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This. This is why mari-lair's "siffrin? more like sif is out" au hit me like a punch to the gut, the first time I saw one of their comics.
More recently, they've confirmed that their AU wouldn't include a one-to-one "Act 5" equivalent, but at the time I assumed it would, because the vast majority of AU's I've seen include some version of the Act 5 breakdown. I really liked seeing the little bits of silliness and angst we got from those comics, but every time I saw one, I couldn't shake the sense of awful dread I had, because I couldn't imagine a scenario where Siffrin walked away from that AU intact—even if he did end up physically safe, the sheer awfulness of having their friends allies party the others come up and "Act 5" him, one after the other... oof. It was too much to think about.
the hardest part of making any non-sif looper au is that you want there to be an act 5 bc its Awesome but like. if anyone from the party said smth even half as mean to non-looping sif as the shit they say to them in the game. like lbr hereZ. there's a 50/50 chance of them unlocking the dagger option au naturel no universe possession required
#funny enough‚ though‚ that sense of dread led to me rotating the situation in my head‚ over and over again#until I eventually came up with the rough idea for a reasonably optimistic oneshot that WOULD take place during that hypothetical Act 5#and yeah#it DOES involve Loop tracking him down and helping to set things straight!#which of course begs the question#of how Loop would possibly get to the point where they'd care enough about this other Sif that they'd WANT to do that#even though Sif wasn't the one looping#it's just an absolutely fascinating idea!#there would still be a LOT of complicated stuff going on between the two‚ but I do think it's possible! I have Thoughts! Maybe too many!!#The fic is very unlikely to ever get written because it's at the bottom of a VERY long list of things I'm trying to force myself to write#but the idea is there#siffrin? more like sif is out au#cake chats#isat fanfic prompt#isat siffrin
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Re the ask about whether pro-Catalan/independence supporters tend to be left-wing, weirdly I've had Spaniards try to convince me that pro-Catalanism/independence is a right-wing movement, but they've never been able to take that further than a bald assertion -- it sounds more like a thought-terminating cliché, and it doesn't square with anything I've seen as an outsider.
Depends on who you ask, Catalans are stereotyped in opposite ways. Speaking Catalan or having a Catalan accent makes us "villagers", "poor and uneducated", and "stupid farmers" until it's the left wing who wants to criticize us, then Catalan makes us "bourgeois" and "never worked a day in their life" and "Catalonia was a flat land with nothing until Spanish people arrived and worked to build it". Catalan is "basically dead", "nobody even speaks it anymore", "it's only spoken by elderly people in villages and everyone else hates it and hates to be associated with it" but when it's more convenient it's "all-powerful", "if you don't speak Catalan they mistreat you", "everyone speaks Catalan all the time just to exclude Spanish speakers". Catalan independence is a "radical anti-capitalist extremist movement full of terrorists" and often gets mixed with "anarchist terrorists" until the person who wants to criticize it would think that's cool, then it's a "right-wing movement based on greed". Everything always has two completely opposite stereotypes, which allows them to criticize without having to actually listen to our experiences or what we have to say, they can decide simply based on their prejudiced beliefs.
They right-wing stereotype is a newer one, it started gaining popularity about 15 years ago at most and lots of Spanish nationalists have been obsessed with it since, even going as far as trying to fund a right-wing Catalan independence movement into existence. It's very strange because it comes out of nowhere, they're just obsessed with wanting it to become true because that would make their argument easy. Catalan people have always (for centuries) been stereotyped as greedy merchants (think the Jewish stereotype, in Spain many of the "jokes" that in English are "a Jewish man does x" in Spanish they're exactly the same word by word but with a Catalan instead; in fact in the 1900s in Spain there was a significant movement of antisemitic Spanish "intellectuals" who argued that Catalan people are "racially Semites") and this stereotyped is deeply believed in by many people in Spain. Thus, it's very easy to wave off pro-independence concerns with "ah see but it's just that they're being greedy! The whole point of independence is that they're secretly rich and don't want to share!". This is an easy way to make Spanish people not need to listen and rethink their prejudices, because holding on to the prejudices is seen as somehow "sticking it to the power", and it breaks leftist solidarity.
