#i keep being told i give moon vibes even by people who haven't read my poetry based on *gestures vaguely* how i am

[born-to-lose]

[indigo474]

11225- full moon vibes

sometimes I think the universe likes to test me... are you really who you say you are? Yesterday Ryan invited me to church. how could I say no after saying I wouldn't say no if someone asked me to go to church. so off to church I went. my Aunt was happy to see me. Today was about Jesus baptism. I remember my baptism.. in the same church. I think I was 4. when I was little the church seemed so dark. I remember laying in the pews staring up at the ceiling. Aunt Joanne showed me her class room. I woke up tired and wanted to not get dressed and not go outside... but I told Ryan I would be there.. i'm glad I went. today is my Mom's 70th birthday. I got her a cake and a card and olive oil because thats what she asked for. I wanted to take her out to eat or order food but when I got there they already ate. It wasn't a great visit. it got better but i left feeling upset and just sad. always with the do you want a gummie... no I don't and somehow that became me thinking i'm better than her- it got weird. she got weird - it was emotionally draining. I'm currently sleeping with 3 books- i'm back on the Gita- which I should have finished a long time ago- the problem is it puts me to sleep- I can only read 2 pages at a time. How many times in how many different ways can it be said that Krishna is everything- all encompassing- Also the Gita says Krishna takes the form of the whole universe that Arjuna has a hard time looking at- he begs Krishna to take on the form of a human so he can look at him without being upset by his appearance. I googled it and I didn't think it was disturbing at all. It's funny though because listening today in church there are similarities between Krishna and the Holy Trinity. I got another self help book- how to be a self help savage- its a cute book and I mostly got it to support an Instagram account I follow- its mostly advice for people just starting out in the healing journey- I'm sure I will get something from it but i'm pretty deep in at this point- it has advice like "never speak bad about yourself"- pretty basic level 1 self help stuff- I was thinking about giving it to Ryan but I'm not sure he reads.- and the Comedy bible- the good news is I got a book case-the bad news is I have to put it together. I've sworn off putting furniture together and yet here I am with another thing to put together. the birds are back on their bullshit- things calmed down after I hit the goose. i'm starting to notice they are doing it again- messing with me. i know it sounds absolutely fucking crazy. i'm going to start writing down every time weird bird stuff happens. today i'm driving down the street- a bird flies in front of my car so close it almost touches my car- I gasp- 2 seconds it happens again- 2 seconds later it happens AGAIN- this last bird- we made eye contact- at this point I have my hand over my mouth and i'm saying omg omg.. i'm also laughing and just amazed because what is going on?? It's probably been the last 2 weeks where I've started noticing weird bird things.. so we shall see. I haven't seen much of Madison. I heard her come home this morning- she slammed the door and was just loud coming in. She keeps weird hours even when she has off from work. she tells me I am her best friend. how nice is that? we do have a good relationship- I of course was not there when she went out with my mom so I don't know exactly what was said- I know what Madison shared with me- Since then Madison has not spoken to my Mom. Madison doesn't play games - she is not the forgiving type. there was something else that was on my mind but now I can't remember-I have Sunday night work stress- not too bad. I'm sure its going to be another busy week. I think this full moon has me feeling emotional. I hate to blame the moon but that is what i'm doing-

i did hip exercises this week. i'm thinking I should start walking.i want to run but I am honestly scared and i'm wondering at what point I should insist on an MRI to see what's going on- did i tear something?

tomorrow Michael's daughters turn 3.

[beautifulterriblequeen]

Trickster: an Ethari theory

I've had yea many Ethari headcanons, and I hope I live to have yea many more. Most of them are probably wrong, or incomplete at best. But boy are they fun.

I love to wonder what Ethari will really be like in canon when we get to know him for more than 3 minutes, but whoever he really is on his own, he will have an effect on Runaan , Rayla, and everyone who loves him, because they love him.

