#i love being neurodivergent bc every now and again I see a phrase and it just enters my brain forever

[jasper-unofficial]

PART 2:

But by now, the damage is done. And there’s no way Wai can undo it. In fact, everybody seems to have moved on already. And that brings Wai in an extremely complicated situation. Because he lost the momentum to speak up about what happened (cf.: the scene in part 3 where something similar happens about the cctv). But if he had done, he would’ve lost it all and most importantly: his very best friend. (Who Wai may or may not be into, but definitely signifies more than just his bff.) And he can come clean now, but that would result in the same thing. Which is something so daunting Wai would never dare to do it.

Instead , Wai’s main strategy seems to be waiting for it to blow over (we as viewers know it will inevitably blow up). But still, the guilts eats at him and he tries to find ways to “make it up”, to better himself. Stand up for the team to the opponent, save Pat’s ass with the cctv footage, and probably something stupid next week as well. But they are reckless things and will probably put Wai in danger and add insult to injury in PatPran’s already complicated relationship. I think the tension will probably come from Wai trying to better himself. (While my irl personality is more like a combination of Pran & Pa, I can empathise with the strong avoidance tendencies. Of messing up [in a small or rather big way] and instead of owning up to your mistakes trying to “fix them.” And in the process adding insult to injury.)

But things will backfire for Wai. (I’m not sure how: but for one, I don’t think we have seen the last of rugby guy; for another I don’t completely trust the theatre technician 🤔; but it can also be something innocent like Wai giving PatPran have an epic romantic dinner in the restaurant after hours…) Point is that I don’t think Wai will stop trying to “compensate” in an attempt to lessen the guilt…

…well, Wai, my neurodivergent ass has a surprise for you: it won’t work! The only solution is coming clean.

Being Wai’s best friend, Pran will inevitably become suspicious. In the end, it will be revealed what Wai did. (Maybe the aforementioned technician will blackmail him?) But I hope it will be between Wai and Pran. Bc 1.) Pat will snap Wai’s neck and 2.) this is essentially about Pran. It’s a confrontation between friends, an evaluation of trust and maybe the conclusion that the friendship is beyond repair. (All themes that are already inherent to Bad Buddy btw!) And I would be fine with that ending (or a variation of it, i.e.: “we’re cool but you’re definitely not my bff anymore”), so long as it is addressed properly. Because, imho, friendship and trust are just as important themes in a show called Bad Buddy. 🙃

I hope this huge batch of guesswork made sense somehow. 😓 Can’t wait to see your reaction! 😙

~ operanon 🎼

P.S. The ways in which I get the shivers every time I see the phrase “wai” in any given word. 😖

P.P.S. Oh, new anon, you’re very quick! Tbh, I feel a little bit intimidated now. 😰 I wonder what made you sure you knew. 😯 Maybe we can wait a little bit for the other anons, maybe anybody else feels like they want to place their bets?

P.P.P.S. Hugs to 🤍 anon, you Archer, and all my lovely fellow anons!! You make my day a little brighter again and again. 💞

P.P.P.P.S. I think 💟 anon does a very good job at keeping her chaotic “mastress” in check. 🤪 (why does this sound so much like mattress?! 😳)

the continuation of your theory is as interesting as its beginning. my only note is that - as a self-proclaimed pat expert - i disagree that pat would "snap wai's neck". he is clearly already angry at wai, but i firmly believe that he understands this is between pran and wai, and even if he might express his opinion, i don't think he would actually get between them. i am still hoping the whole wai thing is addressed, though!! and i agree that friendship is always an important topic - not sure if i would be able to even call wai a friend though ;)

re: p.s. - yelling gkjfdlkgjflkdgjfldkg

re: p.p.s. - ok, we shall wait for now!!

re: p.p.p.s. - hugging everyone back (if y'all are comfortable with it, of course)

re: p.p.p.p.s. - you are thinking about the dirty side of it all again, i am so sorry heart anon kgkdfklgdflkgfd

[angeltrapz]

