#i know im not usually this negative but i guess a person's gotta hate themselves in public sometimes

[wisemins]

Heavy trigger warning up ahead y’all, pretty sure nobody is gonna read this though. Just very negative stuff up ahead that i needed to air out, ye be warned. I know i don’t vent much to begin with, this is probably just a one off thing. 

I’ve been feeling very, i suppose distantly associated with myself as of late. I feel so indistinguishable, dumb, and annoying. It’s been a good couple of months since i’ve felt like this but it’s come back again to haunt me, i guess. There have just been these moments that keep happening where i feel so uninteresting and dumb, like so immeasurably out of the loop, as if i missed a whole thing even if it was explained right to my face. I just feel so left out of things because i’m no good at explaining my ideas or my feelings. I feel so distant from the idea that i’m even remotely an interesting person to be around, like just a listening ear who’s also a nuisance. everyone else can talk over me and it doesn’t matter because 100% of the time they can actually express themselves and make it worth someone’s time. Everyone can ignore me and it wont matter how it turns out, nobody cares.  I feel used again. But at the same time, i feel selfish. I thought i’d be able to just accept my circumstances, come to terms that im not the ideal person to be around but it hurts. It hurts really bad. I can’t distinguish myself like everyone else can. I cannot describe who i am to others. I cannot call myself creative without fully doubting it. I hate how i’m not an expert on any one topic, i can preach something but feel like an absolute dumbass after because maybe i didn’t know as much as i thought i did, and somebody would prove me to be wrong. Wrong and stupid. This bleeds into my ships too, sadly. I just feel so unworthy, so impossible to love and see as a cool or even likable person. I’m just so uninteresting, i’m a walking wall to talk to who cant even explain simple feelings without sounding so fucking stupid. I’m miserable when i think about myself. I thought i would be able to describe myself nicely but its becoming harder to find something i even like about myself anymore without lying. Just the way people ignore me, or the way i dont know how to wittily respond to something. I’m just worthless as a conversation partner because i cannot keep a conversation without getting distracted or using filler words because i’m too dumb to think up anything else. and my writing is just as uninteresting as i am. People can describe their ships as dynamics and i feel so left out. I feel like no one. I feel bad for my f/os having to be with me, someone so indistinguishable that i cant even be fit into a dumb trope. It just hurts so much. I can’t even be a completing part of my relationships, i’m so dull. Maybe i should just try to be normal like everyone has wanted me to be. Maybe then i can at least be described as normal. Though maybe im asking for too much. That's how it always is, just being humbled over and over. I don’t know why i even vent here. It’s not like when people tell me otherwise that it ever works, i guess i’m also too dumb to accept a compliment. Fuck me though, i guess.

[cozyteez]

Hii, do u have any tips for writing fics?? I’m so used to writing research reports, lab reports, and formal essays that creative writing has become something I really struggle with. I guess it’s having the freedom to write anything and not knowing how to make sure it’s not corny. I tried outlining a fic one time but it was so frustrating LOLOLOL. Anyways, I love your ateez fics. They are so cute and creative!!

hi !!!! im like rlly touched u asked me and i feel u actually that's why i started this blog; im a biomedical engineering major so as u can imagine i dont get to take much creativity with what i write because writing papers and reports and proposals are so formulaic and u gotta stick to the facts so that being said i actually tested out of all my college writing classes so all my writing knowledge is from ap english in hs lmao so take it w many grians of salt

the #1 thing i do when im feeling sort of unmotivated about a story or maybe like like dragging myself thru mud to write it is to just write the "fun" part first. to me the fun part is usually the climax or maybe the like the "wouldn't it be cute if..." moment that came to mind that inspired me to write a blurb in the first place! then usually once i sort of get the ball rolling on that my brain will help me out and keep the momentum going by thinking of maybe "oohh okay maybe this can happen next" or "oohh and what if this led up to it" or !! just stop there !! something ive learned from my mx writing blog which is like a year older than this one was that you don't owe anybody context especially for a blurb so maybe it really is just 3 sentences of a cute moment u thought of like its whatever ur the one writing it

now for longer fics im going to be honest jongho's first love is my first and only completed attempt at a multi stage coherent story. and that was fueled purely based on the fact that when i look at jongho he just gives off sort a really excited sort of innocence that i wanted to further explore and personify through the idea of him experiencing love for the first time but even then i really struggled w the last part because that's where my personal experience stopped and i had basically nothing to go off of because ive never been in love so i did have to kinda wait for ideas to come to me. for prince yunho i have posted 4 chapters but have all the way through chapter 15 drafted. and by drafted i mean it's like 3 sentences of the overall idea. again, the fic was inspired by the duality between yunho's on stage vs. off stage persona where if somebody was to watch an ateez performance for the first time they may find him very serious and maybe even intimidating but atiny would know that his off stage persona (the one he choses to create for us anyways) is very silly and happy-go-lucky and approachable, which is why prince yunho is seen as narameth's strong and stoic pride and joy but in reality he's sort of clumsy but means well. so i let that and his relationship w xenia who is an original character (OC) sort inspire stories or interactions that i force into a plot line. so for example i believe when i first started thinking abt a prince au for yunho i thought "wouldn't it be funny if the first scene started out painting him as this strong and serious man and then cut to him choking on food or something" and that sort of inspired the idea of him being nervous abt the speech and then xenia came out of that because he needed a complementary character imo since i knew he was gonna be kind of one dimensional and then his backstory with xenia inspired other ideas and then one day i was sad and wanted a hug so that inspired a piece of the plot line and so on. so basically: let an idea or even an aspect of somebody come to you and just write it down, let it inspire other ideas. and don't be afriad to completely start over. i wrote a whole chapter for prince yunho and deleted the whole thing because i hated where it was going and started back from scratch. sometimes you have to revisit things abt your characters and their relationships with others to get a new idea. there's a story in every person and every relationship you just have to find the clues

here's an example of what i mean by "write the good part first". this is typically what the very first draft of a blurb will look like for me