The first headcanon I can remember having for "Tinker" was that he could be like Leonardo da Vinci: a genius, creative, surrounded by beautiful ideas given shape by his hands, but also capable of creating deadly weapons, enchantments, and devices with equal beauty, and perhaps not really seeing where the line between them was. It was fun, but Ethari has ended up far softer than my headcanon, and I love and support him in his softness!

After a nice string of Ethari headcanons, this year I've started poking at the Trickster archetype and seeing if it applies to him. And I think it absolutely does!

Tricksters often seem like Chaos. But they're not. They're just Difference. "Chaos" is subjective. Like the "divergent" in "neurodivergent." Who says? Divergent from what, exactly? Perspective matters, and Tricksters have a very broad take on things which allows them to think outside any box people might try to invite them into.

My enjoyment of Loki has brought all kinds of ideas to my dash with the arrival of the Loki show. I've got a copy of the Edda, and I highlighted the hell out of it a couple of years ago as I searched for the roots of Loki's origin story. (It's truly fascinating reading and the symbolic language hidden inside their poetry is dazzlingly amazing and I'm super using it sometime just so you know)

Loki is a Trickster, and he's far from alone in myth and legend. Anansi, Coyote, and Sun Wukong are some you may have heard of. Aaravos is another, of course. Tricksters can be called upon to lend aid and wisdom when the rules don't have an answer for some extraordinary circumstance which the Trickster's people find themselves in. But that's not because they are truly outside the rule of order. They are actually a part of it. They are the catch-all for when the everyday ordinary rules fail people, and something "unthinkable"--in the literal sense--might just hold the answer.

This post crossed my dash today, and something finally clicked in my head, and all of this coalesced from what felt like separate places. But they're not separate, not anymore! Serotonin, baby. It's basically upped my headcanon to a full-blown theory.

What caught my eye was an answer to why Ethari's clothing is so determinedly asymmetrical, compared to Runaan's specifically, but Moonshadows in general. It's because of this:

Long protective sleeves below patterns on shoulders. A high collar paired with a bright and noticeable swoop around the neck. Fine detailing and graceful taste. Asymmetrical tunic point on the left, below broad strappy leather. Knee high boots with stylish protective gaiters.

And let's not forget the curling horns! In some comics, Loki has a broken horn. So does Ethari.

Yes, there is a lot of similarity here, but I'm not focused so much on the visuals as the reason they were chosen. Feel free to consider other aspects of Ethari's personality and how they might be similar to certain parts of Loki's. I did! But I wouldn't be me if I didn't go deeper than that.

My favorite book in the universe (so far) is Lois McMaster Bujold's The Curse of Chalion, and one of the many reasons why is because of her pantheon. It holds five gods, represented by a hand: Father, Mother, Son, Daughter, and Bastard. The first four all have their roles and places. The Bastard--the thumb--inherits everything else. He is the god of all things that do not belong to any other gods, and that includes self-sacrificing vengeance and queerness. He is a Trickster, and his influence on Cazaril's life is far deeper than at first glance. Chaos has its place. It belongs, and so do the Tricksters who engender it. God, I love this book. Please read it if you haven't. Bujold's work is amazing.

If you've seen or read any version of MDZS/Untamed, you know that Wei WuXian is a trickster. Competent and badass in battle, but playful and teasing to the point where sometimes even he isn't sure what he truly wants, he can bring a massive amount of power and focus when he wants to. It's always a matter of "but is it important to me?"

I love WWX so much. The Trickster vibe is very apparent in his character, and in a way you just don't get in Western media. We see him on his own, and we see him with family and loved ones. And he's always feeling something so intensely! He's driven by his emotions, for good or ill. He vibes with chaos, and he will create it if it doesn't exist yet. But he will also create family from nothing, and that's something you don't see enough of! WWX is a Trickster with an emotional preference for joy.

In TDP, Ethari doesn't have a lot of lore yet. It's being Moonshadowed because spoilers for future seasons, and I respect that. The longer the wait for S4, the more ideas I will just amuse myself with in the meantime--and yeah, this is one of them, so what? :))) But we do know a little about him.

