almost no break for Ash, so his hairstyle remained the same throughout all three — a brown wavy style that was easy to maintain.

Can You Feel It? (2016)

This time around, Ash got a medium brown bowl cut. Ash wasn’t a huge fan, but it was a popular style at the time that many other idols had and he didn’t say anything to stylists since he was just grateful he hadn’t been punished for his scandal with outrageous hairstyles.

Roar (2017)

Roar brought the first major hair color change for Ash since Overdose three years prior  —  a light brown/dirty blonde color generally styled with a wavy texture. The bleaching required to lighten his hair had taken a toll on it again, so the color didn’t last long past the end of music show promotions.

Easy Love (2017)

His hair was back to a light brown for Easy Love, one of his favorite eras musically, but again pretty forgettable as far as hairstyle. Stylists did sometimes give him pink highlights this era, namely for the music video and a select few music show performances and fan signs early in the promotion period.

Ko Ko Bop (2017)

For Kokobop, Ash’s hair was pretty much the same as it had been for Easy Love, light brown, though they had long ago given up on the pink highlights by this point. He was also on We Got Married’s special summer season during this time, so they wanted him to have an approachable and friendly look.

365 Fresh (2017) & Power (2017)

For these two eras, which included the first round of promotions Ash had ever done outside of his group, he went slightly darker with the brown and had some highlights to add texture. Unlike the past few eras, his hair was finally styled to expose his forehead again and was often styled for a wavy coif of bangs to frame his face. It was, again, a more popular era for him visually, as most eras where his bangs are styled out of his face tend to be.

I’m Young (2017) & O Sole Mio (2018) & Blooming Days (2018)

For his solo debut as well as the Knight era and the White Knight era following it, Ash ditched the shades of brown to go for a solid black that was generally styled with his bangs parted in the middle to show his forehead again. It could be argued this was the beginning of a more mature styling for him.

Critical Beauty (2018)

For Critical Beauty, Ash kept the black, though it was styled with his bangs to one side and out of his face and he had a bit of an undercut. Compared to his usual middle part, he had a side part this era. Ash liked this style, but it only lasted as long as music show promotions before he changed it again.

Tempo (2018) & Untitled, 2014 (2018)

Ash’s hair was initially dyed pink/red for the filming of his BC Portal “New Heroes”, but due to an overwhelmingly positive response, he kept it through the end of the year. By the time he was promoting Untitled, 2014, it was more of a faded pink or even simply blonde to spare his hair from all of the dye on top of the bleach.

Love Shot (2019)

After the damage his hair had suffered in the back half of 2018, it was obvious Ash would need to go back to a dark brown for Love Shot era. It matched the dark and sexy but sophisticated vibes of the song, anyway.

Troublemaker (2019)

For Troublemaker, Ash’s hair was still dark brown or black, but he had begun letting it grow out.

Now or Never (2019) & Now (2019)

For Knight’s next comeback as well as his second release with Yoona, he had continued letting his hair grow out and it was now dark and curly. Ash was really loving growing his hair out longer than he’d ever been allowed to have it be and if he hadn’t been so exhausted at time time, he would have been really feeling himself. As it hair got longer, it got more divisive, though, and there was a vocal minority of fans (and, even more so, anti-fans jumping on the opportunity to hate) who absolutely hated the new look and were more than happy to make it known in online comments and to his face.

Romanticism / D (Half Moon) (2019) & Enough (2020)

For his third solo album through now, Ash’s hair has been black and wavy, and at its longest. He’s not a very vain person, but he really does like how he looks these days and thinks he’s the closest to how he’d choose to look if he wasn’t an idol and had more of a say in how he presents himself.

Woo Ah (2020)

Ash cut his hair shortly before the release of his song. It was far more BC’s idea than his, but he sported a shorter hair style with blue-green ends for the short promotions of this song, often in a forehead-exposing, comma hair style. For several months after, as his hair began to slowly grow out again, he would still make appearances with green ends.

How Can I Love The Heartbreak, You’re The One I Love (2020)

The sound of this song was more of a classic sound, so Ash lost the dyed ends and instead stuck with dark brown/black hair that had grown out to a similar length as it had been around the same time the year before and generally styled wavy.

Bittersweet (2020)

For this comeback, Ash kept the longer dark hair that he’d had in his viral fancam a month prior, which was pretty similar to his hair from the previous solo album. His hair was permed during this time and throughout this period, he often styled his hair up in buns or ponytails.

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courtney eaton. 24. genderfluid. they & them. the front bottoms. | i can’t believe i just saw LUCINDA “LUKE” ARCHULETTA walking out of cadence records. they’re the GUITAR & LEAD VOCAL from the INDIE ROCK group WE TRIED USING A BAND NAME GENERATOR who have been in the industry for SIX YEARS. the tabloids love to focus on their ALOOF nature , but they’re also pretty HONEST and they seem to give off a vibe that reminds people of TYING FLANNELS AROUND YOUR WAIST, NEVER BEING WARM ENOUGH, PLAYING AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR IN A SHARP TUXEDO, CLAIMING YOU DON’T SMOKE MARIJUANA WHEN YOU DO, THE COMFORT AT THE BOTTOM OF A SWIMMING POOL. 

                                     she started talking backwards , but nothing                                      good it brings her. so the next time that she                                      sees him, it’ll be peace sign + middle finger.                                      to listen as you read.

listen i always say i’ll stick with one muse and that never happens so i’ll just skip the part here where i berate myself for being weAK and instead introduce u to lukey-pookie here !! they’re a very new muse ( while also combining some essences of other muses of mine ) since normally i pick from a premade roster of my own ocs and normally use courtney for a... very different character but 1.) i’m gay and 2.) i love the front bottoms so HERE WE GO !

tws : depression, divorce, arrest, drug usage / overdose

HISTORY

So Luke was born to a regular working class family in Wilmington, Delaware - they have some relation with the famous DuPont family that built their name there, but don’t have anything to show for it since a few generations ago Luke’s great grandmother cut off the rest of her family and now they don’t speak. So Archuletta it is.

Their mom worked a typical 9-5 job and their dad was an aspiring painter - but he was always... sick. Not sick in the physical sense, no - sick in the fact he never was himself. Sick in way that Luke always thought he was so tired and sad and nothing could ever cheer him up, and they rarely spent much time with him due to his tendencies to keep to himself. So that led to an early divorce between him and Luke’s mother when they were about six years old.

So Luke’s life was relatively normal. Maybe even too normal for them. And they’d try and put themselves out there - even joining musical theatre in attempts to try and find “their group.” Musical theatre was where they’d meet Krista.

A beautiful girl who had a passion for Broadway, booze, and marijuana - she’d become Luke’s greatest friend, and even taking Luke to meet their friends she hung out with regularly after class. But they weren’t the kids you’d want to bring home to hang out with in your parents’ house. No, in fact - they were the opposite.

Bad things, those friends did - well - bad ( or rather, illegal ) things, and Luke followed along. Such as smoking pot and getting caught for it, spraypainting and defiling public areas, maybe getting into a fight or two. In an effort to fit in, Luke would do the same - but they faced the consequences they’d never thought - considering those kids seemed invincible. Untouchable. 

Setting off fireworks from the roof of an abandoned building it a bad idea. Getting arrested the cops is an even worse idea. Your friends running off before they can get caught, leaving you alone to wait for your mom to pick you up... The worst idea.

Nobody came to check on them after that.

Not even Krista.

But the next day, Luke hung out with them like nothing was wrong, following that crowd still - and it’d only reach a breaking point when they were sixteen and had to call the ambulance since Luke found Krista in the bathroom of a party unconscious due to overdose. And thank god she survived - 

And there they were again, without many friends since Krista was seemingly the only person who even came close to genuinely liking them and everyone else, they barely knew anything about. And Luke would grow, finishing high school and clinging to the only other friend they had since childhood - being convinced to write out their issues since by NOW, Luke maybe turned out a bit more cynical than they used to be.

Writings of prose and poetry turned to translating that to music - and that would be the beginning of their new life: We Tried Using A Band Name Generator.

ABOUT ‘WE TRIED’: 

‘We Tried Using A Band Name Generator’ - or more conveniently just referred to as ‘We Tried’ is probably Luke’s pride and joy. It was their friend’s idea for them to originally write out how they felt - and they mutually came up with the decision to try and write songs out of that.

A small band from Wilmington didn’t seem like it was going to get notice, and it took a little while, sure - it started with an EP titled Slow Dance to Soft Rock ( 2013 ) that made Cadence turn their way. Since the indie community definitely liked the acoustic sounds paired with raw, blunt, honest emotions pushed out in songs like The Beers and Swimming Pool. And that was when they got signed.

The first album they’d release would be six months later - self-tilted, We Tried Using A Band Name Generator. They didn’t have too much of a following at the time, but they were making good momentum enough to convince them to keep going.

Things were going so well, in fact, that during touring, Luke & their best friend / drummer actually attempted dating since - there had to be a reason they worked so well together. There had to be SOME feelings. But a million arguments later and stressful tours, overall mentally testing experiences, pushing out an EP called Rose which was as amazing as it was tacing to complete... they couldn’t do it. It was thought that when their best friend left the group in early 2016, it was thought that everyone’s new favorite indie rock group was done for.

And... Luke couldn’t let that happen. It was selfish, too, in the sense that We Tried was their biggest method of release and comfort. So instead of just giving up, they got off from tour and IMMEDIATELY hit the studio for recording and song-writing.

The product of a few months of straight work would result in their 2016 album , Talon of the Hawk - all songs pulling experiences from the split between them and their drummer to their experiences with Krista in high school. 

Au Revoir/Adios was 100% written the day after their ex-drummer left. 

Another year of touring and thankfully, four more members joined the group - producing the EP Needy When I’m Needy as a sneak peak of what was new to come. A few months later , a surprise album called Back on Top would come out. 

The next three years would work well - with the band releasing another EP titled Ann and the inklings sprinkled of the next album - Going Grey.  