((( blah blah blah basically its raining and y/n is sad bc wooyoung broke her heart two weeks ago idk maybe go into it maybe not)))

y/n is all sad and feeling sorry for themselves on the couch theyre past crying but still feel pretty shitty plus it's storming and cold outside. great

there's a knock on their door ofc they have the cliche "who could that be moment" even tho they lowkey know. we literally all know

so yeah wooyoung's there soaked in rain eyes puffy y/n thinks he's been crying

-this would be the "fun part". i'll fix all that garbage up top later or maybe even change it completely idk yet-

"y/n? i - uh. hi"

he sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck while you crossed your arms over your chest, fighting the urge to close the door and walk away for good

"hi? really wooyoung? is that the best you can do?"

(((wooyoung does smth idk)))

"well i just -"

"you just what? showed up here in the rain after you broke my heart and didn't even bother to tell me why? this isn't some romance movie, asshole. you can't just come here late at night and expect to find me all sad and willing to take you back because i'm not. so say what you're gonna say so i can get back to my life"

your face was red hot and you trying very hard, probably too hard, to fight back tears. ((( idk talk some more abt y/n's emotions then what wooyoung is doing)))

"look, i made a mistake i-"

"oh my god! why did i know you were gonna do this. i just knew as soon as i saw you-"

"will you let me get a fucking word in!?"

well that was new. in the entire time you'd known him he had never raised his voice at you like that, your shock causing you to immediately close your mouth and fold your arms back into yourself (((make y/n seem more scared))) noticing your reaction, he lowered his voice back down and instictively reached for you, heartbroken at the way you jerked away from his touch

"please y/n, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to raise my voice it's just that i need to tell you that i regret what i did i regret breaking up with you so fucking much and you don't have to take me back i just need you to know how much you meant, no, mean to me. i still love you, a lot. there's not a day, an hour, a minute, or a single second that goes by that i'm not thinking of you"

"then why?"

your voice was small and wavering, your tears now dangerously close to spilling down your cheeks

"why what?"

"why did you break up with me like that, just all of a sudden"

he pushed his hands into his pockets and looked away

"because that morning i woke up before you and when i looked at you asleep next to me, i saw myself spending the rest of my life with you and it scared the shit out of me"

"why did it scare you?"

"because i just figured you didn't feel the same. i was selfish and wanted to save myself heartbreak down the line and so i told you i didn't wanna be with you anymore, but that was a mistake because it turns out i can't function with out you, i can't breathe without you i can't live without you, y/n. i shouldn't have let you go"

tears were now freely flowing down your face (((okay brain no work anymore y/n kisses him duh and then ofc they make up wooyoung prob says smth cheesy and y/n is like ur lucky i love you or smth ahaha the end)))

tl;dr -> don't be afraid to get messy. creative writing is not nearly as structured as academic/scientific writing. write whatever u want first it can even be the middle of a huge fight scene or some dialogue u think is funny. if ur stuck read what you have or maybe just take a break and let an idea come to you. a story doesnt have to come together til the very end so it can be as messy and out of order as u want until u wanna post it. also i would always use the third person omniscient point of view for a longer story like a chaptered fic as a default and only change if it would impact the plot in a negative way. this is where the narrator knows what every character is thinking/feeling and im p sure a teacher in middle school told me it was the easiest to write and follow

[arkus-rhapsode]

Eden’s Zero Chapter 1 Review

Hey guys, now before I dive into this already longer than usual review, I did wanna take this time to mention something. Its been no secret that I turned on Mashima and FT pretty hardly after the end of FT and some of you may be aware that I was moderately active in the fanbase with putting out my reviews and such. That said some may liken that shift in mentality to me not liking how the story went and a common critique of fans is that when what they’re fans of doesn’t gel with what they want they wanna destroy it. As if the fan has ownership of the source of the fanaticism.

I admit there are times that I’ve question decisions on Hiro Mashima’s end and has posted rewrites, but that’s not me doing it out of a sense of ownership. I’m doing it because I have a standard. Being a fan of something and letting your disappointment get to you and fester into salty, bitchy purest is one thing, but being a person who’s judging what a series puts out and actually caring about the quality of what’s in the popular media is important. FT got negative reviews in its latter half because it was that bad. By the end of the series it was legit that bad. Now I don’t say that is someone who was in the fanbase and hated Hiro’s decisions cause they weren’t mine, I hated them because it was bad writing. I’m a reader with standards, as are all of you, and in the digestion of media we make distinctions between good and bad. I make this claim with more concrete surety now that I’ve been around longer and have reviewed more series than just FT, I think it be harder to believe if I made this case when I was just starting and all I was talking about at the time was FT.

Some of you might remember when I first started out on MHA, my second chapter I ever reviewed I had found it boring and mundane and to date its my least popular MHA review and I still stand by that assertion. I hold everything to the same standard, and that includes FT. The reason I write this is that while throughout this review I will mention comparison’s to FT’s first chapter (and yes, even ways Eden’s Zero improved on it), but I will be holding it to the same standard. So this entire review won’t be me holding a grudge against Hiro, but it will be me holding it to the same standard as I do everything I read. That out of the way lets dive in.

We open on a hill side and met our MC named Shiki. Beside him is the mecha demon from the cover page and what they see is a... dragon. Yeah, Hiro I thought you wanted this to be wholely original?

On the hand I actually like this scene in the sense robo demon here is actually encourging actual adventure (something FT lacked) and its kinda amazing listening to this demon looking guy talking about friendship, yet on the other hand, damnit Hiro. Is this the only thing how to write about? Like damn man.

