#i just wanna make it clear that I don't tolerate people like that and anyone who thinks that way gets their ass blocked straight away

[grims-sunshine]

I'm not even gonna directly respond to the ask I just got and I just blocked the anon who sent it, but I just wanna say... If you'll come to my blog to spout exclusionary bs at me, you can shut up and just block me instead because aside from this post, I'm not even gonna react to it cuz none of you deserve the time of day.

Also if you think aroace people don't belong under the queer umbrella, you can honestly shut right up and I sincerely hope you step on the pointiest, most annoying legos every single day for the rest of your miserable life

[yumiis]

headcannons for getting drunk with tgc?

like how high their tolerance to alcohol is,

what they usually have,

and stuff similar?

ignore my 'ideas' if you dont wanna do them <3

🫧 anon

absolutely!! i love making hcs like this (i also won't be including larry bc he isn't of legal age to drink :P)

｡ﾟﾟ･｡･ﾟﾟ｡ ﾟ。 drunk ; tgc boys

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genre/type: fluff/humor, headcanons

read below!

ISAAC;

absolute unbeatable tolerance. insane tolerance. dude can take 6 shots of everclear and still walk a straight line.

you've only seen isaac blackout ONCE, and it was complete accident. you hadn't seen isaac drinking that much, but he was actually borderline drunk. he asked you in a pretty sober sounding voice, "how many drinks have i had? should i stop?" you say, "i've only seen you take like 2 shots. drink some more!"

horrible move. he blacked out and also woke up with the world's worst hangover.

ever since then though, his tolerance, like i said, is rock solid.

he likes the classic drinks, so i'd say he likes a good screwdriver.

super clingy and COCKY when he's drunk.

drowning you in kisses and hugs, and he goes, "babe, i'm soooo hot. i'm soooo hot and sexy.."

"sure you are."

your two options are to kill his ego or boost it, but it kills you too much to deflate his ego.

"how cocky was i last night?"

"yeah."

TANNER;

moderately normal tolerance, maybe a TINY bit lower than the average person in their mid-20's.

like, if we're measuring in shots of vodka again, like 4 1/2 shots he'd be gone. not black out gone, but "i'm gonna talk about every celebrity i could probably pull" gone.

he's such a YAPPER when he's drunk dude.

will probably do the trend of writing fake band names to try and make you laugh

he's dancing around to loud ass music in the kitchen, invites you to dance with him, he immediately starts shoving himself against you

he won't shut up about how much he loves you

he's definitely got his head in your lap and he's making you play with his hair and listen to him talk

however you have to stop him talking at a certain point, because he'll just start having a crisis and making himself sad.

he's never blacked out, but he has terrible hangovers.

favorite drink? he strikes me as a daiquiri kinda guy. he'd love them.

but if it's more casual drinking at home, he's happy with some soju.

NICK;

literally AVERAGE tolerance.

about 2-3 shots of vodka has him tipsy, 4-6 has him drunk, and don't give him more than 8, he might start drunkenly making an album.

he's not a clear liquor guy, he prefers browns like brandy or scotch.

there is almost ALWAYS a bottle of whiskey in the fridge for nick, he never runs out.

he drinks regularly, but he doesn't HEAVILY drink on those nights.

he's super sleepy when he's drunk. he could literally fall asleep anywhere if given the opportunity

he could be laying on the floor to "stretch his back" he's asleep 10 minutes later

you have to carry this dude to bed (and if you can't do it alone, isaac helps you)

like i said he prefers drinking brown liquors, so i think he'd maybe like a tequila sunrise or just straight whiskey

BLAKE;

"i have a ROCK SOLID tolerance!" dead in 3 shots. don't listen to him lie to you

every time you and the guys go out for dinner at like chilis or something, blake orders a margarita and everyone sighs in unison

the margarita gets him on the verge of drunk. just a little past tipsy.

he can HARDLY casually drink with anyone because his tolerance is just THAT bad

you constantly pick at him for it but he's just accepted it at this point

he's so SILLY when he's drunk man

cracking jokes that do NOT land at all and are not funny unless he's talking to a bunch of drunk people

"so the.. uh.. what? yeah.. uh.."

he suddenly forgets english

he can barely formulate a SINGLE sentence and he's basically speaking in mumbles

he's like speaking in fancy or speaking in riddles like a troll under the bridge or some shit

you have to baby him while he's drunk or he won't know what the hell is going on

i think he honestly.. just likes whatever he can get his hands on.

[jrwi-eldritchstrings-event]

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[frenchmina]

You were good

Hellooo ! I actually don't know if this will reach anyone but anyway, I just had to start somewhere. This is my first ever fanfic work, it's angsty af and not beta-ed, also, english is not my first langage. I've been reading a lot of Joel Miller fanfic recently and wanted to try my hand at it, I had not planned it to be this sad but I still wanted to post it. We'll see what happens !

Pairing : Jackson era Joel Miller x gender neutral!reader

WC : 1.4k

Warnings : angst, so much angst, allusion to mental instability.

Summary : You and Joel have a lot in common, which is what drew you to one another but also what dooms the relationship.