SAW ask time 💚 wld love to hear abt chainshipping + Adam bein autistic— maybe like what Lar notices abt Adam’s stims, things he does for him/ways he helps when Adam needs it. Also for Eric/Adam, maybe any thoughts on Eric finally like.. realizing he’s got a special interest?? ik we’ve talked abt how hard he masks but bein around Adam (n Mallick) helps him relax abt that, so like maybe how does he react + what is th special interest? anything u wanna dish abt!

thank u it’s always SAW ask time in my heart <33

!!! I was just thinkin abt tht!!! our minds 💫

I think th first time he rly sees Adam stimming (i.e. flapping his hands) he’d be like “what’s that?” but not in a rude way - genuinely a tone of “I want 2 know more abt this thing, pls tell me” rather than anything anywhere near condescending/annoyed/mean-spirited like Adam has dealt w fr YEARS at this point. so he’s definitely put on edge a lil bit bc he can’t help it, maybe he starts to like wind down and force himself into quiet hands, but Lawrence is immediately like “no I wasn’t making fun of you!! u don’t have to stop doing it!” which kinda stops Adam short like. what r we doing here. usually when ppl ask me tht they’re also telling me 2 stop. finally Lawrence says “I was just wondering what kind of stim tht was,” like he didn’t almost (accidentally) uproot Adam’s whole shit + is currently Doing So Now by using actual terms tht Adam didn’t know he knew, n so he like takes a moment to absorb tht comment n then he’s like. “oh. it means I’m happy or excited?” and honestly? when Lawrence hears tht? he’s like “oh... so then you’re rly happy? 🥺” n it’s just like. a moment fr both of them lol. (Adam feels Much safer discussing things after tht too, in several ways. it definitely helps w building trust between them!!)

after that though Lawrence definitely takes notice of more things! he’s not afraid 2 ask questions, so tht’s smth tht’s rly good fr them - Lawrence being able to seek information (he also does his own reading + research) to better understand, n not in tht shitty mommy blogger “I know yr in there somewhere” way. he doesn’t want 2 change Adam. he wants a better grasp on wht Adam’s experiences r like so he can help n minimize stress abt certain things. fr Adam tht’s definitely like.. foreign territory, bc as u’ve mentioned b4 + my personal hc as well, his parents didn’t really care 2 get him formally diagnosed + even acted like there was No Way he cld be neurodivergent in any sense, so 2 have some1 who is interested n respectful is So important 2 him. (personal hc time: I hc Adam as both adhd AND autistic like me so there’s tht!!)

so like he takes notice of th way Adam likes 2 roll things btwn his fingers (shirt sleeves, shirt hems, hoodie drawstrings, blankets, soft fabrics he likes the texture of, etc.) n is just like Oh Idea. I like 2 think he gets Adam one of those bead lanyards (like this one, which I also have!) fr him to fidget w n he kind of presents it like “I thought maybe u wld like smth like this?” n honestly he’s a lil nervous abt what Adam is going 2 say. but Adam takes it n holds it fr a minute, rolling th beads n messing w th lanyard itself 2 kind of test it, n he just looks up n smiles n he’s like “I love this. u’ve been paying tht much attention??” n fr Lawrence it’s just like “yes? of course? bc I love u?” like it’s th simplest thing in th world n Adam’s just. Huh. no he does Not tear up, if Lawrence told u tht he’s lying. he’s just Rly not used 2 ppl who want 2 know more without wanting to “get inside his head” or belittle him fr it (ties into my hc tht fr th most part, Adam hasn’t rly had any Good friends...) so it takes a lil getting used to.

another thing!! Lawrence does is ask 2 listen 2 Adam infodump abt his special interests - esp photography!! like they do this thing where if it’s not too late at night by th time Lawrence comes home frm work, Lawrence will take a quick shower n then get into his pajamas n into bed (just fr some quiet quality time b4 they go to bed, bc he still tends 2 come home a bit late), n he’ll have Adam sit next 2 him n he’ll be like “what do u want to tell me?” bc tht’s another thing tht Adam was entirely unused 2 - having ppl who didn’t just tolerate his infodumping, they wanted to hear it. Lawrence might be th first person to not actually give him shit fr it/tell him he’s being annoying/shut him down completely. again, it takes Adam a lil bit to b fully comfortable w it, but once he is he adores having tht time to be excited abt things w another person! who he knows Wants to listen!! (if we’re going th route I personally like 2 think abt sometimes too, where Lawrence is autistic as well, I feel like they infodump back n forth abt photography n medical stuff. do either of them rly know what the other is saying? not rly. are they listening happily bc that’s their partner n it’s smth they’re excited abt? oh absolutely!)