SO IN CASE THAT WAS TOO COMPLEX BC I RAMBLE... again, general timeline:

February 2013: Release of Slow Dance to Soft Rock

March 2013: We Tried is signed to Cadence

August 2014: Release of Self-Titled.

September 2014: Both members of We Tried start dating.

July 2015: Release of Rose.

December 2015: Nearing the end of touring, We Tried’s drummer quits and the pair breaks up. Touring officially ends later that month.

January 2016: Luke Archuletta announces they’ll be taking time to focus on a brand new album.

August 2016: Release of the rushed but extremely well-received Talon of the Hawk.

July 2017: We Tried introduces four new members.

October 2017: Release of Needy When I’m Needy.

March 2018: Release of the surprise album Back on Top.

January 2019: Release of the EP Ann, paired with the announcement production of the next album will begin soon.

March: Two songs - Peace Sign & You Used to Say (Holy Fuck) are released to tease Going Grey.

July 2018: Release of Going Grey. 

SO YOU CAN SORT OF TELL THE TIMELINE IS SPEEDY - because that’s a big part of how Luke sort of... overworks themselves and hyperfocuses on their music. Especially since ever since their first drummer left, they haven’t let go of the idea they can only rely on themselves. 

BUT MORE ABOUT THE BAND - We Tried’s aesthetic is sort of The Front Bottoms mixed with the Young Veins - Luke’s especially fond of showing up in suits, vests, etc. despite the normally blunt & uncouth content of the songs. 

There is literally always something being made. Luke can’t sleep without having something in the works. 

And... yeah that’s it honestly it’s rly just TFB but with a TWIST! 

ABOUT LUKE 

5′10, genderfluid bisexual bby who honestly just wants a nap

SOOOO yes, Luke’s a very chill individual but chill in the sense that... they just. Don’t care. Except when it comes to their work - then they work the hardest they can on that shit and have to pay attention to every little detail.

They’re still not actually sure if they have any talent - musical theater never seemed to work out, so why is a band doing that??

But they do have one thing down pat - directing. All of We Tried’s videos have so far been directed by Luke, save for a few. 

This comes from Luke’s longtime adoration of film and cinema, from the perspective of an observer and a director.

They DO have a tendency to be a little... clingy and aloof at the same time. They’re always worried about being in the position of trying to keep a band of only one person alive again but also they don’t really notice they can other people to do things for them now.

They’re independent to a fault, in that case.

And also now finally getting a hang of not falling into peer pressure since it’s just made them cynical and aloof from people now.

They’re v grateful for their bandmates tho!! Don’t get me wrong, they love them!

Luke’s more of someone who communicates their appreciation through gestures and actions than words - setting a blanket on you while you sleep, getting new drumsticks if you broke yours, making coffee in the morning when you’ve forgotten. That kind of stuff.

They don’t get a lot of sleep for the sole reason they sort of have tendencies to keep themselves awake just... thinking. Luke thinks a lot. Luke’s actually wack-levels of intelligent, and it does show in their music save for when they’re making odd comments and obscure references.

Luke talks about tattoos a lot, but they’re actually barren since they’re afraid of needles. 

They also don’t drink, but they do smoke marijuana. But they’ll never admit to it - ...like TFB even though they have a MILLION songs that mention recreational use of the drug.

They sort of don’t really know where their purpose is, still - and that does lead them into a depression of their own, much like their father. They don’t talk to him and their mother that much nowadays - considering, the dream was always that Luke be a lawyer or a doctor and not the crass musician that they are.

They’re lowkey a fucking comedian but in the dry, deadpan humor sense. Most of their interviews consist of them making some joke that either takes a little while for the interviewer to get or one that makes the room silent for a quick minute. Or, even worse, they’re taken seriously.

Despite this aloofness, though, they actually thrive on being around other people. They’re sort of relearning how to accept that, though, since again, they’ve been shelling themselves up in their own work for quite some time. 

Also lowkey a bit of a flirt bt u didn’t hear that from me

Rides a motorcycle partially to look cool and also... bc they have the song ‘Motorcycle’ which was about them. Trying to learn how to ride a motorcycle so it just kind of stuck.

They’ve got another talent in dancing, since they took ballet classes throughout middle school to high school - but had to quit after they got arrested. Shame.

Their one dream was to be Ariel in the Broadway production of The Little Mermaid when they were younger since... they also love the sea and Disney Princesses so much secretly, but they’ve sort of given up on that.

Their love for the sea’s also because of where they’re from - Delaware beaches are beautiful and were Luke’s happy place back then. 

Most of their loves and interests are sprinkled in their songs, in that case - Delaware scenery, references of Disney films, etc.

They’re a very... complex individual. But god I lOVE them.

WCs

THE DRUMMER. PLS GIVE ME THE DRUMMER. I HAV IT ON THE MAIN... PLS GIVE ME THE OG DRUMMER THAT LEFT AND NOW HAS A SOLO CAREER OR IS IN ANOTHER BAND ELSEWHERE. PLS.

also the current bandmates. that would b. cool.

if ppl from luke’s old squad can show up now w/ their own careers... that would b. cool.

kids who they went to high school with that r surprised where they are now.

enemies in the music scene who don’t like luke or we tried for a multitude of reasons

maybe they think luke’s secretly a conceited dick underneath the ‘distant mysterious songwriter’ schtick

mayBBEEEE they think the nature of we tried’s songs are some sort of keep gimmick to try and cash in on being ‘casual’ and ‘relatable’

maybe they just don’t like the damn band i mean. yeah.

any reason. pls.

hook-ups bc i’ll b honest they are... a bit of a flirt. let luke serenade u w/ shit like “historic cemetery” cowards,

a rebound sort of?? probably very short-lived, but i can see luke wanting to get their mind off from their ex/drummer leaving and falling fast into another relationship - and that wouldn’t work out bc of it.

i’d also lov a plot where maybe sb discovers luke’s talent for dancing bc they do it for recreational purposes semi-often now?? 

maybe they can attend a class together or smth

or they just do it for fun at luke’s place

idk this cld go anywhere n it’s honestly adorable

ppl that they befriend who they can just. take back to delaware one day.

or even ppl they just hang out with to relive the ‘good ol days’

trips to the beach

buying store bought fireworks n setting them off

going on camping trips n shit

i’d lov a plot where there’s one person who just thinks luke is like... a MYSTERY and they just get closer and closer in attempts to try and figure that mystery out

also 100% open to brainstorming! i’ll actually get 2 interacting tmr bc it’s 2:30 AM nearly here n i want to sleep so yeah! chances are tho if u like this i’ll message u for plotting!! again if u want my discord - hmu @ rocky lynch lovebot / hylia.#0329. :^)

i love the front bottoms so much

[jocelynships]

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I got into Marvel and how at first it was just a silly little obsession and how it turned into something that ended up meaning so much to me.

So, I apologize for this sounding so sappy and for how long (it’s really long and I apologize greatly) and emotional this gets, but here:

Warning: Talk of past mental abuse and thoughts of self-harm/suicide

So here’s the funny thing, when I was between the ages of 10-13 I wanted absolutely NOTHING to do with Marvel. Everyone was talking about it and I will admit I was a bratty kid and if something was popular I had to Hate It™️. I’ve grown from that mindset and I’m SO glad I did. But anyways, not the point of the story.

When I was a little kid I watched the first Spider-Man movie with Tobey Maguire and Fantastic 4. I watched a lot of Spider-Man cartoons too. I can’t remember if I ever watched X-Men or not, but I remember seeing them in a few Spider-Man episodes. My dad liked Marvel and he’d play the movies (this was all pre MCU I should mention) and I think I’d watch bits and pieces of them while I played with whatever toys I had in my parent’s bedroom or living room (when I was a kid if my dad was home I HAD to be around him). So I had a VAGUE understanding of superheroes and who they were. I’m certain I could have named a few of them when I was younger, I just didn’t necessarily care.

So Avengers came out when I was finishing up 8th grade, and all my classmates were talking about it, but it annoyed me greatly. My best friend, Rebecca, had seen it already, and was freaking out about it with some of our other old friends. I made a comment like “is it really good or are you guys just trying to be cool like everyone else?”

And Rebecca goes, “Jocelyn, you really need to see it. I think you’d actually like it.”

“Superheroes are so overrated!”

“At least watch the trailer!”

So Rebecca pulled up the trailer on her iPod Touch (god I feel old just saying that), sat me down at one of the benches by the basketball court our tiny private school had, and I watched the trailer. I was kinda interested, but not totally sold. I decided the guys were hot, and if I would go if asked.

Then when I got home from school, I was looking for something to watch like most kids were. Nothing was on, but Disney XD was playing some Marvel cartoons and out of simple curiosity and not really liking anything else that was being played, I turned it on. And holy shit I ended up getting hooked.

So a few days later after watching these cartoons I suggest seeing Avengers to my dad. He gets this look on his face like, “who the hell are you and what did you do to my daughter because she hates superheroes?” He asks me if I’m a Marvel fan now and I mentioned the cartoons, so he went and rented the movies leading up to the Avengers, and I wasn’t actually expecting to like anything, I just wanted to see it because I thought the guys were hot.

So I ended up really enjoying the movies, and my dad and I started seeing the other MCU films that came out. I told myself I was only interested in the Avengers and Spider-Man really (the Amazing Spider-Man came out the same year as the Avengers and my dad took me to see it). I told myself didn’t really care about any of the other hero teams.

BUT THEN I GET INTRODUCED TO THIS REALLY COOL FACEBOOK MARVEL GAME! They sadly don’t have it anymore which in my opinion is BULLSHIT, but it was called Avengers Alliance and they had a shit ton of characters in it. My goal was to get them all but I never did bc it got shut down (listen I would kill to have it brought back okay THEY HAD A BUNCH OF X-MEN CHARACTERS) But basically I saw all these characters I had no idea existed and me being me, my mind went “I MUST KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM”! I really don’t know everything about them and I’m still discovering characters but that’s okay!! The Marvel universe is HUGE and I love learning new stuff about it!! But anyways back to my original point!! I remembered I really liked the Fantastic 4 when I was younger so I started watching the original two movies again (I haven’t seen the 2015 remake nor do I plan to ever). Then I saw we had the first two X-Men films, okay lets watch those. Oh, who’s Daredevil and the other Defenders? They seem cool!! Ghost Rider? Hell yeah, a skeleton on fire how cool is that?! Agents of SHIELD? I loved Phil Coulson, I had to watch it! Hey, the Guardians of the Galaxy are really cool too! I know nothing about Doctor Strange but he was in some Spider-Man cartoons and he seemed awesome! Blade, a vampire that doesn’t sparkle? SIGN ME UP!