He loves music. He loves to read. He leaves his mark on things in swirly form. He works very hard, even through headaches, because what he's doing is that important to him, even though he would much rather be making jewelry. He loves taking the time to polish rough stones into brilliant jewels, and he adores big pretty flowers and had them at his wedding.

Ethari has a temper, but he also loves puns. The weapons he crafts are exquisite: "light, elegant, strong, and clever." And he knew darn well that Runaan was trying to flirt with him, but why return a sentiment he may or may not feel yet when he can play with the overly earnest assassin just a little bit first?

Okay, just... A "simple craftsman" deciding that it's going to be fun to toy for a bit with a broody assassin's feelings? Would you risk that? Ethari got balls the size of the moon, and a brain to match. When he has to make weaponry, he does not half-ass it. Ethari's stabby creations nearly have a life of their own. His creations are literally called "trick weapons." This elf is a lot, okay. And it's possible that he doesn't even know how "a lot" he is. Yet.

We're meeting Ethari after he's found something that is, in fact, genuinely important to him: Runaan, and Rayla, and Laindrin too. Ethari has found a relatively stable place to settle and find a role to adopt. I say adopt, though, because making weaponry for his loved ones is not what he grew up wanting to do. It's what he had to do to keep them safe, once he found a place to bestow his heart.

But in the show, Ethari has lost his family, one by one. First Lain and Tiadrin, ghosted. Then Runaan, supposedly fallen on his mission. Then Rayla, ghosted for abandoning Runaan. He and Rayla have reconnected now, but the rest of his family is still out of his reach. If Rayla has indeed told him, by S4, what she learned at the Moonhenge in TTM, then Ethari may parallel Rayla's journey to seek answers. But even if he doesn't know yet, and gets pulled into some other story arc first, we will be seeing Ethari without his family.

Remember the ATLA episode "Zuko Alone"? Consider: "Ethari Alone."

Ethari has chosen, for love, to fit himself into a box that wasn't of his own making. And now that box has broken. His family doesn't need him to be their craftsman anymore. Perhaps others will need him to be other things to them. Or perhaps he will know that his family does need him, but to be far more than just a maker of pretty swords. A rescuer, perhaps. A healer, a guide? An avenger?

A trickster. Capable of taking many shapes, because he understands them all. Ethari works with form and function. If he needs to transform himself, he will.

That's what Tricksters do. It's delightfully queer and delightfully neurodivergent. Ancient peoples accepted and revered the different among them and actively sought their help with things they themselves struggled with.

Tricksters are Difference. Sometimes that manifests as chaos, sometimes as genius. But if you do not love and appreciate your chaos, it will absolutely turn on you. Wei Wuxian did. Loki certainly has, many times. Perhaps Aaravos is doing so as well.

I cannot wait to see what Ethari does with his difference. I have something very specific that I hope he goes and breaks.

All this from a picture of Tom Hiddleston in his Avengers 1 Loki costume? Yeah. Because Ethari was designed to wear asymmetrical clothing, in a Moonshadow culture that prides itself on balance. Sure, there are some other Moonshadows who wear this or that asymmetrical item, and I do love to see it. But Ethari has the most asymmetrical lines of them all. The meta glee I feel knowing that Moonshadow elves are designed to hold many layers of meaning in their appearances--that the writers, creators, and character designers just flexed with them--is truly a delight.

Ethari is asymmetrical. The full and practical application of that is a glass casket, and I hope it becomes a gift that keeps on giving, because boy do I want to keep receiving it. But right now, I'm genuinely seeing evidence of the Trickster archetype in him. And I really hope it gets to come out and play.

[staysuki]

Okay so I'm back and wow I have so much to say

Firstly, welcome 🦄,🌺,🗽!

