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Spoiler Warning for the new Helluvaboss Episode
The more I think about the episode and listen to this absolute epic song, the more awed I am.
Like, first of all, we were all so worried about Caravaggo and he is such a sublime diva, I love him.
But what really broke me (besides the obvious) was Satan calling Lucifer "The Golden Angel". Yes, he was bullshitting about his place in Hell's hierarchy but that makes it even more special: Lucifer has many names, the fallen angel, the snake of the garden, the devil and such are surely ones he despises for they remind him of what he believes to be his biggest mistake and consequently of his greatest pain but they are what most off hell would know him as.
He has been called these things for 10 000 years.
The Morningstar or Samael (if Lucifer in the Hellaverse is the prince of heaven Samael and I would think so) might seem better choices at first as these are the names he had been called in heaven but that would simply make them more painful.
But Satan doesn't call him any of these.
He calls him the golden angel.
Because even after all these years, that's what Satan sees in him. The angel. The light. It's not a name, to him it is a fact.
There is so much to unpack there alone and that was just one verse in this masterpiece of a song!
Speaking of the song, can we please all appreciate that Vivzipop gave us the opportunity to have a fucking villain song sung by a protagonist?! Aka, everyone's absolute dream!
And oh boy, did Bryce Pinkham deliver.
He did such an amazing job that at first I didn't even realize how bad the lyrics was.
"Does he deserve the flame?" - What flame, he was just about to be beheaded dude, you just used that because you needed a rhyme with blame.
"Scheming more mastermindery" - Bro, what ?
"Could master the disaster" - You can barely master the disaster xD
All in all, it seems very rough.
But the moment Stolas opens this, what pocket dimension ?, and he and Blitz sing about their true thoughts and feelings, all of that changes and we come back to the heartfelt beautiful lyrics we are used to.
Meaning, that this entire performance wasn't one of hell's spontaneous musical numbers that just happen, like Ozzie's and Fizz's parts in House of Asmodeus or "When I see him", where the music and words just come to the characters. It turned into one, but didn't start out like that.
No. This was Stolas, showing up, stopping an execution with probably only half an idea of what exactly Blitz has been accused of and deciding that the best way to save this idiot's life is to bullshit his way through a song he's coming up with on the spot.
Probably in order to ensure that that arrogant peacock wouldn't interrupt him because a) dude probably can't sing and b) of the sheer absurdity of the situation.
(Bonus points if Stolas also thought about how that was probably not even the most dramatic soap opera acting they'd seen that day considering who was obviously leading the show on the Goetias side. But I don't want to give the bird to much credit, we know him to well for that. I love him, but he's a himbo.)
Anyway, I just really needed to say all of this because my brain is in overdrive.
I'm also itching to start drawing a short tragic comic about what would've happened if Stolas had come to late but I try to stop myself because, one, at this point I don't know how much more my soul can take and two, I am in the middle of another Hellaverse Project I should really finish first š
#helluva boss#stolitz#satan helluva boss#mastermind helluva boss#mastermind spoilers#helluvaboss spoilers#stolas#blitzĆø#helluvaboss blitzo#Poor loona#Poor Via#Honestly my heart goes out to that sweet girl#At least Stella is acting better as a mother than a wife#Yes I know terribly low bar#But honestly there are people in the Hellaverse who would still manage to stay under it#Thinking probably Rosie's first husband#lucifer morningstar
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My copy and pasted post of a convostation I had with a firend about Mastermind.
Spoilers under the cut
Also the more I think about this episode the more stupid it is and how I hate it:
what does Andre gain for putting IMP on trial? Outside of three dead imps and a hellhound? It would make more sense to have Stolas on trial than Blitzo because he can use that as a power play
why wasn't Stolas not there to begin with? He's the 'victim' having his book stolen to begin with they would want his testimony. The only reason why they did it the way they did was for Stolas can see the execution on TV to come in like the big hero he is and save the man he loves gag me with a spoon please
it wouldn't make sense for Blitz to hire Striker because my God he's an imp don't they have little power to begin with? Plus Blitzo is also an assassin as he said he could do it himself. Wouldn't some of the Sins have some brains to figure out how stupid that sounds.
let's talk about Striker for a second. Why was he there? It was so ooc for him to even speak for a noble, let alone bullshit that they'd take his word over someone like Stella or idk fucking Stolas!?
