#i just spent £32 today and £12 two days ago 😭

[master-missysversion]

I really want to buy another doctor who book but I've decided to ban myself from making more online purchases this week

[spideesenses]

Half a Heart → Miguel O’Hara

pairing: miguel x gn!reader

warnings: angsty

prompt: miguel has a difficult time balancing out work and his personal life; you have received the short end of the stick countless of times.

Midnight rolled around & the empty spot next to you remains cold. Your heavy heart aches. You tried not to cry, but once that pinch in your chest comes to light, you can’t help the knot that gets stuck in your throat.

This was the 12th time this month that Miguel had left you hanging without any form of communication. 12th time the two of you had planned for a date & him not show up. You understood that he ran a business, you weren’t entirely sure what the business was, only that you would be safer if you didn’t know & to trust Miguel. Him not showing up was only a portion of the issue… the other part was him not communicating. Would you still be a little disappointed if he did communicate? Yes, of course, anyone would be if plans fell through last minute. But you wouldn’t have to hold onto this sliver of hope that just maybe… he’d make it this time.

You started thinking about how he hardly texted you as it was. You weren’t exactly the clingy type. You could be at times, but as a full-time worker, you understood that obligations come up. To make sure you weren’t crazy, you pulled out your phone. You scrolled, making note of the conversations that you had & all of them, were conversations that you initiated.

Two weeks ago

You — 6:56 AM good morning love, i hope you have a great day today. i miss you so much. i’m off at 5 today. any chance we can order takeout and have a movie night?💕

Miggy Smalls — 7:12 AM Buenos dias mi vida. I should be good for a date night, only I’ll be home at around 9 the latest. That okay with you? Be safe, i miss you xo💋

You — 7:15 AM sounds good. should i order from that thai place up the street?

You — 5:20 PM miguel?

You — 6:01 PM i ordered your favorite. should be here in 2 hours and a half. let me know when you’re on the way home. stay safe

You — 8:10 PM oh! i saw this and it reminded me of you. thought you might have a laugh [attachment]

You — 9:32 PM hey, you on the way? im throwing your food in the microwave so it’s warm when you get here!

You — 11:24 PM haven’t heard from you. hope you’re okay. food’s in the fridge🥺

Miggy Smalls — 2:12 AM Dios mios, lo siento baby. I’ll make it up to you, I promise

Two weeks ago

You — 9:44 AM hi! thinking of you. i miss you😭 little bit extra today.

Miggy Smalls - 10 AM Does my baby need a hug delivered? I’ll stop by with some lunch too.

You — 10:03 AM oh please! and a kiss too, while you’re at it🥺

Miggy Smalls — 11:45 AM Omw baby. Hang tight

You — 2:12 PM thank you for coming to see me today. it was very special to me & meant a lot. i love you

Miggy Smalls — 3:54 PM I love you baby. Of course. Sorry it’s been a while since we’ve spent time together, work can be unpredictable at times

You — 4 PM all good. just try to talk to me more, so i can be understanding, okay?

It wasn’t all bad. Miguel had his moments where he would show up for some cuddles. He wouldn’t stay long, but those moments were sacred to you. You cherished those moments beyond his imagination. Of course you did, you had to with how rare they were.

Tears rolled down your face as you went through your messages. You missed him so much. More than words could fathom. And with every single fiber in your body, you wished that you could stop feeling this feeling. Missing him was painful. It felt like your body was operating without its heart. Like you were walking around with only one shoe.

It wasn’t always like this either. In the beginning, Miguel was the one texting and calling you first. He was showing up to your apartment with food and a movie, or a puzzle he picked up. Actually, one of your first quarrels was how he felt like you weren’t doing these things for him. And you felt like these were things he enjoyed, so you didn’t want to take it from him; so the resolution was you would take turns. But that Miguel feels like he’s millions of miles away, as if he’s a completely different person.

You tried your hardest to distract yourself, but the screaming red light of your digital clock reading 12:56 PM only mocked you. You couldn’t get the time of his day. Could you even consider this a relationship?

The memories slowly peeled away in your head. Good and bad. And you really began questioning if the good really could outweigh the bad.

A shadow drifts across your window, causing you to sit up, immediately wiping your face with the sleeve of Miguel’s hoodie. If an intruder was going to get you, you’d be damned if it were booger-faced crying.

Immediately, your heart starts to pound in your chest; if the intruder didn’t know any better, it’d almost be as if you were knocking at the window. You reached for your bedside lamp, clutching it at the base, raising your arm as the shadowed figure presses their fingers to push up the window. Without hesitating, you swipe the lamp at the unnamed stranger.

