#i intended to just add a short paragraph of my thoughts but ended up yapping off the rails wow

[esnuppi]

i like this interpretation! before, i had the idea that anya was acting in a panic mode, partially kickstarted by the revelation of her pregnancy, partially from the birthday party incident a few days prior, finding out she would be coming back to earth with no job or savings— now feeling like she has nothing left to lose by taking action. another detail about the party scene i don’t see discussed: jimmy’s outburst at the table likely did not help her fears regarding how he might behave as time goes on (if he can lash out at their captain, in front of everyone, what could he do to her and get away with? like her, would he also have nothing to lose now? if so, what does that make him capable of?). so i think it could be both, she’s panicked and she’s trying to push curly to do something.

besides, it was only a matter of time before she starts to show as the pregnancy moves further along, might as well tell jimmy now on her own terms instead of waiting for the inevitable (something that i also feel ties into the themes for her as a character from how she takes her final action of locking herself in the medical room— choosing to end her life her way rather than wait for supplies to run out, or worse, for jimmy to make the choice for her)

more on the topic for why anya wouldn’t just wait a little bit longer for curly, because i find these details really compelling and i feel the urge to ramble:

when you think about the timeline of when anya was assaulted by jimmy in order for her to find out about the pregnancy herself in the week of the crash (assuming she just tracked missed periods since pregnancy tests on the ship are unlikely) it was probably between 1-2 months prior to the start of the games events. which means she was suffering alone for all that time, keeping the incident to herself (likely out of a combination of fear for jimmy further harming her, pony express retaliating against the entire crew, AND not knowing how curly, the person with the highest position of power, will even respond since jimmy is a longtime friend of his that he has so far been leaving unchecked. even if anya and curly had a good trusting relationship before this, it’s still a terrifying thing to talk about with anybody).

im sure a major factor in her unwillingness to continue waiting for curly to take action at the final day mark is because of this. for curly, he’s only had knowledge of what jimmy’s done to her for about a day. but for anya, its been months. months of feeling trapped, not knowing what will happen next, not once ever feeling safe, not having any assurance that help will come.

reading the final part of @mikoworks comic “always there” and it’s making me Realize things. i always wondered why anya decides to tell jimmy about the pregnancy. if she’s seen what kind of man he is, why would she ever put herself at risk by telling him?

it’s because curly is failing her. but she knows she can get his attention by setting jimmy off. to make him a “real” threat that even curly can’t ignore. anya wanted jimmy to lash out, or to at least get aggressive. then curly would actually have to do something about him. an immediate action instead of hesitating even longer. unfortunately none of them could’ve predicted how extreme jimmy’s reaction would be