#i keep forgetting everyone in granblue is so young

[bigkickguy]

home sweet moon if it was epic idk

[cinnbar-bun]

Narmaya is Actually an Amazing Character and Not Some Waifu-bait

Just read through Narmaya’s special episodes and honestly... I see her in a way different light. I never really hated her before, in fact I thought she was an absolute sweetheart, but the overbearing tendency was one that never really attracted me. In this essay I will talk about why Narmaya DESERVES LOVE AND ATTENTION AND THAT SHE IS A WONDERFUL PERSON WHO IS ABSOLUTELY RELATABLE. When you first meet her, she’s a sleepy airhead who suddenly joins you and acts like an overbearing mother. That’s basically what she’s known for. A lot of people like the ‘big sister waifu’ trope a lot so obviously she became well known just for that. Seriously like look up Granblue fantasy you’ll probably find PLENTY of art for her. But I don’t think she’s wonderful for being an obvious trope. She’s wonderful because she’s relatable. At first glance you’re like, ‘how is she relatable in the slightest??’ If you took the time to read up on her episodes, she’s just a young woman trying to get her idol to notice her. As it goes, she met Eahta when she was young. She literally calls him a demon, something straight out of hell. She just wanted to have fun in her family dojo and took up the katana because why not. The first time she met him, after only one swing of her sword, he told her that her stance was wrong and how to fix it. She was so amazed that someone this strong was helping her, and she grew to idolize him. She wanted him to notice her and compliment her work, but he did no such thing. He basically didn’t even acknowledge her existence. At this point she was in her early teens (about 13-14) and was pretty skilled with the blade. Eahta left without saying a single word, never ONCE saying her name. She was devastated and realized that it was because she was weak that he wanted nothing to do with her. In her episode, she states she spent TEN WHOLE YEARS working on techniques and skills only SHE could use so he would acknowledge her. He doesn’t, and because of that she just takes it as her being weak. She basically becomes famous for being so powerful, but she literally doesn’t even know she’s the famous swordswoman they’re referring to. In your first damn meeting she’s like, ‘oh sorry you got the wrong person, I’m not strong at all’. People mistake this as her being humble, but she LITERALLY doesn’t even think she is anywhere near being good enough to be considered strong. The whole entirety of her personality is based on self-loathing and denial. She hates herself so much that she can’t take a compliment, she can’t understand why people think she’s strong, and she doesn’t understand why anyone would ever hang out with her. She projects her self-loathing onto Lyria and Danchou by basically being their mom so she can feel like she’s actually doing something. When Vyrn told her to give him some space, she basically was catatonic and kept mumbling about how she was wrong and what did she do to upset Vyrn. I think her love of children is due to the fact that as a child all she wanted was Eahta to notice her. She can’t help but relate herself to the kids and whether or not she realizes this, she doesn’t want them to feel as lonely and self-loathing as she does. Eahta serves as a reminder to Narmaya that she will never be enough for him. She will never be strong enough, she will never be powerful enough. While some acknowledge the fact that the Eternals are the strongest and basically, ‘that’s that’, Narmaya LOATHES that. She knows she’s not an Eternal so she’s not good enough to get Eahta to notice her. In her skill episode, there’s a part where a merchant compliments her and praises her. She brushes it off like, ‘I’m not very good, why do you insist on complimenting me?’ The merchant mistakes it as her being humble and continues gushing over skills. When they get attacked by bandits, he explicitly says she is as strong as Eahta. She flips out and freezes, causing her to nearly die because she just couldn’t believe someone would ever compare HER to Eahta. The breaking point was meeting Fif. Fif was basically adopted by Eahta and raised by him. Narmaya didn’t realize she was an eternal until Fif kept talking, and hearing her story made her despise herself even more. Even though Fif is an Eternal, all Narmaya hears is how Eahta took care of her. She thinks that this just supports her idea that she was too weak, because he raised Fif but wouldn’t even say her damn name. She drops her sword and thinks she isn’t even worthy to touch it, so she isolated herself again on the mountain to start over. Fif challenges Narmaya to a fight to see how strong she is, and Narmaya surrenders slightly. She explains that she is completely and utterly weak, and Fif gets upset. Fif understands right away that she hates herself too much, and that bashing herself will make her weaker than being confident ever will. She gets mad at Narmaya and talks about Danchou and Lyria care for her, and if she can’t see that then there’s no point in even going to Eahta. Narmaya then realizes that while she doesn’t accept herself yet, there are others who do and who really care for her. She ends up winning the battle, and Fif decides she wants to get Eahta to talk to Narmaya. Fif doesn’t understand though why Narmaya keeps referring to him as a demon, so she goes and asks Anre. He explains to her all about his life, and that makes her incredibly upset. She goes to Eahta and calls him a bully, and basically forces him to go to meet Narmaya. Eahta didn’t even remember who Narmaya was, and he doesn’t refer to as anything but ‘the child’. The only thing that actually makes him interested was when Fif outed herself and said she was defeated by her. Narmaya gets a letter from Eahta saying for them to duel, and they both are about to when Danchou and Fif break it up. After seeing Fif interact with Eahta, she laughs and realizes she never wanted to be stronger, she just wanted Eahta’s attention. She acknowledges her failures and thinks back to how if she just talked to him, she wouldn’t be this screwed up. She ends up fighting, and afterwards her, Eahta, and Fif go to tea. He acknowledges her as a powerful adversary and tells her that she can always come talk to him. Finally, after all the pain and hardship, she is able to talk with him. Narmaya was a character who hit close to home for me, and I related to her internal struggle between her own self hatred and the need to please everyone. If she can’t be happy, then everyone else must. She spends every effort on others that she forgets she can’t grow stronger if she doesn’t move on from her grievances. She just wants attention and love, and she didn’t know she could get that until Fif and Danchou made her open her eyes. She doesn’t need to give up everything to ‘be stronger’ or have everyone love her, she just needs to focus on being the sweetheart she is and doing what she loves. That is why I feel she is a lot more than a simple character brought on for the sake of fan service. She can easily be compared to Camilla from Fire Emblem Fates, but she is so much more than that. She’s not there just to gush on the Player, she has her reasons for being so excessive and doting. And I think many of us here can relate to her struggle, and can relate to her dire need of attention. And she absolutely deserves it.