I think Adam has a tendency to eat a lot of th same foods bc they’re safe n he knows he likes them/doesn’t mind their texture (which is a big issue w trying new foods fr him), which is smth tht Lawrence also takes note of and as such, he likes 2 make sure they’re regularly stocked up on at least some of tht stuff. it’s not even smth he tells Adam he’s doing, bc it’s rly tht simple 2 him - Adam likes these things n therefore we shld have them at th house - but fr Adam it’s just One Of Those Things, y’know?? he got so much shit as a kid fr being such a “picky eater” n got shit fr it as a teenager too bc “why don’t u ever try anything new??” was smth his friends/parents Loved 2 say. it’s th fact tht Lawrence rolls w it so easily, doesn’t poke or prod for reasons he eats th way he does, and doesn’t get upset w him fr it/try 2 force him into things he isn’t comfortable w. it means a lot to him, more than he’ll ever have words 2 say (but he does always kiss Lawrence’s cheek when he gets back frm th store n he sees some of his same foods, which is just as good). it’s loving tht he’s autistic because it’s a part of him, a fact, not despite or in spite of. tht’s what’s so nice n kind of healing abt it; feeling safe 2 express yrself as u are w a partner who u know u can trust. who maybe words questions a bit funny sometimes, completely unintentionally, not out of malice (where allistic Lawrence is concerned, anyway). Adam feels Safe, n tht means a lot 2 him.

as fr ways he helps him!! a big thing is tht Lawrence is observant, esp as they spend more n more time together. a lot of th time, even when it’s just th two of them alone, Adam might have trouble maintaining eye contact fr an extended period of time, n Lawrence might not know how much it Actually helps, but he doesn’t mind tht Adam doesn’t always look at his face when they’re talking. it’s smth tht takes a little getting used 2, but he was never shitty about it w Adam. the way he sees it is if it makes Adam more comfortable, why shld he get upset abt it? it’s not like he doesn’t know when Adam’s talking 2 him anyway, or tht he can’t tell if Adam is listening; Lawrence knows both of those things, so Adam not making eye contact isn’t a problem, y’know? it’s okay. n I rly don’t know if Lawrence is fully aware of how much Adam appreciates tht.

another thing is he’s patient + understanding when Adam is nonverbal, whether it be bc he’s having a shutdown/meltdown, sensory overload, or just plain Difficulty w speech. it kinda depends on what I’m writing at th time, but I feel like Adam might have picked up at least a lil bit of sign language here n there; mostly simple phrases tht get th point across. I like 2 think Lawrence learns what they mean so he can take tht stress off of Adam’s shoulders, but most times, Adam is just comfortable sitting in silence w someone he cares abt.

OH brief thing Lawrence is RLY good at helping w pressure stims. he gives amazing bear hugs n I feel like he’d also probably let Adam lay on him if they’re on th couch/in bed. I just Feel It.

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OHH I think abt Eric finally developing a special interest now tht he feels more comfortable w doing so a lot. honestly I kind of rly like th idea tht his special interest might be info abt rats! it kind of hits him when he catches himself writing down lil facts (tht might not even be related to pet care!) in his notebook so he’ll remember them + always being excited 2 learn more n share what he’s learned. it makes Adam SO happy to see him being comfortable w tht aspect of himself, esp now that he’s safe to explore it w ppl who understand n who won’t discourage him/belittle him for it,, Mallick too of course, but Adam knows how much Eric struggled w tht kind of thing for such a long time so he’s just. Ah. 🥺🥺

