#i love my triple A-spectrum trans guy

[thekaiqueen]

i hate writing fanfiction because A) i keep forgetting to turn my lamp on and i cannot see my keyboard, so its just a free for all and B) i currently have 5 tabs open (aside from tumblr), one is reverse dictionary and the other 4 are various documents.

however i love writing fanfiction because it means i get to look through my doc of writing prompts/random half-summaries and i find gems like this

except i fucked up and forgot for a second that i also hc scara as ace so its actually 2 not three.

[altosys]

rebuilding the tfbogd fandom because holy hell this fandom's been dead for 7 years

ok ok so like, go watch gd fanmades. now, to understand the chronological order and the fanon lore spanning across several creators' channels, you'd had to have been there but it's not too late. disclaimer: you do NOT have to learn spanish to understand most of the lore. i promise you it'll make sense so there are three main timelines: -the la bestia timeline -the final battle of geometry dash timeline (and then there's sub-timelines but i'll get to those later) -like, anything else. [i'll edit this later to provide playlists]

lore highlights of the la bestia timeline: -the keymaster gets possessed -i think spooky dies at one point but gets revived? -plural gatekeeper real -scratch gets kidnapped -geometry dash actually gets destroyed -it turns out octocube has a sibling (we have trans rep now. AJDBWSJBCSJBCJISBSCJKSBAIC /pos) -octo's sibling is actually vv chill -oh also the gatekeeper falls in love with the player for a sec. i think it's implied that he thought the player was either octocube or rubrub? either way WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FU- -iirc scratch and/or potbor commit war crimes, so they got that goin' for 'em

lore highlights of the tfbogd (final battle of geometry dash) timeline: -the obscurity just... existing. like, more bpd-coded than spinel herself. i love this lil guy fr fr. vv kinnable for my cluster b ass. -the entire arc of octocube actually being the darkness actually fusing with obscurity but also being obscurity- it's your choice if you want to take that as canon or them being separate characters, personally i like to think they're separate. -the darkness being a girlboss fr fr. bro woke up and chose violence and im all for it -they got the whole light and dark concept better than legend of korra did which is saying something lol -the light isn't actually a "good" person, they're amoral. -hello keymaster x player fans, we have a lil' something for you! other timelines' lore highlights: -slum is kinda just gender ngl -discount bill cipher being everywhere. -yes, oculus (the ruler of levels) counts as a character. no, they're not in any fanmade *videos*, but we all accept them as a character in the series -i forget which video it is but to all the "spooky is apothiaro" mfs out there, i'm sorry

implied thingies that i turned into headcanons and now just go with it: -bpd obscurity real -aspd darkness real -octocube is the epitome of the psychosis/schizophrenia spectrum -i ship keycube and no one can stop me (i think there's some, uh........... stuff implied in one of the fanmades, all i remember is that it wasn't made by phoenix or rmr24hd) -scratch has committed war crimes (i think everyone can agree on this ngl) -biscuit is bigender or at the very least not cis (tbf she does use he/she pronouns canonically) -triple a battery obscurity real (agender aroace)

[beyblade-e]

Lgbtq+ hcs for some beyblade characters

Because I have nothing better to do apparently

Gingka - Every single kids franchise anime protagonist is either pan or aro I don't make the rules. Since "the only romance he knows is beyblade" I'm choosing to go with the latter option, but you can take your pick.

Madoka - Pan. Girl has walking flag syndrome.

Benkei - The men liker ever. I'm not 100% confident in saying he's gay, but I do know that I love him and he loves men.

Kyoya - Unfortunately for everyone I wasn't joking about him being pitch for Gingka. He can just do that. I think he's somewhere on the bi/aro spectrum (also bc of walking flag syndrome). I know that a character having bandages on their chest is just how anime portrays a character as the specialest little edgelord, but I'm choosing to interpret it as evidence for my trans headcanon anyway. He would absolutely refuse to get a binder and just use bandages despite it being super unhealthy because it looks cooler.

Ryuga - I also wasn't joking about him being trans and just not knowing it because no one ever told him how binary gender works. Aroace, mostly because obviously, and partly because every character I'm insane about is aroace no exceptions.

