#i love yapping to myself about them if im being quite honest

[oakresin]

more oc talk yayyy

in the last part i talked about len (the mc!) and avery (his pseudo brother uhh it's complicated)

in this part - i'm talking nicky and micah !

nicky is the character that wasn't supposed to make it this far. he was supposed to be a red shirt and die in the first few weeks.. and now he's len's main love interest and obvi the second most important character in the book. nicky's got ~issues~ with regards to masculinity and his sexuality.

he listens to angry music to feel tough, especially when len's flippant attitude makes him feel small :(

micah is the group's eventual leader and len's first friend in the competition. if len's the heart, micah's the brain. he's forced into this role purely by virtue of him being the least dramatic/unbalanced member of the group. he and avery strike up a friendship in the latter weeks of the competition where they bond over crafting meta strategies to game the system.

he's a chill loverboy from the future so he likes the '10s r&b his mom played for him growing up!

[joaniscruzing]

can you write julien x reader who’ve been friends forever and during a sleepover they confess their feelings to each other (with smut if you’re comfortable it’s up to you) 😘

guess what i wrote it bc im actually becoming more and more obsessed with julien right now.

before we get into this, please take a moment to read this as I'm re-iterating one of my (only) guidelines. I do not write smut in my RPFs. I did it once and felt very uncomfortable and will not be doing it again.

Contains: kissing, pining, longing, a lot of backstory, a lot of yapping from me, childhood friends to lovers trope

You and Julien had lived across the street from each other for years. The two of you, since you moved in across the street at the very young age of three years old, were inseparable. And while most childhood best friends grew apart as school went on and what not, the two of you just became even closer, for whatever reason. Neither of you knew why, but you both weren’t against it. The two of you were so close, that, with one flinch of the other’s eye, one knew what the other was thinking.

The two of you were there for each other when you both realized you were gay at around eleven or twelve years old. Julien was first to find out, harboring a one-sided crush on a popular, straight girl at school. You were the first to know, and Julien of course told you this, and the only thing you did was capture her in a hug and tell her that everything was going to be okay. You two had a sleepover that night, where she slept in your arms, safe and sound. This was only the beginning of her years-long crush on you.

It only got worse when you had come out to her a few months later, to which she was forced to point finger guns at you, and make you laugh. For years, she imagined what it’d be like for you to be hers. All she wanted was to repeat that night with you. The night shared between the two of you when she slept in your arms. She wanted to sleep in your arms so badly. Oh, how badly she wanted to kiss you too. All she wanted was to call you her girlfriend.

At the beginning of high school, the two of you began dating other people rather quickly. She was a heartthrob to most of the other gay girls at school, to which she was reluctant to accept at first. She ended up embracing that, after you got your first girlfriend, and she wanted to numb the pain.

And it wasn’t that she didn’t like whoever she dated. She just wished it was you. The two of you would go on double dates quite often, actually, and had a lot of fun. You’d catch her staring at you with her big, saucer-like eyes when you were with your girlfriends tho. And if you were being honest, you’d stare at her too. She’d give her girlfriends the best of the best when it came to treatment, showering them with gifts and love. Sometimes, you would wish you could shapeshift into one of Julien’s girlfriends.

However, there came a time, just before the two of you were about to go to college, that you both were single. The two of you decided to have a sleepover, so you could see what things the two of you had, as you were planning on sharing a dorm room together.

“Can I tell you something?” Julien asked, late into the night.

“Of course. What’s up?” you reply, barely awake.

“I don’t even know how much longer I would’ve been able to contain myself, but here goes. I really, really like you. And I have for the longest time. And all I want is to be with you.” she confesses, years of love she shoved down, for the sake of your friendship, finally released.

“Oh my god. I shouldn’t have said that. I’m so tired, and I can’t think straight, and just forget I did,” she rambles, before you pull her in for a kiss.

It’s better than the two of you ever imagined. It erupts butterflies in both of your stomachs, fireworks even. You pull her closer into you so she can straddle your lap, to which she does instantly. She places her hands on your shoulders while you cup her face. You pull away, touching your forehead with hers.

“I like you too.”

“No shit.”

You and Julien spend the rest of the night kissing, nothing more, and releasing whatever pent-up emotions the two of you had towards each other. The two of you enter college a couple, happier than ever.

And who could blame you? The person who knew you the best was now yours.

[totaldramafan-lauri]

I want to rant on how gorgeous and beautiful Golden cheese is in your story..

Like she is so benovelent and gentle to anyone even outsider, like she freed reader from prison multiple times and have listen to the reader voice on what's the problem. I bet that's why reader have fallen in love with her so quickly, well so do I if I'm in that situation where i am in a tight situation and Golden cheese just comforted and helped me.. I would be down bad too!..