You see so much of yourself in him. The way he never truly meets someone’s eyes unless it’s with rage, the way he flexes his hand at his side to calm his heart. It actually helped you understand, to see someone walking around with the same weight on their shoulders. As much of an out-of-body experience as you would be able to get in this life, you thought. It helped you figure out where your anger laid.

It was right there, just below your ribcage, below your heart, this fire that felt like a stone. You didn’t even know how it got there or why. It was so clear for him, so understandable. Everyone knew why he was violent, everyone tolerated it. He could expose his rage to the world, but you couldn’t. Didn’t have a valid reason. Nothing had happened to you that was out of the ordinary. Sure, you had lost people, you had had to go through violent situations and had smelled your fair share of blood. But all in all, you were lucky. And so you dug a grave for your rage. You dug it in hard ground, so that no one would stumble upon it. Hands scorched, sweat following the path your tears had made down your face, mouth full of spit, your whole body working tirelessly towards burying that screaming and sickly monster that was your anger. No one would know, no one could know, how inherently angry and spiteful your were.

You had done a great job, although for everyone in Jackson, something about you was off. It didn’t disrupt your relationship with people, didn’t make you an outcast, you were even kind of useful to the community. But no one felt truly safe around you. The fear you felt when someone was getting closer did not help. The closer they were, the worst you would be able to hurt them. You didn’t know what would push you over the edge, and so to avoid the fall, you avoided the edge all together.

The moment you met him, him and his rage so openly walking beside each other, it was like the tiny monster you had buried suddenly appeared out of the corner of your eye, covered in mud and moss, whining to be let loose. And for the first time since you were 12, you actually looked at it. Watching Joel Miller was like watching a mirror in which that tiny monster held your hand, finally included.

As a moth to a flame, you had kept looking. And as you kept looking, you started to care for your monster, to allow it to exist. You watched its eyes so similar to yours, its teeth that could cut through metal, its annoying whimpers slowly turning into words. It had no reason to be here, to be alive, to be yours, but for the first time you stopped pretending it wasn’t there. It felt like nothing before. It felt like freedom.

You swallow back the lump in your throat as you come back to the present. You see so much of yourself in him, but you also see him, see the hand that sometimes caressed you cheek, which is now clenched on the table.

“Is there somethin’ you wanna say ?“ His voice isn’t harsh, as it sometimes is, it’s not cold either, but it doesn’t make it sound less like a goodbye.

“I don’t know.“ You avert your eyes and take a small sharp breath, you try to ignore the tiny monster crying at your side. It doesn’t have words anymore, it just screams at Joel like a child being abandoned. You think about what you truly want to say — there are a million things I still want to say to you, to discuss with you, I never want to not say something to you — but you swallow this clumsy attempt at tenderness. Instead you just look at him. His hazel eyes, the way his brows furrow under your gaze. And at first you don’t feel the tear escaping your eye. He sees it though, catches the reflection of the light on the tiny droplet of salted sadness.

“I…“ he starts, but his head falls, defeated. “I’m sorry.“

You can’t stop a small laugh from coming out of your mouth.

“You never promised me anything Joel. You never made me believe this —“ you gesture between him and you “— was anything other than what it started out to be. I was a commodity, I get that, I’m not mad —“ the monster beside you claws at you skin “— I’m not… I’m not…“

The words seem futile now. You just know he will never hold you again, never kiss the crown of your head again, you’ll never run your hand through his greying curls again, he’ll just go back to being a stranger. It’s not complicated, it’s easy, it’s clean, he’ll just go back to being what he was three months ago. That’s not that hard to do. 

You don’t manage to foul yourself. It hurts so much you want to run into a fire, to set all the rage free and destroy everything that is good around you. You start with him, with what felt like the only true connection in your life. You know if you destroy it, and all memory of it, the monster will be fed, it will take over and let you curl yourself in the grave in its place. It will allow you to rest while it gets both of you through life.

“I’m not surprised. It had to happen sooner or later. We’re too alike, you need… good. You need goodness in your life.“ There is so much irony in your voice, but you don’t mean too.

“Don’t talk like that, like you’re not good enough.“

“Clearly I’m not.“ He tries to answer but you cut him. “No ! No, you don’t get to say I’m great and it was simply never in the stars for us when in reality you just never planned on loving me.“

He’s silent for a while, and the admission is worse than anything. Good. Soon there will be nothing tender left for you to reminisce about.

“It’s my fault for depending on you so much, for allowing your presence to soothe me when you didn’t want to be that for me. I’ll get over it don’t worry, I won’t cause you any problem…“

“That ain’t what I’m concerned about, y’ know that I cared…“

You laugh.

“I know you liked it.“

He sighs, and you see the frustration creeping up in his eyes. Maybe if you push further he’ll say something that’ll finally break you completely.

“I know I’m what you needed at that time, that this helped you settle, helped you get your shit under control. I’m glad I could at least do that for you.“ You can’t contain the pained smirk that creeps on your face, you try to pass it as disdain for the whole situation. “… glad I could be of service.“

“Don’t you think you need good in your life too ?“

His eyes have softened, he knows this disdain is only aimed at yourself, he knows it because he’s felt it too. And yes, he hates to admit it, but being with you helped so much with that, you helped him realize he doesn’t want to be this way anymore. And you’re not there yet. He hates that he sees himself in you; a younger, less broken but more desperate version of himself. A version that wants the anger to get out, when he’s just now figuring out he wants to let go of his. He’s seen you become less quiet, more affirmed, he’s felt your monster taking its place at your side. He’s terrified of what he might have unleashed in you, of how similar to him this relationship has made you. 