Reiji - People with binary genders don't look Like That nor do they like snakes that much. That guy is definitely somewhere on the demigender spectrum. Actually he's on every spectrum there is call him a triple A battery the way he's aro ace and autism

Tsubasa - Nonbinary also because of walking flag syndrome, they have big he/they energy.

Yu - Straightn't but he doesn't know or care about it because he's still in his "girls are gross and have cooties and homosexuality is a myth just like santa and taxes" era

Masamune - He also thinks girls have cooties and being gay doesn't exist, yet he has two boyfriends. Cringe

Honorable mentions ummm. Tobio and Ryutaro hang out in a way that is inherently not straight but not inherently romantic. Idk any specifics about Yuki but there is Something going on there. Conversely, Tetsuya has so much nothing going on that it qualifies him to be in this post. I feel like Jack and Hikaru may be queer coded in a questionable/deeply stereotypical way but that's a whole other post that I am not qualified enough to make.

In conclusion beyblade is queer as fuck if you believe. Thanks for reading.

[theladyfae]

room for a seventh?

for @sukker-sugar , as a sequel to their short fic that makes six of us. I love your work and I live for these lgbt headcanons, we really be out here projecting as best we can

summary: the hargreeves siblings are ready to go to pride as usual, but it seems luthers reached a few conclusions

read on ao3

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“Come on guys, you know the drill!” Klaus clasps his hands together as he waits for the others to settle down on the grass for their usual pre-pride headcount.

He nods towards Allison, who’s rummaging through the cooler for Five’s promised juice box. “Still bisexual,” she says without looking up, and then- “aha!! I told you Diego didn’t steal it, next time think before you bite, please.” 

Five accepts it with a thankful nod, but not before shooting a quick glare at a sullen Diego.

Klaus makes a face. “Uhhh, shouldn’t we be telling him not to bite people at all?” 

“Sure,” Five shrugs, “but I’ll have you know it’s Diego’s own fault he got bitten.”

Diego rolls his eyes and leans forward to grab a sausage roll from the mat spread out in front of him, making a show of flinching as he gingerly touches the bite ‘wound’ given to him by Five.

“You’re saying it’s my fault the kid bit me after I teased him about possibly stealing his juice box? When I don’t even like blackcurrant? Sorry, but I’m not bi- ing it.”

“That’s exactly what I’m saying, Diego, thanks.” Five shoots back. “And anyway, you already know I’m a triple threat , you should’ve seen it coming regardless.” He adds, almost as an afterthought, as he bites into his sandwich.

Klaus just blinks at them before turning to Vanya, who shrugs from where she’s leaning against a temporarily corporeal Ben under the shade of an oak tree. 

“I don’t have any clever puns related to my sexuality, I’m just a tired lesbian.” she says with a sigh.

“Fair enough, Vanny. You’re doing great sweetie.”

Ben snorts. “ Les be honest, Van, how did you miss that one?”

“.....oh yeah”

Ben stretches leisurely and leans back against the tree. “You know, Klaus, I don’t think ghosts can physically transition, but I think I’m starting to see the appeal of Benita. I would still say I’m trans but I might currently be leaning towards gender-fluid?? I’m not sure really.”

Klaus smiles before lifting the end of his favourite feather boa and sweeping into an overdramatic bow.

“Well, Ben, honey, I, your favourite pansexual enby–” he starts, pointedly ignoring Diego’s coughed ‘bastard’ and Allison’s quiet laughter , “– say that’s extremely valid and you don’t have to know to be as amazing as you already are.”

He waits for Ben to nod before carrying on, swirling his pan flag over his head to let it settle like a cape over his shoulders.

“Well then, I think that’s our headcount done, and hopefully, the end of our mini picnic too. Come on, let’s–“ he turns, only to be met with a generic ‘kiss the cook’ apron at face height.

“Ah, shit, sorry,” Luther sheepishly steps out of the way, fumbling. “Though… you were all about to leave, right? For Pride, I mean.”

Five raises an eyebrow, skeptical. “Yes….?”

“Ah. Okay, cool. Yeah, no, cool, you guys go ahead. I’ll just… pack up for you guys. Yeah..” 

Diego folds his arms. “What do you want, Luther?”

