#i know they'll have Logan recover and maybe shift a little the way he is to better fit the new thomas

[logically-asexual]

thinking about the five stages of grief and Logan's arc of unnacceptance

yes. what you just read. i don't think that's what is going to happen in the show, but i think it's a story that would be really cool and work very well with what Thomas has been going through ever since he gave up on being an engineer.

like, think about it.

he doesn't have to become an angry resentful Dark Side, he doesn't have to make the choice himself to leave them out of spite, he doesn't have to change his role to something else. in my head is more like a natural aspect of life and growing up, to simply not identify with a part of you anymore, so it just simply won't take a main role in any of your life decisions anymore.

Thomas doesn't want to keep going to school, he doesn't want a desk job, he doesn't want to pretend to be serious to his acquaintances, he doesn't want to stick to deadlines or schedules, just working when he feels like it and resting when he needs it. Thomas grew out of all that because that's just who he is as a person, as an adult, and that's alright. but it would be a bumpy road until he and every Side of himself makes peace with it.

does Thomas himself know that this is what is on it's way to happening? does Logan know? unclear, maybe they get a vague sense of it, by the rejection every other part of Thomas is showing toward Logan. they will all have to accept eventually, which leads me to the five stages of grief:

Denial: most clear in Moving On. Logan still hopes that one day Thomas will go back to acedemia, even if he doesn't, that he takes a course or two to keep giving Logan a reason to be needed. Logan clings to the idea that he was needed and important in the past, therefore he could be wanted again in the future.

Anger: Learning New Things About Ourselves. he's tired of Thomas insisting on this lifestyle that he doesn't consider serious. he coincedes in the end that what can be taken seriously is subjective, but what is Logan left with then? will he change to find a way that better fits Thomas to be "serious" and to make his job more "stable"? or will Thomas turn to another Side for the new meanings of these concepts?

Bargaining: Putting Others First. he literally asks himself in what way can I participate in the conversation without being intrusive, so that they don't push me away? how can i make myself better? how can i be "cool" for them so they want to keep me around?

and we're left with only two, which are Depression, and Acceptance.

and i mean, that "i will spare you my company" at the end of the last episode was already a sign to that. Logan would feel defeated, there's nothing he can do. this was what was supposed to happen and it's been happening for years already. it hurts him, but he just doesn't have a place on Thomas' decision making by default. Virgil, Patton and Roman are there by default, they're the main parts of Thomas, you can see them in every word he says and almost every decision he makes. but the others are not there always, other, less important, Sides are just in the backseat, waiting for a moment to show up.

that's what Logan's fate is, and what he (and Thomas) will have to accept. other people would identify with a Side like that, they have their own ideals about being functional and serious, but Thomas doesn't, and they would have to stop pretending that he does. Logan can show up in specific moments, like Remus does, but not as part of Thomas' core. and he will be okay with it, eventually.