We cut to the future where we see our main female Lucy-I mean Rebecca! Y’know I could make a Rebecca from One Piece joke, but she’s kinda already a bit of a decisivee figure so I’m not gonna bother.

I mean its okay. Its just castle theme park. Also Rebecca we find out is apparently a youtuber. Look if DBS can have GodTube then I can put up with Blue Cate (Aoneko) website. Also yeah Happy here, no sugar coating its just Happy. Also Rebecca here purposely made her skirt short. Just because you point out the sexualization in canon doesn’t make it better, ya still drew it, Hiro.

We see that the theme park is full of robots and each one acts as an assist in sending the guest through some kind of medieval simulator. And if anyone has seen Westworld you know where this is heading. To be fair I love worldbuilding so please, explore!

So we find out Rebecca’s dream is to have one million suscribers and now here’s where I gotta give props to Hiro because he actual made a dream for a character that doesn’t seem like it can be achieved a chapter from now. Granted this seems a bit hard to actually quantify, but this dream could potenially evolve into something of why she wants the suscribers and could be like Nami making the map of the world that getting video of unknown locations may actually be worth something to the general population.

We see that Rebecca chooses to go on a monster hunting quest and they encounter...

...This thing. Also it seems Rebecca’s character quirk is she really likes cats I guess? But this doesn’t last long as someone crashes down on mecha cat.

Okay that was kinda funny. I mean if this was FT would’ve actually gotten the panty shot so maybe Hiro has learned his lesson! Also note that wrench!

Oh god damnit Hiro. So this tarzan guy after acting like an animal is knocked out by Rebecca. Y’know it took about 60 chapters before Natsu got all up in Lucy’s chest, guess we’re cutting straight to the chase here.

Okay is joke with here just going be about here short skirt? Damning it with faint praise here, but at least he still hven’t flashed us them yet. Also Tarzan here is the only human on the island.

We get some scenes of Shiki here wanting to be friends with Rebecca cause she’s a human and Rebecca isn’t interested and she returns to the Granbell town where Shiki is there and the robots know who he is.

Shiki’s expressions and creepy advances really gives off this tinge of sci-fi horror, unfortunate Hiro doesn’t really go that route and we’ll get to it. Also that wizard looking robot from the color page is also here.

They then have a party where the robots all celebrate them having a costumer for the first time in so long they have a party being nice to Rebecca and lavishing her with stuff outside is robot that looks like Robin Hood and he reports to his boss this machine king.

Oh look, Hades if he was a robot.

We see Shiki trying to bond with Rebecca and it leads to him expressing he wants to leave the kingdom and see another country, but we also learn he’s in charge of fixing this and the robots are acting up lately. We find out that the one who was talking to Shiki and is his “Grandfather” was called the Demon King a robot designed for playing that role in the park.

Umm Rebecca... That’s being a dick. So you don’t like it, so you decide to cut it, cause it bothers you. You could’ve framed it like, “If he fixes you up then maybe he needs better vision” or “He’s been so nice to me, let me do something for him.” And what makes this worse s that Shiki is asleep, so she doesn’t even consult his feelings. Like seriously, that’s not being a good friend . But for contrivances sake I’m sure Shiki will wake up and love it, won’t he?

Huh? I was wrong instead we got shitty 80s comedy. I don’t know if that’s better or worse.

Y’know I said I’d give Hiro atleast two free fanservice moments for his first 3 chapters. He’s now used all of them up in a single chapter. Also Rebecca is tied to a stake while robots with torches surround her along with the machine king.

Shiki is also there and here’s something that did remind me of rave, the tightness of the first chapter. Everything seems to flow like one continuous story and doesn’t seem to do some dumb interlude like FTs first chapter did with that awkward moment where Lucy leaves Natsu and she’s just randomly in the park reading.

The King wants to use her ship to leave this world and we get som kind of motivation out of him.

Oh wow, for a first chapter villain that’s actually a really deep thing to unload. That as amusment park hosts they must’ve just been seen as pleasure tools and with no one around these robots who seem to be senstinent must’ve felt betrayed and...

Oooooor you cut out all moral ambiguity by just saying they have a virus. Sure. Trust me, this is where it gets stupid really stupid. And that’s the inconsistency.

So these robots I guess are like the ones from the Animatrix where they just kinda develop sentience out of nowhere. But unlike Animatrix it doesn’t seem to imply when they developed this sentience and that they began to think they were being abused.

Tired of Friendship already, it ain’t leaving.

So why do you hate humans? They abandoned you I guess, but there’s not other robot saying “hey our times were fun together” no everyone is like they left us to rot  so we hate them. Not like Humans did anything legitimate bad. We actually see that at the end of the chapter that there is some sort of central battery on the park that all robots are hooked up to. You could make their reason for hating humans that. That even though they left these sentiment robots still had a little kingdom to themselves, but realized that its all just going to end one day and humans didn’t even bother to unplug them. They’re existence is literally knowing when they’ll die, imagine that as why they harbor negative emotions and maybe Shiki actually fixing things might’ve actually been prolonging their lives so maybe that be why they kept him around. This whole sentience things just feels like Hiro wanted to do a trope of crazy robots and ended using multiple to fit the whatever story purpose at the moment.

You do run the planet, dumbasses. This entire plane, apparently for hundreds of years, has been solely controlled by you. Maye this should be rephrased as, going to the place that built you to get revenge or as I spoiled with the battery we’ll take the ship to get more power for our kingdom?

Shiki doesn’t do anything and kinda lets the robots just wail on him as he found out all things in his life were a lie. Then Rebecca gives a friendship speech. A stupid stupid friendship speech.

You’re right, Rebecca! Too bad we didn’t see that. I’m serious we barely see memories of Shiki with any robot outside of the demon king and Michael so there’s no weight to this conflict. We only get the vague sense they raised hm, but there’s no moments of Shiki really laughingg and enjoying their company outside of the party with Rebecca which rather is made more for getting Shiki to like Rebecca for this moment.

