#i love comfort fandoms so much yayayayay

[cherrylight]

fanon creepy.pasta means so much to me im sorry. i will NEVER follow canon ever in my entire life...... ESPECIALLY considering fanon crp is just heavily found family trope and it makes me very happy

like........... they all live in this huge manor....... thats basically slender manor (or something like that) and theres room for all the pastas to reside in...... slender.man is a tired overworked father who wonders where he went wrong in his life and why he decided to take in dozens of rambunctious killers to live with him .......

i could go on but i fear i may talk too much here........... fanon crp you are famous to me forever

[earl-of-grey]

Hi, here’s more angst Alastor headcanons 🤍

I know we the fandom tend to portray Alastor’s relationship with his mom in an always positive light. Plus, he’s been said to be a mama’s boy.

And trust me, we love that. We love a morally grey, cannibalistic bastard having a good relationship with his mother.

But I think a fun contrasting approach would be for Alastor to have

MOMMY ISSUES

Imagine his mom always relied on him emotionally. Usually the parent is the one to be pillar of safety, comfort and stability. So imagine Alastor had felt he was responsible for his own mom’s well-being.

That’s probably why he adopted an entertainer’s persona and always smiled for others because after all, his mom taught him

“You’re never fully dressed without a smile!”

But with that comes the harsh self-criticism and constant perfectionism. Whenever his mom was upset by something he did or didn’t do, he would try to amend his mistakes right away and would make sure to not only do that again, but prevent any future mistakes. (Control issues yayayayay)

He had to hold in his emotions, his sadness and his anger, because that would upset his mother. So he’s had to bottle them up and repress them.

Despite everything, he still loves his mom very much and just wanted to make her happy.

But now that she’s gone, he’s got no one but himself. He always has had to rely on only himself, and I imagine deep down he felt like he had to grow up too fast which is the reason for his emotional immaturity. And deep down, he wishes he didn’t have to keep his walls up, but the alternative is not any better in his eyes.

To him, getting close with other people means more emotional baggage, vulnerability, and a means of obligation. It means to constantly entertain and appease them just like he had to do for his mom.

I’m curious to see the direction they go for Alastor’s backstory in season 2, especially with his relationship with his mom.

But I think personally it might be interesting to see them take the not so healthy relationship route.

More angst for the stinkin deer man 🤍

[captain-of-the-historicfuture]

about the what kind of fanfic writer are you: from the v e r y f e w s t u f f y o u ' v e s h o w e d m e / t o l d m e a b o u t (srsly whats up with that ma'am im still waiting to see your dusty fluff) i feel like you're "too many thots" and "help me" with a spicy dash of "crying"

YAYAYAYAY THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS!!! :D

(Uhhhhh sorry about that. 😇😇 Actually, I’ve been thinking about writing a post about my fanfiction writing which...sounds really general/vague but you shall see it soon and—hopefully—understand what I mean by that!)

OOP “too many thots” is absolutely me and you called me the Heck out for it. 😳 A+ guessing skills, my friend.

Honestly, I would say between “help me” and “crying”, I’m more the latter than the former. I wouldn’t say I have bad self-esteem about my writing (or that I need a therapist, man, c’mon! I totally don’t have issues). Like sure, I doubt myself and feel impostor’s syndrome regularly-ish, but it’s really only when I start comparing myself to other writers or just, think too much about what I’m posting? Or just when I’m at the point in the writing process where I start questioning everything that has happened in my life ever, but that happens to everyone. Right skgjsdkg—

My main confidence issue (w.r.t. writing) tends to be more about people judging me for the stuff I like to write as opposed to my actual writing skills. I think, generally speaking, my self-esteem is pretty healthy... I probably wouldn’t be able to participate in a contest or anything without a pep talk or seven, but I’m good with writing and sharing stuff casually, ya know? Again: generally speaking skjgsdkg.

But yeah, I love the characters a lot, man!! TBH, the characters are... I don’t want to say my favourite part of fandom or even the most important part of fandom for me, but they’re like,, the focus of my fandom experience, I guess? Not so much so that they totally eclipse all other aspects, but definitely to a noticeable degree. I’ve also found that the more I’m “into” a fandom tends to run parallel to how strongly I feel for a certain character, i.e., how comforting my comfort character from that fandom is for me. (And if I don’t have a CC, then, well. Probably not gonna be very invested in that fandom at all. Which is of course valid! Just pointing that out.) Plus, what compels me to write fanfiction in the first place is the characters. The more ideas I got to whump and hurt treat my comfort character(s), the more I’ll write! :)

Moreover, I have been known to start :(((-ing and feeling them Feels randomly during the day (or, let’s be honest, night), so LOL. But pfffffttt, crying? That’s a little theatric. (😢) I dunno about godly characterisation skills though. I used to think my characterisation was my fatal flaw, and while the several comments I’ve gotten on AO3 over the years about readers liking how I write the characters have led me to stop thinking it’s the worst part of my writing, I would still say it’s one of my weaknesses.

ANYWAY. SORRY. I totally overanalysed this fun little meme, WHOOPS. Thank you again for dropping by my inbox! <3

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