#i keep seeing these around but they're always for fandoms i'm not in 😔

[theradicalace]

been seeing those fuck marry kill polls going around and i wanna play too

spin the wheel for a happy tree friends character and weigh in

(if you don't know who they are you can just vote on aesthetic. or optionally for my followers you can vote on what you've picked up secondhand from me 😋)

[yan-randomfandom]

Hello! Call me Yan (any prns), and I'm honestly here to satisfy my cravings as a writer 😔

♪ REQUEST STATUS: OPEN—Although please understand if I was unable to answer yours, it might be for plenty of reasons.

WHAT DO I WRITE?

x reader, my beloved i dont use y/n tho

Yandere. There are times I won't write yandere, but it's my blog's main trait.

Please read at your own risk. There will be warnings at the start of the chap!

Headcanons, one shots, and drabbles

Mostly SFW — Sexual themes are mild at most. I do not write smut.

My account is multifandom. I am in multiple fandoms, so expect my content to be different every once in a while!

☕support me on kofi!

MASTERLIST... LIST

PART I: Masterlist

Keep reading if u wanna request!

SO, YOU'RE AN ANON

You can name yourself as an anon! It's a nickname of sorts

Feel free to use a name even if it's taken! This is because I hop around fandoms, so anons may come and go, plus it's definitely an easier way to find your request (in tags) 😺

Think of your same-name-anons as like,, wow, u have the same name as me! siblings frfr??

FANDOMS?

I lurk in many fandoms. Not about to list them all, though 😭 Mostly I write about my current obsession! Almost always it's my blog theme :O

Please don't hesitate to ask from wherever fandom you are! There's no harm in trying! :) Except BNHA. Preferably, no anime.

Better yet, feel free to list down your fandoms in the comments! Anything that you would want to see yandere content in! Just so I can browse and maybe write for!!

LIMITS?

No problematic shipping requests.

Unfortunately, I don't do OCs (':

If the character is 18-, they can be aged up if you'd like, but strictly no NSFW, or in certain circumstances, romance. They're gonna be platonic.

I don't do intense gore. While I do have yandere content, I'm on the sorta wholesome side? Define 'wholesome' ... Implied scenarios are more likely😩

I write non-yandere stories too tho!

Minors, please stay safe. Don't go meddling around with adult spaces!

Sadly, I'm lacking in knowledge of other popular media, so if you happen to request one of those, I might not reply. Instead, I'll be keeping your ask until one day I check that media out.

Part 2s are my weakness. I'm sorry. Doesn't mean you should try asking me tho!

Doesn't matter if the character is well known or not! Cuz I WILL attempt to learn about your request!

Except real life people. I can do actors with their characters, but never peeps' government names.

WHY IS MY REQUEST TAKING SO LONG?

...college

If it's something I've never posted about yet, then it's either I'm not in the fandom, or I'm just clueless.

But other than that... sometimes I take days— weeks— months? to truly click with an idea.

I want to enjoy whatever I'm writing, so I take a break until an idea comes up.

And there's also the fact that I'm working on multiple things at once 😭😭 I tend to focus on easier ones first!!

Also I usually think of ideas at night c:

Worst case scenario: I truly have zero idea for your request, I'm so sorry 😔

NOTES ABOUT ME!

Yandere is my guilty pleasure, I fear🤕

HOWEVER, I do not, and won't ever, condone the behavior I will portray in my writing. Please don't misunderstand, don't romanticize. They are purely fiction and for entertainment.

I regularly change my theme (profile, colors, banner, etc.) just so you know.