Basically from the time I was 14-17, I was just basically running down an aisle at a grocery store picking out characters I thought looked cool. I also learned a lot about the characters from some mobile games I downloaded bc hey, I like games.

But at the same time as I was going through everything, I started developing some extreme anxiety and depression problems. I didn’t exactly realize it WAS anxiety and depression, I just thought I was extremely sensitive and did a bunch of shit wrong, so I assumed I was just a screw up whenever my mother yelled at me for getting a B in class or blamed me for her being late to work when I was ready to go and she was just getting in the shower. It wasn’t until my senior year did I realize something was wrong with the way she was treating me and the way I was feeling. But again, I brushed it off as nothing.

I went through my senior year feeling anxious and depressed a lot. But I was a SENIOR! I was almost done with high school! I had a great group of friends and we’d hang out on the weekends and go off campus for lunch to the Taco Bell down the road! Things couldn’t be bad!

But tensions were rising high at home. I was sort of oblivious to a lot of it and to be honest, I’m a little upset with myself for not noticing it sooner. My parents were fighting a lot, and halfway through my senior year of high school, my sister and niece had to move in with us because her ex husband was an alcoholic and was getting abusive. (She ended up going back for about another year, but left permanently the second time she moved in with us) And needless to say things were really rough since there was now five people in a two bedroom apartment and my sister and my niece stayed in my room with me. Which was difficult since my niece was 4/5 at the time and had quite the temper, and I was also her favorite person, yet I was occupied with school work.

My anxiety and depression got worse, and it got to the point where I was having meltdowns in class and would have to leave school early or just stay home. After a month or two and a HUGE fight between pretty much everyone (except me, they only stopped when I had a massive panic attack), my sister moved back.

And things were slightly okay again. During that break I got reintroduced to X-Men through a couple different things: my best friend, @rosyinlove, X-Men Apocalypse was coming out, and my brother gave me his old Xbox 360 and the game Marvel Ultimate Alliance. I’ve seen the first two movies at this point and I was already kinda curious about them, but wasn’t until that year did I realize “hey these guys are kinda cool!” So I played as them in Ultimate Alliance just because they were the most fun to play. And while he sadly wasn’t a playable character, Nightcrawler was a character and you had to rescue him in a quest (or kill him and save Jean instead, I had a dilemma over the very idea of killing him and this was BEFORE I started shipping with him!) and he fascinated me. IDK if it was my brain just liking him as a character or going “WHOO BOY HE’S HOT”, but my interest in him was growing and I was kinda sad he wasn’t a playable character!

And with Apocalypse coming out the day after I graduated high school, I decided I had to see it, so I impulsively bought the other movies and well... the rest is history. I started watching the cartoons and while I didn’t get my hands on any comics, I read bits and pieces online.

And for some reason, the X-Men just spoke out to me in a way I can’t explain. I loved all the other heroes I came across, but there was something about the team of mutants that really pulled me in. Maybe because I related to the fact of being outcast? But in any case, I was drawn to them and I latched onto them and just didn’t let go. Even when 70s and 80s pop culture was the main thing on my mind in 2017, I still had the X-Men in the back of my mind and I thought “oh hey, this song reminds me of the X-Men”, “Kurt would like this song”, or “omg this movie would be a cute AU for me and Kurt!”

But anyways, the summer of 2016 was kind of rough. My mother was getting onto me for every single little thing and even yelled at me in front of my friends once for asking her to bring some some soda after she OFFERED to get us some. My friends pulled me aside and said, “hey, that’s not normal”. And I was in a really bad place. I loved my mother, but I felt awful being around her. I felt like I had to walk on eggshells around her. If I said the wrong thing I’d be punished. I was afraid of her.

So I noticed whenever I got anxious or depressed I would turn to the X-Men movies and cartoons and I’d feel a little better. Then I started writing dumb little stories and made silly doodles of me hanging out with them. It was something that was fun and made me calm down when I was getting anxious.

Then August of 2016 came around.

I came home from spending the night at a friend’s house, and I was feeling really tired so when my dad asked for me to sit down and talk to him about something, I tried brushing him off because I just wanted to shower and go to sleep.

But he said, “it’s really serious” and whenever someone says that my anxiety shoots through the roof and I think of the worst case scenario, such as someone was dying or was dead. So I sat down with him and I’m expecting him to tell me someone was dead, but he just goes:

“Your mother and I are splitting up.”

Basically my world came crashing down at that point.

My mother started getting more and more irritable and began yelling and screaming at me over the smallest things. And she was convinced I was going to stay with her and she talked to me about all her plans she had for us, but I was going to move out with my dad. But I didn’t want to tell her because I was terrified of how she was going to respond (she lashed out when things didn’t go her way), and I said, “I still haven’t made up my mind on who I’m going with”. That still caused her to lash out.

So she screamed at me and told me things like “I was leaving her to die” or “I was a horrible daughter for abandoning her”. And from that she just lashed out over everything. Not to mention my sister and my niece moved back in that September.

So my mother was constantly fighting with my dad, berating me, and my sister and my niece never gave me any alone time despite being in my first semester of college. I had very little time to work on homework and would stay at school for longer than I needed to be there just to work on homework without my sister and my niece bothering me. And I also got stuck watching my niece quite a bit because my sister was running off with a guy she had just met. And I get that she was going through a really rough divorce as well and really liked this dude, but it happened every night. I needed an escape from it all.

So I started binge watching Marvel movies and cartoons every chance I got. Mainly X-Men. I fantasized often about Kurt bamfing himself and the X-Men into my apartment, sternly telling my family I was going with them and they couldn’t stop them. I wrote and drew more and more of my silly self insert stuff because it was a way to forget about all the bullshit that was going on at home.

Eventually things just got worse as the time for my dad and I to move out got closer, and my mother would start up fights with my dad just about every night. And she did this when I was in the next room and could hear everything. She also got physical with him and while my dad could have easily defended himself and fight back, he didn’t because she was trying to get him fucking arrested.

So I was having difficulties dealing with their constant fighting and my mother trying to pull me into the middle of the drama. My dad told her to keep me out of it since none of it had to do with me. Needless to say she kept pulling me into the middle of things and tried to get me to side with her and would scream her head off if I didn’t want to talk about it. I got called selfish for having anxiety and depression, and she threatened to hit me on multiple occasions. She never did, but holy shit I got so scared every time she held her hand up like she was going to smack me across the face. I showed up to class crying quite often and when my classmates asked what was wrong I’d brush it off and tell them it was nothing. 

And as time went on I had falling outs with everyone on my mother’s side of the family and both of my siblings (I have made up with them separately, but things are tense between them still because they don’t like each other’s spouses and it stresses me out because they shit talk each other to me and I have to act like I’m on their side), and my dad and I were struggling and I felt like a huge burden on him. Needless to say it got to the point where I felt like I was doing something wrong, that everyone would be better off without me, and I wanted to end it all.

I actually did go to grab a knife once when no one was home bc I was having urges to hurt myself, but the instant I grabbed the knife a little voice in my mind just went into panic mode and screamed, “Captain America wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself!”

And then that voice kept listing off as many heroes as it could, and when I started thinking about the X-Men not wanting me to hurt myself, I just dropped the knife into the sink and had a breakdown.

And still to this day when I do get those thoughts I always think about how a certain fuzzy elf wouldn’t want me to hurt or kill myself. I haven’t cut (I have participated in other self destructive behaviors in the past I don’t wish to discuss, but I’m fighting it), and honestly it’s because I don’t want to worry the X-Men.

They may not be real, and I’m not sure they would really care about me if they were, but still the idea of having a group of people who also come from fucked up families and are outcast from society acting like a family to each other really helps me get through all of this.

I just keep telling myself that if all these superheroes could go through hell and back, then so could I. Sure, I’m not fighting villains hellbent on taking over the world or struggling with having superpowers I can’t control, but still it’s inspiring to see them continue on despite their hardships. If they can do it, then why can’t I?

And the X-Men have really helped me through that. Like I said, they aren’t real, but they are extremely relatable characters. Especially Kurt. I’ve been outcast before and while I do have my group of close friends, I still feel like I don’t belong. He’s been outcast and shunned by society for his appearance. While both of Kurt’s parents are awful and my mother didn’t try to kill me (to be honest I was afraid she was going to snap and kill my dad a couple times), we both have kinda fucked up familes. But despite all of this we still try to see the good in others and do good for people. And I want to help him through his hardships and have him know he can always come to me for comfort.

When I started the Night Roses and the Jocelyn and the X-Men stuff, a lot of it was coping. I wanted to be rescued by Kurt and the X-Men, and I wanted to help them overcome their issues. A lot of the Night Roses relationship is being each other’s support system. The idea of not only having Kurt comfort me, but me comforting him helps me so much. It gives me something to live for. When I was going to therapy, I told my therapist about it and she said it was a great coping mechanism and a way for me to practice self love and acceptance.

And while he’s just a comic book character, I sincerely hope I can find someone just like Kurt in real life one day. He means so much to me, and I hope whoever I get with in the future will understand that.

I apologize for this being so long, but really, Marvel means the absolute would to me, and it’s really hard to explain to people why and I often get written off as an obsessive nerd who has no grasp on reality. But I know how I feel and I know the people who matter understand how important Marvel is to me. Honestly, I don’t know where I’d be without Marvel. I probably wouldn’t be here. I’m still struggling with a lot of issues, but I know I can get through it thanks to the X-Men and the other superheroes of Marvel. ❤️

[intimatevoid]

stolen from @littledonkeyburrito

1. Do you have callouses on your fingers? I did, back when I still played guitar often. Not anymore. 2. Ever seen the movie Sky High? Fucking iconic. 3. Do you think that horses are a bit terrifying? They are truly the most evil of creatures.

