#i just don't want to go rifle around for screenshots rn.

[arrvw]

closed for @vlaakithswill ; she has forgone her trance, at least for the moment. instead, she cleans her weapons. her eyes catch movement - lae'zel, apparently just as restless as she. nathbryn cocks her head and smirks up at her comrade. in a halfway convincing impression of the fighter ( impressions are neither nathbryn's strength, nor her weakness ; she can get the intonation right, at the very least ) she says: "you are wasting your resting time."

[pinkspiraling]

vent about sister A! cause things seem to be going downhill

well. welllllllll. sister A (i’ll start differentiating between my sisters again bc it’s confusing) called me today while i was at a friends house. first she called to tell me about a dream she had which was fine but annoying since she knew i was with a friend. thennn she called and left a VM that said “mom sent me money for food, should i use it to buy weed?” and i was like uhh no but also why tf are you asking me. when i’m at a friends house too. then i get a text of a screenshot of her placing her order at the dispensary. listen, i know i can’t judge and i’m not really judging about the weed. i’m more irked that she used my mothers money for FOOD on weed…like…dude cmon. i don’t think i’ve ever asked my parents for money unless it was an emergency or something i had to pay but couldn’t, like a textbook. this bitch asks my parents for money constantly and asks me to ask them for money for her. it’s so out of hand and she’s asking me for money too and she literally has a big girl job with a salary. like get a grip bro oh my fucking god. she is wrecking her relationships right now and thinking it’s fine and that we owe her this overly generous help. she also doesn’t smoke weed. like at all. it gives her panic attacks but she tried it with a friend the other day and was fine so ig she’s smoking now. she doesn’t even drink much. idk wtf is going on. also, as a guy who’s trying to get sober or at least mostly sober, this is a stressful ass thing for me to hear. this is the sister who has bribed me with alcohol knowing full well i have a serious problem with it. this is the bitch that gave me a full bottle of adderall when i asked for a couple pills. she knows i have substance abuse issues she just doesn’t give a fuck. bitch has rifled through her prescription pills offering me xanax and painkillers and shit bc i asked for advil. she’s so fucking toxic for me like she’s so bad for me and idfk i just don’t need her to be smoking around me when i’m trying to stop like this is one of those things that i’ll have to actively turn down and fight against her about and i don’t have the energy like fuck dude. she’s already texted me that she wants to smoke with me but i literally just told her yesterday that i have to quit to start meds. ik i seem to be overreacting but i know her and i know the way she encourages and uses my substance abuse against me and i think shes in a manic episode rn and im trying to get better, i just don't need her shit i have enough of my own