This account is for everyone,, we're all just trying to find content of our favorite character fr— so please don't hesitate to request :)

As I close my eyes to sleep, that's when I start imagining scenarios for my writing!

erm skibid toilet

[divorcingjimmatthews]

episode 9 reactions hdhhskfhshfhd (spoilers!!!!)

the cicadas

RANDALL BETTER NOT DIE OKAY I STILL BELIEVE HE CAN LEARN TO BE NORMAL I STILL BELIEVE IN HIM

i'm like 99% sure julie won't die so i'm not worried about her but omg tabitha is going through so much right now with her child in pain/danger and being unable to help... T_T

i felt really bad for mari when she said she doesn't want to be like this 😔 she deserves to get better and to get to be fully herself. she's getting a lot of hate in the fandom that i feel is unwarranted, we've only seen her being really sick and even then she's always been trying to help the others

this should be its own post but i'd like to see a jade and marielle friendship, she would probably get REALLY serious with him if she hears him casually joke about how much he's into party drugs like he did around kenny, and tell him that he should count himself lucky to still be able to just get away from all that consequence-free. i also want a boyd and marielle dynamic, he's good at adopting troubled girls

team tabby

i don't need a lot to be happy. jade sitting as autistically as possible on the kitchen counter means everything to me. he's just so easy to love, like a cat. also i really appreciate the way the show moved heaven and earth to make jade and tabby end up alone together for the night. the matthews house getting demolished + the new horror making it so that no one can be alone at night + jim leaving his family to go on his crazy adventure at the RV... im grateful i truly am

jade really took the supportive role to tabby's lead in the investigation and i love that for them. there's something so special to me about this dynamic, we're so used to genius guy detective + layman sidekick, seeing it flipped is so special to me. tabby is so awesome that the rich genius guy is actually her sidekick! love them sm

victor, tian chen, julie and ethan were so so sweet i'm literally heartbroken about what ethan said to victor!!! now that jade just learned to be normal istg this poor man can't catch a break???? he's a kid and he's scared i obviously don't blame him but i bet victor was so hurt T_T still im really happy to see him be more social. he's in good hands with tian chen. i swear the new "can't be alone at night" horror was engineered in a lab to socialise the loners against their will like feral kittens and i'm so down with it LMAO like yes you can bet i'll write jade fanfic about this

EDIT LMAO POSTED BY MISTAKE HERES THE REST

jim... jimmy... jimbo...

what is he doing!! what is he doing!!!!!!!!!! fighting the rifle guy at colony house istg this man LMAOO tabby did the same thing when she just arrived they're so like that... like now you wanna get back to your family i get it but if you go out there you're gonna die. he looks so cute in that jacket btw now i'm officially simping for both tabitha AND jim just like jade

kenny and sara

im really enjoying these scenes even if i'm suffering so much for kenny and i just want to yoink him out of this depressing plot they got him in, he belonged in that room playing board games with victor the kids and his mom istg!!! but all the sara scenes are extremely compelling and omg kenny is just so !!! i need to hug him. he went through that to keep everyone else safe SIGHS

sara's got a... way of dealing with the whole thing that's for sure. she brought up like the worst possible conversation topic when looking at the map LMAO i just couldn't believe it was possible to screw up that bad. i kinda have a bit of paranoia specifically about going crazy and killing someone and then having to emotionally deal with that (just my brain being my brain dont ask) so her plot fascinates me because i've mulled over how i'd feel and how i'd deal with a situation like that so much. but i draw the sympathy line at hurting kenny and she's still hurting him so !!!!!!!! girl just shut up when he asks you to shut up it's not that hard arghh

really good insight about the place and peoples fears though. was she saying that the place gets stronger the more people it manages to kill? thats a really nice explanation for all the mix-and-match weird horror stuff going on together at the same time tbh, i like it a lot if it's like that. if khatri was afraid of god's punishment or something like that then i guess they're royally fucked (some of victor's drawings showed the place getting flooded...)

[sixstepsaway]

I keep thinking about the TV ASOIAF adaptations lately, specifically about the fact there's a demonstration within of how people, even TV writers themselves, are fundamentally misunderstanding fiction these days.

In reality, monarchy isn't good, actually. People, especially in America which has been free of monarchy for a hot second (can't relate 😔), mostly agree that a monarchy is a bad thing. There is some nuance to it (and some cultural differences and such), and I'm not going to delve into the nuance of that rn, but go on the basis that a good majority of the people TV writers in America are writing for are not pro-monarchy. I know there are exceptions, there will always be exceptions, but America is a [consults smudged writing on hand] democracy, I think this says? And that directly affects how people think about systems of power and government. Ergo; monarchy bad.