You feel the frontier he just put up between both of you, how he looks at you not as he did, as an equal, but as if he knows better. You know now he doesn’t understand what he is to you. The realization sets in : what he was. And there, in the smallest of movement his face makes, you see it. Pity. Fucking pity. He looks at you like everyone else does, and you’ve never felt so alone. 

In a matter of seconds, he has gone back to being a stranger, and that pushes you over the edge. 

Your monster suddenly goes quiet. It doesn’t start breathing fire as you thought it would, it doesn’t spew out every hurtful thing that ever crossed you mind. It just stares at you from within. And when you speak, it’s its voice you hear, rough as it speaks for the first time, broke as it might be the last. 

“Joel, you were good.“

[vvintercearig]

yo it's me (again (jay)) back at it again with no self control and my dumbass son doyun! below are the usual links and info and feel free to continue to smash that mf like button for some plotting

STATS - MEMORIES - PLOTS - PINTEREST - PLAYLIST

𝒊. 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕 —

doyun popped up around ansong around 25 yrs ago (at least he lived thru the 90s lets gaur). he has no idea what's happening, he's just happy to be here.

he remembers a little about his life, but always drawn to music, beat street seemed like the easy answer when it came time to start working. for years, he was only working the register, stocking the shelves, before eventually working his way up the managerial ladder. he's owned beat street for around ~10 years now.

his first memory unlocked when he was attempting to tidy stuff up around his apartment and was just about to throw the band-aid away without realizing it's significance. it elicited feelings of aloneness and otherness, but also comfort and being loved and taken care of.

he can typically be found at beat street (obv, always working), mirage, the farmer's market, sweet bean, and illusion.

𝒊𝒊. 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 —

doyun is a little bit paris hilton-esque. he absolutely acts stupider than he truly is (for the plot) and so he can gauge people and how they are before he decides to let them in. he is also a tactical oversharer, so while a lot of people might know a lot about doyun, it's hard to pin down his core values and personality. he is very flippant about most things outwardly even if he cares deeply. doyun!! is!! a!! fuckboy!! but not in like the toxic sense (he drinks his respect women juice tyvm) he will flirt with anyone willing and able but he is very clear about drawing the no-relationship boundary from the start. he won't lead you on. despite all his flaws, doyun is highly compassionate. it takes him a while to warm up to people fully, but once he does, you're in his circle for life. he is not shy about his affection either, platonic or otherwise. he's clingy, he's needy, he will annoy you, and you need a high tolerance for bullshit and stupidity, but doyun will fight your bullies and kiss your booboos. about the only thing doyun excels at is his encyclopedic knowledge of 80s and 90s music and ball sports. do not ask him to cook, do not ask him to fix something around your house, do not ask him the time of day, he absolutely will fuck it up. he isn't book smart (at all, like did not even graduate high school), but he is incredibly emotionally intelligent. doyun can walk into any room and almost with 100% accuracy read the vibes. tl;dr: he's a big-headed moron with a big fat bleeding heart. he doesn't know a lot and won't try to solve ur problems, but he will throw hands for u and make you laugh when you wanna cry.

𝒊𝒊𝒊. 𝒑𝒍𝒐𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒆𝒔 —

to preface everything below, i'm v v big on chemistry first. i love plotting, but it doesn't necessarily work if our characters don't have chemistry to begin with. i tend to lead with quick and fast plotting to see what we can get our characters to do and then we can go into more detailed plotting after, but i'm always willing to discuss things regardless!!

regulars and employees at beat street!

people to teach him modern technology (with lots of patience pls he's stupid)

literally anything else honestly i'm down for a lot. he's really social and really easy to get along with.

[dangermousie]

would you happen to have thoughts about the acting/casting and/or depth of characterization in rise of ning? i'm watching it and wanna be more into it but fsr most of the cast (besides wanyi and the stepmom) are not very...charismatic? to me 😧 would love a convincing mousie blog on the topic if you have one up your sleeve!

I am a terrible person for this kind of question because (a) I tend to watch most shows for the mains and supportings are less important to me in general and (b) I am not really a person who wants to convince others to like what I like because all my liking means is I enjoy it; others may or may not - I am no arbiter.

This said, while the OTP are the shining stars of the show for me, I do find the rest of the characters interesting (even if a lot of them are not likable - I dare anyone to find Dad likable.) I think it's because they all feel like real people to me - in their good and their petty. Even minor characters like First Aunt - I knooow women like this. Or the Dad - too many men are like that. Or take oldest daughter of First Aunt - so many other narratives would make her evil or besotted stupidly to the end but she is not - she ends up doing the sane thing and moving on from her crush and repaying FL's favor; but they don't become BFFs, they basically a nicely tolerant, which is a realistic thing in families.

And it allows characters both greyness and consistency. Take Lady Qiao. Awful person but loving mother and you really understand how Dad and societal structures pushed her into what she is. Or, even better, grandma - she is very much a grande dame of society, I am sure she was a good wife, but it's clear she is part of all the generational trauma and dad got his tendency to favoritism from her. And I love that she's consistently so - no magic change of heart vis-a-vis ML. It's realistic.