4. Do you do the grocery shopping? Who else is going to do it?

5. Do you like laying out?   I don’t understand what this means..?

6. How many times have you been to the beach? Never since reaching adulthood.

7. What time do you like to wake up?   I like to wake up early, like 6am. I ACTUALLY wake up at any time between 7 and midday, depending on when I fell asleep the night before, and how badly my mental illness is playing up.

8. Do you have your own car?   I do. But it was old and crappy when I got it, and I suspect it will die before the end of next year.

9. How often do you listen to music? Usually when I'm driving, cooking, cleaning and showering.

10. Have you ever ridden a train? Are there people in western countries that haven’t been on a train?

11. Have you done anything productive today, anyway? I called my JSA about postponing my appointment til tomorrow, and made Ash a cup of tea.

12. Eaten anything delicious today? Mark bought Ash and me Chinese food last night - a rare treat for us - and I had leftovers for breakfast.

13. Have you ever dated someone simply for their looks? While I'm attracted to people's looks, I'm pretty sure my motives for dating have always been mental and emotional.

14. How many boyfriends have you had in 2017? One.

15. Do you know your Social Security number by heart? I think I've memorised most of my ID numbers.

16. How often do you say ‘lol’ in a computer or text conversation? Not very often. Usually I say haha, or when I'm being more sarcastic, lmao.

17. Can you curse around your parents? When we talk on the phone I use curse words, yeah.

18. Are you happy with where you live? It's a good house but too cramped. Town-wise, Toowoomba is trash but it's the coolest (as in temperature) region you'll find north of Victoria.

19. Do people ever mistake you for being a different race? No, I’m pretty damn pasty.

20. If you had the chance to move to a completely different state, would you? I don't know. All the people I care about are here. Losing their proximity would wreck me.

21. Do you have a flag? Like, a physical flag made of fabric? No.

22. Do you know where the gun in your house is?   Good god, what a terrifying assumption.

23. Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue piercing? I have kissed several people with them.

24. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring? Bug spray, sleeping bag, water.

25. Do you still see your ex? Seb and I still occasionally see each other, yeah. 26. Name the last thing to make you angry? I don’t get angry very often, so it's hard to say. 27. What has been the best year of your life so far? I don't know tbh. Every year has been either bad or weird. I guess 2016 was the least bad. 28. If someone liked you now, would you want them to tell you? Yup~ 29. The last person you held hands with, what’s their best feature? They have beautiful eyes and gentle hands and an excellent tum.

30. Is there a high chance you’ll see someone good looking tomorrow? I probably will look in a mirror, yeah

31. When was the last time you flew in a plane? Back in 2012.

32. Think of the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them in a car? Yes. 33. Do you mind sleeping on the floor? I'd rather not, but I can if I must. 34. Do you have a good relationship with your mother? Not at all. Though at least it's better than my relationship with my dad... 35. What is your least favourite season? 3 36. Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours? I have hugged someone in the last 72 minutes. 37. What do you hear right now? The wind outside my window, the dull rumble of trucks on the highway, a distant train horn, the town clock ringing for 10am, and the quiet hum of my computer. 38. If you say you’ll call someone back, will you? Yes, unless I forget.

39. Do you toss and turn for hours at night or do you just fall straight to sleep? Depends on how tired I am and how mentally well I am. 40. What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss? Same shirt I'm wearing right now, since it was at the same time as that last hug too. :P White. 41. Where do you want to live when you’re older? I want to move to Montreal with @aelwen, sometime in the next ten to twenty years. 42. When you sleep on your bed, is stuff usually on it? Sometimes. I usually kick it off though. 43. Is it easy to make you smile? Very easy. 44. Do you like to play on playgrounds? When is the last time you did? God, it's been ages. I think the last time, I was in high school, and was sitting on a playground in Gatton with a friend while we waited for our dads to pick us up.

45. What do you think of when you hear the word “meow"? Kitties and how much I love them :3

46. Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

I don't think so. Sounds cramped.

47. What’s the background on your cell? A gorgeous selfie that @aelwen sent me.

48. Name the last four beds you sat on? My bed at home, Ash's bed, Ruin's bed, and Dakota's bed.

49. Would you rather have a poodle or Rottweiler? Hard to say. Whichever would be easier to care for. I wouldn't want to be a bad caretaker.

50. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? Zoo, probably. I haven't been to one of those in years, but I've been to an art gallery more recently.

51. Do you wear hats if you’re having a bad hair day? My hair refuses to let me wear hats. There's too much of it.

52. Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Been there, done that, never again.

53. Does your bedroom have a door? Yeah, but it's a repurposed front door, and literally has a big glass window in the middle of it.

54. Do you think two people can last forever? The people of pompeii have lasted pretty well so far, but forever is still a bit of a stretch.

55. How many windows are open on your computer? No idea. I'm answering this on my phone.

56. What is your ringtone? The Overwatch POTG music. Actually it's about time I changed it...

57. Does your mum try to be cool? Idk. I haven't seen her in years.

58. What are you listening to? Now that I've moved to Ash's room, it's different. I'm listening to the wind blowing through the plants outside the window, faint voices from the park across the road, the whirring of my fan, cars passing by, and Ash using their mouse and keyboard.

59. What were you doing before you took this survey? Napping. My sleep cycle is fucked.

60. What things did you eat today? Leftover Chinese food.

61. Do you think you gained or lost weight this past month? Gained, and it went to my hips and boobs, hell yes

62. What kind of milk do you drink? Long life. Ash and I are poor and have to buy in bulk.

63. Do you swear at your parents?

Generally not AT them. I’ll use swear words in conversation with them though. Though more recently I swore at my cunt of a dad.

64. Have you ever been ice skating? No, just a tonne of roller skating.

65. Do you always wear your seat belt? Yeah, it's the law here and also I've been in enough crashes to know it's necessary.

66. Do you like sushi? I love sushi.

67. What food do you find disgusting? Very, very few. I tend to be more indifferent about foods than hateful. But let me think... Weetbix, couscous, things with nasty textures like that.

68. Do older members of the opposite sex ever hit on you? Hahaha, nobody ever hits on me.

59. Do you drink the 6-8 cups of water a day? I have a 2L water bottle that I finish off once or twice a day.

60. What does your last outgoing message say? “orrrrr i could fall asleep again"

61. Could you date someone taller than you? Oh yes. :3

62. What is your current mood? Vague.

63. Does it bother you to have dirt on the bottom of your bare feet? Not really, as long as the ground isn't too hot.

64. Who was your first crush? lmao it was Lt. Helga Sinclair from Atlantis

65. What are you wearing on your feet? Nothing because it would be insanity in this weather

66. Last person who drove you somewhere? Ash, I think

67. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? No, I don't think I ever have.

68. Do you prefer fruit or vegetables? I consume more vegetables but I don’t think I actually prefer one over the other.

69. What are your favourite textures? Smooth skin. Fluffy fabric. Reeeeeeally soft pillows.

70. If you won a LOT of money the lottery and decided to move, where would you move to? I would go visit a bunch of my friends before settling down in Canada, I think.

71. Alcoholic beverage of choice? Vodka tbh ^^;

72. What’s the youngest you would consider dating? Hard to say. I'd be hesitant to date anyone under the age of 21, though, bc emotional maturity.

73. If you were around in the sixties would you be a mod or a rocker? I don’t know what those words mean

74. Are thongs sexy? You ain’t actually talkin bout flipflops are ya?

75. What do you think of when I say “the twenties”? My age..?

76. Is penetration important to you? What context could this possibly be other than sexual?

77. What sport were you best at in high school? Me? Sport? High school? Ahahahahahaha

78. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed? Vodka~

79. Have you ever had a teacher hit on you? Nnnnnnope.

80. What would you do if it snowed right now? Open up the BOM website to see if it was actually happening or I was just nuts.

81. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status? It's not really difficult to grasp?

82. Have your past mistakes made you wiser? Of course.

83. What’s your opinion on good grammar: important or not? Not inherently important, as long as communication is clear. Good grammar aids in communication but doesn't guarantee it.

84. The last time you said ‘I love you’ to someone, who said it first, them or you? I’m pretty sure one of my parents said it first because I couldn’t speak when I was a newborn. 85. Do you like potato salad? Nah, not a fan. 86. Have you ever driven and ended up running out of gas? Yeah, being povo is like that. 87. What was the reason behind the last time you stayed up all night? I had an irritated eye and couldn't sleep for all the itching.

88. How old were you when you were first pulled over by the police? 20 or so, I think, for an rbt.

89. When was the last time you drank out of a champagne glass?

Never.

90. Does it flood easily where you live?

Not in this specific part of town, but Toowoomba as a whole certainly does. *remembers 2011 with a shudder*

[coolpolarbear123]

BAND CAMP DAY 7

September 1st, 2017

Albus’ first year of Hogwarts--and my last Speaking of lasts, this is it, guys. The last band camp of my high school career.

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Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3 | Day 4 | Day 5 | Day 6

My 9th grade year, back in 2014, I did not have a tumblr. That’s one of the reasons those days weren’t recorded. The second was that there was no reason for me to. Why would I? I made new friends, I kept my old--just like that Girl Scout song about gold and silver circles (I should know--I’m still in Girl Scouts) And that band was the best thing of my freshman year. We had games every Friday night, we went to three competitions that year, all 60 people were the most family-like group I can remember. Practice Tuesday and Thursday until 4:30. Band was every day from 1:00-2:15. This was all in EST, of course. I have a lot of good memories from that time.