In fiction, it's been the case for as long as there have been novels that people love to root for a presiding ruler. We love watching Peter, Susan, Eustice and Lucy ascend to the throne, we love debating who should sit on the Iron Throne at the end of ASOIAF, we love watching people fight wars for the right to rule, we love watching people fight and strive to reclaim their lost right to a throne. We enjoy that shit, much like we enjoy watching enemies fall in love or twisted tales play out in our hands or on our screens. We don't want those things in reality, we wouldn't want to turn on the news and hear how someone fell in love with the guy who broke into their house and tried to kill them, kidnapped them for a month and then let them go, just for them to hunt him down and make him marry them to get back at their mafia father for-- Look, I got off track. The point is, we wouldn't see that on the news or hear a friend talk about it as their experience and feel good about it, but in fiction it's exciting, a fantasy to explore.

When Game of Thrones ended, I was baffled by the in-show conversation that led to Bran being crowned. Sam suggesting democracy felt odd, but I could see it, I supposed, but them deciding on a ruler rather than putting Jon on the throne, or Gendry ffs, felt hamfisted and strange.

We watched eight seasons of a show called Game of Thrones, just to watch them toss the board at the end and say, "The whole game is bad, actually! Why aren't you reading a book instead of playing this?" and then shove someone on the throne anyway which was really weird and yeah.

I see similar sentiments with House of the Dragon. The writers seem to be writing under the baffling assumption that we're all in agreement that Monarchy Is Bad Really, so no one is right to be trying to sit on the throne or reclaim their birthright, because they're all bad for wanting to rule. The arguments that the Greens have just as much right to the throne as the Blacks is baffling considering Rhaenyra is the heir and the Greens are usurping (and they know it - else they would have simply contacted Rhaenyra and said, "Viserys has changed the plan, so we're going to crown Aegon as is his wishes. Come to King's Landing to participate" rather than sneak around and lock people up. They know they're committing treason), as is the argument that everyone is equally bad actually.

I genuinely think it comes from a place of deep misunderstanding, where they (the writers, mostly, but I also mean a good chunk of the fandom) misunderstand the draw of a fantasy like ASOIAF is partially rooting for someone to sit on the throne and rule. We're not watching fantasy with kings and queens and dragons and all of that so that the main characters can pat us on the head and say, "Monarchy is bad, actually, so we will instill a system of government based on votes and democracy, and you were silly to want your favorite to sit on the Iron Throne."

I dunno, these thoughts are a little disjointed, but I've just noticed how people approach these things and it feels like a combination of forgetting fantasy =/= reality (like many in fandoms these days, ugh) and also failing to comprehend that what we like and enjoy in fiction is not what we want in the real world. We don't watch horror because we want to see teenagers eviscerated, we watch horror because it's a fun fictional fantasy to explore for a variety of reasons.

I just have noticed this trend and I wanted to verbalize it. It started with sex stuff (if you read about incest or non-con or abusive or toxic dynamics you must support it irl and that makes you bad) and now it's slowly worming its way into other facets as well.

I have a sinking feeling that's one of the reasons why GoT ended the way it did, with a weird little gotcha that Incest Is Bad, Actually. I've thought that for a while because of how they reunited Jaime and Cersei just for them to die together as incestuous lovers, and then had Jon kill his incestuous lover. I wonder if that has something to do with the reframing of Daemon as an abuser and wife killer (something he did not do in the books), as though they feel they have to reinforce that it's bad, and Rhaenyra should be punished for seeking out such a thing.

I don't know. I'm going to stop typing now. Like I say, it's just thoughts.

[jerzwriter]

I am sorry for the question but I was wondering….do you take people off your taglists if they are not reading? I have some who asked to be added to my taglists but haven’t read anything I’ve tagged them in quite some time but I see them reading and sharing others stories constantly. I’m not insinuating people have to read my stuff but it can be extremely disheartening when someone asks to be added to your story tags but then ignore what they asked for 😔 

Hey Nonny,

First, I'm sorry that you're experiencing that. I think most of us have been there at one time or another. While I know we all get busy and can't always keep up, when it's someone who is consistently online and interacting with others but never you, it can be hurtful.