As to non-Luos, the only ones we really see are Ci Sha's sinister sexy marquis and his nephew. I am interested in the former not just for the hotness (tho mmmm) but because I want to know what his deal is, and nephew is interesting enough for a minor character.

(I am leaving actors out of this write up because I think they all do fine jobs, but mainly because unless acting is truly bad, I care about the characters only.)

This said - this is (a) very much a costume take on slice of life or, perhaps better, a cdrama take on something like a Gaskell novel - I love that small but wonderful subgenre but depending on one's taste, it just might not be one's bag (no matter how well a proper harem drama is made, for example, I just don't like them) and (b) this is all my very subjective take - I am a big fan of "clicking." I believe things either click for us or don't, somewhere in the lizard brain; we can then write a long explanation as to why but it really is an attempt to explain after the fact. And this just might be a situation where those characters/narratives just don't click for you. I mean, plenty of people enjoyed Are You the One this year and I felt like it poisoned my puppy - not even 100 essays could ever make me like it because it's so subjective. I could very well go "I get why X likes it" but it would, alas, not make me like it any more than I do now. I am one of probably three people who dislike the main premise of Nirvana in Fire (could write essays on it!) and the fact that everyone else loves it has not changed my mind.

I can perhaps explain (badly) why I think the click happened for me here, but I have no eloquence to make that click happen for anyone else (if I did, mwhahahahahaha I would take over the world and adapt every good danmei out there :P)

[bosskie]

Bubble Bath

Yeah, continuing Molluck bathing theme... He is enjoying his time there. (Y)

Just needed to draw something to clear my mind but well, I have also wanted to draw something like this for a long time but nothing looked good enough... I struggled with this one too but it looks okay.

I'm still not feeling good and my mental health issues just make me feel sorry for posting content... I just recently had a desire to take my blog down, yet again... My mind makes me feel embarrassed of the quality of my works this badly... I only see all my mistakes I did in them... Well, at least I always find something to learn from. Oh, and I have fixed the retopology of my Molluck model's face, but there is still the rest of his head and torso to be fixed... It felt like doing an IQ puzzle but I'm glad that I could fix his face, and the rest is easier to fix.

I don't know how you feel when I post stuff, but I just cannot help it and feel sorry... I'm also sorry for feeling sorry because I wish that it wasn't like this... But I have just like never really liked my art... I just love to create but it's only about the process, the final product is another story. But I feel like I have improved a lot this year since this is like a first year for a long time when I really draw a lot and actually practice stuff. Last time I had such a year was like over a decade ago. It feels so odd, even impressive, to look at all my Molluck stuff from this year (so far), like how much I have actually done it... But I still feel like I have much to learn and my Mollucks need refining... But nothing is perfect and it's kinda the problem here...

But I'm still trying to go on and not to delete my blog just because of my mental health issues. I just don't know how to get rid of my self-hatred because I just hate myself for no real reason... My image of myself is just awful, despite of that it's only me and that I have been successful, been even rewarded for it multiple times... I still feel like I'm not enough and will never be... I'm so tired... I don't see the person the others see in me. I don't even understand what Molluck sees in me in my self-insert world, so I cannot even imagine that...

I'm sorry for my vent. It doesn't make me feel better but in a way that I don't feel so alone with this since I spend my days mainly all alone too, but this writing has also helped me to understand my condition better. Sometimes, I just feel sorry for even existing, but it's not as worse as it used to be years ago. I have felt sorry for even a bus driver for having to pick me up from a bus stop, me being the only person there... It took work to get rid of that but I still can feel sorry for people for even seeing me in the streets, so I often wear sunglasses even if it's not sunny, to kinda hide or just take my own space... I really don't know how to get better with this but I at least try to keep living since it's not unusual for me to think about ending it... I just cannot keep this all to myself anymore, but I don't wanna this all directly to anyone and I have no resources for proper/professional help... I also struggle with even feeling worth helping, so this is challenging... It feels like that the environment (outside my home) where I grew up left me shaped my mind quite much... I'm just so used to be different, an outsider, odd, unwanted... All just because I'm not like an average person in many ways... What a price for being different.

I'm grateful for your tolerance, that you ain't threwing any stones at me either, since well, I have experienced it too, but just little gravel stones thrown behind my back.

[heliacalxrising]

In light of things happening, I just want to make it clear that I do not tolerate minors anywhere near me, especially in the rpc. I'm turning 29 soon, I don't need some uppity teenager thinking they're above the fucking law.

Look, I get it, puberty is hell, and hormones are racing. Teenagers get horny just like adults -- most of them anyway -- but that doesn't justify putting innocent people in danger just because you wanna get your rocks off. I'm an actual fucking victim of CSA. COCSA if we're going to get really technical, and that shit fucks you up more than you ever realize if you've never suffered such a thing. And I pray to any god in the universe that you have not, it's horrendous.

If you are a minor, DO NOT TOUCH MY BLOG. Not only will I report and block you, but I'll warn my mutuals to report and block you too. This is your one and only warning. I try to be kind, but if you put me or anyone I care about in danger, that kindness is gonna turn into a frying pan smacking you in the skull, Rapunzel style.

