#i know tachihara's future plot relevancy though

[kunikidamybeloved]

OH RIGHT i started to read the bsd manga after like, 2? 3? years of not touching it and every time dazai's shown i just get sad for some reason, also his eyes are sometimes colored in dark and sometimes light and i remember reading something regarding that symbolism on dazai's eyes somewhere, and i took note of it esp bc Asagiri has a particular way of drawing and shading eyes and i dont know how to word it properly i just got home from school

i really really like how blank and lifeless akutagawa's eyes look, theyre just fully shaded and look so dead, idk if im wording it correctly at all but each time he's shown i just look at his eyes and get unnerved

how kyoka's eyes were also just like his in her first appearance but when she started working at the ADA, esp when she and fukuzawa were having a staredown, her eyes were more detailed and bright, its cute and nice to see

my eyes teared up when she was about to sacrifice herself through crashing the carrier she was in into Moby Dick and i needed to pause and blink them away because i was in the middle of class (we had no subjects since it was our school fair and I decided to spend it reading the manga)

but yeah, dazai's eyes being sometimes dark but sometimes light. can someone explain that to me?