Shiki remembers what his Grandpa the Demon King said and just blows them all away.

We see Shiki’s hand and apparently he has these marks indicating he has Ether gear. The power system of this series.

You’re sentiment! You have out grown your programming! You can choose to have a concept of friendship.

So they fight with shitty action scenes (If I can give Horikoshi a hard time for how he draws his fight choreography, then I sure as hell will give Hiro the once over.) Happy manages to save Rebecca and like Happy from early FT, he basically spots off exposition on powers.

So is it like a literal gear? Because Happy afterward destincties as the Gear of Gravity, so is it like a devil fruit? Is ether in all humans, but this specific gear brings it out in a certain way? If its internal then I guess its like the magic circuits from Fate? And then every of has their own unique variation like Nen? Like cause Happy gives it the distinction of Gravity it doesn’t seem like Shiki gives a reason why he has this power. I’m hoping \its like devil fruits, literal gears you implant and then it brings out your ether in a certain way.

Shiki punches out the machine king and cause a massive collapse.

Credit where credit is due, Hiro actually did build up the reveal of this power throughout the chapter and its actually really well done. Kinda reminds of something Oda would do with subtly building up a devil fruit power without revealing it. Like Crocodile drying out a flower but it isn’t stated his power is specifically sand.

They then flee when the other robots rally and Shiki takes Rebecca back to her ship.

This scene would actually be really nice if we actually saw more young shiki actually having fun with the machines and not a being a creeper with them.

Shiki and Rebecca take off and we see the universe.

Not gonna lie, that’s a really pretty shot. Like damn, I could get behind this.

It seems like worlds in this universe are basically like kingdom hearts worlds. They’re not real “worlds” so much as they are islands in space.

Sure, keep the mystery alive why don’t you, no that be too much.

Well great place to end the chapter. Little dry of a first story, but I definetly see that has room for improvment and there is something-Wait this isn’t the last page? But what else is there to talk about. There’s nothing left-

Oh for fuck sake. That’s right they were trying to send SHiki away. Because apparently these robots thought there was no way to restore battery life even if stayed.

Here’s a tip, ifyou really care, and had such a close bond, maybe tell him to leave? Tell SHiki the truth that you guys are tied to a battery and instead of Shiki vowing to leave for the stars so he can make 100 friends (I’m not kiding that’s his actual goal here). Then this would be an interesting goal.

But no, you have to act like human hating jackasses and shatter the boy’s entire reality, just so you he would go out and “change the universe”

This would be a really nice scene with a very nice amount of character development starting point, if we actually saw their past. All we know is they raised Shiki, but its never really seemed like they’re loving or caring or Shiki openly gets upset if one of them had a problem. Again the biggest flaw with this chapter is that it sacrifices seeing one potentially interesting relationship (Shiki and the robots) for another one (Rebecca).

So we end on this page which reveals that Shiki’s goal is to have a hundred friends. Not going to say something snarky I just realized this is the same motivation as Yuki from future diary. Like before the crazy yandere shit.

Post Chapter follow up:

Lets be positive and look at the good stuff in this chapter. The first thing great about this chapter is it improved upon two of the biggest failings in the first chapter FT. Goals established and world building. Not only does this set up force Hiro Mashima to actually world build (literally) but each person in the first chapter has a goal that doesn’t seem like it can be accomplished quickly. It means we can have investment in the story.

Another thing I’ll give is Shiki is an okay MC. He has more personality than Natsu, but not as much as Haru and this first chapter is about him. Its easy to understand that Lucy is often considered the MC of FT because it literally focuses on her for the story than Natsu. But this chapter had a healthy balance.

Also the power system at least seems to have some definition. Unlike how anyone could have magic yet normal people just don’t choose to use it like in FT. Ether Gear seems to be a powersource that only a select few can use. Now we need to see first if there are ways of combating it like technology or such so a non ether gear person can still fight.

It also has its own unique aesthetic. Ft is a pretty generic fantasy world. It doesn’t have the bleakness of bereserk or the Japanese aesthetic of naruto. You could say Black CLover, Fairy Tail, and Seven Deadly sins all had their first chapter happen in the same world and I’d have trouble arguing it.

Now on to the crappy stuff. This series suffers from the usual Mashima foibles such as the sexual harassment, the stupidly way it tries to justify and give all conflict happy ending, not actually bothering to have a situation drawn out ad built up too, etc. I mean for the first conflict of the chapter its a heavy one, these guys raised SHiki yet their own mentality is against humans so Shiki has to choose, but instead of actually answering that question, it turns out there was no real conflict and the machines were just faking.

As for my like for Shiki, I flat hate Rebecca. She is so pointless and useless. Look I will defend Lucy and she actually can d things. First chapter she saved Natsu by using aquarius. But Rebecca? She’s just all of the bad traits of post timeskip Lucy. She is used for pointless fanservice, does nothing contribute, and becomes a mouth piece for friendship.

Speaking of friendship as a concept and goal here, Hiro just rewrite what you mean. Have deeper meaning than friends for once. There is ways you could take the motivation “I want to make 100 friends” in a compelling way. Prehaps Shiki is going out to make his own world where he can make a happy place for people where they can laugh and cry in harmony. Like story telling wise its pretty weak.

