#i just want an ully sweater

[unch4rted-territ0ry]

Almost off school! Just a week and a half!

Then I'll be working maybe two days, so it means five days a week of roaming Tumblr and drawing/writing Swaymark things-

Me: (Ully walking) omw to my room to draw Swaymark fluff

[pastrnaks-sainz]

ok I’ll try 😭😭 this is really emo for some reason don’t come at me

sway: joined the military at 18. considered a “failure” in school because he never really did well, but both of his parents were very sick so most of his time was spent working and looking after them. His mom wanted him to serve the country, since everyone in his town did it. He didn’t want to disappoint her, so he enlisted at 18. He was a really good shot because he used to hunt a lot, and he eventually became a SEAL and went into special forces

ully: also joined very young, but it was to get away from his parents. He lied about his birth year and during boot camp he got found out. They were already watching him very closely and thought that he was above average, so they took a gamble and let him stay. The caveat was that he knew that he could be sent home by them at any time, so he had to do everything he was told; no questions asked. eventually he was pulled aside with some of his peers about joining a special team. The guy running it told everyone that it was gov’t approved (it wasn’t). The team’s job was to go around basically interrogating and k!lling “suspects”. Ully would later find out that these people just knew too much about the leader. He kept coming back to deploy until he met a girl in a bar. It was basically love at first sight, so he went out with her a couple of times. She said she’d wait for him while he was at war and he went off again. When he got to base, he told one of his buddies he wasn’t going to re enlist, and the word got spread until the SPECOP leader figured this out. He pulled ully to the side and basically said “you will return until you die. I cannot afford to lose you, you are my best soldier.” Atp ully had a fuckton of pent up rage from doing this guy’s bidding and snapped. He finished his service and vowed to never go back. He married the girl and they had kids together, but shortly after his son was born he fell into depression from PTSD; he was convinced he couldn’t raise a child because of all the killing he’d done, didn’t know how to be kind. To help, he started looking into the operation he was in, and his angel of a wife stuck by him the entire time. when his kid was around 1-2, one of his old friends from the unit came to his house. he told ully to stop looking into these things, that it wasn’t safe and his family was being watched. His wife suggested they move, so they did. Ully stopped looking, and focused on family. That is, until he got some random ass email. It was the straw that broke the camel’s back, and Ully told his wife he needed to go back. She told him to be safe, and off he went again. In his year at war, he gained no information except that the unit had disbanded when he started to look into them. Confused and homesick, he came back. He came back to a home torn apart. He came back to his wife, tied to a chair with a bullet wound in between her eyes. He came back to his son, with a tear stained face and empty eyes and a white sweater turned red. He mourned for months, and by rotting he became vengeful. He packed up his life and went on a killing spree basically. He hurt anyone who could be connected to his family’s murder; including many government officials and soldiers from his unit. Caught in the crossfire were two undercover Americans. Word got out that the Americans were killed, and that’s where Sway comes in. Sway’s team was given the job of finding this guy. Sway’s particular job had been watching Ully for a few years now. I don’t wanna write out how they met, but they did. It was on a mountain overlooking the home of a Swedish military contractor. Ully was basically about to put a shot through this dude’s skull but Sway stopped him. He tried to fight but it didn’t work. One of Sway’s teammates hit him with a syringe and he passed out.

There’s sosossososso much more that’s not the end at all but I have to go to practice 😜 also there are more storylines Swaymark are not the only ones lol

Hi yes I’m going to need 60k of this injected directly into my veins

[loveforpreserumsteve]

Those Who Fall: “APTF” Story (Modern Domestic Stucky AU)

Eighteen:

With the second load of laundry in the dryer and the third load in the washer, Steve got the Halloween decorations out of the attic. Sure, Bucky would probably be upset with him for going into the dusty area and for getting the large tubs down by himself. Especially since Bucky wasn't there in case of the asthma attack was too severe and Wanda hadn't been taught what to do in case of an emergency. But Steve wanted decorate. Plus, he felt like he was just waiting. Waiting for the kids to get out of school. Waiting for the older ones to come home from college. Waiting for the game tonight and pumpkin picking tomorrow.