“Nothing, it’s just,” Luther raises his hands placatingly, before dropping them with a dejected sigh. “I was just wondering if you guys had room for a seventh person.”

Allison smooths down the front of her shirt before looking straight at him. “Oh, that’s sweet of you Luther, you want to show your ally-ship like that, but we’re fine, we don’t need protecti–“

“No, no.” He interrupts her. “I meant.. uh.”

He suddenly becomes acutely aware of everyone’s curious eyes on him, the sound of Diego’s foot tapping, Klaus’ constant stare, and the impatient, tangible need for an explanation.

“Fuck it,” he says, mostly to himself, before deciding to go all in.

“I meant … I’ve been doing some research. And I think I may be on the ace spectrum.”

Allison blinks. “Oh.” She says, and so do the others, less audible.

Luther chuckles half heartedly and scratches the back of his neck. “Yeah, ‘oh’. I think it… demisexual, yeah, thats what I think fits me. But I’m still straight. Heteroromantic. I just thought you guys should be the first to know.”

He’s not sure what he’s expecting. Laughter, maybe. A quick pat on the back before everyone works to forget about it. A declaration that being on the acespec but still being straight doesn’t mean he counts as part of the LGBTQ+ community. 

He’s not even sure he’d be that surprised if his siblings just straight up decline his request and leave without him.

What Luther definitely does not expect, however, is exactly what he gets.

The breath is suddenly knocked out of him and he looks down to see Klaus hugging him like his life depends on it. Diego is behind him now, with his hand on his shoulder and a soft smile that says ‘We’re here for you bro’ . Vanya is also hugging him, though she’s so small he can barely see the top of her head, and Allison is trying to get her arms around all three of them and only half succeeding. He’s pretty sure the pressure on his back is Five clinging onto him like a koala, along with Ben. Maybe. The weight is grounding, and he doesn’t feel overwhelmed like he thought he’d be after telling them. This hug is like home.

Klaus pulls back just enough to speak. “Looks like we stuck it to dad after all. He really was collecting gays, and now we know for sure that includes Luther .” 

He pauses for them to laugh, but continues completely seriously. “Luther, hon, you are absolutely fucking valid, we’re so proud of you for figuring that out about yourself!! Just know it’s okay if your chosen label changes cause they’re overrated anyway, and if anyone gives you shit for being a passing-straight guy at Pride we will cut them, right guys?”

The resounding affirmation from the others is almost enough to make Luther cry. It’s such a simple thing but he’s never felt so loved, so supported, so seen. He hugs them back and tries not to shake too much. God, this is really all he ever wanted.

They’re happily on their way to Pride now; Diego and Vanya are telling Luther about their previous experiences, Allison and Ben are discussing music and media, while Klaus stalks ahead of them proudly, all decked out in various pieces of pride merchandise. He feels like they might be unstoppable, and he’s definitely a fan of the vibes they’re currently giving off, like the knowledge that they’re finally all able to relate to each other on some level is an incredible mood booster. 

Reginald must be rolling over in his grave, he thinks with a smirk.

Make way for The Umbrella Academy.

[canarycontessa]

in no particular order, things I've learned having PCOS

1.  Root cause, root causes, ROOT CAUSES. 

Do you know what the course of treatment looks like if you don't address root causes? It looks like a bandaid for each individual symptom: progesterone to "jumpstart" your hormones (which you can only take for a few months before it starts fucking with your bones), metformin for your insulin issues, electrolysis or waxing for your facial hair, etc. 

NONE OF WHICH gets down to root causes or is in any way approaching a permanent solution (with the possible exception of laser hair removal or electrolysis). 

I’m not knocking these things; if they help in any way and fit your course of action, go for it. But these things are not a cure. There is no formal cure for PCOS, but the thing that puts it in a kind of remission is a complete sea change in terms of how you eat, sleep, exercise, and just generally live your life. Everything from the eggs you buy to the type of pads you use is up for reevaluation.

2.  Exercise does not (directly) affect fat loss, only muscle gain, body comp and hormone regulation. Know it’s benefits and its limits in your regimen. Or, you cannot out-exercise a poor diet. 