Like me personally, I would’ve taken the first chapter like this, the robots are sentinet and they are nice to Shiki and Rebecca and they have genuine fun together. They gradually reveal that they are shutting down maybe one starts acting wonky and tries to hide it and maybe the machine king is the real bad guy. He has sentinece and hates humans and he wants to eliminate SHiki and Rebecca and that’s because they’re shutting down. The other robots say they don’t care they were abandoned, they were mad at first but Shiki showed them that why they loved catering to humans. King and Shiki fight and they all reveal they’re shutting down and Shiki cries he doesn’t want them to go. The robots say its inevitable and they don’t hpw to recharge the battery and Shiki vows to leave the planet and search for a power source to bring them all back. Then that’s shiki’s goal and it even can cause questions like “Is it worth all this for machines?” or “who designed them maybe we can figure out the right substance to power them up?”

or if Hiro wanted to go a more darker route. Have the machines have no sentience and literally be dolls for the King who turns out to be a human who stayed here on Granbell and made his own little kingdom. Make it a bit meta on how Shiki’s only friends were just hollow imitations of people who were only friends because that’s what their programming dictated and they can all be switched off. It be meta as critiquing Ft and how all the guild characters basically had no conflicts, all got along, and were just friends with no depth or reason.

This all highlights the issue with Hiro Mashima and that’s he is not a good a writer. Hiro is an incredibly talented person and can come up with incredibly unique ideas and looks, which is why his cover pages are the best things he puts out because its him free forming. But writing. He has a limited scope on that and stuff like sci-fi and fantasy can be very morally grey things. But Hiro doesn’t seem to understand tragedy in the sense that its tragic because a person fails or dies unsatisfied. But he only seems to know how to write painfully obvious concepts like “save the world” or “friendship” instead doing a concept like “what it is to be a hero” like MHA does which can have a variety of answers to it.

So what’s the final verdict? Well I actually am going to do something different than usual. I’m going to say what I though the quality was compared to FT and then to what I’d consider this work compared to anything else.

In comparison to FT, Eden’s Zero gets a Final verdict of 8/10

Improves on a lot of FT’s first chapter flaws

Created a more unique environment for a story

And actually has a lot tighter narrative

But in comparison to everything else...

Final Verdict: 5/10

Even if it wasn’t Hiro, its a pretty generic start (some names aren’t even all that inspired like Machine King, Demon King)

Potential to grow into something better is there

Nothing is outright offensive

Cool concept

[mlstymonsoon]

for the oc ask meme mayhaps numbers 1, 2, 3, 13, and 16? :^D

!!!!!!!! thanks so much 4 asking :’) but im sorry if this reply is late i didnt notice this ask in my inbox until today aaaaa

also this got long. and i ramble abt my ocs a lot so Fair Warning but pls read bc i lov my babies

1. Meanest VS Kindest

i was gonna say arcane or mordecai for this since theyre my Iconic Antagonistic Toons i guess but then i remembered raelynn literally uh. kills toons. so! its gotta be her esp since she rly enjoys what she does for the most part n every so occasion she’ll frame a toon for a crime as an excuse 2 hurt them.

the kindest w/o a doubt is remedy!!……he lives 2 make toons feel better and refuses 2 be on offense in battles bc he doesnt want 2 hurt anyone, even cogs. he knows that puts his battle teams down 1 offense toon but he doesnt care, he’ll believe in his teams v much and he just wants 2 support them 2 keep going

2. Tallest VS Shortest

the tallest overall of my toontown ocs is emrys since hes a cog lol, hes 7′4″ ! my tallest toon currently is arcane at 5′11″ :^0 then my shortest toons are tied at 3′11″ and they are remedy and apple juice :’3 they are kids after all haha

heres a lil height chart w/ the tallest n shortest 4 fun :3c (didnt draw entire new full body pics tho lol im lazy)

it looks like remedy is offering arcane the toon-up and arcane is just like “ughhghgghhhhh” IM LAUGHING

3. Most humble VS Most arrogant

jejune is rlllllly humble tbh n he hardly attempts 2 draw attention to himself, despite being v out-there w/ his limited gags and bright appearance. he takes praise awkwardly n never knows what 2 say bc even just “thank u” seems strained 2 him so he usually just laughs it off and tries 2 slip away. when asked why hes so colorful/why he only carries trap, sound, n drop if he doesnt want attention, jj just shrugs bc he honestly doesnt know himself. sometimes he thinks its bc he deserves 2 feel uncomfortable. on the outside he tries 2 be as chill as possible, tho, and he’ll avoid eye contact w/ random toons constantly

sync’s parents (austere & verity) are definitely the most arrogant. they met by being petty after all asjkhfjkdhkfj not 2 mention they abandoned sync bc they were so obsessed w/ themselves. theres hardly a time verity or austere arent throwing each other under the bus when bragging abt themselves x___x they’ll both fight u if u dare try 2 underestimate them or disregard them n their achievements.

13. Most forgiving VS Most grudgeful

ernestine is probably the most forgiving bc she just wants 2 be able 2 get along w/ others and doesnt wanna have to stress over any potential grudges. they think it takes more energy 2 keep grudges than to not so theyre way likely 2 forgive u if u do smth bad (whether to her or not) ofc theres exceptions tho like w/ friends and family ernie may resent u 4 a long time depending on what happens. when they do hold grudges, its always over rly big things like…. ernie hates arcane bc when they recently met arcane once started a physical fight w/ monique and ernie was there so frantically she tried to get arcane 2 stop but they just hit her away. the attack was impulsive so some other toons saw and broke it off before reporting arcane but needless 2 say ernie was Pissed n monique had some injuries

the most grudgeful is ever so obviously mordecai, given that her life is focused around her grudge on monique 4 ruining her life as she sees it. even before then she was rather skeptical to others n always noted mentally of the times these individual toons would run into her or such. its the small petty things that would be what she used for a lot of her judgements. and in the end this grudge on monique goes as far as 2 essentially become her downfall

