#i love having an eating disorder that everyone is ignoring bc I’m skinny now

[iishmael]

Bad day bad day 🔝

[plush-rabbit]

What headcanons you have in request box actually? I'm really curious lol. Have nice day btw, I love your work!!!!!

Okay, so usually I put some in a doc and then like figure it out from there so if you've sent one in and haven't seen it, don't worry, it'll be done and added once I make a dent lmao. These are also a mix of hc and fics. Some I'm like part way through so ye

There also might be some that I might not do because its vague, like I'm given just the prompt and I don't know what to do with it or there's just no ideas that come to mind so I really am sorry.

Upcoming ones:

Met with Dia and he said “how else will you please me?” And I think it awoke something in me?? Can I request Diavolo with a bashful innocent MC and him just laying back and letting her have his way with him? But of course he’s a total dom so he’s gonna take control but just has a little fun letting her take the reins to start with? Hi. I just found your stuff and you write so well for Obey Me. Could I request a fic with Barbatos and a female MC? Maybe she's staying at the palace for whatever reason and when he goes to his room he hears her moaning his name so he checks on her but she's sleeping. The next day he hints that she must've had a good dream much to her dismay. That night he goes to her room and she's awake and they end up sleeping together. With some praise and maybe even some tail action. Thank you! Can I please get a uuuhhh possessive/borderline yandere Leon please :3c maybe it’s after a big match for her and everyone’s fawning over her and he steals her away and reminds her that she’s his? 💕✨ I saw those headcanons where Jin and Shigaraki became parental or sibling figures to the reader sooooooo how about headcanons of a fem!reader being a mother figure to the league? Just an ordinary citizen in her late twenties until she met the LOV unexpectedly, during the time where the league had to hide and the reader's place is conveniently open (then again I'm sure they'd bust in if it wasn't) and she didn't rat them out. This happened quite a lot of times to the point where the reader is used to it by now and just lets them in, even if they weren't hiding from anyone and just wants to stay for the night. When she got closer to the league, she starts to show care and love for them in a way a mother would the reader isn't a member of the league, but they already consider her as family :'D I just really want them to get care and love since they've been through so much Last week I literally sat down and read your writing for like an hour and a half LOL It’s just really good and I love your characterization! I was wondering if I could request Twice and Shigaraki with an s/o who tries to be cute and surprise them by wearing their clothes when they return from a mission but maybe the clothes are a bit too snug cuz they’re a little pudgy :( could also be nsfw if you’re ok with that!! Thank you so much 💜💜 I like the Lucky!Cat!reader hc. Could you do some for the LOV, with a Male Cat s/o? Thank you! You're the best!! I've been obsessing about flowers and their meanings or what they symbolize soooooo. How would the LOV react to their s/o giving them a certain flower and then finding out what the flower means/symbolizes? Hope this passes! It's a request for OM. Can I have headcanons of the brothers + Diavolo (if you don't mind) of their s/o dancing "Paradise Lost" by GAIN? Provided you a link to the video for reference 😁: https://youtu.be/4i32ANEa5mk Headcanons where the LOV has an s/o whose like a literal ball of sunshine. Always happy and bubbly, smiling and laughing, they just seem to epitome of joy. Until one day, they just break down, being so emotionally drained from different factors that they can keep up the act of being happy anymore Last week I literally sat down and read your writing for like an hour and a half LOL It’s just really good and I love your characterization! I was wondering if I could request Twice and Shigaraki with an s/o who tries to be cute and surprise them by wearing their clothes when they return from a mission but maybe the clothes are a bit too snug cuz they’re a little pudgy :( could also be nsfw if you’re ok with that!! Thank you so much 💜💜 hey!! hru? i have a question do you think shigaraki would like a threesome? what if his s/o didn’t want one bc she’s like possessive of him (in a non toxic way) hey plush, can you do a reader x Shiggy and Dabi whos crying to them/grabbing their shirts and burring themselves into shiggy and dabi/ about their verbally abusive ex, how theyre so different from them, so much nicer and softer, how they(the reader) never thought they could be loved or deserved kindness? its been one of those days, i just need some comfort. thank you♡ heyy!! ^^ can i request some headcanons for hawks reacting to his female s/o belly dancing for him? :3 Heyo this is beetle juice anon idk if u remember me I’m the person who said shiggy sounds like beetle juice, I swear I couldn’t get that thought out of my head so can I request shiggy and reader getting hit by a quirk that forces them to do a musically ( idk I just want shiggy to sing honestly lmaoooo) idk maybe both of them being shocked that both of them can sing hey, i absolutely adore your writing! i love going through all your work, they’re my comfort fics! 💞 i was wondering if you would mind writing something for tomura with an s/o who is insecure about her body and how skinny she is? she feels too flat, like she doesn’t have enough curves or that she’s grown into her body enough and it makes her feel less of a woman, that tomura could do better. and it makes her anxious when it comes to initimacy and being exposed to him because in her eyes he’s so perfectly handsome and she just feels inadequate... it’s something i’ve had to deal with pretty much my entire life, getting called names like stick insect and coat hanger, but lately it’s been eating away at me more and more. you can totally ignore this if you feel uncomfortable writing about this stuff, though! 