#i just cant be bothered anymkre

[squinko-moved]

[skeksis-fr]

Being a pushover really sucks cause the person can cuss you out and yell at you all they want and you just sit there and take it but they go back to acting nice and normal ten minutes later and it just leaves you wondering if you really did mess up or if you're just overreacting about everything and I hate it. I always just brush this shit off even though it really bothers me. I'm tired man

[nomoreough]

I havent been on this blog for genuinely so lomg but. Holy shit. I need to talk about this im just gonna pray nobody is gonna see

I feel like my best and favorite friend ... genhinely hates me sometimes? And also ehat i love the most bc.. i cant tell if there being joking about hating on it or not and its likw <\3 because i genuinrly love said shit so much??? I wish theyd just block the account i do said shit on bc i dont want them to hate me bc theyre very important to me after all weve been thru...

I dont want to bother them anymkre bc i bother them enogh alrready throughtout my entire friendship with them and theyre somehow stll .baring with mei dont know... they pronably sojnd mean by the looks of this text but they are very nice to me and i literally love them more than the world i wish i could jusr..read their mind so i knew what rhey were thinking bur i cant... i actually feel so. Ashamed to talk abour the mfs i like so much bc i really dont wanna bother tjem but hg.g.g...... i feel lile no matter what i wont be able to get how they actually feel om the freakers bc . They dont like talking abour rhwir feelings on thisngs very much and ugghhhhb.... i hate it.... and i feel like no matter what i am anjoying thrm eveb though they probably dint care and its just my brian... i shojld probably get into something they liek so i can talk about that with them insteaf hhh ... j hste itvgere....

[yungflaco989]

Fucking rant time

How the fuck can you be so fuckin cruel to someone who fuckin loves you. I'm doing everything fucking day in and day out to fight for someone who doesn't give a single fuck about me and I'm fuckigg tearing myself apart about it because I fucking love this person so fucking much with everything that I fucking have and nothing I'm fucking doing is working and I can't fucjing take it anymore. I tried to fucjing end this stupid fucking life before over her because I didn't want to fucking keep living this way and it's doing nothing but getting worse and worse and I fucking look like a complete lunatic because I don't wanna fucking let her go. I fucking love her so god damn much and I'd do fucking anything just to be with her again. Why the fuck am I stuck here suffering. Why the fuck am I watching the love of my fucking life be with someone else. my god damn soul mate. THE ONE PERSON WHO WAS PUT ON THIS EARTH FOR ME TO FIND DOESNT FUCKING WANT ME ANYMKRE! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THAT IS LIKE? MY FUCKING LOFE IS A GOD DAMN LOOP OF THIS PAIN AND BULLSHIT AND PANIC THAT I CONTINUE TO FEEL AND I CANT KEEP FUCKING DOING IT.

I LOVE YOU.

and I can't stop.

This isn't a poem.

This isn't any kind of writing.

I'm actually hurt over this and I really don't know what to do anymore. It's been so long and why I can't just let it go bothers the fuck out of me. I don't wanna keep feeling this way.

[wychive]

ignore this oomfs.

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thoughts pt1

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i dont know whats this but im guessing this is what i feel ig? because i seriously dont know what im feeling rn or this whole week honestly. i felt ive lied to myself about being fine all the time when im actually not and its fucking stressful. i hate how my life has become a lie. i hate how i cant trust anything or anyone. its become a habit that i know oftenly do and its annoying.

i hate how i have to reassure myself and force myself to hold my tears. istg i dont know. i really dont. this is a whole mess big fat sigh. seriously wiki how to cope with feelings ahhajajhshah

i dont even trust my best friends anymore, always overthinking about them especially one of them who always has a special place in my heart. second guessing everyone at this point. them,, idk. i dont know whats going on they seem bothered by something and im always thinking its me. because im ver very sure its me. i hate that i think this way but at the same time its the trutj. tjey say the opposite all the time but somehow i refuse to believe it.

love is complicated, hatred and mostly unreal. i honestly do believe in true love that happens every one trillion years but in this decade, true love is basically just soft boys and fuck boys getting out for your body and its disgusting. idk idk idk IDK. i dont know what to feel anymkre

theyre really everything ive ever wanted and i never want to leave them but god, it hurts me. i dont know why but it just does. somehow i cant believe them. but i want to i really want to. their words comfort me and let me be in a safe place where my head doesnt turn into a whole ass tornado of thoughts. they are the reason im here and i love them so much, yet i dont think they feel what i feel.

i dont know i dont know i dont know. i love you so much honestly but GOD it hurts me when you say those words. i dont know why. im sorry im becoming more bland and boring. uou should just leave me in the dust, forget me please. i beg of you. but keep me in a far away place, just in case you want to remember. i know youre probably reading this rn and i want you to know that youre legit the person i love the most in this world and i hope you get that happiness youve always wanted. i hope you live a happy life. leave me as im a burden thats holding you back from living that. please.

- ryan.