[theshinazugawaslut]

i hope this isnt rude or anything but how come you get so much interaction? because compared to other blogs youre relatively small, not in a bad way just i dont think youre as popular as i wish you were. as someone who just started their account, your account grew so quickly... from what i can tell it feels like its because youre very welcoming but i wanna know your "recipe"

First of all, do not worry at all, this is not rude whatsoever!

Honestly, I'm very surprised that I became as popular as I did, and I'm genuinely so, so grateful. I don't have a 'recipe' per se but my Wattpad was nowhere near as successful as my ao3 and Tumblr! I'd say this is because of a multitude of reasons:

Like you said, I think you need to make your blog a nice place to be — I avoid hate, negative vibes, or just complaining overall since I believe it unintentionally puts an almost cynical, bleak cloud to be associated with you. I try my best to answer everyone's questions, write their requests though I do try to make sure it's clear that I won't tolerate disrespect to anyone on my blog. I also avoid drama since it irritates me and it feels immature.

Also, you need to be grateful for what you have, it'll help your mindset. A lot of people focus too much on 'reblogs, notes' which I do understand but I find that when you focus on it too much, there's actually a less likely chance of it meeting your high expectations which sets you up for sadness or disappointment. Though I do find that I personally get annoyed by blogs who constantly complain about low interaction but their blogs are either not the most inviting or they're getting so much interactions but still complain; I understand that it can be disheartening but it often makes the people who do interact upset as well.

This is the most important thing I will say: do it for fun. Don't, and I repeat, do not, pressure yourself to shovel out content and do not feel pressure. When I say I plan on writing everyone's requests, there is never any pressure on me since I don't let it, I take it in my own stride and do the best I can when I can. Don't burn yourself out. Take breaks. Reward yourself. Often, I've found that people immediately take pressure on themselves or make it a sin to take a break. For example, when I realised I needed to withdraw from writing for awhile to shift my focus and attentions elsewhere, I simply just did; I interacted as much as I could/wanted to but I never forced myself to sit down and just write when I'd rather do something else.

Now, for the actual content-aspect: keep it diverse! The things I write range from drabbles, one-shots, one-liners, long fics, multiple-chapter fics! If you have a wide array of things on your page, it keeps you active and it gains more followers! I'd also suggest making a masterlist/navigations page!

I hope this helps !!!

[hotchs-big-hands]

Just had the most infuriating debate abt abortions on my main blog (this is a side blog technically) and I just wanna make it very clear, even if I won't write abt it.

I am pro-choice. 100%. People should have the right to have an abortion for whatever reason, which is not anyone's business. I don't want ppl who disagree with what should be a literal human right for everyone everywhere, then I want you to fuck off. I don't tolerate that fucking bullshit of "but think of the fetus 🥺" no I won't think of the fetus. They mean nothing to me, but the person who's having to carry it? I care about them more and if they don't want to carry it then they should be allowed to get an abortion.

Ik this is like not at all related to this blog but I'm like rly angry lmfao. Some people are really genuinely fucked in the head if they think a bundle of cells should have more rights than an actual living person.

Anyway that's it. Abortions are healthcare.

[kawaiimunism]

@timberlakefan96 Making a new post because I want to continue this convo, but we're getting a bit off topic and I don't want to clog up OP's notes haha

“voting Democrat is not a meaningful path to liberation.” It is, tho. Not as a general rule, granted, but in this specific case, where your choices are to vote liberal or vote for people who want to kill you, yeah, the path is pretty clear. And I’m not saying Kamala IS the liberator, but it’s going to be awful hard to fight when we’re being exterminated. There’s actually a really clear analogue to this: Obama was extremely mealy-mouthed about gay marriage both before and during his presidency, but we still got it, in a way that we definitely wouldn’t have during a Romney administration. Obama never even had to be a staunch advocate for it either, he just had to be anything other than directly opposed, which is almost exactly where Kamala sits on trans rights today.

Gonna break this down into a numbered list again:

(1) I feel like you're still arguing as though my position is "don't vote" or "vote Republican" (lmao). I'm not sure how many different ways I can say "I'm not trying to convince you not to vote, I'm trying to convince you to engage in direct action and resistance regardless of whether you vote or not, and regardless of who wins the presidency."

(2) I think you and I have very different ideas about what it means for something to be a "path to liberation." If you want to vote Dem because you think resistance will be easier under them than the GOP, go for it. It seems like you basically agree with my take that "the Dems won't set us free, only we can do that," so that's cool. If you wanna vote for a more tolerable oppressor in the meantime, great, go for it, but don't pretend that's in and of itself liberatory.

(3) That said, I wouldn't count on resistance being easier under Dem governance than GOP governance. Look at Dems and the GOP in lockstep to crush the Stop Cop City movement. Look at how state+local Dem & GOP governments alike cracked down on the George Floyd uprising (Walz himself was among those who mobilized the national guard). Anyone trying to achieve their goals via state authority will necessarily have to violently maintain that authority, it's how states work. To reiterate: The path forward is direct action and resistance, no matter who wins.