Dude even Ozzie would call out bullshit right away too because Stolas told him about how Stolas wanted to set Blitzo 'free' and he has the crystal now so he can do his job legality. Of course you could have Mammon go 'of course the imp fucker would defend an imp' and that's what caused the drama to begin with suppose to whatever happened in the show. Stolas didn't give Ozzie the full story but still that's testimony enough. More than whatever bullshit Striker pulled out of his ass. Also: isn't Blitzo now under his jurisdiction anyways that could be used in their defense.
Stolas didn't take accountability for shit he kept singing about him being the 'Mastermind' but Mastermind of what you stupid cunt?! Yes it is his fault but not because he 'planned' this whole thing. He wanted to get sex out of Blitzo so he used his book as leverage to force that out of Blitzo but of course we can't have that now that would make Stolas look bad.
God the whole court plot was so stupid and poorly put together. I didn't care for the song it was shit minus for Satan because Patrick Page's voice is mmmm
Speaking of Satan: I like both his character and his voice which I knew was going to be the case anyways because um...Patrick Page but I wished they gave him a more regal outfit because otherwise I don't mind the design. Belph's design is cute but doesn't scream 'A Sin' to me. I don't like Levi's design it's kinda lackluster but I do like the idea of the two heads because 'two faced' I do think that was clever but not sure If that was Viv's intention or just ended up working out that way.
Stoltiz is canon, which means it's only gonna even more down hill from here.
But yeah those are my thoughts on Mastermind. Will I watch Sinmas? Nah most likely not but I think I had my fill of this show because there's so much horrible written melodrama I can stomach before it becomes too much. I only really watched Mastermind for Satan anyways.
#here goes sweets off her bullshit again#helluva boss critical#not gonna use the spoilers tag being i dont want stans coming down my throat just dont hace rhe patience right now#but its underrewd more so hopefully thet'd be enough
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Mastermind live thoughts [Spoilers below cut]
The animation is amazing like oh my god! š
Ah, gonna be the Stolas trial I see
Andre stop flirting with your sister
āØUnpaid internsāØ
Fuck.. double trial I see
RUN
Be fucking faster
Why do they sound like the cherubs
What is thisā¦.?
āFace the musicā is honestly a bit too funny
Trailer scene time!
FUCK
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Blitz you donāt deserve to be deadnamed :/
???
Andre what did I just say, stop flirting with her, at some point comphet is cursed
Oh thank Satan (?) that Blitz actually defended himself against the possibility he forced himself onto Stolas
Candle head in Wrath?
Vassago bilingual? And he here!
Donāt you wanna take Stolas down first??
Yep.. they are claiming Blitz S/Aād Stolas in the trial. Fuck. At least hopefully the Blitz antis will realise theyāre wrong in the episode
Bestie (/s) I think you got Blitz and your sisterās names confused. Put Stella on trial coward
Grimour, Stricker
You tell them Blitz!
Poor Mox :(
Go off Bea!! /pos
Yep you too Ozz! Tell āem
Mammon arenāt you Ace?? Donāt you want not to be fucked??
Satan looks a lot more like a Candlehead than I wouldāve thought
How is this not the finale?? AAAA
Well shitā¦.
Yay! Classism!
Poor Fizz, seeing your best friend (?) almost get executed live on TV! TF
Blitz sacrifices himself (tries to) <//3
(My hc) āBitches (Blitz) say āI wanna dieā like a broken record, but when you almost get executed on live tv, you shit yourself
Stolas save your future boyfriend now!!!
Go off Blitz! Tell āem off on their classism
As much as I understand not liking racial coding, .. Blitz and imps in general especially in this episode are very POC coded, with a lot of heāll just being racist
</3
No Blitz donāt accept your fate šššššš
Stolas ex machena please please please please
šššššš
Why Blitz must you care so fucking much about your family and if I could cry Iām pretty sure I would be by now
The screencap I paused on is so pretty.. To bad itās Blitz getting executed (And almost made me wanna cry) or Iād make it my banner
Aaaaa
Fuck yes Stolas!!