like they’ll all b chilling on th couch (Eric, Mallick, n Adam) n Eric will have his head against Adam’s shoulder while his hand is on Mallick’s chest, who has HIS head in Eric’s lap w his legs dangling off th armrest, n he’ll be like “did u know tht when rats r happy, they grind their teeth together? it’s called bruxing n then sometimes their eyes move in their sockets rly fast while they’re doing it. tht’s called boggling.” n Adam will be smiling so wide when he says he didn’t know tht but it’s rly cool!! n then Mallick will start asking questions n he n Adam just listen while Eric infodumps fr probably th very first time since he was very very young, before it was masked out of him by his parents. n he finds tht he Doesn’t feel so bad abt it anymore, not when he’s around ppl who want him to be happy and want to see him be happy - esp ppl who encourage it n let him know it isn’t smth he has to hide/keep locked away. it’s hard 2 b ashamed of himself when Adam n Mallick r looking at him w genuine interest in their eyes n so so much love.

he might still like, slip back into masking behaviour every now n then, bc it’s something he’s still dealing w n learning 2 leave behind, but after he discovers his first special interest it gets a little easier, letting go of that way of life. it was smth he was forced into by adults who didn’t actually want th best for him like they said they did when they put him through “therapy,” but w partners he knows understand n who are even autistic themselves, Eric slowly learns 2 be more comfortable w it. it’s slow, but it’s progress. bit of a learning curve. he’ll get there.

[crossgartered]

P5R Liveblog (11/?)

For some reason it's not letting me edit the titles anymore. Tumblr is really quite the website sometimes.

Anyway. Mementos & more on Futaba.

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Yusuke keeps asking me to hang out on days that I expected to use for Mementos stuff, and now I feel like I'm not going to have any days of rain left bc Yusuke's too wonderful to ignore

My social stats seem to be coming along nicely.

Oh, I'm inviting Yusuke to the jazz club? I wonder what that will do.

oh neat, his stats leveled up!

So I'm never going there again, probably, am I. That's too bad; it seems like a cool place.

Gotta get more Charm to hang with Makoto any more. I think I'm close to maxing it out, though. My poor Guts, though. I still am too scared to hang out with my Hanged Man.

I CAN MAKE 12 LOCKPICKS RIGHT NOW?!?

The game...tried to give me a tutorial on deviations, whatever those are. But listen. Listen. Game. I have absolutely no sense of direction. If you give me pitch darkness and no map I will not find the exit, much less the deviation. Game game I hear chains GAME I SEE THE RED DOT OF THE REAPER GAME

...I had to go back up a floor. The deviation was gone.

Hoo boy.

? What does a green outline mean? I know a blue outline means lower level, yellow means equal level, red means higher level...what does green mean ?

Hmm. Maybe it means they're low enough level that they'll run away from you? Bc I haven't had to fight an enemy is several floors due to that (not that I haven't done so; it's just that I haven't had to)

"Stealing credit from your subordinates is one of the worst things you can do as a superior." YEAH YUSUKE WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE FOR THIS MEMENTOS REQUEST

I still die every time at the foxskull showtime

Ugh. I hate this part. They have everyone treat Futaba like a child. They talk about her like she's not even there and make decisions for her. I know they need to fast track her friendship with the PT but I hate how they do it

Oof. Clash of the neurodivergents. Makoto doesn't know what to do when her proper templates aren't followed, and Futaba doesn't know how to or want to work within that structure

Meanwhile Yusuke's just over there, with a similar relationship to that structure as Futaba, kinda just completely hyperfixating on making the models into Art without even that this might be rude

Actually, you know, based on his background, Yusuke probably has poor concept of boundaries. Hmm.

I! Adore! Yoshida! With! My! Entire! Soul!!!!!!!!!!

I love the Futaba & Yusuke friendship

GOD I'm still so angry on Futaba's behalf

Ah...yeah...aww, I'm sorry, Yoshizawa. Well, I can't say I wasn't expecting this. Aww, I hope she's doing okay. Probably not though huh

Is...is that an actual phrase? Or is that just Futaba being Futaba?

Okay wow huh it is a real phrase. You learn something new every day