Fandom etiquette used to dictate that you didn't take anyone off unless they asked to be taken off, or you do a "tag list clean up" and they don't interact. But I do know creators who will remove anyone who hasn't interacted in a certain amount of time (usually around 2 months). Sometimes people want to be taken off and don't want to appear "rude" by asking, so they may appreciate it. Opinions on this vary.

Keep in mind there is no right or wrong answer. I say screw fandom "etiquette" and do what works best for you and protects your peace. If you remove someone and they want to be put back on, they can ask to be.

I used to try to do a tag list cleanup 2-3 times a year, but I don't bother anymore. They're a lot of work, and you inevitably get people who missed it and wanted to stay on and those who say, "TAKE ME OFF AND I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN! I AM ON FOREVER!!! NEVER TAKE ME OFF!!!!" Then you never hear from them again until it's time for your next tag list clean up and repeat. It gets old. So I'm leaving mine as is. If someone wants on or off, they can ask. If not, they're annoyed with my tags until the end of time. 😁

Do any other creators (or readers) want to weigh in?

[alphonseelriic]

Happy almost Christmas Sofia!! Gosh the days go by so fast! I can't believe it's almost here. Probably my last anon msg before reveals 😉 but feel free to continue talking to me after if you want to, it's been lovely to be your Santa!

Oh! I hope your time at the beach has been eveything you wanted? ☺️ 

Still wanting all of the food you talk highly of haha ❤. Would be really cool to visit south america one day and try some of these authentically! Will keep my eyes out to see if there's any around tho heh. 

And wow your mum is a professional baker! You must be used to the best goods then!! 😵 She must be so flattered you love her pannetone best too. And that's fair about not being into the kitchen lol but good to know you're capable there. ^^ I like cooking/baking but I'm not a fan of the cleaning that comes with it 😆 and these days I'm so tired, it sometimes feels like a lot of work to make a meal beyond basics lol. But when I'm in the mood I really like experiment with new recipes and decorating baked goods is always fun! Do you have a "go-to" meal you cook? 

Oh please do try duck! Theres so many ways to eat it...all delicious ha. Though it has a gamey taste that some people don't like, so I wonder if you prefer those or not too? 👀 Do you like lamb/goat flavors? (Since that has an even more gamey taste haha). Ooo tteokbokki is so good, a food fair sounds fun!  Alsjdkkdd honestly I'm so drawn to hot cocoa during the winter haha so totally valid and cappuccino too!! Yum!! Fresh fruit juices, so refreshing 😍. I love mango smoothies.

Oh no, what did you get to read instead in high school? We had a list of authors and books we could pick from to read during Lit class in high school that was a lot of classics including Jane Austen! It's been so long though, I honestly don't remember much. Do you like any of the jane austen movies too? 

Omg I know the struggle to find the fics that fit what you want to see from your favs lol, it's esp. hard in smaller fandoms or not as popular ships. What kind of ships are you into? 👀 And what kind of fics draw you in most? 

The struggle not to rewatch haikyuu all the time, yes!! 😆 Because it gives so much serotonin lol, but I know if it wait longer and don't remember everything, it'll be better haha. Speaking of MOB, ugh I haven't seen the last episode yet but I'm already sad it's over 😭 but deep in the feels. I'm particularly in love with "exist" ost this time. 🥲

Totally get what your saying and thanks for that bits of information! All the examples you linked are so pleasing to look at 😊 and Mazusu is easily one of my fav editors too. ❤ I can't wait to also see what you'll edit for this event! And hope you'll enjoy my lil gift to you! 🤧 Also thank you for your work with animanga creators, agree their challenges are a lot of fun 😄.

Be back very soon and happiest of holidays to you! ❤💚

- Animanga 🎅 

Omg happy Christmas Eve, secret santa ❤️ yessss!! I'm so excited to find out who you are >:) Awww thank you sm! I'm very glad to have had such a wonderful santa this year :')

Yeah, my time at the beach was v nice! We arrived back home yesterday afternoon. We didn't do much but that's actually what I wanted hahahah I was just so tired.