An example of how this belief manifests is some of the tweets posted by the Spanish actress Karla Sofía Gascón (the main actress in Emilia Pérez movie):
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Translation from Spanish:
1. I'm following the NASA press conference. There's water in Mars. Wow! Luckily NASA aren't Catalans, they would have kept it to themselves.
2. They invited a Catalan pro-independence man to a wedding and he ended up eating alone in a corner, he couldn't stand seeing food be shared with all the guests.
She was literally tweeting about imagined hypothetical horrible Catalan people she imagined. These people aren't real, this didn't happen, she just wanted to talk shit of Catalan people based on stereotypes. (There's another tweet by her calling Catalan independentists Nazi rats and saying she hopes we all die or rot in prison, which is not directly the stereotype we're talking about here but it goes to show where these beliefs end up taking the person who has them).
These aren't unusual and the only reason I'm pulling them out as examples is because she's a famous person and I think it's a better example than random people, but this is a widely-held belief in Spain. It doesn't make sense to paint a whole culture like this, and if we were to look for any clues I think we would find all the opposite, solidarity has always been very important in Catalan culture (like in most cultures throughout history!).
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What bothers me about a lot of the takes I see comparing Veilguard to bg3, both in the vein of "Give DA to Larian" and "Larian could never because bg3 was just as flawed" is that both of these sentiments kinda miss the point.
Like, sure, bg3 is a very flawed game, most notably when it comes to the main story. Does that mean the writers at Larian are incapable of telling a better one? Of course not. To declare so would be a vast misunderstanding of how writing, art, or game development as a whole works.
And yes, let's say, hypothetically, miraculously, EA gave up the DA IP and Larian was the one that picked it up (there's quite frankly so little chance of this actually happening that this is purely the realm of thought experiment). Would Larian then create the perfect DA game, the one that we all envisioned while we waited for DA4? No. Larian is a different studio, with different writers who have different creative urges. Whatever they might have made would be as different from each previous DA game as each of them were from each other, at the very least.
But the key thing that I think people miss out on when comparing the two studios is this: Larian is a company that supports its developers, that invests proper time and resources in its writers, that doesn't lay off veterans at the drop of a hat, and that we haven't (as of yet, anyway) heard reports on about crunch, burnout, or mismanagement.
Would a hypothetical Larian DA game be perfect? Almost certainly not. Would it be better than Veilguard? Most likely, yes. Better working conditions with happier, healthier devs create better games, in the long run. And despite how flawed bg3 can be, there's a passion beneath it that is largely absent from Veilguard. Because you can't strip resources from your writers, change direction multiple times, fire all the studio veterans, and still expect a good game in the end.
#saw a take the other day along the lines of 'bg3 is all the flaws of vg but dressed up in better writing'#which made me ???? because yeah#putting better writing in your game makes for a better game#and writing is part of the design of the game. you can't separate that out from the rest of the experience#that's like... game design 101#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#datv#veilguard critical#bioware critical#bg3#larian studios#game development
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I think, no matter what happens, Bell's Hells being framed as villains is a little far fetched. In the total hypothetical tpk.
There are so many people to speak on the character of the group. Keyleth would not have anyone speaking ill of Orym. I don't think Zeru would let anyone say a bad word about either of his sons. Jiana might have had Ashton on a short leash but she trusted them enough not to disappoint her, to not lie to her. Ajit Dayal knows they were doing good. Caleb believed in Imogen, in Bell's Hells.
People in high places knew and loved Bell's Hells. Their names will be clear.
They probably won't be regarded as heros. They will have failed, after all. But they will not go the way of Vespin Chloras. He was alone in his ventures for godhood. Bell's Hells gathered trust and allies to be elected to face a god eater.
It's not their fault. They're just mortals caught in the fire of God's games.
#silver sending stones#cr spoilers#cr speculation#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#imogen temult#keyleth#idk i dont think anyone would let “bells hells bad' be the narrative#if they all just die then like why are they villains#the only ones who know they were undecided are dead. in the same boat. or understand the impossible decision.#so like#idk#i just have a lot of hypothetical thoughts#ashton greymoore#fearne calloway#chetney pock o'pea#cr laudna#braius doomseed
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No worries. I get that we're both writing essays while still having life responsibilities haha. I don't expect an immediate response.