(4) I wouldn't even count on more support for trans issues under Dem governance. Like, rewatch that interview segment. Harris, when asked directly, pointedly avoided saying whether the law should protect your or my healthcare. She straight-up called it a distraction. She and the rest of them only care about trans issues insomuch as it serves their campaign interests. Most of them don't give a shit whether we live or die, and those who do give a shit will eventually be forced to subordinate that shit-giving to the obligations of statecraft: Politicians who prioritize personal values over politicking don't stay politicians for long. To re-reiterate: The path forward is direct action and resistance, no matter who wins.

(5) Eh, maybe Obergefell would've turned out differently if Obama hadn't been elected to appoint Sotomayor, but I don't think that's a given. There's good reason to believe Souter wouldn't have retired under a Republican presidency. Minor point, though, compared to:

(6) legal marriage equality is not liberation this is literally one of the classic liberation-vs-assimilation disagreements c'mon dog you should know better than this https://convergencemag.com/articles/marriage-will-never-set-us-free/

Sorry these replies are getting so long, I genuinely hope you read them and respond. I'm genuinely interested in hearing your perspective, I just have a lot of disagreement with not only your points, but also the assumptions that underlie them 😅

[blonde-and-cat-suc]

I really wanna start an anti catradora blog since there are so few but idk where to start, can you please give me some tips?

Well! First of, I'm very excited that this side of fandom will be getting another participant, and second of all, I'm very flattered that this question is going to me! I'm always happy to give some support xoxo!

All of my tips are going to be from personal experience both from my time generally engaging with fandom, and running this particular blog.

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1 ) Try to be polite.

Yes, you will get people who disagree with you. The very existence of anti-fandom implies that we are not the norm. The majority of our main fandom already disagrees with us. And they might be assholes about it. Don't tolerate rudeness, but also, try not to feed into it, either. Not only is it terrible for mental health as the blogger, but it perpetuates this idea that the blogger in question reacts to negative attention. Which, if you've been on the Internet long enough, you know very well how quickly negativity breeds if it's allowed. Positivity breeds too, so I think it's in anyone's best interest to simply... Not be an asshole. Even if it means being the bigger person for a moment.

2 ) Pick and choose your battles.

"Battles" is a melodramatic way to put it, but I'm only using it because it's a well known saying. Anyway, this part is from the first part. So... the thing about being "the bigger person" is that... it doesn't always happen. I definitely don't let everything go by me without snapping at it sometimes. Well, I just think it's funny. I used to think it was way funnier in the past, too. Sometimes anon hate/fandom takes are really stupid and it's hilarious to share. But if it's not funny, insightful, or you simply don't want to engage... Don't engage.

3 ) Connect!

Anti-fandom is still fandom, and I personally treat it as such! There's still art to enjoy, stories to read, discussions to be shared. Community is not necessary, but when I was first putting out anti-c//a posts it really helped me to know that there were people that like, didn't think I was insane for pointing out things that bothered me! Especially since my choice in writing anti-c//a/crit fics is not an easy medium and well, to be honest, sort of requires that I know someone out there enjoys the fruit of my labor.

Yes, spop antis are limited, but go say 'hi' to the people that are open to engagement! We're mostly pretty friendly, and in my opinion, open-minded.

4 ) You are required to have an "on the nose" blog name.

NO, okay, I'm being totally facetious! Obviously, name the blog whatever you want, I just laugh when I see a new anti blog and it's something like "catra-needs-jail-time" or "catradora-is-dogshit". They're a handful of bloggers like that, if you want more to follow (the two I just named are jokes... As far as I know).

The real advice to be clear that your blog is anti-catradora/critical; or whatever other stances you'll talk about often. Nothing personal if that's not what you want, but make it easily found that you're not open to certain things, or you are open to certain things. I.e. I think that C//a are pretty obviously adopted sisters canon, and that point is very purposefully the first post on my blog (has been for two years), so no one is surprised when I start ranting about sister!c//a in particular.

5 ) It is never, EVER that deep.

Part of anti/crit blogging is that there's salt involved. Ranting, sharing things that frustrate us, being annoyed with canon... But also, it's really not that deep.

If I would have got this question two years before, I would have not added this part. But yeah, no. Part of why I run this blog still is because I know it's simply not that serious... People will steadily find my blog and the others in this community, and they will come around to their own conclusions on their own time. There is no trying to convince someone else on a POV that they simply don't want to see. There is no war against anti fandom and main fandom (though, some will have you believe otherwise).

The bloggers that are still active and open about unpopular opinions in 2023 are not people that stress themselves out or respond to every braindead take, they're not people who get attacked/overwhelmed by stans very often, they're not rude, they're not close-minded-- actually, I would go as far as to say that they're extremely fucking chill about this hobby. Passionate and dedicated, but self aware and self-respecting of mental capital/health.

And so, that'd have to be my last piece of advice.. Chill. It's just not that deep. And if it ever becomes "deep"... take a million steps back, and give yourself that space to recuperate. Your mental state is infinitely more important than an anti-blog, and no one will judge you for taking breaks or anything as you'll need them.

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[colorcodedbeanies]

S1E5-"Gray Matter"

"Why is he doing this? What is he, like, 8 years old?" will go down in history as the one time I was rooting for Walt and Skyler's marriage. If they could be bitchy about parties forever I would find a place for them in my heart. Also, a shorter one this time, mostly because a lot of the major themes are going to be coming up a lot more prominently in future episodes and I want to give myself some fresh things to say.