16. Most secretive VS Most open

arcane is rly untrusting due 2 their past feeling so fabricated and plus bc they didnt grow up around toons. they never feel truly comfortable telling any toon abt their past or even just general stuff about themself bc they know theyre different and dont like that about themself. if ppl ask abt their past arcane usually says they were a slow learner bc they got gags way later than most toons as well as the gags they had 2 earn w/ xp. they’ll only be willing 2 open up if they can tell the other person very likely will be empathetic (like w/ mordecai she mentions disliking toons and understanding cogs more, which arcane feels similarly)…………i wrote this abt arcane then thought abt raelynn whos also rly rly secretive for….. p obvious reasons like gotta cover up that murdering lifestyle yea….. uh so thought id mention her since its Quite Significant how secretive she is too lol. if she was open in the slightly she’d almost definitely get erased (how id imagine they refer 2 execution but its p damn rare)

so 4 most open um!! id say capsaicin bc hes always willing 2 speak his mind and tend 2 give out Too Much Information when its rly unneeded lol……. its part of his desire to be unpredictable and an overall wild dude!! tho it uh backfires a lot on him bc well lots of toons dont appreciate his comments and some even say “hes not unpredictable bc i can predict that he will try to be unpredictable.” it rly stresses him out if he overthinks how others view him negatively but he tries 2 ignore it by continuing 2 find out whatever he can say 2 others so they can be astounded

[mellowely]

Welp, thoughts I guess??

Seeing as this blog is pretty dead and stuff. I guess i’ll share some thoughts i’ve been having. If you get triggered easily I suggest you keep scrolling as some things may be a bit offensive to some. AANNDDD without any much else to saayyy, here goes my thoughts. I’ve been noticing quite a bit online. That little kids are having major like mental problems? I mean I understand some kids do have these problems. But its gotten sooo...idk...such a cliche’ thing? I used to see someone say they have depression and I would be like “oh shit, are you ok man?” but now it’s like..every single person I meet or post i see...everyone says they have depression. And that leaves me to question, Do they really have depression? Or are they just...depressed over something?? Don’t get me wrong its fine to be depressed or have depression, hell I get depressed here and there and have my own things I deal with. But honestly it makes me question if they are confusing their feelings and when they are simply just sad..they say they are depressed. Being sad and being depressed are two completely different things. Yes..both things have that dreaded feeling of not wanting to do anything and just wanting to sulk..but depression also isn’t just being sad..you lose your appetite, you end up wanting to do nothing at all all day long, not even want to take care of yourself in anyway. And you simply just don’t care anymore about much. You lose interest in things..and it doesn’t last for only an hour or two. It could be for the whole entire day. I myself deal with depression and I know when I feel sad..and when i’m depressed. literally sometimes I’m just like. “Why do I feel upset?” and i’ll just want to sleep all day and not do anything, later on its just  “oh shit..I’m depressed right now.” And then I do something to try to cope with that. Another thing i’ve noticed...is ALOT of kids believe they are fat. Listen, if you can’t walk 2 steps without feeling like you’re gonna pass the fuck out..sorry honey, but you’‘re not fat. and even then being fat isn’t a bad thing! Some people can be overweight and are completely fine and have nothing bad going on. Some are just bigger by genetics..but the point is I’m kinda tired of seeing kids, who literally aren’t fat, starving themselves...because they think they ARE fat. But they are NOT fat. And then..there the misconception of if you don’t eat..you lose weight..THAT’S NOT HOW THE BODY WORKS! If you don’t eat and you starve yourself your body ends up storing as much fat it can so that the next time it thinks you’re gonna be sort of food. It can use it for you to survive. So starving yourself is just making you gain MORE weight. It doesn’t work, and then what happens? Congratulations!!! You just gave yourself an eating disorder!!...yay. If you can’t tell the sarcasm in that...I was being sarcastic. Starving yourself doesn’t help. It makes it worse. I starved myself but not because I thought I was fat. At first, I did the right thing and ate smaller portions. But then it turned to be getting depressed, and then it turned to “hey..i’m fucking done with life, I hate it..i want to die” so I started starving myself..and guess what? Now i’m lactose intolerant, my body can’t breakdown lactose like it could before and I literally had horrible pain in my stomach as if i was being stabbed, Simply because I finally ate. I still, now struggle with eating not because I believe i’m over weight..but because I get so paranoid and scared about not being able to do certain things. If something has dairy in it? haha, forget that! Im basically dead. The point i’m trying to make heeree..is don’t starve yourself. Just eat healtheir and smaller portions than you usually do and that DOESN’T mean eat 1 thing all day. It means eat a smaller meal. You usually get 5 bowls of pasta? Get 2 instead. You still get enough to satisfy yourself. But not alot to gain alot of weight. Also exercise a bit! Honestly it helps. Takes awhile..but you won’t have all those problems! Another thing! (Yeah if you couldn’t tell..this gonna be pretty long) Anxiety! yeah. i’m calling this one out to. If you simply have a freak out moment ONE or TWO times. It doesn’t mean you have anxiety. I don’t have anxiety, i really don’t BUT i still get ANXIOUS in certain situations. Talking to someone I look up to? haha..i have a mini panic attack. Sending someone art I made for them? Or simply getting called on in class? I get anxious. But i don’t have anxiety. Maybe a tiny tiny bit of social anxiety but not anxiety. It’s normal to get scared facing new things but after awhile you grow to get used to it...anxiety..it doesn’t go away. You don’t get used to it. Soooo...If you are in situations where you think about something and dread over it for nights and days on end and skip school because you can’t face certian things. OR you simply can’t walk to the fridge withought thaving someone come with you. even if you KNOW theres nothign bad gonna happen and you’re safe...welp..i say you got anxiety. Now if you are diagnosed with all this stuff BY A PROFFESTIONAL! not some quiz online...then yeah..you have these things..but that doesn’t mean flaunt it out like its some awesome thing to have. Thats what gets me. when people brag about their problems like its some trophy..its not a trophy..and if you really have these things..you won’t be so open about talkign about it. Hell. I don’t even tell my parents about my eating disorder because i literally can’t tell them. Doesn’t mean they’re bad parents..it’s just something I got to deal with.