I think everything you said about what you would have wanted makes a lot of sense and echoes many sentiments I've seen floating around online.
I enjoyed reading the hypotheticals presented. It's broad strokes but it makes it no less interesting and I think it points to just how at odds Viktor, Jayce, and Mel's storylines in season 2 felt with the momentum that season 1 built towards certain "inevitable" conflicts.
I actually think Ambessa is easier to tie into the conflict between Piltover and Zaun and Jinx and Caitlyn than the Viktor, Jayce, and Mel storylines. Jinx knows how to create hextech weapons and can be the key to what Ambessa wants, so in helping Caitlyn she helps herself. I was shocked that never became a plot point.
I would definitely have to think longer and harder to give my perspective on these what-ifs you presented, but you've given me a lot to think on and I find what you presented to be fascinating.
On a little side note: I will admit I'm a sucker for the Act 2 storyline between Jinx, Vi, and Vander-- like it's easily my favorite part of season 2-- because it's so intensely focused on what I love most about Arcane; The Vi and Jinx dynamic, the tragedy of their past, and how much "what could have been" hangs over them. It really takes a look at who they were before they lost their parents-- the core of their characters-- and how it informs who they are now. How trauma and hardship shaped the two of them and who they want to be vs who they were forced to become. It does a lot of heavy lifting to explore their characters and trauma in a quiet and subtle way that the rest of season 2 lacked, especially for Vi. So, I have a personal bias toward keeping it haha, but your presented structure makes sense.
I would definitely be up to beta read. I'll shoot you a message tomorrow about the possibility.
Back to Caitlyn again! (wow, we both have a lot to say about Caitlyn haha)
Yeah... there's a lot that just doesn't work with Caitlyn's arc. Again, it's a compelling arc on its face with a fantastic build-up (seriously the character writing for her in Act 1 might be the strongest in the season for me), but I think we both agree on where it fell short.
Now that you've mentioned Maddie I have a lot to say about her.
I definitely agree with the strange framing of their relationship. When I first saw Maddie with Caitlyn I had the same thought that you did about the nature of Caitlyn sleeping with a younger subordinate. That's something that I just knew wasn't actually going to be addressed due to time, but that actually brings me to a point about the relationship I learned later from interviews with Amanda Overton about why they chose to have Caitlyn have this relationship with Maddie: Caitlyn "dating" Maddie was supposed to be an extension of her desire to try and be the "perfect Kiramman heir" after her mother's death. Maddie is supposed to be the type of person her mother would have approved of her dating.
Again, this is an idea that on its face is very interesting. Caitlyn spent the entirety of season 1 chafing against her role in life. She didn't want to solely be the Kiramman heir and wanted to make a name for herself. It's part of what got her to fall for Vi. Vi treated her like any other person-- she didn't see her for her name-- and showed her a side of life everyone else protected her from. And Vi is the exact opposite type of person that Caitlyn would have likely been expected to date and eventually marry.
Now that her mother is gone she would embrace the Kiramman name and try to be the perfect heir she knows her mother wanted her to be, including dating someone closer to what her mother would have wanted.
I think this base idea could have been fascinating for act 2. Show Caitlyn trying to be a perfect leader, a perfect heir, a perfect daughter, while on the inside it's making her miserable. This isn't what she wants. It's not what makes her happy. That time with Vi did.
As an idea, this is incredibly interesting for Caitlyn's character and her relationship with Vi, but it absolutely does not come through in the finished product. Caitlyn's side of the story in Act 2 does not get across that this is what she's trying to do. It doesn't lead to a contrast between Maddie and Vi or some self-reflection on Caitlyn's part that would adequately convey this. That idea is clearly a victim of what was left on the cutting room floor and as a result it ended up being messy in its presentation and execution. (now was watching the reaction to Maddie's death at the LA premiere really fun despite this? Absolutely.)