With both Walt and Jesse we get this theme of ego in relationship to class, work, and money. For Walt, this theme is obvious, turning down an unbelievable offer from the Schwartzes just to hold onto some idea of dignity. For Jesse, its smaller, and perhaps even a little more understandable. Admittedly the signspinning job is probably not optimal from a financial perspective. But finances aren't something Jesse cites. At a fundamental level he views the job as beneath him. I'd argue that for both of them this has a lot to do with their vision of what an adult man does. For Walt, a proper adult man doesn't rely on handouts to provide for himself and his family. For Jesse, a proper adult man works an adult job and makes adult money. Both of these characters are reaching desperately for an idea of respect that just isn't available to them.

Vince Gilligan described this episode as the point where the show finally clicked for him, because its the first time Walt is making a concrete choice about his life of crime that can't be argued to be circumstantially forced on him. For me, what's most interesting is how close he was to taking the offer. He hems and haws about personal issues but there seems to be sincere regret in his eyes. Until Elliot mentions health insurance and he realizes he knows about the cancer. This is part of a running theme in this episode: Walt cannot tolerate being thought of as sick. We'll get the tragic backstory reason for this later but I think it's worth noting: this is internalized ableism and it's going to be coming up a LOT in this episode

I wanna be careful here: Walt would be well within his rights to refuse treatment. At the end of the day, it's his own body. I have one relative who's been in treatment for cancer 8 times, and nearly all of them have involved some kind of chemo. It's a miserable process, and if it seems unlikely to extend your life it makes sense that you might not want to go forward. Marie brings up a worthwhile point here, some people don't want to spend their last days being picked at by doctors. I want to be as clear as possible I'm not casting moral judgement on anyone's decisions regarding their treatment and health.

HOWEVER. The objections that Walt raises have a lot of uh. Implications, for anyone dealing with any kind of chronic condition. He speaks with horror of becoming something artificially alive, despairs at the idea of needing to be cared for and cleaned up after. At the top of his concerns is being too sick to work, too sick to do the things he believes a husband and father should be able to. Junior and Hank both say the quiet part loud, Hank by positing that Walt wants to die "like a man" and Junior by rightfully pointing out that everything Walt's describing is his lived experience. It's a point I don't often see brought up. Walt's greatest fear is to live the way his son does. Honestly, one of the things that may have changed his mind is realizing Skyler would wind up needing to care for him anyways as his body deteriorates.

Speaking of Junior, the attempt at buying beer is interesting for this analysis for a couple of reasons. One, on any other night Hank might be the one doing the arresting. Junior explicitly only got off easy because he has a male authority figure to show up for him and talk him out of any trouble. Had he not been that lucky the implication is he would've had more serious consequences. Class, support, and (I'd argue) white privilege got him off that night with a warning

Two, this is tied back to when Hank and Marie thought he might be smoking pot. This time it's undeniable. Junior has been caught seeking out a substance, one that it is illegal for him to have and one with ties to addiction. However, where weed is cause for a scare tactic, Hank doesn't bat an eye at the attempt to get beer. He's more upset that by calling him and not Walt, Junior is subverting the traditional family hierarchy. No one feels the need to scare Junior straight about the dangers of alcoholism. In fact they bounce right back to discussing Walt's potential slip into the life of a junkie, Skyler recounting with horror "He said he liked it!" while DEA agent Hank giggles about how he didn't think he had it in him ("it" being a thing he has sent multiple people to prison for in his career)

Marie for all her problems is the funniest bitch alive

Jesse is making his attempts to grow up here, and when he tries to grow up he starts behaving more like Walt. I don't think I have to say anything else for that fact to be devastating.

[mushroom-creacher]

Ok so now that I'm back in my creative mood and also re-hyper fixated on Ghost the band, I thought I'd make some things known before I start putting some of my Ghost content on here because I've observed some things in this fandom that I just do not vibe with

First up, if the rest of my fuckin blog hasn't made this painfully clear I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY TRANSPHOBIA THIS INCLUDES THE INFANTILIZATION AND FETISHIZATION OF TRANS FOLK

I've seen some people pointing this out in the community I want to quash that shit right fuckin now. I won't put up that at fuckin all. Don't try me.

Second, none of that intrusive privacy-invading bullshit I've seen from twitter bitches. I am a firm believer in "if they say they wanna be anonymous let them be fucking anonymous."

I don't see a lot of this on Tumblr but I'd rather be safe than sorry. Don't be a dick and go harassing performers or ex-performers. there's a fucking reason they wanted to be anonymous and y'all need to respect that. We can't change who's already been unmasked but we gotta respect the privacy of any new Ghouls who come on board.

In general, my rule is, don't be a dickhead. I've been in quite a few fandoms that have gone to shit because of a toxic fanbase and I really don't wanna have to evacuate this one.

I don't say this to harsh the vibe, I'm just now trying to be more active in fandoms and I feel like for me to be able to do that I also have to immediately set boundaries so I don't have to interact with people who would discourage me from interacting with the fandom in general

And for anyone who is like me in these opinions, I hope you enjoy the shit I put out for this, I'm going to a Ritual soon and it's helping me get hyped for this fandom

Peace, Love, and Hail Satan I guess

[vsnotresponding]

1 for Ely! And anyone else you wanna talk about!