Of course, I moved, as you guys know. August 21st and 22nd of 2015. And because I moved here, I had to attend band camp here, naturally. So the July before we moved, I went to the band camp here. And it wasn’t the same. It was less strict, twice the size, not as family-like as I was told in an e-mail, and they only went to three or four games. No competitions. We didn’t march for the first days of band camp, and when we did, I was appalled. It was all Not Okay. I absolutely hated it. I went through that year pretty disgusted.

I needed a challenge--I told myself freshman year that being a drum major wasn’t for me. So there I was, as a drum major. 2016 band camp was year one of being a drum major, along with two very fun other guys (HDM and ODM). I was a nervous wreck, but it was better than 2015. Of course, marching and fundamentals were still not there.

Being a drum major was better than being on the field, so now it’s 2017, and I’m the “head” drum major. It was definitely different. The first year that I’ve known what I was doing, and it’s a very strange feeling. As long as I don’t pay attention to any of the marching--everything’s fine, right? Nah. This band will never live up to my old band for a multitude of reasons. I had so much more fun my freshman year, and it was so ordered because of how serious it was. This band will never be that serious--it wasn’t meant to be. No competitions, no away games. Not as many trips on the band bus, either, because of all of that.  So, look. I will always and forever have my old band in the limelight. I was angry from moving, and I’m still angry at times. I was disappointed my 10th grade year, and it carried to 12th. Maybe not as heavily since I’ve gotten more and more used to it, but I’m kind of stubborn sometimes. And annoying. But it’s the last day of my high school band camp, and let’s get into it.

This Morning:

I started the first BC post with the word “tonight,” so it’s only right that this one is “this morning.”

I mean, I could have put “tonight”

But I doubt 9AM is counted as “night.”

I get there early, as always, hang out at the front, look at the board, see that the order for our first marching game has changed, and question reality

I don’t even remember much of the beginning

X gets there, and I talk to FHF and probably my brother

And then we start

Y isn’t there, and we’re running through all of pregame, so X and I try dividing up Y’s songs. I’ll do Seven Nation Army, and he can do Illinois Loyalty, and then I’ll do Land of 1000

Of course, while we conduct our actual songs as well

Y comes in during that, though, so they got to conduct two of their songs while I did SNA

That’s a relief, though, because all three drum majors are good to have

We finish that up, and I, of course, have to conduct the SSB at the end. Not as good as that other time, that’s for sure.

Apparently a lot of fish don’t know what SSB stands for

My brother’s doing well, by the way

Honestly the first hour and a half wasn’t anything special

A little bit of sass and sarcasm here and there, but nothing remember-worthy, apparently

There was one song that we played and the band director tossed his drum stick (I think), fell off the drum set, caused the band to completely falter, and then HDM (yes, HDM) had to clap to the beat to get everyone back on track

It was interesting. And funny

I think it was Land of 1000--Y was conducting. I think.

I think the only person who really caught what happened was FHF because she had the biggest reaction

Though she’s loud so all of her reactions are fairly big

When X conducts, HDM makes faces at him, and it’s really fun to watch

But he doesn’t make faces at me so I think that’s Rude

But ODM will occasionally nod so it’s okay

Now we’re on break

Come back, more playing. Halftime show stuff

The drum line comes in and we do a tiny bit of pregame

SSB pt 2 wasn’t good

I blame everyone who wasn’t paying attention to me. No one was.

But that’s fun because then the entire band freaks out when I start counting off. And the band director did say “start whenever.”

I did that twice--by the way. Why call them to attention when you can watch everyone freak out instead?

OH, MY GODS

I FORGOT

So there’s this fish trumpet player, and he was wearing a blue shirt today

And I swear to the gods I can’t stand the dude

The band director said we’d be running through the entirety of pregame, so get all of the music you need beforehand.

This. Kid. Did. Not. He got up to get his music every time we switched songs. Excuse me? No. No. No.

That was disruptive--waiting for him every time

AND THEN HE WOULDN’T EVEN PLAY

He would sit there and maybe dab back and forth

I swear to the gods

Like, you--

--idiot

I asked my brother later on about the kid. Apparently the dude is incredibly smart, in all of the advanced classes, a fantastic trumpet player, etc

Are

You

Kidding

Me

I can’t stand whatever this Prodigy Kid™ is

That was pregame (the first 45 mins)

In the story, we’re in halftime (the second 45 mins)

This might end up being really out of order

We play I Just Can’t Wait to be King first, which, if you remember, is my song

For now

That was a bit of a surprise, but okay

I wasn’t on the podium for it. I was standing next to it with the band director on the podium

All of the drum majors had to do that

But I was the only one who didn’t have to start the band

Anyway, after we finish playing and the drum line is with us, we decide to teach the fish The Kick

This is a kick that we do in parades and the cue is a drum cadence called 1979 or something like that

So we teach the fish

I was on the podium while we taught them that (this was right after SSB pt 2 (after halftime rehearsal, before the halfway point of one and a half hours)

It was interesting watching them learn

I mean, I remember learning

I didn’t get it until our first parade

When someone in my grade was like, “It’s alright--you’ll know it after the parade.”

Yeah, I knew it after that parade

So, we teach them that, and then we head outside!

We decide not to do pregame drill today (yessss)

Drum Majors grab the sound system and the podium, we set up, and we stand on the sideline to figure out the salute

WE FIGURED IT OUT

I mean, a lot of messing around

And we literally high-five during it

But WE GOT IT X isn’t really the guy to have fun with Y and me, as I’m seeing

Then we watch the band because doing stuff isn’t fun

Watching people do stuff is

JUST KIDDING

Watching them wasn’t fun because their fundamentals aren’t anywhere near good, and I want to die

Oh, by the way, ODM and I nod at each other a lot. It’s fun

Eventually, we do “practice pregame” stuff. Nothing official, but it’s to get people kinda used to it. We do some of the moving and some of the run-on

The

Run-on

I ALMOST DIED

OKAY

I ALMOST DID

Basically, I have to run through the tubas and drum line, and the gaps weren’t big and Y and I had to switch places while running because of Things, and it’s going to be like that for the game

But I am not a runner

And running is not my forte

(get it)

and yeah

The band wasn’t that fast, though? We made it just fine. Nothing like last year.

We’ll see what happens when the year starts. 

Anyway, we do that stuff, and we do that stuff more than once

ouch

And then the band director with the mic (the other two don’t have mics and were judging from the sidelines. It’s funny) says to gather by the podium

Logically, he’s going to climb the podium

So I do

And then after a few minutes I’m told to get down

Of course

Y climbed with me

I got down, sat in the grass

There’s a “take a knee” campaign while the band director was talking

A handful of the band took a knee and no one else did

They tried, though

And then the band director wants us to learn a cheer

And the band votes for one of the percussionists to do it, and then for ODM to do it, so they do it together.

ONE BAND

ONE SOUND

x3

It’s not my favourite, but it works

I don’t even remember if my old band had a chant (That’s not good--that I don’t remember)

I think I just don’t like this one because it’s like “Hey this isn’t your old band.”

And then we went in

And got popsicles

Apparently “popsicle” is supposed to be capitalized?

I’m not going to

Before I forget: shouting is a thing

Anyway, those popsicles were really good

OH MAN

There was one point when the band was marching in a block, and us drum majors were sitting on the sidelines. During this block, the band would face us and march towards us until there were only feet away.

They also stopped facing us

Anyway, FHF messed up once, and she landed on her spot, but did a weird spin-thing in frustration and landed off her mark

To which I corrected her

I also made her get some of the sound stuff

Which made her lose her music

And then we “argued” about who was bossy

And she got her music back

And ODM was holding the band room door open, and when I walked in, HDM was like, “QUICK CLOSE IT ON THE DRUM MAJOR” Me: “RUDE” HDM, imitating me: “rOOd”

I have friends who spell that as “r00d”

that’s off track

Anyway, when we get to the band room, ODM and HDM have lockers really close together, so I went to them, put my arms on my shoulders and was like, “I miss you guys” “We miss you too--but you’re doing well” “Thanks! The run-on is really confusing, though” “So it’s when [this] happens, but don’t run right away. Wait a beat.” “You’re the leader. The band will follow the drum majors. Run whenever.” We then joked about running before the whistle

It was really nice conversation

Anyway, I think that’s it. I think that’s all.

I really hope I’m not forgetting anything

I’ll update if I think of anything--or if Y or FHF says something like “What about [this]?”

I usually do update it

But, yeah

It’s been fun, guys

Thank you for letting me rant

And thank you for reading

It’s been one heck of a ride

HERE’S THE DEAL GUYS. I am going into my senior (12th grade) year. This is my last year of grade school, and my last year of becoming disappointed by band camp. I do plan on continuing marching band in college, but as I am a flute player, I don’t know if I’ll be able to. It depends on where I go. I also play clarinet, but there’s no way of knowing if I’ll be good enough. I have this year to practice. I’m not one to get my hopes up, so this might be my last band camp post ever. Thank you guys so much for reading and experiencing this with me. I get absolutely no feedback whatsoever (well, now I get FHF, but besides her), so I don’t actually know what you guys think of this. It helps me and gives me something to look forward to. Thank you guys, so, so much. And if I am in marching band next year, I’ll tell you when I know. I love you guys. I miss my old band, my old friends. Just to say it one last time. Just know it’s true. I miss you guys.

[lilolaila]

please stay - two: october 2016

Debra doesn't know who Harry Styles is if it isn't because of Lola. Though they tend to have classes in the same building, Debra isn't the type who lets her eyes wander and watches people. She's the type who actually doesn't mingle in the building too long once her classes are done. She prefers to wait outside, sitting on one of the benches on the green space near the library than waits in the crowded hallway with a bunch of people around her.

Besides, she’s given up on trying to find a boyfriend. She thinks she just can’t find her match with one of the guys on campus, and she figures she’ll just focus on her studies and wait until the right time. That is definitely one of the factors why she never really pays attention to any guys anymore, and another factor is that the last relationship she had—it was last year—only lasted about three months. So, yeah, she thinks now is not the right time to be in a relationship.

So, when one of Harry's classmates, Lola asks for her number on a particularly busy afternoon, Debra furrows her eyebrows and looks at Lola weird. "Harry who?" Debra asks with arms full of rolled up flyers.