[fidelitasadmiralandcvl]

retirement notice

I really didn't want to do this, but I knew this would be inevitable. My time as an RPer must come to a conclusion. With my health rapidly declining due to overworking and immense stress and hardly any time to be at the computer thanks to work and school, it's time I retire from the hobby. What started out as a little fun my old online friends dragged me into back when I was in high school turned into a solid 7-8 years (??? or more??? I lost track of it) of experience and fun. I knew this couldn't go on forever. Although 21 is a young age to retire from it, I knew a year ago that it was close to my expiration date for role playing.

After having spoken to one of my closest RPing friends about the matter, he was right. I should not be denying the cruel truth of reality. It would also be unfair to many of my partners to constantly delay them of my replies and contents. I would love to be on, but at the same time, most of my energy is already spent working and tending to my real life matters. I'm going to NYU, I'm going to become an epidemiologist, I'm going to be working my bottom off, I'm planning to continue my prospective plan into medical school shortly afterward, and I'm definitely planning to work till I die for my community in the health profession. No matter how hard I try to calculate my schedule, RPing... just won't fit in anywhere.

So I apologize for leaving right after my "brief hiatus", but I like to let everyone know that I really enjoy your company and I enjoy getting to be creative with you all. Even if we barely see each other on the dashboard, I really love your content as I'm the type of person who reads whenever I have the chance. If... I don't bury my head in the drafts department. Also, shout out to these folks that I got to know for a long period of time! (some may come from my other accounts because yolo, I'm too tired to bother clarifying my existence and identity more than once)

@oceanaiad : BAE, u r the moon to my sun-- I don’t even know what’s going on anymore, lmao. Anyway, I’m really happy to be RPing with you and I’m sad we can’t RP anymore on Tumblr, but you are amazing, girl. Your skills in the community make my heart go doki doki. Continue to be awesome, Seon, and remember to keep Lucifer under your wings. Also, plz keep Deuce from killing people with her cookies. She’s too sweet just like you you precious little honey bun <3 Let’s continue to be friends OOC and cry over Granblue Fantasy and... and the many things we cry over. just... :SLDKFJ:LKSDJF:LSKDJF SOYA SOYA SOYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

@6thfleet : BRUH BRUH BRUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, you’re chill and you know, you’re a good listener and you’re just an adorable little puffball that I can just??? SQUISH?????? Like why are you so good in this world???? Anyway, you’re... well, to be frank, you introduced me into the KanColle fandom with a positive bang and I’m grateful that you were one of the first RPers in that fandom to interact with my newbie muse. And for someone that mostly stuck around Final Fantasy folks? That means a lot to me. So thank you for being there with me... and being there when I switch to other fandoms! That really means so much more to me too as someone so flexible. I hope we can remain friends even beyond the RPing realm! 