Your particular relationship to the scale is something you need to nail down and fast. If you know you’re obsessive and prone to daily weighing, get rid of the scale entirely. If you like tracking yourself week to week, go ahead. Either way, please know that your progress wrt: diet and exercise aren’t always going to be reflected on the scale. 

Unless you’re doing some sort of bodybuilder bulking/cutting thing, then you’re typically going to lose fat WHILE gaining muscle if you have a sensible plan. This can translate to looking better and losing inches while staying the same or even going up on the scale. Don’t be fooled. 

All of this goes for everybody, really, but it goes double and triple for people with PCOS. Get the “calories in/calories out” mindset out of your head. Focus on your hormonal balance. Go by how your clothes fit, how you look naked, how you feel when you move, the feats you become capable of that you weren’t before.  

3.  Your desires are not shallow. No, not even your "shallow" ones. Wanting to look good naked, wanting to not have stubble or hyperpigmentation, and wanting a sex drive that’s more on-point is just as valid as wanting to have a baby or wanting to prevent your prediabetes from becoming full blown diabetes. Period. No buts. I said what I said. And if anyone tells you otherwise or tries to make these things seem frivolous? 

Tune them the fuck out. 

You’re the one who has to live with this disorder, not them, so they can fuck right off. Yes, even your doctor or your mother or your boyfriend or your minister or whoever the fuck. Yes, even other people with PCOS. 

I say this as someone who never has and never will want children, and is more concerned with preserving my health and beauty well into my middle age than I am with fertility. I’m not curing cancer, but neither is any broad that wants to get knocked up. 

We each want what we want. Let’s leave each other to our own wants, shall we?

4.  There's a limit to what a doctor can (or sometimes is even willing) to do for you here, so you have to take the wheel. Remember what I said about band aids? Unless you go to an endocrinologist or someone who specializes in hormonal/reproductive health or just a general practitioner who gives a damn, you’re not going to find an abundance of help with a doctor. 

It’s sad to say, but a lot of general practitioners are either unequipped, underqualified, uninformed or (worst case scenario) just flat out uninterested in helping with what they consider a nebulous disorder at best, or a series of low-priority nuisance issues at worst. 

My main solution to this is to understand deeply and unwaveringly: They may be the doctor, but you are the expert on your own lived experience. Find a doctor that not only knows their business, but who knows that you two are a team.

I’ve been lucky enough to experience both ends of this spectrum. Yes, even the bad ones. 

I’ve had the best insurance money could buy utterly wasted on a doctor that spent months of my time telling me my kidneys were shutting down due to blood in my urine when I already made it clear that the “blood in my urine” was actually my menorrhagia. He completely discounted my lived experience of menstruating for a full 15 - 20 days out of EVERY MONTH and came up with a disorder of his own, wasting so much time sending me back for renal scans whenever the “blood in my urine” didn’t correspond to my test results reflecting perfectly normal kidneys. This guy outright told me that he was more concerned with my hypertension than he was with addressing anything else going on with me. As if it wasn’t all connected.  

I’ve also had supposedly lesser medical staff that took my concerns seriously, conducted examinations promptly, listened to what I had to say and actually laid out what my options were so that I could decide how we should proceed from there. It was one of these places that actually found out that what I’d been dealing with for years was PCOS, giving the beast that tormented me a name so I could draw a target on its back. They broke down their methodology for determining it into layman terms I could understand: 

“your period has these abnormalities, you have these visual markers (skin tags, facial hair, hyperpigmentation), your insulin is up in the prediabetic range and you have multiple benign but problematic cysts on your ovaries. We’ll test a few other hormonal markers in your blood and urine panel but otherwise it’s safe to say you have PCOS”      

5.  There will be people will treat your illness as trivial, not real, a product of unclean living, a product of hysteria and/or all in your head. Even loved ones. Even doctors Even yourself, at times.

6.  Hopelessness and discouragement are almost literally parts of this illness, so treat them as you would any other symptom. I say almost literally because mood swings and a higher probability of depression come with the turf. Also, the uphill battle you’re facing from medical professionals (see Item 4) and even your loved ones just piles onto all this. Overall, this hormonal disorder just wears you down. Self care becomes even more important than ever before, as does finding a community of other women dealing with this.  