I do think this idea is also muddled by the fact that she's a dictator, which is clearly not what her mother would have wanted if the "they deserve to breathe" line is anything to go by, and the fact that the relationship is (like you said) with her younger subordinate. It feels like they ultimately tried to stretch Cailtyn's story in too many directions for the time they allotted to it.
I wanted to note that I really like the suggestion you made about Vi playing a bigger role in Caitlyn's shift and having it happen over a prolonged period of time and I wholeheartedly agree with this idea.
I think that's what the confrontation between Vi and Caitlyn is supposed to be. Vi asks Caitlyn an armor-piercing question "Who decides who gets a second chance" and this forces Caitlyn to confront her actions and reevaluate how she's been seeing Jinx this whole time (an irredeemable monster). This is what's supposed to spur her change of heart and, at least in part, motivate her decision to let Vi free Jinx. Vi is meant to be a moral center, her good heart changing the people around her in Act 3, but it doesn't get the focus it needed for that to have the effect I think was intended. Again, it's a victim of time.
You definitely hit the nail on the head with your statements about Caitlyn’s arc and her relationship with Vi having an incredibly compelling backbone that was ultimately hampered by time constraints.
I think my issue with Vi not running after Jinx has more to do with the way it's framed. What she tells Caitlyn makes it sound like she believes that Jinx has gone back to her old ways and she was a fool to believe she'd changed and... I just don't get how she came to that conclusion after their interaction in the cell, especially when the end of that interaction is her asking Jinx what she's going to do (clearly concerned for Jinx) and Jinx responds "Break the cycle". I felt like there needed to be a scene or moment of Vi in the cell alone to get this change in perspective across to me. I can see what they were trying to do, I just think Vi was the biggest victim of the limited time in Act 3. I think the way you presented your point of view on the moment was what was intended, it just didn’t work for me and I acknowledge that’s a personal problem.
We both clearly had a lot of thoughts on season 2 that we needed to get out. I know this has helped me a lot. So many of these thoughts were stewing in my head with nowhere to go and getting them out has made it so I can focus on what I love about Arcane a lot more! So thanks for this! Hopefully, this was helpful for you too.
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I actually think this video is really interesting. Not because I fully agree with it (there are a lot of points in the video I don't agree with and a lot that I do), but because I appreciate its intent.
I also fall in the same boat where I really liked the second season, but I didn't love it like I did the first and I appreciate that this is a video that wants to start a conversation. He wants to talk about why things didn't necessarily work for him, why it didn't seem to have the same impact as the first, and about how he wants to hear why those things might have worked for others.
So much discourse about this season has framed it as either the best thing ever, above any criticism, or the worst thing ever with no redeeming qualities and it's made it very frustrating and demoralizing to try and talk about it online.
I want to talk about how I loved aspects of this show and that I was also let down by certain aspects of the show as well, but anytime I try and talk about criticism it's rarely met with a genuine conversation.
I would love to hear how people interpreted things differently from me, why they felt that way, how it connected with them, because I feel like that's the purpose of stories. It's never going to resonate with anyone the same way and there may have been things I missed.
I also know I haven't always worded what I've wanted to say and my criticisms the way I want to get across what I mean. It has never been my intent to sound like I wasn't open to discussion, different interpretations, or counterpoints. I would like to actually talk more about this season and hear other people's thoughts as well.