That's so sweet, I would love it if you visit 🥹 this continent may not be most people's first option for a vacation but it's truly beautiful and has such touristic potential!!

Ohh yes my mom bakes a lot of stuff! It's mostly for orders and we are forbidden from eating anything tho, but she does also bake for us occasionally ^^ I would be lying if I said she wasn't partially responsible for my sweet tooth...

Oh the cleaning, what a struggle LMAO it does indeed suck when you prepare a rather small thing but it leaves a lot of dirty dishes behind 😔 experimenting is really fun indeed!! I guess a meal I tend to "cook" often are different kinds of salads made with whatever is on the fridge, as they're so easy to make! I also like frying eggs and eating them with leftover rice if there's any. Grilled cheese sandwiches are also a classic. Maybe this is cheating bc nothing is actually made out of scratch, but oh well :p

I tend to like stuff with strong flavors so I think I may like duck! I don't remember the last time I ate lamb but I do remember liking it. The food fair was really fun indeed 💕 had a great time even if the weather was terrible that day. Oh I forgot about smoothies, I really like them too! Same with milkshakes.

I honestly don't remember much about what I had to read in high school 🤔 I remember reading Frankenstein, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and The Catcher in the Rye. Also a few books and short tales from Latin American authors. Unfortunately we couldn't choose for ourselves, the teacher decided for us :( but I liked most of what I read thankfully!

Yeah I loooove the pride and prejudice movie from 2005! I also want to watch the 1995 miniseries but I haven't had the time yet. I want to watch the Sense and sensibility movie too after I finish the book to see how faithful it is heheh

Tbh when it comes to ships I tend to like the popular (or canon) choices, like EdWin, TwiYor, RinShi, HanaNene, SasaMiya etc. But for media that has a big cast and doesn't focus on romance (like Haikyuu or Genshin) I tend to multiship and I like less common ships too!! I admit I'm not very creative for finding new ships so usually I end up drawn in by that one artists that is obsessed with a rarepair but has a really cute art style 😅 I'm trying to think about some examples but my mind is blank rn 🤔 maybe this is my sign to go back and consume more hq fanart like I did back in the day lol

Ohh I still haven't watched the last episode either, but idk, it's hard to say goodbye to this series 😭 my excuse is that I usually wait to watch it with my partner but we haven't had the opportunity to watch it together yet. I can't delay it for much longer tho or the entire episode will be spoiled for me sooner or later hahaha

Oww I'm glad my examples were useful for you!! Yeah masuzu's stuff is simply wonderful :') I'll upload my gift as soon as I finish answering this ask so you'll get to see it very soon 😈 I'm 100% sure I'll love what you made for me!! I can't wait to see it 🙈 aww thanks!! I still feel I don't do much despite being a mod but I want to have a more active rol from now on, my friend Roh had such a good idea when she thought about making this network, it's been an awesome experience so far and it reignited my love for this community ❤️❤️❤️ this event was super super fun!!

The happiest holidays to you too 💕 I hope you have a magical time alongside whoever you celebrate with!! Have fun tonight and eat a lot of delicious food ❣️ thank you so much again for being such a great santa! couldn't have asked for more ;)

[belltrigger]

Sorry to bother you here (love your writing btw!!) but I saw this post in the PVP-enabled tag of an Anti lamenting that they were "made" to believe a fic of yours was gen fluff submas and "despised" the writer when they realized it was blankshipping and I just could not understand how. When 'kissing' is in the tags of the fic itself. When the relationship tag is tagged with the ship tag itself. (How do I know this? Because the fic name was shared in the notes ofc.) They even said they saw a comic based on it and were disgusted and I'm like??? What are you searching that you keep accidentally finding blankshipping content?? Do you just actively not block anything/not check tags on fics for stuff you might want to avoid???

And then they had the gall to (along with some other Anti in the notes) complain about  how you and so many others had "such wasted (writing/art) potential"?? The back-handed compliment of it all. They fucking liked your writing and yet???? I just. I can't. I can't wrap my brain around the point of making that post. People are so mentally immature on this site sometimes about the way they consume and interact with Fandom works and I just can't imagine tagging a post like that into the main tags, even when I'm just venting/vague-ing about something... Keep that disappointment on your own blog.

