#i just felt like i needed to reply hagsjbd

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continued from this reply by @agedrot​

his attempts at politeness always backfired . he was either too gentle or too harsh with everything he touched . aro was no exception ; louis had been cordial when faced with the vampire’s aid in finding him shelter . he had always said his thank yous and pleases ... but , at the same time , he found within aro too many resemblances to a man ( a devil , an angel ) louis was currently trying to distance himself from . he wondered if it was obvious to his host ; the manner with which louis avoided familiarity, how short and painfully polite his answers usually were . even now , with their goodbyes , louis tried to be as quick as he could lest he get caught in aro’s gravitational pull .

when he leaned against the doorframe though, the younger vampire could not help but curl his lips ever so slightly, amused by the nonchalance of it all ... he was sure lestat and aro had enjoyed each other’s company . and for a short second louis wondered why he should deny himself of the same privilege   ── lestat never denied himself anything ; aro was handsome and willing and dangerous ...  the american clenched his jaw as if biting back something that threatened to escape from his lips and tilted his head to examine aro from head to toe . 

louis scoffed.

                “ you’re charming and direct   ──   and overly-familiar . would i like to see you again ? ”   he repeated with an arched eyebrow . and his head did nod approvingly at first . but when green eyes met bright crimson ones , something in louis’ expression changed . he saw memories of a man bathed in gold , eyes as bright as the sun , judging and furrowing his brow from across an empty room , holding hands , leaving , returning . louis felt an overwhelming happiness and a never-ending hurt similar to those that lestat had offered him .

he slowly shook his head while holding the older vampire’s gaze .  “  i don’t think it’d be good for me   ──    or for you . ”   louis finally said with an agency and harshness that made it seem as if he had just dodged making a deal with the devil . but he hadn’t . the devil which had caught him was still somewhere down in louisiana .  “ i was just trying to be polite . ”