#i just want a fake dating jeno au oi

[moonlightjeno]

✒ 𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬

it's in small moments that you allow yourself to believe that maybe this whole charade is real. moments when he looks at you, eyes bright as he talks about how his day went and your heart swells that you think this fake relationship is real. it's in the way he holds your hands, playing with your fingers as you two watch avatar from the hundredth time, and fakebf!jeno recalls a certain line that gets your heart to swell. because it is in those instants that you forget the doodles on the pages, you forget the smudged ink on the month-old paper that sits by your desk collecting dust. you allow the tug at your heart. because when jeno smiles at you, when his face lights up at a joke he's said and you've laughed with him because you could never deny the way your heart flipped on over itself when you heard his laugh. you can't deny how he holds your world in his hands. how it's those doodles on that dammed sheet of notebook paper that started the dates. those hearts that climb around the edges of the paper, as they spiral in no sense no order a great metaphor for your heart, no direction just floating. hearts that jeno had seen, and in his attempt to get back at his ex had asked to take you out, an attempt he'd said to get his ex jealous.

what you don't know is that when jeno hears your laugh any plans leave his mind and you are the only thing he wants to hear. if he wasn't so scared to lose you, he'd let you know. let you know that there was never really an ex and he'd been pinning after you for long enough that his friends had threatened to expose it. so when he holds your hand, or when he kisses you like you are his only person. when he whispers how much he loves you and drags you on bike rides when the sun rises so that he can tell you that no matter how beautiful the sky looks. no matter that you will look at the sunrise, it's gold and purple paint spilling over the edges of the city and into the river. it will never hold the beauty that you do. he only wishes that he had the courage to tell you that those doodle hearts on the blank page should be filled with your name. and his heart belonged to you and you only.

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