#i love you thursdayanon

[kareofbears]

Thursday anon here! Hope you had a rockin’ weekend! It’s gotten colder where I’m at, so I broke out my Ryuji 777 jacket again... I saw you posted your akesumi hanahaki fic – can’t wait to get to reading it! And I’m sorry 4 leaving out a few words in my previous ask (character limits r such a chore)! The playthru I’m watching is still a few episodes away from the ending, but I have a pretty good idea of what happens for the rest of third semester since I went ahead and read the rough

THURSDAY ANOOOOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU HAVE A RYUJI HOODIE TOO???? SO DO I!!! did you get it from insert coin because you BET i did!!! im honestly like, so happy we have that in common??? 

also yeah man its cold af in BC bro how is it already one degrees??? a disgrace. and yes i did finish! im probably going to take a break from writing for about a month or so, that fic took a lot of energy from me honestly. i dont know if it was because it was the first m/f fic that i wrote (and to me its a lot more stressful to write m/f than m/m or w/w) or because it was the first true writing sprint ive ever done, but yeah i need to lie down for a bit. and don’t worry about it!! i still got the message and what you were trying to say, and that’s all that matters. 

ah i see i see! who’s your lets player? murderofbirds? shenpai? those are the ones i’ve watched, at least (murderofbirds is a KING.) and PHEW thats good i was worried for a sec! AND WHOA YOU’VE KNOWN THE PLOT OF P5R SINCE BEFORE I DID thats crazy you’re WILD. 

and thank you! you’re so nice hehe. the shift was good! i get to take home bread and pastries afterwards so that’s always a plus! unfortunately, no one has fallen in love with my yet, so that’s my next plan of attack once i master the art of slicing bread. 

i’m looking forward to thursday already!! <33 stay safe champ 

[kareofbears]

AHH noooo you are too kind to this Thursday-Ryuji-thoughts-dumping anon T___T Whenever you reply to one of my random asks I get the biggest serotonin boost in my brain, esp. cuz you answer so quickly and thoughtfully…i really hope I’m not distracting you ;_; I’m srry I can only do a partial reply for now, but were you referring to your fic “monochrome”? Cuz if so, I just wanted to say that I absolutely LOVED that character study and had been planning to leave a long-winded review for it since

thursdayanon!! hey!!! ahhh seeing your asks literally make my whole day and it makes me so happy!!! not to be sappy but it means so much to me that you’d take the time to tell me your thoughts on something so dear to my heart, and i appreciate it so so much :)) 

okay FIRST OF ALL my heart almost burst in my chest when i saw you mention my fic because??? oh wow??? you actually remembered that one?? that’s so nice thank you so so much, i can’t believe my actions influence people lmfao. and yes yes and yes to everything you said. it’s a classic form of (*cue me double-checking my psych notes in another browser*) reaction formation--basically it’s ryuji expressing the opposite of what he feels because he refuses to accept what happened. the absolute pain what happened to him is monstrous. it’s heinous. to add fuel to the fire, people are constantly hammering it into his head that he’s stupid. that he’s useless with a book, that he’s nothing but muscle and an idiot. and when you hear that enough, hey, guess what, you start to believe it. So what does Ryuji think? ‘I’m an idiot, but at least I’m half-decent at this running thing. This’ll be what helps me help my ma. It’s not much, but I’ll do my best. Make it easier for her.’ 

And then Kamoshida takes the one thing he has away from him. With everyone so willing to turn against Ryuji to support the abusive teacher, Kamoshida literally takes away Ryuji’s power to stand up for himself.

oooo and you bring up the part about it probably being easier to just accept his injury if he just considered it a natural byproduct of society, and wow you are so smart. your brain is massive, and that is a fantastic analysis on ryuji’s character because it shows that he isn’t willing to accept the bullshit that’s going on in his life. he wants to keep fighting, he wants to grow and change. he doesnt want to stay like this, even if he doesn’t know it yet. and the good news is, he does, even if it’s a tiny way. studying with ryuji as akira is such a pleasure because the language ryuji uses is so so happy and hopeful, even if it’s initially frustrated at himself for not getting it. he’s happy that akira is taking the time to actually teach him and help him, instead of just shrugging him off like everyone else did. i like that. i really really like that, because it gives someone like ryuji hope that he’s more than who everyone says he is. 