Sorry you have to deal with people being like this to you. Seriously do know you have a lot of folks in your corner who enjoy your content! And those who don't who at least respect your right to enjoy it separately from them.

Hello my friend! It's never a bother, I assure you!

I am going to guess the fic is "No such thing as a bad omen" because for all of the amazing comics that have come from my work, that's the only fic with accompanying work that I think I tagged with 'kissing.' 😔 I am an irresponsible tagger, even though I always tell people to tag correctly.

If they approached it from AO3, I am honestly pretty shocked they didn't realize I don't actually write "gen" fics about these two at all. Even the most general stuff I write, I always tag it with 'blankshipping'. AO3 always puts the relationship/pairing tags first. Did someone recommend it to them? If they're so vocally against blankshipping, who would troll them do that, and are they mad at that person now? I can maybe imagine they found it through the individual character tags, but I don't use the platonic tag at all.

Also I have blocked very thoroughly, and don't usually look at the PVP fandom's shenanigans, so I can't see the post. But I bet it's quite funny to read. "This fic is very good until they kiss (╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻ How dare this soft content where they love each other exist" is how I will imagine it.

They're gonna be real upset with the fic I'm currently working on, cause there's significantly more than kissingヾ(•ω•`)o

[hwapyungah]

I watched The Guest two times it was so awesome. I loved the trio especially the female lead was so cool in it. And I have no words for the bromance ( or romance maybe* cough) between the two male leads. Is there anyone active in this fandom ? I want to talk about this show with someone but there's barely anyone available. Why The Guest is so underrated I want second season asap😔

this is a legitimate mood, though. laksdjfklajsd the guest is such a good show, but it's also such a niche type of drama that it only attracts a certain audience. which sucks because it totally deserves more attention. between the characters, the story, and the general message it conveys...ugh, i could go on and on

hwa pyung is my comfort character even outside of my obsession with the guest. he and a character from the devil judge are probably the closest things i have to blorbos lol. but legit his little scrappy ass just got cooler and cooler the more trouble he got into. and i absolutely love that gil young couldn't escape him because of said trouble he kept getting into. i also love that she was the one who convinced choi yoon to try and get him out of jail. and it all comes full circle when choi yoon becomes hyper protective of hwa pyung after that.

what i'm getting at with that paragraph is that the best part of the show is the bond between the three of them. like they are all really cold and rigid toward one another at the beginning and it honestly looks like they're never going to get along, but then they wind up getting attached to each other and seeing the person beneath the aggressive demon hunting psychic or the cop who doesn't believe in ghosts or the priest who would just rather work alone, they're inseparable.

honorable mention to the lovely yook gwang too. his and hwa pyung's friendship was top tier, and their scenes were some of my favorites in the entire show.

(also yes definitely romance those two are in love and i refuse to see it any other way)

you can always come to me with whatever feelings you might have about the guest. i'm still obsessed, even if this blog runs slower than it used to. with it being such a small fandom, it's difficult to keep it running at the pace of my other blogs. i do have a couple of fic requests that i'm working on so hopefully there will be updates here soon!

welcome to the fandom, though, and don't let its small size scare you away! there are some truly amazing people here, and even if you gotta dig around a little to find them, they're totally worth it!

[banghwa]

https://youtu.be/B4vFMJBGgWA

Jihope bestfriends i fear 😔

And have you seen the music shows army bomb? Jimin and hobi had so many moments in that short video, they're besties for real

(Side note i'm baby army - since a few months ago - and from what i've seen jihope keeps interacting ALL the time, even in their private time (like in las vegas or lolla or that match they went to see together, or visiting jungkook together). Have they always been like this or is it new? Their friendship is not that popular in the fandom from what i've seen? Which is so weird because ever since i joined the fandom, they keep proving that they really are best friends who adore and can't live without each other. Like someone said, jimin is hobi's hobi and hobi is jimin's jimin. I'm so glad they have each other)