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I had another thought with that one megop sparkling idea I keep bringing up but never fully committing to because I can’t decide on any one idea and at this rate I think I’m just annoying people
But yeah, I had another thought, one that I just thought was funny. I want to draw it out, but I’m lazy and also I have a test tomorrow that I have to study for, so I’m not doing it now. But I’m also impatient, so I’m giving you the bullet points/written version. If I’m sensible, I’ll take this post down after I finish the actual thing so I’m not too repetitive
Anyways, so there’s the kid, who is the child of the two leaders of the Autobot and Decepticon factions, and thus, potentially, holds a lot of value as a hostage and bargaining chip. Granted, I don’t know how known they actually are, there might just be a rumor going around that the two leaders have a secret kid somewhere
But anyways, someone (I don’t know who) gets the idea to capitalize on this, and afterwards calls up Optimus and Megatron, who are up to their usual things, claiming they have taken their sparkling captive and want some demands or other if the two ever want to see them again
Now both of them are very confused by this turn of events. Optimus has no goddamn clue what this guy’s talking about, because he’s pretty sure he knows the two of them definitely don’t have a sparkling. Megatron meanwhile does know they definitely had a sparkling, but he’s cycling through his head the possibilities of if this guy’s telling the truth. Because he was pretty sure no one knew about them, how did this person find out? How many people know? Do they really have their sparkling or is it just a trap to kill them? Or is it some idiot claiming this status, while probably not being aware there is a genuine one out there? Or did they just pick up an innocent bot who just happens to kind of look like them? How close is his secret to getting out, especially to Optimus?
But yeah basically meanwhile, while Megatron is somewhat internally panicking and trying to assess the most likely severity of this situation, Optimus is just like, “…I have absolutely no clue what you’re talking about, Megatron and I don’t have a sparkling, isn’t that right Megatron?”, thinking Megatron is on the same page of this being absolutely absurd as him
But because Megatron is thinking and stopped paying much attention, he doesn’t answer at all. And the silence goes on long enough that it’s getting questionable, especially since Megatron isn’t jumping in to defend his own honor that he did not have a baby with his sworn enemy. His silence is starting to become an admission, and the possibility of this actually being legit is starting to freak Optimus out, because again, he doesn’t know about any of this
Okay explaining it out loud does not bring out the comedy the situation is supposed to have. Probably because there’s no visuals and my description of the narrative rather than just dialogue. So like, the comedy doesn’t happen like it’s supposed to, this isn’t the format for the joke. But the image is funny in my head, okay?
I’ll make the picture either tomorrow or Friday or something, since I have things to do tomorrow. I was just trying to explain it so that you could understand my vision before I can make it
#I don’t actually know if this kidnapper has the legit sparkling or not#because I don’t know how much I want this info to be actually known in this scenario#though it does work as a way to bring the character actually in to meet their parents#granted with this setup everyone knows from the start the whole situation#Megatron’s suffering is not being the only one who knows and unable to tell anyone#but rather that he kept this secret this whole time#which I mean would be true of the former scenario as well it’s just a lot later#the best threading of the needle is can think of is that the kidnapper was accidentally successful#like they heard the rumors or something and thought it was worth a shot picking up a bot who looks reasonable enough#to hypothetically be their sparkling#but somehow ended up picking up the actual real deal#and like before meeting them Megs had settled on the idea the hostage wasn’t their actual sparkling#because how likely is it that it’s the real one?#and he’s able to cover up in the moment saying that it’s probably just some bot who looks like them and is playing off rumors#but they still have to go along with this because that’s probably an innocent bot who just got dragged into this#only for Megatron to realize during the negotiations that oh crap that actually is the real one#and having to deal with this somehow#anyways yeah#more elaboration and repeating whenever I make the final#I should really do my homework and go study for my test tomorrow#transformers#megatron#optimus prime#megop#transformers sparklings#random stuff
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I have to say, I think I'm conceptually more into ganzelink than into ganlink or zelgan separately
#thoughts#ganlink#zelgan#ganzelink#at least I'm into the hypothetical version of that concept living nebulously in my heart#swinging hard between incredibly toxic and shockingly endearing#I had an exhausting day and I guess that somehow leads to incredibly rare shipping discourse#I can absolutely enjoy either configuration honestly#it's just that there are a lot of expected formulas around ganlink and zelgan (especially zelgan)#and I think I enjoy them best when they're handled as a unit of raving chaos following their own weird path#and it... I think it helps complexifying their relationships too#it makes sticking them into very clean shippy role a bit harder to do as well (as in: who has control and who is fragile etc)#(I do take recs if you have them btw)
