#i know since its a purposeful interest i can theoretically just cling onto whatever i want | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

scarletiswailing347 · 1 year ago

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need to find a fanfic writer bestie or something cause im in the mood (always in the mood) to draw for fanfics but i have a Lot of trouble doing so without being told first (mostly cause i have a lot of trouble reading fanfics period lol)

#mine.txt #i have specific tastes when looking for fics so i cant just read things willy nilly unfortunately #but if a pal told me to read something and then draw it ill do it in a heartbeat #idk its just hard to find inspiration when youre not a naturally passionate person #its why i keep making fanart rather than original art btw #cause when youre making fanart you can just leech off the creators passion #while for original art you gotta manufacture that shit yourself #and since im now back to not having an obsession to cling onto after lowering my interest on zam #im just kinda lost on what to do #theres the fanfics im working on ofc but idk how long thatll last #idk kinda lowkey regret properly engaging with fandom after just lurking #not cause out of anything negative happening but rather the opposite #i miss the times when im able to cling onto an interest in something and creating stuff out of said interest #cause otherwise i dont feel much of anything and it reflects in the way i draw aka very sketchy and just. ''lost''#i know since its a purposeful interest i can theoretically just cling onto whatever i want #but i have certain criteria i like to follow cause otherwise it just feels pointless #its why you dont see me making art for stuff like different kinds of fashion for example #cause yeah im i terested in it and yeah i could make stuff out of it #but i know eventually ill start feeling like its pointless #and itd be nobody elses fault but mine

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