AND if you have any mental problem. Take baby steps. Try to talk to close friends and family and don’t do anything rash or stupid. Just take it slow at  a pace you can manage. That’s what i’m doing and i’m doing pretty good to be quite honest. You don’t have to let everyone know and you don’t have to do anything that might hurt you. Just talk about it with someone you trust and try to get some help. People care and are there for you and you don’t gotta be scared to let others know how you feel! And for those who have these problems because of bullies in the past (like me) This is what my dad told me and it honestly helps a bit. Though, I;m changing it a bit (XD since he was a bit to harsh with it) Those kids who call you names, or make fun of you, or simply just look at you the wrong way, Yeah their actions and words hurt. But at the end of the day, they don’t mean anything. You know your worth and you know you’re not what those people say! So why believe it? It’s not true, You may think its true. but its not. Don’t let their words eat at you because in the end you’re way better than them by a long run. Thier putting you down becuase its their own insecurities they have. They are bullying you becuase they see something in you that reminds you of them deep down inside. and yeah, they are gonna deny it if you confront them but that doesn’t mean its not true. Why believe them if they lie about you? At the end of the day their words don’t matter and the words of people who actually care and love you, those words do matter. Focus on those and ignore the hateful ones. Thats all my thoughts for now and I know people are probably gonna skip over this and honestly thats ok. I don’t really care. If you read this and it actually helps you out? Thats awesome! And like jacksepticeye says. PMA! (Positive Mental Attitude!) OwO. I really hope this helps some people ^w^ just try to stay positive despite all the negativity in the world.

[raequaza]

Hello. It is I. The ask anon. You know by now what im gonna say. The whole 91, my dude! The good ol whole 91!

Oh dear ask anon, I wish I knew who you were XD you give me such entertainment from these!!

Answers under the cut because this is a general SFW blog XD

NSFW ASKS ahead! Don’t read if ya really don’t wanna know

1:When did you lose your virginity?

Erm I guess that depends on your definition of virginity. If you mean when was the first time I had anything inside me (toys) then that was like college? So 4 years ago? If you mean when I let someone else touch me in a sexual manner (fingers), then last year?(And if you mean been fucked by someone, toys or dick, then negative)

2: Rough sex or soft sex?

I’m a sensual person, so I do like it soft, but I don’t think I’d be opposed to some rough sex either. 

3: Do you have any unusual kinks/fetishes?

I don’t really know if I’d call it a fetish or a kink, but I do find male ejaculation quite fascinating. 

4: Weirdest place you’ve had sex?

Nah, I’m pretty vanilla. Couches or beds. Nothing special

5: Favourite sex position?

I don’t really have one...I guess whatever position hits all the right spots the best XD

6: Do you like to be dominant or submissive?

Dominant.

7: Have you ever had any one night stands?

Negative

8: Sex on the bed, couch or the floor?

Preferable to beds for comfort. I have a shitty back XD

9: Have you ever had sex in a public place?

Nooo. Touched/been touched in sexual manner in a public space, but if didn’t go further than a touch.

10: Have you ever been caught masturbating?

Ah yeah probs. But like as a child, as weird as that sounds. Freud was onto something with his psychosexual stages, so I think most children have touched themselves and realized it felt good without really realizing they were masturbating XD

But as far as masturbating as a teen/adult, then nope!

11: What does your favourite sexy underwear look like?

Ooh I mean 99% of all my underwear is sexy. But I really love my black and red pairs. Especially the new pair of red and black panties I got with the peek-a-boo back ;)

12: How often do you have sex?

Noooot often. 

13: Is there anybody right now you’d like to have sex with?

yes.  NOPE

14: Do you prefer giving or receiving oral sex?

Giving. Absolutely giving.

15: Most embarrassing thing that’s ever happened to you during sex?

I don’t think I have anything really embarrassing. I’m not often embarrassed in the moment.

16: A song you’d listen to during hard/rough/kinky sex?

Uuuh idk Fantasy by Mystery Skulls? Works for both I suppose

Talk like That by The Presets

Maybe S&M by Rhianna or Bruises and Bitemarks by Good with Grenades

17: A song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?

Forevermore by Broken Iris

Find a way by Safetysuit maybe?

18: Are you into dressing up for sex?

Not really in a costume/roleplay kinda way, but anything sexy as in clothes or lingerie, absolutely

19: Would you prefer sex in the bath or sex in the shower?

SHOWER. Defs my kink

20: If you could have sex with anyone right now, who would it be?

HahahahahahahamycrushHahahahahahahaha

21: Have you ever had a threesome? If not, would you?

Erm, hard to say. I’d never join a couple who wanted to have a threesome, but if i was in a relationship and both my partner and I agreed, maybe??

22: Do you/would you use sex toys?

Have. Used.

23: Have you ever sent someone a dirty text/picture?

You bet!

24: Would you have sex with your best friend?

Which one!? I have 4 XD But being specific for my bestest best friend, nah. I love her to death but like family, you know?

25: Is there anything you do after sex? (for example, smoke, eat, drink)

Clean up. Cuddle a bit

26: Something that will never fail to get you horny?

Hmm I guess just being with the person I like in that way? Having someone tell me what they want me to do to them is nice too

27: Early morning sex or late night sex?

I’m a late night person in general, soooo. Though theres something wrong with morning sex

28: Favourite body part on the opposite sex?

Always been a sucker for people’s eyes. They express so much.

But I guess hands as well

29: Favourite body part on the same sex?

See above. Its the same

30: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find:

Nothing really. Even my toys aren’t really all that hidden. If people are snooping through my shit they best be prepared for that they might find

31: Weirdest sexual act some has performed [or tried to perform] on/with you:

Nah nothing weird.

