#i just need Apollo and Chiron sharing lil memories of baby Asclepious

[pain-is-too-tired]

the thing is with apollo is that it makes sense he never touches on his grief in depth or more than he has to. because if you noticed, apollo narrates in a way that actively tries to get the reader to dislike or be annoyed with him via setting himself up with over-the-top dramatics or somehow getting them to pin blame onto him. his actual pain and suffering are often put aside to push his “anti-apollo” agenda, and apollo often is nuanced in a way where his flaws are completely exposed. touching upon his children’s death puts apollo in a sympathetic light (because he literally lost his kids in a situation completely out of his hand, no amount of reaching will actually make him be the bad guy) and exposes too much of who he really is, and therefore does not work for apollo’s purpose of antagonizing himself. (plus other reasons i don’t readily prepared)

Fair enough. Still feels wierd that he doesn't even casually think of them in some way. Or that we don't even get vague hints of their previous existence at camp. Especially in the cabin. Even if we didn't get Apollo fully grieving them, seeing evidence of the other three having grieved would been interesting. Or just vague hints of it.

I do kinda like hc of when children of Apollo grieve hard enough Hythcinths or some other plant related to Apollo's own grief grew around them. Would've been cool if the Hythcinths they had in the windowsill were ones that grew around the cabin after BoM. Something like that.

Idk. Feels wierd that we didn't even get hardly anything about any other children of Apollo in Toa. Even if small.

Like-fun fact- Chiron raised Asclepious! Would been sweet if they had small lighthearted chat about Asclepious as a Lil kid. Especially when later on they mention the story of his mother. Just small things like that :3