💕 So, like. Hear me out. What if, with Bakugou and Dabi (separate) : MC is super innocent and cute, blushes at the slightest flirt, and “doesn’t get” dirty jokes, but as soon as they’re alone with their s/o? They are the kinkiest most vulgar bottom they’ve ever seen. Nipples pierced, collar under the turtleneck, chain strung between the piercings and the collar, all out kinda slut. The duality of man. (Gender neutral) Hello so may i request shigaraki with a s.o whos warm loving and protective and very innocent basically a s.o whos like mitsuri kanroji both personality and look wise Female pronouns,maybe they are out on a date getting ice cream and the s.o is so happy shiggy came, they hold hands and people start giving him odd looks only for her to stand up to the bullies who are saying things about shigaraki, it ends with her kissing him infront of everyone to prove a point,and when the get home she tells him she doesnt care what people think and makes love to him topping hin while telling him all the reasons she fell inlove with him,(omg im so sorrry its so long if you have tpo many requests or dont like the idea please tell me) hey, i absolutely adore your writing! i love going through all your work, they’re my comfort fics! 💞 i was wondering if you would mind writing something for tomura with an s/o who is insecure about her body and how skinny she is? she feels too flat, like she doesn’t have enough curves or that she’s grown into her body enough and it makes her feel less of a woman, that tomura could do better. and it makes her anxious when it comes to initimacy and being exposed to him because in her eyes he’s so perfectly handsome and she just feels inadequate... it’s something i’ve had to deal with pretty much my entire life, getting called names like stick insect and coat hanger, but lately it’s been eating away at me more and more. you can totally ignore this if you feel uncomfortable writing about this stuff, though! 💕 could we get a fem reader cock warming Dabi throughout the night and get morning sex >//< // ik youre a busy bee so dont feel obligated to rush or anything, take ur time plushie!♡ can we please get a shiggy x reader and the reader asks him to teach her how to game and she ends up being better than him and whatnot (inspired by that “a simple wager”) fic (if you ever decide to make a sequel to that i will ve DECEASED Can I request a sub shigaraki with a mommy kink getting pegged by the reader ( I just want to make him beg and cry honestly) reader is a female Omh give us noncon/somno w scary eraserhead plsss / aizawa and aphrodisiac smut pwease ( ；∀；) Overhaul and Chrono punishing quirkless reader for being an undercover reporter/agent but like orgasm denial... (Idk if you write this stuff but anyways do it if you want have a nice night) Can I request something like “Peaches and Cream” but with Piers instead? I know you’re busy with other requests, so don’t worry if you don’t have time for this one! I love love your writing!!! Hello beautiful can I just say how amazing ur writing is loll, can I request shigaraki having a crush on the reader and she knows about it, like one day shiggy just goes to her room when there on a mission and just steals her stuff and humps her pillows, but she has cameras in her room so she saw everything, long story short she shows him the videos and humiliates him (shiggy of course a mess and is close to crying from how embarrassing that is, lowkey turned on ) the reader takes care of him ( sorry I’m really bad at endings 🙏🏻���) the reader pegs him until he’s a crying mess. By the way the reader is a female and shigaraki is a sub has a mommy kink and the reader is dom of that’s ok of course I love your writing!! May I ask for Diavolo x F!Reader with borderline disorder? 👉👈.. Lately it has been very difficult for me to deal with this alone and Diavolo is mine comfort character.. (NSFW Talk, If your a minor..then why are you even reading this?? Get off this 18+ page?? Anyways-). I am a huge sucker for overstimulation, biting and crying, (many of my past partners have called me a sadist-) and I just 𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑟𝑒 the idea of Tamaki’s cute face streaming with tears and drool as Male Reader vigorously overstims the fuck out of him. And he would look so 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑙𝑦 with his mouth gaping open in a silent scream of overwhelming pleasure because M!Reader gave his sensitive dick a handjob while he roughly railed Tamaki’s pretty little ass. (While abusing the fuck out of his G Spot, of course). I can just imagine him squirming and begging for mercy while M!Reader lovingly wrecks his body, taking him hard & fast in multiple different positions with each one making Tamaki wail with pleasure. He’s just so adorable, I just wanna see him get 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑝𝑙𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑙𝑦 𝑚𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝~ Lusty ❤︎ -Anon. Bonus Points if you could have M!Reader be super fuckin tall, muscular, strong and also be absolutely PACKING. (This man has a godly dick, and it’s honestly a surprise Tamaki can take it so well without literally breaking in half) ahhhh hewwo could you maybe write something with dbd ghostface going full apotheosis for his crush? as in,, he starts to elevate her to a status of divinity and even when she's just cowering in fear in front of him or conversely stabbing him and causing him lots of pain he just keeps viewing her as some sort of deity and  can't stop obsessing over her and wanting more from her