The ashnon family is genuinely becoming so much fun I just wish that we could have a group chat where we're anonymous too cause I'm better at small ass messages than lengthy paragraphs. Anyways, for the zodiac stuff, I'm a Libra, Sagittarius rising and moon in Libra too even though I barely know what that means because I haven't really checked out much in those terms, all I know is that Libras tend to have alot of crushes and are super lovey dovey people while I'm not really attracted to people and as I said before, in my picrew thing, people are kinda scared of me so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Also, LOVEGAME ANON HAS SUCH BIG BRAIN WITH SO MUCH BRAIN CELL WOWWWWWW HELP ME PLEASE AND DONATE SOME BRAIN I POSSESS AN EMPTY SHELL OF A HEAD

And dw bs, I know you're not cheating, so can we simp for lovegame anon's sexc brain together? Cause damn damn damnnn

But I'm sure that lovegame anon wouldn't be able to read into the characters this well if Ash didn't write them with so much thought behind each of them, so thank you Ash, you have big big brain too

Also am I the only person who thought that candy was definitely Hyunjin from the teaser because the synopsis literally says, "Definitely not like Hwang" or something like that which always means "it's definitely hwang" like okay anyways wowowow

Also Ash, you being a lyING SNEAK CHEAT HOW COULD YOU I GENUINELY THOUGHT THAT YOU MEANT THAT YOU WERE A SCORPIO AND THEN I PANICKED BECAUSE IT'S SCORPIO BIRTHDAY SEASON COMING UP IN A FEW DAYS AND I NEED TIME TO GET SOMETHING TOGETHER FOR YOU LIKE ???? I NEED WARNINGS

No but when you said that you were lying, I genuinely thought that you just wanted some gifts real quick and not the whole scorpios are bad ass bitches sort of thing 😭😭😭

Anyways, SLC is really vavavoom if you get what I mean, it's just so damn interesting. Your girl currently thinks that Ryujin is the hottest person in this entire series because she is, just look at her vibes and personality and everything. She's perfect. Felix is giving me very mysterious vibes, this boy really gotta sneak around and apparate and disapparate. Teach me your ways sir 🙇‍♀️

Also Lovegame, can you do an analysis of pp heart cause like ahahaha, bs anon, ash and I absolutely love it cause it's genius

ANYWAYS THAT'S ALL I THINK

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(CURRENTLY IN THE BATHROOM. WILL EDIT A REPLY TO THIS LATER BUT WANTED TO GET IT POSTED IN CASE OTHER ANONS GO ONLINE TO SEE IT)

(this is my new “reply is under construction photo”)

NEW EDIT:

was gonna remove the standholder reply but honestly it’s funny so i’ll keep it there.

ASHNON FAMILY pls, it sounds like im some shitty youtuber pls “HEYYOW 💫WELCOME BACK 🤪WHATSUP ASHNON FAM 💁‍♂️”. same i wish there’s an anon chat thingie somewhere idk 🤧. i checked out my astrology chart and i can’t find the rising but i’m a capricorn moon apparently so i’m ~emotional~ from being a cancer but i’m also ~cool, calm, and collected~ from the lunar capricorn thingie. i’m so 4D.

yes, honestly, lovegame such a smartie 😭🤧 she’s so kewl. and thank you 💀💀💀 you don’t have to sneak in a praise for me everytime JSHWJSHHSHSHWSH.

I ALSO THOUGHT IT WAS OBVIOUS FROM THAT TOO “iTs DefinIteLy NOT hyunjin 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️”—though i can excuse BS anon, because she knew right away that it was hyunjin, i just gaslit her into thinking otherwise bc haha 🙆‍♀️ got em. she was like “oOoh hyunjin” n i was like “ya sure?? 🤔🤔🤔”.

LMFAO. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT’S SCORPIO SEASON 😭😭😭 i just wanted to give off bad biddie vibes why would i want gifts, all ya’lls presence are presents on it’s own~ (jkjk) dw, i’ll remind you two months in advance if my bday’s coming HSHWJSHSHS i told ya’ll it’s coming up next year 💔💔💔

FELIX IS NOT REAL. he is indeed a mere ghostly apparition, everyone just has supernatural powers hence why they see him. the big reveal is that he’s actually candy and is like the supernatural force in Unfriended.

PP heart please 😭 someone requested a part two and i was like,,,, i’m sorry, i’m not doing one JSHWJSHSJSH. like i can’t even believe people READ it.