I'm sad that such character is not real, I know I'm crazy for saying this and just seeing her, loving her... it's weird for everyone if you love a fictional cookie but yk? When you fall in love with something.. you can never let go, I started the crk game just for her, to pull for her..

I like how sassy and passionate she gets in-game, even calling herself a god. how cute though, wish I can talk to her like the reader.. maybe I'm going to deep Inlove with this..

Im deep down delusional and not even resisting because of how I admire golden cheese cookie.. she is beautiful and gorgeous on fanarts on Twitter. I only use Twitter to just search for Golden cheese fanarts and add it to my galary..

Some people would act like this too, even worse then me to be honest.. I really like and love Golden cheese and to top it with your work is a cherry on top.. I still play the game because of Golden cheese despite all of the bad updates.. Its really refreshing that there is someone who love her the way I do too, I bet you love her more then I do because you write a whole long story just for her.. I appreciate that.

I'm a little embarrass to say all this and yap about golden cheese like no tomorrow :D.. I really admire a character that is well written and such, I can't wait for Golden cheese beastyeast update and her awaken Costume to appear. I would be spend all my time grinding if I can just get that costume or something like that..

To be honest, I really like how you write her down, make her say something that fits what her character is like... It's a bit sad that' it's going to end.. so uhm Thanks for reading and even considering to read this.. I really like your work! Keep going and don't quit please ^^)..

I-I......hhhhhh.....Th-thanks.....I-I'm really, really happy that the way I write her pleases someone who is s-such a big fan of her......! >//////<

I-I wish I could freely vent in depth about all the things I love about her, but....wh-whenever I try to, I just find myself at a loss of words.....a-and I get so e-embarrassed...M-my biggest Tumblr friends don't know about CRK, cuz I got into it through Discord, so I find it hard to open up about it here....e-especially her.....S-so...you're doing what I can't.......X///////D

A-all I can really say, is just....e-everything about her, j-just....everything....everything....appearance, voice, personality, relationship with her subjects, everything...I-If I was less shy, there's be a big big list of things about her that appeal to my tastes.....B-but the thing that FIRST made me realize I was falling hard on the first day was something actually pretty simple, and it was just her overall demeanor....and her dialogue, just....the way she carries herself. How in control she seemed to be....the amount of respect she commands when she speaks, to the point where I felt humbled in her presence....Sh-she's just flipping majestic and I dunno how else to put it in words, there's just something special about her, which makes her SOOOOO different than other god complex characters who don't have anything to back them up, pffff....

*cough* U-uh....th-that's to say......uh, you'renotalone...! U-uh, I didn't start playing for her - I've been playing since 2021 - b-but.....b-being obsessed with her....? Y-yeah,Icompletelyunderstandanddon'tworry,she'dLOVElearningaboutthatso-ahahahaha......e-everything'sfine.....x//////x

A-as for how I write her, I wouldn't say she's gentle to ANY outsider, pffff.....benevolent, yes, but let's just say that Reader here has more going for them than they think they do when it comes to drawing out her soft side.....namely, they're vulnerable, loyal and they do as they're told. They're also SO into her that she can't even be irritated at their stumbling, haha...Anyone who DOESN'T listen to her is not being treated gently. She's very patient with her subjects, sure, but OUTSIDERS? Psssshhh, you respect her, or else. X/////D

As a sidenote: I-I dunno what you mean by "despite all the bad updates". CRK's been fine to me. I-I think it's been in a pretty good state, so....yeah.....O.o Grindy games aren't for everyone, tho....Not all the updates have been amazing, but I wouldn't call any of them bad....and I find the current one very addictive (ERROR BUSTERS MY BELOVED), so....I-I kinda disagree with you, I guess.....? B-but yeah, I can't wait for her awakened form.....I dunno how she can become even MORE gorgeous, but they'll find a way somehow, I'm sure....X////D

[thenthesnowstartedfalling]

Intro ._.

Hi, to anyone who will read This. You have found my blog. Yippe. Not gonna lie, but i have no idea what i will be going to post here.

this will mostly be just random stuff im hyperfixating on at the moment. maybe a little poetry, immiture writing or yapping about my oc‘s. There are a lot of fandoms im in and a lot of things to write or talk about. If im being honest, this entire thing is to try and force myself to be more Creative and actually do something other than doomscroll. So, yeah. Also, my first language isnt english, so please excuse any bad grammar.

Fandoms I‘m in

Harry potter(marauders), percy jackson, osemanverse, grishaverse, raven cycle, haikyuu, arcane, doctor who, hunger games, teen wolf, voltron, boy genius and the starless sea.

There are probably more, anyway.

also, my User is from the song „blood bank“ by bon iver. I have never met someone irl that knew it, so if you do, your‘e cool, friends?