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Question for no particular reason if someone, not me, hypothetically wrote a fix it fic where Izuku goes back in time to save a young Tenko, would you, the audience, prefer that to take place BEFORE Tenko kills his entire family with Decay or AFTER
#I actually am curious bc like. The fix it fics I have seen with this premise all take place AFTER Tenko kills his family#And I do feel like it would be more fun to write from that point forward#But if it were before. Tenko would still have his sister and his mom and his grandparents and his DOG. You know?#And the plot hole that comes to mind is why wouldn’t Izuku go back to before Tenko killed them all#If he has the ability to time travel anyway he’d want to save Tenko’s family too right?#But Izuku taking Tenko under his wing or placing Tenko in the care of another hero is also so good……#AGHHH. AGHFHDH. DECISIONS. I MEAN HYPOTHETICAL DECISIONS.#If it’s after Tenko uses Decay I could probably figure out some way to fill that plot hole. Maybe Izuku just couldn’t go that far back#If it’s before tho that would also be fun bc Kotaro would face repercussions too 😏#Thoughts for after the poll ends I suppose 🤔#BNHA#MHA#Anyway I’ve come to respect and appreciate Shiga as a character and a villain a lot more#But GODDD I wish he became a hero. I wish someone had saved him#Izuku would have. Hence the time travel. Lol#Shima speaks
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i get so shy to kind of. canonize the idea of appleshipping married because like "nooo what if red was too shy to propose to herrr he needs more tiiimeee" NOT THAT IM SAYING JAIDE CAN'T PROPOSE but... i like it when my faves do it. :]
#i only call him husband as if its an affectionate term but like... im still shy to canonize it KWWKLWKEJEJW its like dancing near the flame#thoo like. is it already settled if i already have fankid thoughts of them 🤔 the twins#hazel and cedar. the twins.#yeah....#like i think i only have 3 faves that has comfortably settled in a married status and has kids (hypothetically or not)#BUT I STILL JUST GET TOO UEUEU to boldly say yea jaide and red are. 💍 WJDHSKSKSK#to me they're so so committed to that long relationship. like they still have a lot of catching up together and feel that's more important#and they're both super duper committed to their roles as pkmn trainers :3#the married part will. take time for sure. :)#<- this happened because i was just cleaning up my fo list bruh#~ rambling
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Being an Alfonse enjoyer is SO fucking funny bc one minute you're thinking "Shit this guy can actually be scary if you fucking think about it like he's so fucked up actually" and the next he's. Being dragged along by his little sister and her antics AND he's being a good sport about it. Like he clearly doesn't want to be here but he's not gonna complain. He's going to put his heart into it actually. Because Sharena is putting her whole heart into it!!!! And well. There has to be two of them (retainers). Duh. Obviously.
#feh#alfonse really is just. one of the guys of all time. everything he does is so fucking funny to me#also like. there are so many little moments where i just. oughgh..... i just think. he loves sharena SO much.#just the way he plays along and looks out for her and keeps her close.#i have so many thoughts about that actually. how esp in battle she would always be just a few paces away.#and if you think about it. she's a lot safer knowing how to defend herself and fight than she would be locked away.#also she just. would never accept that. top ten worst things you could ever do to her. ect.#ALSO. HEY. UNRELATED. BUT LITERALLY A WHILE AGO I WAS WONDERING ABOUT RETAINERS#IN THE CONTEXT OF ASKR. AND NOW. IT'S. NOT JUST A HYPOTHETICAL???? like. are they gonna talk about that#how it seems like it's just always been alfonse sharena and anna. zach for a little bit. but mostly just the three.#unfortunately i haven't gotten too far in the fbs so. i'll have to wait and see. but i have QUESTIONS#fe alfonse#sharena
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I keep thinking about how on earth they would canonize ggy bc like. at this point if they have to sacrifice Gregory screentime of just him to make something we already know actually canon, I would rather just take the screentime, but on the other hand they have to canonize it if they want to do anything at all with that plotline, and that makes me wonder if theyll stick with it as canon in the games at all or just leave it as background knowledge if u read the book 😭