“Ow! Babe?” you hadn’t even realized your eyes were closed shut and turned to the side. You peeked your eyes and there he was in all of his glory.

“M-Miguel?” you sniffled. You couldn’t help it. You saw him and your heart tore. The weld in your throat tightened as you swallowed.

“Baby, it’s okay. It’s just me.”

Only it wasn’t.

[kpop-and-otome]

I was tagged by @kihyuu Thank you for tagging me! This was so fun!

last

1.) Drink - Water

2.) Phone Call - my mom

3.) Text message - my niece because I took a video of my dog snoring this morning and sent it to her😂

4.) Song you listened to - Sober by Big Bang

5.) Time you cried - Maybe a week ago when I though I wasn’t going to be able to see Monsta X live even though I have tickets

6.) Dated someone twice? - No

7.) Kissed someone and regretted it - Never had my first kiss so no

8.) Been chested on - No

9.) Lost someone special - yeah a lot of people all my grandparents (besides one on my brothers dads side) one of my brothers and my father.

10.) Been depressed - yes but doesn’t everyone at least once

11.) Gotten drunk and thrown up - no

Fave colors

12.) Purple

13.) Peachy pink

14.) Yellow

In the last year have you…

15.) Made new friends - YESS!!

16.) Fallen our of love - nope

17.) Laughed until you cried - yes😂

18.) Found our someone was talking about you - yeppp

19.) Met someone who changed you - sure

20.) Found our who your friends are - Definitely

21.) Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - Nope

General

22.) How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - most of them

23.) Do you have any pets - yes

24.) Do you want to change your name - no thanks

25.) What did you do for your last birthday - got a cake and spent time with my family

26.) What time did you wake up today - 6am😭

27.) What were you doing at midnight last night - sleeping

28.) What is something you can’t wait for - me to stop being scared of driving and learning how so I can get my license, college, Monsta X concert

29.) What are you listening to right now - my brother play Fortnite

30.) Have you even talked to a person named Tom - I don’t think so

31.) Something that gets on your nerves - my anxiety

32.) Most visited website - Tumblr or google

33.) Hair color - dark brown

34.) Long or short hair - medium? More long

35.) Do you have a crush on some - nope

36.) What do you like about yourself - my eyes

37.) Want any piercings - too ear piercing

38.) Blood type - A+ I think

39.) Nicknames - George

40.) Relationship status - single of course

41.) Zodiac - pisces

42.) Pronouns - she/her

43.) Fave tv show - Supernatural

44.) Tattoos- no but I want a few

45.) Right or left handed - Right

46.) Ever has surgery - No

47.) Piercings - two in each ear and nose piercing

48.) Sport - nope

49.) Vacation - somewhere completely different than the USA, not picky

50.) Trainers - my Nike’s

51.) Favorite pair of shoes - my Nike’s

More general

52.) Eating - Chicken noodle soup

53.) Drinking - water😂

54.) I’m about to watch - Fast and Furious 4

55.) Waiting for - myself to stop being scared to drive

56.) Want - nothing atm

57.) Get married - I would like to one day once I’m out of college

58.) Career - I’m just about to start college so don’t have one yet

Which is better

59.) Hugs or kisses - depends

60.) Lips or eyes - both but more eyes

61.) Shorter or taller - Taller

62.) Older or younger - Older but I don’t mind younger

63.) nice arms or stomach - arms because I don’t care for abs

64.) Hookup or relationship - relationship

65.) Troublemaker or hesitate - hesitate

66.) Kissed a strange - no

67.) Drank hard liquor - no

68.) Lost glasses - not sure

69.) Turned someone down - don’t think so

70.) Sex on first date - no

71.) Broken someone’s heart - no

72.) Had your heart broken - no

73.) Been arrested - no

74.) Cried when someone died - yes multiple times

75.) Fallen for a friend - no

76.) Yourself - I try

77.) Miracles - yes

78.) Love at first sight - no

79.) Santa clause - no

80.) Kiss on a first date - depends if I like them or not

81.) Angels - yes

Other

82.) Best friends name - I have multiple so I couldn’t just choose one

83.) Eye color - Hazel/green

84.) Fave movie - My annoying brother (Do Kyungsoo drama)

85.) Fave Actor - Do Kyungsoo (EXO)

I know I’m supposed to tag people but I know that some people don’t like it so I’m not going to🙃 sorry