Other stuff about me

i am 17 and you can call me star. Im autistic and i really dont know how long this This blog will be an active part of my time, so yeah, we‘ll see. I‘ve recently found my way back to my marauders obsession last summer and im reading Crimson Rivers at the moment. The only thing i do all day is read, then think about the things i’m Reading. I do actually, have quite allot of friends irl, but most of them are sadly guys and lowky haters, so…

my bestfriend (my platonic soulmate E), recently got a boyfriend, so i need to find something else to do with my free time than annoy her. I love stars :). I am a big fucking looser when it comes to school. I love maths and latin and probably just the howl process of learning new things but sadly i am really crap at getting good marks. I really wanna have a cat and a cow one day. i have two main oc‘s, that i have a bunch of stuff to share, so might do that. My favorite color is purple and my favorite numbers are 13 & 17. my all time favorite character is reyna ramirez arrelano, my wife, my queen, my hero, my savior, the light of my life; i love her more than anything.

Like i said this howl thing is going to turn out to be some big diary vent

You could see it as a personal project of betterment for 2025.

That‘s it for now. Thanks for reading.

Love, star <33

[toastspirit]

YAP SESSION UNDERNEATH!!!!!

I'm honestly not quite sure when I started doing this. At some point, i learned to restrain myself. I learned that no one gives a shit about what i have to say, and that i would be more palatable of a person if i just tried to act however people wanted. Of course, I don't actually do this that well--some things that i am disgustingly obsessed with have always been obvious--but there's always some acting. And if you are actually reading this and wondering "hey did in stars and time spawn all the weird acting metaphors" i actually did think of life as a performance years before playing!! I do theater lol. Sometimes I wonder if acting before figuring out who I was fucked up my real life character!

Anyways. I do sometimes end up yapping about my interests. Sometimes I get too excited about them and then I panic later when I realize how annoying I was probably acting. And I also sometimes think about how boring I must be when I try to stamp out any hint of passion! :) there is no winning. this is a hell that i constructed with my own two hands and thoughts. i was made fun of a couple times (and saw people like me get ruthlessly made fun of online) and decided "I am a horrible little freak and i need to pretend not to be or everyone will hate me," except that's downplaying the fact that my cousins actually did make fun of me for the things i loved until i started actively hiding everything from them and making up a new character to interact with them under. that version of me is not nice. but they think he's funny, i think. it still wasn't that bad. but im too sensitive to get over things like this? i guess??

and. the thing is. i know i have friends that care about what i have to say. um. and i care a lot about my friends. but i don't. know how to tell them that. because i'm scared. of weirding them out. which is really pathetic. but i referenced that sad little fear of vulnerability in the comic!! wow!!! feelings scare me!!!! if i'm too honest for too long i WILL start crying!!!!! i am anxious all the time and my number one response to anxiety is avoid avoid avoid hide from everyone and dont let them see how miserable you are!!!! yippee!!!! :3c

I'M DOING IT AGAIN. I'M JOKING. ABOUT IT AGAIN. UGH. UGH. UGH.

but anyways i got severely off-track~ i've been doing this for so long that i can barely even talk about the stuff i love so so much. the things i spend a lot of time on. which i am avoiding. because i feel too ashamed to type it. in a fucking tumblr post. because admitting that i am too insecure to tell people i collect plushies is actually so incredibly pathetic. 

also i spent so long not talking about my OCs and worldbuilding and stuff that i went from wanting to talk about them to feeling ashamed talking about them to actually having no desire to do it. like. i would like to talk about my characters if. someone cared, i guess. maybe?? i don't know anymore. 

i hate many components of myself. but one of the things i hate most is the constant shame and lack of confidence. trying to walk this tightrope of being true to myself without being too weird... WELL FUCKER YOU'RE NOT NORMAL. YOU COULD AT LEAST BE CONFIDENT ABOUT IT. 

this is sad

oh well

i'm kind of a gloomy guy by nature. i wish i wasn't, but i don't know how to? not be like that?? i can act like i'm happy but i can't actually force myself to be happy. and i do actually open up sometimes!! and i feel horrible and ashamed for bothering people with my insecurities and problems!!! and in my quest to not be a burden, i become a bigger burden when i end up snapping under the pressure!!!! i've never actually told anyone how bad it has gotten, at some points. i've gotten close!!!!! i've told... like, 80%? 75%? of the truth!!!!!!!! but i don't want to tell anyone the full story. because it would probably worry or scare them and also other things that i am too scared to write down because what if that makes them happen.

i can't break this insincere act, not completely. and! i can't really remember who i am or how normal human people are supposed to act!!! i forgot :) i've forgotten a lot more than just how to talk to people genuinely

oh also. this has a lot of negative self-talk in it. but i don't feel this way about other people. i really admire those that are confident enough to... be open with their passions. it's the quality i admire most in other people, i think? the confidence to be who you are.

this is part of what i fucking hate about self hatred. "oooo everyone must hate me for existi-" I'M NOT SPECIAL ENOUGH. FOR PEOPLE TO SINGLE ME OUT LIKE THIS. EVEN TO HATE ME.

hm.

anyways.

i feel fine.

drawing this helped.

writing this helped.