7.  Don't get sucked into terf shit while trying to reclaim your femininity. This isn’t really about the disorder itself, I just really wanted to sound off on this right quick (keep in mind I’m a cis woman saying this, I’m not as informed about trans issues as a trans person, but I’m trying to be a good neighbor here. Please do your own research and please understand that hitting up your nearest trans person doesn’t count as research. Google is free and there are literally so many academic and anecdotal resources).

My POV on this is as a cisgender black woman with this disorder. I’ve had my femininity questioned, mocked, and outright denied (misogynoir at its finest) since I was a child. I’ve seen people both overtly and subtly project their weird ideas about gender onto me. And yet I know I don’t go through even a TENTH of the bullshit and violence that trans women of color do. My pain may be legitimate, but it does not give me or anyone with any integrity a free pass to turn the trans community into one big punching bag for my own frustrations.    

There’s nothing terfs love more than preying on vulnerable women that they feel they can recruit. Learn to spot the dogwhistles and reject the sales pitch. They’ll try to court you and make you feel so understood and welcome. Don’t fall for it. I don’t care if J.K. Rowling herself becomes your best buddy. Don’t go there. 

[joseyfeli1-blog]

This is it. Halloween 2017

So this Halloween (sadly) i will not dress up. But i will strip down, Ayyyyy!!

alright back to business. Sexuality, Identity, and least important of this bunch, Biological Sex.

This post is for my blog and to be written down. I am still closeted, which i only will tell people that i believe will not care so much about this info. Serisouly in my life, it isnt a huge thing for me.

So it has come to me, throughout this year i really shouldn’t say i am cisgender, and heterosexual. And for me that was strange for me to be so okay with. Yet it wasn’t of how accepting and how much i love myself. No. it is truly cause i knew i wasn’t but never went to go check up the lgbt+ shit, and didn’t care about this stuff. But here i am, caring about myself (how do i feel about that? ehh). Sexuality was never something i cared to bring up/talk about, but Senior year (high school) and im just realizing that from past experiences that, yeah, it is more complicated than - hetero, cis. Yeah no, mostly all my lifes explanations are paragraphs, or essays. long story short, This post is really not for the people who would support me (though Thank You so much) and also not for me to accept me. Again I never cared for my sexuality and i still dont, but since i might get asked, and i would like an straight(Hah!) answer.Okay so here it is…

Identity

A big thing this is. Most explanation will be put into this (not for people to believe me, just so its written somewhere). I want to be identifyed as Genderfluid, three genders, Male, Female, and Non-Binary. For friends on here, dont worry im fine with the pronouns and or whatever you all me. I enjoy no remembering that im biologically male, but i understand people wont care for me in the future. Plus about 17 years of it, kind of numbs you to caring about the pronoun game. So why identify as genderfluid and not be cisgendered? Well for me i am self aware that i depreciate myself (all the fucking time) and some part of it was, so i mustnt hate myself enough to realise i should accept the idea of me being identified as the other two genders. So i thought about, i hate most masculine shit. feminine shit? Love a lot of it! Shit with no gender?  Cool as fuck. So why be filtered Josey? why not embrace this threepeice mofo? 

Why do i believe myself to be these genders?/ Why identify as them?

picture a triple Venn diagram please? Male, Female, Non-Binary.

Why male? i WILL NOT degrade the beauty of the other two genders to have me as a full addition. (self-depreciation, i know, again self aware af) 

Why Female? They all are strong as H E L L! to be apart of them, thats a nice thought. Plus ive had a front row seat of how most common men act towards women and i will not be apart of those asses(i am a different kind of asshole, but that is for another post, not the time right now) I never liked the way how most people talk about how lesbians are only hot and the they are sexualized, THEN! when they bring it up! everyone calls them crazy and disregards the actions of sexualizing women loving women.

Why Non-Binary? They have no need for being either common gender, Awesome! in my opinion. The fact that i never cared for my gender  through my young life, speaks out to me, not loudly, but i know i barely care for the thing in between my pants, regardless my bio sex. In fact, i wont have memories of me being called specific pronouns and shit where i feel nostalgia over them, you wanna know why? Cause i dont remember being called a boy and enjoying it! i just remember having a great time with video games or walking around the houses ive been in.