And Steve hated waiting. Especially when he was excited.

So, Steve lugged the tubs downstairs to the main floor of the house. When he dragged the third one down the staircase, Wanda placed Holly in her play-pen and asked, "Would you like some help?"

"Thank you," Steve huffed, trying to catch his breath. "But I've got it." Resting once it was on the ground, Steve took his inhaler from his pocket -- see, Bucky, I do have some sense -- and took two large hits before looking over at Wanda with a smile, "You can help decorate, if you want."

"Sure," Wanda grinned. Pushing up the sleeves of her sweater up, she asked, "Where do you want me to start?"

"Well," Steve pushed his hair away from his face while he tucked the inhaler back into his pocket, and gestured over to the tubs, "You can get the pillows out."

"This is just pillows?" Wanda quirked a brow as she eyed the large plastic tub. Holding her bump, she leaned to the side and looked into the clear bottom.

"And blankets," Steve clarified, dragging the tub around, so it was out of the way. As he popped the lid off the one he carried down last, he told Wanda, "Just put them wherever you want."

Wanda nodded, grabbing a cream colored throw pillow with festive black and orange text as it proclaimed: Home Sweet HAUNTED Home. In her other hand, she grabbed an orange pillow with a black haunted house silhouette. As she leaned over the back of the gray sofa, she asked, "Is there a place for the regular pillows? Or do I leave them?"

Walking up the stairs, so he could weave the black garland with metallic pumpkins around the banister, Steve answered, "Put them in the tub, please."

"Got it," Wanda assured, turning back and getting more throw pillows. Typically, they liked to have five decorate pillows on the sofa. Even if they only ended up on the floor once the kids got comfortable.

Soon enough, the pair worked in comfortable silence with the only sound coming from the TV. Occasionally, the pair would pause to watch what was going on in the Halloween baking/pumpkin sculpting competition that neither put on but neither felt like changing the channel. Especially not when the final product was revealed.

"What are they thinking? Making it that big?" Steve asked, holding the white, black, and orange ornament wreath. Clearly distracted on his way to the front door.

"I think that's the point," Wanda distractedly answered. Just as into it as Steve while she clutched a ghost plush to her front.

Steve's brows furrowed and he commented, "Well, that's just a poor choice. They're going to waste all their time on the thing's body that they won't have time for anything else."

Wanda simply shrugged. As Steve walked over to the front door to hang the wreath, she said, "You know, I've never meant anyone who decorated this much for Halloween."

"I don't know very many either," Steve admitted, crossing to the tub and pulling out some more decorations. Juggling the small crocheted pumpkins, he started setting them up along the fireplace mantel in front of the wall-mounted TV. "Halloween has always been my favorite, but Bucky made it even more special."

"How'd he do that?" Wanda asked as she draped a purple, orange, and black crocheted afghan on the back of the gray couch.

A small smile tugged at Steve's mouth as he picked up the ceramic bird knick knacks, "He took me to a Halloween mixer and spent the night dancing with me. Back then, he was a bit of a womanizer and all these girls kept trying to get his attention, but he kept it on me."

"Was that your first date?" Wanda pulled out a large crochet pumpkin poof and set it on the floor next to the sofa.

"Not even close," Steve laughed. Wanda's brows furrowed, and he clarified, "For a while, I went along on double dates with him because he didn't know I was gay, and -- as it turned out -- Bucky was trying to figure out his own sexuality. I feel bad for all the girls who had to put up with us."

"So," Wanda ran her hands along the back to the sofa, "How did you get together?"