#like i love ggy just as much as the nezt person and go crazy at how canon it is but not yet#but also i like gregory a lot more and ggy isnt the only reason hes my favorite#gregory was my favorite for a whole year before ggy even came out#i want him as a person to be developed more than his ggy plot when we already know its real#but gregory himself desperately needs more time focused on his character to tell us more about him#maybe give some context to some of his decisions#best case scenario honestly is Gregory has a protagonist plotline where it showcases his character and relationships with others#as the game progresses naturally with dialogue and stuff (freddy and vanessa being his guides or something)#with the focus being saving cassie#but as the game reaches its climax gregory realises for some reason or another that apparently he was ggy and did all those things#and was the mimics fave#but its established he had amneisa before security breach so he didnt remember and still doesnt#he just knows he did it and has to deal#so it doesnt completely take over everything else about his character#and then whatever happens at the end of that game has cassie saved and joining 3 star#who GOT DEVELOPMENT in this hypothetical#like idk i want ggy to be canon but i dont want it to overtake gregory#yknow what i mean#it should be background to him not the other way around#vanessa and cassie already have that big main possession plotline#pandas.txt#tbh if they replace gregorys backstory with something equally interesting I'll be ok with no game ggy#we already have a whole book to mess around with i wouldn't mind it being a little au even tho i know it isnt#its VERY canon and ill 100% be alright and happy w game ggy#but im nervous for how they would establish it in a game if at all#with how much gregory needs screentime just as a character and if he'd need to wait even longer after a ggy reveal#thoughts#gregory
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just had the most mortifying phone call i've had in a long time jesus christ
#was just trying to find out if i could still use my new health insurance at my dr appointment next wednesday if i didn't have the card#but somehow managed to do it in thee most awkward tripping over my words not making sense way possible i feel bad#i'm not even that bothered by phone calls anymore i used to be a lot worse but the brain fog is unbelievable today#oh also i initially selected the option for billing dept because i was like oh insurance and billing like they go together right idk#but then the person cut me off to be like this is billing and you need to follow the prompts for the front desk and making appointments.....#which doesnt really make sense to me but whatever....then the front desk person was clearly fed up with me not having shit completely sorted#with my insurance lol#i've been trying and failing to make a fucking account with the insurance because for some reason the billing account is totally separate#from like the insurance account where you could hypothetically see your coverage details etc and when i tried before i put in the wrong zip#code and it told me it would send me a confirmation email and then two days later i got an email saying it was denied because the zip code#was wrong well it wasn't letting me change the zip code before (????) but now it did so i'm waiting on the confirmation email yet again#seems like the kind of thing that would be fairly immediate but of course this all has to be done in the worst and most evil way possible...#i don't even know if i'm putting together comprehensible sentences i havent had anything to eat all day and there is no glucose in my brain#for thoughts. and i DON'T want to make food but i also have no business getting takeout again. ugh#me
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got the posting anxiety bad tonight
#click clack#ok a peak into my thought process and anxiety here we go#ok so the art is almost done and up to standard I would post onto my art blog#BUT for some reason the thought of posting art of my ocs there scares me#because even tho it’s my art blog in my mind it’s the equivalent to a art gallery that demands being detached????? from the art#like once I share it there it’s no longer ‘mine’ but to the public#and my ocs (plus the stories that go with them) are like the closest to my heart and relinquishing them feels like a lot#a part of my imagination that I spent so much time with developing over the years to be placed up for judgement…#so then the solution could be to put it here on my personal! the online space cozy enough and filled with other posts that could easily bury#the original posts I put here#but there goes my other dilemma. i don’t want them too associated with my personal for if one day i do muster up something for publication#my big fear is that ppl will find this space and go thru everything. the fear of being perceived and judged 😵💫#all the hypotheticals and anxiety for something that may not even happen#dumb mind problems my head made up 🙄#anyway writing it out helped lol I’m posting it to my art blog I decided 👍#I have to work on getting that blog to be comfortable space to post… i should lower that silly self imposed standard I set for myself#and be whatever about ppl being aware of my online presences#maybe… [grinding my teeth] I should post my messy sketches onto my art blog…#I should take my friends suggestion and make a website to feature my ocs…🤔#idk my only other solution that doesn’t feel viable to mitigate the anxiety is to slowly introduce my ocs in the background of setting art#just a slow drip until they are in the forefront#bleghhh whatever much ado about nothing it’s like I never posted my ocs ever when I have indeed posted them before on both places ( º_º )#I’m realizing it happens too when I post too much fanart in a row… I have curator disease??? 🫨#or something I used to be very particular about what order I reblog stuff like it used to be by color and content balanced out#I still do to a lesser degree… but it used to be pretty bad#post order compulsion????#the fear of being abrupt and incohesive in between posts…#if you read this far thanks you can now see how much this consumes me 🙃
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no, you are right! karo for any slam in her long career. WTA BEIJING TITLE COMING SOON!!