32: Have you ever tasted yourself? [If no, would you?] [If yes, what did you think?]

Indeed. I think most people have? Human beings are inherently curious creatures

33: Is it ever okay to not use a condom:

Maybe if I’m in a relationship with a dude and we talked about it. But generally I don’t have to worry about that because women XD

34: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience:

NOOOOPE. I do not include food (or kitchens) in my sex adventures. I am a chef, and I just can’t bring myself to mix work and sex

35: Worst possible time to get horny:

AT WORK.

36: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans?

God yes. Super hot, and it lets me know I’m doing good.

37: How much fapping is too much fapping:

Um...I guess if you’re making yourself raw from fapping, then you should stop. 

38: Best sexual complement you ever got:

Not a verbal one but just getting my partner off so good that they can’t function or speak for a few moments is awesome XD

39: Favorite foreplay activities:

Soft kisses I suppose? Light touches

40: What do you wear to bed?

Depends on the weather or my health. I generally wear nightgowns (not sexy ones) all year round. But if its too cold then I have flannel pants. Right now I’m sick so I’ve got a thick shirt, flannel pants, socks, and a flannel blue plaid overshirt

41: When was the first time you masturbated:

Uhh see above for psychosexual stages, so probably 4? But as an actual act that I acknowledged I was doing, I think 14 or 15.

42: Do you have any nude/masturbating pictures/video of yourself?

Nooooo. I hate all pictures and videos of myself, so I definitely don’t keep em.

43: Have you ever/when was the last time you had sex outside?

Again, see above for touching in public spaces, but never had sex outside.

44: Have/would you ever have sex in public?

See above. But in general no

45: Have/would you ever had a threesome?

Didn’t I already answer this question?

46: What is one random object you’ve used to masturbate?

Bahaha I slim lotion bottle

47: Do you watch gay/lesbian porn? why/why not?

Have seen both. Porn doesn’t do much for me though. Gay porn watching has pretty well all been for research for writing purposes XD

48: Do you like oral sex? (why/why not)

Giving is great, but receiving I’m still on the fence about.

49: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in?

I like tattoos on anyone, interest or not. Tattoos are neat

50: How would you feel about taking someones virginity?

I’d feel happy I suppose? That someone trusts me enough to want to do that with me.

51: Is there any food you would NOT recommend using during a sexual encounter?

All of them...

52: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute?

Pornstart

53: Do you watch porn?

I have watched porn but again it’s generally for research when I’m writing XD

54: Have you ever been called a freak? Why?

Yes, and because people are mean. 

55: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”?

In my own home, sure. Outside of my house, no.

56: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair?

Been there, done that. Not a big deal. General preference for shaving but hey to each their own. 

57: If you could give yourself head, would you?

Nah

58: Booty or Boobs?

Oooh booty I think.

59: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?)

No

60: If you were the other sex for a day, what are five things you would do?

Omg hahaha. I would absolutely masturbate, walk around at night alone (yay more safe), and um...yeah that’s pretty much it XD

61: have you ever watched someone masturbate?

Mhm I have

62: has anyone ever watched you masturbate?

Yeeeah

63. Have you ever had an erection and someone noticed?

Well I don’t have a penis, so no XD

64. What is your method of masturbation? (ie. toys, clitorial, prostate)

Depends on time and place mostly. Usually just fingers. I never get myself off because I get bored really quick but thats ok.

65. What is your bra/penis size?

34 DD

66. What is the strangest thing you have ever put up your vagina/anus?

See above for lotion bottle

67. When was the last time you masturbated?

idk last week or something?

68. When was the last time you had sex?

A while

69. When was the last time you watched porn?

month ago??

70. Have you ever bought a sex toy? If so, which one did you buy last? First sex toy? If not, which one do you plan on buying when you do?

First toy I bought...I think was my warming vibe? Last one I bought was a rabbit

71. Guys:Circumsized?

N/A

72. Which not-genital part of your body do you like being touched?

My waist I think? 

73. Which genital part of your body do you like being touched?

Well, my vagina XD I don’t have a lot of feeling in my boobs

74. Girls:Are you able to achieve orgasm just through breast stimulation?

Fuuuuck no.

75. Have you anonymously sent a sexual ask to someone on tumblr?

Haha I have yeah. Twas something along these lines though.

76. When was the last time you have had a wet dream?

Couple days ago? 

77. Which wet dream was your favorite?

I never remember my dreams

78. Is there a friend you would willingly have sex with?

See question 20

79. Is there a celebrity/character you would willingly have sex with?

Nah not really. I gotta be really into a person to wanna have sex with them.

80. Favorite sexual position?

I answered this i’m pretty sure

81. Do you like being called a slut or whore in bed?

No

82. Are you into any BDSM?

I mean I think a little light bondage play would be fun (me tying them up, not the other way around) but that’s about it XD

83. Have you ever wanted to have sex with someone but knew you couldnt for any reason? Why?

Yes. Because it was not an option to me.

84. Do you like dirty talk?

Uh yeah, it can be fun

85. Are you loud or quiet during sex? Masturbation?

I’m quiet

86. Have you ever been inturrepted during sex or masturbation? Who/what?

Hahaha sort of? Had to take some time to readjust after knocking one of my ex’s figures over off her headboard. We were laughing pretty hard XD 

87. What kind of porn do you like to watch?

Whatever porn I need for what I’m writing.

88. Have you ever confessed to someone that you got an erection over them? What about masturbated to them?

Not someone I wasn’t in a sexual relationship with

89. Have you ever masturbated because your sexual partner wasn’t there when you needed them?

Nah

90. Have you ever had a one night stand? Do you still keep in contact with them?

I think I answered this one too. It’s a no

91. Have you ever had a friends with benefits? Are they still beneficial?

Nooooooo...................