hmmmmmm how can i phrase this.... i don’t think that ryuji is an angry person, and i especially don’t think that he’s angry because of his father. i think ryuji is someone who has so much feelings that he has to share because that’s the type of person he is, and i think his father is a factor of how that is expelled from within him. he’s not angry or dangerous because he grew up in an abusive relationship with his father--he is someone who has a strong sense of justice that doesn’t know how to hold back because of the lack of good example from his father, does that make sense? he’s just so passionate and so attuned to justice that getting punished just isn’t in his mind. an example of this is when he jumped in front of the car to help makoto. another is when he yelled at cognitive shido to defend akira. he’s angry on behalf of the lack of justice being served. in other words: ryuji isn’t an angry person--he gets angry for other people. if he was using his father’s past with him as an excuse to be violent and abusive to other people, then i don’t think i can stan ryuji as much as i do. (that’s exactly the reason as to why i can’t stan akechi, but that’s an ask for another day.)

phew. sorry for the short thesis paper i wrote in response but god that was so much fun thank you so much for sending me your thoughts and sharing them with me!!! and thank you, WE SHALL SEE about the interview!! they asked me when i could have an interview and i said “anytime! litearlly anytime!” and they haven’t gotten back to me D: and i just had to point out that last bit of your ask is seriously so dang funny to me like i actually burst out laughing. you really dont need to apologize!!! i hope you stay safe too :)))) have a lovely day thursdayanon! i appreciate you so much

quick edit: i just wanted to show you my set up for making sure i hit all of your points in your asks because i make myself laugh

[kareofbears]

Happy October! Hope you've been doing ok! It's Thursday anon again, back on my Ryuji BS >:3 If I may ask, what are your top 5 akiryu moments in p5/p5r/or any of the spinoffs/anime? It's kinda silly, but some of my personal favorites scenes revolve around food, like Ryuji piling a ton of ginger on Ren's beef bowl and, in the anime, they both unwittingly reach for the same piece of cafeteria bread at the same time ;_;

hey thursdayanon!!! YEAH DUDE HAPPY OCTOBER im so happy i already watched nightmare before Christmas, it was great. oh i totally get it?? to me, food is such a personal experience (especially because i come from an asian culture), so its really sweet that you have a lot of food related ones on yours ;-; especially the ginger part?? so sweet, ryuji just wants him to be healthy and full ;-; 

in no particular order: 

1) i have to legally say ryuji’s goodbye scene (”I’m gonna stop by your hometown so you can show me around n’ shit.” “But there’s nothing to see there.” “Whaddaya mean? You’re there.”) (hope i nailed it, i wrote that from memory lmfao). this line...i can probably write an essay for it. it captures absolutely everything i love about akiryu, and I'm devastated they cut if for royal. everything from the diction, the setting, the delivery. to me, it’s the best line in the game, and no i will not be taking criticisms. if you see this line and the thought of them falling in love doesn't cross your mind, i do not know what to say. 

2) ryuji stopping the sumire’s attack from hitting akechi and akira in the third semester. good lord the volume of which i screamed at was unreal and this scene is definitely a huge reason as to why i wrote a 35k+ fic 

3) oh classic. ryuji admitting he would’ve dropped out of school if it weren’t for akira in persona 5 dancing. makes me burst into tears 

4) their meeting??? i’ve written so much about this but i’ll never get over how soft and beautiful and poetic their meeting is. so beautiful. there’s a reason i keep bringing it up. this one’s probably my second favorite, it’s just so lovely

5) and i’m pairing these two up, but their awakenings!!!! GOD how incredible is it that they awakened together??? equals, to the very end. i love them. they are a pair. they are partners. so beautiful and their awakenings are a big part to why i made like, an AMV of akiryu lmfaooooo ngl it was a good edit 

there’s my list!! hope you’re doing good thursdayanon, and i hope you set aside some time to do some autumn stuff!! <3333

[kareofbears]

It's Thursdayanon, popping in with nothing substantial to offer but to be a hypeman for the Pacific Rim AU. I don't really watch a lot of TV or movies so I had to look up what drift compatibility was and YEAH the potential it holds for Akesumi is NUTS. You both possess such mega-brains >:3c PS: I DO remember hanahaki disease, so u aren't imagining what was a big mid-2010s fandom trope!!! Anyways...happy writing, may the words flow freely from your pen :) Take care! Thx 4 sharing your thoughts!

hey thursdayanon!! fam you ALWAYS bring something substantial cause i literally get so happy whenever i get an ask from you!!! 