Again. I deeply apologize for not doing some. I wish I could, but (and this is not to guilt trip any of yall or anything, I understand that it'll sound like that it but it ain't it) sometimes the work I put into something and the feedback I get is sometimes not it. Like I'll work hard and get nothing and listen, I get it, its fanfic, there's a bit more stigma to it rather than art but yeah. Its a ramble, and basically, I don't wanna put work into something that I'll only get a few likes on. So yeah. Agains this isn't guilt tripping, I get it. I'm a consumer of it and I get the gist of it but yeah. More thoughts later, when I can properly sit and write as I am currently in a home depot 

[suchabeautifulbrokensmile]

Dear Ed,

You took over my life when I was fifteen. When I was seventeen I started to self harm because I couldn’t handle all your comments, I thought I was going crazy. Between restricting, binging and purging, volleyball, and school I had no time for my family. I started to distance myself, from everyone but my grandma of course. I started to argue with my mom, and wishing I was dead. Homecoming sophomore year I remember you kept telling me how ugly my dress was, I was so fat. So I stayed home. Junior year I was able to ignore you, but senior year you were right back at again with the nasty comments. Although I went to senior prom, I left early and slept all weekend instead of going to Ellicotville with my friends and having the time of my life. I should’ve been drunk that weekend making memories, instead I was keeping track of calories crying in my room. That’s when I was my lowest weight and you loved it. I was miserable. Then it was time to convince everyone that I was okay. I needed to go away to college so I had more control over my eating, and we did it. They bought it, to everyone I was healthy again. But I wasn’t. You did really well teaching me how to be sneaky with my food. Getting rid off it, sometimes I would be surprise with the things I came up with. I was putting food in my shoes, my backpack, my purse, or in the toilet. That’s when I became bulimic. You turned me bulimic. You taught me to eat everything, then get rid off it. You said no one would notice or care what I ate as long as I was eating. But for my own well being I had to get rid off it, no one was going to love a fat girl. Summer came and it was time to go to Brockport, I was fine for two weeks, then I got the routine and started to plan when and where I was able to purge. I had to eat because I would go to the dinning hall with people and sit with people, and that was the only way to eat food. If I ordered anything everyone would know. Everything was very public in college. But after I learned everyone’s routine in my hall I was able to go back to my old habits. Earliest classes started at 8, ROTC kids had to be out by 5am, I would use the bathroom at 3:55am. Latest classes ended at 9:15pm, and not many people showered before bed (I have no idea why) and in my hall not many liked to use the first bathroom, the water pressure wasn’t good, so only this girl Lauren used it, and I knew she would go to bed at 10, so at 11pm I would go turn every shower on and purge. RA did rounds at 7pm, 12pm, and 2am. I was good. My relationship with naziah made it all even worse. He became Ed in real life. Would point out every single flaw, would take food away from me, and would tell me to go to the gym. When we dated I didn’t have to follow my purging schedule. He made me his own. I fainted walking down the hall with my friends, literally just walking and I got a concussion. I was sent to the hospital and I came up with some bs story. Then another story for my mom, and another for my primary Doctor. I was a mess. But I was skinny, and you loved it. Naziah liked it too. Naziah got kicked out, and six months later grandma died. You took advantage of my weakness. I couldn’t think properly, all I wanted to do was die, and I tried… And I wasn’t successful.

