#i just imagine her spinning as she dances to this song 🥲

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To Our Daughter

It’s been 3 years since we lost you, and not a day goes by that we don’t think of you…

Alexandria Rinella Varmitech

We know you’re safe, loved, and well cared for in the arms of those who have gone before you. You were taken so you would have the best life imaginable. A life you wouldn’t have had if you’d stayed with me, because if you had you wouldn’t have had the father you now have, and he and I love you so much. So do like grandpa’s been telling you and keep smiling, sing and dance with him and grandma, and all your aunts and uncles and great grandparents, enjoy the life you’ve been blessed with.

We’ll dance with you one day baby girl, until then keep dancing for us 💜.

See below cut for some context.

I had a dream about the baby I lost on November 4th, 2020 shortly before she should have been born in 2021. In the dream the baby was around 6 to 8 years old, the baby was a little girl…she was wearing a white dress and walking through a forest or field, I’m not sure which, it was just very green and there were flowers everywhere. In the dream, she had dark red, wavy hair, which genetically came from my grandmother…My dad’s got auburn hair, I have strawberry blonde, not unusual.

This is the hair color I dreamed she had, and this is sort of how I saw her in the dream: in shadows and light. Image Credit

What was unusual is that she had green eyes. Again, my dad, grandmother, and bio dad all had green eyes, but her eyes did not match their eye color, her eyes were dark green…she had Zach’s eyes, she was and is Zach’s daughter, she was and is my daughter, she was and is OUR DAUGHTER. I never wanted a girl before we lost her, but now I hope and pray that one day I’ll have a beautiful daughter just like her. I guess that’s why Zach and Violet had Varina…she’s my hope, and maybe I’ll get that in real life too 💜.

Not the best pics of Zach, but that’s about what her eye color was, if you can imagine a human version of that color.