THEYYYYYYY pls theyre so funny and cute, could not stop playing around with each other the whole time 🥺 also jhope knitting. furthest i will get with my jhope crocheting agenda .

also omg only a few months welcome welcome !!! ive been solidly into bts since 2018, and as far as i remember jihope have always been very close its very sweet :') i think they've spoken about hitting it off very early on because they're both dancers. i also remember some docu series (i forget which one ..😓) scenes with jihope hanging out and shopping together a lot in their down time. so yes they're very close and have been for a long time! but you're so right, for some reason their friendship isnt that popular in the fandom even though i think they have such a lovely and special dynamic :( they have such a profound respect and admiration in each other, they have been roomates for about a decade so they know how to push each other but also the kind of love each other needs. :') i know we all know who the more popular friendships/"ships" are ....🙄 so unfortunately i've noticed hoseoks' relationship with jimin and also all the members is often overlooked :((( that being said, i dont really mind that no one really puts their weird invasive relationship microscope over them bcs what they have is truly so special and beautiful that i want them to get to keep it all to themselves <3

[twdsunshine]

I hope you don’t mind me asking as a fellow writer. I have many WIP not really but some of them are done. I always end up liking it the beginning to only hate the whole piece at the end. Has that ever happened to you? Because I am losing hope that I will end up liking piece to even post it. 😔

I mean, yeah. I think it probably happens to all writers to some extent. I'm a perfectionist, so, when I read over my work before posting, I see every flaw, every part that doesn't quite flow like I want it to, every bit where the characterisation isn't quite 100% right.

Two things that I have found actually help:

1) Just post it anyway. When I was writing Lost, I kinda lost my way with it around halfway through. I wasn't happy with what I was posting, and I felt like the story had become boring and that nobody would want to read it. But the feedback I got from those that had been following along gave me such a boost that I just kept going, and, in the end, the fog lifted, and I fell back in love with the story I was trying to tell.

2) Get some distance. Write a piece and then leave it. Don't look at it for a few days, a week or two, maybe even longer. Put it right out of your mind. Then come back to it. I find that, with fresh eyes, it's easier to appreciate the work you've done. It almost feels like reading somebody else's story, so you're less likely to be so critical of it. Works for me. I've just done this with some of the later chapters I've written for Blood & Magicks, and realised they weren't as terrible and clunky as I'd originally thought. It also highlights where there really are bits that could do with being rewritten, but it's because they actually need the work, rather than just you seeing issues everywhere.

I don't know if that helps in any way at all, sweet Anon. I hope it does. I think the most important thing to remember is that nobody here is expecting their fanfic writers to be professional authors. They read the stories because they love the fandom and they love the characters, and they want to support their creators too, because they're what keeps the fandom alive.

I hope you grow to love your work and find the confidence to share it. We can always use more stories to read 🖤

[themarvelhorse]

Wow, damn. That sounds really rough, sorry you have to deal with that 😔

This whole thing has come with some similar surprises and feelings for me too. Some folks I didn't expect to even have an opinion somehow go down the rabbit hole - even when we've had family that died from COVID and not having a vaccine available to them - maybe because they were a person of colour in a country that didn't care for them.

Its hard to deal with these people. They usually go down said rabbit hole because something happened in life that they didn't know how to handle, and look for explanations and some kind of certainty. They can't deal with uncertainty and education isn't even a factor. And somehow, the only way to reach out to them to bring them back is to play the long game. I know I've tried, but I'm not around them enough to point out why they should reconsider their perspectives.

I've heard a lot of opinions from people I care about be a mouthpiece for liars and manipulators. It's hard, but not enough for me to hate them because they're family, and at the end of the day they still love and support me and treat me personally with respect. I don't hate them but I start to dislike them. It's very a complicated set of feelings and I try to redirect my anger, but its hard not to let those feelings overcome me when I'm trying to focus on other things.

I'm sorry your mom's heart isn't doing as well. Kinda seems like just one thing after another, huh? When it rains it pours

But what did a certain pony girl say? Let it rain~

But I'm glad to hear you're getting through it, and working to come out stronger. All a part of life.