@chaoticflicker : onii-sama, you mean so much to me in this world. That may sound like an exaggeration, but I’m not joking about that. You’re someone that stuck with me since the very first day I stepped into RPing. I still remember those embarassing moments in Twitter that we both would like to delete 4ever, lol!! No matter if I replied or not due to my hectic life, you always take the time out of your day to drop in a positive message in both Facebook and Discord. It’s not even limited to that... in Twitter and here too. Even if I didn’t respond to them, I can surely tell you that I have read them and I feel grateful to have a friend like you in my life. As for RPing, you were always with me no matter which fandom I went into. Your Vincent... is honestly kickass and one of the best I’ve interacted with! Let’s continue to be friends and talk about gaming when we have the chance!! P.S. when will we ever have the release date for FF VII Remake and confirmation that they’re ever going to work on FF Type-Next ; ;

@convxction : FATY I AM SO SORRY I HAVE TO FINALLY RETIRE FROM THIS S:DLFKJ:SLDKJF:LSKDJF you’re like the best Chrom and Eight and Machina I’ve ever interacted and my heart cries like insane when you exist. why are you so precious and why are you so beautiful??? But seriously, I’m really happy to be your RP partners since the good old days when Type-0 used to... well... have a much bigger fandom than what we have right now, lmao. There’s probably like one or two of you leftover. ; ; I’m so sorry I’m going to disappear from this amazing tiny community. You’re an amazing RPer and you are a kind individual that the world needs more of. I hope we can continue to be friends and crey over literally everything that the world throws at us.. especially that ending of Type-0. Never forget Class Zero and Machina and Rem and Kurasame and-- 

@oursongofhealing : ok, this is going to sound like some random stalker tagged you because I’m a creep, but just letting you know that this “creep” is that other Deuce RPer who constantly disappears like a ninja (this -> @flutistplayer ,) lmaooo. Just want to let you know that I’m proud to be one of the many RPers who interacted with you. Because your Deuce is just godly??? AND I LOVE YOUR PORTRAYAL OF HER??? And for being so open to me for interaction despite us having the same muse??? Like that really means so much and you’re just amazing. I’m going to be another member from the fandom who takes their leave, so I feel guilty about it, but at the same time, I’m happy to be a part of the community with you. Continue to be the awesome RPer ! (folks rlly, follow this person because they got good skills)

@asktheattorney : Girl, you deserve so much in this world. Like so much more than the sun itself. Like... sob, you’re just an amzing RPer. I’m not going to lie, your quality really is amazing and I’m just proud to be one of the many lucky RPers who can interact with you. You’re amazing and I’m just-- I’m just a seed facing the sun and being a tiny existence, lmao. But seriously, you’re a chill person and I really enjoy talking deep OOC stuff with you!!! You’re so cool and you’re an amazing person that I’m glad to get to know! I hope we can continue to be friends beyond the RP realm! 

@shugcxrcuei-jin : BROTHER MY LONG LOST BROTHER WE ARE LITERALLY ONE OF THE SAME. Except different gender, LMAO. I’ve never met anyone who is the same hybrid as me and I’m just??? Like whoa????? AND WE LIKE THE SAME STUFF AND CRAVE FOR THE SAME STUFF LMAO. I’m so sad that we won’t be able to interact on Tumblr anymore, but hey... we can always fantasize about our muses with their future marriage, lmao. Not to mention that we have each other on Facebook, so feel free to hit me up on Messenger! I’m sure you’ll be “glad” to hear the storm of complaints on my end about schooling eventually, lmaoo

@foulmouthedscythe : OI WE SHOULD CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT WHEN SICE WILL POP UP IN DISSIDIA OPERA-- OR EVEN IN DISSIDIA NT-- Jokes aside, ;alksjdf;lakjsdf;laksjdf you are such an amazing RPer and I’m so happy that you’re one of the small number of Type-0 RPers that are somewhat surviving out... in the desert that is called the Final Fantasy Type-0 fandom, lmao..... Anyway, I hope we can continue to be friends beyond RPing and theorize about... everything, I suppose, lmao. P.S. Your Sice is amazing and I cry because let’s be honest, her sin level is far tinier than Deuce for whatever reason, LMAO

If I miss anyone, I apologize since there’s just so much of you, but just know that I love you all equally! With that finally out of the way, I hope you all have a wonderful life, you enjoy your day (even if it's cloudy, the sun will eventually shine), and who knows, we might bump into each other one day. Maybe.

For those that wish to continue contact with me, Discord is... actually not a good option anymore as I barely go on that platform. The best way to contact me is via Twitter at @animeminafans (kudos to those who got the pun in that username). For those who know more on a personal level, I’m more than happy to share my Facebook information. 

Deuce, Admiral Yori, and Houshou would also like to bid their farewells! We'll miss everyone and move on with our lives. They’re one of the longer running muses that stuck with me for a longer period of time. Especially the Admiral and Deuce. Those two deserve equal treatment of respect and love from... well, from me really, lmao. No one else is obligated to deal with them. But I can only hope that their interactions touched a bit in your character’s life. 

May you all achieve so much in your life as I will do my best on my end. This is farewell!

- Crystal