#i love it when my green man wife is suffering from trauma /j

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BROOO so I was reading the chapters of "The splinter in the blind man's eye" which is something Tommy Andreasan (co-creator of Ninjago) and another person wrote together, and it was a "could be canon" Ninjago story.

Lloyd is the protagonist in this story (and claance), and Jesus fuck he's A SUPER TRAUMATIZED CHARACTER???

I guess this "could-be-canon" Ninjago story also proves Lloyd has fucking PTSD 😭

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pog ok shadow songs + short explanations

cooler than me - lyndi wadsworth: this is that rock cover of cooler than me i sent a while back. i explained already why i think this sums up shadow and sonic's dynamic and his feelings toward sonic.

custer - slipknot: the opening lines referring to both death by guns and being reminded of a person's beauty scream shadow's feelings regarding the life and death of his best friend maria who was shot and killed. figthing hell and fear because you understand it hits really well with him, too. other than that it's a lot of general anger and cynicism, which, even when shadow has developed as a character not only over the course of games like adventure 2 but also past that intense edgelord characterization shadow the hedgehog 2005 gave him, is still pretty fitting. even if he's not cruel or anything outright, he's still bitter with a short temper and angry at a lot of things.

dead memories- slipknot: the entire song is about losing the past and the pain of remembering. granted, the lyrics aren't anything near a 1:1 comparison, but i mean, the theme fits him really well.

chop suey - system of a down: i love this song. the vague, slippery grasp on a heavy theme of death i think fits shadow well too, as death is a recurring factor in his story.

wake me up when september ends - green day: the entire song is about mourning, which again, the trauma he suffered when maria died is a big factor in his character.

born with horns - machine gun kelly: shadow as a character has a lot of turmoil. as shown in one ending of shth 2005, he has a lot of regret for the damage and pain he's caused, directly or inadvertently. he stays away from making friends after maria died. he was made and repeatedly attempted to be used as a weapon. through two different games, in essence, shadow was stuck on the same feeling and the same traumatic event again and again. ("how much time can i waste constantly feeling the same thing?") plus the entire ending refrain really just sums up shadow's character arc and his isolated nature and experiences.

lonely - machine gun kelly: i mean, come on. maybe the lyrics aren't anywhere near a 1:1 comparison, just like dead memories, but the theme of loss and mourning?? the way it's presented? it fits him really well. shadow lost so much. plus the recurring theme of "i'd trade it all for you," i know it's metaphorical and it's a common feeling when you lose a loved one (yeah, i'd know that personally /lh) but shadow's motive for trying to destroy the earth was driven by vengeance and mourning over maria's death.

nothing inside - machine gun kelly: no explanation. the lyrics don't fit, the theme is wrong, but i hear it and i'm like yeah, that's shad, mainly because of the chorus.

rocket man - elton john: now we get into the stuff that's gonna warrant an ummm wtf but, the mix of lyrics about space and themes of feeling lost? "i think it's gonna be a long, long time 'till touchdown brings me 'round again to find- i'm not the man they think i am at home, i'm a rocket man" first of all. space. shadow was created in space. he lived on the space colony with maria. a "long, long time", shadow being sealed away for 50 years in cryostasis, but for some reason it's really his story in sa2 ending with him falling to earth from space that makes this one hit for me? like, i know he survived, but still.

space oddity - david bowie: wish i could say i wasn't too stupid to know what this song is actually about. i just kind of hear an astronaut dying in space when a mission goes wrong, accepting it in the last moments ("tell my wife i love her very much") and no one can reach him, and it probably represents something but i have no media comprehension. anyways death in space.

ok these are all too depressing what about teenagers by mcr because it's so funny to me that shadow is literally my age and he's out here like THAT

Love the MGK songs in here, my propaganda has worked- /j

Also the fact that I'm older than a fUCKING SONIC CHARACTER SCARES ME-

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○○ eyez | outtake six

THE FADER | Meet the Coles

J. Cole has cemented himself in history as one of Hip-Hop’s most enigmatic forces. The rapper has sold millions of albums, toured the world, and has come the image of sophisticated cool. Now, he is now one half of the industry’s up and coming power couples. Take an exclusive look at the story of how this duo’s love story became the new meaning of ‘Relationship Goals.’

By Leona Ryder

There’s a light wind outside as I sit by the window of a famed Italian restaurant within the semi-remote North Carolina town. About five hundred thousand people live within the city limits and even with the fairly large population, there is a sense of community and togetherness. As any city would, there are sprawling estate communities and struggling hoods. But in a certain mid-class neighborhood is where one of hip-hop’s rising unions reside, hiding in plain sight. The street seems to be quiet during the day, with the laughter of children filling the air in the early afternoons. Sprawling green lawns, tall trees, and the clear blue skies seems to come right out of a magazine. One could say it’s a long way from the homes some of us know, while others would even say that it was a step down from the life they knew. But for the Cole family, it seems to be right at home.