Blitz is saved !! āØāļøš
Boyfriends protecting eachother š
Yay! Songs! <3
XD āhalf a brainā
āSome kind of Mastermind-ā roll credits
Stolas I know youāre dealing with rascists but please donāt act like that with Blitz rn ur doing a regression and I hope itās an act
Nevermind lol kinda
Yep. This is a clear racial allegory. No hiding it now
Fancy ahh reveal Stolas
Also we just shifted the āIāll sacrifice for my loved onesā horse to Stolas instead of Blitz
Stolas ur an idiot too
Fuck yes! Romantic ish Stolitz duet part!
No Blitz you fucking deserve to live <333
And Iām back too āif only tears could fallā again.. Please Blitz take his sacrifice and save him after that till the system breaks and you two will be free
Either death or.. whatever happened last two episodes
Shit
Where is Lucifer? Just because Luciās in his depression era doesnāt mean you are the ruler of hell Satan
Oh nevermind
The sins have existed before Luci fell. Interesting
Blitz is so defensive over Stolas and his life ahh šš
Step 1: *Panic* , Step 2: āWow this is a sturdy doorā
Blitz is being silly but not swearing so he must be concealing his emotions again
<33 Group hug <33
Are we starting some weird chain now (Octavia was now alerted and running for Stolas)
Or not..
Poor Via </3
Loophole! Also more racism allegory!
Banishing him is actually a decent idea (for once)
Ohhh Andrealphus just wants power. Honestly I should have figured sooner lol
If this is Mastermind then what the actual fuck will Sinmas be (unless itās another Queen Bee situation)
100 years.. So have a relationship with Blitz and once thatās done go back to royalty! Sounds great!
..wait are we getting imp Stolas
Nevermind lol. Just hatless
He will enjoy very much
Ooh!~ Our theories were right! (Stolas must also learn classism the hard way for a bit)
So the white pupils are permanent now
<3
OMG Blitz hero! Yay!!! <3
<3333
Blitz is at an all time high and Stolas is at an all time low.. interesting
<33333
So.. are they immediately dating now?
THIS WAS ALL SO AMAZING!! Favourite episode now!
#helluva boss#mastermind#helluva boss mastermind#helluva boss spoilers#mastermind spoilers#v goes crazy textpost style#hb spoilers
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BuckTommyWeekend Day 1: Alternate First Meeting
Title: Ā This seat taken?
Fandom: Ā 911 (ABC)
Pairing: Ā Buck/Tommy
Summary: Ā Buck and Tommy meet at a restaurant for the first time. For the prompt: Alternate First Meeting for @bucktommyweek
Notes:Ā Thereās so many potential first meetings for these two both within canon and outside of it. Iām behind on writing for this weekend so just went with one thatās a bit quicker, but will probably expand on in the future before posting to AO3. (And/or might do more potential first meetings because thereās so many options and not all of them will lead to them actually being together at that specific moment in time, but itād be funā¦)
Buck sat at the bar, pretending to check his phone while he glanced over at where Josh and his date were sitting. Josh was seemingly having a good time, plus his date was pretty cute, so maybe this would be a win for him. Buck hoped so.
āThis seat taken?ā
Buck startled and looked over and saw a manāa very attractive manāstood next to him, inclining a hand toward the stool next to him.
Buck shook his head. āN-no. Itās all yours. I mean, if you want it.ā
The man smiled and sat down. āThanks. Just need to wait for my order.ā
As he sat down, Buck noticed a logo on the side of this manās jacket, one that looked incredibly familiar as it was on Buckās own work clothes.
āWoah. Is that an LAFD jacket? Are you a firefighter?ā Buck asked excitedly.
The man smiled. āYeah. Work at Harbor station now though. Mostly flying planes and helicopters rather than running into any burning buildings.ā
āThatās so cool. Iāve always thought being able to fly a plane, like pilot one, would feel like you have super powers,ā Buck said. āDoes it feel like that?ā
āI suppose thatās a good way to look at it,ā the man said. āIām Tommy, by the way.ā
āEvan Buckley,ā Buck said, reaching out a hand. Tommy shook it, even at the awkward angle since they were sitting so close together. āSo when did you learn to fly?ā
āA while ago, back when I was in the Army,ā Tommy said.
āHave you always been air support for LAFD?ā Buck asked.