And congrats on the good interview!

Always like hearing about the Empathy content coming up too 👀

And I've been good! For the most part at least. Lot of stuff happening.

Rented a hybrid with some family and went to visit my brother on the East coast who moved, aunt brought him all kinds of Trinidadian food since its the first time in months he's seen us or had any

First time on the out there and it was very lovely. Less dense, but plenty of gorgeous sights and sounds.

(Been also getting a few interviews for East coast jobs soooo maybe future place of living?)

But since then I've actually been hired for a job in my field! It's only 8 weeks though. But yeah direct experience woooo! Also costs of living and working cause me to just break even but stiiiill.

I am also taking a course on quantitative research methods, since that has felt like one of my many white whales for the longest time.

So I'm busy as fuck but I'm glad to feel like I'm doing things again. Especially good things where I feel like I'm contributing in my field in some way.

Now I just gotta keep myself from worsening my caffeine addiction and go out and exercise more

But one thing at a time, a little bit at a time. All adds up to huge changes

In the meantime, I'm actually going to go visit a friend I went to see earlier this summer, so we can watch the new pony movie together this weekend!

I am excited, and oh so looking forward to the new things the fandom comes out with.

Oh, and Happy Sunset Shimmer Day!

Aww you have to live with anti-vaxxers? Yikes, how are you handling that? Also heeeeey, how have you been, Marvel?

Not well 😂

This past week I realized just how much anger I've been swallowing at my step-dad to try to maintain our relationship (and mom, but step-dad especially since mom's heart condition at least makes sense as a reason to be medically exempt). When it's coming from the people you've loved for your whole life, who otherwise didn't seem like the type until recently... it's a lot to mentally deal with.

I absolutely respect medical exemptions and even some hesitancy (i.e. black folks in the US with the history of systemic medical abuse). It's just... yeah, no. Now that I've realized just how much anger I've been holding back, I'm beyond pissed at the Right's echo chamber of self-serving, self-important lies. Humanity is all in this together and they're making it harder on everyone else (but especially people of colour and poorer countries that don't get the vaccine supplies they need).

I'm still processing what exactly this means for our relationship (mom and I are cool, but I'm going to have to process a lot of anger at my step-dad before I can say what that relationship will be like going forward). I'm generally actually fairly good at recognizing a lot of my feelings, but anger evidently hasn't been one of them. So, therapy here I come!

But, anyway, thanks for checking in and asking how I am!

Besides that nonsense, things have been insanely busy this past while. My Nana's health is not great, my mom's heart condition is getting worse, my work's been busy, I got a job interview for a full-time job I think I'd be really good at and feel like a nailed the interview but we'll see next week, I'm editing the Ex Files shorts plus working on a secret Empathy-verse project, I'm starting a course next week on project management, and my friends and I are healing since that anger realization of mine wasn't pretty (we're okay now, but don't bottle up your anger without realizing and then misdirect it, kids. Even if you try to be respectful with it, be angry at the right person!!).

A lot of that occurred last week, by the way. So I was extremely overwhelmed with it all.

But here's the upside: there's a lot of positive things going on. And the stuff that isn't, I'm learning some important lessons.

There doesn't always need to be an upside, some of this stuff sucks extremely hard! But it helps me, when I'm going through a lot. Focusing on what I can do right now and what's good.

I think things will get less chaotic, though. I'll know next week if I got the job, and either way, I'll have a job I like. And working on stuff like this outline or the course gives me something really fun to focus on! My friends and I made up and I think have come out stronger for it. Plus, I genuinely will get to talk about all this stuff with my therapist. It's just going to be a long conversation 😂

Oh, and I should say since people follow me for my creative stuff: Even if I'm slow as all hell, I'm still working on Empathy-verse stuff and in love with doing so! I'm so excited for everything to come!! The illustrations are coming along for Empathy Part II (in my opinion, you'll be stunned by some of them holy crap). And little by little, the shorts are getting done and we'll have a blast when we finally get to release this stuff!

But yeah, long ramble short: I'm not always doing okay, but right this moment I am. And I think most things will get better a little at a time.

How are you doing?