"Well," Steve started draping a purple garland with metallic black bats along the fireplace hooks.  " Once I finally did tell Bucky that I was gay, he didn't think I liked him that way since I hadn't made a move, and so he asked some friends to be our dates. Only, I didn't know that it wasn't a real double date. And a whole bunch of stuff went wrong because of my date, and it's just this big, long story."

Wanda nodded, smiling down at the colorful afghan, "Sounds like it."

Busying himself with putting the decorative table piece on the dining room table, Steve focused on the faux pumpkins and faux autumn foliage as he questioned, "What about you and Vis?"

"We met through Pietro," Wanda softly answered, "They were in juvie together."

Steve tried not to show his surprise, so he fixed the candles. Not knowing what to say, he lamely assumed, "So, they were friends."

"Yeah," Wanda sniffled. Steve's eyes instantly snapped to the teen to make sure that she was okay. Which she very evidently wasn't as she was sat on the couch, holding a metallic silver pillow in one hand and covering her mouth with the other as she silently sobbed.

Immediately, Steve crossed the room to her. Sitting down beside her, he guided her into him, allowing her to cry into him while he soothingly rubbed her back. Softly, Steve comforted, "Shh, it's okay. You're okay."

"I just miss him so much," Wanda sobbed.

"I know," Steve assured, smoothing her hair. And Steve did know. Maybe not what it was like to lose a sibling, but he knew what it was like to lose a loved one. He had been eleven when his dad, Joseph, passed, and there wasn't a day that went by where he didn't wish he was there. Especially once Steve became a father himself, he deeply mourned all over again because his own father wasn't there to guide him, and Steve knew that Joseph would've been one of the best grandfathers that anyone could ever ask for.

Steve could feel his t-shirt getting wet from her tears, but he didn't care. He kept his arms wrapped around her and let her cry. When she eventually calmed down, she pulled back and sheepishly tucked her hair behind her ear, "I'm sorry."

"Don't be," Steve sincerely replied, holding the tissue box out to her.

Gratefully, she took one and blew her nose. As she crumpled it in her hand, she said, "Vis isn't a bad guy. He's had a hard life, and... And he's trying to leave, ya know? Leave the Murder Bots, it's just... It's just that his brother..."

After taking in a shaking breath as the tears started up again, Wanda continued, "Ultron doesn't want Vis to leave. He thinks that I'm making him."

Steve's jaw clenched, "His brother did that to you. The bruises."

For a moment, Wanda just cried. She cautiously watched Steve and he reassured, "Sweetie, you can tell me. You don't have to ever hide anything from me or Bucky. We have your best interest in mind. We don't want you or the baby or Vis to get hurt."

"I just --" Wanda hiccupped. Taking in a few measured breaths while she rubbed at her abdomen, she said, "I just don't want Vis to go back to them, to him. He's trying, he really is. But… with his record, not many people want to hire him, and since Ully practically raised him…"

Giving her hand a squeeze, Steve promised, "I'll help however I can."

[classicnovaproductions]

Atomic Blonde (and why I’m a Sapphic who adored it)

Okay, first off…WOW! What a ride that film was! After having a full 24hrs  to really digest this film, I can honestly say that this film really blew my  expectations, in so many different ways. Since there seems to be so much  discourse over this film, I thought I would post a POSITIVE list of all the  reasons why this film is as important and special to me as it is, even with  That Scene. As Lorraine Broughton would say, “ Shall We?”

Okay first off, the obvious…

AESTHETIC MUCH!?

80′s soundtrack with phenomenal remixes.

NEON FOR DAYS!!

Charlize Theron, playing a truly Bad-Ass Bisexual MI6 Agent while still looking sexy as Hell!

The action was some of the best I have ever witnessed!

The general setting of this film, Communist Berlin, gives a remarkable window into just what the Cold War in its later stages entailed. The Cold War was perhaps one of the most deceitful wars in history, and when you figure in just how sensitive the situation was, you realize that Every. Move. Counts.

Lorraine Broughton

She owns my ass.