āNo,ā Tommy said. āI was on the ground or many years, but just felt like I was missing it. Transferred to Harbor five, six years ago now. I really missed flying so it was a good choice.ā
āI bet,ā Buck said. āIf I could fly, Iād probably never want to be on the ground.ā
āWell, I can give you a tour of the place if youāre interested,ā Tommy offered kindly. āShow you some of the toys, how things work.ā
āThat would be awesome,ā Buck said. āBut I donāt want to trouble you. I mean, youāre just waiting for your food and Iām talking your ear off about work. I-Iām sure the last thing you want to do is talk about your job after just getting off a shift.ā
āI wouldnāt offer if I didnāt mean it,ā Tommy said. āAnd I could have always ignored you or told you I didnāt want to talk about work if I wanted.ā
āI guess,ā Buck said. āI forget sometimes that not everyone likes talking about their job.ā
āSo then I guess I have to ask, what do you do?ā
āOh, um,ā Buck rubbed at the back of his neck. āIām a firefighter.ā
āNo kidding,ā Tommy said with a laugh. āWhich station?ā
āThe 118,ā Buck said proudly.
āNow youāre fucking with me,ā Tommy said. āI transferred to Harbor from the 118.ā
āThatās crazy! So you do you know Cap? Captain Bobby Nash?ā Buck asked.
āYeah,ā Tommy said. āHe was just getting settled there when I transferred.ā
āWhat about Hen? Youāve got to know Chimney. I think heās been there since it was built.ā
Tommy smiled and his nose crinkled and Buck had never seen anything more adorable in his entire life. āHowie and I go way back, from before he was called Chimney. And Hen, sheās one of the best firefighters Iāve ever worked with.ā
āTheyāre the best,ā Buck said. āItās so crazy that you know them too!ā
Buck glanced over at Josh again. Heād be furious with himself if he got distracted by this god-like man sitting next to him when his friend needed him. Still seemed to be going well.
āI donāt mean to pry, but I do have to ask,ā Tommy started, āYouāre not stalking those men, are you?ā
Buck whipped his head over to look at him. āWhat?ā
āItās just, I saw you watching them when I first got here. And now youāre looking over again. Just checking things areā¦ all right,ā Tommy said.
Buck felt himself blush a bit because he was the worldās worst undercover wingman. āOkay so one of those guys is my friend, Josh. Heās had some rough luck dating and he was feeling a bit nervous, so I offered to come and hang out at the bar while he was on his date. Just in case anything happened, heād have back up or whatever he needed.ā
Tommy blinked. āYouāre giving up your night to sit alone at the bar just in case your friendās date turned out to be an asshole?ā
āYeah. I guess,ā Buck said.
Tommy smiled at him, shaking his head fondly. āThatās really sweet of you.ā
āIām just helping out a friend,ā Buck said, feeling uncomfortable. āIād do it for anyone.ā Ā
Before they could talk any more, a waitress came out with Tommyās food, stealing his attention. Their chat was less than 10 minutes but Buck felt like he could have spent hours talking with Tommy. He tried not to be annoyed that his food came and he was going to leaveāthe man had probably just gotten off a shift, probably a twelve or thirty-six hour shift, based on it being night. Tommy deserved to grab his food and then head home to eat and crash.
It didnāt mean that it didnāt suck though. But itās fine. Buck would go back to checking his phone and keeping an eye out for Josh.
Tommy placed a hand on Buckās shoulder. āWell, it was a delight to bump into you and I enjoyed our conversation. You made the end of a long thirty-six hours speed by as I waited for my food.ā
āIāve been told I do that,ā Buck said, completely distracted by the weight of Tommyās hand on his shoulder. Ā
Tommy laughed like Buck had told the funniest joke heād ever heard. He removed his hand and smiled. āAnd Iām serious about giving you a tour if you want.ā
āIād like that,ā Buck said. āUm, should I call the station?ā
Tommy smiled again and shook his head. āItāll be easier if you just let me know directly. I can make sure thereās time and be the one to give you the tour.ā
Tommy reached down to grab the pen sitting on top of his receipt and then scribbled his number on a napkin. āTake care, Evan.ā
Hearing Evan come out of Tommyās mouth was surprising, but surprising in a good wayāin a way that Buck wasnāt going to think much about right now. āYeah. Yeah. Uh, you too, Tommy. IāllāIāll text you.ā
āSounds good.ā Tommy grabbed his bag. āOh, and good luck with the rest of your date.ā
With that, Tommy laughed a little and then walked out, leaving Buck sitting there, carefully holding the napkin and wondering exactly what was happening with fate right now. Maybe his luck was turning around.