^w^ yay~

a comic about restraint

[la5t-res0rt]

Okay but it literally, LEGALLY, isn't classified as sim cp. You don't have to look at it if you want. And none of those things on that list are okay: antis shouldn't be sending death threats, babes shouldn't be either. Name calling is also out of the window because its childish and stupid. And making fun of people or invalidating their identities is wrong too. But I dlnt think you understand that /both/ sides do all that. You cant sit here and have a double standard like that.

oh i understand perfectly well

i just dont think you do

yeah the behavior in both sides can be pretty crummy but if you literally think that people shouldnt be called out for tolerating this sort of behavior that is literally harmful to so many people myself fucking included like oh fuck would i have loved to have never had to look at the content but its all the fuck over the place and so many of the shippers are so fucking entitled and so conceited that they are actively ASKING for it that one chicks ask box is a fucking taunt she lives for the attention good or bad

at this point I have a side that i favor because the other side sent my friend death threats sent me threats of violence belittled my mental health stole my friends art and maliciously reposted and edited their artwork that same side made incredibly upsetting artwork about causing harm to an actor i

the same side that bullied a fourteen year old after they had the nerve to speak up about the shit going on the same side that came for me for not knowing every single detail of said fourteen year olds very complex and not at all my business mental illness

the side that took something that gave me so much comfort and happiness and made me remember the abuse i endured when I was thirteen i hate that the internet is still such a ducking shitty place to be a lonely kid who just wants to be liked

the same side that writes romanticized rape and writes a black lgbt+ character being a subject of abuse the same side who thinks stories of characters of color need to struggle and endure pain for it to be a valid piece of writing or the side that talks down to young people and minors and then turning around and writing graphic content involving a teenage girl

a side that includes a transmed guy who is so vile that i honest to god use the word hate to describe me feelings for him

but yeah the side that pointed out that maybe saying that you basically only view women as sex objects in that you would perform sex acts for compensation with them but not actually pursue relationships with is a problematic statement or maybe the jewish teenager who asked someone to stop throwing the term nazi around THOSE are the real villains of the story theyre the ones that need to be taught a damn lesson jesus h christ

if you are still talking about the rae biphobia fiasco literally none of us ever said she wasnt bi that I know of i know i didnt we simply pointed out that what she said was an inherantly biphobic statement being lgbt+ doesnt mean you cant belittle other identities look at nasti and how he feels about the trans experience as if he owns the damn thing ugh fucking hell you made me mention these people by name thats how cranky i am

basically on top of all the shitty things done to me and my friends I dont want people using their shit triggering content to hurt people like i was hurt

also in the United States simulated cp is only okay if it passes this thing called the miller test and buddy pal chumbo nearly all the work ive had the great misfortune fails at least one of the three prongs of the miller test the whole area is very murky and not well defined but our neighbor nation of Canada (if youre in the us) is full stop no cp of any kind no ifs ands or butts

why dont you go tell nasti to shut his yap about solar or tell rae to gather her cronies and fucking chill and stop bugging me because im getting very sick of having to tell people how i feel and why i do what i do if you really think both sides are that bad why do t you go try and talk to them because im not budging that shit is wrong and i wont sit by in silence as if it isnt

if youre a beetlebabe shipper trying to get my to badmouth antis fine yeah we can be a bit intense and yeah there have been antis who’ve done shitty things in the past but if anyone is caught being shitty its over dude you are ejected from the good graces

and if youre a neutral youre doing a great job at being neutral but it is making me very angry and neutrality is comparable to complacency so im not in your camp at all

thanks again for writing in im not really sorry for being harsh but i really am sick of this shit so maybe go try talking to someone else for a little bit like literally any beetlebabe and see what they say back to you id love to see it

editors note because i couldnt fit this anywhere but if an anti does something wrong in the same vein as the beetlebabes and i hear about it im done with them full stop they dont get my support or anything and i wont state publicly who they are but there are several people that have been cut off because of their behavior

the thing is i dont seem to see the bad stuff they do or maybe i just dont see what they do as bad because in my book telling someone pedophilia is wrong isnt harassment its just a statement of fact anyway if you have receipts of antis being as hateful as babe shippers* im all eyes pal but dont give me the same stuff ive covered because ive made my stance on those things quite clear

*threats of violence belittling mental illnesses harassing a mentally ill 14 year old making fun of eating disorders and many other bad things

(Note: pointing out the inherant biphobia of a phrase is also not harassment)

bye