#i love adhd sometiems

[soupza]

wrote an angsty trobed fic here

unrequited pining who???? 

[muckmagister]

hey bud =] howzit?

i GOT a HAIRCUT and bought SKINCARE products and SOME FACE POWDER (cause face oily sometiems teehee) and like HAIRCLIPS AND STUFF to STYLE my HAIR after i got it CUT and it was very fun cause i was out with my friend the whole time and they were the one telling me what haircut to get and stuff to buy cause i am awful when it comes to fashion and style and skincare and stuff lmao but yeah!! and now i'm gonna have a shower later and try out the stuff i bought and it's very exciting!!!

other exciting news is that when i saw my psychiatrist recently i asked about adhd meds and he suggested some for me to look into for our next appointment and one of them looks really promising!! i won't bother with all the details though lmao

it's funny cause i normally feel pretty good on the day to day but cause of the Problems i've almost never got anything actually happening when people ask so it's so nice to actually have stuff to say when normally it's just like "oh i'm good! just hanging out 👍" which is supremely boring at the least and to me comes across a little sad lmao 😭 but it's genuinely not that bad, see this is because i am content with like anything always, i have reached enlightenment and will be escaping samsara, and also desire doesn't cause suffering that's bullshit btw

y'know actually i think i've just had a pretty good past few days when it comes to my fatigue, cause like. can you tell? can you see that i should probably be on adhd meds? i am very aware that i'm rambling on and on but it's fun to just record the flow of my thoughts when i'm not bogged down by the tired and brain fog and stuff, i love that i'm a bit of an anomaly in many respects, a bit autistic, went through pretty bad depression and am still on meds for it, like unironically that was good for character development and i wouldn't wish it on anyone lmao, you ever feel like that? terrible things happen to you and you grow past it and look back and realise you wouldn't change a thing? i'm aware i absolutely have my family to thank for supporting me with it, a huge amount of people aren't as lucky as i've been and the support someone gets is really a deciding factor in creating good outcomes

oh! that's what i wanted to say earlier! to wrap it up basically that things are going good but as always i wish i could meet all you guys irl and just have more friends to hang out with and spend money on and hug and stuff you get it 👍 i really hope you're doing alright too!!!!!!! i love all of you peace and love 1 million years

[pretzelcoatll]

I apologize for adding such a long response to this skip over it if you want to I just need to vent. But this post means A LOT to me.

I never really talk about my disorders, and ive learned how to outwardly manage it so that any person I meet would probably never know the small cocktail that makes me me. But they are ever present in me. And sometiems it takes everthing I have to not break down feeling overwhelmed. A lot of the time I do.

Growing up I was an extreamly hyperactive child, and had no control over emotions because of my ADHD. Ive since calmed outwardly but my thoughts are always racing. And I can talk a mile a minute. Ive learned how to take control of executive dysfunction in important settings like work, but at home I cant even do the things I want to do with out effort of coaxing or barganning. And everynow and then I just feel like a burden. Or an annoyance to those around me because I have to take my time thinking through certain situations due to iver thinking/ or the flipside act on impulse trying not to overthink things and wind up messing up.

And the worse part is if I tried to explain my situation people would most likely dismiss it because, due to fear of rejection or punishment or a list of ither reasons, growing up i learned how to manage my actions so as to jot appear a burden, hidding the common symptoms(?) Of ADHD. But it takes a lot of effort to do these things. Which always majes me feel worse. And alone in this.

But in the time I've been on Tumblr I've seen so many stories and people saying they have these same problems. Hell even in the comments ive seen many people saying their combination or combinations of little stars. And looking at this inforgraphic made me feel understood. Not so alone. Not bad. The tumblr cummunity is a srange place. But every now and then there is love and caring and help. And I feel better for having found it.

A very simplified overview over the 3 diagnosable types of ADHD. It’s highly likely that you have symptoms from across the spectrum and not exclusively “hyperactive” or “inattentive” - that’s why I see ADHD( and ADD) as one big family. Look up the DSM-V for the actual symptom list!

[fidelishaereticus]

D and K for Iris and Anemone :D

ok this was harder than i expected,,,ok i go slep now

D. mood trends / thought patterns- all stars must vascilate between elation and despair: so there’s that. It gets worse with time.-iris however might actually have [undiagnosed]* bipolar disorder so it’s...an enhanced experience for her. In any case she definitely was the quintessential ADHD kid from hell and her existence—mentally and physically—is very scattered and inconstant. So she’s a hot mess, but it’s really not her fault. She has a difficult time seeing beyond her current mood or thought and inhabits a very narrow, and very intense (or intensely apathetic), present. Also, feeding on negative attention has been a part of her Aesthetic since like, second grade: she’s a Huge Troll (online too, oh yes). She generally views herself as a contaminant: interanlized “problem child” complex, “i destroy everything i touch” complex, etc. Watches self sabotage relationships in real time and sometimes wants to stop it but also...doesn’t. As an adult, she works crap jobs and generally treats her life as a lost cause (she was going to be a visual artist—she even got a scholarship!—she was so VERY ~gifted~, AAAHAHAHAAH yeah no). THANKFULLY, she makes a much better fairy than a person! Unfortunately, none of that is #Real. -Ok so for context, anemone is…kind of ridiculously privileged, and her brain works impeccably. I, personally, would KILL to have anemone’s brain. She’s not really a genius when it comes to concepts, but her attention to detail and her ability to plan and execute are,,,just,,,i would kill. Her thoughts very ordered, and her mood COULD BE quite stable. Also? She’s pretty! Also? Her family is very well-off! And so on. She is, however, a terrible, terrible perfectionist. Partly, this is learned. She grew up in a hyper-competitive environment and everyone around her measures worth in very strict, material terms: success, beauty, productive output, and so forth. Sure, she’s pretty! but is she pretty enough? Is she smart enough? Because if you’re not the best, you might as well be nothing. Also, there’s a clock on her value: she’s convinced she will be Worthless by the age of 30 unless she has accomplished some pretty impossible things, and even so,,.she’ll be old and ugly then and just, you know, life’s not worht living if you can’t be beautiful. In this way, for all her ridiculous advantages, she can think herself very deep into a rut of self-loathing and despair. She not infrequently insults others for the cheap ego-boost, because she’s awful like that. GOOD THING SHE NEVER WANTED TO BE HUMAN ANYWAY.

K. What do they find most soothing?- Iris: In faerie, iris loves blowing shit up, It’s just…it’s very soothing. She looks like a menace while she’s at it, but she’s never been more at peace. Also: rain (sound, smell, cold), running in the rain, lying down in the rain, colours (particularly bright oranges and blues), the sky, tearing up pieces of paper, rainbows, making art (sometiems), music (emo trash), lying on rooftop at 2AM after a successful spray-paint extravaganza. - Anemone: pretty liquids in glass bottles, clean spaces, fresh bedsheets, making lists, tea, rose petals (stroking them, eating them, smelling them, bathing in them, transforming into them), having (in faerie) complete control over her embodiment, thinking about poison (her search history is a little alarming). 

*she may or may not have parents who are not so up on the ‘maybe i’ll take my kid to the doctor for brain problems’ because like…dat shit’s fake, you’re perfectly healthy, come on.