#i like this idea of this but not sure about the execution#wish i'd have had more time and mental energy to write this earlier than just last night on a whim but it's still cute so there ya go#bucktommyweekend#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy kinard#911 fic#my fic#my writing
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Curtwen Week Day 4: Haunted
#fuck yall I really wasnāt sure about this last night but looking at it now I think itās grown on me#I tried going for a 1960s comic book look#because I really like the vibes of old comics#theyāre very cool#honestly this came out very different from what I had planned originally#but then I had this idea and ran with it#also I made the executive decision of doing long hair Curt because A) Itās my drawing and I can do what I want and B) I love the idea that#curt had the long hair like in SAD post fall#whoever originally had that idea is a genius- I wish I could remember who it was#but yeah I love doing stylized stuff like this#I donāt do it as often as I want to#I have another saf idea similar to this that Iāve had on the back burner that I might do soon ish#i suppose weāll see#Iām not making any promises#but yeah this one is a bit different from the drawings for the other three days#I got a bit of reprieve from all the rendering Iāve been doing#fun fact: palm trees are technically a type of grass#because it doesnāt have bark and it doesnāt have rings to tell how old it is#curtwen week#Curtwen week 2024#Curtwen#spies are forever#tin can bros#tin can brothers#agent Curt mega#curt mega#owen carvour#Joey richter#my art#cw guns
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Gripped with ideas butā¦.. the panellingā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦.
#banging my head against the wall#Im probably thinking abt it too hard but ive never given much thought abt executing my ideas till now#usually I just get out as many things as I can in messy sketches but because this one has Structure and Unspoken Thoughts that need to be#conveyed properly using mood and emotion than words I actually need to be a little deliberate abt how I go about expressing it#i found some tips for composition and going thru my comics for reference and trying to line it up with what I have in mind#but the mood im going for is more of a quiet looming dread.. like. yknow when a bunch of bad memories start rushing out while your mind#is in the present. im thinking of having paralleling panels to kind of build on symmetry or making comparisons to a past experience#i was thinking of having another set of overlapping panels showing the characters reaction to those thoughts in real time like a pencil#slipping out of their hand and falling to the floor but I donāt wanna clutter the page too much so maybe not#I donāt have much experience writing comics I just like to read em.. Iām sure itāll be at least decent for a first attempt. hopefully#that way I can build up confidence for my other zelda comic ideas heh#without saying too muchā¦.. the idea I have in mind is about fort hateno and childrenās nursery rhymes ;)#yapping
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otpsource valentine's day event 2023 ā” colors
#lockwood & co#lockwood and co#lockwoodandcoedit#l&co#anthony lockwood#anthonylockwoodedit#lucy carlyle#lucycarlyleedit#locklyle#locklyleedit#otpvday2023#filmtvdaily#tvedit#pearlcaddyedit#pearlcaddy l&co#this set is very much 'started making it had a breakdown bon appetite'#i really liked the idea for it and i'm not sure about the execution#credit to sanssssastark for otp: buttered toast#which brought me endless amounts of joy
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rewatching gravityfalls since its the topic du jour and running into the exact same hurdle i did when it was airing which is simply aggressively not caring about ford and his associated stuff
#or bill while we're at it. was very underwhelmed by dreamscaperers this go around im afraid#generally honestly its held up much better than i was expecting it to#but unfortunately the more longterm dramatic plot stuff has just been uninteresting to me#which is odd because that was NOT the case when it was airing#i like the idea of a lot of it but in execution i find all the fun adventure stuff with dipper and mabel much more engaging#i like stan and i like the idea of him having something shady going on and its not like im immune to morally dubious old guy#but. idk...i like gideon as a villain much more than bill#i like mabel. god mabel is so good. i love mabel and stan's dynamic#im trying to figure out if im cool on ford now but honestly the thought of even watching past tale of two stans#is difficult to get to because the idea of watching more episodes about ford and also dipper who is great but somewhat tiresome#is making me feel so bored. bit troublesome? not sure what exactly is getting to me i just dont wanna lol
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Finally watched the final season of the Umbrella Academy. Gotta say, I don't think I have ever felt this betrayed by a series before.