Also 14 I know you have aroace characters, but tell me more about how they perceive their aroaceness since it’s such a wide spectrum. Any character of your choosing for this one :)

questions from this pride ask game

hi lyn!!

1. What's your oc's gender identity? What's their relationship to their gender?

Ely uses they/them pronouns, but doesn't mind being addressed by male terms (they are called Death prince, for example) (in a modern au they'd use the non binary label). Their relationship with their gender is very tricky, and is part of the plot.

Since forever they've known they aren't a girl, or a boy, and were most content when addressed with gender-neutral terms like kid or child. being perceived as female made them extremely uncomfortable, which made them avoid contact with everyone if they could. in their head, they were always just Ely (i've made a note to only address them as such until they get to the point where they master Sorrow and truly become a *them*).

thing is, after they die, they both resent and try to forget the person they were. they hate that teen. they killed her. she can't be mourned because she was never there. but that's just not true (it's also the reason there's a plot lol). she might not be them, but she's a part of who they are.

everything's very gender with them, and mostly based on my own gender fuckery :]

14. Do you have ocs on the aro or ace spectrum?

oh boi do I:

ngl, i have a feeling all my pov and mc characters will have touches of the spectrum as i write them, , because i'm aroace and i *struggle* with writing these things.

there's tho, the Canon Ace/Aro ocs my beloveds

I Will Go In Depth About All Of Them. Because I Can

Púlsar:

Karma: demiace. very bad with touching other people in any way unless he really really trusts them (there's a bit of his autism in here too). struggles with aesthetic attraction (he really doesn't notice poor man). would like to be cuddled tho. is also very clueless about his identity. he knows he hasn't liked anyone like, ever, and it takes him literal years to realize he likes ira. so. again, poor man. i love him

Níniam: very ace. again, doesn't think much about these things so he's not very aware either (talking about an older Níniam btw)

Hamza: greyace, has only been attracted to The One Dude ever. again, very chill with it.

Bean: ace, but with a powerful aesthetic attraction. women pretty. (again talking about older Bean)

Ira: ace. is able to recognize when someone is aesthetically pretty but it doesn't do much for her. she's a very touchy person, but i don't think she'd be sex favorable. leaning towards neutral-negative, ngl.

she has a complicated relationship with love. she either hates you, dislikes you (most people), tolerates you, tolerates you but will call you friend because social conventions, or loves you. that's the only distinction she makes. she's aware she loves people in different ways, but they are unique for every person she does, so there's not like, a clear difference she can explain. i don't use the aro label for her, and i don't think she would either.

UP:

Hannah: aroace. incidentally, her colors are purple and green. yeah, she finds the people that approach her annoying and has no interest in romantic or sexual relationships. they are at peace with it, ngl. also she has enough with the messes lyric gets into and with patting akira on the back when lyric keeps not realizing his best friend is in love with him (she's very tired of the allos).

CV:

Médiel: aro. as a teen she realized she was never going to fall in love, and her immediate reaction was that it was another gadget in her arsenal to infiltrate la Corte. fake dating but the other party doesn't know it's fake. as for her sexuality, i'd say if you are hot she'd fuck you.

TFB:

Arion: aroace. also 7 years old in canon. but yeah, as a grown up he'd be that. he's also very autistic (i think his sexual identity is very tied to that, unlike with karma where i think it isn't as much).

Chimera: aro. no idea what his sexuality is ngl. he's just vibing, man, bringing his little brother into adventures with folk people in the forest.

[desudog-gone]

i kind of wanna talk about transid stuff too, but i'm not sure how to deal with like.. some of the moral debates surrounding some transid labels. i'm strongly of the opinion that transage and transspecies are harmless, but i don't want people assuming that because i use those labels, i must also support transrace or transautistic. i know i'll never be able to escape people's assumptions no matter what i do, so i should probably just shrug and do my thing anyways, it's just hard to get over that initial bump, you know? that initial "fuck it"

Under the cut as not to annoy ppl ^^

I think then it's just a matter of being clear all you're comfortable talking about.

Personally I define my connection to transid/transx "incongrence or dysphoria related to the identity in ways outside of gender."

I would urge you to at least not be hateful of people who use or support the labels transabled or transrace, and if you want I can talk to you more about those in dms/priv inbox, but of course, I cant make you accepting, I just ask you not be violently hateful of them.

I understand this though, I don't use the label radqueer because I have mixed feelings on labels outside direct identity like "transopinion"... because factors like opinion are entirely internal, and therefore cannot be incongruous to the external self but I suppose could be to the perception of oneself. Generally I come to terms with the fact I don't understand it, and these people aren't actually hurting anyone, but just because I don't interact with those labels or know how to feel about them doesn't mean a default of hate is the correct path

I don't assume you'll do that, I just want to make it clear that I don't really tolerate that kind of hate if you were to do that as many do - but more so to say I can make myself someone who you can ask about these topics with, because chances are, what you've been told about those 2 labels are not true / bad faith.

I would say just when you get someone talking about a part that makes you uncomfortable... you can just respond you aren't comfortable with that topic or confident in your knowledge of it, etc.