i fear she will get her ass handed to her in the semis but i do like your attitude anon
#you are far more optimistic than me 😭#we’ll see…and then hypothetically playing coco or paula in the final…VILE#she is not making it out of this tournament alive#and i’m almost positive she’ll pull out of wuhan because she’s not seeded and won’t get a first round bye…#technically she’s supposed to play qualifying actually lmfao#though i believe iga pulling out means she might be getting the last main draw spot#but in truth i am fully satisfied objectively with what we’ve gotten from this season#rescued the rank so she should be able tk directly enter most tournaments next season at minimum#clearly proven she can still compete at a very high level…like of course i want more for her but i think when the seasons over#ill be able to sit back and really fully register how pleased i am with how its gone#anyways sorry this turned into a tag rant lmfao i just have a lot of thoughts about her
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my freak wife
#tide of consciousness#Being insane abt Entropy in particular is really funny bc if I ever made a story out of the characters here.#Entropy literally does not exist. The impetus of nearly every character I file under ash to dust dust to me#Is that Entropy Does Not exist#I'm obsessed with her she's the definition of haunting the narrative and no one who reads this hypothetical story would#Actually know or care about her. She's literally not even a character and yet I'm insane about her#oc: entropy.#I love getting attached to characters of mine that realistically are barely even characters to begin with#She's literally a side character and then any reality in which this side character exists gets erased#And then she goes on to metaphorically and literally destroy herself for a given definition of herself.#Mechanically she 'wasn't supposed' to be much of a character and is defined solely by what she lacks after the fact#And then she freaks out about that so hard she explodes into nonexistence.#SHE'S SO FUNNY. SHE'S BARELY A THING THAT EXISTS I LOVE HER.#Check out how hard I can apply meaning to and read into typical storytelling roles in a way that is very intense#For something that's not actually that deep or complicated I just have a lot of thoughts about the implied role and the requirements of#A story and how being 'a story' affects the different characters and fillers that are involved in selling a story#And how 'characters' as a concept are more tools to push the meaning rather than individuals#which isn't inherently bad or anything that's how you tell a story#I'm just. Way too abnormal about ideas of personhood and expectations and feeling out of place or fake#Smiling and grinning
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would it be crazy to say that i think playing a ttrpg type game based in the redactedverse would be like so much fun actually 🫣
don't ask me what system or how to adapt it to work because i don't have the technical brain for that, i just know that the worldbuilding and the magic system and everything is so interesting and well thought out and the idea of making and roleplaying ocs in this universe with other fans seems like it would be sooo much fun can you tell i'm having withdrawals from my dnd group not playing for months and so i'm projecting it onto my other interests 🫠
#argent rambles#redactedverse#redacted audio#i see a creative fantasy setting with lots of lore and i want to tell a story in it#collaborative storytelling in the way of ttrpg is just one of those ways i want to do it#but there are other ways too...#like hypothetically have i thought up an idea for a audio series playing an original speaker and their bespoke listener in the redactedverse#that would take place in a different cornerstone city so as not to crossover w the actual canon#but would use the worldbuilding and lore of the redactedverse? yeah hypothetically maybe i have#but lets be honest there are a myriad of things holding that idea back#highest on that list being how to make sure it wouldn't seem like stealing#like even making explicitly clear that it was fan content and not affiliated w actual canon#i would be terrified of overstepping boundaries#and also idk how to write a one sided audio roleplay script in the first place lol#all of this to say i love this fictional universe erik has created and it's inspired me with stories i'd love to tell in it as well
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