#the umbrella academy#umbrella academy#disclaimer: just my opinion#I didn't watch game of thrones but now I know what fans must have felt like during that finale#it started out so well#but then it went down the drain#I like the idea of the plot#and I think it's mostly well executed#it just needed more time#and a few more rewrites#it felt like the writers didn't bother to rewatch their own show#like#why does Luther have the ape body when that was never part of his power#why does Allison completely forget that she can rumor people#why did they decide to include a love story between a woman and a guy 15 years her junior?#technically it's fine because they are both of age or something like that#but why?#It's just so out of character for Five#and him abandoning his siblings during the apocalypse to mope about it is just so wrong#also also#they can remove the marigold from their bodies#why didn't they just do that instead of sacrificing themselves#there also are still a bunch of other children left that were affected by the marigold what about them?#The visual effects also visibly got worse as the season went on#like the ending is sad for sure but I couldn't take it seriously#I'll assume the show ended with season 3#because seriously#what the actual fuck was this?
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What your fave says about you: Sona/Undertale edition (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#So many sonas and characters lol#Ended up filling the other side of the zine with something self-indulgent :)#Actually came from the same kernal as a digital-specific idea but these are what I've ended up with in the moment!#Zine doodles end up...silly lol#I draw with pen logic! And mm... I won't say I'm Displeased with them but there are things I'd change for sure#Overall the vibe is there just not completely the execution lol#I'll get it better when I do the digital version >:3c It'll be like how I see it in my head and then I'll have both! Nice#For the moment tho doing an eight-highlight reel of the who's who was fun :)#Obviously starting with myself and my fave <3 This terrible little flower whom I love with my whole heart#I really do love him - I'd go and rewatch my fave scenes with him but the in-built guilt haha#The next was easy! My fave sona gets my second fave character! Papyrus only loses to Flowey by a hair's breadth anyway lol#Anyone in the thread remember that time I compared Charm to Papyrus lol#They both want people to like them so badly! They go about it very differently tho lol#Papyrus would be a good influence on her :) Just be nice to people! Ironically she'd probably agree more with Sans lol#Speaking of! Eli would be the type of person who goes digging around in the backend and Totally claims to like Gaster the most#Y'know because secret values and stuff! Super sneaky like! But actually their fave is Snas lol#You are Basic Eli just accept this lol#Ficus was an easy pick for Napstablook - they would absolutely lay on the floor and think about being garbage with them#That deadened gaze lol#Ulex looks so uninterested in Alphys lol they're just bad at talking - dissimilar from Alphys in that they've got the stoic thing going on#They're not awkward just not good at making friends lol#Hall of Mirrors would absolutely love Undyne lol - being friends with her and cooking together would make HoM So Happy haha#Another obvious one - Othersona already comes with spider imagery! Muffet was the clear choice haha#They are having a cup of spiders and they are enjoying it :/ Lol#And finally Holosona and original calculator-body Mettaton haha - she prefers this version over EX and NEO#She'd probably like NEO - she absolutely plays the Genocide run on purpose - except for how OHKO he is lol#A different sona likes NEO tho...#Anyhow āŖ Might talk more about their different play styles in the digital version :D When I get there anyway lol
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5,651 words in... we're getting kinda crazy out here, an erection is being had, and an outline of a nipple is being seen!