Sophomore year came around, and because of you, Ed, I wasn’t able to live with my best friends, instead I chose random people. I didn’t want maddie to worry. We didn’t want maddie to worry bc she would’ve made it stop. Leaving in the suites was soooo much easier. Omg that’s when you were the happiest. We finally had our own bathroom. But that’s also when I started to drink even more than usual. I only needed a few shots to get drunk, and you liked it because it was even easier to purge, and people found it so normal. I didn’t had to come up with excuses. Between binging and purging I gained 37 pounds in a month. By the time I got home I was 197 lbs. none of my clothes fit, I had high blood pressure. My headaches started to keep me from being around people all I wanted to do was eat and sleep. I had no energy to purge anymore. I had no energy to even blink. I came home and went on a diet. It worked I lost 13 pounds so I kept doing it when I got back to school, and I started to hit the gym. That’s when it all got even worse. I would spend hours and hours at the gym. I would skip classes to work out. I don’t understand why you made me do that, I wasn’t even losing weight.

Junior year came around and I got a house with some friends. You took over my life, completely. And I never left my house. I skipped most classes, I spent my time in the bathroom floor. No energy to walk to classes, or go out. But somehow I was always drunk. I didn’t even have to leave my house. I would’ve wine instead of water. I saw my counselor Katie but all we talked about was my depression, I didn’t tell her about my eating disorder until the morning after I was in the hospital. I realized you were taking over my life. And I wasn’t ready to die. I am not ready to die. Sometimes I think death is the easiest way out, the only way you’ll stop talking to me, and dictating my every move. But there has to be another way. Which is why I am at a treatment center right now. I loved you Ed. You made me feel special for many years. You loved me when no one else did. Every time my dad let me down you were there to pick me up. When I lost the most important human being you were there. Through every single step. Every night before a test you were the only thing that helped me feel better. But it’s time for me to make myself feel better. I am capable of doing this for me. I need to depend on myself for my own happiness. I will miss you. But I can’t live my life depending on you. I need to move on. I understand that there will be times that we will cross paths in the future but I hope they aren’t long, I hope you disappear. Don’t go take over someone else’s life, please do not do that. Just go away, please. Please go away. I don’t remember life without you, and it is difficult to think about it. But I love new experiences, and I love adventures and this is something that I am willing to try. I just need you to please leave me alone. Because of you high school was rough, and so were my first three years of college. Let me be a normal human for once, let me enjoy my senior year. Let me live life. Please

We all know therapy wasn't working, I tried for the last six years. Every therapist irritated your soul, which eventually became mine, and then I couldn't tell them apart. I lied to everyone, I used to say exactly what they wanted to hear so they could tell my mom I was better again. But it never lasted. This is why I decided to do partial hospitalization, I don't want to be in a hospital but I'm not well enough to be on my own. And it's all because of you. I don't hate you. I don't. I wish I did. I'm tired of you. I wouldn't change a thing, bc without You I wouldn't be the strong person I am right now, but I could have and will have such a better future once I separate myself from you. I can already feel the relieve. Ed, you make my anxiety and depression worse than they should be. You make my life so much harder. I need recovery to work. That's all I want. I want peace in my own head for once. Don't make me push Christine away, don't make me push Krista away. They are actually helpful. For once I found people I can actually trust. Dr. Lesh, they all want to help me. And I need to let them, but I need you to leave. I want to be healthy. I can't live a life wanting to die every minute because of my appearance. I can't. I wish I could see what other people see but because of you, I can't.

Please Ed, let me live my life the way I want to, let me be me. Let me be free.

Gee