RIGHT???? mo is sort of a genius for that one, like. its brilliant. i love love love the idea of akira and akechi having had some sort of partnership before but it reached a point where they got intense migraines whenever they drifted for more than a few hours, so they’d be good in emergencies but never in the long run (hint hint, nudge nudge). 

thank god you remember it!! I'm honestly going nuts, like did it even exist??? am i hallucinating? also, thursdayanon, do you like akesumi? i know you love akiryu (fuck yeah) but i have no idea what your stance is with that rare pair. 

and thank you! yeah this is such a strange fic to write, but it’s really fun. stay safe Thursdayanon, and thanks for taking the time to read my thoughts!! 

[kareofbears]

Hi there! It’s Thursdayanon :) Congratulations on the new job! Hope the work hasn’t been too tiring :( I’m sorry I’m multiple days late on this response re: my feelings on Akesumi >__< Tbh, the fact that I am aware of this ship at all is thanks to blinding lights (plus ur and voltdracoatl’s general Akesumi posts lol) and now I think it’s a ship that holds a lot of potential for exploring both their psyches and imo would work more naturally w/in the p5r narrative than whatever romance Atlus

thursday anon!! hi!! i have no idea why but this ask made me tear up, youre just seriously so kind and i dont deserve your kindness and your words ahh ;-; you’re such a king 

yeah man!! its pretty exciting! i dont start till monday though, and im kind of nervous and also excited? hope i fall in love lmfao. if i dont, at least it pays more than my balloon job did. and dont worry about it! time doesnt exist so you take your time. WOW THATS SO KIND THANK YOU!!! volt has a pretty huge brain haha. honestly? i didnt even consider akesumi until i was writing blinding lights, so i kind of convinced myself to like akesumi asdosanhdio. i agree!! i think i love going against what atlus sets out to do, and sumire and joker never had chemistry with each other i think, and it never even held a candle to akiryu, so. 

and honestly? i also stick really close to canon. i dont like straying too far from it since it makes me nervous and also its hard when there’s not enough ‘proof’ but that changed when i started liking akesumi. 

wait. thursdayanon did i misinterpret that? did...did you not finish p5r yet?? HAVE I BEEN SPOILING YOU???? D: 

and yes i did finish it!! i would like to post it tomorrow evening (it already has the @mad4turtles seal of approval but my beta hasn’t read it yet). hopefuly its ok. I’ve already accepted that it probably won’t be read, since its such a rare pair, but that’s okay :) i also hope you take care!! i hope your weekend is incredible and you’re happy and warm <3 

[kareofbears]

I’m betraying my moniker to spam your inbox again today because I know I won’t be able to go to sleep with the thought that someone out there thinks I see Ryuji as an “angry, violent boy” weighing on my mind T_T And AHHH I would NEVER hurt my boy by insinuating that he inherited anything from his shithead of a father, I’m so sorry you even had to consider that thought ;_; That whole sentence was supposed to be in air quotes but 4 some reason when I got to writing that part I started to feel like

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ANON I DID NOT MEAN THAT AT ALL!!!! i fully 100% know that you’re most definitely on a super similar ryuji mindset as me so please dont worry about that!! i just brought it up because its been something on my mind because other people in the fandom often use that excuse as a reason to hate ryuji!!! dont worry about it fam, sorry for making you think that i thought you meant something like that <333

and yeah ofc!! im gonna assume you probably relied on watching LPers to watch p5 (totally valid, i still do this for a lot of games), so if there’s any scenes that you’re curious about or wondering specific details, let me know! i can help you out hehe 

thats an interesting tidbit, the video game thing, because ive studied it (sort of). people who try to do things all at once are way more likely to relapse and fall back into bad habits. so for someone like ryuji, who didn’t bother to study for a long time due to his poor social environment, really wants to do better now, he probably tried studying really hard every day for a week straight. that doesnt work. so he ends up doing what he knows, which is video games. (again thats why i love love the study scenes of akiryu where akira tells him how to study better, not harder, and teaching him difficult concepts hehehheheeh. oof yeah i totally understand. especially back in high school when grades seemed like life or death was rough but im glad you seem to be better now!! <3 

and AGAIN THAT MADE ME LAUGH AHAHAHA and of course thursdayanon!! i never ever mind answering your asks and i love it everytime, i mean it. and thank you D: im glad i didnt tell the people around me about it, or else they wouldve gotten excited for no reason. and HEY you dont gotta cut down!! well, if you want, then sure. but I LOVE YOUR ASKS!! hope youre having a good day, thursdayanon, and stay safe king <3