#me when I reach the smut section of my fic but I realize I have to write the smut section:#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKILLMEGODKILLMEGODKILLMENEOWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#I'm joking I love writing#but I'm alway like 'is this cringe or hot?'#like are people gonna be coming (š¦) or going (away from my fic and to read something better)#i think my idea and plot is solid I'm not too sure about the execution yet though#we'll see dog#we'll see#smut#writing#coriolanus snow smut#tbosas movie#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#coriolanus snow#tbosas#coriolanus snow x reader#God I've seen what you've done for others (Suzanne Collins (I'm joking i know she's talented from her own hard work and merit not any deity)#God make me talented like Suzanne Collins on the double šš»
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back in septmeber i got some kind of attack in the middle of lab so they sent me to the ER because they didn't want to take chances with me dying from chemicals but still made me pay the hospital fees myself. then i still had to go back the next week to finish my lab. then bad news happened last week and my. lab report is so fucking late. all these penalties. it will be worth fucking nothing. what did i go to the ER for they should have just let me die there #tbh
#i assumed it was some panic attack not sure all i knew was my heart was beating fast even though my emotions were calm#and i was red like a lobster#oh yeah all that time and waiting to go to the ER doctor and showing him list of chemicals i worked with#and paying medical fees#just for them to go ābro i have no fucking clue what happenedā#easilyy top 5 bruh moments this year#i really did not want to go to the ER like i thought seeing the schools general practitioner was enough#but the lab tech was so kind to accompany me everywhere#and she was the one who insisted i go to the ER even when i was like āehhhh its probably fineā#and i am weak to older women what can i say#....my life was a series of unfortunate events unfolding into this utterly unsatisfying conclusion#should have had an anime arc like...No...I cant let her down...I cant let my trip to the hospitals go to waste...i will..finish this...!#but nah fate said āhave a reason to spiral back into depression during hell week. and its something you cant even talk about.ā#..i sound like im complaining but i just like talking about my life like comedy with plot points and foreshadowing etc#anyway i gotta write 2 reports tonight#then i can finally drink that vodka i bought last week#or maybe i should write my reports drunk..yeah!#unironically might be a good idea considering how much i overthink these things to the point of executive dysfunction
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I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.
#just something i've been pondering the last few days#kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories#the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel#and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity#but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose#or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own#queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so#and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself#and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid#but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking#especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad'#and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt#I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories#and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy#and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep#but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage#or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not#therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation#this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol#so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering
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I actually like the last chapter. I think the ideas are very good. I have my qualms on how some things were managed, as I always do, but I think shonen authors get tangled in the expectations of a shonen to the point it jeopardises their writing, often even when they're not lacking in skills
#I think the nothingnessā the absenceā the moving on despite everythingā... is a good if heartbreaking idea#and we do see snippets of it throughout the entire mangaā yet I think it is mostly lacking in execution#I like the quiet ways in which we see the characters mourn. How Megumi laughs at the letterā#how Shoko muses about how Satoru should have let her take care of Geto's bodyā the faint smile when Megumi agreesā#how Shoko quits smoking againā Yuuji giving this person hope and a second chanceā making a reference to him not being executedā#and giving Sukuna too a chance for him to take one day a different path#All those are very good ideas and all those are very moving quiet ways of grieving. But. It feels in general so lacking#There's so much of everything else in contrastā even things that have way less importance narratively than this most of the timeā#that it feels lacking. Especially with how one has to dig to find these things. There's so much that could have been done with the same idea#And done so much better. But the idea is good. The absences are good. The quiet presences are good.The nothingness is good if bitter and sad#But it could have been written better#I also think this ending with Yuuji apparently knowing about Sukunaā his liesā his little hint of softnessā the potential second pathā...#makes even more believable why he'd try at all to offer him a second chance. And I love that Yuuji knows him and I love that he still...