#i love my mom i really do but she's an ableist egocentric prick sometimes

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okay I'm gonna whine about something petty and stupid and frankly i shouldn't even be complaining first world problems yada yada

last year i missed the crane wives concert. They were performing the same day as a band competition and i couldn't go.

This year when i got the Spotify presale, i jumped on it and bought the tickets for me and my mom. (Or rather, asked my mom to do it and paid her back.)

And then my mom got vip tickets.

And i told her that this upset me. It was so much more money, and for what?

And her answer was that i couldn't handle normal concert seats, and this would be better, and she was looking out for me. The VIP seats were isolated and you'd get to have personal space and you'd be able to see unobstructed, and get food more easily, and it even had a private bathroom right nearby. Besides, having more expensive tickets means that they'll be more eager to accommodate us and treat us better.

I reiterated that i did not like this, did not ask for this, did not want this, that it was a waste of money, and would be a worse experience. She'd already bought the tickets, she said, she couldn't go back.

So we went tonight. The vip seats were less comfortable (bar stools). Our view was obstructed by people who apparently had a higher vip level. Food was not easier to get, it was ridiculously expensive and i didn't even want to eat anyways, we'd grabbed fast food on the way there. Also, i don't use public bathrooms. Not in the way normal people do, where they don't go to the bathroom if they can avoid it/can comfortably wait. I will literally be about to piss/shit myself but i can't use a public restroom because of gender. VIP bathroom doesn't help me. It does however help her.

I got concert tickets because i wanted to go to a concert. Be around people like me, have crowd energy, be obnoxious and loud and boisterous and have a great time. She decided that instead of doing that she was going to spend stupid amounts of money, hold it over my head, and claim it was for my benefit. It wasn't. I pointed out that it was for her benefit.

She could've just admitted it. It would've been fine. She could say, "i don't like crowds, and i need easy access to a bathroom." It would be easy. But no, she has to pin it on my autism, and claim that this is what's better for me, and that i don't know what i can handle, and call me ungrateful even though i never wanted this, explicitly told her three months in advance that i didn't like this. And like, it's whatever, at the end of the day i still got to see my favorite band live, and now i know for sure that i want to actually go to a concert in a real way, but. Urgh. And she's being such a bitch about it! I pointed out that that's like the worst way to do a concert and she was like "you could've gone down there at any time" and i was like no???? That's not how that works??? There aren't seats for us down there???? Because your stupid ass bought seats in VIP? Like... be so fucking for real

god. I would've loved it too. I would've had such a good time.