"Harry Styles. He's my classmate. You probably recognize him from the footie match last year," Lola says casually.

Debra distinctly remembers that there's a Harry Styles requesting to follow her on Instagram a few nights ago—she was scrolling through her phone aimlessly while singing along to Kodaline songs when she saw it. She accepted that request and followed him back without thinking much further, though she didn't actually know who he is. But some of her mates followed him as well, so she thought there's no harm in following him back. She realized that he didn’t seem like the type who posted a picture on daily basis, so she’s good.

"He followed me on Instagram a few days ago actually, but-"

"You followed him back, right?" Lola cuts, before Debra can finish her words. She nods anyway, "That's good! You know, he kinda takes a liking at you. Thought you're cute and he wants to know you better. That's why I'm here to get your mobile number. ‘s that alright?"

To say Debra is taken aback by those words is an understatement. She's confused as to why Lola is the one who asks for her number, not Harry himself. Is the guy that much a coward or is he simply gone to do other things? Why is Lola doing his dirty work? There are so many things she wants to ask, and she is going to, if her friend, Poppy isn't nudging her and telling her to hurry.

"Deb, just give her your number. We need to get going. Niall is waiting for us. C'mon." Poppy taps her feet impatiently on the ground, causing Debra to groan inwardly. Lola smiles at Poppy's words and opens up her contact to add Debra's number as Debra recites her mobile number carefully.

"'kay! Thanks a bunch, Deb!" with that, Lola walks away with an easy smile and a promise to let Harry know that Debra is such a sweetheart for giving her mobile number. Debra watches Lola walk away with a racing heartbeat and sweaty palms, not knowing what she's just gotten herself into. It has been a while since she found that a guy took a liking at her, and Harry could be a creep for all she knows—like Nolan from fresher's week—and she curses herself for giving into the pressure easily. She could’ve asked a question or two about this Harry guy to Lola, but she guessed the chance is now thrown out of the window.

All of this reminds her of what happened back in high school—when her friend's boyfriend asked for her number because his friend wanted to get her know better. She was also too easy to give into the pressure and in the end, she got her heart broken. It was all so messy, and she wasn't in a good place for a few months—even her parents noticed that, and that's saying a lot because her parents are usually pretty laid back about this kind of stuff.

Shivers run on her spine at the memories, and sweats break out on her temple once she realizes that she probably just made another wrong move.

"Deb! C'mon!" Poppy's voice stops her train of thoughts, and Debra shakes her head faintly to clear her head and focus again at her previous task.

"Right. Okay. Let's go." Bouncing the rolled up flyers in her arms once more, she walks from the library to the parking lot where Niall is waiting for them by his beat-up Honda.

Debra likes to think she's good at studying. Genuinely, she likes the process of clearing a space on her desk to set up her stuff—turning her laptop on, placing her notes strategically near her laptop, using her favorite gel pen to write, and listening to her study playlist that is full of instrumental songs. Also, there's something about the calmness and peacefulness she feels before she starts the whole process that motivates her to get it done. As weird as it may sound, she enjoys studying.

It’s a bit odd that she can't find herself focused on the task at hand when she needs to get at least a thing done that night—she starts sweating at the thought of her mounting coursework for the next week. It's probably because of her noisy neighbors—the freshmen that just moved to the flat right next to her last week—or the overwhelming temptation to keep checking her phone every few seconds. It's driving her mental, but she still forces herself to do her coursework anyway.

It's not even two hours later—and she's not even halfway done with her coursework—when her phone vibrates from beside her. She glances at her phone, reading the text pop-up with furrowed eyebrows. It's a text from the number she doesn't know. With curiosity bubbling up inside of her, she leans back on her seat and grabs her phone, her thumb swiping on the screen to open the text.

Hey, Debra. It's me, Harry. Wanna ask you if Louis and the others are joining the footie competition next month?

Debra frowns. Why would Harry ask about the footie competition to her? She doesn't even know there's a footie competition next month.

Have u asked Louis about it? Bcs I don't know either

Letting out a huff, she locks her phone and places it back on the desk. To bring her focus back on her coursework, Debra takes a few deep breathes and sits up straighter. But just as she's about to get back on writing, her phone vibrates again.

Not really no. Have you got his contacts?

She sends Louis' contact and hopes that he would stop texting her for a while, but when her phone vibrates again, she realizes that this won't stop anytime sooner. So, she keeps responding his texts and replies it as short as she can to let him know implicitly that she's not really up for any kind of socializing with anyone. But even if Harry gets the message, he doesn't show it because he's persistent. And the next thing she knows, it's almost midnight and she's nowhere done with her essay.

Annoyed at herself for letting it get too far, she pushes back her chair and gets up to move to her bed. Ignoring Harry's latest text, she pulls up her contacts and dials Poppy's number.

"How are you not asleep yet? It's midnight." Those are Poppy's words when she answers the phone. All of her close friends know that Debra can't sleep later than midnight. She's an early sleeper and an early riser as well. If she falls asleep later than midnight, it will mess her schedule up and put her in a bad mood, which will put a damper on everyone's mood because she will annoy the shit out of them all day.

"Harry's been texting me since, like, hours ago," Debra confesses in a small voice. Letting the words out of her mouth just makes it more real and she hates how she wasted hours just texting a guy. She rolls on her stomach and buries her face in her pillow.

"Harry who?" she grunts at her friend's question.

"Harry Styles. Lola asked my number a few days ago to give it to him, remember? She said he liked me or something." Poppy lets out a hum from the other line. "'s that it? You're not gonna say anything?"

"Dunno what I'm supposed to say, to be honest. Just let it flow for a while, yeah?" Poppy finally says after a moment.

"Should I tell Penelope?" Once Poppy reassures that it would be best if Debra tells Penelope, they both end the call and Debra is left staring at her ceiling, her mind racing with endless possibilities and outcomes of this Harry thing. She realizes that she isn't supposed to overthink about it, but she always overthinks when any guy shows interest in her.

And maybe, telling Penelope can bring some positive outcomes to the whole situation—though she isn’t sure if there’s a situation—because Penelope was on the student council for 2 years and she actually has friends from other departments. So, maybe, just maybe, she can ask around about Harry and help Debra to get some information about him, because she has no clue at all of him. For all she knows, this guy is as shady as his Instagram page. All of those sunsets and black and white pictures don't really show who he is, and that's bothering her.

Overwhelmed at her own long train of thoughts, she grunts at herself and gets up to get some snack from the kitchen before she could overthink some more—like thinking about going on dates with Harry, seeing each other at campus, and introducing him to her close friends as her boyfriend. It's kind of silly how she already thinks about this when she hasn't even spoken to him face-to-face.

"I got a question for you." Debra looks up from the phone and furrows her eyebrows at Poppy who's sitting across the table with pursed lips and puffed out cheeks like she's thinking hard about this question. "When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? I don't mean, like, being a doctor or something. Like, your first real dream career."

The two girls are waiting for their food at the Chinese restaurant near their flats when Poppy lets out that question—unexpected, but Debra isn't surprised because Poppy always does this kind of things. Debra props an elbow on the table and leans her head on her hand as she mulls over the answer to the question.

"Well," Debra speaks after a moment, "I think I wanted to be a flight attendant, you know? Probably it's because I went to the airport a lot to see my dad at work and lots of planes. And I used to think that it's cool to see all those flight attendants pass by with their uniforms, so probably that's what I wanted to be before my parents told me how dangerous it was and that it's cooler to be a doctor instead." She sits straighter and leans back on her seat, dropping her arms and tapping her fingers on the table impatiently.

Poppy lets out a chuckle and takes a sip of her iced tea. "I still think being a flight attendant is cooler, though. All those traveling and meeting lots of new people intrigue me."

"Says the extrovert one," Debra teases. "And let me guess, you wanted to be an astronaut, right?"

Poppy nods. "Yup, even my old e-mail address is based on that. How silly."

They put a pause on their conversation when the waiter comes back with their food. The steam from the fried mixed vegetable and fried rice are so mouthwatering and make the food look tastier than it actually is. It seems like the food put them in a trace so they both just stare it for a while as the waiter place the food on their table.

A ding pulls Debra back from the trance she got in because of the food—as weird as it may sound—and she reluctantly grabs her phone from her bag. And she wishes she didn't just look at her screen because she just receives a text from Harry—again. She can see the message from the pop-up, but she decides not to read it now. She'd like to focus on the food splayed in front of her for now.

"Who is it?" Poppy asks as she grabs two pairs of chopsticks and passes Debra one. They both grab a tissue to clean it—just to make sure that it is clean—before finally devouring their foods.

"Harry," she answers shortly, causing Poppy to look up and stare at her for a few seconds. "Strangely, we've been texting for days now. I'll tell you later over ice cream. For now, let's eat." That's enough to close the lid on the conversation about Harry for a while. Though Debra can't literally wait to tell Poppy all about it—though it's nothing much because she hasn't seen Harry around campus and really talked to him—she has to wait because the food is better when it's hot and she’s sure that not even a guy (i.e. Harry Styles) will get in between her and her food.

[runagainstawallwithsarah]

Bastille Munich 28.11.2016

Alrighty, I’ve procrastinated this one enough I think, but like a lot of stuff happened and honestly I’m still dying about it so you know. 

Let me start with this though, it’s been really fucking amazing, and I can’t ever go to one of their concerts again and not end up front row because this is an experience you just want to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat.

I’ll put the whole thing under a read more because this is getting long!

Alright, let’s start at the top, which would be the 27th November 2016. We (my best friend Jasmin, my sister Nadine and myself) wanted nothing more but to be front row this time around. Nadine and I’ve been to two of their concerts before (Munich in 2013 and Leipzig in 2014) and each time we were sorta in the middle at the sites. So not horrible view or anything but ...we wanted more alright. So we all went by train a day early and arrived all in the early evening in Munich where we got to stay at a lovely women’s place (airbnb hurray) for two nights. (I’m not gonna go into details here because the train ride just ended up ... eh.... make sure to double check your tickets guys). So the 27th really was just a lot of driving by car and then by train and yeah exhausted sleeping that night (with pillows that just didn’t want to work with my head T^T).