#leaves the door open for that second chance to occur at some point. Trusting that Sukuna would walk that other path next time#And I love that without openly acknowledging Gojo he demonstrates that he hasn't forgotten him in his acting#How he gives that guy a second chanceā how he jokes about him not getting executedā how he wants to make sure peopleā 'problem children'ā#don't get left behind. He doesn't mimick Gojo in his power but in this flippant but caring aspect and thus he's not forgotten#I do like this. It's heartbreaking. Gojo's desire to be forgotten is bittersweet as it's in a way a desire for... normalcy and humanity#To be surpassed. It goes well with how Gege says Gojo can do anything and thus why he does nothingā not even hobbiesā#to leave something for the future generations and not being another wall in their achievements#Gojo's desire to be forgotten is in line with the constancy of his writing when it comes to being drunk on his status#and yet resentful of his loneliness. It's a mix of being left behind and not being left behind#For being left behind and forgotten would mean he is more like the rest. Just another step forwards#And he'd have done what he wanted to achieve. Sorcerers can't stop a long while to grieve but Yuuji takes his words and actions#into consideration and steps forwards. Does the same. Fulfills Gojo's expectations. Walks towards the future. And that's the legacy Gojo#wanted and not going down in history as a legend or the strongest. He was just a teacher. Like Yaga was. He was not even the principal#Just a teacher. His roleā the role he chose for himselfā has been fulfilled. Now all this could have done way better#Something of Yuta and Megumi given their dynamics with Gojo would have been good. But I guess Gojo's 'at least one' works well#with Yuuji being the one doing the work. Yuuji was also ontologically alienated since birth and still he too remained cheerful and flippant#despite being so lonely so I guess the final parallel is intentional. But it could have been managed better still. The idea is good though
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I was thinking about how it's cool Rukia and Renji's bankai are pretty complementary in terms of making a good battle couple. Renji has always been a straight-to-bankai sort of guy, which makes sense. In the grand scheme of bankai, his isn't the most powerful or the most destructive, but it doesn't have any detrimental area effects and he can use it for a long time. Rukia's on the other hand, is very powerful, but it's only good for a very short time, and it leaves her vulnerable. Fighting together, she can back up Renji with kidou support or her shikai attacks, and then he can give her cover while she transitions in and out of bankai, if needed. This is a lot more fun, imo, than say, Kyouraku and Ukitake, who are both so hesitant to go to bankai that we never even see Ukitake's. (and maybe this works for them, given that they are side characters and the most senior in Soul Society, that their powers get the super slow burn reveal)
That being said, Renji and Byakuya's partnership works much the same way-- Byakuya's bankai isn't quite as perilous as Rukia's, but he tends to save it (my headcanon is actually that he can't go straight to bankai, he has to sort of build up momentum, so to speak). I'm not gonna lie, the scene early in the TYBW anime where Renji pins As Nodt with Zabimaru and then Byakuya slams him in the face with petals was one of the most satisfying moments of the anime so far.
All this is to say that for the approximately 1,000,000 characters Kubo crammed into Bleach, it's a real shame that he couldn't have developed an interesting side character that we might say "hell yeah!" to see stepping into place as Rukia's lieutenant post-time skip. I mean, not to diss Sentarou, but 98% of his job seems to be clownery and the other 2% is carrying heavy things. Would it have killed Kubo to let him do something during the Blood War? (him and Kiyone both, tbh) I honestly don't think it would have been too much to ask to see his shikai, if he's going to eventually be the battle partner of the series' deuteragonist. I dunno, I also just think it would have been cool for Rukia to have another friend in Soul Society besides her love interest and her brother. There's Hanatarou, I suppose, and on one level, I would love to see him as Rukia's no. 2, but he so thoroughly attached to the Fourth, and also his shikai is too gimmicky for a serious character.
Flaming hot cheetos take I just came up with: Ganju should have had grudgingly join the Gotei after the Soul Society arc and come around on Rukia after learning what Kaien meant to her, and then eventually taking over his brother's job. I mean, Kubo liked him enough to write him into the TYBW, an arc that definitely did not need more characters in it than it already had.
#since we were just talking about this:#rukia dumping kaien's body on the shiba's doorstep. saying 'i killed him' and bouncing#is exactly the same energy as byakuya fighting the Central 46 Online Complaints Portal for 17 hrs trying to get Rukia's execution stayed#only to get a 'request denied' immediately#and then marching down to her jail cell and saying 'see you on Soukyoku Hill don't call me'#anyway the upshot of all this is that i guess i gotta start making sentarou cooler in my fanfic#sorry buddy i'm making you my blorbo whether you like it or not#it's for rukia. i'm sure you understand#i also still kinda like the idea of kyouraku letting rukia and renji be co-captains of squad 13 instead of captain-lt#at very least while they've both still so (comparatively) young
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our class makes us make too many decisions so i used a random number generator to decide what to do for our next assignment and i picked A Challenge ("frozen register" meaning something usually set in writing that doesn't change, so i'm probably either gonna be translating Shakespeare or a(n excerpt of a) fancy legal document (e.g. Declaration of Independence))
#the good news is this is only worth 3% of my grade#so i can take on a challenge i have no chance of executing perfectly and hopefully it will be a good experience#not worried about my ability to get a point across but definitely worried about my ability to preserve the tone of the original#like... that's not gonna happen. i do not have a good understanding of this. will see what i can do though#honestly kind of cool our teacher trusts us to even *try*. like girl i have no idea what's happening. but sure i'll give it a go#anyway i think i can get back to cooking now
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