Again, we have an Openly-Bisexual Female Lead, who’s only main love interest is another woman!

Charlize Theron not only did 98% of all her own stunts, but she sustained injuries because of it.

I loved her characterization, it was one of the highlights of this film. We often forget that movies like this are hardly ever realistic, but in this film the opening scene is of Lorraine, MI6′s Top Agent, wearily trying to attend to her beaten body. She is barely alive, and as the film goes on we see just how much of a toll her physical and emotional well-being takes due to the nature of her job. As the film progresses we see her grow more cold and disconnected to the point where she is practically numb to those around her (her interrogation, mostly).

She wins all her fights, but not without repercussions. Her body takes. A. Beating. And unlike most films her wounds don’t just magically disappear or just “get better”. No, they are there for weeks, in all their ugliness, to display just how vulnerable as a person she is, whilst also reminding those who see her how tough and strong she has to be just to merely survive.

Lorraine and Delphine

Okay, first off…OMG THESE TWO!

Sofia Boutella was adorable as Delphine, and the way her innocence and naive-ness abolutely melted Lorraine was so cute!

The way Lorraine looked at Delphine with such intrigue, and the way Delphine looked at Lorraine with such awe.

The whole “Harold, they’re Lesbians”-like scenario with the dude at the bar (even tho Lorraine is Bi).

Again, we get another glimpse into Lorraine’s characterization here, which is basically she gets distracted by pretty girls we see that, even though Lorraine is still skeptical of Delphine at first, she very easily falls for her, a softness that we up until that point had yet to see in her.

Delphine’s slight hesitance when she gives Lorraine that adorably soft kiss and Lorraine’s shyness in returning it!

The way we see Lorraine follow Delphine into a more private place and being so dazed and transfixed by this tiny French Girl is mesmerizing and makes my heart skip a beat!

OMG their wicked make-out session and the slamming against the wall and the WHOLE SCENE THAT FOLLOWS I COULD NOT BREATH!

“…So you made contact with the French Operative?” “Obviously”

Lorraine in nothing but a sweater looking over Delphine as she sleeps-watching, wondering, worrying about what will happen to her.

THEY GOT TOGETHER MORE THAN ONCE!

AFTER-SEX SNUGGLES!

Honestly, them snuggling was one of the most tender moments in the whole film. For once it feels as though Lorraine is being genuine with Delphine, which she picks up on.

Lorraine stroking Delphine’s hair while Delphine nudges her head in Lorraine’s neck is so precious. The way Lorraine is so gentle with her and laughs and smiles at her makes my heart melt so much! She cares so much for this one woman she just met and it is so beautiful!

Tiny Soft Nose Kisses!

The fact their relationship, no matter how brief, is actually a small subplot means so much because it really feels like this was for us Sapphics, despite what happens later.

That Scene among other things

Oh boy, here we go. In my opinion, I did not see this as partaking in the horrid “Kill Your Gays” trope.

We saw it coming in the trailer you guys, and I was fully prepared for this scenario.

She was a naive, inexperienced spy who got too close to Lorraine, and suffered the ultimate price for it. This happened to all of Lorraine’s lovers (although I honestly think she was just using her first one for information, where as she truly cared for Delphine).

Delphine Fought. Back. Hard! And she did a damn good job at keeping up. But unfortunately she did not have the skill nor the experience to win that battle. She is not Lorraine, who barely came out the mission alive!

This is a spy film about the Cold War, there were going to be many, many casualties. Lorraine (Another Queer) was the only one to make it out alive.

When Lorraine found Delphine, I truly felt for her then. This is the first time we see her fully shut down as she Empathetically mourns her girlfriend (which we hardly get to see in general, the LGBT Hero mourning the death of their lover).

At this point, after all that she has gone through (the beatings, the betrayals, the loss of intelligence, etc) this is the one thing that finally breaks her, and LORRAINE. IS. FUCKING. DONE.