Seriously days go by without me acknowledging that im male, so in my opinion no it doesn’t matter to me what people think of me, nor if they will support my identifications. Hence, Genderfluid, not trans, not just Non-binary. But three halves, to make a whole.

Sexuality

Alright the simpler part of this post. So when growing up, media, my family, myself, just thought it was okay for making me believe that: Yes! i am hetero! i like women! and it is okay how many are being degraded!

took me a second, but luckily i do not think that at all anymore. (for people that are going to argue me, realize that: too bad if im wrong! i aint changing this post for you!) Now sadily it took me tim eto notice how heteros i knew/ know think its fine how they think so lowly of the people they find sexually attractive, but opinions opinions! so i digress.

I am DemiPansexual (and probs demiromantic, not the time to figure that shit out yet.;p)

Demisexual- Part of the Ace spectrum, you are sexually attracted to no one other than people you have created such powerful bonds with, the immensity or lack of strong bond is obviously individual preference.

Pansexual- People sexually attracted to people whom are themselves as much as possible. See People, we dont care for biological sex, identity, or sexual orientation of whomever we feel attracted to sexually. Again personal reference is what you are looking towards other people (or yourself? who nows? some freaky narcissistics out there, @rapforeminem im looking at You!:p). For me, people being themselves the most, and me seeing them sexually attractive because of it- That (again for me) is someone living their life where they cant stop learning themselves and aspiring to be themselves as we all know, we gonna die soon. the fact is (in my opinion), People dont change, they adapt and grow. They become what their soul is. i believe that souls know what we will become, hopes that we discover all 100% of ourselves, i pray to know all of me, but im also scared, so i will not try to really go out for the answer, if it happens, it happens, and cool too. To see someone be themselves and embrace it, brightens my mood. seeing their bright eyes, makes me bite my lip (like a loser and/or fangirl, lol), it makes me feel good/ special to be there for it. it is special and sweet. anyhow, i hate seeing people as sexual objects, i know i very much did before, but for me, it was normalized! for me! i am justifying me right now, im justifying when i didn’t know that was not how i like to think and act.

DemiPansexual- So why use both? Well, i shouldn’t call myself/ use the ace spectrum to use for myself, again big respect for each one of them, because  i have seen people that i didn’t have/ picture of having a profound bond with. And I love the soul of others, they’re so pretty! Especially when they are really unfiltered.

now because i am pansexual, doesn’t mean i have to seek out the entire soul of another to be even a tiny bit sexually attracted to them. That is my opinion. This Whole Fucking post is my god damned opinion, why type and post it? it will give me god damn peace broham. having something written, helps me cope, so in a sense, this helps me be me, acceot myself and my complicated sexuality/identity.

So for people whom talk, or want to talk to me (there is no line for that), and dont know how to talk to me aafter i come out, just notice, i never really talked about myself in these ways before! i never really cared, i am numb to how poeple just saw a straight regular boi. GOD do i wish it was that simple, literally over an hour typing this shit! But of course to end it,

Biological sex

i am boi

Alright that is it! Hahaha, okay so this is going out at 2:00 am in texas time, but 12:00am (Halloween) for westcoast of the united states. ill reblog during the day of Halloween. not to advertise myself, but for people that want a coming out post, and or support me no matter what (thank you again, love you lot) i identify as.

Oh and i understand that there are so many! so many spectrums and other shit, so if you read all this, or just feel like im incorrect and ou are in fact more intelligent in this subject than me and try to tell me “that i am actually something else”, or “there is a better title for you” i wont listen right now, im fucking exhuasted okaying this post as is, ill check on myself and the wikipedia if I feel the need to. And if you do not beileive or disagree with any part of my coming out shtuff, talk to me directly, no need to hurt my supporters, followers, people i follow, random Tumblr users, and especially mutuals( I Love you guys! MWAH!). Message ME that im wrong or dont exist! not the people that had no idea this post was being done! give me your hate! im cool with it! I Will allow it!

Anyway! Happy mother fucking Halloween California! Have a safe and fun one this year! and everywhere else for that matter.