I’m sitting in the living room of the home and it’s a cozy space that crosses between contemporary flair and traditional family warmth. Pictures line the shelves of moments past, from gigs and shows to some of their more intimate moments—dates, wedding photos, and childhood milestones. The woman of the house was even hospitable enough to make lunch to eat. It’s almost like a movie or a wholesome sitcom of the past.

“Don’t be fooled,” She warns. “This is just after I picked up after the hurricane,” She laughs after referring to her one-year-old.

The world has been nothing short of fascinated with the story of rapper J. Cole and his wife Beija—the two work within the Dreamville Records label, and with a couple years under the belt, a harmonious yet long road to marriage and a child to show for all of it, it seems that that they’ve fought tooth and nail to keep their lives somewhat under the surface. It’s no wonder, considering how far the two have come.

“I met [Beija] the night Forest Hills Drive released,” The 33-year-old rapper and producer retells a story that although may be fresh to near ears, friends have probably have heard it a thousand times before. It’s written all over his face that he never grows tired of telling it. “She had been working with Dreamville for seven months before that,” At the time, Beija was working on her master’s degree in Music Management at New York University—“he swears someone was ducking him,” was her response. Cole continues to describe the night he laid eyes on the woman who unbeknownst to him, would end up bearing his first child: words like ‘enchanting’ and phrases like ‘stopped me in my tracks.’ It’s clear that the woman possesses a hold on this man that many women only dream about or read in novels.

Their love story is nothing like the fairy tales that one reads out of the magazines. Controversy and public shock seemed to surround Cole’s divorce from his first wife like a fog, and who was once considered one of the most reclusive artists of the current generation had been forced back into the spotlight. “Looking back, I’m not surprised at what happned. At the time, no one knew about it other than myself and our manager. The plan was to let it process in private,” Beija explains. Of course, the plans derailed heavily after pictures were leaked of the couple embracing one another. Social media was set ablaze because of it, causing conversation and discourse throughout the duration of the divorce that Cole was given no choice but to reveal.

“I can honestly say that even though I’ve been in the game for a while now, those kind of situations still don’t feel real—they always feel like outer body experiences,” He describes. “But even then I was worried more about her than me. Let’s keep it real; women suffer far more than men in any category one could name, and when it comes to situations like ours, the woman will always be blamed, even if it was never her fault. What nobody will understand is that she went out of her way to avoid the feelings we shared when I was in my previous marriage. I pined for her, not the other way around. I longed for her, wanted her, fell in love with her. And I did it openly, and without restraint. It had nothing to do with anything she did. All she ever wanted initially was to be a good friend to me. That is what bothered me for the longest about it. To this day I still hold a piece of guilt for how I pulled both her and my ex-wife into such a crazy scenario. Thankfully, we’re all in a place where we can be at peace with how things turned out.”

The media and our intrusive society aren’t the only hurdles that this couple have had to jump over—from the harassment investigation that went on in December 2017 and Beija’s hospitalization earlier the same year is just the tip of the iceberg. But Beija plans to turn at least one of those struggles into something positive. “No one really knows why I was hospitalized—there were many fans who theorized and wondered, but for the most part I kept it to myself. But now that I am getting some balls rolling I want to be a bit more open with my situation. I have been suffering from depression for years now, and I have plans to start a charity that will be under the Dreamville Foundation umbrella to focus on those issues,” She explained. “Mental illness isn’t a joyful topic but it needs to eb spoken on, especially in the black community. So many have spoken about it before, but I want to go even further than that and work towards not only conversation, but action so that no one else will feel the way I felt that day, or that we don’t have to hear anymore stories of our friends and family making that final decision.”

But through all the chaos and trauma, it seems that this family has muscled through it all and are now living in a world they have made all their own. Inside the walls of their home, J. Cole is only Jermaine, or ‘Daddy’ to his daughter. Beija is no longer the budding businesswoman, but a wife and mother. To their daughter, these people are not public figures but simply her parents, and they prefer it that way. “I honestly don’t want [my daughter] to know who I really am until she’s old enough to understand what it all comes with. I want her to feel like she’s just a child, and not a star’s child,” He says.

“Her experiencing a taste of ‘fame’ will be inevitable, though,” It becomes clear that the couple works because of their balance—while Jermaine is ideals, Beija is truth. “One day they’re going to tell her, ‘Youre J. Cole’s daughter. You’re Beija Cole’s daughter.’ I know this because people already tell me, ‘You’re J. Cole’s wife.’ But what I feel will be the key factor to her development is her knowing that she’s beyond our shadows. She will find her identity and we will help her find it. She will be okay, and it’s up to us to ensure that she will.”

Read the full interview here: thefader.com/meet_the_coles