And then the 28th was finally here and fuck I still can’t believe it. So we got up and ready to go in the morning and eventually arrived at the Zenith in Munich at about 11.30am. As expected we weren’t the first ones to be there but we weren’t the last either so yknow.

We got our numbers, (Jasmin-29, nadine-28, myself-27) and the waiting began. Honestly it didn’t seem that long but in reality it were like 8 hours I think until the doors opened which meant 8 hours in the cold. I was sort of used to it at the time already through work, but it was pretty fucking cold and we were first time waiting noobs that had no blankets or anything bc we didn’t know where to put them when we got in. That combined with the fact that all three of us are really fucking awkward when it comes to meeting people, we mostly kept to ourselves and froze to death basically. While we waited directly at the walls of the venue we could hear a bit of soundchecks which was really cool, and we all worked a bit on tiny things for the concert. Some made signs out of pizza cartoons, and we made a tiny WWCOMMS flag, which you’ll hear about again later, here’s a picture tho.

So yeah, while we worked on that the first survival packs were found, which honestly we weren’t really out to find (too cold + where to put it later?) but it was a bit frustrating because one of the packs was found at one place I literally walked past about 10 minutes prior when grabbing some tea for us, so... yay for that :’D Anyways I had been the first of us three to grab us some hot drinks and I actually warmed up really nicely during that so I told Jasmin and Nadine to go together, warm up a bit because they were frozen on the spot basically and after a while they did.....

Which turned out to be a bit of a bad decision for them xD While they were gone, some staff members that had to put up some stuff ushered us aaway from the doors, whcih honestly was a pain because they did that several times (we were never far away enough it seemed x.x) and trying to move several bags, drinks and stuff in one go by yourself was a bit hard. But I’m not gonna complain because it was worth it in the end....soooo... 

Sitting in our new spots in the grass, I talked a bit to a girl (Evy) which was really nice and waiting for her friend to show up at the time, (honestly sorry if I was annoying or anything, i’m no good making friends T^T) and yeah, after a bit I wanted to quickly leave for the toilet (which thankfully they had a really clean (AND WARM) one right outside the venue) and I just got up, ready to go...when Will and Woody decided to come outside with a big can of hot cocoa for us all!!! They were joined by Tom and a cute blonde lady i didn’t know, but oh my fucking god, Will and Woody!! So this happened! They were honestly so sweet and I died .... and then I sorta got over the shook of them in front of me that I remembered fuck jasmin and nadine are at a bakery that is like kinda far away and I can’t write or call them because my phone was being a bitch and kept dying in the cold and my second phone was with in the small bag they took with them! So naturally, I tried not to cry laugh because that timing right? And went back to dying because Will Farquarson is standing right in front of me and holy fuck he just handed my hot cocoa and fuck he’s beautiful! Woody was busy in another corner and I’m sorry as much as I love this guy, when Will farquarson is standing in front of you you kinda forget about everything else. 

They were so cute though, like not only that they bought us hot cocoa (when it also had just started to snow a bit!!) they seemed so worried about us too! When someone else thanked Will and told him how nice it was of them he just went “Oh it’s not a problem! You guys must be freezing to death.” and I’m still crying because he honestly sounded so concerned tbh?? And when he handed me a cup and I said ‘thank you so much!’ he just sorta waved it off and smiled and “you’re welcome, it’s not a problem” and I still die and?? So then everyone kinda started to ask for pictures and I thought...okay if they do it I could too maybe? and I asked Evy if she could take a picture for me because my phone just wasn’t working at all and so she did. (Thank you again!!!) This took a bit tho, because I was so awkward okay, I was just standing behind him (I feel so dumb and aaahhh send help) and just quietly went ‘Will?... Uhm, Will?...Fuck... Will?’ whenever someone else was done with a picture and I felt so awkward and Argh, but eventually he turned around and smiled and I asked if we could take a picture and he was so smiley and ‘oh of course!’ and we took a picture and I was so nervous and ended up spilling my cocoa over my hand .... BUT I GOT  A PICTURE OF WILL FARQUARSON AND I MET WILL AND I SORTA TALKED TO HIM???? I regret not asking for a hug tbh.... But yeah this happend!!! 

Also I look so stupid but like??? do i care??? not really...anymore because freaking Will Farquarson am I right????

So this happened and then I tried to back off a bit to give others a chance too and just watched from the back and sipped my hot cocoa and was just smiling like a freaking idiot and that was when Nadine and Jasmin showed up again!! and yeah I was so glad they came back before they went back in bc like?awkward xD but yeah they saw them too and my sister got an autograph from woody, and she tried toget a picture with will too but they were ushered back inside already (we think it was for an interview) but it was really cute because nadine said will was all “i’d love to take more pictures but you’re gonna have to walk with me because i’m being pulled back inside!” 

but AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH this happened!! and it turned out it wouldnt be the first time I was  going to die that day!

My sister cursed me a few times because I got a picture with Will, and what was really funny to me was that they told me that actually they were starting to get worried/feel sorry for me because “it’s really cold, and she’s kinda alone there, maybe we should get back?’’ and in reality i was hanging with 2/4 of Bastille.. could be having a worse time xD so they came back sooner because they were thinking about finishing their drinks at the bakery first, but yeah,i was good, couldn’t complain at all xD

After that more waiting happened and then it was time to get into the queue! H nestly this part was a bit of a mess because the main guy there was a fucking dick and yeah. we had a system okay, we had the numbers and we had a system of lining up at the barriers where they’d check our bags and everything to get in, but that dick wasn’t having it. after a while a second lady came in and one guy, he kinda looked like he was working there but at the same time he was waiting with us all in line later and was front row at the concert too so i’m not 100% but that lady and he kinda tried to calm us all and that main guy down and it sort of worked... problem with a lot of us was though that some of us (including my sister) had left a bit prior to put our stuff somewhere bc we didn’t know where else to put them back then (as it turned out they set up a bag thingy outside where we could put our big stuff for free) but our people weren’t back yet so when we finally got to move our other stuffs there and then go back to the barrier thingy and set up there again a lot of us had questions about our friends and if they’d be able to get back in line with us when they were back and some had other questions that were unclear and that dick got super angry at us and told us to shut up and just go? like? i’m sorry but we’ve been waiting all day and were happy and then you come along and fuck it all up? but anyways, that other guy who seemed to be  one of us in the end ended up being able to calm us all down again and said it wouldn#t be a problemas long as they stillgot their numbers on their hand so yeah we moved up and back to our places and waited for everyone to return and doors to open.

and wow that was a bit already and the actual concert bit is only starting now????

THE CONCERT

getting in and everything wasn’t too exciting. jasmin, nadine and i had a system and it worked out well in the end! while i went to put our jackets away, nadine got us something to drink, and jasmin got our most important job, getting us a good place front row! and she did an amazing job. while we weren’t in the middle or anything we got an amazing spot, front row right in front of will c: i’d regret getting excited about that later tho.

so we were all set up, ready for the concert... it took a bit for that though, if you ever want to have front row ou gotta prepare yourself for a shit ton of waiting xD definitely worth it tho!

and then it started! for real! at first they played the annie oakley hanging preview which was amazing! i’d heard the bit on tumblr before but hadn’t watched the video on youtube yet but it was oooo good! also i was singing along, and it was great XDthen the fake it guy came on!!! i’m not 100% sure anymore what he said during the night (he was on a lot) but he introduced rationale and then rationale freaking killed it!!! honestly i was almost dead already after his bit, you know it’s a great band when you’re dead after and rationale was amazing!! (speaking of, as i’m writing this i’m listening to bastille and VS. is onnow and now axe to grind just started, hi rationale xD) really tho i have no words because he was really really good, a lot of energy, awesome dance moves, even better voice! kudos to this guy! 

while they set up everything for bastille, the fake it guy came back on and the videos !!! damn i sure hope there’s the whole collection on youtube somewhere because it’s amazing!! ‘i misssss you i missssss you i misssssss you mooooooorrreeee’ and the guys showing up in the videos too, honestly the best i hope they’re somwhere or they share them themselves at some point in the future because, you need to see them. so yeah after a bit of fake it guy, he eventually introduced bastille and they opened with send them off! and I WAS DEAD THE SECOND THEY CAMEON!!! OKAY LIKE THEY WERE JUST SO CLOSE?????? AND SO BEAUTIFUL??? HONESTLYPICTURES DONT GIVE ANY OF THEMJUSTICE!!! we couldn’t really see kyle fromwhere we stood which was a bit sad, but WILLIAM AND DANIEL AND WOODY LATER ON AND IM DEAD!!!! honestly okay, will farquarson is a god, no questions asked, but daniel...hoyl fuck daniel... okay so there we were, dancing and screaming and singing and jumping up and down and having the time ofour lives and honestly when dan walked up to our side the first time i was just breathless??? his eyes are so blue?!?! and hes so pretty??? my son??? okay but yeah so the concert happened and i don’t think i ever worked out as much as i did that night xD but yeah, send them off! happened and then another song and another song and another song and it was beautiful.

hearing them live again, and then like this was beyond amazing! they’ve grown so much but at the same time not at all (in a good way) and it was just soooo good. okay so like the songs were amazing but then things happened...

first dan i think in the second song decided to come over to us again and he saw our wwcommsflag AND HE SMILED AT ME WHILE HE SANG AND POINTED AT THE FLAG AND DID THIS APPROVING FACE HE DOES WHEN HE LIKES SOMETHING AND I DIED???????? HE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL??? AND HE LIKED THE FLAG???? AND????

then will decided it was a good time to kill us ...because this mf walked up to our side (like closer to the edge of the stage) with his freaking bass and his freaking self and JUST DECIDED TO KILL US WITH HIS EYEBROWS?? YOU GUYS KNOW THE THING THE FLIRTY EYEBROW RAISE AND SMIRK HE DOES??? YEAH HE DID THAT TO ME HE DID IT TO MY SISTER ASWELL BUT FIRSTME AND I HATE HIMALRIGHT IF I COULD HAVE I WOULD HAVE WENT UP THERE AND PUNCHED HIM BECAUSE HOW DARE??? INSTEAD I GIGGLED LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL AND HID BEHIND MY FLAG 

then WOODY CAME TO OUR SIDE!! HE WAS TINY AND SMOL AND I LOVE HIM AND HE WAS SMILING AT JASMIN AND IT WAS SO ADORABLE AND IM??? SO SMOL MY TWO FAVES!!! 