She is done with everything around her, and we see this as she goes from on-the-ground vulnerable to STONE. COLD. NOTHING. And she goes out for blood, and Damn-It does she get it! She shows no mercy for Delphine’s killer, and it is obvious that this is revenge in its most raw form.

In the end this is a story about a spy in the Cold War, and in a genre like this things are going to be very brutal. We see this brutality play out on Lorraine, and how it affects her and all of those involved. She made it out with her life, and that was her reward. 

So Delphine’s death, to me, was the final Plot Point to move us into the final act, as it was portrayed as the one act of Evil that Crossed That Line, and to further the Characterization of Lorraine.

I could go one about the phenomenal action sequences, because I have never witnessed such raw and realistic fighting in an action movie, and to have a Female Bisexual as the lead taking as much as she dishes out was both horrifying yet empowering!

Of course everyone is entitled to their opinion, and if you think this film will seriously trigger you, then by all means please take care of your well-being, because that is ultimately the most important thing.

Was I sad that Delphine died? Yes, of course! Did I see it as strictly because she was gay? No, I did not. Do I see this as good representation? Ultimately, yes because I still felt incredibly valid as a Bisexual in more ways than one with this film, and the last time I felt this good about myself was when I first saw Carol (2015) dir. Todd Haynes in theaters (which nothing will ever top that film).

But for everyone else, please GO SEE THIS FILM. For the one negative we must also see all it’s Astonishing Positives this film has, and for it to get the attention and praise that it has is such a big deal for all of us, because if we show our support for this truly Rare Gem then they will make a sequel, and other films like it! Only then can we move forward!

UPDATE: So I just saw Atomic Blonde today for the second time in one week, and upon my second viewing I’ve come to realize just how much I love this film, and why it beat out my expectations originally! And it mainly falls back to what I discussed earlier, about Lorraine and Delphine’s romance and Lorraine herself, for instance:

Again, I love Lorraine’s characterization! Being more aware of the story my second time-round, I got to focus more on Lorraine herself, and I think I underestimated just how cold and numb and positively DONE she is by the “end” of her mission (again, in reference to her interrogation).

The physical and emotional toll on her and her body really is just as prominent as I remember, and my goodness I cannot recall another film where I actually left the theatre physically exhausted by what I just watched. Everything she’s endured sort of rubs off on you, and if that isn’t the most engrossing experience a character can portray, than I do not know what is.

Delphine and Lorraine, my god I love their relationship! It is the only relationship in the whole film solely built on attraction and Mutual Trust, so much so where they would rather protect each other over their mission.

In fact, going in this movie the first time all I was expecting between them was the “One Night Stand” that was so heavily portrayed in the trailers-which I would of been happy with-and, (just like in the trailers) I prepared myself for Delphine’s demise soon after-But we had an entire subplot dedicated to their relationship, right up to the very end!

Because of this Lorraine’s and Delphine’s romance felt genuine, filled with love and tenderness and worry and drive to protect each other-and that really is beautiful representation.

Which, I believe, is why Lorraine truly shuts down when it all goes south, and why we see the Lorraine we do in her interrogation. SHE IS COLD. SHE IS BEATEN. AND SHE IS TIRED.

In the end, I do think she cared more for Delphine than past lovers, which is why she seems so utterly broken when we first see her. She went back to Delphine even after her superiors threatened to end her, and she lied about Delphine to protect her from them, even though she was gone.

Anyway, as you can see this film really did a number on me, and I am absolutely fine with that! I apologize for making my crazy long post even longer, but there were things I still wanted to get off my chest, because this really is a Dream Film-a Queer, Female Lead 80′s Spy Film actually exists, and I think Atomic Blonde really hit it out of the park-and has ruined all other action films for me here-on out!

[unch4rted-territ0ry]

Yikes

One of the things I hate about sports is that some jerseys are expensive

Meh, I'll be able to buy it next week 💅

I'm gonna be slaying that Ully sweater through the Irish summer baby