#i know its prbably trauma and other stuff talking here

[viktuurionice]

I... am weird and might have a slight crush(?) On a worker at the nearby drugstore.

He's always really nice (I know its a plus when working in customer service, ok. I know he's not just nice to me. Its to everyone ok? I get it.)

But he's got a really soothing voice and sometimes he says stuff that makes me blush even though I know its just to be polite. Like I will absolutely NOT be telling him. He doesn't need to know and doesn't need to be made uncomfortable. I'm also a cluster fuck of mental illness. No one needs to deal with that.

But today he was ringing me up at the register and told me to have a nice day and that he appreciated me and I just fjjdjsjdjdjd thank you random dude. I don't think you know how much that meant. I think he saw some of my fresher cuts and may have just... been trying to be kind to someone struggling but like... I think it takes a special kind of person to just... say something that kind to someone struggling. Particularly when you dont know them, or what theyre dealing with. He's got a very soft voice and I... just... I feel unsafe around most men I don't know... and like... weirdly enough I think I'd feel safe if locked in a room with this guy (not an ideal situation btw. But like. Out of most of the men I know or have met, this guy would not make me feel unsafe if i were locked in a room with no out with him. More men should be like this, thanks.) I hope he's having a good day, I hope life treats him kindly. I hope he knows his basic kindness means a lot to me, or to others around him. I won't be saying anything but I really hope, that someday life treats him kindly and sofly.