AND THEN THEY DECIDED TO PLAY THE ANCHOR!! AND HOW THEY DID IT OKAY WE WERE SCREAMING AFTER THE SONG ANDTHEN DAN JUST WENT ‘WHAT WAS THAT? YOU WANNA HEAR THE ANCHOR? OKAY THEN’ AND THEY STARTED PLAYING IT AND I DIED BC ITS MY FAV BYE

ALSO GLORY

AND THE SILENCE WHICH WAS JASMINS FAV AND IM GLAD THEYPLAYED IT AGAIN FOR HER <3

DURING LAURA PALMER CHORUS WE HELD UP A SIGN SAYING ‘THANK YOU FOR THIS FUCKING AWESOME TOUR’  THAT THEY GAVE OUT WAITING IN THE QUEUE AND IT MADE DAN SMILE REALLY CUTE AND IM 

so...???? i feellike i’m forgetting something important here but like that was jasmins first bastille concert and i’m a bit jealous xD but yeah the concert was just sooooooo good,okay it was over way too soon but in a few bits i literallyalmost died, like i couldn’t sing anymore? i actually had trouble breathing a few times and had to couch really badly and this was a bit ew and now good but other than that!!! 12/10 would recommend! 

at the end of it, after getting some merch and waiting for my sister to get our jacktes, i was just lying on the ground of the venue a bit because i was so dead and happy?? honestly i can’t wait for them to come to germany again for a real show (not festival) so i can see them again! 

we found out later that dan came out after the concert for a little bit to talk to fans, but we had to catch a train back to the place we were staying at (which was a bit outside of munich) and we weren’t 100% sure about the times the trains would all connect etc (+tired) so we couldn’t wait outside but, honestly i can’t complain at all because it’s just been such an amazing experience and i’m so glad i got to go there!! 

a few more pictures underneath!!!

Also there was a guy right next to the merch selling Wild World on CD and Vinyl and no one went to him and he looked so sad and awkward I almost went there and got one to make himsmile although I do own both already XD

also back home home on wednesday i noticed this one which was much more angry looking irl than it does on the picture...but...thanks for that one guys xD

this stuff is actually hot!!!!! 

ALSO ONE OF THE SECURITY GUYS HAD THREE SETLISTS AFTER THAT HE JUST RANDOMLY HANDED PEOPLE AND HE GAVE ONE TO ME AND IM?????

also because we’re awesome like that we ended up only with one phone (jasmin’s) inside to take pictures and videos because we ended up 1. locking my sisters phone and one of mine at the trainstation she went to before we knew we could put our stuff outside the venue and my second phone ended up outside the venue which is why we barely have any pictures but we got to fully enjoy the concert irl like that so thats a plus but ... when will your fav ever right?

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Why Mississippi State could teach us a lot about LSU’s offense

LSU hasn’t had to open its playbook up in two easy season-opening wins. That will change against Mississippi State on Saturday (7 p.m. ET, ESPN).

In his three best games of 2016, against Southern Miss, Arkansas, and Texas A&M, LSU quarterback Danny Etling completed 66 percent of his passes with a 192.1 passer rating.

In his first two games of 2017, he has completed 71 percent with a 189.5 rating.

Things have gone well for the maligned senior quarterback to date, but that's to be expected: BYU and Chattanooga don't have elite defenses. We might later find out that BYU's is very good, but LSU never had to worry about the Cougars scoring, and they were able to ease into an easy 27-0 win.

On Saturday, against Mississippi State in Starkville, LSU is going to probably have to actually score. So now, in the third week of the year, new offensive coordinator Matt Canada begins to actually his money.

LSU is currently second in the S&P+ ratings, and while you may scoff at that because it involves preseason projections (which involve recruiting rankings, which are always friendly to the Tigers), one of the driving factors in those projections is recent history. Recent history includes last year’s No. 4 S&P+ finish.

How did they finish that high? Because they only lost to teams with the most elite of elite defenses.

There were two LSUs in 2016, and this was the case whether Les Miles or Ed Orgeron was leading the way. The LSU facing anything other than elite defense was dominant. The LSU facing an elite defense was feckless.

LSU vs. opponents with top-10 defense per Def. S&P+ (0-4): Avg. score: Opp 15, LSU 9 | Avg. percentile performance: 73% (~top 35) | Avg. yards per play: Opp 4.9, LSU 4.9

LSU vs. opponents with a mortal defense (8-0): Avg. score: LSU 38, Opp 16 | Avg. percentile performance: 95% (~top five) | Avg. yards per play: LSU 7.5, Opp 4.7

The Tiger defense, led by coordinator Dave Aranda, was lights-out, no matter what. Only one opponent all season (Texas A&M) scored more than 21 points, and LSU ranked third in Def. S&P+ at year’s end.

The offense, however, needed a physical advantage. When it had that, it was untouchable. Running backs Leonard Fournette and Guice ran wild and opened up just enough passing lanes for embattled QB Danny Etling.

The Tigers had no Plan B, though. They had a passer rating of 100.4 in losses and 146.4 in wins. If you were sound enough to control the run, the pass was erased.

That’s where offensive coordinator Matt Canada comes in.

Against Mississippi State, LSU’s offense will have to try more things.

On this week’s PAPN, Steven Godfrey and I discussed LSU-MSU as part of our Saturday rundown. It starts around 42:45.

The text of our exchange about LSU’s offense versus MSU’s defense:

Godfrey: I really think LSU at Mississippi State is going to be a really interesting game.

BC: That's one of the two games I'm most interested in. When I say that, it's like 'What are we going to learn about the teams?' interesting, not, like, national title interesting. Although technically LSU, until they lose, is a national title contender.

Godfrey: [angry Mississippi voice] What'd you say about them Dawgs, Bill?

BC: LSU has looked pretty much perfect so far. I realize they haven't opened up the playbook all that much. They haven't had to, and they're not going to until they have to. But they kinda have to this week. If anybody's gonna score some points on LSU, it's going to be Mississippi State, especially in Starkville. They've got a really solid offense and a defense that will attack LSU and might have just enough, um, girth along the front four — I guess front three now — they might be able to frustrate LSU a little bit in terms of the ground game.

Godfrey: This is 100 percent the plan for [MSU defensive coordinator] Todd Grantham: bother Etling. They're not going to beat them in space, they're not going to beat them on matchups — secondary vs. receiving vs. tight end vs. running back. They're not going to do that. That's not how Mississippi State wins these games. They're going to win by bringing all-out hell and confusion. That's what [Geoff] Collins succeeded at when he was a defensive coordinator there.

I'm not saying they're not a talented defense. They are. They have talented pieces on that defense. They are going to have to bring a level of confusion and just a general level of discomfort for Etling to start making bad decisions and making mistakes in a system he's only run for two games.

BC: Yeah, so far — and this is against Charleston Southern and Louisiana Tech — so far Mississippi State is fifth in the country in success rate and fifth in my explosiveness measure, IsoPPP. Again, that's not adjusted for opponent, but they still completely and totally shut down Charleston Southern and Louisiana Tech, and Louisiana Tech's got athletes. They're not going to completely shut down LSU, but they don't have to if they're scoring some points.

This is a very, very — on both sides of the ball — this is an extremely efficient team, and they will make LSU play. This is the official start of LSU's season now. I assume LSU will pass the test, but we don't know it until it happens.

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Gerri Green and MSU’s defense have been high-havoc thus far.

MSU’s defense is talented enough to be a problem for LSU.

Todd Grantham had Louisville playing at a top 20 level in Def. S&P+ over the last two seasons, and it appears early on that his MSU personnel has adapted well to his scheme. I doubt the Bulldogs make the year-end Def. S&P+ top 10, but they could come pretty close, and they could have the horses to scare the Tigers.

Three matchups in particular to watch:

You could argue that the list starts and ends with “Grantham vs. Canada,” but we’ll take it a little further.

MSU nose guard Jeffery Simmons vs. Will Clapp and the LSU interior. Grantham inherited personnel well suited for a move to a 3-4, and while Simmons isn’t exactly Shaun Cody or something, at 6’4, 301, he’s big enough considering his quickness. The Bulldog front has made a lot of plays so far this year (considering a three-man front is often just trying to occupy blockers), and if Derrius Guice and the LSU backs are having to break tackles or make adjustments in the backfield, that’s an enormous win for the Bulldogs.

LSU WR D.J. Chark vs. either of two corners (Lashard Durr and Tolando Cleveland). Neither LSU's receiving corps nor MSU's secondary has been challenged yet. In two starts, Durr and Cleveland have combined for just two assisted tackles and a pass breakup. Chark, meanwhile, is one of two Tiger receivers targeted more than three times thus far (the other: possession man Russell Gage). Chark is lanky and fast and has caught seven of 10 balls for an explosive 180 yards. Big plays will bail LSU out if the run game isn't efficient.

Yes, Grantham vs. Canada. Canada is quickly becoming a master of shifts and motion and creating confusion, and Grantham’s defenses are typically very high-havoc. There will be a lot of moving chess pieces here, and it could result in some massive breakdowns (and, therefore, big plays) in either direction.

S&P+ says LSU wins, 34-24.

I would be impressed if it’s that high-scoring, but something in the 24-17 range is a possibility, and if the Bulldogs score some cheap points off of turnovers and special teams and really force the Tigers into a track meet of sorts, we’ll learn everything we need to know about Ed Orgeron’s team in his first full season with the head coaching job.